#and now I just looked at a bunch of her recent ig posts

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Her caption nearly made me cry likeee…. we LOVE to see it 🥹💖

[fentrashcat]

Been a while since I talked about my Tourette's gremlin but some new occurrences! I'm in a waxing period of tics ig bc I've just been GOING with them. Kinda really sucks so trying to look on the bright side and wanted to share some recent occurrences.

1. Mom and I found a new tic loop. (My mom is not diagnosed with any tic disorders but does have verbal tics, usually echolalia or like a call/response thing idk what to call it). I was playing with the puppy and was saying like "did you get got? You got got?" At that same time my mom (who was playing a game) says "Oh, I got mail". IMMEDIATELY Tourette's Gremlin goes "You've got mail" in the old AoL voice. Mom's call/response is set of and she does the little like notification jingle. Jingle set off mine again, which set off hers. We went back and forth for almost 5min before she was able to suppress hers and break the loop. Now though I'm getting the urge to tic "you've got mail" at random.

2. I swear my Tourette's gremlin is actively trolling me. So obviously I refer to him as a separate entity, and I often speak out loud to him (like telling him "we aren't doing that" "don't you fucking dare [throw food]" "are you pleased with yourself now?") The other day I was getting a bout of tongue clicks, which I usually only get 1-3 at a time but this was going on way longer. It wasn't painful or anything, just annoying so I say out loud "is this really necessary?" They stop for about 5 minutes, and then I get one more. This led to me saying "Alright then, sassy" which caused my mom to think I named the gremlin Sassy (we had a dog named Sassy). I told her "nope, its name is just gremlin." And the bout of tics came back... Maybe he does want a name lol.

3. I've talked about my older cat before in a Tourette's post, she's the one that trained herself to help my tic attacks. However my younger cat usually just ignores them. During the incident in 2, I was whistling as well. It's a semi-distinct two-tone whistle, think like the opposite of a wolf whistle (tbh, I think it's from Facebook messenger but I'm not sure). Anyway, I was doing the whistle and my younger cat came up to me, put a paw on my knee, and did a two-tone meow in the same cadence. She's mimicked before, learning how to almost say "hello", "yeah", and "no", but she'd never mimicked a tic before. I was so surprised it actually got them to stop for a bit.

4. We're getting some house repairs done and my grandfather was over talking to my mom. He said something about the ducT work, but my brain heard ducK work, and set off a "duck-duck". It confused him so much he forgot what he was talking about by the time we explained what happened, and he just kind of left. Later I was with my grandparents and my grandma was worried about a decorative duck she has up blowing away. Of course I "duck-duck"ed and grandpa goes "don't you know you're not supposed to say that? It'll trigger her." "Say what? Duck? Why not?" "I was talking about something and she heard that bird's name and set off." "Fine then, can I say water fowl? Make sure the water fowl doesn't blow away!" This is all in good fun of course, they like to tease each other and know I'm alright with my tics being used in it.

5. I think I mentioned before one of my weird triggers is fancy candy apples. Specifically the ones that are like caramel and chocolate with a bunch of toppings to make flavors (like rocky road, cookies and cream, ect). We went to a little craft show type thing and one of the vendors right up front had a big display of them. When this happens we always get me at least one (usually two), but we have to get it at the end or I'll be too excited and be ticcing the whole time. We got two before we left and, as expected, I ticced the whole way home. It was a lot of tongue roll tics (like rolling your Rs, if that makes sense). From my tongue hitting my teeth so much I ended up hurting it a bit and had to wait like 2 days until it was comfortable enough to eat even if I started ticcing again. It had to be kept in an opaque bag in the fridge so I didn't set off everytime I saw it 🤣

6. I'm currently in what I'm calling "jukebox mode" because I cannot keep the songs in my head IN my head. As soon as something reminds me of a song lyric, I HAVE to sing it a little. Some from today were "Oh the lights went out" 🎶when the lights go out in the city🎶, "that was a long fall" 🎶it's a long way down🎶, and "I've got mouths to feed" 🎶I got bills to pay and mouths to feed, ain't nothing in the world for free🎶. Also been singing Skip to my Lou, and I'm blaming airhead commercials.

7. I got reminded of a post I saw here, and almost developed a tic they have without ever meeting them or having heard it. (I don't want to say exactly what it is bc I think they read these and I don't want to accidentally get them started or anything)

8. Was playing Skyrim again, saw a skeleton, and immediately ticced "hello moto!" No idea why. I can usually find SOME connection but not this time. I've gotten that as a tic before but usually due to the commercials.

9. I've started ticcing "duck-duck" at jeeps with anything colorful visible on their dashboard. Who knows if they are actually duck-ducks everytime or what, but the gremlin says they count.

Thank you if you read this far! I can't really tell if these are actually entertaining or if I'm just looking for ANY light spots. It's been a tough few weeks, but fingers crossed it starts to lighten up soon. For anyone curious the songs were "when the lights go out" from Family Crest, "it's a long way down (to the bottom of the sea)" from I think the Longest Johns, and "no rest for the wicked" from Cage the Elephant.

I think the gremlin wants a name now though, so if you have any suggestions let me know lol.

[just-some-random-blogger]

Gentle With Me

Lee Sangyeon x Reader

Summary: "He tells me he's gentle when he wants to be, so I think he wants to be gentle with me."

Word Count: >500

Warnings: gender neutral!reader, college au, mentions of smutty times, fluff, slice of life, typos, etc.

A/N: this fic is inspired by this song called touch thank by quinne so listen to it while you read or not ig Tagging: @pinksirensong @aralezinspace @sloanexx have since cross posted on ao3

He was the type of guy that you followed around campus. He was the type of guy you left flowers on his desk for. He was the type of guy you made signs for during sport matches.

Because he was the type of guy that waited for you outside your dorm every morning. He was the type of guy that bought stickers from a street vendor cause it reminded him of you. He was the type of guy that knew your milk tea order by heart.

Sangyeon was that type of guy that was everyone's type. And holy lottery, I was his.

He had promised Jacob and Juyeon a basketball match for a while now, which was why I was in the bleachers with Kevin's superstitious girlfriend, rambling about how she was scared Kevin still had remnants of bad energy on his back cause they recently got stuck in the haunted music room.

It was a lot, and a really long story.

Our said boyfriends were now jogging towards us, out of breath and sweaty.

Sangyeon comes to my side and grabs his water bottle. He places his hands on his hips as he catches his breath. I fish around my pockets and bag for a hankie but only find a bunch of crumpled tissues for Storbux. I grab them and wipe his damp forehead. He finds himself smiling because of it.

"Such a good girl," he mutters softly with a lopsided smirk.

I ignore him for the most part, besides the fact I slap him on the chest.

He lets out a soft laugh and we turn to Kevin and his girlfriend as he assures her that the fact he tripped a while ago was not because the ghost of Pachelbel was out to get him.

Sangyeon chuckles, "you been sharing adventure stories about your boyfriends?" he turns to me with a playful look, "d'you talk about our picnic?"

My lips part, does he honestly think I would talk about how he went down on me at he park?

"No," I raise a brow, "we were just talking about Kevin."

Sangyeon purses his lips into a small frown, "nothing about me, baby?"

"Nah, you're pretty boring."

The three of us laugh at that, but Sangyeon gives a small smile.

Just as Kevin runs off after the boys heckle at him for kissing his girlfriend too much, Sangyeon leans in and whispers, "we'll see if you think bending you over in the bleachers is still boring."

My eyes widen as he pulls way with a smirk and runs out to the court.

I remain there, frozen, and Sangyeon's ego soars as he steals the ball from Changmin, calling out, "this one's for you!"

He dribbles the basketball then dunks it successfully. He chuckles while jogging around and points at me while the rest of the guys give mixed reactions of annoyance and excitement, depending on which team you were one.

[nixierain]

Alright poll time I will hopefully remember and find

Woah I havent showed you much of these, but a recap anyway about the and just an intro ig under the cut if you wanna learn more, feel free to ask questions too!!

DoveTech/LividMetals: Rival companies taking place in California, both majoring in robotics and experimentation. Lots of lore. Makn inspirations: Qualia Automata (Team 6x111) and FNAF. Yall should know about the Fritz family by now, I also got an rp blog for this at @dovetechandlividmetals

Bromind Deities: Bromind is one of my main worlds (2nd newest world as well), the deities were created by the Goddess light and split into two sections; The Astral deities and the Terestrial Deities. The Astrals being; Neptune, Void and Nebula and the Terestrials being; Myca and Fawn (theyre gay). They control over different things. And theres a hierarchy ofc!

Bromind False deities: This plot focuses on Siri (the False deity of the stars) and when she was rejected by Light for Nebula. Then Siri gets vengeful and with Voids help she makes a new hierarchy

Fumbling: Follows Liam and Mason's journey through Harkton Boarding highschool, and being gay they find friends with; Dereck (Drake), Dixie, River, Reef, Kayla and Addicus. Though since middle school our two mc's have been bullied by Mark and his friends. Though some things happen and everything goes askew, throwing thier whole life off balance. This is my gay story, and L and M were my first Gay characters (shocking aint it) I made them in 7th grade

Deadbeat Outlaws (DBO): This story follows two trouble makers, Zach and Craz. The lore has changed a LOT since when I first made it, though I kept the name. Its not fully completed and I don't know how much I want to change so I dont have much to put here

Hellena stuff: this has a LOT of lore and came even before Dragonopolis, like I grew up with this world cause its my lego world that got shaped into this. So the story would be one of many that are with the three heros, Nate, Flower and Nightshade. Nate and Flower have also been tied to DoveTech. But this would focus on their hecktic life of being hero's and going insane to the point where one goes evil and takes over, forcing the other two to have to save the lives, and a lot more!

11:11: Follows the story of a 14 year old girl with ADHD who wishes to not be bored one morning while she eats breakfast, this wish comes true and she gets transported to Trifullium and meets Fenn, the two have to work together to get Mayabelle (the girl) home, eventually falling in love in the process.

Everdollskin: my ragdoll world thing! And my most recent world I've built. Unsure of what part you want me to focus on, but itd probably be either Fargo and Evendor's story and Evan and Bens! Full lf twists and turns and of course Ragdolls and horrors, tears and all!

Apollo: Sooooo, Apollo is one of my newest Oc's, hes got a bunch of lore already though. So he's one of my Yandere's. I know he looks gay (people are arguing with me when I say hes "straight" sl we made a compramise and said he only likes one oerson and that happens to be a girl, and also ig hes bi) But he meets Mae and falls totally head over heels for her, but she... HATES him. Now join him in stalking his new found obsession and killing off anyone she dates!

[oh-my-may]

HELLOOOOOOO

Very quickly I wanted to share some thoughts on Wuthering Waves so far.

I have completed the main quest up to act IV and I think it goes up to 6 in total? So I am more than halfway done with what the main story has to offer so far. I must say, although it does follow the typical anime rpg plot of recent games, I have been enjoying it!

It took me the first two chapters of the story to get behind all the game specific terms like Resonator, Tacet Fields and Discords etc. but I think as of right now I'm pretty secure in my knowledge of it.

I don't wanna get too much into the lore yet but there's so many things about the world (Solaris 3, right?) that I do not understand (yet) but given how I still have main story to play through I reckon some of my questions will be answered later. But the first thing is HOW BIG THE MAP IS? I think it might be like that for me bc I'm not used to playing open world games on mobile and maybe if I played it on PC I'd have a different impression but like... on mobile it seems huge. The Resonance Beacons are kinda oddly placed I think... like there should be a few more but maybe I'm spoiled from hyv games. From what I can tell on mobile it looks good, too. Can't wait for WuWa to come out for PS5 so I can fully enjoy how beautiful it looks. (no, I don't have a PC to play it on atm)

Scar is really cool, overall I really like the "villain" organisation so far (I know their name but wouldn't trust myself to properly spell it on here lol). Maybe bc they're some lf the only characters in this game that know what colour is lol. Scar's eng VA is *chefs kiss* and I think so far he's the most interesting character overall. Chamellya (? Is that how you spell her name) also seems really cool. Haven't met her yet in the story but I've seen several posts and I really look forward to getting to know more about the Fractuids (????or whatever their name is). Call them the Overseers, that's easier to remember and spell HAHA. Wonder what their motive is for abducting Jue and reviving the other big thing (it starts with Th I know, but can't remember it rn... Threnoid or something? Guys I told you I'm still learning)

When directly asked, Scar said that it brings the Lament and all that but like... why would they want that to happen??? Are humans bad? Is something bad gonna happen to them and they know? And what about putting TD parts into human bodies?? Why?? AND WHERE DO TDS COME FROM ANYWAY?

Okay so far for that. Also I quite like Jihnsi, which is suprising to me... I do find it weird that most characters in this game share almost the same color palette, I think it's cool that she's devoid of any color and she's just... pale. Everything about her is so pale and I think that's really cool, somehow. Just like the Overseers it makes her stand out to me.

I haven't met Jiyan yet :( Apparently I will in the next chapter but I have to level up quite a bunch until then... so lemme give you some other thoughts.

First of all I like the open world! I wanted to save exploration for until I have finished the main quests completely but since you have to level up in between the game leaves you no other choice. I haven't even unlocked the entire map yet (as I said I think it's HUGE on mobile lol) but so far it's been very cool! I like the twist they put in the puzzles, somehow they came up with new mechanisms that aren't just repetition of other games open world puzzles. I like that most challanges aren't time gated (like the sniper ones, I'd be dead if they were on mobile HAHA). Besides the challenges where you fly around as that bird and have to fly through rhose rings.. it goes so fast I can NOT control that at all on mobile. Will save those for a later opportunity ig.

The battles have been fun so far. Again I have to say how dynamic the system feels it's really fun with Intro Attacks and all that, the dodge attacks are really cool and yeah... on mobile I just press buttons and can't be as smart with my moves because I barely know wtf is going on and I can't control my fingers as diligently on the tiny buttons lol. Does the mobile version have controller support yet? I think I read somewhere that it doesn't, but I'll probably be the first to jump to it lol.

(Rn I wanna mention that I saved this post until this point and finished writing it afterwards until suddenly the wifi at work disconnected and then I lost hald the post :((( so I have to kinda rewrite half of it, yaay...)

SO. AGAIN.

The echo system is really cool and innovative. Its pretty new to me personally as a system to exchange for the artifact/relic stuff. Its cool you can use the echos ability. I just figure its gonna be a pain to farm later, given how you're not always guaranteed to get an Echo from every enemy snd the stats are random too... I haven't gotten too much into the system yet and what set or whatever is best for each character... but I'm glad that auto euqip is a thing already haha. I'll probably have plenty of time to figure this all out later.

I have arrived at a point in the game where the game wants me to level characters... the game recommended team level 40 for the Scar fight when I had my team at 25... Currently I use Rover, Verina and Chixia and habe been quote enjoying them. I'll try and use Rover as long as possible, so far I really like her playstyle! I also like that the game basically adds two new elements to the roster: light and darkness, basically. Seems pretty cool. Do the elements interact? Haven't gotten too much into the meta yet, so are there like reactions like on genshin or just status effects? To conclude my thoughts I'd like to add that I'm not sure yet how worth it is leveling up my characters rn? I know that Verina is very good and as I said I'll try and level Rover for now, but as for the third slot... although I like Chixia I ultimately wanna get Jiyan or some other 5star lile Calcharo? I also have no idea (yet) how to effectively farm level up material. There must be something like a ley line or calyx surely, I just haven't found it yet. Overall I'd like to spend the 240 energy the game gives me but besides bosses I haven't really found something on the map... oh yeah there was spme forgery challenge ig that's like for weapon stuff? We'll see...

Since I have lots of leveling to do (6 levels to continue the main quest...) I figured doing normal quests is the most effective way to do that, although I have noticed that not all quests give Union Exp? I find that a bit odd. Also are there any of these smaller quests worth paying proper attention to? Like that tell important lore? So far I've only done a few and they didn't really seem significant ... some photo taking and infiltrating an enemy camp, which was pretty cool because Rover dressed up as one of them snd snuck arpund the camp, but it didn't seem that important in the grand scheme of things? Do let me know if there are certain quests that are really cool.

I have done Lingyangs character quest and it was pretty sweet. I liked the camera switch in the cavern a lot. He's also just generally a very cite character, he falls out of the character colour scheme and he's just adorable :( I did get him as my first 5star on the 50 pull banner... sadly I don't like his playstyle :( I think I dislike the way gauntlet characters feel on mobile? Idk. I also dislike that lightning 4star gauntlet man (forgot his name. He was one of my first 4stars and his trial felt weird playing him idk...) in terms of gameplay. I do think this is just a mobile thing for me, at least with the controls. As I said, when the game gets controller support this might change.

I'd like to mention a few things that bother me, too. No game is perfect and I do think that kuro games is definitely able to fix these things. First of all I've noticed that in the open world when expllring it's often very silent? As in... there's no background music? Idk if it's just programmed to set in very late? I know that there is music, since it does play when I log in... but when I walk through the world and change areas it's so oddly silent for so long... it's kinda scary sometimes haha. Also I often hsve the problem that spoken dialogue randomly cuts off mid sentence without any trigger? Like it just doesn't play the entirety of the sentence? And this happens quite frequently, especially in the first few chapters of the story. Also when the text appears on screen... it seems that sometimes it is so long that it doesn't fully appear on screen? It doesn't scroll down or anything the longer texts are just not displayed? Idk.

Another thing I noticed is that the Rover's voice over often seems very monotonous and almost... empty? Like there's no emotion or anything... at least for female Rover. I do like that she gets quite a bunch of spoken lines, but sometimes they seem oddly off against the other characters... one example that really botheres me wss in act 4, when Scar gets arrested (and Scars voice over is phenomenal btw!). There's this moment where he wants to flee and in the lsst second Rover jumps in and says something like "not so fast" or something like that and its just... the character is in action and there's high tension and the line just falls so incredibly flat? I think it may be a directing problem, maybe they just didn't tell her what the context was but like... it really bothered me. I generally like the Eng voice over, although I do find some of Yangyangs pronounciations weird? It irritates me how she says Huanglong a lot of times? Like I get it that its closer to the Chinese pronounciation but other characters say it with an english accent too? Or her breathy "Rover" all the time? I think this is just me but it was quite annoying.

Other than that (and I already mentioned it) it will tske me some time to get used to the colour palette of the characters... i do like the character design, but almost every character has the same colours to them? It's all mainly black with white/grey details and occasinally some shade of blue/red or green in between. Very few characters fall out of that scheme, like Encore, Verina or LingYang. Or the Overseers, but they're not playable (yet?)

Other than thode pretty minor problems I'm excited to explore the world a bunch now. Very excited to see how the story ends as of rn. The devs are very attentive to player feedback so I'm vurious to see where the game is headed. I do think it has lots of potential. As I said, I can't wait for playable Scar and just generally to explore more of the world. Are there gonna be more countries added to the world? I'd say yes as of right now but are there mentions of it in the story? Very excited for it!

Also I'm looking forward to meeting Geshulin in the story. Ive seen short clips of him and to say I'm obsessed would be an understatement. This game nails it's morally grey male characters.

I'm not used to taking screenshots during mobile games, so I have only this one of Scar for now, maybe I'll mamage to make it a habit. Bye for now! (Wish me luck on Jiyans banner)

[lovemyromance]

I recently found this post that the other side of the ship war rejoices over and it kinda soured my mood. https://www.tumblr.com/lullabestie14/745286670873739264/oh-my-god-look-what-i-just-discovered-so-in?source=share

My faith right now is based on the fact that if sjm really wanted lucien and elain to be mates, then she would do a way better job developing them and would not neglect them for three books straight. Because so far that ship is just unbearably uncomfortable on multiple levels. There is also the fact that i can't figure out what book order would be possible with this line up (like, does it really make sense to have az or mor as the last book's mc? Because elain definitely feels like the next mc. To me the logical thing would be to have az/elain book, then mor novella, then feysand book to wrap things up). There is also sjm saying in one of the latest interviews that no matter how much she tries to plan things years ahead, her characters will still take her where they want. Sorry for the rumbling, ig i am just really trying not to get too upset and believe in the narrative. Anyway, what do you think, should we be worried about something she said way way back then?

Honestly, I really don't think that post is a reason to worry. There are so many logical holes in that flow of thought (aka. assuming she said it was an Elucien book, assuming she is telling the truth about not changing her mind, assuming BB wanted to buy the spinoffs exactly as she said or just 3 more books in general, etc.)

I think she was contractually obligated to write 3 more books. Who knows what she pitched them as?

What I can tell you is that in the text, there is no mention of Elucien in a positive sense. If she were sticking to Elucien, why did she write it like that? Why did she bring in all these Elriel moments? Why did she send Lucien off on an off page mission in ACOWAR and he was basically never seen again, except to occasionally guest star at Solstice??

I also want to point out that SJM's writing style is "Pantsing" , not "Plotting" (she said it herself). Which means she just rawdawgs writing, no outline, no plotting. Which is insane to me considering how detailed and layered her plot lines are and how long her books are. I genuinely think because of her writing style of not plotting it all out before writing, she is a little unorganized (take it with a grain of salt, as I am an extremely type A person lol). That's why she's retconned plot points, that's why she has a bunch of fragmented storylines with so indication she will wrap them up.

Which means even if she were telling the truth with that comment on Facebook years ago, it's very likely she changed her mind 🤷🏻‍♀���

I do think she's just hyping up the plot point she laid out in ACOMAF with that Facebook comment though. I think she changed her mind on Elucien after ACOMAF, and decided to go an Elriel route while she was writing scenes for ACOWAR and realized Elucien doesn't click at all.

But it's not like she can say "oh yeah I messed up on making them mates" "or sike they won't end up together lol" when someone comments on making elucien mates. That would reveal a huge twist. For example, if you look at her interviews in ACOTAR about FeyLin, she gushes about how great they are. She wasn't going to reveal a giant twist then and she still isn't now 🤷🏻‍♀️

That coupled with her most recent interviews of wanting to pursue a rejected mates storyline make it more obvious to me that she's going for Elriel. I mean, it's clear in the text.

In order for her to make Elucien endgame, she would have to:

Fix the massive distance she created with them in the last 3 books

Fix the burgeoning feelings between Elain & Azriel (no I don't think the BC was an ending to them in any way)

Have Elucien fall in love

Have Elain train her powers (which I don't think Lucien could help her with whatsoever. If anything it's going to be Amren or Azriel)

Have them play a part in the Koschei conflict

And I just feel like that is way too much to cover in one book. Not to mention, the book is going to be dual POV and it doesn't make sense that Azriel is getting all this screen time only for Lucien to get a POV.

I think the last 2 spinoff books will follow:

1. Elain & Azriel: They will have forbidden romance trope, rejected mates storyline, maybe something to do with Dusk Court, and they will have some small Koschei conflict but will not defeat him.

(Like we really don't get introduced to Koschei much until the end of ACOSF. They don't defeat Koschei, they just temporarily foil his plans. I think we'll get something like that again for Elriel's book. There will be a Koschei showdown but it won't be the end of him)

2. Lucien & Vassa: Lucien, fresh off his rejected bond will, will fall for a new LI in this book to wrap up his happy ending. I feel like it's Vassa because the whole "Bird of Flame & Lord of Fire" thing, but admittedly I don't have much evidence. I think together with the IC, they will finally defeat Koschei in this book and address the Autumn Court power struggle. Lucien will find out his parentage and he and Vassa will live happily ever after. I know he's Helion's son, but I think it's poetic that formerly Human-hating Lucien will fall for the human queen and stay with her over moving into Day Court.

And maybe she'll have a novella after maybe not. Idk. All I know is she was planning on 3 books after ACOWAR. We already got ACOSF, so I can only see a plan for 2 more so far.

I don't think Mor will get a book tbh. I haven't seen SJM write LGBTQ+ romances as her main characters. She kinda just sprinkles them in for diversity (ahem Fury x Juniper). I don't think Amren & Varian will get a book. There's just not much there, like they're already together. I don't know who else would be relevant enough to get a book.

Plot-wise, I don't think SJM will address the Illyria conflict thing either. It was a plot point to show unrest, but that's it. I don't see her writing an entire book about Azriel/Emerie "saving" it. I also don't think she's going to deep dive into Autumn Court power struggle either. I literally think it will just be Beron will die in Lucien's book and Eris will finally take over. I don't think she will write an entire book on healing journeys and she won't write an entire book on Tamlin's court in spring.

That's just my prediction, so we will just have to wait and see what happens!

[pallases]

hi leigh!! i hope you're well :) saw your post with asks and decided i would combine lots of them lol so first thing is tell me abt whatever's bothering you!! i hope nothing's bothering you obv but still.

also i am asking you for book recs. i haven't been reading a lot of proper books lately so any recs are welcome but i kind of feel like some fantasy would do me good. but like good ones? The last couple of years i've been picking up some popular fantasy standalones hoping they feel like a fantasy book you read when you're twelve and they end up being the most mid thing i've ever read. like help. i'm planning to read some robin hobb books so hopefully they're good.

also i've started listening to mitski (talk about being late lol) and i'm really liking her songs i was wondering if you have any particular recs? Or any music recs? what've you been listening to?

sorry this ask is all over the place lol i guess i'm chatty today. i hope you're having an amazing day!! <3<333

ORLA!!!! i hope you are doing well too <3 one thing that is bothering me is school is starting again bc i have gotten virtually no break </3 also that apparently the english class i’m taking doesn’t have any required books i was looking forward to reading actual books not whatever mini readings ig they’re going to be giving us instead ☹️ also also that i did Not in fact get my license like planned this summer bc during the singular week i was home a bunch of stuff suddenly came up and it became no longer my priority and now i will need to renew my permit Again bc it expires in early september and im not going to be able to make it home before that so. <3

as for book recs!! i have tragically had the same problem lately re fantasy books and honestly mostly just books in general BUT i don’t know if you’ve read any ve schwab ive really loved what books of hers ive read. vicious was my favorite, but the monsters of verity duology better fits the “feels like a fantasy book you read when you’re twelve” vibe!

for non-fantasy recs if youre feeling poetry i reallyy liked margaret atwood’s morning in the burned house. also just finished hitchhiker’s guide to the galaxy which was v fun! got many laughs out of me, i did not however know before starting it that it’s a series so now idk how to proceed bc i only have the first book agdjfk

OH ALSO fantasy shoutout to strange the dreamer duology 🫶��🫶🏻 lovely writing style and world, fascinating antagonist, i was not a big fan of the romance but otherwise big rec on that. definitely not for everyone tho some ppl find the pacing too slow, i remember when i first read it i mentioned that in my review too that it took a bit for me to really get into although i personally wasn’t bored in the meantime like others, i was just chilling enjoying what it had to tell me abt everything

MITSKI RECS!! i love strawberry blond sorry for being basic. square too but specifically square solo piano version which they took off of spotify (idk what you’re listening to her on). because dreaming costs money my dear is also a veryyy hard-hitting one. fond of circle, a burning hill, goodbye my danish sweetheart, nobody, washing machine heart, and class of 2013 as well. that was a lot i will stop now 🫡 also must admit i am quite behind on mitski’s recent releases so i can’t speak for any of her newer albums/songs. except for working for the knife musically it doesn’t hit as much as other songs of hers for me but lyrically it makes me go crazy

as for random music recs my most recently liked songs are unsweetened lemonade by amélie farren, army dreamers by kate bush, numb little bug by em beihold, would that i by hozier, the milk carton by madilyn mei, and comme des enfants by cœur de pirate. i have not really been “listening” listening to anything lately! though that will change in a few days with wisdom saga >:)

— sleepover saturday sunday!

[pocketizz]

Hellooooo! This is kinda a long post today but it’s a dump of a lot of stuff and some ig ‘backstory’ to one of my friends… Enjoy!

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I was meant to go into work today (only volunteering at a charity shop) But i got no sleep last night so i didn’t go 😔 went into town anyways with my mum to get some bits for the house, also got my dad a toblerone bc his birthday is soon!

i got him a wine bottle holder that’s in the shape of a car for his main gift (he wanted it i don’t get the appeal tho). He’s made a little man cave for himself at the house, made his own bar and a pool table that turns into a flat table to play ping pong on (it’s v cool) he also makes all his own wine now???? Not complaining tho, he’s got so many bottles it means i can steal one or two here and there without him noticing :P

Speaking of alcohol, I got invited to go to a party with my friends and their freinds this friday but i said my mum wouldn’t let me go bc i didn’t want to hang around a bunch of people i hardly know, get drunk, and then have to get either a bus home or call my mum whilst drunk and i didn’t want either of them :P

My ex-girlfriend (let’s call her H) has been msging me a lot recently, she wants to meet up in aug when she’s back from a holiday. I don’t reallyyyyyyy want to… I love her (as a friend now) but she’s been pretty rude to my bsf and her bf recently (my bsf ‘S’ Her bf ‘Al’). She told both sides that the other was $hing bc of being in a relationship and how ‘stressful’ it was. Although S has struggled w that before and currently, she was not doing so bc of a relationship, and Al doesn’t and hasn’t????? H is just such a liar honestly, it’s been the same since we first met, she’ll just make shit up: one example of this was when we were in yr9, she told me that a girl in our yr had called me ‘fat and ugly’ so she punched this girl in the face (in front of other people), gave her a black eye, and told her to go to the nurse and say that she’d just walked into a door or fallen over or smth.

Reasons i know this is fake/a fat lie:

1. She supposedly did it in front of others, if this was the case it would be a big thing, my whole yr were pretty close at the time so this story would’ve spread quickly. I never heard anything about it happening.

2. H would not tell me who it was. I was genuinely upset and surprised that someone had said that abt me, and wanted to know who had said that so i could either confront them or just stay clear away from them. She made it into some sort of game, where i had to guess who it was who’d said it. This upset me even more so she told me it was sm1 who i went to primary with. For the rest of the week i scouted out every single person at that school who went to the same primary as me to see if anyone had a black eye or looked injured but no one did.

3. When i asked H about it more recently she told me it was this girl called ‘T’ …. i hadn’t spoken to T since at least yr3 and had never interacted with her in secondary school, why she would care abt what i looked like makes no sense… H also supposedly had a crush on T during yr10, why she would have a crush on a girl she punched in the face i have no idea…

So i doubt that really happened. She also just lies about little stupid things, the sports she plays, the careers she has/had, Apparently she was supposed to play Enid Bingham (the emo one) from stranger things but she turned the roll down bc of school (she would’ve been 11/12 at the time of casting, enid is supposed to be 16/17) (maybe, idk but a lot older than 12) and supposedly she’s been in tons of films and shows but she just doesn’t want to tell anyone what she’s been in…. sureeeee

You should see some of the shit she sends me jesus christ, all of that soppy shit on tt like the ‘This is how i see you’ slideshows that are art pieces, don’t get me wrong it was cute when we were dating, but now that we’re not i find it kinda weird. i should tell her but knowing her she would cause some shite bc of it.

Recently she blocked everyone on our gc for ‘no reason’, S then asked on this gc ‘So you blocked us and made us upset and worried for you for ‘no reason’?’ she got PISSED at this ( copy and pasted from the gc)

‘You don’t get to do that’

‘You don’t get to guilt trip me and make it all about yourself that’s not right’

She wasn’t guilt tripping??? She was upset for a valid reason and worried about you for a valid reason (H has struggled with their MH before as well as $uicidal thoughts ect so people are (RIGHTFULLY) worried when she blocks everyone and drops off the face of the earth for a day!

When i msged her later asking why she blocked everyone she said (copy and pasted again)

‘It’s just so I don’t get careless and start upsetting people cause I’ve been a bit short recently so I’m like punishing myself’

Which sucks don’t get me wrong, i don’t want her to feel as though she has to ‘punish’ herself bc she’s had a short fuse atm (probably bc she’s stressed from gcse season) But how can you say this after doing the exact thing you just said you didn’t want to do?!?!!!! i didn’t respond to that msg bc it just pissed me off seeing it after she had been so rude to S…

(Quick lore dump of me and H’s friend/relationship)

- Became friends in yr9 through two mutual friends

- i had a fat crush on her in yr9 and so did she but we never said anything

- She then dated my bsf and i felt v awkward abt being around them both

- Yr 10 a mutual ‘Friend’ drove us apart

- End of yr10, this ‘Friend’ was a pos who ‘Exiled’ (their words not mine) me and my friend (we’ll call her ‘K’) from our friend group for not hanging out with M (the ‘friend’ for less than 3 days…)

-end of yr 10 Me and H are friends again ‼️‼️‼️

- (yr 11) At S’s house for a sleepover, both drunk and during truth or dare she gets asked by sm1 ‘what’s the longest you’ve ever had a crush on sm1?’ She says just under 3yrs. How long had we been friends? Just under 3 yrs, coinky dink i think not.

- One thursday i do drugs for the first time (in school ik please don’t judge i was going through it) I feel like shit all day, passing out being sick ect but refuse to go home. Next day i stay off bc im coming down and still feel like shit. Sat morning i get a big confession text from her ‘i’ve liked you forever i feel bad hiding it from you i don’t like lying to you’ (but she does…. so often…) later that month we’re dating. It’s awkward. It’s horrible. She never talks to me in person and always avoids me which takes skill bc we go to the same school and are in a lot of the same lessons so???? She wants a ‘break’ bc GCSEs will be stressful, i say ‘let’s just break up then’ bc i was pissed at her for doing it over text rather than to my face, a few gcse’s later me and S are walking around town after an exam and she tells me ‘H really wants to ask you out again and is just wating for exams to be over’ I say ‘ew’ i msg her saying ‘i don’t want to be in a relationship with you again, im saying this now so i don’t have to potentially turn you down face to face in the future’

She says okay i’ll stop

She doesn’t, she keeps on being flirty sending me texts about how much she loves me or misses me (it’s so much worse if she gets drunk) and i try my best to let her down gently each time but she never seems to get the hint.

So yeah!

Now you know a little bit more about me and H :0

I’ll write some more tomorrow but for now i’m going to bed!

Good night anyone reading, i hope you’ve had a great day you deserve it! <3

[ntls-24722]

So i made a stunning observation

And I made a stunning conclusion.

Spider monkey music man!!

the fact that primates only bare their teeth when they're stressed/generally not having a good time is a little worrying with a character that always smiles

more Earwig Comet! I had redrawn him recently but i forgot to post it... no better time than now ig

He can stand on two legs, but it's not his preferred mode of walking. he much prefers skittering around on ceilings and on walls

For the next 2, I gave my friend my massive list of DJMM/MM Aus and let them pick random ones and they picked the Sans DJMM and the Bee MM from Comet/Fritz's story

He has no heightened abilities but rather his whole Thing has been changed from a super-powerful fight to a horrible game of hide and seek - letting the player loose in a pocket dimension and him hunting them for sport, just like how the Player did in the Underground.

also, he's a drag queen. I know that for sans that's probably wayyyy too much work but this is specifically the sans djmm so maybe the DJMM aspect motivates him. I did this literally just because everything I've thought of in regards to this guy has been to lady gaga so i decided to inject Gaga directly into his bloodstream like so

Queen Bombus!! a girlboss!! who is also super dead!!!

her and her hive have reunited in the afterlife in a very grand-looking "grim reaper" and she's renowned for the fact that she took no shit from the evil facility that created her (and Comet) and went on a violent spree through it.

Fun fact, said "grim reaper" (more like giant walking ghost apartment complex) has a bunch of wooden balls for recreation since bees just Enjoy That Sort Of Thing. It's great

[hoghtastic]

https://www.tumblr.com/hoghtastic/745668863653462016/yall-keep-talking-about-her-body-as-if-its-a

Anon, who said Johanne is fat. Or that there is anything wrong with having big boobs. Or that her body is a “problem” (whatever that means)🤷‍♀️ Yes, people have an opinion about her looks. Clearly you are one of the stans who is personally offended if anyone doesn’t think Johanne is “beautiful”. Or if they don’t think she has a “hot” body because you look like her. You think she isn’t “shaped bad” Ok, that’s you. There are some people who do. Get over it. You would love it if more anons would fawn over Johanne the way some anons do about MK. You haven’t sent in an ask condemning people for talking about MK’s looks. Reducing her to just her physical appearance and not her intellect or her personality. Give me a break🙄 You are full of shit. You are just upset that most anons over here are not saying that her red hair, freckles, pale skin are “beautiful”. And that we all wished we looked like her because she is just so “hot”.

You asked “what would you say about people that actually look like how you describe her?” Well anon, probably nothing. We are not discussing other random people (and you stans) who look like Johanne. That’s your problem if you are insecure and have low self esteem. And if you are trying to live vicariously through Johanne. We are only talking about Johanne. Especially now that she is posing topless. This is probably just the tip of the iceberg. I can’t imagine what other pictures she will desperately post to show off more of her body.

You also asked “how does she look “mentally challenged?” I’m the anon who wrote that ask. I’m not sure if you were actually offended. Or if you were just finding something else to complain about. Especially if you are not mentally challenged. Nonetheless, I thought I was being politically correct in using that term. Instead of the “R word”. But clearly someone was still offended. I didn’t mean to be “rude” or for my ask to be “upsetting”. I didn’t mean to offend anyone who is actually mentally challenged. Or “represent” them in that way. I just thought the selfie video that Johanne posted was stupid. She looked stupid. Whatever she was doing. It was a “wtf video” to me. I thought that some people might ask wtf is wrong with her? What the hell is she doing? If you thought that was a normal way to “eat toast”. Or if you thought the video was “cute and adorable” like other stans, then fine. I thought she looked crazy and very stupid. And I would say that about anyone who posted a video like that.

Anon, of course you think we are a bunch of “bullies”🙄 And who are we “bullying” exactly? Let me guess🤔 Firstly Johanne and Alex (even though none of the asks are being written on their IG pages) And I doubt they are reading this blog. And secondly you stans. The poor little stans that are constantly being “attacked” by all of us “haters”🙄😂 You said “if people are going to continue to act like the people they say they can’t stand, then….”No, anon that’s you and the other stans. You all have a problem/meltdown if anyone doesn’t agree you. You all come across as the actual “bullies”.

You said you are going to “check out”. I really think that is for the best. It’s probably better for your mental health. Clearly this blog triggers you (as well as the other stans). And you can’t handle it. It might benefit you to look into why you are so triggered when other people dislike Johanne. Or talk about her body. Because it really shouldn’t. You shouldn’t need a C-list/D-list “celebrity” for validation. Or to boost up your self esteem. You shouldn’t care if the feedback about Johanne is positive or negative. But if you still choose to be a stan for Johanne, there are a couple of stan blogs. A blog just recently decided to become a hardcore stan blog for Johanne and Alex and Johanne as a “celebrity couple”. You can find the name of it on this blog. It was talked about recently. And of course there are several fan pages on IG that worship Johanne and go on and on about her “beauty”. You said “have fun, stay happy, stay safe, truly enjoy life everyone”. Well, I think you should take your own advice. I think most anons, if not all of us, are doing those things. This is just for fun. It shouldn’t be taken seriously.😊😉😚

Anon to anon, in response to this ask. 😊 "This is just for fun. It shouldn’t be taken seriously." — Preach! 🙌💖

[luckynumbersevenseven]

Note in my phone last night..when i go on social medias that i have not become desensitized to (not facebook ig or tumblr or like..youtube. But reddit tik tok twitter etc.) this is consistently i feel

Oh MY god the suggested twitter feed makes me want to blow my actual self into oblivion. I dont even say the whole kms shit lightly. It makes me actively want to die. Well i guess passively but. If i read it more often i probably would combust. I only read like 15 tweets in like 3 minutes starting w elon musk saying something about media manipulation and censorship and then a bunch of tweets about aging gracefully instead of turning into an embalmed muppet like madonna who clearly has so much plastic surgery that she looks bloated and shiny and terrible and one person posted a pic of her mom at 64 compared to madonna at 64 but her mom also clearly still has a lot of work done..its just more subtle and she was like look my mom is aging gracefully. And then theres someone comparing the chinese spy balloon that was shot down recently to a “raiser of a junkie son”???? What evem?how did u possibly make that about hating addicts? Idk. Thats like the fallback feed. That they show u before u follow anyone. So sick. Celebrities tweeting like theyre politicians politicians tweeting like they are celebrities ew! Everyone with their petty bullshit hot take two sentences. These are the people that control the globe! Ew!!!! Who cares! Everyone! Thats the worst part. What is this weird fucked up game we r all playing? Feels like a k hole

I want to scream i did just whisper scream at my phone and kick my legs in bef and said oh my god stop stop stop reading about the amazon forrest dying!!!! Its slow and painful! Fucking just explode the earth. What the fuck. What the fuck. The world id burning. The anthropocene needs to end!!!! Crumble!!!! Now!!! Things will go on without us. Our own iceage holy fuck tho it is torturous living through this descent. The apaocolyps is now!

The colorado river is drying up. The amazon will soon be brushland. California is burning and crumbling away into the ocean. Childhood obesity. Inflation. Kids starve and the celebrities refuse to touch their feast to maintain their surgically modified figures. Women in iran are being tortured and executed based on what? For standing up for their rights as humans. What are our rights as humans? Who decides? Women in america have their faces surgically altered based on the current trend. Quietness drives people insane. Migrants flee death through death to an imminent and slower death. We are sending weapons to them to kill them before they kill them and then us. Computers scan our faces without warning. But just to keep us safe! Of course! I was not born for this world. Who made this place this way. I did not. Was life on earth ever abundant and joyful? There was always loss and death. Idk. Feels like it is absolutely overpowering.

[viscountessevie]

It makes me sad to see how on CC’s last post so much of the Bridgerton cast were commenting and sharing like Kathryn, Florence, Ruby commented and even reposted her post, Shelley Jonny CVD, JQ, and a bunch of the crew. But on Simone’s most recent post only Jonny commented. It makes me sad to think she was even a bit isolated on that cast. Also C gets hyped up from Hollywood Indians and not just on her desi posts but they’re silent for Simone-these are the people that should have her back

Hey anon, thanks for waiting! It's been an exciting weekend but also a lot of incredibly heavy stuff has come up and I realised I was pretty mentally exhausted. I still am to be honest so I apologise for not delivering on my usual essays and am going to keep this fairly shorter than my usual asks!

So first off I want to direct you to this post of mine because it's the same tone I want to take with this ask. That I hear you and its okay to be upset. It really does seem unfair.

That being said, I have said time and time again I really do not like pitting these two women. [Ik you aren't doing that anon but just constantly comparing them can get tiring and like you said its sad to see!]

Yes, while I disagree with CC's Bridgerton opinions and how she has conducted herself on her solo press tour, I still do enjoy her as an actress and am looking forward to her next project! However, since her Bridgerton press has made me uncomfortable and view her in a less than great light *to me*, I have created a boundary not to engage in any of her press tours or interviews in the future. And hopefully no one will send me asks about it anymore because the interviews won't be for Bridgerton!

Anyways all that said, and while we are talking about personal boundaries with yourself: my advice to everyone who does keep checking these things (which I understand can be addictive and you want to see our girl supported but not at the expense of your own mental health!) is to set that boundary not to check. I never check these things, hell I don't even read or watch press and my peace of mind has been better for it! The only time I hear about this is from anons on here or, one or two friends who happen to notice these things sometimes.

If you all choose to do this, great I'm happy for you to have more peace of mind in an already chaotic fandom with drama every day ahahah. Now, its time to reflect on how this behaviour from the cast is not on us or Simone. It's a reflection of the cast and it's their own damn problem. It's none of our business and they're just showing themselves, to be honest. [We can't even use the algorithm excuse to brush them off anymore, it takes less than 5 seconds to search up Simone's name and drop a like/comment. But whatever, their devices, their choices. I do not care anymore.]

We LOVE our girl, like/comment on her IG and hype her up enough and she knows and sees all of them. I think we can also take comfort in the fact that Simone probably does not care for these things (who in the cast is commenting or liking) and knows her worth so we shouldn't care too imo! We get back a lot of our power and control over how we feel when we just choose not to care honestly.

All that matters is our favourite IG grandpa got so excited he commented twice on our ViscountYES's post!!

[sohoharlem]

To all the people sobbing in their pillows because HC told NV he is proud to be her man. It's still PR. The caption under his birthday post was so cringe-worthily vague and glaringly not written in his voice. And it was clearly made to jump start the NV new job announcement. It’s all controlled down to the last iota and will be for a while. They chose to lay low so the fans would support The Witcher S2. Now they are ramping up because EH2 is coming out in July and 007 talks are peaking. Her career move does make me think that she has not been at Legendary for a while but they had some form of agreement and now she's moved on to a company led by yet another trashbag producer with a laundry list of misdemeanors — see link below! —. And they do genre stuff, so that might well be HC trying to conjure up that power couple mojo to try and break into producing/directing his own fantasy projects, cos he’s clearly hinted at it recently and it seems like he doesn’t have credibility in the space to somehow achieve this differently, or he’d already have some form of producer/exec producer in the Witcher. However, the fact that this is still PR doesn’t mean HC is a saint patiently withstanding the horrors of being associated with someone he doesn’t like that ‘was forced upon him’. I am sure he likes her just alright you know. It’s PR but it’s still a companionship of sorts and it’s mind boggling how this so far has clearly benefitted her more than him. If it’s all to end today, NV has increased her IG followers 10x, has a new job and some press about her. He just looked like a tool and the protection such relationship provides vs being cancelled for pedo rumors has been outweighed by the fact that he’s come out as someone with clear emotional issues, questionable values and a bunch of clowns as associates. 

https://www.hollywoodreporter.com/business/business-news/allegations-prostitution-more-hollywoods-nastiest-producer-feud-1299878/

[alyblacklist]

I won't say I told you so but I'm the nervous anon who's bothered you so much about Megan leaving. I honestly think there was still a chance she'd be back bc between her 2nd & 3rd ep back she unfollowed tbl insta. & stopped promoting the show in her stories. Just sad all around they didn't value her enoughThere's a post on Megan's instagram from July 2019 of a tattoo &she edited the caption 1 week ago, what do you make of that? Add this to IG url /p/B0bdmVhhIRz

To "nervous anon" or "I told you so anon" or whatever I should call you. Yes, you were right. However, I wish you had just made your own posts on your own page instead of filling my inbox with constant angst.

To both of you, yes, I have been made aware that Megan has apparently been editing the captions of her Instagram posts - some as many as three years old - over the past week or two to remove positive references to the show or whatever. Here are some examples:

Newly edited caption:

This:

Became:

Even a nice photo with Amir from January 2020 has now been recently edited so that the caption is only his name.  This one from July 2019 was edited two weeks ago to read “First day back in our grey play pen.”

Some more examples from Twitter in this thread. The one from 2017 was originally captioned “Liz Keen in the garden,” and was edited last week to “Depression but you still have to go to work.” 

She's also deleted a bunch of posts (including at least these three from this season, just on a quick look 1, 2, 3)

The fact that she’s taking the time to go back and edit captions on years’ old photos suggests this was not a very amicable departure, so I'm not sure what that means in terms of whether she will ever guest on the show again. 

[princess-pill-enjoyer]

Im not dead hi

💀💀💀

I kinda thought to myself a little and I was just like... oh yeh with the note I left on and the degree I've let this get to me dipping for that long probably would look suspect..

Figured I'd get back to it. I am tryna slow down again. Me constantly being like.. high high starts to get in the way I'm seeing. I can get away with it within the first like hour halfish buuut past that I get really out of it and I process shit super slow. I've actually always had this problem now that I'm looking back tbh. But usuallyyyy I'd just dose again during that period and I'd be fine. But with how much i take off rip I have hydration issues by the first and I'm sure taking dose after dose prolly would exasperate that a bit

I'm actually halfway through the bottle now. It was kinda weird to see. It's felt like it's unlimited ever since I bought the giant bottle but 4 months later andd I've emptied the rest of it into the container I hide em in. I don't know how I feel about it.

Oh right uh I dunno if I had done it by the time I posted the other one but I went ghost for like.. 4-5ish days and that was.. eventful. Wasn't planned. I was sad one day and I just continued ignoring everything until a less closeish friend of mine reached out. He considers me his best friend but even with that we don't talk that that much. So once HEEE start going through hoops to try and reach out I was like o uh maybe I took it too far.

All in the past now it's been about a week being back. I try and let myself ignore messages more so that I feel more comfortable giving myself space without needing as long as a break. Well. That's the nice way of looking at it. Whatever uh. R and me have been fine. Had some technical issues with insta and I wasn't on as much cause of it which wasn't a great look after all that. I felt so bad. She cried a few times while I was gone. Unlike me and the other dude we do talk everyday and while the shit aint as like.. ig attentive as it used to be, we do usually get back to each other a bunch throughout the day so she damn near instantly thought something was off..

Sorry I'm babbling at this point. Long story short. Habit has gotten pretty bad. When I dipped I was doing it 3x a day and I've been doing 2ish lately. Still a long way from the once every other day I was doing when I originally started this. It makes me really sad honestly. Sometimes I don't even feel like taking my pills for the day but then boom I'm finna cry. Or irritable and have my whole day ruined off a minor annoyance. It don't even feel worth it to fight it anymore. But the hydration thing is kinda bad so I try sometimes ig

I had 2 funerals to go to while I was gone too. One was an old family friend. I never was close with her as like I'm just now really starting to connect with people in my family tbh. But it was still like.. wild. I just visited her around this time last year and one year later she's in the ground. The second one was for a longtime friend of my mom's. I won't lie, I really didn't know her at all. But it happening back to back just rattled me. I had seen them both semi recently and they weren't deathly ill at the time or anything. I just. I dunno. I can't explain why it makes me sad

I had to get high for the funerals. I felt so embarrassed but I just know it'd be easier that way. Though uh I kept circulating on whether they suffered or not and I couldn't stop crying cause of it. I hate that there's a real possibility that they sat there feeling terrified and in agony before they left. That still kills me. I hope they were able to be semi comfortable at least. It's the least they deserve

I'm not high rn but that's finna change. I had to play this game with a friend of mine yesterday while coming down and that shit was.. miserable. I wanted to sleep and lie around but dude bought the game for me specifically for us to play. I wouldn't dare. I was tryna stay sober today just incase he was tryna play earlier today and i didn't wanna risk being gone gone. But atp I think I'll just hop on tomorrow. I'm sick of being like this. I'll just say I got busy.

I'm gonna probably change the way I write these cause the multiple times a day thing is kinda awkward to document. Or not. I dunno. Maybeee I will stop being such a fucking JUNKIEEE and take the shit at least semi safely I wouldn't need to but. We will see.

I'll get back to it tho. I think it's important to keep up with it and if I only update when I'm semi stable it defeats the purpose of the page tbh. My bad for dying off the face of the earth. I'm fine

[jeonsblackgf-writes]

ONE PLUS ONE || 1 ||

✨Summary: Trials and Tribulations of vinnie and his gf.

✨pairing: Vinnie Hacker x black!OC

✨genre: fluff ig

✨word count: 1.7k

Both characters are like 22 in this btw.

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"Come on Rhey, it's not funny." Vin groaned, already embarrassed at the outcome of his recent tiktok. He had posted a thirst trap on tiktok with boxers on. He thought the video looked okay, until he read the comments where people were talking about his dick size.

Ignoring him, Rhey continued to laugh, her box braid up-do coming down in the process. She scrolled through the comments to read more as her boyfriend glared at her, "Look at this one someone said Your dick looks so small I bet your girlfriend uses it as a toothpick.' I AM SCREAMING"

"Ha ha ha." He grumbled, crossing his arms as he kept his eyes on her. The comments weren't even all that funny, she just wanted something to laugh at.

"Awwww is the wittle baby upset his weewee is small." Rhey playfully cooed at him, grabbing his face in her hands. His cheeks went red as he felt her warm hands move his face fro side to side in a cooing manner, as if she were his grandmother.

"Baby stop it's not funny. Someone said my dick looks like a pebble. My dick is literally 11 inches. What fucking pebble are they talking about." He complained as he stood up from the couch and went into their room. The second he closed the door, the rest of their friends came inside of her LA villa with confused faces. She completely forgot she gave them keys.

"He's mad his fans are calling his dick small." She responded before walking into their room to see him lying down, stomach on the bed with his phone in his hand scrolling through social media. She walked over to him and laid on top of him, putting her head on his shoulder so that she could whisper in his ear.

"You know I was only joking right. You have a whole girlfriend, your thirst trapping days are over." She stated her breathe fanning his ear, causing chills to run down his arms. He sighed and shrugged his shoulders. He only posted it because half his tiktok was now filled with his girlfriend. People were tired of him expressing how long they were together. It's been 8 years, them getting together at 14.

"Everyone knows you radiate big dick energy." She exclaimed, trying to cheer him up but it didn't work. He was still upset about a bunch of 12 year old calling his dick small.

Not knowing what to do, Rhey started to get up to see the rest of their friends but Vinnie quickly grabbed her and turned her around to where she was on the bed and he was on top of her.

"I was fine a long time ago. I just wanted your attention." He admitted, laying his head on her chest, their typical position. She snorted and smacked the back of his head. He laughed and kissed her cheek

"What time do you have to head back to the studio?" Vinnie asked, momentarily breaking the silence. Rhey checked her phone.

"In about an hour. I have one more song that needs to be done. I just have I finish the last verse and record it." She replied.

Of course she wasn't going to tell him that the entire song was about him...and that she named it after him. What he won't know won't hurt him. She never told him about the other songs or the album cover either, hence why she made him do a photo shoot with her a few months ago.

"Great so that gives me enough time to cuddle you and post you again." He replied, as he went onto his phone and pulled up instagram. Rhey sighed. Every time he posted her his fans went crazy for no reason. They hated the fact that he was with someone who had a much larger platform than him.

He stuck his tongue out while she puckered her lips while grabbing his face.

"Well my phone is gonna blow up. Thanks for that Vincent." Rhey sighed as she awaited the thousands of notifications from IG.

"No problem princess." He replied cheekily, giving his girlfriend a huge smile. She playfully rolled her eyes at him.

The two sat in a comfortable silence for the next 20 to 30 minutes. No we're we're spoken, just the soft sounds of breathing could be heard from both partners. They were well aware that their friends were still in their house but they didn't care.

"Wanna know what I always found funny?" Rhey asked, playing with her boyfriends fingers. Vinnie perked his head up lightly, waiting for an answer.

"When we were 18, and I was just getting started with my career and you were getting hella famous on tiktok like you are now. I was always told that you and I would never work because of our race and two completely different personalities despite them not knowing we've been together since 2012. I don't know why I think it's funny but it just is." She explained, not looking at Vinnie. She knew he had always felt some type of way when people mentioned our relationship in a negative way. He was still getting over his anger issues at the time so of course when your at the peak of your influencer career, you're gonna make some rash decisions.

"I mean i've made some bad decisions I admit, but I knew the second I met you all of that had to change. I don't know why, but there was always something about you that I had to get to know on a more personal level when we were 14. You really are a light in my life, and I wouldn't change it for anything. Even with me being 18 at that time and so blind to new found fame, I knew what I wanted and it was you." Vinnie explained himself.

There was a period of time where he knew his feelings for Rhey were real but he knew that if he wanted to be the guy she wanted him to be he had to change, so they remained friends until he got his shit together and then he finally did he built up enough courage to ask her out, and it they're still together years later.

"Oh shit! I have to go!" Rhey shrieked after checking the time on her phone, jumping up from the bed. She hurriedly grabbed her nike slides and wallet, before rushing over to Vinnie to give him a kiss, which he happily returned, but before she turned around to leave he grabbed her hand causing her to look back at him.

"Am I gonna get a little snippet of the album?" He asked sneakily, making his girlfriend laugh.

"Theres 22 songs on the album. That's the only hint you're getting." She laughed before running out of the room to head to the studio.

Fortunately she made it in time, seeing her manager standing in front of the main studio door, waiting for her. She walked up to her and smiled wearily, not wanting to be scolded for being the second one to arrive.

"It's about time!" She exaggerated, grabbing the key and opening the door. Rhey hurriedly facetimed Vinnie who answered on the second ring. His face was deadly nonchalant as he looked at her. That's when she knew he was upset that she had left him so she tried to cheer him up by posing but it didn't work.

"I'm getting a studio built in the house. I hate leaving," She sighed, making a smile to quickly etch on his face. She rolled her eyes at his childish antics.

"I'm going to a meeting. Apparently some modelling company wants to meet up with me but my agent won't tell me who so we'll see how it goes." Vinnie explained through the phone. His nerves were shot with anxiousness.

"Well let me know how it goes."

"I will, I love you."

"I love you more,"

She hung up the phone and walked into the studio to begin her session, her producer, Pierce already working on some new beats for her last verse in her last song. After that gets perfected, the album is complete.

"You ready to get this masterpiece completed?"

Rhey smiled nervously. "Let's do it!"

"I know you said your boyfriend was your main focus behind the album. Is all the songs about him?" Pierce asked as he messed with a few buttons while Rhey got her lyric book out.

"Yes each and every song is about either him or our relationship." She replied mindlessly, flipping through pages, after finding the page with her recent song on it. She started to write words down that had came to her in the morning when she woke up. She smiled once she realized she had just finished her last verse for her last song on the album.

"Listen to this and tell me what you think about it. I added some small guitar riffs on the beginning to give it more of a natural groove." Pierce stated, turning the volume up. All of her songs were a little upbeat and happy and the last song was slow and smooth. A great way to end an album.

"It's amazing Pierce." She whispered, trying to get herself not to cry. She had been trying to find a way to express her love for Vinnie for MONTHS, and this album just might've done it.

Pierce smiled, "Then get yo ass in the booth and let's record it." He pushed her into the booth and got the music ready as she started to  get herself together to sing.

A few minutes later she stopped singing and sighed in happiness. Her album was finally finished.

>1 hour later<

"BABY! VINNIE WHERE ARE YOU?" Rhey yelled as she walks through the house, rapidly throwing her things all over the place, excited to tell her boyfriend about the news.

"Bedroom." He replied.

Rhey ran inside with a smile on her face, only for it drop once she saw the long look on her boyfriends face. He sighed and grabbed her hand, making her sit beside him. His face showed distress so she news couldn't have been good.

"The surprise meeting that I was had with vogue...they wanna sign me." He sighed, clearly not happy about the offer.

"Are you kidding me? This is huge! It means we'll be under the same company! How are you not happy about this?" She exclaimed with a large smile on her face.

"It's for Vogue Paris...not L.A."

Her smile dropped...