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#this isnt actually abt the shoes im upset for other reasons but at least projecting it onto this gives me a semblance of control
toastsnaffler
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ughhhh
#mood rocketing downhill. thjs can only end well :-(
#on my period and so tired and sad and lonely and i really really really want a hug im going to bash my head in with a rock
#and a bit annoyed i spent ages testing climbing shoes today which ive been meaning to do for ages and the staff were rly nice
#and i got a pair in the end but tbh i may end up returning them bc on reflection im not sure theyll work for my specific climbing style
#what i rly wanted was a few sizes down of my current ones but they didnt have stock. and i tried the size i wanted in a variation of the
#same shoe ie. same shape just not the rubber im after and they fit near perfectly so now im just thinking abt them instead.
#u know what fuck it. ill take the train to my old city tmr and go to the climbing store there bc i checked online n they do have them.
#ill just be constantly doubting my decision if i dont and i need to do smth nice for myself. and i can read on the train
#and if they dont fit better well i have these other ones. and these ones are still nice! but im worried theyre more suited to sport/trad
#and im primarily a boulderer... and i mean theyd def be good for some types of bouldering and i wanna get into sport/trad anyway but arghhh
#whatever. fuck it. booked my train its not that expensive anyway just time. im tired of letting my decision paralysis get to me
#and always settling for shit that makes me unhappy bc its not quite what i want but i talk myself into pretending im okay with it
#when im not!!! and its unfair to myself and everyone around me to so consistently fail to identify n communicate my actual wants/needs
#this isnt actually abt the shoes im upset for other reasons but at least projecting it onto this gives me a semblance of control
#and gives me an easy way out of having to confront n deal with my avoidance...... it literally has no fucking limits huh.
#well whatever. i need to food shop and eat and shower and then its okay ill play a videogame and go to bed early
#its not been that bad a day i watched a movie this morning which was nice. and it was nice to cycle around the weathers great
#probably havent slept enough. probably took my afternoon meds too late. probably just feeling lonely and tired and on my period....
#tomorrow will be a nice day and monday i have climbing and there are other nice things coming up. puts down my head bashing rock
#okay feeling a bit better now ive cried a bit and typed this. deep breath. wheres my shopping list.
#.diaries
#.vent
#byeee
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