#also i needed this video on my blog for lesbian reasons

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#there is no heterosexual explanation

[refinedpet]

Heck it, I'll make a proper pinned

Salutations! Hello! My name is Ashley, your likely not so local, lesbian, early twenties, beautiful trans girlthing with undiagnosed mental problems.

I usually post about Trans stuff, as helping other transfems in any way I can is important to me.

I also post about whatever else is on my mind, I don't really have much of a filter. Usually expect stuff about Video Games.

I also don't hesitate to reblog horny stuff, and I'm a kinky bitch so that filter doesn't exist. Usually not anything with nudity, but no promises. This Blog is 18+ Only.

My old pinned was my award winning post

It makes a great vibe check and did a phenomenal job scaring away chasers. Watch if if you're not a coward

Stuffs I like!!!!:

I play alot of video games, some of my favorite series are Xenoblade Chronicles (This is the quickest way to my heart), Dragon Quest, Pikmin, Fire Emblem (Unfortunate), Kirby, Splatoon, Shin Megami Tensei, Megaman

I love the NeiR series! Fantasy Life and Gnosia are some of my all time favorites.

I've been lifelong way too Pokémon obsessed

I play a wide variety of stuff, and it'd be difficult to name everything. I play a bit of everything but I'm mostly a single player girly and I adore JRPG's.

I used to be more of an anime fan, but don't actively watch new stuff alot. I've seen a ton of anime and read alot of manga.

Stuff like JoJo's Bizzare Adventure, Chainsaw Man, The Melancholy of Haruhi Suzumiya, The Pet Girl of Sakuraso, Yuru Yuri, Sailor Moon and many more are very important to me.

As said I'm well experienced in anime, and love getting to talk about it with people.

I'm likely to do the occasional horny post, but usually don't reblog or post nudity. Still this Blog is 18+

I'm a kinky bitch, and have spent alot of time in online lewd role play communities. As a result I'm desensitized to alot of it and very casual about things.

I've been called a succubus alot, and have a history of awakening new kinks in people.

If I ever make a NSFW sideblog I'll give more specifics there. But I'm always down to talk with girls (18+) about stuff!

Alright, wrap it up already:

Now, here's a collection of thoughts and things I couldn't be bothered to fit in naturally anywhere.

The tag I use for my original posts is #Ashley.txt if you want to see just them and not the mass of stuff I reblog. For older ones I used #skyla.ramble if you wanna see those. Yes Skyla is not my name anymore, no I'm not changing the tag, You have to earn calling me that.

I use #stoned kitten for my high posts

As stated before my name is Ashley! I prefer Ashey as a nickname over Ash. And I encourage people to spell it however they like best. Having some people say Ashy or Ashie is cute! You can call me Ash, but don't call me that exclusively.

I'm a She/Her - It/It's Girly. Those are the ones I fuck with. Referring to me with It/It's is the way to my heart, but I like being called both.

I'm an attention whore

I love Chappell Roan

I meow and bite, don't worry about it

Mutuals are always so incredibly welcome and encouraged to send me a DM or ask for my Discord (that's where I prefer talking)

I love all transfems. No matter what arbitrary reason you have that makes you think you're not enough or worthy of it. All trans people have a space in this community. You are so incredibly important 💖

Okay, I've gone on for more than long enough. I'll add to this if I ever need to

Have some pictures of me to finish off because I'm hot as hell

[wolfie-d00dles]

My version of Monster High G3 (part 1)

These are a work in progress, and there are definitely more to come! It does take me several hours to complete one drawing simply because I want to put my love and dedication into my designs, and I want each character’s personality and story to be reflected in their look. Please enjoy ⚡️🧠🐾

More in-depth descriptions under the cut!

⚡️Frankie Stein (They/Them)⚡️

Frankie’s personality in G3 is very energetic and quite literally electric. They have dreams of becoming a monster surgeon, and they also enjoy STEM activities such as building gadgets and attachments to their body. In my design I wanted to give them a unique, almost neon-punk mad scientist, style. I feel like Frankie finds reflecting their unique identity in their self-expression to be very important. I kept their gender identity and sexuality pretty canon to the show because I think it’s amazing to see for a main character. Also as a neurodivergent person I see myself in Frankie and their personality a lot, which is why in my version they are absolutely neurodiverse in some way.

Flags/Symbols Included: Neurodivergent infinity symbol, non-binary flag, lesbian flag

🧠Ghoulia Yelps (She/They)🧠

I know there’s a lot of dislike for Ghoulia’s new character in G3, but honestly I really do like seeing her being portrayed as a gamer ghoul type nerd versus being a numbers and tech nerd like in G1. I think her character design needs a bit of work though. In my design she’s kind of a more realistic gamer in terms of dress I feel like, and also has a bit of edge as well. I headcanon them as being slightly emo and it shows in their style hence the classic beanie, plugs, converse, and hoodie/t-shirt combo. And I feel like she’s the type to wear strictly pajama pants and sweatpants due to sensory reasons (jeans are evil), but they usually have some kind of graphic patterns on them! I feel like a good aspiration for them would be learning how to code and create video games. I could also see them enjoying animation as well, potentially incorporating their own animations into games. Also, I’m taking away the skater ghoul aspect completely just because I think the animation and video game/coding hobby is a lot more interesting!

Flags/Symbols Included: Neurodivergent infinity symbol, bisexual flag, demisexual flag.

🐾Clawdeen Wolf (She/They)🐾

Clawdeen’s character revamp in G3 is another controversial one that I see the fandom divided on as well. A lot of people miss her glamorous and fierce style, while others embrace the change. I personally adore Clawdeen’s new look, and I definitely leaned into it in my version. I felt like I just had to make her a tumblr ghoul. Idk what the Monster High equivalent of Tumblr would be, but she’d definitely be on there with blogs about books, following fan fiction tags, and aesthetic mood boards and photos. I totally get those vibes from the OG design, but I needed to see them in a beanie, flannel, tattoo choker, distressed/cuffed skinny jeans, doc martens. I also just had to give her the galaxy wolf shirt her doll outfits always have a celestial theme and galaxy print was THE shit.

Flags/Symbols Included: Unlabeled flag, queer flag

[blkvxmp]

spencer or zach, he/it/vamp/lurk, gnc transsexual fag ♱ prnpage ♱ rentry ♱ muttfail on sp ♱ hoard

yo, i'm spencer. i'm an autistic plural boything who loves girls and dudes, mainly dudes. think of me as the flamboyant gay man, lesbian in theory scared to practice, emo drag queen. girlie in a gay way, fagirl if you will. i love being a goth girl but don't get it twisted, i'm a boy despite my desire to be the typical girl. please don't use she/her on me. uhm other stuff is uhhhh.. i'm intersex, i LOVE body mods and bats, ginger ale and metal/rock carries my soul, and i'm the co-host of a system. my dude casper (a member of my system) might come on here from time to time but he's not much for publicity despite his big mouth. if you couldn't tell, i'm a vampire kin along with a ghost, zombie, werewolf, and banshee kin. i'm also a monster lover so there's that. i'm mixed ethnicity and i'm racially black. my fav bands are msi, ac/dc, mcr, evanescence, slipknot, deftones, blink-182, weezer, and limp bizkit. i believe in god but not organized religion, but idc what religion you follow as long as you aren't an asshat. no real dni but i ask heavy ns/fw accounts to not interact with me, it makes me mad uncomfy. that goes for sh/ed blogs, heavy political based blogs, and just the basic dni stuff. if i don't vibe with you i'll just block, and if you're confused, you can reach out, but depending on the reason i blocked i may ignore you.

i curse, i try not to but it gets annoying trying to be pg. i do art and i'll post some once i can. i identify as nb and genderfluid as well. i'm afraid of spiders and deep water, plus some irrational stuff like church bells, alpacas, and pigs, i don't need trigger warnings for them since i really only get scared seeing them in person, but i ask that you trigger warning trypophobia, videos involving deep sea creatures meant to scare you, emetophobia, and videos that play the toll of a church bell since the sound scares me. i'm also afraid of the dark, ironic for a vampire i know, so please trigger warning scary videos related to having things follow you in the dark. i have trauma around unwanted advances and flirting so PLEASE don't do that, it really messes with me. you can call me pretty/handsome or whateva but please don't flirt. please use tone tags. i'm in a system of over 100 so like if i seem grouchy for no reason it's because i literally have over 100 roommates talking all at once. if you'd like to be moots, don't hesitate to ask! i may be socially inept and anxious for literally no reason but i love meeting people who have the same interests as me! but i am painfully shy so keep that in mind. more may be added.

vamp divider

[1moreff-creator]

Thank you DRDT crew!

Even though I’ve only been a fan for a short time compared to others, the amount of love I have for this series is hard to put into words. It has slowly grown to be my favorite DR-related media of all time, for a multitude of reasons. Everything about it is remarkably impressive, and I just wanted to say thank you for bringing us such an amazing experience.

I got into DRDT through Weeby Newz’ streams. I had just finished binge watching her SDRA2 streams, but this “Danganronpa Despair Time” one looked interesting. Especially because I kept seeing a video by Ocean Unknown popping up in my recommended, which said something about “David’s reveal”. So I decided to watch those vods too.

Fast-forward a binge watch, and… I was in love. It didn’t even register how attached I’d gotten to every single character, and how intrigued I was to see how everything would play out.

I absolutely wouldn’t have started a Tumblr blog without DRDT. But now I have, and it’s been one of the most fun experiences I’ve had in fandom. So, from the bottom of my heart:

Thank You!

Thank you for the dedication to do such a long and arduous project!

Thank you for the beautiful art! I’ve always been a fan of DRDT’s unique style, and those animations always take my breath away, no matter how many times I see them.

Thank you for all the amazing characters you’ve brought to life! I love them all so much, I could thank you for each one individually.

… So I will.

•Thank you for Teruko! Because she’s one of my favorite protagonists from anything ever, as her intriguing and complex personality is always a joy to analyze.

Also, uh, thank you for the prosopagnosia rep. I probably have that too, but I would have never found out without DRDT. It really explained a lot about my life, so it can be said this series has changed me forever :D

•Thank you for Xander! It’s refreshing to see a character like him being so important to the story, with so many mysteries still surrounding him!

•Thank you for Charles! Because this nerd is one of the most likable and enjoyable characters I’ve seen in any fangan.

•Thank you for Ace! Because he manages to be both very funny and very interesting and complex whenever needed.

•Thank you for Arei! It’s always nice to see a ‘mean’ character with such well thought out motivations and such drive to change.

•Thank you for Rose! Her attitude always makes me feel calm when I think about her, and I’m really interested in seeing where her character and themes are going to go.

•Thank you for Hu! Another one I’m really intrigued by, I can’t wait to know more about her!

•Thank you for Eden! For showing that even “the nice one” characters can have depth and complexity. Also representation win, the nicest girl ever is a lesbian!

•Thank you for Nico! They are so, so interesting. I feel like I’m overusing the word “intriguing”, but they really are so fun to think about. Also representation win for the enbies! Love to see it.

•Thank you for Whit! Because he’s funny, and interesting, and there’s definitely something wrong with him it’s nice to have a character that doesn’t have any big issues :D

Just kidding! The reason I love DRDT so much is that everyone gets to be a little fucked up, as a treat!

And representation win! The coolest guy ever is bisexual!

•Thank you for J! She’s funny and cool and- you guessed it, intriguing. I am running that word to the ground, but it’s true for everyone!

•Thank you thank you thank you for Veronika!!! She’s so great. She’s fantastic. She always brings a smile to my face, she’s so perfect in every way shape and form. God I love her so much, I want her to go as insane as her crazy little heart desires. And more representation! Sorta jealous of the pansexuals who got this freak (affectionate).

•Thank you for David! How can a character be so complex, that you look at Literature Girl Insane and decide it needs more literary references to properly convey them? Well, David’s the answer, and geez. He’s just so fantastically written, it’s incredible. Another big win for the bisexual community imo.

•Thank you for Levi! He’s really cool, and everything about him is interesting.

•Thank you for Arturo! Because as much of a weirdo as he can be, his entire character is just really, really interesting.

•Thank you for MonoTV! Because it’s funny and its personality has to be one of the most unique I’ve ever seen for mascot characters.

•Thank you for Mai! I mean, who?

•Thank you for Unnamed Classmate! Because they’re really nice and I can’t wait to see where they go.

And of course…

•Thank you, so much, for Min! She may very well be my favorite character from anything ever. Everything about how she’s written is phenomenal, her personality and struggles are so well developed, I could gush about her for hours! She means so much to me, I can’t properly describe how in love I am with her.

Thank you for the laughs! From the arm wrestling scene, Charles getting obliterated by MonoCredits, “milk tastes good”, Teruko tripping over Nico… Not to mention the greatest joke ever conceived: the bathroom investigation. I laughed for a solid minute or two when I first watched it, just replaying the funniest thing ever on loop.

The Q&As were also really funny, and I never really had an issue with the way the were written. I fully understand and support if you decide not to do them ever again, but they were fun while they lasted. From Nico’s favorite ice cream flavor being “the flavor”, to us forgetting people can have friends aside from Mai I mean who, all the way to that time you directed us to inform ourselves on what a pant pocket is.

Thank you for the tears! Because I still can’t watch Min’s final hug without my chest hurting, a lot. Even some of the frames from the Sleepy MV, that beautiful piece of art, get me to tear up just looking at them.

Thank you for the mysteries! From the murders which are really fun to theorize about, to everything related to Mai Akasaki and the multiple source code secrets. And don’t even get me started on the LGI MV, that insanity (affectionate) has been eating at my brain ever since it released. Everything about it is fantastic, even the things we still haven’t solved.

Where’s footnote 8, dev?! Did you put it in your pant pockets?! (/j)

Also, tangentially, thanks for introducing me to the LGI album. It’s a really good album ^^

Thank you for the research you’ve put into everything! Things like Ace’s talent causing his eating disorder are really appreciated, they show a genuine care and love for the project.

Thank you for all the little details you might think no one notices, but that we love to see! Things like the first Nonstop Debate ending in perjury, Teruko listing Xander as one of the people whose secret was unrevealed, David’s eyes being different in his genuine breakdowns to his little thing in Ep 11, strychnine not being listed with the other custom weapons because Charles made the list, the note Xander received having a proper full message which has been obscured (I can only make out “it is” at the bottom, but it’s clear the message is there), the charm on Teruko’s thing-that’s-probably-a-MonoPad-but-may-be-something-else being the same as Unnamed Classmate’s phone charm, all the interesting details in the character profiles, among so many other things.

This also includes details revealed on Q&As. Arei being ambidextrous, Teruko liking “girly” clothing, Xander having a weak sense of taste, Ace having 9 siblings, Veronika’s earring being related to a friend, all the favorite and least favorite colors and ice cream flavors. As well as the few things we know about people like Felicity and Elliot that made the community fall in love with them for no apparent reason. It just makes them all seem so human!

Thank you to the voice actors, as well! They’ve all done such an amazing job, no exceptions! In particular, Veronika’s unhinged laughter, the dialogue after Ace’s almost murder, Min’s last words, David’s speech post the “guilty as charged” incident… but it’s all fantastic, all the characters are voiced really well.

And thank you for so much more! If I kept going, this post would never end. DRDT just means more to me than any finite number of words could ever convey. Without your work, the days pass by tastelessly /ref. So, one last time for the road:

Thank you for everything!

(God I love the Sleepy MV so much. It’s so pretty!!!)

[squid-ink-symphony]

f1sh and chips headcanons?

IVE BEEN PREPARING FOR THIS MOMENT MY WHOLE LIFE

HARMONY:

Nonbinary and kinda indifferent on their gender. Goes by She/They. Doesn't really care if you use other pronouns for them tho.

Aromantic and a lesbian. Is still ok with labeling a relationship as dating even if she doesn't experience romantic love the same way as other people.

Autistic, and doesn't always function super well as an adult on her own. But she's doing her best.

Collects stuffed animals and small toys.

Likes cute things, but some people would label their definition of cute as weird.

Loves bright colors. Crank that saturation up!

Very blunt.

Gets along pretty well with her bandmates. They aren't SUPER close but they are friends.

Knows she is different. Doesn't care. It probably used to bother them more when they were younger, but now she has come to terms with it.

House is very messy.

People are just drawn to her, she doesn't particularly like it.

A lot of people think that because she is blunt and speaks her mind that she doesn't ever lie and take everything she says at face value. He is very capable of lying and will do so for various reasons if needed. Or sometimes just cuz spreading misinformation is funny. Will tell you the sky is bright green with no hesitation and a deadpan expression.

Depressed. Is on medication for it and handles it ok ish...

Video game addict. You can usually find her at home in her pajamas playing some new game surrounded by empty instant ramen cups.

Mostly enjoys creative or cute games like pokemon, animal crossing, or minecraft. Doesn't play them often, but she is the absolute best at fighting games. Could beat anyone blindfolded. Is good at a lot of hard games, but doesn't really like that kind of stuff.

Plays a lot of things as they come out and probably has a blog where she reviews them.

Knows every skip and speedrun strat ever.

Likes platformers, especially 2d ones.

Collects old nintendo consoles/games.

Stims a lot with any object nearby. Likes to play with her bracelets a lot. Will just pick up random things and fidget with them.

Seems to be tired a lot, has bags under her eyes. Stays up late a lot but doesn't mind the lack of energy.

Very clumsy and has poor motor controls for a lot of things. Has to take frequent breaks when playing games or music. Gets hurt a lot bumping into random objects.

Issues with her wrists have been a problem for most of her life due to her hobbies, and she is surprisingly good at taking care of them nowadays. Used to not care but then some serious injuries happened and she realized she couldn't afford to do that.

DEDF1SH:

Bigender! He/She/They probably. Would maybe be open to neos if he found the right ones.

Demiromantic, Bi, and Asexual. Both Acht and Harmony are aspec(not for any reason what no i'm not biased as an aroace person noooo-)

When first getting out of the metro he was VERY malnourished and had a hard time eating food. He has a lot of texture issues and finds most foods unbearable to put in her mouth.

Has since gained her weight back and is looking more healthy.

Is very sensitive to sunlight, and burns very easily even in normal weather with minimal exposure. This is part of the reason she spends so much time alone indoors.

Eyes are also very sensitive to light after being sanitized and living in the deep for so long. This is why he wears sunglasses everywhere.

Is also autistic like harmony. (again, as an autistic person i am in no way biased towards headcanoning characters as autistic ok?) Is sensitive to sounds and wears noise canceling headphones a lot.

Goes nonverbal if overstimulated.

Doesn't talk that much, is more the type to say as few words as possible to get their sentence across.

Likes eating cereal with no milk. It's one of their favorite snacks.

LOVES fruit. They are that meme of the person covered in mango juice.

Just like harmony, his face isn't very expressive. But while harmony always looks like she's daydreaming, Acht often looks angry. This is especially true when she has her glasses on since you can't see her eyes.

Really likes fashion. Likes very femme alternative stuff specifically.

Is already naturally tall, and wears heels everywhere. Towers over most other octolings/inklings.

There are many lasting effects from the sanitization. Including physical and mental symptoms. Acht is slowly recovering tho!

Can play piano, just doesn't. Doesn't remember where they learned to, but it makes them feel slightly sad to play it.

Has amnesia due to the sanitization. Can remember things like skills, but not where they learned them or from who. Doesn't remember much of her past. Doesn't remember much family or friends either. Can picture some blurry faces, but not names or how they knew each other.

Tartar told her about her decision to be sanitized, and she has no choice but to have taken his word for why she decided to due so as she has no memory of it.

Has a hard time adjusting to life on the surface.

Has some trauma surrounding medical equipment, and doesn't like to go to doctors.

I've always Acht having known Marina before coming to the surface, but with Side Order confirming they know each other somehow i will wait to flesh that out until we get more info.

Is confident and somewhat social(especially compared to Harmony) but needs a lot of time to recharge their batteries after being around others.

ParuF1sh:

They both like to make music, and often make silly little songs together. Acht likes to take whatever Harmony hums and turn it into short songs.

Both of them don't sleep much. Harmony doesn't like to because she prefers to spend her time on hobbies n such instead. She also has insomnia, but since she doesn't like sleeping it doesn't really bother her TOO much. Acht on the other hand has issues sleeping due to frequent nightmares. She ends up having terrifying nightmares of her time with tartar or things she can't fully remember from before she was sanitized. Harmony is always there to comfort him when he wakes up sweating and frightened.

Both of them are very picky about food and so their pantries end up being stuffed with lots of their prefered safe foods.

Acht tries to push himself to leave his apartment in splatsville from time to time to avoid being totally disconnected from the world because that's what she did when she first got to the surface and it made her very depressed. On one of those trips Acht ended up visiting Hotlantis because he was just exploring various shops. He really liked the vibes of the shop and the wide variety of items that rotated frequently had him coming back. This is where the two of them first met.

At first Harmony and Acht didn't even notice each other despite Acht becoming a regular to come buy and look at weird little items. But eventually after having to check Acht out so many times she finally started to pay attention to what Acht was buying and noticed they had similar tastes. Then one day Harmony struck up a conversation with Acht and they became friends from there.

I think they are both poly and wouldn't mind if their partner dated someone else. But neither of them have another partner right now.

While they both may struggle with a lot of things they help each other out and manage to get through life ok.

It took a bit for Acht to get back to making music after getting out of the metro.

They like to watch ghibli movies while cuddling for a lot of their dates. They will watch all of them and then just start over with the first one again. I think the movies are comfort media for them. Harmony's favorite movie is Spirited Away and Acht's favorite is Kiki's Delivery Service.

Acht chills with Harmony's fish a lot i think.

Neither of them know how to cook.

Harmony leaves her work spaces very messy, but Acht keeps hers VERY neat.

Acht and Harmony both take surprisingly long to get ready and pick out outfits, but Acht takes much longer than Harmony.

They do a lot of parallel play where they just sit in silence and do their own thing.

Acht hangs out at Hotlantis with Harmony a lot and just keeps their headphones on and chills.

Acht also runs the store when Harmony isn't there.

They both listen to a lot of video game osts and it's probably what Harmony keeps playing in the store as well.

Acht has asked why Harmony doesn't stream playing games, and Harmony just doesn't wanna. She would rather just post reviews.

They swap whos the little spoon depending on the day.

Both of them have terrible sleep schedules.

The first time Acht ever saw a splatfest she was enamored, and now she makes sure to always attend the concerts. Harmony insists on keeping the store open since people are everywhere during splatfests and love to shop. But the floats come through the same streets as the shop, so Acht makes sure to pull her away to watch them at least once. And Harmony loves seeing the music as well.

Neither of them really participate in turf wars. Acht is older than most players and finds it awkward to team up with random teenagers but isn't willing to put together an official team of players her age. But she still likes to take her trusty squiffer out to the practice range to keep her skills sharp. Harmony LOVES to watch her practice.

I was about to go into a whole thing of which team they would pick for each splatfest and why, but i think thats gonna have to be later/if anyone asks for it cuz it may be too long for this post lol

so yeah ill end it there for now. they are my beloveds and i could talk about them forever so feel free to ask questions/send in suggestions/talk about how you view them

here is a goofy doodle i did in 5 mins on my laptop for compensation for reading this far:

[shelterdogswag]

let the festivities commence

aka the intro post

be warned this is a long ass post !!! it's not like essential but also like it has info that may be pertinent to you so it's up to you if you wanna read it or not, and not reading it is fine, even if you don't tho i'm going to refer you to it if you ask me something that's in here. ok that being said, let's hop right in, shall we?

table of contents

things about me as a human person

things about this particular blog

things about you ? potentially ?

closing thoughts

section one: things about me as a human person

hi ! as of the time that i am writing this post, i go by "leech" or "krea," and my pronouns of choice are most often he/she/it. leech is my semi-preferred name rn, but also i have like one friend who doesn't condone me naming myself things that contribute to my low self esteem, so he calls me krea, which is incredibly real and valid of him, and you are free to do the same if you would like. as for pronouns, i really don't care a ton about those most of the time, although i will say i don't like they/them for myself. that's not a to say that those pronouns are bad or anything, just not my vibe personally.

i am an adult human being. i'm not very experienced at being one of those, i've been at it for less time than i was in highschool, but still. i know some folks (mostly minors) don't feel comfortable around 18+ people, that's fair and incredibly respectable and i applaud that. if you're not comfy with talking to adults, good on you, but that's does mean for your sake please don't talk to me. with that, you have my full blessing to block me. i say that not out of spite, just like letting you know i won't be offended or anything. you don't need my permission of course, but i was once an anxious teenager, so i know having it helps sometimes.

i am not the most skilled in explaining myself when it comes to the groups that i'm a part of or like spaces i belong to or identities i have or whatever, but i'm gonna try anyhow. i'm a lesbian, trans, aroace, and overall queer. i am white, and middle class by proxy (living with family). i am disabled in a plethora of ways that vary in severity for me; they're also ways that vary in level of stigma, from what i gather. i'm from florida. i'm currently trying to figure out religious or even philosophical stuff; i myself lean heavy towards folk practices and also catholicism, but it changes a lot so as of right now i'm not conclusively anything. i try to be radical in like an anarchistic librarian punk adjacent kind of way, but i don't know a ton about anything so i mostly try to learn from other folks who actually have an understanding of stuff. i don't know how much any of that matters, but honesty is my big virtue so i am trying to be transparent in like a reasonable way.

in terms of things i like or that make me happy or whatever, god there is so much shit i could list, but most of it isn't stuff i actively engage in, as much as i would like it to be. as far as participation goes, i like music (folk mostly, especially of the anti/punk/rock flavors, but other shit too), think-piece-y youtube video essays (cj the x, savannah brown, and mia cole, those are my big three rn), exactly one queer horror podcast (hello from the hallowoods), and creating things myself (my main mediums rn are notes app poetry, songs, and the occasional doodle). i have other interests tho, like a lot of them, i just have been in such a slump of doing literally nothing all day that it feels like lying to mention them.

jesus christ who let me yap like that ??? here let's have a break and split a sandwich before we move on.

we good ? nourished ? refreshed ? all snacked up and ready to go ? cool let's fucking go.

section two: things about this particular blog

functionally, this blog is going to be a dumping ground, a heart that's full up like a landfill, as the kids say. i am just going to be having a fun silly time, i am not gonna be super targeted in what i post or with what i reblog. this does mean i might get very swingy with tone on here. i am prone to talking about and reblogging politics and my opinions on them, sex and kink and all that, media with a reckless abandon and not a care for spoilers, health and illness related topics of all kinds,and many other things that i cannot possibly foresee right now. if you are not a fan of such things, that is perfectly fine ! and i would urge you to not interact with me on here, because i am notoriously bad at tagging things effectively. your boundaries are good and valid and simultaneously i cannot be the one who upholds them a hundred percent of the time. i don't want to trigger anyone, but i can't reliably prevent that on my end, so peruse my stuff with caution.

ok that part was pretty quick, actually ! hell yeah ! but here have a beverage before we move on, i don't want to wear you out too bad lol.

yes i prefer pepsi over coke, yes i'm southern, we exist. let's get goin' now.

section three: things about you ? potentially ?

i don't particularly do dni lists- i frankly will just block people if they're super shitty and if not then like i'm sure it's fine- so this is a "omg you share common bits !!! let us befriend :)" list if anything.

we may be more likely to enjoy each other if you:

are a fan of subcultures relating to music, particularly folkpunk and (loosely) riot grrrl but any punk-y stuff bangs

care very deeply about causes and people and such; i'm no expert on any of them but i think having the willingness to learn and the care for people says a lot

enjoy consuming media that's odd or niche or otherwise unusual, i really love finding community around the unconventional

have a passion for the artistic, creative, or expressive

are filled with a simultaneous whimsical childlike wonder and haunted lingering sense of doom

are kind to small creatures oft overlooked (my favorites are rats and voles and shrews)

occasionally take walks and realize that life is worth living, only to forget it the next day

get a kick out of surrealist girlblogger instagram meme accounts and zodiac moodboards and mbti aesthetic posts even tho you are skeptical

that's by no means comprehensive, just a sampling to go off of :) now we can get to the final section! you've almost made it, we got this!

section four: closing thoughts

to recap, i am just gonna kinda be going ham on this blog and i want it to be fun and good for my brain, should such a thing be possible. that being said i also want it to be that way for you! so feel free to engage as little or as much as you would feel better with. i pinky swear it's ok.

i think that just about wraps it up! thank you for reading this far, here have a gold star sticker of appreciation <3

[milfbrainrot]

thinking a lot about separatist attitudes on here that have done more harm than good in the past

remembering how when i was younger it was common to reblog posts about discrimination etc with a disclaimer in ur tag that you don't personally experience what's being talked about, or at least something on ur blog listing out ur privileges. and like, privacy concerns aside, i also remember when it then became Problematic to do tags because it's a Reminder to the minority op that... other people exist and were trying to make the post about themselves or something?

like maybe the argument was that it came off like a way to get points for reblogging a post about oppression while not experiencing it urself, even though... in my experience the reason we did that was because our identity labels determined what we could/couldn't do in the eyes of our surveilling mutuals. if i reblogged a post about racism without clarifying my own identity, people might assume i wasn't white and put my opinions through a lens i shouldn't have had, because i also fully believed the idea that only people who experience a thing can have valid opinions on it.

it also determined whether you were Allowed to reblog posts with certain slurs, or reblog posts about something as simple as listening to music if it was from a blog with bpd in the handle but you didn't have bpd because listening to music with a mental illness makes it... different somehow. so you needed to be as transparent as possible so people could judge your morality appropriately and it was normal to want that because otherwise what are you trying to hide and don't you want to improve? etc. and i do think, superiority complexes aside, people did think they were doing a good thing when they'd send me asks like "hey you reblogged a video where a black person says the n slur but you're white so you shouldn't be communicating that by extension!!!"

like of course we have to keep our own privileges in mind when discussing certain topics. it does have an impact, something something intersectionality. but the culture around this being SO micromanagy and invasive seemed to create more divides because relating to people with different experiences was Bad and trying to be supportive was impossible to do in The Right Way.

we need to be more critical of the info we get, of course! but being in a tumblr sphere where you could only listen to minorities about their oppression meant that when some black blogger said it was fetishistic to find people of color attractive, i went "okay i won't do that then!!" instead of realizing... hey maybe barring myself off from finding anyone who isn't white attractive as an attempt to not be racist is in fact looping right back around to being racist. you need to be mindful of what that attraction entails and how to go about relationships fairly etc, but it was basically asking us to find people of color unattractive????? which kinda sounds fucked up!

and that doesn't even begin to cover how so many minorities have different opinions on things, and then i later realized if i could be wrong and change my opinions about things related to my own identity that's not a solid mindset to have. "listen to minorities instead of platforming oppressors about these matters" got totally misconstrued into listening to takes that make no sense from 15yr olds who had been identifying as lesbians for 2 months total, because ur made out to be an idiot who can't think for urself if you don't share an experience. i say this as a lesbian but lesbians seemed to spearhead so much aphobia that it was justified because welp, gotta listen to lesbians and other queer people about this even though they haven't yet unpacked the personal issues that come along with intersectionality yet! and ofc, ignoring the queer people who did support aces and aros because that was decided to be homophobic to do.

i think we can go forward into these conversations consciously without going so hard about it that we end up creating new walls between us and anyone different, but thinking it's okay because These Walls Say I'm A Good Person For It. like, back to the disclaimer tagging, i feel like if i made a post abt lesbian stuff and ppl were tagging it with a disclaimer abt being straight it would be weird but appreciated that it's solidarity from people i wouldn't have expected it from at the time.

i also think that having microlabels and split attraction and all these different ways of letting people embrace queer relatability (for example, since this applies to some things more than others) even if they're not the traditional definition of the label is a good thing because more investment and support for an oppressed community can only be a good thing in the end. but no, you can't have an icon of a character of color if ur white, even though doing so would help other people find the show and therefore support it!

we are all so much more similar than we are different and as long as people are mindful of their experiences versus those of others in the right contexts, and as much as i get why people did want to treat their tumblr circles like locked forums where they wouldn't have to deal with cis people asking questions or having misconceptions on their posts... i just don't think the infighty/hostile ways we went about it and still do go about it sometimes ended up as helpful as people treated it to be.

but whatever, tumblr is tumblr.

[vidreview]

VIDEO ESSAY ROUNDUP #1

[originally posted october 11th 2023]

so, i watch a lot of video essays.

i started this blog with the intention of reviewing video essays at length, in the hopes of highlighting best & worst practices, discussing the history of the form, and using them as a jumping off point for personal/political introspection. but as time has gone on, i've found myself encountering more and more videos that i didn't have a whole lot to say about, but that felt worthy of a spotlight anyway.

WITH THAT IN MIND, welcome to video essay roundup, an occasional list of stuff i've watched recently that i think is worth your time. enough preamble, let's get started.

"Self-Discovery Stories | Video Essay" by Glouder Glens.

are you watching Sylvia Schweikert? i know you're not because its numbers are disastrously low. her video about it/its pronouns is a genuine work of art, a video essay about the dehumanization of trans people that seamlessly transforms into lesbian werewolf erotica. this newest video is just as beautiful and strange, not least because it's rendered in portrait mode like a tiktok. it's an honest, far-ranging and personal essay whose sub-300 views is genuinely criminal. seriously, seriously, Sylvia's an essayist you NEED to be paying attention to. it's making the kind of stuff that simply does not play well with the youtube algorithm, and that's the stuff that i live for. watch her videos and share them with your friends. give it money on patreon for gods sake! also definitely go watch her short film "Self Centered," it's a haunting and masterful work of art.

"More unremarkable and odd places in Mario 64" by Any Austin.

i stumbled across Any Austin a couple months ago and he's quickly become one of my favorite "it's time to relax" creators. his "unremarkable and odd places" series scratches an itch i never knew i had, as someone who loves exploring the least interesting corners of any digital world i find myself in. his other series involves calculating the unemployment rate of video game locations by talking to every NPC and deducing their employment status. the editing is calm, his tone is measured and matter of fact, and his sense of humor ties it all together. this is the kind of thing that used to be the bread and butter of video teams at outlets like Cracked or Polygon, before they were summarily laid off or pushed out. it's good to see someone else picking up that mantle in a way that seems relatively sustainable and isn't under the umbrella of a layoff-happy corporate enterprise (except for google of course, but we're all in that boat together aren't we?)

does this count as a video essay? i think that's a reasonable question. i'm inclined to say yes, with the understanding that there are many different types and genres of video essay. but that's a conversation for another day.

"On the Ethics of Boinking Animal People" by Patricia Taxxon.

i should do a full vidrev on this one honestly, but i can't do a post like this and not include it. if you play around in any sort of furry-adjacent fetish space, have opinions about the sexual proclivities of furries, or are otherwise prone to pearl-clutching as an outsider, this is an essential watch. Patricia here does a great job drawing attention to how even well-meaning defenders of, say, feral furry porn, often give up unnecessary ground to opponents with fallacious devices like the Harkness test. i've talked to a lot of fellow kinky furries who came out of this essay exalting in the joy that finally, someone said it! many of the arguments made here, especially in underlining that all furry porn is immaterial and imaginary, are thoughts i've had since i first made a furaffinity account in 2007 or 08 (though i swore up and down i wasn't a furry until 2019) but was always too afraid to express.

this is scary, sensitive territory, but that's what makes this such an essential intervention. this is the perspective of an autistic transfem furry who just wants to have an honest conversation without all the moral fearmongering and shortsighted kneejerk cliches that come up when a topic skirts dangerously close to taboos that we just, generally, refuse to talk about like adults. these are conversations that, in my experience, only ever happened among friendgroups with a long-established repartee and understanding of each other's boundaries, if at all. otherwise, even progressive supposedly kink-positive spaces can encourage a sort of cop-brained punitive attitude towards imaginary sex acts that very easily bleeds over into puritanical takes on, say, kink at pride. frankly, i'm sick of the language & rhetoric of Respectability, because saying "no, most of us aren't like the freaks" only ever results in a liberal block decrying the deplorables and subjecting them to further marginalization and abuse. it takes a lot of guts to make a video like this and i'm so, so glad that Patricia Taxxon stuck the landing.

"Who Is Killing Cinema? - A Murder Mystery" by Patrick (H) Willems.

i've already written two separate vidrevs on Willems, but what can i say? this most recent stretch of work focusing on the business and philosophy of cinema in the streaming era is good stuff. nothing in this particular essay is new per se if you've been paying attention to the business of hollywood for the last ten years, but it does a great job assembling the broad strokes of a lot of different-but-common arguments into one far ranging thesis. much like the prior two videos, i think this works as a solid introductory primer to a more materialist understanding of these trends for folks who aren't necessarily familiar with materialist theory. bonus points for wasting no time getting to the point, unlike his otherwise excellent video on the word "content."

alright, i think that'll do it for this video essay roundup! enjoy :)

ROUNDUP #2 ->

[NOTE: as i'm migrating the archive, links between roundups will direct back to cohost. i probably won't get around to changing that until i write a new one.]

[sonsband]

As Catiny’s main vocalist - who do you think has the spiciest vocals in kpop right meow?

How spicey do you mean?

(also if you like discussions of music I sometimes do those on my side blog changdyke and would love to talk about vocalists or music with people! okay shameless plug done)

Well, the spiciest vocals come from Changmin, who is a level 2 spicey boy at MOST. I mean, the 240105 Music Bank high note for "Down"? I don't know how half the boy groups didn't immediately vaporize as soon as he did That. I know it was probably just that he didn't hit the note at first, but he made it sound so good with that dissonance resolving into whistle register? (I would say something about Nissan Stadium Forever Love but until that's back up on YouTube I refuse to contemplate it so I don't burst into tears) But I'm a hater and don't like him so don't put him on the list.

EXID's Solji might not be active right meow, but she just did that musical so she counts!

Of course BTOB, Eunkwang and Minhyuk especially, I mean, "Boom" era was everything to me.

All of A.C.E, obviously, the world is a little brighter for their comeback. I can't wait for Donghun to absolutely devastate me again, but friendly reminder for your daily required viewing of their It's Live performance of "Goblin".

WayV's Xiaojun, I know Mujin Service is pitch corrected but the sheer emotion in "Ashes" is too much. He doesn't need to do as much as he does at all times, but thank god for it.

Does Forestella count as kpop? Because they've got the spice and the spicey vocals. All of them, but Woorim's wife was right to lock him down after that performance of "Bad Romance".

I might be ride or die for Seonghwa Main Vocal When, but back in like February 2021 I said San from Ateez strained a lot and he said "why would you say such a thing? btw hi lesbians" and just immediately went fuckin insane. I'm bummed it happened after they stopped actively promoting it but I will never shut up about how when he gets a mic for "Turbulence" he saves the whole song with that modulation to keep it from being a diminished fifth. I know he's a great dancer but he's vocal line for a reason. Watch "Breathe" btw.

SPEAKING OF "BREATHE"!!!! [edit: I got too excited to jump into IU that I forgot to finish this, sorry, I know it's a Lee Hi song] Lee Hi is that good good alto and the fact she had that voice at debut? We Love Altos.

IU!!!!! GIRL!!!!!!! No list of spiciest vocals would be complete without IU. "Love Poem" should be a UNESCO World Heritage piece of culture. I love her and I can't believe you're keeping her hostage and away from us, Addy.

Fun fact: DK is actually short for "DyKe rights" (editor's note: this is not true) and my sister will let me blast "Hot" in her car specifically so we can vocalize along with his chest voice there. He's got such a good ear.

The Boyz genuinely has some power vocals. Why do you think his name is SANGyeon? That video of him singing in a parking lot plays behind my eyes while I try to fall asleep.

Shownu simply does not get the credit he deserves as a vocalist. His voice is more subtle, so maybe not particularly spicey, but he's my husband and I will not let him go unappreciated on this list. What's the opposite of spicey? That's how I feel about I.M, except he's actually got interesting vocals, he's technically weaker but I think that makes him more interesting vocally. Plus he's the King of Vocal Fry (complimentary).

Another vocal fry master -- Taehyun from TXT. I feel so much about that kid. Most of it good.

For the hags, all of 2pm! (I'm not taking antipsychotics right now so I'm allowed to be delusional and they're active in my heart.) "Make It" was THE song of 2021, no notes at all. And "ADTOY" had no right to be that good. Also we love grown men being grown up spicey.

Woodz, don't talk to me about enlistment if I don't acknowledge it then it isn't happening. The live versions of "Chaser" and "Trigger" and "Accident" and and and and? I think his harmonizing gets overshadowed sometimes by his vocal power, especially since he has to harmonize with his backing track rather than another singer, but bro... bro... Also he was the closest to a Changmin "Mirotic" note, I will ignore any arguments to the contrary.

Red Velvet's Seulgi has really good vocals when she's given the chance to flex them, I really wish we could hear more from her. Underappreciated, tbh.

Highlight's Dongwoon, do we need to talk about that performance of "Fiction" again? Because I will talk about that performance of "Fiction" again. And I choose to believe his scene in "Good Luck" is part of the most watched section because of that little C# Major moment. Yeah his only other band mate Yeoseob is good but I gotta give the crown to Dongwoon. Also his outfits from last May's concerts were so spicey.

I'm so excited for Chungha's comeback. I know she's not really appreciated for her vocals since she's definitely a pop vocalist, but "Play"! I'm not even mad when she uses playback on music shows, she's in chest voice enough.

I can't believe I'm about to put a manlet on this list but Hui's got the spice. He's got the vocals. He deserves. That's all.

And how about Doyeon from Weki Meki. Siyeon from Dreamcatcher (omg that "Overdose" cover). Ailee, obviously. BB Girls Yujeong. Sistar just as a whole but especially Hyolyn, "Layin Low" changed me as a person and I swear it wasn't just the Nicole Kirkland choreo.

Okay I've just powered through so many Vocalists that my brain's been turned to mush. Tell me what else you think!

[hopecorps]

people keep asking why people are mad at buddie shippers but did they miss the one/ones who spammed ao3 with fic where tommy sexually abused kids or was violently murdered by eddie? or the entire blog dedicated to wanting him to be murdered or subjected to prison rape? or the queer men in this fandom being called predators or slurs for relating to a canon gay character? the tweet with more than 1.2k likes that uses a homophobic slur to describe eddie in the context of buddie, written by a cis lesbian? people saying there would be no point in gay eddie or there is no point in bi buck if they don't get together? the buddie shippers spamming the official accounts and the cast and crew with hate comments on instagram? like damn i love buddie and bucktommy but i wouldn't admit that i like buddie at this point.

yeah i mean there are points that i agree with you here and also points where i disagree with you BUT i'm really not here for that reason at all. like. i'm afraid the discussion is becoming "and well this side is also doing bad shit" and i'm like

i have less than 200 followers. i have probably less than 25 followers who even know what this is about. i don't get asks like EVER and no one is going to be checking my account for follow ups because i truly do not matter in this fandom. and the reason i don't even try is BECAUSE there is a lack of meaningful discourse that i actually care about. a lot of the discourse is a competition to see who is the most evil side of the fandom

my entire point is that it is a catch 22. if you ship buddie you are homophobic and you harass the cast and crew. if you ship bucktommy you are racist and harass the showrunners. there is no room for multishipping there is no room for any kind of meaningful discussion as to whether or not tommy kinard has even made a single decision in the entire show. there is no room for people to explore his character in any meaningful way

i appreciate this ask and i appreciate your perspective but everything you're saying in this ask is exactly what i'm talking about. there are people who like this tv show or who like a certain ship who are doing some heinous shit and it is effecting not only people's opinions on the ships, but if it effecting people's opinions on the people who ship it.

you do not need to justify disliking something by proving that it is problematic!! you do not need to justify liking something by proving that it is morally upright!! i'm serious!! release yourself from that shit!! whether or not YOU are a good or bad person actually has nothing to do with your interests!! you seem like a perfectly fine good person who is hurt by this shit just as much as i am and that SUCKS

my post wasn't aimed at buddie fans because i think they are all evil horrible people, or even most of them. i was complaining because of general fandom attitudes that i KNOW no one wants to be a part of are being upheld anyway and it is discouraging meaningful discourse of any kind. and honestly this was mainly aimed at like 5 pretentious condescending big name fans on tiktok who feel the need to morally justify never shutting the fuck up about tommy kinard when no one who watches their videos even fucking likes him anyway

[sayhelloanimalfriends]

i saw my dude @sodom-hussein (hi i like your blog so much it is good and so fun and keeps me scrolling) RB this post that was like “I compared today to 1930s germany and the results aren’t good”

and then OP proceeds to just make a bunch of very vague and unmeasurable statements like

‘we are about to die horribly in concentration camps because

antisemitism is increasing

LGBT discrimination is increasing

ableism is increasing

indigenous people are continually threatened etc etc’

The post doesn’t have any facts or information to back any of these claims as true, but it doesn’t need it. because it’s using the same kind of rhetoric that Fox News uses with its users. Fox News doesn’t have to prove something is true if it *feels* true.

and firstly if you go find the post and compare it to my wording of that first statement, you’ll see that i’m sensationalizing a little bit

and secondly, i have love for OP and i have love Sodom-hussein both because i am confident they only want to inform with the goal of changing our world for the better.

BUT I believe that these kinds of posts are not helpful, and while my wording was sensationalizing it wasn’t doing so all that much because of what the post is implying. The post’s intent it seems is to strike fear and terror into the hearts of those most vulnerable in society.

So if you are still reading I would like to use a bit of bad news to maybe ease the fears that many of us are having about the state of our world. Let me explain:

There exists a theory of social organization called Social Dominance Theory which was constructed by Jim Sidanius (oh my god i just found out he died in 2021 ☹️ what a legend) and Felicia Pratto. These two psychologists took behavioral sciences and combined them with historical record of societal hegemony to explain why and how humans seem to organize our societies unfairly.

I won’t go into the minutiae of the theory, but my main point of bringing it into this conversation is that according to their writings, when humans define categories on which to base discrimination (such as race, sexual orientation, cultural/religious identity, etc) these categories remain as subjugated for VERY VERY long periods of time.

This part is the bad news but stay with me.

What i mean to say is that as a gay man, I will probably always be discriminated against in our society. That is just the way these things seem to play out. Now, within my particular place in society things may improve or worsen. But there isn’t really any realistic hope of full liberation. And apparently, also according to social dominance theory, even if gay people WERE to be liberated, a new arbitrary category of discrimination would just take its place.

So how can we use this information to cope with our world?

Well the reality is that you may need time to grieve this truth. But once you are done grieving, you can look at our world and realize that nothing is changing. Everything is staying the exact same.

Just yesterday youtuber Matt Baume released a video about Ellen coming out on TV and it was literally all the same shit as what we’re hearing now. Conservatives feigning disgust and fear for what it means to acknowledge the existence of lesbians. Censorship. Blah blah blah. That was 25 years ago but it could easily be today.

So when you are able to accept that society has fixed you at a disadvantage that is permanent, you are more immune to the kind of brain-numbing effects of fear and terror.

And that’s what I really want you all to do.

I want you to Think Critically. I want you to Think Clearly. And when you’re scared shitless you can’t think at your max capacity.

Because yeah I mean shit is scary. But panicking isn’t going to help anyone. It’s just going to ruin your mood and make it harder for us to organize.

We’ve been dealt a shit hand. But we’ve got each other. We’re not alone. And we’re smart! We can figure out how to protect each other and ourselves. We are resilient. There’s no reason to be terrified. There is every reason to be brave. Bravery, courage, determination. These will help us more than fear in the days to come.

Anyway check out social dominance theory it’s really cool. RIP Jim Sidanius. Your work changed my life man.

[ohmeadows]

i hope this doesn't sound weird but, you're like, everything i want to be when i grow up.

you're a taken lesbian in your thirties, you play video games, you have this deep understanding of the characters, AND you write fanfictions about them. like seriously.

in a world where people are expected to be all serious and professional in their thirties, discovering your blog and you was such a breath of fresh air and a reminder that i don't need to be so scared about growing up. thank you for that (and all your incredible writing. truly an inspiration for me)

lmao thank you anon sucky 20s trying to live up to others expectations built this life

i was trying to align with my family's expectations of me as the youngest daughter and study tech. i couldn't do it. i was good at math but Things Happened in my late teens and i collapsed under the pressure. eventually i admitted to myself, yeah, i just want to write and read... and then put pressure on myself to get into the best possible university for that so my family would still be proud. (hint: they weren't.)

so, you know. be kind to yourself. i was a total failgirl in my 20s, btw, for many reasons. people will be disappointed in you. you will be disappointed in yourself. and you recover and have fun again. and fun for me is literary and cultural analysis, researching, video games and writing.

also you'd be surprised how unprofessional and unserious most 30-somethings i know are. finally gave up those supposedly prestigious jobs they were meant to thrive in but were destroying them and now work as something that fits their lives while focusing on hobbies? we're thriving in our own ways, best we can. work isn't that meaningful. it really isn't. i've been too disabled to work most of my adult life and life still has meaning. best thing is you keep discovering so many new facets in your 30s, like it's a whole new blooming.

[boschlowtxt]

Haaay, it's me, the man who offered Willow and Bosch to hug you :)))

Can I find out what kind of headcannons you have for Boshlow? Orientation/gender, etc.??

Boscha

Orientation: Aro Lesbian

Gender: Trans girl

Moral compass: Anti-villain (does wrong things for just reasons)

Ethnicity: Southeast Asian

Loves to unhealthy degrees: Friends and especially Maya, her crabby.

Whats the problem with u: doesnt understand social cues. Cant read the room. Puts herself up by putting others down. Doesnt know how to listen unless its in sport language.

Bonus: Bookworm. Secretly into The Good Witch Azura. Also enjoys Ruler's Reach but thats already canon but I will say she has a secret blog for it and shes soo embarrassed whenever someone brings up the fact that she reads. She also has gender dysphoria which is why she gets 10x more confident during grudgby season because yes shes captain of an all girls sports team and yes she gets to wear her dumb letterman jacket to all her classes.

Willow

Orientation: Butch Lesbian*

Gender: Transmasc genderfae

Moral compass: Be gay, do crimes, morally gray. (Would steal, would read ur diary, think Eda kinda mischief).

Loves to unhealthy degrees: Friends

Whats the problem with u: doormat. Puts others up by putting herself down. Pretends to listen to u but is actually tuning u out if u talk abt her issues. Thinks motivational self-help videos on Bootube is therapy. Stuck in her mind most of the time (is that how u say it?? Sorry idk how to say lutang in english)

Bonus: Uses she/her and gf to refer to herself but once she's married she'd prefer to use dad and husband as terms for her because its what she grew up hearing. Every Valentines day she hangs out with Gus they call it Pal-entines day and basically they catch each other up on their love life and go out to get coffee and watch a movie together and promise that they'll never stop being besties because they're incredibly corny like that and they both need the reassurance.

*My orientation hc for Willow changes a lot but for the longest time I have headcanoned her as a lesbian since s1 so its what im used to. But i also hc her as bi or pan, depending on the situation.

[just-some-random-blogger]

Ok so, what if hypothetically you were questioning your sexuality, and hypothetically you decided to experiment so hypothetically decided to do it with your lesbian friend well you hypothetically realize you are in fact straight and you want to end things, keep in mind this friend knew that you were only experimenting, well hypothetically she is head over heels for you always tell you this and says that if you ever left her she would die because you are her reason for living and you- keeping it hypothetical- know that she comes from a rough background and is probably really serious and you don't want to leave in fear she'll do something to herself but you really aren't happy....hypothetically.

I need advice- just in case this happens to me one day. this is totally hypothetical-

then hypothetically

nonnie, imma be so for real with you, i have no idea which part of my blog made you think that I would have the most valid advice for this, but, damn, my sis just asked me about something similar O_O the world is weird. in any case, i'm honestly touched and amazed you feel comfortable enough to ask me for my thoughts on this. So I will speak to you the way I would speak a friend ok.

First of all, no hypotheticals, you have to be honest about how you feel. Do not ever buy into that 'brutally honest' bullshit /: whoever says they're brutal in the name of honest is just a jerk hiding behind a mask. There is always a kind way to express something that might not be taken so well by someone.

You said that your friend knew that you were experimenting, and now that you've gotten your data out of that experiment, you've determined it's not for you. Additionally, this person you experimented with is head over heels for you and she said she would die without you. You also made it a point to tell me that she has a rough background.

Ok. From this, I can tell that you feel responsible for your friend. Naturally, she's your friend. But I can also feel this dread you have over the idea she's basically hanging her life into your hands. Listen, I don't know her, and I don't know you nonnie, but from what you've said and from an outside perspective, she may be manipulating/guilt tripping you into staying with her, into getting what she wants out of you.

(TW) I experienced something similar, where I had a friend that slowly began to tell me his woes, that he was mentally unwell, that he was self-harming and suicidal. I took that very seriously, because I had friends before that went through that. Long story short, he was lying to me and faking it for attention. He would send me edited images of his 'cut' wrists, and so I video called him. he fessed up that he was lying about it. obviously that was insanely wrong of him and i no longer wanted to have someone like that as a friend. What got me out of the situation was telling him I would refer him to our college's guidance councelor. I almost did it, and maybe I should have, but I didn't cause he begged me not to.

Anyway, like how I do when i give my own friends advice, here's what i would do in your situation: "hey, (friend). let's talk at (public place i'm comfortable speaking [eg, a cafe] don't recommend doing it at your place/her place/somewhere you cannot leave) i want to talk about the experiment we did." then once youre at that place "listen, (tell your feelings) you are my friend, you are dear to be, and I appreciate that you went through this experience with me. i realized this lifestyle(?) is not for me. i know that you have strong feelings for me but the truth is i don't want to act further upon it. while its flattering that you find me as a reason to live, it's equally overwhelming. i don't want you to hurt yourself because of me."

obviously again, idk either of you so this might not be what you want to say at all. try to keep a passive voice, as in 'i think this...' and not 'it's because you're like this that i that'. coming off accusing/argumentative will foster accuse and arguments.

if manage to say what you want to but push comes to shove and she does what my friend did to me, contact someone concerned for her, someone that can help, idk maybe her parents, siblings, other friends, co-workers, boss, an extreme could be police, if you really can't handle with it. do not isolate yourself. do not be alone in this.

THIS IS A LOT. I've said a lot. nonnie i meant all of this with love but again, i have no idea what's actually happening so don't feel like this is the end all-be all way to do it. It hopefully at least helped give you an idea of what to do, or gave you an extra boost to be able talk to someone in your life for extra advice.

Personally, also, if i find I'm too scared to speak up about something, being impulsive about it works. like, don't think too much about how to start the conversation, just start it. And then work from there.

I send you a bottle of digital confidence and very real remnants of my love

xxx

[danggirlronpa]

FAQ

Now that we’ve got some of the Big Long FAQ Content out of the way, we can finally post an FAQ for The People! This will be updated as needed.

Last updated 12/28/2024.

Who exactly are you?

You can call me Peach! I got into Danganronpa when the Game Grumps started playing it, and haven’t quite been able to drop the interest since. I’m a 26-year-old nonbinary lesbian, and I’m currently working towards a career in video games. It's just me running this thing, so please be patient waiting for me to get back to you!

There’s a post I want you to reblog/I made something that would fit on this blog/I found something I think you should see.

Awesome! Please send a link through the submission box – I’ll take it from there! Note that it may take some time for any posts to show up on the blog. I also try to keep the blog relatively safe to browse in public, so I reserve the right not to post anything that I judge as too risque.

Will you tag for [X]?

I will tag anything upon request. You can find a full list of current trigger tags under the Blog Policies!

What's with the "for anon (:" tag?

There are a few blog policies that have generated some pretty nasty messages in my inbox. To save me the headache and my followers the annoyance, I make it a personal policy not to respond to them; instead, I just quietly reblog the content again and move on. These topics include:

Chihiro on the blog. You can find the reasoning in this post!

Miyadera/Sister Shinguji. I outlined my full opinion on this here, and this is an important follow up!

Will you still tag those topics for blacklisting?

Absolutely! The 'for anon :)' tag is to discourage aggressive asks, not to mock anyone who has issues with the subject.

A post where skin was lightened wasn't tagged/you tagged a post for whitewashing but it wasn't lighter than the canon skin color! Why do you keep doing that?

I have a TERRIBLE time distinguishing colors. You're just gonna have to tell me anytime a post like this comes up ): Sorry for the inconvenience!

Why do you reblog [X] type of "problematic" ship, but not [Y]?

Danggirlronpa sits somewhere on the line between an archiving project and a fanblog. Over the years, I’ve seen many fanworks and fandom history lost due to blog deletion and movement across platforms. This blog is intended to preserve all of this content for newer audiences and maintain an easy-to-use interface. As a preservation project, I try not to impose too many moral restrictions on what I reblog, even when it makes me personally uncomfortable. The few standards are keep are for my own headspace.

If this is a project for archiving F/F ships, why do you reblog posts with just one girl?

Due to the nature of some girls’ popularity in fandom, there is a huge discrepancy in the amount of content for each of them. To even that playing field a little bit, I tend to reblog content for less appreciated girls, even if it isn’t actively sapphic.

What about why you reblog whitewashing?

Whitewashing and other forms of covertly racist, homophobic, and transphobic expressions in art are an important thing to archive because they show us the ugly side of fandom. Additionally, for all four notably dark-skinned girls in DR, even after getting notably less engagement than their light-skinned peers, deleting every post that lightens their skin would cut their presence on this blog by half, on top of their already generally smaller presence.

If any existing tags do not help keep these off your dash in the event you don't want to see them, I highly encourage you to ask me to tag in a way that will be easy for you to block!

The OP/person you reblogged this from is problematic!

I have, in the past, been harassed due to the spread of misinformation through call out posts and other word-of-mouth. The harassment I experienced led to a suicidal relapse, and I still have a great deal of trauma from it. As a result, I am very cautious about asks like this. You are always free to send me information about someone questionable in the community, but please know that I will generally handle the issue quietly, and will not directly respond to you about it at all if you are on anon.

How do you feel about X current event issue?

Unless I have overwhelming approval to do so from followers, which I would only ask for in the event of a charity or benefit project, this blog will be a permanent safe space from real world issues. I may talk about oppression that I have personally experienced, but I will not bring up major current events.

For the same reason, please do not ever expect a DNI from me. I reserve the right to refuse discussion about anything, and block anyone, that I choose. While this is a project to help others, I feel strongly about setting my own boundaries, and will exercise my right to do so!

My question still isn't on here!

Drop it in the ask box! My messages have previously gone completely offline, so asks are the safest way to reach me.