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its been exactly one year since E was created <3 congrats and also condolences to this murder drones fan character for quickly becoming one of my favorite ocs ever

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Mass Attack for ArtFight!

characters belong to their owners there's too many to tag lol

Do Not Reupload my art without permission or credit!

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I'm curious, during the manor era--what was E's relationship with everyone? (ex. J, V, Tessa, etc.)

Especially due to you saying they are meant to mirror J in some ways.

But ye, just curious :]

OH YAY YIPPEE im excited to talk about this. <3

so to start, E was completely mechanically functional when Tessa found them at the dump. he was just laying in a pile of scraps waiting for his charge to drain. when Tessa found him he was insistent that she wouldn't want him because he's broken "in ways that cant be fixed." obviously Tessa wouldn't stand for that and took them in anyway. E gently protested with her nearly the entire way back to the manor but eventually gave in. and, shamefully, they were quietly relieved that they didn't have to die just yet. E never told her why exactly he was thrown out due to a mix of heavy repression and fear of it happening again; if they DID tell her, she wouldn't have put him in a maid dress LOL. a brief overview of his personality during his time in the manor is overly polite and obedient, while keeping to himself and his duties. he spent a lot of the time in the garden and generally avoided humans when he could, especially Tessa's parents.

as for relationships!! i’ll put this part under the cut bc im embarrassed at how long it is LOL

Tessa: E cared about Tessa a lot; she was pretty much the first human they interacted with that treated him as a person rather than a tool for humanity. this sort of care was something E was very much not used to, and it confused him a lot. they tried resisting her attempts at getting him to hangout with her and the rest of her inner circle of drones (that being J, V, and N of course) on the basis of "not having earned it," but Tessa was stubborn, of course. E was very very grateful for everything she did for him and did everything he could to not disappoint her (an expectation he put on himself, mind you).

N: N was the first to introduce himself to E once he got settled, and was also the first to be able to ease him out of his "i need to be perfect" front. E was closest to him during his time in the manor, and they often did things like draw together. E for sure had feelings for N at this point, but was repressing that shit HARD. he was also aware of V and N's feelings for each other at the time and felt very guilty for feeling the way that he did despite that. E and N were very close up until about a month before the gala massacre, when E very suddenly and inexplicably pulled into himself and became very distant. this hurt and confused N a lot, of course. E retained this distance for years- even after the manor- up until the events of the show, where that gap finally begins to mend.

V: putting manor era V and E in a room is like putting two frightened fawns who are unfamiliar with each other in an enclosed space. eventually it turns out fine, but for a little while they're kinda just staring at each other with big scared eyes with no idea what to do with their bodies otherwise. the only reason why they started talking and, eventually, befriended each other was because it was N who introduces them to each other. while E wasn't as close with her as they were with N, they still enjoyed her company a lot and liked talking to her. E's very sudden distance hurt V a lot, which manifests into resentment on her end post-gala. (it turns out fine eventually but!! yknow!! lotsa bad stuff happened here and a lotta feelings come out of that)

J: E was mostly afraid of her frankly lol. he didn't really try to befriend her outside of just doing whatever she told him to when it came to maid-related stuff. most of the parallels between them during this time, to me, is both of them having an innate need to obey and do as they’re told despite how different their personalities are otherwise.

Cyn: don’t even worry about it

there’s definitely more to be said here but!! that’s the general gist <3

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I cannot tell you how much the line "Patron saint of never growing old" is such a sad and tragic line and it pops into my head whenever I think of Tessa now. I love your work and that's such an amazing line

that means so much to hear thank you. <3 as much as i genuinely love any and all fan content where she's brought back in some way, i truly think tessa's role is the most meaningful if she remains dead.

maybe im just too tragedy-brained, but to me her death is a symbolic and literal representation what cyn/the solver took from the disassembly drones. the "it was supposed to be a normal day" part of grief/trauma taken to its extreme. how something (someone in this case) so pure and dear and important can never be given back- and can only take form as a rotting corpse of itself that stains every good memory it once represented with bile and blood. thats why tessa's physical appearance being a mystery until the cynessa reveal really resonates with me, anyway. we can never know what her smile looked like when she was alive, what she would've been without her parent's influence, who she wanted to be. to us, she only exists as a patron saint of never growing old.

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get attacked idiot <3

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ITS ABOUT TO GO DOWN

(artfight link :3)

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post series uzi ref i made for me and my friends' md au <3

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shiny new E reference i made specifically in preparation for art fight (pspsps :3)

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image i did of my besties' @surescrambled and @trauma-bot 's self insert OCs. They're all besties <3

Mostly posting in case Gloom wants to reblog it and put it in his E tag lol

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he’s too good at forgiving and you’re too good at violence

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an issue that i run into often re: drawing the robots is tears. because i loveeeee drawing crying and sobbing expressions but it doesnt hit as good when the tears are digital and just go down their visors rather than dripping onto whatever/whoever they're crying on AND without leaving any tear streaks. what if i want it to be ugly and messy with physical evidence of distress being left behind!!!!!

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we don't have many days

redraw of the elliot family photo. i inserted my oc in it also sorry <3 (all the way to the right. he/him pronouns)

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helloooo im the anon that asked you about nuze back in.... autumn.... idk how i never noticed the time but anyway, i absolutely LOVE everything, loved reading it and currently am browsing the toyhouse gallery <3 really fun thank you

YAY im glad!!!! perhaps when im a little less shy ill share more specific stuff about them because they're sooo important to me and more details have been developed since, but im glad you liked what i answered with!

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sinner

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something unexpected that happened while working on E’s arc (specifically post-series) was him actually forming a friendship with J. E is meant to parallel her in a lot of ways that make me crazy, but they don’t have any positive interactions until like. months after absolute end. what if it turns out former squad mate who you never got along with dealt with and feels very similar things that you do.

i have to keep myself from rambling bc there’s a LOT of context but here’s a drawing of them i made some weeks ago yay yippee

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i wanted to do one of these with E for a while now and finally got around to it !

link to the template

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i do feel Awkward whenever someone is clearly going through my blog for the first time liking things etc because i'm sure they came here from one of my more popular canon compliant fanart and want to find more of that (completely understandably!!), only for all of my canon md art to be broken up by embarrassing oc and oc x canon stuff. like hello new person thank you genuinely for the notes i'm glad you like my art. also i'm sorry