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I'm currently beefing with my entire lab group, can't wait to rant at them tomorrow
#i maybe don't have many friends but those few people are quite amazing#they do not get to fucking come an hohr too early to uni just to listen what people are saying in private#and then turn it incredibly out of context to sound horrible and start talking shit#i am an incredibly quiet person in lab because i'm not friends with them and have 0 topics to talk about#and they have never seen me angry#i'll just be waiting for a chance tomorrow
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House M.D. but it's when Wilson says House's name
#house md#james wilson#prince's talk tag#finally!!! it's done! this and the house version took almost two weeks to do#first off thank you to the clinic-duty team on livejournal for making the transcripts for these episodes#because this video would be near impossible to make without their clear transcripts. I hope y'all are doing well#ive been reading a lot of fics with these two and i see how the authors have the characters refer to each other in their fics#and that got me wondering how much do they say each other's name in the show and how do they refer to each other#since this is the wilson video ill put his stats here#s1 was 11 times s2 was 18 s3 was 45 s4 was 32 s5 was 41 s6 was 60 s7 was 47 and s8 was 48#in total he says his name 302 times. Mostly refers to him just by House#the only time I've heard him say his first name its when he's being professional or when he's really angry (and that one time he proposed)#and even then it's always the full name not just the first name#the only instance I've seen him use just his first name was on that note he put on House's xmas gift that we see in season 5#and as much as I wanted to put that moment in here he never actually says the contents of the note out loud so i had to leave it out#but what surprised me was he says House's name more than House says his name#especially when the earlier seasons didn't have him say his name as much
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taash said "they were doing it" and people ran with the interpretation of an npc that doesn't know solas or the history of the elvhenan even when bellara interjected and said, no, that's not right. that's not how it was for the elvhenan. they formed bonds before they had physical bodies. and people ran to doompost or create weird anti-solavellan shit even though mythal & solas refer to each other as old friends and when she releases him there is no tenderness or love in it. it is the act of unchaining a dog from his post, the stepping down of a general. but to each their own ig.
#let the record show i think love was there. do I personally perceive it as romantic / sexual? no.#mythal's perception of love & care is warped in and of itself#i think they loved each other. but she loved what she could take from him and what he could give in terms of service#not because she was romantically into him#also i wish we knew more about her & elgar'nan. her regret prison form says she holds no love for him anymore#and it makes me wonder when that love soured. was it when she was blighted? before that? was that love also born of duty and companionship?#this is the last post i'm gonna make ab this i think#bc i believe people are too caught up in the modern western ideas of love as thing we give solely to our romantic partners#and we literally have a character go ”our perception is warped bc of the age we live in” and some of you are still being purposefully obtuse#and i think trick saying it's up to interpretation is basically admitting EA had them dumb down the game anyway#if everything ab the rise and fall of the evanuris in game#was condensed to five 2min cutscenes it says enough that whatever the writers wanted#was swiftly cut down by corporate dept. basically saying it's in the fans' court now#also bc it's an easy cop out around new players & non solasmancers who are indifferent ab him / dislike him#as a way to appeal thru a more sympathetic lense of look!! he loved and was led astray#not to mention the clear justinia / leliana parallels#and leliana gets angry if you imply she was romantically involved / in love w justinia#and the romance descr when you remake your inq saying the dread wolf could not predict what it would mean to fall IN LOVE#implying he had never fallen in love before or at the very least experienced a romantic love#also him saying drinking from the well would make you a slave and he gets really upset#yet ive seen takes of ”hes doing this for her cus he dgaf ab lavellan” ?? he got mythal killed when he told her ab the blight#whatever feelings of admiration he had for her have rotted. he is literally burdened by his mistakes and his choice in joining her#i feel like if i were a spirit bound and twisted into a weapon i would need my creator to tell me i am Free. i would need that closure#like when cole says its not abuse to bind him if he asks and solas said thats not always true???#if you perceive her interaction w him in vg third act as#anything more than the way justinia released leliana in inq then im sorry maybe youre just obtuse#solavellan#mythal#dragon age meta
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Something about Dumbledore being so hard on Snape
Dumbledore being scornful of Snape even when Snape was on his knees
Dumbledore emphasising that Snape made a mistake and must pay for it
Dumbledore who kept reminding Snape of his mistake even when he was grieving Lily
Dumbledore who didn't just let Snape change sides, he needed Snape to change his heart
Dumbledore who made the same mistakes as Snape and has been living in guilt ever since
Dumbledore who realised Snape was following in his footsteps
Dumbledore who may have started out thinking of Snape as cowardly or selfish but soon grew to trust him
Dumbledore who gave Snape half truths because if worst came to worst then Voldemort would have all the information right on his arm
Dumbledore who trusted Snape enough to not lie to him about the fact that he wasn't telling him everything even though he knew Snape resented it
Dumbledore who trusted Snape so much he knew that even if Snape resented him he would not betray him
Dumbledore who left everything he worked for in Snape's hands knowing it would be safe
Dumbledore who asked Snape to be the one to kill him, not just to save Draco's soul but for his own sake
Dumbledore who chose to die but only at the hands of someone he had grown to love
Dumbledore who once saw Snape as a desperate selfish boy that disgusted him
Dumbledore who made Snape his heir
Dumbledore who made Snape his.
#these two just make me so incredibly feral#while snape was a mirror of tom and harry he was also a mirror of dumbledore#not just a mirror but an echo#a following#he followed dumbledore's footsteps#and dumbledore must have seen this. seen snape and seen himself#dumbledore never quite forgave himself for his mistakes and thats probably why he was so harsh on snape#because he was angry at himself and that anger passed down to the one who followed his footsteps#the one who inherited everything from him#the two are literally father and son like their story is woven like that of a father and son#from snape following dumbledores footsteps in going to the dark and accidentally indirectly killing the one he loved#to his returning home like an estranged son begging his father for help#to their dynamic of a stern father and a son who has too much expected of him yet rises to meet that expectation#severus snape#albus dumbledore#pro snape#pro albus dumbledore#also that line “snape was Dumbledore's”#do you understand how much that makes me feral?#he was Dumbledore's. just that. Dumbledore's.#he wasn't his son as such but more than just his spy teacher even more than his friend#and the way harry was Dumbledore's man so fiercely loyal and trusting and how he saw dumbledore as his protector and father figure#and how Dumbledore loved him despite trying hard not to#that line “snape was Dumbledore's” echos harry and Dumbledore's dynamic#Snape was Dumbledore's. what exactly was he of Dumbledore's doesnt matter because you cant define it#just that he was Dumbledore's
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Angst time :D👍
You can read my rambling about her in the tags
#listen LisTEN TO Me#hear me OuT#oh is hc time#I read a while ago howw empathetic people tend to feel bad when they feel any angry/“negative emoy#el archivo literalmrnte lo tengo giardafo como “problemas emocionales goes brrrr” xD#how they tend to bottle everything up cause it makes thrm feel shame about how their actions might be seen as “selfish”#despite having VERY good and VALID reasons to justify thrir anger#based on the pilot I think she's pretty meek and also a little bit of a pushover#also I was thinking she'll be pretty self consious and try to mask her emotions the best she can#which obviously is super unhealthy#I think that at some point she's just going to SNAP and is gonna be awful and soo sad and omg I cant wait to see it#give my girl some character development pls#cause as much as I like crybabies characters I also like for thrm to learn how to stand up for themselves#anyway sory if that didnt made sense xDd is just that I have never had so much fun with a fictional character#mi hija fr#el archivo literalmente lo tengo guardado vomo “problemas emocionales goes brrr” xD#ya ahora si los tags serios#tadc fanart#the amazing digital circus#tadc#tadc gangle#gangle
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Passing as a trans man is a nuanced and complex topic, but one thing I have been noticing as somebody who is a cis-passing (white) trans man is the way I'm treated when there is conflict.
I've noticed that in conflict, people are almost meek around me, willing for me to try working with them up until a woman is involved. When a woman (or, really, anybody who the other party assumes is one) is part of the conflict, they direct all their anger and rage to them. It's fucking insane the way a woman is treated when there is conflict, even if it isn't her fucking fault. These people are fundamental cowards for seeing my manhood as the only reason they can't be openly hostile to me, but it reveals a lot about how a misogynist thinks on an almost primal level.
I'm watching the women and people around me I care about being torn apart by people, and that's unacceptable. I can't sit around to watch it, and I don't want to do that. I need other people to perhaps read this and remember to not stand by if there is something that you can tangibly do to help, even if it's to lend a listening ear or let the person vent.
#feminism#misogyny#misogyny tw#before writing this i was worried about my blood pressure because i'm fucking angry#i hate the way cowards will look at me and see a man and be scared of me until they see a woman they feel strong enough to abuse#and i have faced my own experiences with misogyny and abuse now that i have transitioned and am recognized as male...#...like i had NEVER been catcalled until i medically transitioned. and now that i'm much more male i have been catcalled MULTIPLE times...#...which is why this topic is nuanced and complex and i hate this idea that we can bulldoze it down flat to 'make it make sense'#i want to always believe in people but i'm not a fool. i am not willing to stand around and just pretend like this shit doesn't happen#i WATCH this shit happen. i WITNESS it and HEAR it and i try to find some way to help the woman and/or person in question#and i know there's this aspect of white privilege in this where my white manhood is seen as a lesser threat#i can absolutely imaging a Black or otherwise MoC trans person not being given this level of grace from the get-go#i'm angry right now and i hope that my words are making sense. i want to address as much as possible but i'm sure you understand
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George Floyd should be here today, alive and well and celebrating the first Memorial Day that feels normal after the pandemic.
Minneapolis shouldn’t be (still) traumatized to this day after watching a murder in cold blood.
But Derek Chauvin should still be in jail for being a shit pig.
Rest in peace, George. The world needs to do better, still.
#these are pictures from June 2020 when I volunteered at the square#Minneapolis is still traumatized and it makes the whole pandemic feel… small and all the more chaotic#but damn I’ve never seen the full video nor will I ever#goddamn it makes me angry#george floyd#black lives matter#blm#ACAB#all cops are bastards#working at a place that serves the underserved community really shows me how much needs to be done so black and brown bodies aren’t seen as#a threat for just living their lives#we can do better#we HAVE to
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this sucks bc I actually like and agree with what they were saying about making the protagonists a group of misfits representing different kinds of minectafters and people experiencing the game for the first time (or maybe not in Henry's case) bc community is a core part of minecraft. like I really dont even dislike this idea of real people being put into minecraft at all, it's just the visuals.
literally if this movie was animated it would be good. the visuals + real people in greenscreen land with all cinematography thrown out the window + strange realism in the world for no reason even tho if they were put into the game it should look like the game ruins it for me. if they went with the kind of style of the villager news they JUST showed or the trailer animation style for minecraft updates it could have been actually good. I want to see those people turn into minecraft skins and walk around the world not be in real life but blocks
#i feel like the movie actually is beinf held back by the trailer like i feel like it isnt actually#fully representative of the movie#but the directors tweet about 'not making the 10 year olds angry' like#he was spouting lies in that live he doesnt understand at all#'we chose live action because it was something nobody had seen before'#and it was also never any of the players first picks when dreaming of a minecraft movie ever#pandas.txt#also i kinda dislike how heavily its based off of minecraft dungeons#like instead of just. coming up with a new interesting creative way of turning vanilla minectaft#into a movie story#they just picked one that was already laid out for them#like it actually sucks bc hearing them talk about the movie & hear about the characterz#and see some sneak peeks of scenes#it actually makes me think i could like it#but once again the visuals and jist#blatant lack of understanding or care from the director is too much#overshadowing anything good about it#the visuals are so tragic tho like genuinely#it should have just looked like vanilla in game minecraft but with shaders#minecraft
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#i dont really like getting mopey on this account but things have . sucked ass for a really long time#and its really getting to me that my situation is just inescapable and intolerable#my arm might be broken and it doesn't even change anything except that ive seen the cats even less because ive been barricading my door#i hate asking for help knowing im still stuck here#that the support people give can only go to buying me time rsther than an actual solution dusgusts me. i feel horrific over it#ive never completed anything. i just take and take snd take and im so tired of it.#im too much and i get that. i really do. i just don't have anything else left but that#its going to be six years of denial soon. i want to grieve. i want to be allowed to grieve#but i can't express anything in this house except silence. i cant be angry or its wrong. i cant be happy or im being manipulative.#i cant talk or im selfish and intrusive. and im tired.#i just need a hug man. and affordable rent.#sorry for all of that. just struggling to be normal#patch me through to palaven command
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#I’m only very rarely inclined to get this intimate w my thoughts so I might as well say it NOW butttt I will never not see the dead children#In everything I do#Like legit#I’ve read up on Hind so extensively and seen so many photos of her#And I have a very healthy relationship w the popular Palestinian journalists so she’s not my blorbo or anything#But hearing that memo destroyed me bc bisan is only 23 and she seemed so vivacious#Idk like I do normal people things I can’t just pause on my life#But idk how it feels like to sit at a boba place and enjoy my pearl milk tea w my friends#While the horrors over there don’t just lurk the back of my mind. I do normal things and I’m guilty for having the luxury#And as an Iraqi girl I’m living in the literal ideal timeline#Where my mom decided to immigrate to the us and that’s why I’m here living a normal life like everyone else#It’s like in a different world if I were born in a different time it could’ve so easily been me. I’m one of the Lucky Ones idk#It’s not survivor’s guilt bc it’s not like I had to survive anything like I never had the chance to live in Iraq or anything#But like. If some things had fallen just a little differently#And I keep thinking about how I’d feel if it were happening to Iraq and people behaved the way they’re doing to Palestinians#I’d be so mad#And some people on here are dealing w assholes while bursting at the seams w grief#For losing their loved ones#This is why I’m so fucking angry at anyone who’s complicit#This was a major tangent but basically I feel weird about doing normal things now while simultaneously knowing I can’t just sit and wallow#And watch life pass by as if it’ll do anything#Misery is not a home but I’m struggling to be 100% normal#And I think that this tonal dissonance is reflecting on my blog too bc I can’t go back to just#Posting about all the other normal things I used to. Like I want to but sometimes I feel off.#Is this anything. I haven’t slept all night#I can’t just allow myself to lose interest in everything I used to like and be and just fade away but maybe it’s about accepting that this#Will also always be a part of me now. It’s that awareness that shadows everything I do#or maybe I need a therapist it’s a toss up#I’ll probably feel better once I get my day started but this was cathartic to voice I think#p
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Okay, I’ve been emboldened by your recent assertion that you don’t bite and differences in opinions are okay. I also have a genuine question for you. Mine is re: Roy and Jason. It is my understanding that pre new 52 Roy fell in love with and made a baby with a literal assassin. I’ve seen so many references from Roy fans that given Roy’s pre new 52 characterization, he could/would never become friends with Red Hood Jason. I am unable to square the circle of that reasoning in my mind, given his history with Jade/Chesire. If you were interested on espousing on this topic, I would love to hear your thoughts.
Roy and Jade's relationship never lasted in the end (despite how desperately they've loved each other) because she would not give up that life and he could not compromise on someone that close to him killing. Roy is more than willing of working with and even understanding people who use lethal force (I think I've mentioned a few times that him teaming up with Jason temporarily would work for that reason), but he can't be heavily involved with that person long term, in any way. He's an incredibly flexible character when it comes to the types of people he can get along with, and he has more love and understanding in his heart than most. But Roy draws a line for himself. He couldn't even stay in the outsiders long term because he belongs where the traditional heroes are. You can see where the difficulty is in trying to make Jason and Roy best friends, or even in carrying out a team-up as long term as RHATO.
Separate from the morality conflict, Roy also has a specific dynamic with many people younger than him that I think we forget to take into account. His interactions with people noticeably younger than him (while he was in his mid-late 20s) generally seem to follow him trying to be a leader and guiding figure, with the younger person learning from him. His friendships with those people is rarely ever the same as the friendship he has with people his own age. Jason's ~7 years younger than Roy, and is around 19-21 in the years after UTRH. That would make 26-28. Roy's experienced fatherhood at this point, he had relationships and ups and downs and established a place for himself in the hero community. Jason is a teenager who's really only just now realizing there's a life ahead of him. Any dynamic they have will need to take all of that into account. This is a huge part of why they don't work as each other's best friends.
I know you didn't ask for that last bit, but I was thinking about it a while ago and I don't think we talk about it enough. It's just as much of an issue with Roy and Jason being best friends, or anything along that line, as morality is.
If you see more aggressive assertions about how Roy would hate Jason, then that's probably frustration more than anything. Roy's entire character has been replaced by for the sake of Jason and Roy's RHATO dynamic. It's not surprising that anger makes people exaggerate or believe that because they're so personally sick of seeing it. I understand that and honestly, if Roy was my favourite character, I'd never want to hear about Jason near him either lol
#or maybe the whole mia fiasco in seeing red because it would make sense for roy to be angry at someone messing with his little sister's head#(but roy is a pretty sympathetic person and jason didn't actually want to hurt her so he still wouldn't hate him imo)#they could have a friendship and bond (esp bc roy met jason when jason was a kid! he's seen how jason's changed and roy would understand#that jason's been through a lot) but it can never be the type of friendship roy has for ex the fab five#and sidenote: i should word things nicer. im so sorry if 17 yr old me was a little bit evil#turtle mail#jason todd#roy harper
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you know what's so disappointing? the way people keep saying 'don't be afraid to portray mental illness and disability in media!! in your art and writing!!! normalise it and don't shun it!!!' and then the MOMENT you bring up a symptom that's too messy and uncomfortable to handle, they take a fuckin u-turn and go "UM no that's bad. like. you're a bad person if you do that. that's weird and it makes me uncomfortable so it's wrong."
here's the thing!!!!!!! it's not convenient!!!!! it's not simple!!!! i can't be honest and keep writing about how depression paints your whole world blue and all that shit!!!!!! because guess what!!!! depression and disabilities and borderline personality disorder and SO many other things are just. not neat and clean or easily consumable. they WILL make you uncomfortable and sad. they WILL make you feel bad. honesty is not easy. it's not meant to be.
and dehumanisation of sociopaths and psychopaths is genuinely distressing. not all of them!!! are!!!! bad people!!! it's a medical condition!!!! a mental illness!!! a person's illness doesn't make them bad. their actions and the decisions they take decide that and I am SO sick and tired of people watering down every complex human trait and toxic behaviour as good and bad and right and wrong. don't you see!!! some things are simply just. human. that's all. people fuck up. badly, sometimes. but that doesn't mean they are not people. I'm not saying you should forgive everyone and become a full time saint. you are entitled to your anger. i'm just asking you: don't take away a person's right to err and still be considered human. not all actions fall in the neat divisions of right and wrong. some things just are. grow some balls if you want to see true suffering in media. because it is Not easy or pretty. not even close. you will be conflicted and uncomfortable and troubled. make peace with that fact.
#PLEASE do not come at me with arguments regarding UHHHH BUT MURDERERS ABUSERS AND MOLESTERS ARE BAD PEOPLE#yes. yes they are.#i never said they weren't. read the post#i said actions define a person's morality#but they are not ALWAYS simply right and wrong#meaning right and wrong does exist but it doesn't have to be a thing all the time#grey area exists too#and so does good and bad#it's a complex thing#i've been thinking about my own intrusive thoughts and how i can maybe incorporate that in my writing#but i found myself backtracking and being like wait. what if people think i'm a bad person for this#then i got SO angry#I'M ALWAYS WALKING AROUND IN EGGSHELLS#like. how much is too much#how much violence can be romanticized and sexualized and not seen as it is????#when will my work stop being poetic and raw and vulnerable and turn into something you consider wrong?#it's a ticking time bomb#and i hate that#vi talks#and in this case. talks a Lot
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From the gifs on my dash it looks like this weekends spn convention was just a huge love fest and that warms the cockles of my heart
(Especially since my heart has been so cold and angry and sad lately)
#cockles#destiel#spn#when did jackles become so mushy?#i love it though#never would have seen the day where spn content was comforting me#because neil gaiman content makes me feel bitter and angry#oh how the turn tables#sigh
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Omg I love them so much. They're so down to earth and joyful. And sincere and real.
#also i have to say that i genuinely love kamala harris's laugh. it's so warm and authentic and joful.#i mean even if she DID have a weird laugh it wouldn't matter or affect her ability to be president#and it would be weird (and tbh pretty bigoted) for the GOP to fixate on something like that when they never would if she were a man#but that's not even the case. like i genuinely think she has one of the warmest nicest laughs of any politician I've seen.#like it makes ME smile it's so infectious#i think the GOP just can't handle a woman being happy - or people being happy in general. look at their angry threatening joyless rallies#Harris 2024#Tim Walz#harris walz 2024#Kamala Harris#political#politics#usa politics#us politics#usa election#random musings
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serious philosophical question; should one of us kick the bucket?
small comic page thingy for the INSANE fic that is zelotypia by @terrence-silver - i definitely recommend giving it a read! so much interesting perspective on that ponytail-kreese-twig trio goodness; and terry’s inner workings and detestment for everyone that john loves more than him!
#cobra kai#terry silver#john kreese#cobra husbands#ponytail#doodles#cw blood#lovely lovely fic. one of those fics where you HAVE to read aloud to process it halfway thru because it’s soo deliciously twisted#i found myself giggling at moments bc in essence he really is just an angry teenage girl undergoing the crazy DO I WANT HIM…#…OR DO I WANT TO BE HIM dilemma while he scribbles in his little fluffy pink journal with a glitter pen#oh twiggy terry… do i have the ALBUM FOR YOU.#[i whip out guts olivia rodrigo and he swats me into a pit of snakes.]#anyways this probably wasnt the fic to be giggling about but it was a taddy bit relatable in a SENSE…?#count this tag ramble as my little review when i say I REALLY ENJOYED IT!#love when people write terry as the sick little jealous bugger he is!#ive seen it with betsy and lawrence… NEVER WITH PT THOUGH! AND THAT IS GONNA KEEP ME UP ALL NIGHT!
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You know one of the weirdest things about the Toxic side of fandoms I've seen? It's the way they try to treat all shows like they're supposed to be setting examples for the audience.
Take Hazbin Hotel for example. I have seen so many people pulling up a single bad trait that Chaggie or Huskerdust may or may not have and use that as the sole reason why they shouldn't be together at all. Which is so dumb but also bizarre because real life couples have their own good and bad qualities and having one possibly negative aspect about your relationship is more often not a reason you should immediately break up.
But sometimes fans and trolls act like these characters need to be in Disney-style-picture-perfect romance otherwise they're unhealthy and shouldn't be together. Like they seem to be under this really strange idea that all entertainment should be educational for the audience and if they're not setting a good example then it's bad TV.
It's so weird.
#Hazbin Hotel#Chaggie#Huskerdust#Like I've seen so many people#saying Angel is a bad character#because he sexually harrassed Husk.#As if that isn't part of his development and flaws#which is what makes him such a good character imo.#Or people will complain the villains have good traits#as if they're supposed to be one dimensional#when that is exactly what makes a bad character.#I dunno#I think some people never outgrew their childhood story logic#and now the deeper & more complex stuff makes them angry.#Maybe it's just me.#I don't know if any of this made sense#it's just been on my mind for a while and I needed to vent.
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