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7roaches · 1 year ago

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sorrry ppl who donr follow me for utmv dtuff & sorry canon-strict ppll but nm & killer r soo incredibly important to me can u imagine being the embodiment the literal proof that there is bad and pain in this world or being the loowest of the low & then you have a silly bestfriend who u loveclove love lovr love so mjch & ur so fucked up u dont know where u end & your reluctant life purpose begins but u have a silly bestrfriend who wraps your wounds and youure all he reallyneeds & hes all you really need do you get it. do you get it. do you get it.

#cool posts #delete later maybe #utmv #nightmare sans #killer sans #‘they hate eachither in canon’ I DONT CARE 🔥🔥🔥 ‘they only like being evil’ I DONT CARE 🔥🔥🔥🔥#actually thats not true i do care that they r evil & i do think theyre evil & like being evil #theyvhate eachother sobmuch they love eachother so much they r indifferent to the other theyvwoukd kill eachother for a greater purpose #they have to see eachothers faces every day for decades mimicing some memory of the past they get to see eachothers faces every day with the #warmth accumulated over being obligated tonsokeone for so long hed saw off his arm if he was chained to him hed take a bullet for him & he h #as before and will again and agoan and again #DO YOU GET IT. DO YOU GET IT. DO YOU UNDERSTAND #i have have have to draw this out words arent enough i canr explain clearly enough they r such deep in depth characters to me.#just interpret everything i say as correct #its also 1am. but i canr forget this i have to type it out even if its shittty #what daydreammjng every wakng moment for 6 years about 2 guys does to a mf #i also think this applies no mayter how u interpret their relationship #ok ok ok i’m ok im fine im normal im so normal im done

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beatcroc · 2 months ago

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been rereading idw to my baby sister and gotta say im a big fan of how direct this is

#true they dont exactly shake on it there but that wasnt mecha's fault. he was Going to if they hadnt been interrupted #this is also why mecha is the better sonicbot btw #go dude!!! reinvent yourself!! live your life on your own decisions!!!#i get metals commitment--or perhaps struggle? obsession?-- with being Like That #is a big part of why so many people like him so much #[and yknow also the simple fact that hes Existed in the series at all the past 25 years]#but that sort of character tension has never appealed to me particularly deeply.#also like..........i see ppl talking abt a reformed or even just less Like That metal and im like..... i dont know......#he's like that on purpose! reformation or thinking outside his usual focus is not his interest or narrative role!!!#mecha has ALWAYS been better suited for this kind of thing!!! yes even from his single appearance in sonic 3!!#mecha has always been a free-thinker!! if you want something like this you want mecha sonic!!!#bweeeaaahh #sonicposting #this is also why i dislike neo metal btw. everything neo does feels like its so against metal's established role #and it would have been the perfect sort of shit for mecha to have been up to. or hell even some other new temp sonicbot. alas

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alyimoss · 6 months ago

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cursed with never knowing whats appropriate and what isnt in conversation. talked to a guy yesterday and he asked me a question abt one of my interests and i answered. and then he just. did not follow up. even tho i asked him smthn. and like id love to point it out but goddd damn. do i not want to cross boundaries

#//vent #like hes cool. hes nice. i like that guy.#....but.#like holy shit ik im not entitled to answers or engagement but unless were talking abt smthn hes into its like talking to a brick wall #and i dont think he does it on purpose?? and i dont think im much better either #its whats stopping me from pointing it out. bc im not sure that im not the same exact way #like i do try yknow?? to engage w shit???? to answer questions and respond to every part of a message???#talking to him sometimes is like having a conversation and when its my turn he just gets up and leaves in the middle of me talking #closes the door behind him and im like “oh hell be back! :)” and then 26 hours later its just. nothing.#i dont wanna start shit i dont... but i feel like im losing my mind #any time i wanna share smthn i like and am passionate abt its just. wall time #i can have wall time in the privacy of my own home man cmon.#i dont wanna seem needy or entitled by pressing the issue but its just. not making me feel great #idk im just. idk.#im too afraid of asking for things lmfao im so convinced if i do people will leave #ughhhh i just dont know what to do here #:/

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3416 · 1 year ago

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nobody gets dragged more than mitch marner man.. it's fucking insane

#i know i just talk about it so much but its soooo hard to just see the droves of ppl being obtuse on purpose #abt anything he says or does any second of the day like jesus #not even comparable at this point #i hope hes on this team forever to spite eveyrone and also #ik everyone collectively agrees captain is austons thing to lose but can u imagine how mad all the uncles would be if it were mitch #like... he is the glue in a lot of ways...... dont think he gets enough consideration imo....#need the leafs to listen to me abt this whole co-captain thing im TELLING U #a situation has never called for it more.... give me

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britneyshakespeare · 3 months ago

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I can't believe the Younger Brother (1689) by Aphra Behn has the only one bed trope

#act iv scene i #olivia is in disguise as mirtilla's page endimion and she's wooing welborn on her own behalf #and welborn is like well im hosting a gentleman in my lodgings right now but u can sleep w me #and olivia is like uhmmm uhmmm i can't do that not for any particular reason i just can't sleep in ur bed #(bc she's modest but she is kinda tempted. but also worried if she denies too hard he might suspect her of being actually a woman)#and he's like what are you afraid my bed's diseased? do u think im gay? im telling u there's nowhere else for us both to sleep #im not gonna make u sleep on the floor kid #PLEASE #the younger brother might be one of my new favorites from behn. i haven't finished it yet but it kinda has everything i love from her #mirtilla in particular is such an interesting character #text post #aphra behn #restoration comedy #in the edition edited by janet todd for vol. 7 of the collected works #i believe it's based off of the original quarto text that was published after behn's death #i highly suspect a lot of this prose dialogue is supposed to be blank verse #SO. MUCH. of it flows exactly like blank verse. it kinda bothers me #i do dream about editing and publishing my own edition of behn's plays and i would definitely amend these to be verse #i wonder if montague summers' version is verse? idk this is the first janet todd edited play ive read #i dont yet know the differences between their editing styles #god i wish more than 2 ppl in history had ever bothered to edit and publish this woman's collected works #oxford world classics should definitely put out another volume of her plays #i love the one they have featuring the rover/feigned courtesans/lucky chance/emperor of the moon #but she's got what like 15 other extant plays? and oxford world classics has the range and capabilities to do it #or if penguin classics ever wants to pretend they're really as good as oxford they can print their own #as far as diversifying the canon and widening the availability of older texts. oxford still beats penguin any day #but it does piss me off that no classic book publishers take this period of early-modern women's drama and proto-novels very seriously #or rather. no big ones that i know other than oxford #im not counting print-on-demand companies that reprint the texts of public domain works w no editing #those serve a purpose but those are not leaders in the publishing industry for a reason. theyre not sposta be

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gilfrespecter · 5 months ago

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Listening to coinstar by the growlers and thinking about mel so hard I get nauseous

Ridiculous stream of conscious in the tags apologies but not really

#it speaks #white woman moment #its really funny bc like. its very much a her to jfk song #(everyones favorite problematic short king)#but she looks at him with uhhh #like heres this kid(hes 28) standing on the precipice o what she had been all those years ago #but he KNOWS it she didnt know she thought she had mold poisoning from her shitty apartment until she died #and she is projecting so much onto him. which is part of why she doesn't respect him at all #'im a sucker just like you'#its also funny bc like. it is Too Late for Phoenix.also its scary that theyre hungry bc as far as she knows death avatars arent supposed 2 b #but also theyre the first one shes met. and Phoenix is kind of just scary in general.#but being around those two is like. almost flashbacky(jfk also reminds her alot of her ex aroun that age tho audreys dad was Worse)#(she never met him but heard enough stories about the guy and i mean. he fed her to the hunt on purpose.#i dont think jorges dad wanted what was going to happen to happen)#part of why she texted her so fast tbh. not that they hadnt talked at all since the divorce.#i thinj they talked. not alot bc mel WAS in europe and international data rates pre smartphone age oof ouch #and also like. they did irrevocably harm eachother physically and mentally but they do both careeeeee #tho. i do not think melissa wouldve ever dropped everything to go help audrey like audrey would and did for her.#(girl who runs away from her problems x girl who is a dog)#auuughhhhhh #she really is my chew toy.#i also think alot about her sky mafia years but those r fun and sexy little secrets for me #as much as i love Basil's motw campaign i do with it was easier to unentangle her from tma lore.#bc like. normal vampire works well but it loses so much of the flavor. various sea beasts keep the flavor but loose the morality.#for pathfinder if i were to redo her id go with storm oracle and then spec into kineticist. which does work Ok I Guess.#but like. even that its still not what i want #one scene that probably would've never happened in game but i thought ahout if we ever went back to the item storage or maybe a wierd thrift #shop or something was to like. have her come across a violin and pick it up and make it scream horribly. like. really concentrate on making #it make the worst noise imaginable. shes trying to reach that wonderful horrible music avatars mention alot in the earlier seasons #and then realizes everyone else Hates That So Much and jokingly play one of the devil's riffs from tdwdg. tbh i should finally draw that

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passerinesoncaffeine · 5 months ago

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GOD. I AM OBSESSED WITH HIM.

#AUUUUGH. HE HAS INVADED MY BRAIN WHAT IS HIS PROBLEM.#YES THIS IS ABOUT BASIL #JESUS chRIST #I DONT NEED TO STUDY HIM UNDER A MICROSCOPE I NEED TO DISSECT HIM!!!!!#I NEED TO TEAR HIM TO SHREDS BUT ALSO GIVE HIM A HUG BUT ALSO #FFFUCK. so needless to say #omori spoilers #ahead #WHY DOES HE GIVE ME EMOTIONS. WHY IS HE LIKE THIS.#like jesus its always the character thats ready to sacrifice themselves for someone they barely even talk to but they meant so much to them #that every memory they had of them before things turned for worse made them protect them anyways and only stayed alive because they knew #that dying would only cause this person more pain then theyve already been given and that would defeat the purpose of their entire #will to live. god. he needs therapy #and anxiety medication holy shit #HE WAS 12!!1!!! HE WAs FUCkING 12!! FUCK #okay but Im also impressed like. you were 12. and you got away with it. like was there no autopsy?? did they hide the wounds?? ANYWAYS #IM NO FUCKING OKAY #“they're comfortable. simple modest and perfect.” AUUUGH.#bitch got decapitated in an elevator #final words “I think I'm stuck :/”#absolute legend (im sobbing on the floor)#omori only saves hs basil when he knows he can reset it all and forget again #stranger isnt as aggressive when hes facing the truth doNT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON STRANGER #“on that day when you became nothing I was split in half. which do you think was more painful?”#AAHAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH.#AAAAAAAAAA.#tHAT IS SO FUCKING VAGUE HONEY WHAT DOES THAT MEAN #is he referring to the existence of stranger?? or sunny being a part of him?? IS IT SOMETHING ELSE???#THE FUCKING LORE YOU CAN MAKE UP ABOUT THIS GAME #STRANGER HONEY. CLARIFY. PLEASE. BUT ALSO DONT THIS IS HALF THE FUN

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moodlesmain · 6 months ago

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What I'm Made Of (Sonic Heroes OST) 🤝 With Me (Sonic and the Black Knight OST): Final boss songs who's lyrics apply almost just as much to Sonic as they do to the villain he's facing

#im crazy im crazy #also i know with me is used as Merlina's leitmotif but like #you know who throughout all of satbk is like accepting being the villain of the story? Just like Merlina does? Sonic #He's literally like oh killing king arthur will make me the bad guy? oh well lol can't always be the hero #they're both willing to do what they must even if they become the villain because of it #''you know every world will have its end and i'm here to prove it all to you''#''i am who you don't think i am''#like come oonnnn that's exactly what Sonic and Merlina are arguing about throughout the final battle #and those lines could apply to either of them #AND THEN DONT GET ME STARTED ON WHAT IM MADE OF #that song people are more likely to immediately think of Sonic when they hear it for the first time #but if you listen from the perspective of Metal Sonic it's like mind blowing #especially since its such a sonic style song like its got such a familiar feel to all of Sonic's other Crush 40 themes #and I'm including Open Your Heart and Live and Learn in this #Open Your Heart is just Sonic singing directly to Perfect Chaos and Live and Learn is similar to the songs im talking about above #in that Live and Learn can apply just as much to Shadow as it can to Sonic it's their duet as they save the world from Gerald's plan #(insert an ''I'm Live'' ''and I'm Learn'' the Live and Learn Brothers joke here)#but anyway the point is that you think of those songs when you hear What I'm Made Of #it SOUNDS like a Sonic song #but then really you listen to it...... and it sure does sound like things Sonic would say yeah #but ultimately? It IS a Metal Sonic theme. And it is playing on the parralels between Metal and Sonic on purpose #''i don't care what you're thinking as you turn to me cause what i have in my two hands is enough to set me free''#LIKE THAT'S THE FIRST LINE IN THE SONG... Sonic is ALREADY free. You know who isn't and is doing everything in order to be free?#''let me show you just what i'm made of'' is a Sonic line but oh my god is it also a Metal line #dont get me fucking started on the verse about 'one by one they all become black marks on the floor' and how insane the implications make m #these boss songs are all CONVERSATIONS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#anyway. Sonic music good #sth #moodle rambles

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falseteeeth · 9 months ago

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i dont know what to do...

#my bsf acts like i dont exist when they don't see me #it's really sad coz ik theyre doing it on purpose #when we're in our flat he sends me a million messages and reels but when we go visit family it all goes silent #when i message them they also either ignore me or reply with one word or just react to the message #it might sound like im exaggerating but i think he genuinely does it to spite me??#so this time i stopped texting after the first say of them leaving me on read and they havent said a word or sent anything in 3 days #its really weird coz when were at uni we do everything together #its his bday on wednesday and ive got some cool gifts for him but i dont even know what to write in his card #i just feel miserable.. and really alone #theyre probs gonna be nice again irl but its really draining at this point #i think i just have to learn to take them less seriously tho coz i dont want to end this friendship #it means too much to me #personal

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todayisafridaynight · 2 years ago

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LISTEN I KNOW HOW IT SOUNDS BUT I SWEAR HE WAS DISTINCT FROM RGGJO STILL 😭😭😭 HIS DESIGN WAS LOUD IN A DIFFERENT WAY 😭😭😭😭😭 though As A Whole it was probably the result of someone saying he should go full RGGJo in 8 several months prior to when I had the dream, so not wrong. But it would be fun to see a shift from "Nothing in life matters...😞" to "Nothing in life matters! 😎" would it not...

I've always thought Drink Link was meant to evoke Social Link? Because in Japan it was called #DRAMA. I was never the biggest fan because it's one of many "translations" in Y7 that are just changing something that was already in English and doesn't require cultural context to understand. Like IMO whether it's seen as an improvement or not, it's just not the localizers' job to "improve on" the original; let them be cringe and let them be free...

And also it gave ammunition to Persona fans who refuse to experience anything but P5 and decided to go "wow! it's just like P5!" at every little thing Y7 did from the VERY FIRST trailers onward (including BE AN RPG) And That Shit Got Old Fast </3 Sorry </3 But I do think this one's very much on purpose, localization-wise. So I forgive you :)

RANTING ASIDE. OR. SEGUEING INTO MORE RANTING. Literally like I don't even care if it's as part of the Kasugang or Kiryu's Geezer Squad... Give Jo five minutes with Tendo or hand him over to me so I can make sure he's enriched and well-nourished... these are my demands... that man is my everything......

Because it would be SO funny both ways. We don't know who all will be in each party, so either he's stuck with Adachi (Definitely A Character) (Affectionate) (Also Has Already Told Him He'd Rather Kill Him Than Send Him To Jail So. Awkward) or maybe with Kiryu's he'd have more people around his agw, But if not, The Inherent Comedy of two bitches called Jo and Joryu who have almost the same haircut 💀💀

Exactly though, nobody in the Arakawa Family is neurotypical and I FULLY believe Jo would be at his best when put into Situations, like Mine is. It's something I reeeally miss from RGGO because of the pre-finale scene with RGGJo and Mitsu having a drink at their favorite bar... they haven't been there in a while, and RGGJo doesn't wanna spoil the mood, so he's not hostile in the slightest... and when he gets up to leave he says he "forgot his wallet" and makes Mitsu foot the bill (ICONIC for completely different reasons depending on whether he's telling the truth or not)... whereas in Y7 I DON'T EVEN KNOW IF THE ARAKAWAS HAVE A FAVORITE BAR

it could be funny- whiplash inducing, but that'd undoubtedly be why it'd be funny wouldn't it ♪(´▽｀) he could've been some sacred third thing- just more RGGJo influence injected in Y7Jo mayhaps..

anyhow it dont sound like you forgive me when you just got mad at persona players for makin comparisons and here ive gone and done such a thing LMAO（；´д｀）（；´д｀）in any case, i know how you feel about translations so i wont press the topic: if it aint broke etc etc, i understand how you feel so it's ok (❁´◡`❁;;)

double 'jo' def woulda been funny, if not has always been a small thing worth jokin bout that ive had in the back of my mind (though ive already said that: i have a broken record of a brain at this point, if not that it just points out how silly i find the idea) LMAO. i've always enjoyed antag-turned-party member anyhow, so it wouldve been fun to me regardless of what it brought ♪(´▽｀)

#long post #snap chats #i say unnecessary things a lot so its easy for me to say something upsetting oops (´▽｀;;;)#its a habit im trying to break- to speak concisely instead of without aim. though if im realistic im not sure i can do that #i can only ask please be patient with me for saying annoying things in the future (❁´◡`❁)#im sure it'll happen a lot by accident and has already happened (❁´◡`❁ ;; ) so ill make sure to remember whats most bothersome (❁´◡`❁)#before my organs shut down on me let me move on OWOWOW #i remember the bit in rggo where jo forgot his wallet i truly couldnt stop myself from sayin My Guy Cmon 😭 ☠️☠️#in the case of rggjo its fun to imagine his forgetfulness as ambiguous cause Truly Did He Mean To Forget Or 🤨#in the case of y7jo its harder to believe hed do it on purpose so in the case where he does its just ☠️☠️#bros Truly losin it.... his mind AND his wallet... i know ichi gon make a joke 😔#aside from that though maybe jo would benefit from having friends his age <- saying this as if he's in grade school ☠️☠️#in the case of the arakawas having a personal favorite bar tho... i couldnt say #ive already made an assessment of jo's sociability through his office so i wanna make a half-confident bet he doesnt like to get out much #lest it's required for Whatever Reason- but what about arakawa then ? much to consider..#i honestly couldnt wager what he'd prefer.. i dont know what atmosphere he'd like... he's too mysterious for me (´▽｀;;)#for some reason i can only ever imagine him drinking at home or at quaint restaurants...#idk cant explain it... thats just the vibe... very likely im wrong though..#my organs truly hurt now- i think i gave myself a headache by mistake so ill have to stop my pondering before i explode (´▽｀;;)

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cutemeat · 4 months ago

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@nightcrawlerzincorporated Exactly the point i was making with this post thank u 🥹💛

Season 6 // Season 16

#ive been fixated on this 4ever cuz i think its such a fascinating aspect of their dynamic!!!#but also to be fair like Tai said the twins couldnt even pull the plug on a nazi so BSJDBSNHS #i still think charlie manipulating frank and against the twins specifically is Very much baked in tho even now… and the PROGRESSION of it?o #watching Dennis Looks Like a Registered Sex Offender w this pov makes it SO interesting #i mean they also just straight up confirmed this in s11 w charlie changing the prescription on franks glasses #and i will bet u 100% that that is NOT the only case of this #like all the things where ppl are like ‘awww charlie does this for him…’ like the navigation tapes #cuz i think Yes it is coming from a genuine place. but also manipulative place of making frank dependent on him #and i dont want ppl to get it twisted like w the charden resentment stuff..cuz im not saying the two feelings CANT co eixst #they DO and thats what i find interesting but not a lot of ppl wanna talk abt the manipulative side nd thats fine but i rllyrlly do #doesnt mean the sweet genuine side isnt still apart of this. i just wanna talk abt this side of it Too #but also thats the whole subtext… how long until doing that for manipulation purposes becomes Genuine #its why they mirror macdennis!!! just different dynamics #im serious i think when frank moved in all of the bonding was initially a part of a still ongoing long con to get franks money #cuz that would fit w robs original vision of sunny HOWEVER i think its only gotten more interesting #bc charlie is now GENUINELY so emotionally entangled in frank that its way more complicated now for him #and thats GUT wrenching to me i want it so bad #i made that one post paralleling charfrank to [redacted] and no one needs to see that but i still stand by the general sentiment NSJDBEJ…#aaand… part of me wondered if Inflates was foreshadowing for The End..#charlie does this shit and bc hes loyal like a dog he did this for not just him but FOR THE GANG #and so theyre all excited abt that but charlie is just sort of lagging behind #i can see the scene so clearly in my minds eye #cuz yknow. charlie has come to represent the gangs Conscience in a way #s15 ily sm #[queue that post someone made post s15 finale abt charlie being the foundation ..yeah]#which is so interesting how far hes come from s1 to THAT #again i think there should always be room for both the sincere charlie and how generally manipulative he is #i think both can and Should coexist #esp since manipulation comes The Most naturally to him compared esp to someone like dennis #dee is much better but charlie is still The Best at it… thats why frank loves nd believes in him the most LOL

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mallahanmoxie · 1 month ago

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i do get why people express frustration and dissatisfaction with the way philomel acts wrt to nasar but i gotta say i love a lady who hates herself yet can't help but strive to survive

#i loooooove to see a stoic long suffering woman #it always catches her off guard the impact she has on people bc she feels so powerless in her own life #her view of the world is so rigid and closed and makes her so paranoid and blind to how everyone really sees her #it's like an odd sort of paranoia but she's her own worst threat #she holds herself back so tightly she doesn't even get the impulses any more #imposter's syndrome but purposeful #and she bulldozes everyone else who cares abt her bc she doesn't think they're genuine abt it because when she was herself they were not!#im not too hot abt this dude either so i dont care that he's hurt that she doesn't want him lol #and like she likes him! but his love is such a chore and imposition for her. love it. immensely relatable #i hope everyone who wants her because she acts the way she does kills themselves when they realize how much they've stifled her ❤️#the lion reads #groveling fiction is so easy to make overbearing and cringeworthy but i dig this

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autism-corner · 2 months ago

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finally a use for that thing

#ok. we know my special yellow girl. beloved rin.#unfortunately for everyone she sometimes comes with an unnecessary piece attached. so-called 'len'#now this is a big waste because hes entirely useless but. as they sometimes come in a pair my rin would be upset if he were to be removed.#this occasion has luckily only happened twice so far with mere petit nendo's.#still..... having him face into a corner didnt feel like enough punishment for the piece.#but now!! great fortune has been bestowed upon me!! an official relic of my favourite yellow girl version has found its way to me.#beloved keychain. awesome piece. does feature the other creature but i love my girl too much to look at him anyway.#and thus the piece of trash has found a rightfull purpose. he will prop up the keychain and rightfully serve his better half.#sillyposting #aka i got the kagamine's append keychain and am using a nendo petit len to prop it uppp #yes.... yess..... my append rin collection is growing........ right as my holy grail is becoming aswell...... praise the yellow girl!!#hi im normal.#*hits button that allows me to think for myself again* hiii :3 #i dont. MIND. len. hes fucking ok. i just dont want him. the fact that he gets totally overshadowed by my love for rin doesnt help him #ive got his append nendo petit and his V4X nendo petit and i do hope to GOD that thats where it'll stay.#and honest to god they have been facing into the wall on my petits shelf. yes center just behind nendo append rin but away from my face :3 #but now ive got a keychain for lil append len to hold!! hes still facing backwards bc. its just a little more dignifying i thinkkk #anyway. bully the guy o7 girls are betterr

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s0urte3th · 2 months ago

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mm

#why do i blame him for my bad thoughts. hes here BECAUSE of those thoughts #not the other way around #does everyone at some point think about things so disgusting it makes them want to puke?#is that a part of me that ive just managed to hate so much its entirely separated from me in my own mind?#09 i dont know what you want. or why youre here #youre not here right now yet you still exist. why? whats your purpose?#if i stop making you the villan will you talk to me someday?#we all have our bad moments. maybe i only see you when you’re having yours #idk #its hard to tell whose who anymore. hard to tell if im a system or just some fucked up kid

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pears-trinkets · 7 months ago

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#im so tired #i dont want to go to work #i dont want to ever speak to anyone there ever again or do any kind of work for them #i cant believe i still work there #my boss is partner in the firm and is getting constantly harassed and disrespected by the other partners #hes a lawyer and applied us as a whole team to a new firm IN NOVEMBER #the new firm said upfront that they 100% want to work with us and just have some internal stuff they need to clear up first #and theyve been saying that in january #in march #in may #and now #now my boss says we'll be gone by december #while administration and other coworkers actively sabotage our work and even insult our clients #our team is my boss and his secretary and me and the secretary and me are left in the dark all the time and have so much anxiety bc of this #and all my mom does is invalidate me in this shes like YOU EXHAUST YOURSELF ON PURPOSE ITS NOT SOMETHING YOU CONTROL SO DONT THINK ABOUT IT #ITS A QUESTION OF OUTLOOK AND MINDSET SO JUST THINK POSITIVE THOUGHTS AND IF YOU DONT ITS YOUR PROBLEM #EVERYTHING IS MOVING ALONG WHAT MORE DO YOU WANT #idk i dont even want to work for the new firm anymore because of this #i dont want anything anymore i just want to be left alone #i wish i had a better idea on what job i could apply for or what would make me more happy #i wish i had a chance if i applied #i dont know how to survive life

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waywardsalt · 8 months ago

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writing down some notes for bellum traits/speculative biology/whatever so here's a couple so far

he's cold blooded but can't die due to extreme temperatures, it just makes it harder for him to function.

amphibious in the sense that he can survive in both water and air, though he doesn't really need to breathe, if anything he mostly interacts with water and air through traversal differences.

he does move like a squid, he can just float around but to move faster he does need to move his tentacles for slight propulsion and steering, and does intake and jet out water or air for some extra speed. he is not literally a squid creature but he is very similar.

he's got little barbs on the undersides of his tentacles (similar to the texture of a cat's tongue) which help with grabbing onto and holding things.

he can pull his main eye down into his body if he wants to use his mouth as... a mouth, or when he creates those little goop things or otherwise to spit out that purple substance.

#salty talks #bellum #speculative biology might be too lofty or. deep? a term for this i just wanna figure out what's going on with him yknow #like im not trying to be scientific or anything with this this is like. a personal passion project kinda thing not an assignment #but i lean a little into scientific terminology when it gets weird or awkward to me so whatever #idk if i'll share images or w/e of the final doc or just leave it to be expressed through fics #bc essentially these are notes ofr things that i want to show in fics (primarily the bellum x linebeck one. i need a fucking name for it)#also i like bellum and think hes a funny shape #constantly thinking abt that beak thing he has that seemingly never does anything but if you remember it #in context of him possessing linebeck and how he goes about doing that its like. oh. ...oh #its never addressed in any form but i wonder how the people who like animated that scene and stuff personally thought of it #in general i wonder how the pople who made ph felt abt bellum what ideas did they have that they never got around to sharing yknow #im not gonna act like it'd be a treasure trove he's a very nothing villain but i wonder if there were some sparse opinions and ideas abt hi #anyways DO YOU EVER THINK ABOUT THAT. BELLUMS BEAK THING. AND SPECIFICALLY HOW HE ATTACHES ONTO LINEBECK. HUH. HUH.#anyways i dont think bellum is like a squid creature if anything he's more just like some amalgamation of cephalopods as a demon #which is funny bc i am using a lot of irl squid characteristics to inform a lot of this stuff #its like half no hes not a squid he's a demon and half no hes not a squid he doesnt line up with them enough #i can see him as like a monstrous bastardization of a squid but nah hes not a squid hes just squidlike i think #im not too deep into my notes but im not sure how much i'll need considering the god/demon/magical being side of him yknow #i'll do what i need for my purposes #you can probably maybe see me getting awkward with some terminology with the last one but maybe thats just me feeling it lol #this is like half speculative stuff and half just headcanon yknow but whatever we got stuff here

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