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irish general election called for november 29. iām so tired dear god
#not to be depressing but i cannot see anything changing i have no hope for this country#i see so much of the country sliding into right wing mania#and feel powerless to stop it#oh well canāt wait to have to work 18 hour days reporting on it#at least the money is decent
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sin eater
#sorry its been a minute!!! the horrors. you understand.#anyways yall ready for another gloom tag essay because here we go!!!#im constantly thinking about the ramifications of uzi literally eating cyn and her now being apart of her.#specifically how it impacts uzi mentally. like dgmw i LOVE the silly cyntail shenanigans in fanart (ive also contributed to this) however#when i really think about it in relation to uzi's arc i go crazy insane#uzi is a character who is grasping for control after a lifetime of not having it.#she has no control over how her peers treat her. she has no control over khan neglecting her for reasons that arent her fault.#she quite literally has no control over the solver taking her over and making her do monstrous things against her will#which solidifies her feelings of being a freak monster who everyone was right to outcast and mistreat.#because im Unwell i interpret her calling herself god as a way to convince herself of having control- and to lock away feelings of impurity#if anyone is in control- if anyone is loved and cherished despite any and all wrong doings- its a god.#and that all comes to a head when she eats the heart of cyn thereby destroying the AS- a literal manifestation of a corrupted god- for good#finally taking back control from the entity that had been terrorizing and traumatizing both her and her loved ones. but did she really?#cyn is apart of her now. powerless sure- but that doesnt take away the horrors she wrought previously#and even so- has uzi ever stopped being just a host? do you think shes terrified of cyn regaining power out of the blue?#do you think uzi ever stops feeling like a monster?#āsin eatingā was a thing that happened where someone would consume ritual foods to take on the sins of a recently deceased person#thus absolving said deceased person of any sins and putting them onto the sin eater. being a sin eater ensured eternal damnation.#and i just think about that a lot. when applying that (symbolically ofc(somewhat literally. she very much is a cyn eater)) to what uzi did.#āgloom you're reading way too much into thisā THE LITTLE GOTH ROBOT. MAKES ME INSANE IN THE HEAD. OK!!!!!#gloom.art#murder drones#murder drones fanart#murder drones uzi#uzi murder drones#uzi doorman#uzi md#md uzi#uzi fanart
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Trainwreck in double speed
#Fuyuhiko kuzuryu#Peko pekoyama#kuzupeko#super danganronpa 2#sdr2#an art#Fuyuhiko ruining himself with the pressure and violence and fitting into shoes he neither fits nor wants#Peko ruining herself by erasing herself and falling into a role she hates for someone she loves#Both of them shaving off bits of themselves until they're just not the same people at all in a bad way. Together through it all!#Both of them hate it but are powerless to change what they were sculpted into!#Anyway. How are we feeling tonight guys. I'm having weird feelings about family (not found but obligatory)#(Hiko and Peko aren't found family they actually are. Enforced obligatory family that's barely even family.)#(That's NOT as in they dont care about each other they care so much. But they didnt grow up as family or friends)#(They grew up through obligation)#OKAY time to stop talking
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i think that if anyone was gonna write "angst" abt tim and being bi/coming out it should be about how jack drake died before tim could tell him. that despite the complicated relationship he had with a parent who wouldve, couldve, been horrible about it, tim never got the choice to tell him (or janet. i love you janet i know you wouldve supported your little guy)
like. the evidence that your parent would react horribly but the need for them to accept you and jack drake who's primary way of bonding with his kid was trying to make him a mans man (but not That kind. yk.) and clearly expected tim to be cisheterosexual vs the reality of a bisexual kid who has a lot of stake in identities and disguises. and like. jack had to grapple with the fact that tim was robin (famously.) but like
idk sorry i just think it would eat at tim. like. part of the guilt of losing the parent you have this complicated relationship with would also be tied to the "they never really knew me, they didnt get the chance or give me the space to tell them" and feeling guilty and sad that you Couldnt come out. and Not Knowing howd they wouldve reacted. and how that could tie to real internalized bullshit! because that is also an lgbt experience! especially with parent death!
#forgive me if i am. incorrect btw but from what i have seen of tims stuff in recent years#there is a focus on like...... feeling guilty over jacks murder! bc tim felt powerless to stop it!#and hes a little control freak <- mostly a joke i do love him#so its especially poignant#and theres focus on his bisexuality and exploring what He Wants#but there could be tasty intersections here to explore!!! whole meals!!!!#rook.log
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Confession #107
#rwby#philosophicalpug#shipping#jaune arc#mercury black#Jaune/Mercury#rare pairs#Jaune uses his semblance and Mercury feels overwhelmed#all the energy inside him he feels as if he could use powers he previously had but#theres nothing#no sembelance#hes numb#what his life could've been just repeats in his mind#Jaune stops and apologises to him#feeling powerless and frustrated
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Tbh, nothing has made me sympathize more with Kipperlilly Copperkettle than her anger issues.
Cause anger is an emotion we feel when we're missing something. When we need something and can't get it. It's a balm to make us feel better when things don't go our way.
When things aren't fair.
#d20#dimension 20#d20 fantasy high#fantasy high junior year#d20 spoilers#fhjy#fantasy high spoilers#of course just cause you feel like things are unfair doesnt mean they actually are#and the reason why its an anger issue is cause the anger has befome detrimental#its warped from being somethjng to comfort you when you feel powerless to a tool you use against others when you fedl slighted#part of why anger issues are so hard to overcome is cause of how good it feels in the moment#even if you feel terrible guilt afterwards#the catharsis of releasing anger can be such a relief#that you dont even realise youve started looking for reasons to be angry#youre listing things that are terrible with the world just so you can feel better by getting angry at them#things like capitalism and people who bullied you and how your boss is a terrible racist#things that everyone can get angry over#until they get more personal and warps your judgment#āmy boss called a group of immigrant a bunch of racial slursā āhis secretary was there too she can back me upā#āwhen i brought it up with her she says she wasnt payjng attention or somethingā āshes peobably racist too and thats why he hired herā#it becomes easier to make jumps like that instead of giving people the benefit of the doubt#easier to justify your anger with the smallest slights#until youre yelling at a pedestrian whe. you almost ran them over#āsure it was a red light but they shouldve paid attention and seen me coming tooā#anyways this is all to say kipperlilly probably has some issues to deal with#idk if shes actually behind this plot or if shes being manipulated#doesmt stop her from being a total dick tho#but it does make me a little more sympathetic to her
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A comic I didnāt feel like coloring but had to draw. Because. Because!! THIS POKĆMON HAS FUCKING KILLED SOMEONEā¦!! AND MOST LIKELY WAS GOING TO KILL U AND UR FRIENDS TOO. AND AI TURO KNOWS THAT! HE KNOWS YOUāRE ALL FUCKING DOOMED BUT HE HAS NO CONTROL AND HES GOING TO FUCKING KILL YOU! YOU AND HIS FUCKING SON!!! LIKE HOLY SHIT! So. So yeahā¦!! I. Had to draw art for that ghghg-
#pokemon scarlet and violet#pokemon#ai turo#miraidon#professor turo#trainer arven#doodles#blood#character death#comic#I HAVE. SO MANY FUCKING FEELINGS ABOUT AI TURO#actual real turo I donāt fucking care about. bastard. awful.#I mean. Iām sure heās nuanced but whatever.#BUT AI TURO. OMG. THIS DUDE#THIS DUDE MAKES ME FEEL THINGS.#MOSTLY. BEING SAD. AS HELL#but. yeah. made this comic cuz I felt not enough ppl were talking about the fact this guy is bein FORCED TO KILL U. LIKE THIS POKEMON KILLS#HE KNOWS ITS KILLS. HES SEEN IT.#and now heās powerless to stop it from killing you as well. HE JUST. HAS TO STAND THERE. AND WATCH IT MURDER YOU.#LIKE HOLY SHIT!!!!#so. so yeahā¦ I hope u guys like my comic. about that ghgh#pokemon spoilers#pokemon sv#pokemon sv spoilers#ok hopefully those spoiler tags are enough lol
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whereās that little horror piece about kits never growing up in Starclan? because I remember it so vividly but I canāt find it.
The one about Bright Stream?
Weird that it's so hard to find! It's probably because it's got such heavy tags lmao.
I really mean it though like, canon's permakitten system and the idea that Bright Stream is up there, forever taking care of fetus children who were filled by sudden knowledge and yet never grow past that point absolutely horrifies me. Jesus Christ. I don't know how anyone reads that final scene in Path of Stars and isn't filled with itching, white-hot existential dread, man.
Sometimes you just gotta write horror about it. ĀÆ\_(ć)_/ĀÆ
#partner and i were joking the other day about how like#they are the one known as The Horror Blogger and im the funny cat guy#because it's literally the opposite irl. you have NO idea#They are the one who is squeamish and I am the one that is like#only scared if there's 17 different kinds of existential horror#Which tbf is important in my line of work#But let me tell YOU. One thing that gets me every time? Fucked up afterlives#Probably from all the religious trauma but. Still.#''turns out your whole life is actually teetering on the precipice of a steep drop into the jaws of unknowable gods--#and their concept of omnibenevolent and omnimalevolent are self-defined''#''in death your life only has meaning to those still living and yet you're conscious to experience it''#''you will helplessly watch people you thought loved YOU reduce your memory into how you SERVED them''#''Powerless to stop it you will find that you were only valued as a tool in someone else's life''#''There is no peace in death just being tired and uncomfortable forever''#EURGH#It's why my most feared monsters are actually ghosts and vampires and certain zombies#Because it's not really about the monster it's more about what that monster implies for the afterlife#Certain zombies especially. ngl. Night of the livin dead 2 has the scariest ones ever#Intelligent. Violent. Able to FEEL themselves rotting and the only relief is to consume everything you ever loved#BRR#they did eat a bunch of cops tho so... at least they have that going for them#BONES MCRAMBLES IN THE TAGS#bone babble
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feeling a profound sense of dread tonight unrelated to the ghouls and goblins of the season
#text#idkkkkk. im not doing anything halloweeny tonight and despite the fact that i AM doing halloween stuff over the weekend#i am feeling lonely and awful right about now#and i am scared about my trip to detroit next week bc my two friends in staying with arent on good terms anymore apparently#but like they all live in a big co op thing so ill see both of them. but theyve been besties for forever#and now im scared that one bazillion things will go wrong while im there. man. man#when will things get any easier#im tired of feeling bad and im tired of feeling so powerless about it even though im literally not#like i can go out and meet people. i live in a big city and go to a big school i can do that.#it just feels like i forgot how. and im almost graduated so it feels too late to relearn how too.#le sigh#sorry i stopped using twitter for the most part so you guys get the brunt of this now
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We're still reading Journey To The West (it's a slow process because we usually read a chapter or two before bed so we're only on the second book) and we've recently got to the part with Red Son/Red Boy and just
HOLY SHIT WUKONG ALMOST DIED WHAT THE HELL.
That was one hell of a shocker, thankfully Bajie revived him. But he's still in pain and he's so DISTRAUGHT about not being able to save Xuanzang it's just
GODDDDDD please stop having the monkey suffer aaaah. ;___;
#bluh bluh bluh#honestly the fact that Wukong cares THIS MUCH for Xuanzang is OUGHHHHH#loving this master/disciple relationship#(in absolutely platonic sense)#but seriously this novel NEEDS TO STOP TORTURING THE MONKEY#him crying because he feels powerless to make things right is just painful#AND IT'S BEEN LIKE THAT THREE TIMES ALREADY STOOOOOOOP
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Man I love Omori and Steven Universe, on tge first watch/playthrough itās all fun and games but on the second time around you see that foreshadowing is everywhere and it feels like being stabbed. No other piece of media does it like them.
#steven universe#omori#su#omori has an excellent plot twist that I feel bad talking about because thereās nothing like a blind playthrough#but steven universe Iām ok with discussing so uh#su spoilers#itās not pink diamond Iām talking about itās stevenās trauma#every time he gets hurt is another fracture line in future#every time he offers to help someone is another moment of anxiety later#and youāre powerless to stop him from hurting himself because itās already done#the story is over#no matter how many times you rewatch again and again it will go down the same#steven will be an innocent little kid who just wants to help out the gems#only for episodes like the test to roll around and you see him taking on the role of family therapist when heās literally just a kid#and empire city was once an episode of a kid bringing his two caretakers on vacation because he loves them and wants to spend time together#but now itās an episode of a boy trying to fix problems he shouldnāt have to worry about because he Solves Problems#and itās justā¦#heās hurting himself and thereās nothing I can do#and thereās nothing the people around him would do anyway because heās Steven and Steven Loves To Help#so why would they#and in the end#Steven gets hurt#and the story doesnāt change
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I'm so fucking hungry and tired and thirsty and am I doing anything about it?? no!!
#cw// ed#i know i need to have something bc my babysitter will be here soon but shgarqgwywh!!!#its not even a weight motivated thing really. i mean it is but it isnt.#like i dont particularly want to lose weight i just am SO SCARED of gaining it.#but mostly its just a general AHHHH FOOD BAD I CANT DO IT I DONT NEED IT#oh and i picked out the ~protein source~ from my dumb lunch and then tossed the rest for similar reasons š#wtf is happening and why do i feel powerless to stop it
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everyone is rightfully talking about how amazing all the roy siblings' performances were (because yeah holy shit) but lemme hear it for this tiny, dialogue-less moment because it out of nowhere gutted me
#succession#succession spoilers#like#I can't even remember this character's NAME right now#and he's been there literally the whole time!#and like....who KNOWS what he has been thinking about logan this whole time#or the kids#but you spend your career protecting someone#and then you're powerless to stop their death#just!!!#this actor did a REALLY fantastic job with this small shot in an overwhelmingly exceptional episode#anyway#lauren feels things
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#okay. observations about my mental state.#well first off it is bad#second off i feel like every emotion i feel is itās own piece of me#with no overlap#when I am miserable thatās all i am and it feels like thereās no respite from that#when iām happy iām manic and overly energetic and i cling to it bc i know eventually iāll be back to being sad and depressed#and recent update. the anger patch#maybe i want to believe these are all different personas or whatever (NOT SAYING THAT!! being so clear right now i do not believe that#itās just what the experience feels like.)#but yeah i donāt want to think that the person i am when iām angry is me#because itās such an awful bitter feeling#and like i know iām allowed to be mad#and given the shit iām putting up with i mean who wouldnāt be#but it makes me so fucking unpleasant and i can FEEL that#just that directionless anger#and i feel like i can only condemn it after the fact in the moment I feel powerless to stop those feelings#uggghhh#anyways art imitates life or whatever
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Referencing one of the fics I talked about here, the "this was supposed to be about Redemption. it isn't." Vox-centric rape aftermath one, which will now be going behind a readmore with that description as your warning
I need to talk about this forever but I am not close to publishing anything yet. But I do have a lot of it plotted out (with no ending in sight though, unfortunately).
Vox, at his core, wants to be liked. Where other Overlords lean into the fear their power inspires, Vox softens himself and puts on a friendly smile. He needs public approval. He yearns for their affection, their eyes, their obsession. He made an AI assistant modeled and named after himself on all of their phones/watches/devices.
But Vox still is an Overlord, and you don't get power in Hell without making people hate you.
The Vees have a hold not just on media, but on drugs, real estate, construction, data centers, manufacturing, the entire electrical grid and fiber optic lines, the list goes on and on. Vox's empire touches every corner of their city; no one is free from his influence unless they shun modernity entirely.
It's the drugs that cause an issue this time.
Valentino has been beefing with The Alchemist since that mutt first made a name for himself. His aesthetic was ancient to match the name, but the Alchemist is a new sinner, some lowlife who thought that because he knew how to make lean in life, he could make a name for himself here and branch out into all sorts of new, hellish drugs. Thing is, addicts are the easiest soul contract you'll ever make. Promise to supply their addiction, and as long as you can, you'll collect souls as quickly as you can make Deals. The Alchemist getting to new Sinners before the Vees get a chance to becomes a problem.
Valentino has plenty of enforcers to take care of uppity wannabe Overlords encroaching on their turf though. The problem should be short-lived.
It isn't.
Vox hasn't been paying much attention to it. These things come and go, as gangsters die and Valentino forces them into submission. Val may focus more on his Porn Studio now, but he got his Overlord status through taking out the old families and cartels, the mobs and mafias running Pentagram City, taking over their drug trafficking and brothels. So Vox didn't worry about it. Val might need direction when dealing with his public persona, didn't know when to tone himself down for polite company, but when the situation called for Val's brand of violence? Vox let him handle it.
He realized, after the drinks at his investor meeting led to him collapsing dizzily to the floor, reaching out blindly for the now non-existent electrical grid and realizing that the building's power had been cut off, that he should have paid more attention to who might have it out for The Vees right now, and which investors weren't in Valentino's pocket.
... He escapes eventually. They may have been smart enough to keep him away from electrical wires, but one finally made the mistake of not putting his phone on airplane mode while recording their captive Overlord, and Vox used it as a jump point.
The damage had already been done.
Val is still ranting about his typical inane drama, and Vox wants nothing more than to look at his phone. He can't do that. Not until his algorithm cleans up any mention of. Himself. In compromising situations. It's being posted faster than the bots can take it down, but at least Vox has turned off any direct messages, blocked the usual pings alerting him every time he's mentioned, and filtered emails to only show what is absolutely and immediately necessary for the continued running of VoxTek. Even that decision has also been posted about online, people making fun of him for not being able to handle the backlash. He used to have a language model AI answering comments and DMs, a personal touch for his fans. It had responded to far too many messages about how good he looked in his latest broadcast with the standard thanks and appreciation for their support, before he disabled it. Vox was sure screenshots of those responses were also still going around.
The Vee's retribution on the other Overlord is to torture him and his inner circle on live video. The Alchemist posted several recordings of Vox's rape online to further humiliate him, so the Vees will pay back like with like, making use of Val's stash of angelic bullets to slowly kill off everyone who touched Vox. Until the Alchemist begs for mercy, tells them he'll give them anything, everything, offering up everything to them, his soul, his territory, all of his Contracts...
Velvette takes the deal. "I'll give you anything," was the phrase they agreed on, "my Contracts, yours. Money, apothecaries, everything, please." They shook on those terms, the Alchemist too out of it at this point to realize that he didn't ask for anything in return for all that he just handed over. Vox shoots him.
His death, his defeat, it doesn't fix anything.
It was supposed to. It was supposed to make everyone stop talking about Vox like he's the new most popular porn star - or at least focus on him when he's in control of the situation. Wasn't that hotter? Filmed professionally by Valentino's best director instead of on a handheld shaking cell phone and. It was supposed to show everyone that you can't mess with The Vees. Wins against them are only temporary. They'll come out on top in the end. But everyone was still talking about old news.
Anyway. Many more thoughts but this is long enough lmao. A huge focus of this multi series wip is how other characters react to it, not just Vox. Like: Valentino has so many issues of his own and he is projecting them onto Vox. Valentino escaped victimhood long ago, and he is no longer the kind of person who can be targeted by abusers or bigots. Vox was his equal. Vox was his.
"Hey! Vox!" There's hands on him and he reels back, but there's nowhere to go. His shoulders are wrenched out of place, arms bound by his own bowtie, nowhere to run. This isn't happening. There's something in his mouthā no there's not?ā Bite me and I'll knock out your teeth,* a gruff voice is saying. Vox, they mock, Vox, they ask if he likes hearing his name chanted during. No, Vox! He puts his name on everything, should they brand him with his own logo? Would he like that? He screams when they grab his antenna and wrench his head to the side. "Vox! "You're not listening to me!" Val's expression clears as Vox blinks to awareness. His glare melts into a on of concern. "Are you seriously still thinking about that gangbanger?" Val scoffs. Frowns. Thinks of something with a smile growing across his face. One hand is on Vox's chest, another two on his hips, he guides Vox back, gently. Vox stumbles when he hits the arm of the couch, falling, flailing, landing on his back with an oomf Val crawls over top of him. "Stop thinking about them, Voxxy. You know I can show you a much better time." Vox flinches when Val's hand trails lower onto his thigh, trying to wiggle away for the first time, and Val's brows furrow. "I didn't think you were hurt there," he mutters. "Skin graft," Vox squeaks, breathless. He hated feeling breathless. He didn't even need to breathe.
Velvette, well. She was the person Vox teleported to. He manifested out of her phone and knocked them both to the ground, passing out on top of her. She got the first look at him before any of his technicians were called in to fix things. He came to her. And she can't help but feel responsible for him.
In the video, they fucked him like he was a toy. No, not even that. They treated him with less regard than anyone fucked even a FizzBot. It wasn't a good video. These weren't porn directors. They weren't sex workers who had trained to make this art. It was brutal and it was vulgar and it didn't even look good. Bad angles and shaky camera, but shared tens of thousands of times and the number was still growing. The original had been removed. She made sure of that. But that hadn't stopped its spread, couldn't do anything when people downloaded the video as quickly as they could to reupload it, far too many reposts to track down, especially with Vox still. Offline. She couldn't exactly plug herself into his supercomputer. Velvette was the Social Media Queen. She was the Online Overlord. She was meant to be in charge of The Vees' images online, currating how they presented themselves to that hungry audience. This wasn't supposed to get out of her control. āā But she had posted about Vox in the afteraffects of Val's venom, doped to his gills on the thing she had recreated into Love Potion. She had tagged it for a free promo of her own products. Vox was funny when his tongue was loose and his affection and attention freely given. And Vox thought humanizing himself was important, some twisted idea leftover from life about being "robotic" that dictated his body in the afterlife and left him desperate to be understood as a living, albeit no longer breathing human being. He softened himself to be less of a monster to anyone looking, dressed himself like he wasn't a threat, smiled and laughed and and. It was her idea to capitalize on Val and Vox's relationship. Well, Val was the one who first callously posted about breaking Vox's screen, but it was her idea to turn it into a running joke. It was funny when Val punched Vox and threw things at him and broke his fucking face. It was funny, because unlike bruises and bloody noses, Vox's screen was easily replaceable glass. It broke so easily, anyone who managed to get a lucky hit on him while fighting could no longer feel satisfied by that when Vox's boyfriend did more damage than a rival Overlord could ever manage to. Glass was easy to break. Vox didn't like fighting back, but it was funny, was barely even violence. It meant nothing more than rolled eyes and a swiftly scheduled appointment with a technician to switch out screens. No one was supposed to look at the image she created and come to the conclusion that Vox was easy to subdue. It wasn't supposed to make Vox look weak. It was supposed to make him impossible to hurt, because any damage done was so easy to fix that it was no big deal at all. But. His face was so easy to break. He was so loose limbed and pliant on Love Potion. He might have claws, but he preferred not to use them, hiding behind cameras and screens all day. What the fuck were people supposed to take from that?
Other characters have thoughts too. Alastor isn't online, doesn't know the backstory, but Vox makes his picture shows impossible to miss with displays all over the city. Vox has become unrecognizable. Alastor is disgusted that they used to be acquaintances.
Cherri gleefully sends Angel every vindictive meme about Vox she sees. She wishes it had happened to Valentino instead, but Vox is also profiting off of her bestie's abuse, so he absolutely deserves everything that happened to him and more.
Angel laughed about it at first, but... It doesn't feel right to celebrate anyone's rape. And some of Cherri's comments... Angel has been used to sell this lifestyle to the new talent Valentino wants to make Deals with. He's responsible for ruining so many lives, hanging off Val's arm and telling people how great it is to work for him. And long before that, Angel was involved in the Mafia and, well, like Val himself, they didn't just make money on drugs, did they? Angel wonders if his best friend would be so supportive of him if she knew all this. He wonders of she'd think he deserves his fate too.
Carmilla, like Alastor, is not very online. She hears from her daughters that there's a reason The Vees are doing this, but the girls aren't sharing any details, and don't stay to watch the broadcast Vox has forced onto their TV. She watches The Vees make a Deal with a Sinner and immediately turn around and kill him with one of her weapons. Overlords are meant to protect the Souls that have been entrusted to them. Souls are valuable, the most valuable thing you have to offer anyone. What message is Vox spreading, making mockery of Deals this way, acting like Souls are worthless and can be thrown away. The Vees are just making Sinners less likely to sell themselves to anyone.
Carmilla had scheduled a meeting for fellow Overlords to talk about saving as many Sinners as possible in the upcoming Exterminations. The Vees were meant to attend, but obviously, they are uninterested in keeping the Sinners entrusted to their care alive. She uninvites them. (Vox is still filtering out his emails. He doesn't get this one. The Vees show up anyway.)
Charlie thinks about violence a lot. It's inescapable. She doesn't use her phone much, but she learns what happened to Vox and nearly cries. She makes a post about how violence shouldn't be celebrated and wishes Vox well in his recovery. Days later, she watches Vox take over the television and the three Vees torture the people who tortured him, and she thinks about what will happen when she has the opportunity to reach out to two Sinners who hurt each other. She wants to think they can all be redeemed, that her hotel should be open to anyone. She watches the screen through her fingers, unable to look away as Vox kills the Sinner on his knees before him, cackling. She watches The Vees kiss each other over the dead body, tender and loving, the broadcast ending as Vox rests his screen against Velvette's hair and Valentino wraps all of his arms around the two. And she thinks about forgiveness, and she wonders what she would do if someone hurt Vaggie.
#Stayed Gone battle still happens because Valentino is sick of Vox hiding and goads him into action by telling him about Alastor#āHe'd be powerless without the other Veesā hits different this time. everyone already knows thisā Alastor doesn't need to say it#The Vees are never letting themselves be separated outside of their tower again#(wellā Valentino isn't as bothered by it as the other two are. but he's not letting them go out alone again)#Velvette is not going out alone tho. she's physically much weaker than Vox. and if someone can do that to Vox... what chance does she have?#she's seen the comments online too. saying she should be next. that her Love Potion has ruined so many people's livesā#she should know how it feels#she doesn't drink anything prepared by other people anymore. not after Vox told her how they got to him.#i have so many more Valentino thoughts that didn't get into this post bc i thought it was too long already.....................#it's my blog i can post whatever i want to. i should post about Valentino being so possessive#he's helping Vox!! [proceeds to literally tear open half-healed wounds to fuck Vox so Vox'll stop thinking about other people fucking him]#Val genuinely thinks the solution to being forced to have bad sex is to go and have good sex instead.#Velvette and Val get into many arguments about how to treat Vox and Val's offended that Velvette seems to think Vox is weak#WIP#my wips
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#i'm kind of at the end of my rope guys#i'm scared all the time#i feel powerless#i feel hopeless#things are only getting worse and it doesn't seem like there's an end in sight#every day is a struggle not to collapse under the weight of how fucking bad things are and i don't know how much longer i can do this#i just want everything to stop#vent#to be deleted
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