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Every time the crystalised discussion on twitter comes back and they get to Lloyd's issues with his father i want to freaking rip my hair out
"Lloyd's in the wrong" "Lloyd was an ass" (<something I literally just saw)
God forbid a child hurt by their parent BE HURT. BE UPSET.
#LLOYD was an ass???? um. have you seen his father?????#i hate it so much i hate it so much i hate it so much#i want to throw up#why do you people not get it#do you need to have a shitty parent yourself to get it.#my mum has never tried to kill me but i get it !!#i WISH i could go off at her like lloyd did!#or wohld i be an ass for that too? hm?#despite the years of hurt caused? hm?#shut the hell up all of you i#this is so stupid to be angry about but lloyd being allowed to br angry at his dad meant a lot to me#this feels so relatable to me#so personal#why do people refuse to see that lloyd has been hurt by his fathers actions again and again#him having issues woth his father isnt even new to crystalised!#remember in s4 when je said something about 'walking out on us again'???#nooo probably not because that man is aaaaalways perfect and the best ever!#i dont know where im going with this im just upset and annoyed and this always happens#i need to continue getting readynfor work.#ignore me#vent#i guess.
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on that subject, obsessed with today when i was like "hey guys, can you two stop playing the jumping game for now because it's giving caden a headache" and my 6 yr old cousin is like "you mean 'me'. it's giving 'me' a headache, because your caden". it's like yeah man ur right. my bad . and then they stopped jumping. it was awesome
#the thing is like. the jumping hurt my headright away#but i let them do it for a while before they told them to stop. and then they did#and i think thats part of it too. for somw things you have to wait and let kids have whay they want for a while before swooping in and#asking for them to stop#so they dont feel super controlled#and like. as an autistic person I HAVE TO DO THAT ANYWAY USUALLY#there's so many adult people out there who i have to put up witj their noises because i KNOW if i ask for them to stop theyll get mad#or even on a lesser extent. like as an autistic person w my sorta issues. you have to a let a lot of things go that are genuenly painful#and stressful. bc if u ask people to do things too much they often get upset. even if theyre overall nice#same with kids#but with kids you get to ask them to stop way more and you get to ask earlier than you would with most adults#like. ill be trying to put up with somethinf and struggling and get to the ppont where im visibly shaking and stuttering and on the verge#of tears#and the mere request of 'could you turn the tv ofd#still gets whole ass adults telling me im entitled and bossy#meanwhile child will hear 'thats making me feel bad' and theyll hear that and theyll think about it#and often times theyll stop#and even when they dont they dont insult you!#and people still say little kids are annoying????#when i tell a little kid 'could you turn the sound off on the video game or take it to another room the sounds its making are upsetting me#they LISTEN.#adults have a strong tendency to#use the ironicallt imature logic of ' i like this thing. so it dosent matter if it is upsetting you. i like it so i want to have it. even#though we are in a shared space together. i wont change what im doing because i want to do the thing i like. and thats more important than#not upsetting you. because doing the thing i like makes ME feel good.'#like. litterallt this mindset is easily more promient in adults than small children 100% . on god#and its just about the most childish thing ever.#its understandable. but its immature#and with something this simple its silly people cant let that go. its not complex at all. its stop making noise it is hurting me. easy
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now that my PI is like hey you should actually be sitting in the lab to write instead of doing it at home im shooting one million lasers at his head in my mind. fuck off
#exploding and killing even. WHO GIVE A WHOLE FUCKING SHIT MY GOD!!!!!!!!!!!!#ESPECIALLY since our AC is fucked up rn and my office is the only fucking one thats still hot#hes like oh you can work in [other girls] office shes out this week!!! like omg thank youuuuu thats a perfect setup for me 🥰🙏🏻#working in someone elses office doing work i can do exclusively at home because you think i should be in here even when you and nobody else#is. or you are but its not like we’re even seeing each other. awesome!!! 😁😁😁😁😁❣️#i dont know why hes doing this now. he literally hasnt given a shit before like he said verbatim when i joined the lab a YEAR AGO that he#doesnt need us to be in here all the time if we dont have anything in-person that we have to do. as long as we’re getting our work done.#AND I AM BITCH. SO WHY. THE FUCK. ARE YOU THROWING A LITTLE PISSY FIT ABOUT IT NOW. KILL YOURSELF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#okay whatever. i really like him and hes a lot better than some other PIs that have their students coming like 8-5 even if they have nothing#to do. like literally to the point where theyre playing cards and watching movies and shit. so it could be worse#but i dont know why he is MAKING it worse. when we literally had a perfectly fine lab dynamic going on. WHATS YOUR DEAL!!!!!#ugh whatever. its probably just bc its summer and hes like why the hell am i in the lab if nobody else is!!!!!#well man sorry to say it but you have kids. so im sure if you need work done you have to come here. but i dont have shit so i CAN work from#home with no problem. okay whatever rant done im not even that upset im just annoyed as fuck and idgaf if he said we should be here usually#9-4 my ass is leaving at 2:30 today to grocery shop and go the fuck home so i can actually get work done KILLS PEOPLE
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speaking of the way americans respond to people talking abt their culture did you see that poll that went around which was like 'which supermarket do you go to' and it was like a hyperspecific list of solely american stores (some of which were like. one state only) and then all the europeans in the tags were like CATEGORY 5 AMERICAN MOMENT and then the op called everyone prejudicial bullies for making fun of them. and all the americans made separate posts abt how condescending and rude we all were and it was kind of overkill for a poll abt grocery stores but AGAIN, they didn't even put TESCO on there. even asda would have been acceptable i think (not waitrose tho i don't think we should advertise its existence actually)
i actually think waitrose is the people's supermarket. i love spending £5 on milk. i feel represented there. it makes me want to own a gilet
#HELP SDJKGHDKSJHGKJ#honestly i barely even glance at polls like that bc i go to get interested in it and then i just dont know any of the answers#it's like 'where do you keep your eggs?' and the top result is like 'OH IN THE CLAVICLE FOR SURE 😂😂🔥🔥' and im just like. what#like non-americans have to watch how we talk and spell on here for fear of americans latching themselves onto us#but the moment we return that 'im going to be strange about you being from a different country' energy even as a JOKE they get upset#like. it's annoying isn't it. if only i knew how that felt constantly every day on any website on the internet ever...#ask
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#i am plagued. plagued by thoughts lmao#its not funny. its distressing and i want them to stop#its worse when im around people a lot. like when im by myself my brain is more contained#but when im around ppl my brain is like: how do u like this?! behold *upsetting thoughts*#and im like. ya kno. i dont like that. i dont like that at all. pls stop that#im just tired. i got invited to go hiking but then there was a train in the way so we went to the zoo instead#and it was fun but it also was probably slightly too much. like i dont know how to describe#it pushed my boundaries a bit more than anticipated. bc my brain is annoying and freaks out at stupid things#and the situation overlaps with an old situation and gives me stress dreams#the point is i would like my brain to stop sending me upsetting thoughts#pls be normal. thsts all i ask.#ah i think that thing i said wasnt quite true. i dont think the thoughts get worse around ppl its just that theyre different#like ppl directed thoughts r more upsetting to me than alone directed thoughts. bc those r just like extremely annoying and mostly dont#actually make me upset. its more like someone yaking my hair every so often rather than someone grabbing me by the hair and forcing me to#watch things. blah. its all annoying. be quiet brain. hush.#hhhh i need to get professional help lmao. maybe next year. maybe maybe#i dont even know where to start with that#unrelated
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I really miss doing art and I think at this point I've mostly recovered from being overworked with my diploma, I wish I had a desk* so I could draw without having to hold my laptop on my lap and completely busting my spine and knees and wrists
*I do have a desk that belongs to me but my brother keeps occupying it, and if I leave the room for literally more than five minutes while my laptop is on said desk, he will remove it and put his own laptop on the desk
#we literally agreed on a system where we switch who has access to the desk every week#he doesnt respect that system at all#today while he was at school i put his stuff on his bed and placed my laptop on the desk since he was supposed to give it to me days ago#i had the desk for only a few hours#because my mom asked me to go to the store with her and when i came back the little shit already took the desk for himself#like. at this point what can i even do#sometimes he does it literally while i just go to the toilet or the kitchen#and whenever i think of having to draw with my device on my lap i just. wanna throw my tablet away#my back is already in almost constant pain i dont need more of that#besides when i do that my laptop overheats faster. its old and doesnt work as well#i have this like laptop stand on the desk that keeps it from overheating#of course when my brother takes the desk he takes the stand too so i cant do anything#im just. so fucking upset#cant wait to move out#then the desk will go to my room and the fucker wont have access to it at all. i dont care#you know the most annoying thing about it is that he does have a desk at his father's place. which is literally in the same building#he can go there and have his own desk and own room. but he chooses to stay here for whatever reason#sometimes i feel like he stays here only to make me upset#bee buzz
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ughhhh
#mood rocketing downhill. thjs can only end well :-(#on my period and so tired and sad and lonely and i really really really want a hug im going to bash my head in with a rock#and a bit annoyed i spent ages testing climbing shoes today which ive been meaning to do for ages and the staff were rly nice#and i got a pair in the end but tbh i may end up returning them bc on reflection im not sure theyll work for my specific climbing style#what i rly wanted was a few sizes down of my current ones but they didnt have stock. and i tried the size i wanted in a variation of the#same shoe ie. same shape just not the rubber im after and they fit near perfectly so now im just thinking abt them instead.#u know what fuck it. ill take the train to my old city tmr and go to the climbing store there bc i checked online n they do have them.#ill just be constantly doubting my decision if i dont and i need to do smth nice for myself. and i can read on the train#and if they dont fit better well i have these other ones. and these ones are still nice! but im worried theyre more suited to sport/trad#and im primarily a boulderer... and i mean theyd def be good for some types of bouldering and i wanna get into sport/trad anyway but arghhh#whatever. fuck it. booked my train its not that expensive anyway just time. im tired of letting my decision paralysis get to me#and always settling for shit that makes me unhappy bc its not quite what i want but i talk myself into pretending im okay with it#when im not!!! and its unfair to myself and everyone around me to so consistently fail to identify n communicate my actual wants/needs#this isnt actually abt the shoes im upset for other reasons but at least projecting it onto this gives me a semblance of control#and gives me an easy way out of having to confront n deal with my avoidance...... it literally has no fucking limits huh.#well whatever. i need to food shop and eat and shower and then its okay ill play a videogame and go to bed early#its not been that bad a day i watched a movie this morning which was nice. and it was nice to cycle around the weathers great#probably havent slept enough. probably took my afternoon meds too late. probably just feeling lonely and tired and on my period....#tomorrow will be a nice day and monday i have climbing and there are other nice things coming up. puts down my head bashing rock#okay feeling a bit better now ive cried a bit and typed this. deep breath. wheres my shopping list.#.diaries#.vent#byeee
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what if reader had k*lled someone before and the batfam (yandere) dis not know like «I dont need your damn protection» reader said to the batfam «but the world is so dangerous out there and your just a baby» the batfam said to reader « B!TCH I have k*lled someone the f you mean im a baby?!?» the batfam with horrified expresion «WHAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!»
That last little part is a funny little over dramatic way it might go.
Oh, you are COOKED. (Do pardon my use of brainrot language...)
CW: mentions of murder...obviously
The first thing they do is isolate you in a room and keep you there for a while until they figure out what to do with you (and so you can think about what you've done).
What happens next? Therapy sessions, which they all agreed on.
Don't worry, you will tell them everything, specifically Bruce, since he's the one carrying out the therapy sessions.
"Why did you kill that person?"
"How do you feel about it now?"
"Do you regret it?"
"How do you feel after our conversation?"
He pities the person you ended up killing and feels a little disappointed. A life was taken by you, an innocent person's life. He didn't raise you like this, did he...?
However, he also pities you. Unless you are trained to kill someone, it breaks you. He's seen it so many times, people commiting murders and then panicking, breaking down, because they couldn't live with the consequences of their actions.
You're a mere civilian, how could you ever have been exposed to that kind of environment? How could he let this happen? No, it is his fault for waiting so long before saving you from the world. He will teach you why it's wrong. He will make sure you heal and never take another life again. After all, it is his job as your father to guide you in life.
That's right, the only reason you could've done it is because you didn't know any better. You are a mere child in this old, cruel world, after all.
In the end, he holds himself accountable. He should've done better. He should've protected you better from the cruel world you live in.
Dick would be shocked. His little birdie, his angel, killed someone? Impossible. You're so innocent, like a baby, so how could this be true? He would take some time off to come to terms with the fact that you're not the kind of person he expected. When he comes back, after a week, he seems slightly distant.
With time, following your therapy sessions, he will return to his normal, clingy, annoying self. However, you can't help but wonder why he was acting so weird that one week.
Despite the fact that he also kills people, Jason is incredibly suprised and disappointed after hearing that you killed someone. Unlike everyone else, he feels anger. You're so young, so innocent, you grew up in a place where murdering someone was not necessary, so why would you do it? He doesn't kill people because he wants to, he only does it because he needs to. But you didn't need to do it.
That's what upsets him most. You chose to do it. You willingly took a life.
Despite being so hurt, so broken, he still feels an ounce hesitation when killing people, so how come you, someone who didn't go through what he did, could kill someone in a situation that wasn't even self-defense? Nothing could possibly justify it! And here you are, proudly announcing it to them. You should be ashamed.
He kills murderers, so what should he do with you? Does that make you as bad as the criminals he kills? God, he doesn't even want to think about it.
Jason won't get over it for at least a month. He'll be very distant around you and won't be seen smiling for a long time. Towards you exclusively, his behaviour becomes incredibly bitter. In fact, he's the one who most strongly encourages Bruce to carry out the long, grueling therapy sessions. He really thinks it'll do you good...
Tim's reaction would be more mild than expected. He would certainly feel uncomfortable with the fact that you seemingly feel not an ounce of guilt or regret. However, he wouldn't change his behaviour too much for too long.
During the first week, he'd be a bit more careful with his affection towards you. No, it's not because he's scared. He simply wants to observe you and see how effective the therapy sessions are. If he feels that your attitude towards murder hasn't changed, he would encourage Bruce to be more intense during the therapy sessions.
He would be more careful with the activities he offers you, since Bruce called a meeting with everyone to establish more rules, those being directed at Tim mostly. Tim's "cool, lenient older brother"-act needs to change.
From now on, no crime films or shows (especially not any violent ones), no crime documentaries, no crime or detective books, no vular language, no threats towards anyone or anything and for at least 14 months, no leaving the manor.
This change will probably be permanent.
#woah this was longer than planned#ahhh lmk if you want the other family members' reactions too but im too busy to do more now#yes “he didnt raise you to do this” even though he didnt know you (in person)...#or at least you didnt know him...#rorii talks#dc comics#x reader#platonic yandere#platonic batfam#yandere batfam#batfam#tim drake#jason todd#dick grayson#yandere tim drake#yandere jason todd#yandere dick grayson#yandere bruce wayne#bruce wayne#yandere x reader#yandere#batfam x batsis#batfamily x reader#batfam x reader#batfamily#batfam x male reader#batfam x female reader#batfam x batbro
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patrick hive to the rescue because im thinking, as i often do, about friends to lovers with patrick where you're kind of upset because he and art have gotten around and you're still struggling on the dating scene, maybe you're shy, probably you just have standards, and its really just all starting to bug you because you're worked up!!!!! imagine hanging out with patrick during the summer - the room is sticky with humidity, despite the air conditioning being on full blast. you're hot and irritated and sexually frustrated. patrick being half clothed isn't helping, either - you can see the gleam of sweat on his bare chest - the dusking of hair on his thick thighs as he lounges back with a cigarette. you're going mad, it feels like you could detonate at any second your clit is so on fire - throbbing and achey and everytime you press you sweat slick thighs together it makes it worse.
patrick is looking at his phone - so you take the chane - just a small touch - just for some relief. you're on the bed, there's a plushi blocking his view - it cant hurt just to slide a sneaky hand down the band of your shorts and panties. just to stroke your swollen slit. surely he wont noitce if you just...... rub yourself a little. while you sneak glances at his toned body - just peeks, really. if you're very quiet (you do realize the sticky squelch of your cunt can be heard across the room, right? you dont) you might even be able to cum undetected
GODDDDD FUCK!!!! This was supposed to be a chill, normal, short response. Instead I ignored 2 work calls bc it’s that serious.
Rating: E (18+)
Warnings: SMUT (exibitionism/voyeurism, f!masturbation, not fingering but a secret third adjacent thing, extreme levels of horniness)
A/N: Patrick Hive we Linked and Built <3
Patrick thought it was so sweet that you invited him to visit your home for the summer. Apparently you’d sung nothing but his praises to your parents, because even though you were both eighteen, they let him sleep on the floor of your room on a blow up mattress, trusting him that much.
Which was annoying. You weren’t fucking Patrick (not for lack of wanting to), but they could’ve at least given you the benefit of the doubt and assumed that you might have some sort of sexual urges. It made your stupid fucking celibacy that much more embarrassing.
You’re home alone with him and the power’s out— a stupid, heat-induced rolling blackout. The open window only seems to usher in more hot summer air, so you’re both down to as few layers as would be appropriate. You, were down to a thin T-shirt and your panties. Patrick was only in a pair of grey nylon shorts. Sweat was beading down his bare chest, which was so fucking unfair.
Because it was Patrick, whose chest hair and happy trail made your mouth fill with drool any time you were treated to the sight of it. It was summer, and he was frequently shirtless, and you still hadn’t gotten used to the sight. Any sane person would want to lave their tongue along his chest, tasting the sweat and salt of his skin. That was… so totally normal to think about.
Patrick fucked your neighbor— the cute one who was going to a state school so she could be a kindergarten teacher. You didn’t know, but you were pretty sure. You’d been swimming in the pool during a cul-de-sac cookout, and they’d disappeared after a while. Patrick didn’t say anything that night, probably to protect your delicate sensibilities, but you could just kind of sense it.
God, it was unfair. All of the guys your age had girlfriends, or something. And the single ones were cute, but Patrick always seemed to fuck things up for you, either actively, or because you would always wind up talking about him. And because your parents thought it was totally fine for him to sleep in your room, you were surviving off of weak, rushed orgasms in the shower.
It was supposed to be a fun, sexy summer before you went off to college, and Patrick was totally ruining it. How was it fair that he got to fuck around and get his rocks off while you spent your summer feeling like you were wearing a fucking chastity belt?
And you were so wet it was uncomfortable, sticky between your thighs with absolutely no relief. Patrick was sitting on the fucking Air mattress, propped up by your cute, pink pillows and plushies that he’d stolen, watching a rerun of The Hills on MTV. His hand dangled out the open bedroom window so the smell of smoke wouldn’t get stuck in your innocent little bedroom.
He stretched, and you watched with an open mouth as he blew the cigarette smoke out the window. Pretty fucking lips, his muscles all taut as he turned. He looked back at the TV, and you exhaled a shaky breath. Fuck, you were so turned on you wanted to scream. Your pussy was just drooling into your panties, clit throbbing and aching for attention, your entire body felt empty, desperate to be filled up.
You were practically buried in your stuffed animal collection, which was embarrassing on any other day (Patrick had nearly laughed at the sight, but you’d insisted that you couldn’t just throw all of them away… they were nostalgic), but you’d never been more grateful until that moment.
You were already pretty well covered, thanks to the near life size bear sitting beside you— the perfect safety net. Your pulse was thundering in your chest, making you feel a little dizzy with anxiety or arousal, or a strange new mix of both.
You were burning hot between your thighs— throbbing and soaked all sticky and slick. Your legs twitched instinctively as your fingertips dipped into your core, where a pool of your arousal awaited. A shaky gasp escaped you as you moved your slick fingers up to your neglected clit, and you quickly muffled the noise into your pillow
It was like you’d never really touched yourself before. The level of need and desperation within you was completely unknown until that point. Your eyes rolled back as you began grinding up against your fingers. Your teeth dug into your lip to stay quiet as you played with your clit as discreetly as you could.
Patrick shifted to get more comfortable. Flexing his thighs just slightly, rubbing sweaty palms against the muscles there. He ashed his cigarette with his gaze locked on the TV. “This shit is so boring,” he muttered.
And fuck, his voice. You considered arguing with him, just so he’d get louder, and his voice would get more intense, and you’d be able to fuck yourself to completion to the sound of him speaking.
Your poor, neglected pussy clenched around absolutely nothing, begging to be filled by his dick, his fingers, your fingers, a toy, a hairbrush, fucking anything. Your panties were absolutely sodden— drenched to the point of forming a transparent little spot right above your cunt.
If Patrick had looked over, or, if he had unfocused his eyes just right and peered into the reflection of the TV screen, he would’ve been able to make out the sight of your fingers, moving steadily, desperately against your clit. If he had done that.
Your toes curled just slightly, thighs closing around your hand as you got closer and closer. It was loud— just how much you were moving. You needed— god, you needed so much in that moment. You grabbed a random plushie— a pink rabbit that you probably got with that years’ Easter basket— and held it over your lap. Yeah, that worked. Super casual, perfect way to hide the way your hand was working your clit.
And the pressure. Jesus Christ, the pressure of the warm stuffed animal over your cunt was too nice to resist. You’d have to throw it away after, you knew, but you couldn’t help but grind yourself up against it. If you closed your eyes, you could imagine it was his lap, or his thigh, or something warm and soft and hard for you to rut against.
But you couldn’t close your eyes, because you had to watch Patrick. To make sure he didn’t know what you were doing. An arm slung behind his head, the muscles highlighted by the shiny sheen of sweat there. You whimpered pathetically, muffled into the pillows. He probably heard, he pretended he didn’t. It was that level of feigned ignorance that let you keep going.
He probably knew, you could pretend he didn’t. The razor’s edge between you and a much needed, earth-shattering orgasm hinged on that level of ignorance.
So you pathetically humped against your fingers, and the stuffed rabbit, and chased at the bliss that was so fucking close you could taste it like metal on your tongue. Your thighs squeezed around the rabbit as you came, soaking through and making even more of a mess of your panties, and the rabbit, and your sheets, and your fingers.
You hadn’t realized how loud you were breathing. It was like someone had been holding you underwater and you could only just now hear the world with a shocking sense of clarity. Your body felt hot all over, your legs felt like jelly. You hid the stuffed rabbit beneath a discarded blanket, a problem for later. Legs crossed so you could hide the soaked mess between your legs.
Sure, you could play that off.
“You could’ve asked me to leave,” Patrick said around his cigarette. There was a twist to his lips, a sense of amusement. “Nah, you probably didn’t want me to. Too busy eye fucking me while you defiled that poor little bunny.”
He stood, noticeably hard in his shorts, which you weren’t looking at weren’t looking at weren’t looking at. He grabbed your ankles and pulled your legs apart, all while wearing the smug sort of expression that got you to this position in the first place. Really, it was all his fault. His eyes trailed up your legs, to the glistening mess coating your upper thighs, and the sheer mess of your panties.
“Huh.” His hands moved up your thighs and you exhaled shakily, parting them more to accommodate him, whatever he wanted, whatever he was thinking. You could come a thousand more times just for him, at his every whim. But that was the repression talking, not just because of him.
Your breath caught as his fingers hooked into the waistband of your panties and he peeled them down. His expression held the same sort of concentration that you saw him exhibit on the court. Focused on you, it made your heart pound.
“No wonder you were so loud, huh?” He teased, fingers gliding through your slit. It was embarrassing how wet you were, coating his fingers and palm in your arousal. Each light brush against your clit made your thighs twitch, made a desperate keen escape you. “I could hear it the second you started, by the way. But even before that, I could fucking smell how turned on you were. You could’ve said something, you know. I would’ve taken care of you, made it real nice.”
You moaned softly, eyes wide as you peered up at him. When he removed his hands from your pussy you fucking whined— pouting as he held his fingers up to the light and grinned at the glistening mess left behind. You watched those fingers disappear between plush lips, tongue sweeping out to clean them up. His cock jumped behind the shorts he wore from want.
“It doesn’t have to mean anything,” you insisted, sitting up to rub him through the fabric. “It’s hot, we’re both horny and bored. Just use me. It’ll feel nice.”
He didn’t take much convincing. He’d been rubbing his dick raw on that stupid fucking inflatable mattress every night when you were asleep anyway. How could he not? You were just too adorable.
@poppy-metal your mind amazes me no words no thoughts just this <3 thank youuuuuu for this in my inbox it truly kept me fed
#i wrote this on the clock hashtag girlboss#patrick zweig#patrick zweig x reader#patrick zweig fanfic#patrick zweig smut#challengers fanfic#challengers x reader
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highkey tho cyno & kaveh's friendship is my favorite
1) when kaveh is like "i won the interdarshan competition and all i got was massive trauma, a concussion, & this rare TCG card. hey cyno, you wanted this right?"
cyno: wait but this is rare 🥺🥺🥺 kaveh: eh i dont need it and then cyno is like "yo. srs tho. ARE YOU OK?? i will help you"
LIKE SWEETIE.... and then him giving kaveh mora which kaveh immediately spends on a fancy meal out for the family
at this point cyno doesn't know about kaveh's bankruptcy and tbh im not sure he ever finds out?
2) THE POST-COMPETITION MEAL WHERE EVERYONE JUST MAKES FUN OF KAVEH FOR TALKING ABOUT ALHAITHAM SO MUCH....
kaveh & cyno are both so earnest like neither of them should be sarcastic they're not good at it 😭😭😭
KAVEH GENUINELY THOUGHT CYNO WAS WARNING HIM ABOUT ALHAITHAM'S PRESENCE
anyways kaveh in his voiceline about cyno says that he needs a beer before cyno's jokes but that means he DOES like them sometimes
3) the fact that cyno had a bad impression of alhaitham pre-AQ bc he only knew of alhaitham from hearing kaveh rant to tighnari & collei about his insufferable roommate (& maybe seeing their message board debates)
& being the sweetheart that he is, he's going into this thinking
"that's him. that's the man who stole the show from my carefully planned jokes at dinner the other night by being terribly annoying to kaveh. apparently he doesn't put away his books??? which is a serious trip hazard actually. i'm on my guard 👁️👁️"
and then in classic alhaitham fashion, alhaitham makes a horrid first impression (he would rather make zero impression at all, thank you)
like of course cyno & alhaitham are naturally suspicious of each other bc of their akademiya affiliations but like STILL
it brings me much joy to know that before they became genuine friends (going from "nodding at each other in passing on the street" to "we always go to the tavern to celebrate" 🥺)...
cyno was primed to dislike alhaitham bc "you seem to upset kaveh??? so i dont think i like you"
i think cyno listened to kaveh rant about alhaitham's latest injustices (he took kaveh's favorite house slippers) and took them very seriously
look at how upset kaveh is when recounting them!! clearly kaveh is truly upset & this alhaitham fellow must be a real problem
like at that point i dont think kaveh & cyno were all that close? they met through tighnari but kaveh was pretty busy before finishing the palace & afterwards he managed to keep his bankruptcy a secret from cyno
but still cyno was already kinda protective of kaveh & his feelings
4) basically i think its amazing that if you cross kaveh, not only do you have kaveh's temper to worry about
..but also you have the legendarily scary & imposing general mahamatra himself on your tail... (+ the grand scribe & the general watchleader & lambad & half of sumeru city)
5) tl;dr is kaveh & cyno are both extremely earnest people who are very intense about their chosen professions and have very strong hyperfixes/hobbies
which can lead to miscommunication bc they take each other too srsly and then have to backpedal/explain BUT STILL THEYRE SO GOOD!!!
& i love that there's no judgement from each other
kaveh isn't all "wow cyno's love for tcg is so weird/too nerdy" instead he says "oh i got the prize my friend wanted, lets give it to him free"
while cyno's just like "ok kaveh your life is a mess but its a life you chose so 👍"
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𝙸 𝚠𝚒𝚜𝚑 𝚢𝚘𝚞 𝚠𝚎𝚛𝚎 𝚜𝚘𝚋𝚎𝚛 𝙵𝚁𝙰𝚃! 𝙲𝙷𝚁𝙸𝚂 𝚇 𝙽𝙴𝚁𝙳 𝚈/𝙽
𝚃𝙰𝙶𝙻𝙸𝚂𝚃 - @ultraviiolences @pearlzier @christophersslut @certifiedstarrr @sturniolosarethebest
𝙶𝙴𝙽𝚁𝙴 - 𝙰𝙽𝙶𝚂𝚃
𝚆𝚊𝚛𝚗𝚒𝚗𝚐 - 𝚖𝚊𝚔𝚎 𝚘𝚞𝚝𝚜, 𝚞𝚗𝚍𝚎𝚛𝚊𝚐𝚎 𝚍𝚛𝚒𝚗𝚔𝚒𝚗𝚐, 𝚙𝚎𝚎𝚛 𝚙𝚛𝚎𝚜𝚜𝚞𝚛𝚎, 𝚍𝚛𝟶𝚐 𝚞𝚜𝚊𝚐𝚎 ( 𝚍𝚘𝚗𝚝 𝚍𝚘 𝚊𝚗𝚢 𝚘𝚏 𝚝𝚑𝚒𝚜.)
𝙰𝙱𝙾𝚄𝚃 - 𝙵𝚁𝙰𝚃 𝙱𝙾𝚈 𝙲𝙷𝚁𝙸𝚂 𝚃𝙰𝙺𝙸𝙽𝙶 𝙽𝙴𝙳𝚁𝚈 𝚈/𝙽 𝚃𝙾 𝙰 𝙵𝚁𝙰𝚃 𝙿𝙰𝚁𝚃𝚈
It was a Friday. Y/n was studying on the library when chris walked up to her " hey y/nn! " chris greets her and hugged her "hi chris" y/n smiles at him and continued to study.
"Y/nnn" chris annoys the girl which was studying "hm? " y/n answered "there's this frat party tomorrow, can we maybe go together" y/n looked at him unamused " come onn it will be funn" chris begged the girl until she finally agreed
。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆. THE NEXT DAY・゜-: ✧ :-
Y/n and chris arrived at the house. Chris was out of y/n's sight like a speed of light.
She was trying to find someone who knew her. She saw alot of people making out, drinking and smoking which made her upset.
She saw madi, madison and nick together so she walked up to them "heyy" she greets them and hugged them " hey girl! " madison greeted her " i thought parties wasn't your thing?" Madi asked her while taking a sip of her cup " and i thought you dont drink" she laughs and the other 3 chuckled
"Chris invited me" y/n explained "oh! " madi was shocked, madison wasn't amused nd nick had a poker face " why do you guys look like that? " i askd confused "non dw! "
After some while y/n excused myself from the three to find chris on the kitchen with some girl. I walked closer to them to hear then talking about exchanging drinks. "19 but you act 25 now. " y/n said under her breath
She saw matt and walked up to him " hey y/n! Cute cardigan! " matt complements the girl "heyy and thank you" she smiles and sat besides him " lookin for chris? " matt asked and y/n shakes her head no
The two talked for awhile and y/n wanted to talk to chris, so she politely excuses herself to go find chris making out with the girl. She froze on where she was standing.
At the same time that was happening madi was there n saw y/n " girl! " madi called out " please take me where the music isn't too loud" she said with a shaky voice. Chris also looked at y/n and was shocked
" y/n. Please for the love of god drop chris already. He isn't worth it! " madison scolded her " can't... Love him so much.. " y/n sobbed " let's get you home. " nick says while helping y/n
"Y/N! " chris called her out making the 4 of them look at him " oh hey guys, going home so soon? " chris asked while having a cig on his hand "yah.. " y/n smiled at him and was about to enter the car "love you y/n! " chris shouts and smiled.
"Wish you were sober. " y/n said in a shaky voice
。・:*:・゚★,。・:*:・゚☆. MONDAY・゜-: ✧ :-
Y/n was ignoring chris all day which made the brown haired boy annoyed.
" y/n! ' chris called out for y/n but she didn't budge"Y/n! " he called out even louder
Chris kept following y/n and bugging her " god! What the fuck do you want! " Chris was shock to hear y/n curse " why are you ignoring me? " chris asked as y/n avoided the question and kept walking " y/n! " she kept walking
She kept walking and walking and walking but chris kept following her " You wanna talk right? " y/n snapped making chris froze where he was standing " YOU BROUGHT ME TO THAT STUPID FRAT PARTY JUST TO DITCH ME! " y/n shouted at him " y/n i-" " im sorry? " y/n rolled her eyes while saying that " HOW WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOUR CRUSH LEFT YOU ALONE. IN A HOUSE WHERE YOU DONT EVEN KNOW ANYONE? " y/n snapped " Fuck you chris! " y/n flipped him off but Chris kept following
" STOP IT. " y/n shouted " i dont wanna talk to you. " chris didn't follow her anymore but he mouthed a " im sorry and i love you. "
RAHHHHHHH I love this oneee, something about angst makes me happiii 🙏🙏
#Spotify#chris sturniolo smut#christopher sturniolo#matt sturniolo fanfic#matt sturniolo smut#nick sturniolo#chris sturniolo#matt sturniolo#nicolas sturniolo#johnnie guilbert#kiera's archives#kierawrites
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Hello! Can I request Tom x reader where they had a fight that made reader cry and Tom felt really bad and tried to make up for her? They are already dating:) Take your time and don't forget to stay hydrated 😊
SPARKS .
tom x gn! reader
YOU AND TOM HAD GOTTEN INTO A FIGHT, you were all at a meet and greet and as some girls were taking pictures with tom one of them had attempted to kiss him.
security had pulled her away before she could actually but it most obviously had made you jealous.
it was the way he didnt even seem upset, he didnt seem angry, disgusted or anything! he seemed amused at most.
once you got back to the hotel the band was staying at you completely ignored tom, walking right past him as he tried to make some conversation with you.
he looked at you with confusion as be walked away from him in frustration and quickly sitting down on the bed, rubbing your eyes.
“whats wrong?” tom asked, walking towards you with a frown.
“nothing, im fine..” you grumbled in annoyance, smudging your mascara and makeup before pulling at your hair to keep you from nearly going insane.
“no your not. “ he said, sitting down next to you and trying to read whatever expression you had.
“im..fine tom.” you muttered, tugging at your hair harder before feeling some of it fall into your hands lifelessly.
“tell me whats wrong.” he demanded, scooting closer to you and attempting to put his hand on your thigh but you flinched away.
“well i dont know what about you tell me smartass.” you stood up, clenching your fist’s trying your hardest not to raise your voice at him.
“hey, whatd the hell i do?” he retorted with a offended look on his face.
“let me think, maybe let a girl kiss you right infront of my eyes!” you argued, an annoyed smile on your face as you took a step forwards.
“she didnt even kiss me!”
“but she almost did and guess what, you did nothing about it!” you raised your voice, not caring who heard you. you knew you wernt the one in the wrong, tom was and he needed to be told off about it.
“thats cause i knew the security would take her away before she could!” he reasoned the best he could, trying his best to make himself not seem guilty.
“oh did you? or are you just trying to fucking excuse your actions like you always do you godamn dickwad!” you yelled, throwing your hands up dramatically as your face began to feel redder by the second. anger coursing though your veins.
“well im sorry! what else do you want?” he yelped and sat up from the couch, meeting your height.
“to stop letting other girls get all over you cause half the time i dont even feel like your girlfriend, i feel like a friend godamnit!” hot tears began to fall down your face as you quickly wiped them away, sniffling a bit and trying to keep your composure.
toms gaze softened at your words, his mouth slightly gaped and he realized he was in the wrong. he realized you were right.
he should’ve never let the girl try and kiss him, he should’ve avoided it and now he realized that.
he didn’t realize if he kept up the way he acted around other girls and letting them do what they wanted to him you wouldn’t be with him anymore.
he loved you so much and never wanted to loose you and he just registered that, without you he’d be alone.
you were always there for him so why couldnt he return it?
as he stood there in shock you sped past him, leaving your shared room and running out to the living room praying no one was in there.
to your avail no one was, you guessed they either had gone out or theyd all retreated to their rooms after hearing the argument.
containing your wails as you pressed your back against the wall, slowly sliding down it and you desperately clamped at your mouth.
you hadn’t noticed tom peaking from the door with a guilty expression. he had completely fucked up.
YOU SAT UP FROM THE WALL YOU LAID AGAINST, it had been a good twenty five minutes of you quietly weeping.
slowly walking towards the room you and tom shared, scared of what youd find. maybe he was going to break up with you?
whatd if he had done something to himself? what if he had already moved on to another girl?
but as you reached for the handle, it swung open making you flinch a bit.
“oh shit— sorry…” tom whispered as he quickly stepped back and looked at you concerned.
“are you gonna break up with me?” you asked with worry with a red tear stained face.
“of course not… i was coming out to apologize..” he frowned, taking note of your state and feeling even more wrong for his actions.
you brushed some of your tears away as he quickly hugged you, holding you tight as he tried his best not to become emotional.
“im so— so sorry. i should’ve never let her do that and i wont let anyone do anything like that again.” he whispered with sincerity, shaking his head and holding you close.
“i forgive you…” you muttered, melting into his embrace and closing your eyes, letting you rest for a bit.
tom kissed the back of your neck and slid his hands down to your hips, making you giggle a bit.
“you tease.”
#kaulitz twins#x reader#ao3#ynstories#hearts4kaulitz#tom kaulitz#tom x reader#tokio hotel x reader#tokio hotel
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𝐔𝐍𝐃𝐄𝐑 𝐓𝐇𝐄 𝐂𝐎𝐕𝐄𝐑𝐒 ━ ♡
POST COVID ! KYLE BROFLOVSKI X READER
A/N - I love post covid kyle sm, he's amazing. FYI this is pretty shit so uh yh
KYLE fell onto the other side of the bed, letting out a groan. It was clear that he was annoyed at the fact his old friend- Eric Cartman was his name- and his family began to stay over since they couldnt any where else.
You turned your head to face your husband, a small smile resting on your features. " Hey its okay hun, im sure it wont be too bad " You shifted your body so you'd be on your side, staring at him. Hearing him sigh he turned his head so you'd be face-to-face, his brows knitted " Y/n, you know i love you but you dont know Cartman- he was an absolute asshole when we where younger, he still is now ! "
Quietly laughing, you ran your left hand through his red locks, to which he eased up, letting you do so. He really enjoyed having you by his side, it just made things so much easy for him. " Im sure it'll be fine baby, its been years since you've seen him, im sure he's changed! " " Yeah for the worst " He groaned again before lifting himself up throwing his side of the covers over his body.
His hands quickly grabbed at our waist and pulled you closer to his body, a high pitched yelp left your lips as he did so. Even though he's done this for a good few years it still manages to shock you when he does. He held you body close to his, resting his chin on your head " Ya know, im glad that somehow i managed to find you " he pressed a kiss onto the place where his chin rested not only a second before.
" Same " You grinned against his chest, arms lazily warped around him, " Lets go to sleep now hun, its late " you could hear Kyle hum in agreement but before you could both close your eyes and fall asleep a loud noise and clapping sound could be heard from one of the other rooms. Immediately you could hear Kyle sigh angrily.
Trying to ease him again you gave him a slight squeeze but it did practically nothing as when the voices of Eric and his wife came through the door about their love for Judaism you also got quite annoyed, not to mention uncomfortable. Sensing your discomfort Kyle grumbled quickly letting go of you and getting out of bed, leaving the room.
You knew something bad was gonna happen between the 3 and you really didnt want to intervene even though it would be the best idea to do so. While you were contemplating whether you should or shouldn't go Kyle returned, clearly stressed and upset.
" They'll be gone in the morning n/n " he muttered getting back in the bed, by your side quickly wrapping his arms around you just as he did before. You hummed, brows furrowed "Kyle, let them stay, they have no where else to go " your husband shook his head " No, n/n, i dont want them in our house. They made you uncomfortable for fucks sake! " "So what? Everyone fucks their partner Kyle!" "But no one does it while yelling about their love for Abraham!" "Whatever ..."
deciding to just let it go you pressed your face into his chest, your hold on him loosening causing the man to stiffen, realizing he upset you. he awkwardly hummed, hiding his face in your hair " Ive upset you havent i? ah- shit- I- im sorry babe, i'll uh.... i'll let them stay " you could hear the annoyance in his voice when he talked about letting them staying but you were glad he was gonna let them.
"Thanks hun, i love you"
" I love you too "
#south park#south park x reader#kyle broflovski#kyle broflovski x reader#post covid kyle broflovski#south park post covid#x reader#this is so shit#LMFAOOO
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a new blog! Can i ask for headcanons for the jjk men saying "i love you" but you not saying it back? Thank you!
Of course! And welcome~ 🤗
Yuji itadori
He is just about to leave when he tells you "love you babe! I'm going now!"
And you just answer with a "mhmm, bye "
He pauses
"Babe."
"Yes? What's wrong"
He walks back to you and takes your face in his hands "i love you!"
You really have to try not to laugh, hes like a lil puppy waiting for praise
"Uh-huh, you're going to be late yuji"
Hes annoyed now "well, im not leaving until you say it back! So say it back pleaseee!"
Megumi Fushiguro:
Please dont do this to poor Megumi, hes gonna overthink this so bad
Did he do or say something for you not wanting to say it back? Didnt you hear him?
Snaps out of it when you say his name
Poor Megumi TELL HIM NOTHING IS WRONG AND THAT IT WAS A JOKE 😭
Will hug you and be like "ok, now say it back.............................please"
Yuta Okkotsu:
I think he wouldn't notice right away
He happily opens the door about to leave when he gets this feeling like 'wait a minute' (everytime i read, hear or say it i think about the kazoo kid, am i the only one? 😂😂 ok ,ok sorry BACK TO YUTA)
He'll also think he did something
"Love?" "yes?" "did i do something?"
Poor boys hands are so clammy
You just cant take it because hes too cute so you tell him it was a joke
Hes so relieved!!
Gojo satoru:
Now we all know how dramatic he can be
"I love you~" "mhm" .....blink
How.....HOW DARE YOU NOT SAY IT BACK!!!!
shocked pikachu face
Hes going to move closer to you "i love you." blink, blink "i know, babe"......oh okay so you're playing games...
This means he will become even more obnoxious about it "iloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyouiloveyou......" "OKAY I KNOW, YOURE GOING TO BE LATE IDIOT!"
Gasp did you also on top of not saying 'i love you' back, say that he was an idiot?!
"Okay. ...I'm leaving.....no sexy time for you later hmpf"
Wait...
"Noooo i was joking!! Satoru wait! I said it was a..........aw man :("
Yep no sexy time....better think of a good way to apologize.... (Wink winkkkk ;) you know wink~ he said no but can he really say no? )
Geto Suguru:
He notices right away
But still wears his smile " darling? Did i do something to upset you? "
You look at him acting confused "mh? No nothing is wrong but if you dont hurry you're going to be late sugu"
"Okay then...i love you" "see you later sugu"
Turns around because that are not the words he wants to hear
"Darling~"
Its sounds so sweet but you know better than to keep teasing "say it back."
"I love you"
"Good girl :)"
Nanami Kento:
Now he will be a bit confused but hes an adult so hell just go to work
But on his way home he is thinking about where he fucked up
But he can think of anything....
Frustrated he'll ask you "what is it?"
"I dont know what you mean?"
"Y/N....."
You place your hand on his cheek and smile at him " i love you kento"
Ok now hes blushing what a sweetie
Hope you'll like Them if you want a part 2 lemme know babes~💓
#jujutsu kaisen scenarios#geto x reader#jjk fushiguro#jjk gojo#jjk yuta#jjk nanami#jjk imagines#jjk x you#jjk fluff#jujutsu kaisen imagines#jujutsu kaisen fluff#jujustsu kaisen x reader#jujutsu kaisen#nana answers#jujutsu kaisen headcanons#jjk yuji itadori x you#yuji itadaori scenarios
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Aita for blocking a friend on instinct? So i (f16) have this friend, (m16) we can call him D, who i've been friends with since kindergarten.
About a year ago, i started growing very close to D through our friend group's dnd campaign we held every friday. I knew him for a long time but that was the first time we had started hanging out out of school. We were talking on snapchat every night just chatting and after a while he started to send much more... revealing snaps. Just his bare shoulders but like without a shirt. He said it was because he had to let his medication for his back dry. I was a little uncomfortable, but we were friends so i didnt think that it would escalate into anything weird.
After about a month, D starts sending snaps in a towel and pictures of his chest which made me very uncomfortable. I kind of let the chatting die down after that because it was the only way i could think of that would be enough to gently let him down easy (i was wrong). I stopped going to the hangouts with that group and kind of distanced myself because how uncomfortable D made me. This only made D try harder to get my attention.
I was still friends with the others in the group so i would often have one-on-one hangouts with the others and watch tv. One thing we watched was Miraculous and we laughed and joked about it all the time. D overheard us or something and went home and binge watched the entire series in a week. Then everytime i ate lunch with that friend group, D would always make direct references to Miraculous or sing the theme song really loud. This wasnt once a day, D would make miraculous references every single minute. He became obsessed with the show (which, for reference of how weird it was, D is a very religious Christian boy. He gets upset if he gets an A- and never drinks caffeine (no problem with any of those things but just understand that kind of guy being deep within the fandom of Miraculous out of all shows 😭)). It was so bad, and it once again was making me very uncomfortable.
Eventually, it got to an insufferable point where D changed his route to go home and made sure to pass me every day after school and wave. I started avoiding him in the halls, he would always ask obscure questions that werent that important. I couldn't understand why he couldn't get that i didnt want to be friends with him anymore so i set boundaries.
A text i sent to D: i apologize if i ever caused any misunderstanding, but i would like to make it clear that im not romantically interested in you. i can see that you have been trying to grow closer, but i dont feel the same way. i don't appreciate being followed around, and i dont like when people force themselves to like the same things i like. its not attractive to be a copy of someone. i enjoy being your friend but it's difficult to disregard these things. if im being totally honest, when you do things like this, it makes me really uncomfortable and borderline creeped out. i know crushes wont disappear overnight but i would appreciate more space. if youre looking for a girlfriend, this isnt the right person, nor the right way to get it. and i wont tell anyone about this so dont worry about word spreading or anything. thank you
D's response: Oh, I'm so sorry I made you think that! I don't have a crush on you, I just noticed how you don't hang out with our friend group as often and I just wanted to make sure that I was being as nice as possible to make sure you weren't mad at us or anything. I did start to think that maybe me trying all that made me seem clingy or annoying, so I'm really sorry for all of that. Thanks for bringing this to my attention, I'll try to do better now!
This didnt sit right with me because after all of that i cannot fathom how that translates to "i wanted to include you". This made me question a lot about the situation.
Reasons i feel like i MBTA: i'm over thinking things and D could be a genuinely a nice person. Its hard for me to read the room and i need to work on that and probably apologize to D.
Reasons i feel like i MNBTA: i should trust my instincts rather than ignore them. I've had a psychological abuser in my family before and the situation could be a stalker behavior that i've learned is not ok to have.
What are these acronyms?
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Open Arms - Matt Sturniolo
warnings: panic attack, kissing, use of y/n, degradation thoughts, use of pet names, & fluffy fluff
POC FRIENDLYYY !!
summary: y/n has a panic attack because she was petrified of falling behind and disappointing people around her. Not wanting to be to annoying or clingy to Matt, and trying not let people down. Matt assists and reassures that she’s not letting people down and she’s doing great.
a/n: sorry if this is bad, but leave reqs in my inbox anytime, ily💕 also i know after party pt.4 has been put off awhile but i’m making time to fix it😭🤞
wc: 1k
not proofread (a bitch dont got no time for that shit)
based off of this song ↓
“when no one’s around me, you lost and found me, i was surrounded, with open, open, open, Open Arms”
y/n’s pov
fucking stupid idiot. you should have done it but look where you are now. from before i had 2 things on my to-do list
・Flashback・
“well, i’ll do it later.”
i wrote it down on my to-do list. i pet my dogーkelani and hug her,
“it’s okay i will get to it.”
i wrote down “get this week’s groceries and kelani’s dog food”
just make sure to get to it y/n.
・Now・
i had well over 7 things on my to-do list. i should’ve just done it while I could. so fucking dumb y/n. why do you let this happen? first it was my college classes, food for my dorm, the triplet’s birthday, my car repairs, my sister’s wedding back in london , my mom wants me to visit her in new york, and I have to study for my literature exam. if I don’t get anything for the triplet’s birthday they’ll definitely be disappointed, if i don’t visit my momーshe’ll definitely be upset; and if I don’t go to my sister’s wedding in london, i’m going to be seen as disrespectful to my elders.
i felt something bad was gonna happen but i wasn’t sure.
I was leaning on my bed, going through the list over and overーscolding myself each time. a sharp pain drilled through my chestーa new type of painーsomething i’d never felt before. but this? this hurt like hell. and all at the same time my vision got blurred and breathing became impossible. i’d decided that i had to call matt. he’d surely know how to deal with this, right? as i continued sobbing repeatedly, with breathing impeccably difficult, and my vision completely shattered. my phone rung a couple times, then,
finally he answered.
“hey baby what’s up?”
“matt i- n-need help”
my voice was in a mid-whisper but he still heard it.
“please help m-“
my voice was cut by me dropping my phone.
all of a sudden, my palms sweat and feel prickly and my clothes are overly tight. i hug myself and get into a fetal position, feeling like everything is wrong and i’m going to let everyone down and be one big disappointment.
matt’s pov
we were filming friday’s car video when i got that call from y/n. her voice sounded like she was crying, but she said help me. what the fuck happened?
“hey guys something is wrong with y/n”
“what happened?” chris questioned.
“her voice was all shaky and it sounded like she was crying or shit”
no questions were asked. nick didn’t yell or go on a rant about leaving. just driving.
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when i got to her room she was laying on the floor in fetal position, weeping, sobbing. god i hate to see her like this. curls laid out around her shoulder and her beautiful face covered in tears.
"matty?"
"yes baby its me"
"i don't know what to do matt," y/n said in between sobs whilst grabbing her chest trying to breathe.
i held y/n against me and tell me what's wrong.
"what's wrong y/n?"
"m-my vision went blurry and breathing became impossible and my palms felt like they were being poked by a million needles, my clothes got too tight and and-"
"you're having a panic attack y/n"
she didn't hear me so she went on about what happened.
"im going to let everyone down mattーthey're never gonna forgive me,"
"i have too much on my to-do list and if i dont do it i'm letting everyone down"
"look baby we're gonna take it one step at a time, one thing at a time."
"o-okay"
"let's breathe in on 3, okay?"
"okay"
y/n’s pov
i took a nice breath in then repeated the same motion, breathing out. my vision got better, my clothes stopped feeling too tight, palms stopped being pricked.
"thank you matt"
"of course y/n"
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we crossed off things of my to-do list, one by one, and before i realized i only had 2 things left on to-do list; like before.
i've never had a panic attack before and that attack could have been worse. but before i could spiral and get lost inside the darkness, i found my light.
matt was my light.
he was there for me, and always there with Open Arms
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extra: first of all, im so so so so so sorry for starving you all to fucking death; this fic took me forever😭😭
but tysm for reading !!
xoxo, riri <3
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