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also the therapy place that rejected me today said they didn't have an ed specialist on staff but like. one of them def has it in her lil blurb/bio on her list of specialties smh. I was actually hopeful about her bc she is an RO-DBT therapist and I am very overcontrolled lmaoo

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suddenly overwhelmed with allllll the self destructive behavior urges. my babysitter left so i could easily check my weight but I know it wont be accurate and will just upset me but I'm still sooooo tempted. I also have sh stuff readily available and I just!!! am anxious and full of despair for no apparent reason

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saw an ad for "plan B one step" (all one word) and I read it as "plan bone step" and i was like what kind of fucked up weight loss ad is this

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There is a future for you. There is a life worth living. Even if it seems far off or unimaginable, I promise, there is a world where you wake up and go about a life that you enjoy that is filled with small wonders.

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Are you guys okay with me being completely insane

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update just got another therapy rejection lol, and they referred me to the local place I did res at that was absolute dogshit for no apparent reason

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lord take all of my pain and sufferig and give it to elon musk

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sitting in a restaurant and I just got so fucking anxious abt food and people and I want to leave Right Now but we waited like an hour for a table and it would be weird to just walk out,,, esp since I don't have a ride ahahgsgfaq

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lol not me getting a therapy rejection on a Sunday. why does this feel like applying for jobs

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when i was 17 and in the eating disorder trenches i saw people online talking abt how the fat liberation movement & unlearning fatphobia helped them recover and i did NOT like hearing that i was SO mad about it i was like well having an eating disorder doesnt mean im fatphobic!!! This is ableist etc etc. And then i learned abt the fat liberation movement and started unlearning fatphobia and guess what . it does help

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One nostril clogs another one opens or however the saying goes

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a fat creator will post "is it a look or is she just skinny" and the comments are all like :( end skinny shaming, i got told to eat a burger in fourth grade, my lifetime of fitting the beauty standards sucks :( and a fat creator will talk about medical fatphobia nearly killing them and those comments are like. well have you considered your near fatal discriminatory experience is actually your fault because you're fat?? by the way my friend's cousin's wife's aunt tried ozempic and she loved it #healthyisbeautiful !!

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"my pants don't fit, can I borrow yours?" haha sure! and why don't you just shoot me in the face next time!!

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there's been a horrible almost accident at the hypervigilance factory

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scratching an itch just makes it more itchy and fuck, behaviors sure are scratchy

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life is hard but my dick is harder #inspirational #ilovelife