#and he thinks its so incredible

[xstarlightxstarbrightx]

adventuring rambles #3

oughghahfjkehh, so in my attempt to write out Caelestium (the poly) and my fanon of Genshin, i'm currently trying to figure out what game mechanics i want to incorporate and which ones i'm gonna just set to the side (i dont know how i'm gonna make the Wishing System work but dw i'm looking into it rn)

in terms of game mechanics and such, i actually wanted to address Genshin's music in this post. b/c I LOVE,,, Genshin music. it's so good, i don't think i've ever played a game where i WILLINGLY go out of my way to listen to the in game music on my own, and then Genshin came along and i have PLAYLISTS of character music and location music. (dragonspine my beloved music location,,,,) so, BECAUSE of my love of Genshin's music, i felt like i had to find a way to include the music of Teyvat.

and how else than to pin it on Outlander Fuckery™???

specifically, my main h/c is that Lumine can hear the music of Teyvat, but no one else can. she's not from this world, and because of my previous h/c of her special connection w/ Leylines + purification + general energy compatibility, i feel like she perceives this world in a different way than others.

Lumine hears the music, but no one else does; this may actually seem implausible due to the fact that in the music events, we get the ability to play the character songs (and in the recent Arataki Itto event, people hummed the ambience music), however, i like to still posit a different interpretation of that:

the musicians who 'made' the music within Teyvat were, obviously, inspired by the places they're around. what if music, in Teyvat, is just pieces of Teyvat's heart slipping out in instruments by people who can connect to it ever so slightly? they don't hear it on the wind, but they feel it, and turn that feeling into the music that is known. Lumine just so happens to be able to hear the music that musicians have, at some point, felt and recreated (thus why some songs are utilized in events).

i really like to think about this b/c i love to consider Lumine's place in the world and how it affects her. can u imagine how incredibly lonely it is to see ur twin leave u behind in a world that isn't ur own? to know that u are probably older than this world has been alive? to see this world as something painful?

and then imagine that music of Mondstadt when u first walk through Starfell Valley. how beautiful it is, and how it gives Teyvat this sense of weight. i like to think Lumine fell in love with the music of Teyvat, and sees it as something so incredible. and then she learns that she's the only one who can hear it.

because she's not from here.

it is a bittersweet realization; to know that she can experience this world so differently in a way that is beautiful, yet knowing that that experience is an inherent reminder that Lumi does not belong.

Lumi often references the music as "Teyvat's Heart" and idk man it just is such a fascinating thing to look into and i'm kind of obsessed dw abt it.

[hinamie]

morning glory

[crumb-crumblet-s-crumbington]

"You and me, Ethan. Together we go save Rose, and then we can grind Miranda into paste!"

[xxplastic-cubexx]

personal happiness or what the fuck ever

bonus:

[woaaahh-itz-caam]

i had a thought… and idea perhaps….. a mental image if you will……..

[vaguely-concerned]

thinking about not only the specific people lucanis pulls in to represent the 'locks' in his psyche, but the storytelling that happens in the structure/order of them. the underlying ideas are presented something like:

the lucanis who went into the ossuary never came back out again; he died down there (the boy caterina raised is gone forever) -> you're putting yourself in danger doing this (by being close to me), you should leave because I can't bear it if you get hurt because of me -> it doesn't matter even if we do try this, it won't work anyway (again because of me) ('you know what he's like, you can open the door but he won't walk through it' :'( oofie doofie) -> what if the real secret is that there was never anything but the monster in here from the beginning. you should leave, there was never anything here worth saving in the first place. (implicitly: what if I deserved what happened, all along.)

it runs pretty cleanly from outward-oriented attachment anxiety ('caterina won't even want me back like this, she won't recognize me (the same way I no longer recognize myself)) and gradually deeper inwards until we reach self-image and self worth. or you know, the harrowing basic lack of it lol.

"careful -- they'll know we're not right," spite says in one of their first scenes... but clearly, some very deep part of lucanis has feared or suspected for much longer than that that there's something inherently not right at the core of him, way before any demon entered the picture. and the voice he gives those lines to is the person who should know him better than anyone in the world, who he has loved more than anyone in the world -- and who deliberately chose to hurt him so horrifically anyway. 'It's better if I'm just a monster and deserved what happened than it is to allow for the idea that the brother I love doesn't really exist and maybe never did'. it's better if he's fundamentally flawed in some way that needed fixing to help him survive, and that's why caterina chose to hurt him again and again -- out of love. (this one I think he might have a very sad wakeup call on one day if he ever ends up with the responsibility and care of a child of his own in some way and realizes just how alien the idea of ever intentionally hurting them for any reason is to him. oh buddy. also interesting that he keeps caterina as the outermost lock -- there IS a distance he keeps there that he hasn't with illario. he doesn't resent her 'anymore' he says, but he also keeps her carefully further away from his deepest self.)

as far as I could tell the only note in the mind prison that's fully hidden and needs to be uncovered is the sad painful helpless stupid little truth that even after all this, even knowing what happened... he still loves his brother. is there anything illario could ever do that would make lucanis completely stop loving him, do you think? sometimes the trouble with unconditional love is that it is, well. unconditional, even when some terms and conditions probably would have been in order haha.

that's the pattern you see there again and again; he would rather destroy and abandon and imprison himself at every turn than let go of love, even when it's just scraps, even when there's only ever enough of it to hurt him. it's only when rook shows up and as it were takes his hand and walks along with him that he can entertain the idea of changing the story of what walking out the door might mean in the end.

[ar-mage-ddon]

a safe place to rest

( EPHEMERWEEK 3: home )

[edwinisms]

george rexstrew deserves awards for many things but i have to say. edwin’s bloodcurdling scream as niko gets killed deserves a whole award unto itself. like. that scream did not feel at all like a tv show scream. to a somewhat jarring degree. and i can’t express how much I respect that

[melljam]

for the gitae fans <3

[sualne]

something i wish i'd see more in trigun fanarts is people having vash speak their native/non-english languages completely unprompted, ive seen folks have him speak french, which he canonically knows, but i really do believe he's a polyglot. mostly because of that one time in the desert when he saw the samurai and wanted to greet him in japanese but struggled to remember how to even say hello.

my headcanon is that rem had them learn as many languages as possible but with the big fall and so many people dying, which i think is what led english to became No man's land main (or even only?) language, means that vash (and knives!) both got horribly out of practice and are various sort of rusty in every others languages.

what im saying if there's any pun or joke you've been dying to write but just doesn't work in english vash (and knives!!) are right there!

[soupysundae]

🐍🐍🐍🐍🐍

[hinamie]

I'm always pushing you away from me / but you come back with gravity / and when I call, you come home

[whoviandoodler]

been thinking about pok a lot again and that moment when riz told him sklonda was dating gorthalax (in some capacity or another) and pok just went quiet for a bit before he wished her well and like. he's riz's father to such a degree that it hurts. he died young, got to paradise and then said, ok time to go back to work, chop chop. and he does take breaks to listen to riz at his grave and he works in a beautiful meadow when he's not down in hell and -literally speaking- he does sit down but metaphorically he keeps on going and going.

and i'm just imagining that- obviously he knows that he's dead, right? but the human* brain is weird in that way where you'll know things, and you might even sit with them and think you've processed them, but then something will hit you out of left field and you'll realize there are so many aspects of the situation you hadn't internalized yet, and i think that one of those aspects for pok was sklonda, or rather all the dimensions in which her life branched off after he died. because with riz he'd always been painfully aware that his kid was growing up and changing, but with sklonda it's a bit more complicated, it's a bit easier to process the grief of being apart from her, purely on an unconscious level, as being away for work. he's working, she's working, she probably tells him about her work and about riz and riz includes his mom in his stories and it's like, oh this is horribly painful, that i can't be there, but in a way he and sklonda share a lot of what they used to when he was working abroad, no matter how far apart- they're always connected by their love for each other and the quiet but omnipresent nuptial tie and the state of being riz's parents.

and then he's suddenly hit with the reality of an area of sklonda's life that hadn't been on his mind before, considering they were happily and monogamously married. truly just a matter of like, this is not a space you occupy anymore, you're fucking dead, until death do us part and all that, and she might still love you but she loves you like a dead husband like a source of grief like the man she once knew not a living partner. and it's neither of their faults, it's purely a tragedy, and he genuinely wishes her the best because he loves her, he doesn't want her to be alone nor does he expect her to be faithful past reason and the vow they made to each other. but the grief of it still really fucking stings, doesn't it?

[evelynpr]

MHA ships and the "All Might Blessing"

Save to Win, Win to Save

The All Might doll

The dynamic duo

The one missing AM hoodie of his collection

[moeblob]

Gavin mentally: wait... that doesn't add up........

[sallymew4]

i love when terumob makes a guest appearance in a ritshou fic because most of the time its like they descend from the heavens as the older, more mature couple to bestow advice to the poor foolish children. while in every terumob fic ever theyre the most romantically inept fools ever who cant catch a break at all