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not to use this as a place to vent but ..... i love feeling incredibly nervous over silly things I'm kinda scared about but also scared to talk about so I will never get reassurance for ... proceeds to talk about it under the cut anyways
I've seen so much in communities on this site and seeing friends get into those communities (which I'm in as well) makes me nervous as fuck bc I'm afraid that they'll interact with people that don't like me or my partner and then we'll be hated as a result and kicked out of our servers and lose friends, some of which I've known for years now .... and its my only little group I even have anymore.... and I'm barely a part of it .... I'm so nervous and scared though
#[ vincent speaks ]#sorry to vent but also not sorry bc i need to get it out#im kinda tearing up over it bc im just that nervous and scared that my friends will become friends with bad people and i cant stop it#and then ill lose them#and ive had enough with losing friends#people dont always really like me i feel like im always too weird#so im just#feeling weird about talking more now and then feeling scared ill lose people bc im talking so much now#gah#gaaaaaaaaah
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Since im not very normal when it comes to designing im always more efficient when i design straight up on an illustration so here goes the main suitors :
Antinous (lion🦁) : loud arrogant and imposing. Will laugh at your face and threaten you in cold blood.
Eurymachus (snake🐍): hypocrite manipulative conniving bitch. Will gaslight you with a kind smile. Hates mediocrity
Amphinomous (bear🐻) : he's the answer to choosing a man or a bear. Not inherently evil. He thinks the beggar is funny (not knowing its ody). He is just a guy who's easily influenced by his terrible friends.
(Credit to pinkcherry097 on instagram for the joke)
#chara design#why do i feel like ill get attached to these designs...#i love me a group of evil besties#also beggar ody has got to be the most sarcastic menace ever#hes like so eager to kill them but with all these years he didnt lose his silly#funny#the suitors#antinous#eurymachus#amphinomus#odysseus epic#odysseus fanart#odysseus#the odyssey#the odyssey by homer#epic#epic the musical#epic the musical fanart#epic fanart#epic the musical memes#epic the ithaca saga#the ithaca saga#my art#sketch#silly
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"(Sigh) We'll continue this another ti- mmf?!"
With a guy like Jamil, you really gotta pick up the slack sometimes. No tie to pull on though, so I guess we'll just have to use that hoodie!
(Inspired by this artwork by オレコ on Pixiv!)
Bonus Jamil for the rest of the day:
#my art#twisted wonderland#twst#jamil viper#jamil viper x yuu#oc#twst oc#shiokawa mayu#jamimayu#this was well worth losing sleep for#when i say i locked in#ill probably add more tags later when i wake up but like#the moment i remembered that set of images existed the other day#i was like#wait thats them#i gotta redraw#cue a few days of me drawing basically nothing but this#enjoy their first proper kiss#and kabedon ig#girls who look shy but are actually really forward my beloved#if its not obvious she's pulling him downward in the last pic#gotta compensate for that height diff u see#edit: forgot his eye makeup in the last one literally unviewable#and some other small fixes
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HELLO HANTENGU NATION (5 people)
I'VE MADE AN [unofficial] HEIGHT CHART FOR MYSELF
Hantengu: 5"5 (166cm) Sekido: 5"9 (175cm) Karaku: 5"9 (175cm) Urogi: 5"9 (175cm) Aizetsu: 5"9 (174cm) Zohakuten: 5"3 (160cm) Urami: 8"5 (257cm)
[little aftermath under the cut]
they're so annoying. peace is nonexistent... they're the best ever.
#null rot#cw blood#demon slayer amount of blood??#hantengu#hantengu clones#sekido#karaku#urogi#aizetsu#zohakuten#urami#demon slayer#kny#kimetsu no yaiba#FUCK WHY ARE THERE SO MANY OF THEM#DO YOU SEE MY VISION?? THEY'RE SO ANNOYING IN MY MIND BUT ARE SO HOT GUY CODED.........#LIKE SHUT THE FUCK UP PRETTY BOY#EVEN THE OLD ONE. i KNOW HE'S MAKING THE ELDERLY AND GILF HUNTERS ACT UP#OH MY GOD I NEED TO KEEP DRAWING THEY'RE LIKE SO FAMILY TO ME#BRO DO YOU KNOW HOW FAST EVERYTHING IS GOING TO GET FUCKED OVER IF YOU ADD YOURSELF TO THE PICTURE??????#OH MY GOD JUST. JUST GIVE ME A FEW DAYS OF MY FUCK#also ignore how i posted on my 'cleaner' blog. that was a fuck up. ill be posting everything here#ANYWAY MY REASONING FOR MAKING AIZETSU SHORTER BUT A CENTIMETER IS CAUSE I BELIEVE HES THE HANTENGU THAT WAS STILL GROWING + ZO#ALSO APPARENTLY YOU LOSE AN INCH EVERY DECADE AFTER FOURTY??? SO HANTENGU IS TINY.... AND HUNCHED IN MY MIND#AND URAMI IS GARGANTUAN DID YOU EVEN SEE HIM NEXT TO TANJIRO BRO? HANTENGU IS TALLER THAN THAT KID BY AN INCH IM P SURE HES IM THE 8FT RANG#the three caballeros are his at prime time height cause they look like theyd be in their prime yk??#i used a converter for the cm so if something is fucked. no its not. trust me bro
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a pretty face can't save me now
#i had to post this before the finale#im so not ready#im losing it#pls dear god let them all be okay in the end#i know its wishful thinking and ill have to be in every single writer's wall after this but let me dream#pitfighter vi is my everything btw idc#arcane#arcane season 2#arcane vi#arcane caitlyn#vi#caitlyn kiramman#caitvi#arcane fanart#vi fanart#caitlyn fanart#vi arcane#caitlyn arcane#caitlyn and vi#caitvi fanart#pitfighter vi#digital art#league of legends#fanart#my art
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i went. insane. LOOK. i know a lot of people realllyyyy wanted crowley to be the wedding dress designer LOOK I KNOW AND ITS OK u can make ur own au i promise but in MY WORLD. you need to understand me.
crowley owning a vineyard is personal to me. he is THE snake in the garden of eden, tempting is his JOB ok. he makes wines aziraphale indulges in, aziraphale designs dresses with crowley in mind. do you hear me. are you listening to me. i have everything from the second they meet mapped out OK i know what im talking about. listen to my delusions, boy.
#ive been losing my mind ive seen this movie so many times this week#how my friends arent sick of hearing me talk abt this is a miracle in and of itself#good omens#good omens 2#aziracrow#aziraphale#crowley#ineffable divorce#warlock dowling#go adam young#ineffable husbands#parent trap au#good omens au#gabuart#I WAS ONLY PLANNING TO DRAW THIS ONCE AND NEVER TALK ABOUT IT AGAIN.#i have more where theyre young but ill post them tomorrow#i mean im posting them all on instagram tonight so u can see them there if u want
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shits been kicking my ass lately so i drew these since i havent drawn in a hot minute, i think they look pretty neat lmao
#centipedes cartoons#carnival jax#jax#carnival au#carnival!jax#jax fanart#tadc jax#the amazing digital circus jax#the amazing digital carnival#tadc#tadc fanart#the amazing digital circus#if the qualities bad it's cuz they are screenshots of the file#and i downloaded them on my phone to post during work#ill draw more later#when i get home and such#not losing full front anytime soon anyways#art#digital art#artists on tumblr#digital circus fanart#digital circus#digital artist
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village lanterne
#go listen to village lanterne by blackmores night. lives in my head rent free#actually all their songs do. ive been listening to them since i could hear. raised on them. ive always wanted to draw smth to their songs#someday ill find something to fit under a violet moon but that day is not today. ANYWAYS.#flips my hair. hello pardners. i am scared of losing my job i just got. feel free to fill in the blanks with current events context clues#dare i say this is the single coolest color comp i have ever fuckgn put together. i rly think this is my peak im so pleased w it#also drawing to songs is the most embarrassing thing in the world so please just be moved and dont think its cringe like i do or ill DIE#also WOOOO a catríona comic!! a comic from miss cartoons!!! i hate making comics too FGHDBJKN it was necessary. worth it#also whoever is in charge of the weather up north? turn up the heat. oh my god my DOGS are gonna FALL OFF#twst#twisted wonderland#lilia vanrouge#twst silver#sebek zigvolt#thats right a LILIA centric piece. see i CAN draw for people other than silver!!! not common but POSSIBLE. smirks. im so versatile#(draws the green guys yet again)#suntails
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Holy fuck nari posts his art again? And its another stupid fucking thang i spent 6 hours on this and its all because of these lesbians get em out of my phone i hate em

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#im losing it#ultrakill#mv2#ultrakill mirage#ultrakill v2#dreams end come true#i used the fucking lasso tool for the background#first time doing the dect artstyle it looks like peepee caca#be nice to me alr 💔#i'll draw something serious one day alright#i got more stuff cooking up but theyre all doodles/wips/shitposts#theres no in between#mind of a mentally ill nd teenager#GET THESE LESBIANS OUT OF MY PHONE I HATE THEM /aff
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To like comics is to ignore comics.
When your favorite character has existed for 80+ years, has had 100s of writers, has changed over and over again, sometimes they got it wrong. You have to decide what to ignore for your own sanity.
#batman#robin#tim drake#dick grayson#jason todd#nightwing#red robin#bruce wayne#dc comics#comics#marvel comics#spiderman#peter parker#superman#clark kent#kon el#superboy#conner kent#and one of mine is the ENTIRE New 52#and bruce wayne being abusive... their no way i can think for him to abuse his kids and still be a hero.#their are some things i believe no hero can ever do. abusing your children is one. ill do this for other too. if you want to call them a#hero and make me believe they're paragons for hope loyalty equality justice etc their are some things they can never do or they lose all#credibility. dc and marvel need to sit down and really think about what they make their characters do and how that effect things.#marvel#iron man#tony stark#why would you make a hero say thell reinstate prima nocta? that was a decision.#and not to say they cant make mistakes. they can. but usually they atone for them.#like wanda maximoff and m day. she then atoned for it by helping bring back mutants and she felt guilt for what she did. they didn't just#just agnore it.
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Chat have we discussed drunk chess with cherik cause i just think. That would be the darnedest silliest thing they could do
#xmen#xmen first class#xmen dofp#cherik#charles xavier#erik lehnsherr#snap chats#sorry still thinking about dofp and i reminded myself of the plane scene#the idea of drunk chess sounds so stupid fun i wish i could play drunk chess#‘snap how do you play drunk chess’ simple !!!! every piece you lose you take a shot#anyway i think itd be silly …….#id like to do something with that idea but i still have to decide on execution#omg xmen fandom hasnt seen my twelve million ‘i wanna draw this so bad’ tags yet#but yeah i sy tht a lot </3 so many things i wanna draw all the time#either that or write …. but i draw more#i love comic makin. and i blame these damned comics for gettin me into it what tha hell !!!#ok im done rambling i wish i had more to say but i dont#i lied i do. this doesnt have to be after erik apologizes on the plane this could be lit any damn time they play#i just live for the progression of them Trying to play semi seriously for a solid twenty minutes before they lose it#and now they wont stop giggling and being stupid asses#theyre still trying to play but ‘trying’ is doing a lot of heavy lifting#imagine it with me chat … itd be so beautiful i could cry frankly#ok my classes are done for today im gonna sit in my room and think of cherik#maybe ill TRY to draw this … if not then def somethin at least
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hey i dont go here but jayce's speech about viktor in s2e9 isn't him saying 'u should never have tried to heal yourself, you were perfect the way u were x3' it was him saying that viktor's physical health never made him any less beautiful, never made him any less important, never made him any LESS, period. he wasn't saying viktor didn't need to pursue a cure for his ills like come on his motivation to invent hextech was to help people. to cure disease. viktor's first and foremost among them.
he said what he said because it was the thing viktor craved to hear most in his life, and that is why those were the words that punched through his defences even as the machine herald: jayce loved him wholly and unconditionally, healthy or ill, good or bad, human or inhuman. he would always be loved just the same.
#jayvik#arcane#like i said i dont go here but u cant slander my boy or that moment i wont stand for it#and yes as someone who is chronically ill i would know if it was ableist LOL (yes yes media is subjective but come the fuck on ppl i beg)#viktor's reaction to seeing inside jayce's mind really cinches it#he had fully given up on ever being loved in that way#romantic or platonic or some secret third thing whatever he had written it ALL off#so he is visibly shaken when he realizes that jayce LOVES (capital italicized underlined bold font) him and everything he is and ever was#jayce's love for viktor literally saves the entire world (also ekko W)#anyway if u wanted my onion i would say viktor didn't allow himself to consciously love jayce in return until that moment#like his need to have jayce be near him and work with him and approve of his actions even AFTER he loses his humanity is very telling#but i do think a lot of that was sort of his subconscious acting out deeply repressed desires#then when jayce confesses he finally understands (it was always about them)#anyway idk when we'll see another relationship like this in media again!!! holy shit!!!!!!!!!!
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Jan-New-Ary Day 7/8! I think paradox pokemon are going to be difficult for me to do in the sense that I have done many of their "regular" counterparts and they'll feel too much like remakes, but this one had the additional hurdle of basically being 3 pokemon in one (magneton which is just magnemite x3 and both of which I've already done), PLUS more details. Altogether took 8hr7 and I had to take so many breaks because I was falling asleep a lot. Also this is a good example of a pokemon whose design really isn't that complicated, just time consuming. I love the way it turned out though!
#pokemon#crochet#amigurumi#sandy shocks#paradox pokemon#pokemon scarlet and violet#pkmnart#art#artists on tumblr#foth#fresh off the hook#most of the pieces are not connected because the design is theyre held together by magnets#which i did not want to try and figure out but also it felt weird to try and connect them#ill run a thread through them all so they dont lose each other#poll#jan-new-ary 2025
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(AU)
What if you died and something divine loved you so much it couldn't cope with that fact? What if they tried bringing you back but the result was wrong?
More doodles + rambles below:
Now What if what came back was just off. Looks at the divine without the memories that went back decades. It looks, behaves and works in a way just off enough in a way to make the god unable to look at it. it's not you. it's not. it can't be.
.... but what if what got pulled back was still you, but its- YOU'RE wrong and broken in ways you cant understand anymore.
The apocalypse draws closer and closer and you don't know why every day that passes you seem to be falling more and more apart too. The god is gone. You are alone.
....Anyway yeah i fucked up a perfectly normal Lovestory Au. i gave it anxiety is what i did. sorry for horrid typing in 2nd person trying to explain stuff im bad at explaining <3 i draw, not write for a reason lol.
#great god grove#ggg click clack#ggg thespius#ggg lovestory#dont have a name for this au but its haunted me for a week and i finally relented when i saw the fact gods CAN create sentient things#thanks huzzle for letting me be evil [thumbs up]#ANYWAY I PROMISE THERES A HAPPY ENDING IN MY HEAD IM JUST CRUEL AND EVIL#AND ALSO INCREDIBLY CRINGE. APOLOGIES. THIS IS WHAT HAPPENS WHEN IM ALONE W MY THOUGHTS W NO ONE TO BOUNCE IDEAS OFF OF.#lovestory except everything went wrong at the last second and now everything sucks. Clicky's alone away from everyone. thespius is JUST GON#Huzzle is absolutely losing it's shit in the corner because it's the one that found out first.#Bauhauzzo is trying to not have the world end#and Missy M is absolutely distraught about how everything's gone sideways so fast and is about to start accidentally flooding the grove#cobi isnt even a god yet. (SAD. I MISS HER ALREADY)#sorry this is probably incomprehensible. oops#i think in images and concepts not words so translating a bunch of those hard.#fun part about this was absoultely drawing faces just ever so off from how i draw click clacks expressions to try and nail it aint right#what being off usually being the mouth#if u have questions feel free to ask. ill just stare at them in fear like a deer in headlights /silly#This is Clicky hes just.... a bit messed up. that *is* him; not a copy to be absolutely clear#...even if thespius doesnt think it is#anyway yeah. purple hyacinths right?#sniles#shrivels up and dies#ggg love and loss au
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sellllllll it's meeeeee. hehehehehehehehehhehe
so for ur writing exercises.... deku + light? please? pretty please?
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heheh heheh hehe niku. this will be the death of me. me writing izuku for the first time 🥲 i will only do this for you </3
contains: established relationship, spoilers for the end of the manga, aged up deku but sometime in between the final outcome (he doesn't get the h*** s*** from bakugo yet), mentions of sex and scars
deku + light
izuku only sleeps with the lights off.
it isn't uncommon; many people you know can't sleep with even just a sliver of light turned on somewhere in the room. but the difference with izuku, you learn, is not that he's unable to stand the light―it's that he refuses to.
you quickly pick up on it the first few times he sleeps over.
he fidgets in bed, pretty badly, actually. the nightlight you sleep with glows a warm yellow, illuminating the side of your face and coating him in its afterglow. you chalk it up to nerves, how he pulls at his sleeves and adjusts his position constantly; he is, after all, one of the most anxious people you know.
and this relationship―it's new. heck, even you feel a little jittery with his arm wrapped around you.
the rhythmic tapping on your hip only increases pace. you don't think he realizes it, so your hand gently reaches for his, intertwining your fingers as you turn around in his arms.
he's close, nearly touching you nose-to-nose; the proximity leaves you fuzzy, a little ticklish, so you giggle, a soft "oops," as the freckles dusting his face almost glisten under the warm light.
"hi," you whisper, meeting his eyes; they stare back at you wide in surprise, "can't sleep?"
he looks almost guilty at your question, as if you’ve caught him with the one thing he's been trying to keep from you.
"just—" his voice comes out louder than intended, prompting him to chuckle nervously as he readjusts his volume, "just winding down, sorry."
you inch closer, nuzzling his nose lightly, "it's okay."
"did i wake you?" he asks, cheeks flushing pink as his eyebrows furrow in immediate concern. his expression is something caught between stifling a grin and feeling sorry.
you shake your head against the pillow you share, strands of your hair tangling with his. "just winding down," you tease, watching as his gaze turns softer, eyelids drooping heavier.
sometimes, you think, izuku holds the world in his eyes―a deep, dark green, the color of life. most times, they look at you with wonderment, bright and alive; photos from inko tell you they're the eyes of his inner child.
on nights like this one, however, they hide a depth in them weighted by what you can only assume is time, and all that has happened to him in such a short span of it.
you try your best to understand what lies beneath them, knowing full well he'll never tell you outright what truly bothers him.
"is it the light?" you bring up, some time after laying in silence.
"hm?" he clarifies.
"do you have a hard time sleeping with the nightlight?"
his eyes widen briefly once more, as if shocked that you've caught him again. these split second reactions are ones you've learned to be attentive to when it comes to izuku.
"no," he tries to lie, but you know better as you turn to your nightstand and reach for its switch, "you don't–"
"it was hurting my eyes," you quickly make up an excuse, tucking yourself closer under his chin as you cut off his attempt to deny it again.
finding out that the light was the problem was the easy part—
you'd begun to notice much earlier on that izuku was barely rested on the nights he'd spend at your place. it was only when your old nightlight broke that you began to notice him waking up much later than you did, groggily rousing from a deep sleep.
—what was hard, was figuring out why.
at first, you suspected it was his scars.
"s-sorry, it's not—" he'd warned you, right as your hands gripped the hem of his shirt the first time you were about to have sex, "—it's not nice."
you didn't care though; you still don't care, and you've made that abundantly clear to him since. you love izuku and all his parts―all the nicks and jaggedy pieces of skin that make up who he is.
when you eventually ask him about it, with a request that he be honest with you for once, he tells you that it is and it isn't―the reason why he exclusively sleeps with the lights off, that is.
it's an odd, comforting relationship he has with his body—that he is simultaneously grateful and sorry for how its become a canvas, both painted and marred to symbolize japan’s historic last stand.
you find out the real reason when you catch him staring at his hands.
he does it often, when he thinks you aren't looking—his fists bunched up in the same way he used to watch the power of one for all course through his fingertips; the same way he used to prepare them in battle.
there’s a faraway look in his eyes that lingers, you notice—a little wistful if anything.
“do you miss it?” you finally ask. he gives you the same shocked look he does every time, as if he’s been caught with a secret he’s been trying to hide.
he’s learned a fair bit about you now, too, though—lying to you is futile when you’ve perfected reading his truth. he stares at his fists again as you take a seat beside him, moving to give you space. you rest your head on his shoulder gently, waiting.
“sometimes,” he admits, but you know it’s an understatement.
“i think about the vestiges a lot. i miss them the most, i think,” he continues, clenching his fists tightly, “i always try to reach out to them, but i guess it doesn’t work that way.”
“i… i try to replicate the right conditions every night, but…” then he lets go, stretching his fingers out wide. the scars on the surface ripple through his skin, telling its own story.
you hum, acknowledging what he means. silence sits with the two of you as you take his hand in yours, slowly unfurling his fingers until his palm reveals itself to you. it’s rough to the touch, seasoned with hard work and all that he’s been through.
“is that why you prefer the dark?” you ask softly, after some time.
it's not often that you stay up later than izuku does. when you do though, you catch him shifting in bed, moving from side-to-side. you pretend you aren't awake, but you hear him mumble their names, dwindling in volume as he dozes off to sleep.
he stares at his palm for a moment before he admits quietly, "yeah." his brows furrow as if contemplating whether to say more, but he shakes his head, dark green strands swaying to the beat of his embarrassed chuckle, "nevermind, it's silly."
"it's not."
you intertwine your fingers, sandwiching his hand between yours. a slight sheen glosses over his eyes as he tilts his head up to look at you. he draws in a breath, before it spills over.
"it's..." he finds the words, and you squeeze his hand in comfort, "it's easier to believe it was all real when the lights are out, and that maybe it can happen again."
#deku x reader#izuku x reader#midoriya x reader#bnha x reader#shotorus.workbook#it is here ! the first time ive ever written izuku ! i hope u like it niku !#idt i'll ever feel like anything i write of him will be enough but i tried !#SPOILERS FOR MANGA ENDING PLS DONT READ AHEAD#some stuff abt the blurb: i see this happening in the time between him losing ofa and before getting the suit from bakugo#so somewhere between when hes teaching#and i think its a lot of complex feelings ― he's happy he did what he had to do but is also mourning the loss of something he once had#i don't think i can ever convey that feeling fully but i hope i at least managed to touch on it here with him !#i see this as like . the period in his life where he's transitioning out of something he once knew into smth else entirely#i also hc reader to be his colleague (like a teacher or smth) but anyone closely related to the job would work !#really just someone who has a base level understanding of what he went through but doesnt know everything#which is why they're still trying to learn all these things abt him and read him better#and also why he tries to hide a lot of things from them still / is hesitant to share in fear of scaring them away smth like that !#thats all i can think of for now but ill let u know if i have other thoughts on this later on ! hehe#hope u enjoy niku !#ask#rep#ask game answered#most nervewracking experience of my LIFE writing him#stellamancer#niku.🥩
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ermmm been watching mcyts a lot lately to cope with the horrors (uni) thos block men unironically saving my life rn
#woop.jpg#do i tag them....sighhhh......#ill tag them just so i dont lose the post if i try to look for it in the future which already happend a lot with some of my posts#smallishbeans#rendog#skizzleman#goodtimeswithscar#third life#limited life#secret life
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