#also i know i have people i can talk to online. i am not going to fucking do that though

[throwawayofathrowaway]

Once more, against my better judgement, I’m adding a voice to this conversation.

Sure. The whole Not All Men thing is somewhat moot among adults (I’m not going to bring up people’s inate capacity to change here but that’s a discussion some people around here need to have), but moreso I’d like to argue a case for children.

It. As all indoctrination thrives on alienation, there’s a…

Look it’s hard to put into words, from a more neutral perspective, so I’ll use some of my own.

I grew up through an incredibly privledged life, I’m well aware of that. I have a mother who loves me and a father who does as well. We haven’t struggled economically, and despite their divorce they remain somewhat amicable.

I’m part of the groups that practically grew up online. In one way or another I’ve had a solid connection to the world in the palm of my hand most of my life. And while yes, there are many positives to it…

There are also a load of negatives. Most relevant is that I am acutely aware of how privledged I am, and that I very much do not deserve anything I have ever had.

I do my best to be a good person, to be kind and respectful and everything. But…

When you hear enough, read enough, as a child about how it’s the patriarchy’s fault, about people who truly and firmly believe that there is no such thing as a good man. When you all the other boys so loud and obnoxious.

I despise myself. I despise my privledge. I despise that I am white, and a man, and european. I understand that those three thing make me complicit at best in all that is evil in the world. I understand that I deserve to die cold and alone, for more reasons that just those.

And I know I am not a healthy person. And only some of it can be blamed on this point, but I really do think it’s important that little boys aren’t raised to hate themselved, purposely or not.

I’m horrible at this talking/explaining thing.

The thing about "Not all men" is that the men it applies to don't need to hear it. Like any actual principled male feminist doesn't need to be coddled and reassured that he isn't a "bad person" just because he's part of a privileged oppressor class in relation to women. You aren't much of a "progressive", even in the loosest uses of that term, if systemic critiques cause you personal offense

[astoldbysteph]

i feel like people aren't gonna like what i am gonna say but after numerous talks with rp friends, i think it's important to at least yap a little about this.

i know this you don't owe anyone anything girlypop coochie queef purrrrrrr 💅 attitude is seen as the standard to follow not only in rp spaces but pretty much anywhere (especially online) and idk guys, i think this is doing more damage than good. rping is a hobby, yes, but it's a hobby that involves us collaborating with people in order to have fun and sometimes i feel like there's some inherent selfishness and carelessness that along with a severe lack of communication, is slowly eroding the rpc as a whole.

every day i hear a new anecdote about admins failing to take their group off the ground because of flakey members. or people retreating into their shells and not being able to fully enjoy writing with others due to people ghosting them after three hours. i feel like every single person that does the 1x1/indie thing has a story where they plot someone, make a discord server or set up an established thread, and then they never hear from their writing partner ever again. and this ain't cool, guys.

stuff happens! we all got lives and responsibilities like work and school and family life that sometimes prevent us from being as active as we would've like. or some days we just don't feel like writing for whatever reason and that's valid. this ain't a job, but it is a collaborative hobby so i am sorry to tell y'all this, but we do owe at least a lil bit of common courtesy to people who take the time to collab with us.

chats with friends and fellow rpers have me feeling like the rpc as a whole, in my opinion, has a communication problem. group people don't talk to their admins or don't like plotting with other members. 1x1/indie people are used to dropping stuff unannounced and talk even less between each other. roleplayers in general avoid making the first move and prefer letting the other party do the work. like dang y'all, not to be a hag on main but back in my day!!!! there was more of a willingness to talk to others. now everyone is more 'secluded' which i think stems from bad past experiences so we kinda end up stuck in a cycle that messes with everything as a whole.

idk where i am going this but i keep seeing people posting stuff talking about this or sharing similar sentiments or stuff happens to me and i end up making my brain work overtime to try and figure out what happened and what i can do on a personal level to change things and help others stop feeling discouraged and have a better time writing and chilling with people

and also before i forget because my wife reminded me!! it's ok to drop stuff or plots or people and its ok to take ur time to reply. we all got stuff to do or we are tired or sad or obsessively rewatching degrassi or just dont feel like writing and that's so valid. all sane people get it and would be understanding if you hit them up like hey! idt i have muse for this or sorry i took forever! but people don't even do that nowadays and it leads to people quitting, feeling discouraged, OR WORSE, adopting the same mindset. talk to ppl!! rpers are super nice and if you run into a weirdo i will beat them up for u

[luckykiwiii101]

THE DEVIL DOESN’T WEAR SUBMISSION! SHE WEARS PRADA, OH!- AND NARCISSISM!

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ཐི keep your head & heels high, and your middle finger higher ཋྀ

ཐི TABLE OF CONTENTS ཋྀ

✰ BELIEVING IN THE LAW ✰

✰ “AND WHO AM I? BETTER THAN YOU” ✰

✰SELF CONCEPT; BE NARCISSISTIC, THE GOSSIP GIRL WAY✰

✰ YOUR WAY IS THE RIGHT WAY & THE ONLY WAY ✰

✰ SPIRALS ARE ONLY FOR STAIRCASES ✰

p.s. psssst!! hey “void” worshippers, this is also for you. so read it. To everyone, take a day off to let all this information settle, it’s quite a lot!!

Welcome back Upper East Siders.

It’s often said that, no matter the truth, people see what they want to see. Some people might take a step back and find out that they’ve been looking at the same big picture all along. Some people see that their lies have almost caught up to them. Some people may see what was there all along.

But because you’ve fallen to submission, chances are that you’re blinded from the things that are right in-front of you. I’d call you legally blind but it’s a different type of law that you’re breaking.

Talk about secrets of the universe, but you’re living proof that knowledge doesn’t always mean wisdom, and that money can’t buy style, or class.

And if there’s one thing we all know about fashion, it’s that before putting an article of clothing on, you have to take one off, usually with the intention of putting another one back on. Or you’ll end up looking like a complete mess! or under your best friend’s BF! I hope S is taking notes…but even the biggest superstars need a stylist. And luckily for you, I have a friend who’s into fashion, and not just any fashion, high fashion, Little J, come out, come out wherever you are…

Oh wait! Almost lost track of my endless talents but i’m also great at fashion, and i’m simply just better. You can go back to crashing runways little J, and also just…running away.

✰ BELIEVING IN THE LAW ✰

First of all, I want you to know that all your dreams are possible and very easy. So this is for those doubtful upper east siders who forgot that the law of assumption is actually real, and not some joke made up by teenagers online.

Spend some time going through my law of assumption proof gallery to help clear your doubts in the law -> CLICK ME!

Now that you’ve boosted your faith in the law of assumption, of course you can believe 99%, but you’re going to have to fill that 1% on your own, through your own success.

✰ “AND WHO AM I? BETTER THAN YOU” ✰

Do you understand the law of assumption? -> CLICK ME

And do you understand who you actually are? Cause when someone asks, your only response should be ���god”. -> CLICK ME

So how does “the void state” & “reality” work? In your favour, as usual -> CLICK ME

✰SELF CONCEPT; BE NARCISSISTIC, THE GOSSIP GIRL WAY✰

Spotted: Lonely boy’s rude awakening. Upper East Side Queens arent born at the top. They climb their way up in heels, no matter who they have to tread on to do it. Now what to wear with those heels…

Well, we hear narcissism’s in fashion, and rumour has it, she’s here to stay. But as I said before, putting a new outfit on requires taking the other off, and I ask disrespectfully, WHAT is that outfit!? You need a serious makeover! -> CLICK ME

A wise woman once said, the most dangerous enemies are the ones we never knew we had. And then there are those assumptions you never knew you held.

Now that you know why you kept failing previously, it’s time for your new self concept! And your permanent self concept. I promise, you’ll never fail again. You can’t do something impossible like failure. And since you understand the law and who you are (I AM) you know that failure simply isn’t possible.

What to wear? Failure? No. Narcissism. She looks much better on you anyway. Choose to wear the ugly outfit? Well I’ve got a friend on cyberspace who knows exactly what to do. And those flashes of clicked pics definitely aren’t coming from the paparazzi.

But I know, I know. “Narcissism” Isn’t that a bad thing? Not when it comes to being who you want. And all I mean is putting yourself on the highest pedestal. You’re going to completely fall in love with yourself, by becoming your desired self. That includes you void worshippers! Stop being submissive to the outer self. You dictate her, not the other way around. You’re going to be your desired self who has their dream life, no matter what. You’re above everyone and everything! Narcissistic, I like it.

First of all, remind yourself of what your dream life is and who you’re going to dedicate yourself to being. All good? Perfect! So here’s your new self concept & reminders to self -> CLICK ME

With this, what you’re going to do, is make your own personalised self concept guide. The one i’ve given you is only generalised to everyone’s use. I’ve given “directions” on where to add your own ideas, but don’t remove my ones because they’re extremely important and shouldn’t be ignored!! To make your own personalised self concept guide, just copy & paste the text on the template, and add your own ideas to your heart’s content, and decorate it to your liking & aesthetic. No harm in making it look pretty. Use pretty colours, pretty pics of your dream life etc. I recommend making yours on either notion, or tumblr. If you do end up making yours on tumblr, make it a private & pinned post so that you’ll see it on your front page and remember to come back to it. The only time you should ever open tumblr is to view your self concept guide or this post or the other ones i’ve made!!

Get into the state of being your desired self. Because that IS you. Embody your new self concept. Relish in it. Love it. You are going to fully immerse yourself into your new self concept. Finally, once and for all, be the real you. She’s been waiting for you.

✰ YOUR WAY IS THE RIGHT WAY & THE ONLY WAY ✰

A lot of upper east siders have been wondering. “What’s the right way to manifest?” Your way. Your way and only your way. Whatever you want is the right thing to do. You should already understand that from “enter the god state” post. That’s why it’s important that you personalise your own self concept guide!! YOU make the rules!

I hope you like the self concept template i’ve given you, and now you’re going to embody your dream self.

✰ SPIRALS ARE ONLY FOR STAIRCASES ✰

Need a wake up call? CLICK ME! They don’t call New York “the city that never sleeps” for nothing.

The purpose of the self concept guide and why it’s so important is to stop you from spiralling. Need guidance? Go back to the self concept guide and remind yourself of who you are.

Also, I have a post that really helps with spiralling. Come back to this every time you feel like spiralling -> CLICK ME

And don’t forget upper east siders, if you won’t do it out of love, do it out of spite. And you’re going to be bitch, at-least do it the right way. You’re the boss. The devil doesn’t wear submission, she wears prada, oh!- and narcissism. XOXO

- gossip girl

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XOXO | GOSSIP GIRL | XOXO | GOSSIP GIRL | XOXO | GOSSIP GRL

[redcamellia13]

What the. What the actual hell. I- could somebody explain to me how the heck a throw-away blog made just over two months ago has somehow amassed 1,000 likes?

Just like last gratitude post, I’m so sorry if I seem like I’m dissatisfied or disappointed with this milestone, it’s simply because I’ve run out of ways to express how thankful I am.

😅😅😅😅😅

I’m really not sure how to express my gratitude anymore, so I’m going to begin listing all of my strongest supporters.

Yes, that’s you, @theducklord5, @aheartfullofquestions, @musicalmoritz, @frogwithaflowercrown, @blondesillyboylover, @itzyukoo, @lavender-peach-tea, @neversam, @nam-the-nacho and probably several others I am neglecting to mention (sorry! Please bear with me, my sanity’s hanging on my a thread- I’m basically running on caffeine and sugar)

I am so, so grateful to all of you for your help and patience with my spotty upload schedule, and generally low quality posts. Seriously, how do you people still support me despite my never ending struggle with constant reblogs, unoriginal ideas…

Nevertheless, I am still just in awe of this huge number. I think I’m going insane!

Now, onto the blogs that are the standard I hope to live up to, the people that are so kind, passionate, respectful, intelligent, and charismatic you sort of have to question if they’re real. (I mean that in a good way.)

I hope to have reflected some of your wonderful qualities in my own posts, and I sincerely hope you understand my pure admiration for you all.

To @god-damnit-vinne, how could I start this dedication with anybody else? The amount of charm and enthusiasm that pours out of your posts is astounding, and you are actually my first Tumblr… friend(?) Mutual? I still remember when you replied to my post, the first I had ever received- it made me so happy I spent the rest of the day smiling until my face hurt. Honestly, you are the one of the nicest guys I’ve met, period.

To @pollen-blogs, we probably aren’t exactly friends, but I do hope you remember my username. Your writing style is so clear and crisp, it makes your posts and fanfics simply fun to read! Also, your art is impeccable- truly, the whole package.

To @sakuraswifee, I am simply in awe of the amount of passion in your posts. I’m not sure if passion is the right word, but reading your posts always brings a smile to my face since you always seem to love what you’re talking about :).

To @thelunarfairy, I realize that you definitely don’t know me, but I certainly know you. Your posts and analyses are the gold standard in my mind, something all my other posts should live up to, and the way you state things makes it so easy to understand.

To @itzprismosblog, you were the second interaction I’ve had on Tumblr. You probably don’t remember, but it gave me motivation to keep posting, since at the time I was getting used to an extremely demanding new routine. Your art is stunning, and your blog never fails to make me laugh :)

To @cupidsappllie, even if your blog wasn’t one of the most entertaining I’ve seen here on Tumblr, you would probably make it here on kindness alone. If I had to shoot a guy every time you single handedly pulled me out of a posting slump, I would be arrested for murder.

To @saturnssky, my second Mutual on Tumblr. Everything on your blog feels so genuine, like I’m sitting across from you at a cafe having coffee together, and it’s this wonderful feeling of closeness that I feel really makes your blog special, and it’s something I can only hope to replicate. Additionally, you’re one of my greatest supporters, so I’m so thankful for your unending patience.

To @ocelotlesbian, merely interacting with you online has sometimes made me happier than I have been during the entire week. The way you write feels like I can hear your voice flowing through your posts, and you just seem like a nice person I’d be lucky to befriend in person.

And to all the people that didn’t get specific mentions but have still supported my blog in any way, please know I am still so thankful for everything you’ve done.

My head is still spinning from the realization that I’m not just screaming into the void anymore, people are actually seeing what I’m writing.

As always, here’s to more poor writing, badly constructed theories, and character analyses that make no sense.

[sunanthrope]

This is a genuine question I had for a long time-- and still honestly struggle with

But as somebody who is publicly and openly nonhuman, queer, punk etc. You need to surround yourself with people who love you for you, be it irl or online. I don't have many friends or even close family in real life, but I have one (1) school friend and my mom, and my online friends, and that's good for me.

Being weird, like most things, is political. Queer? Political. Nonhuman? Alternative? Just plain old furry? Political. Anything that's not white cis-het 'normal' is political. Being comfortable with the fact that a lot of people won't like it is honestly the first step. Realizing and coming to terms with the fact that I'm not for everyone and not everybody is going to like me is still extremely difficult, but it's easier than trying to stuff myself into a little box for everyone and honestly feels much better. The people who won't like you, you probably don't want to be friends with them anyway.

Next, please know when it's safe to be open. I absolutely hate telling people to hide themselves and that's not what I'm saying at all. I am however saying that if you're going to be somewhere with a ton of fascists or neo-nazis or just plain assholes, don't walk around with the equivalent of a huge LED neon sign that says "come kick my ass, I'm a minority." If you can't go out with friends or other people in a buddy system, you need to keep yourself safe. You can't be out and proud if you're in the hospital dead or in a coma.

Being yourself and being weird can also come in a few different forms. I carry my stuffed animal with me on outings as it keeps me from having panic attacks. I wear headphones pretty much everywhere I go. But I also have a Mohawk, I'm always wearing my collar and wallet chains, I'm usually wearing my battle vest and/or some kind of band shirt. Just remember to be yourself in a way that let's you CONTINUE to be yourself! I've had some incredible interactions with strangers too. That's my favorite part of being strange, the interactions with good people who I might be inspiring or making them feel more confident. I've had store workers come up and talk to me, middle-school aged kids, little kids and toddlers, elderly people, etc come up and chat.

My biggest word of advice to people looking to be weirder more comfortably: find a reason to do it, find a way to do it, and find a place to do it. And above all, do it in a kind way that not only helps yourself above all, but secondly helps others and inspires them, and makes them feel safe around you.

I need to find the courage to be weird and just myself >:3

does anyone have any tips maybe

[carnivalls]

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See the thing is. I know I'm good at writing. Like I have my weak areas or things I need to improve in, but it's not a skill I otherwise spend a lot of time feeling insecure about because a) if I don't believe in my writing literally who will b) if I want to publish my writing I ought to at least feel a resting level of good about it because editors and agents likely will not be cradling my face like a prize cat and telling me how talented I am while asking for their edits c) I've always had an audience for my writing even at its worst– I started sharing my original works online when I was around 16 & that really helped sell to me the idea of 'there will always be someone out there who likes what you do' d) untalented men never think this hard about the quality of their works and they always end up published anyway and e) I don't have many other thoroughly developed skills so why not have one I feel good about. Having said this. Awkward feeling to realize you're one of the authorial weak links in your postgraduate creative writing degree's social circle

[wormchaser]

you are complaining about complaining too much while complaining about the fact that maybe people dont like you because you complain too much while complaining about being alone. just stop complaining and do something about it. talk to people. reach out. dont just wait for someone to come to you first.

i have tried reaching out to different people in the past year or so but it never works. i understand its my own fault for letting relationships decay because of my own insecurities and issues but that doesn't mean i can just will myself to think or believe different things about myself. it's a self fulfilling prophecy ; i think people don't like me so i don't reach out so people don't like me etc . i am sure you do not want to hear me list all the things i want to say in response so i will put them in the tags.

[mylove-thresher]

I keep trying to post shit I been drawing lately BUT I CANT. I CANNOT BRING MYSELF TO. THE WORMS INSIDE MY HEAD DO NOT APPROVE OF THEM. I CANNOT FUCKING DRAW. PUT ME DOWN. I DONT FEEL THE SILLY IN ME.

[titleknown]

Like... if I may be vulnerable for a moment, I am basically dependent on SSDI through a lucky loophole. I am now terrified of losing that.

But I have options. Garbage options, but options still. A lot of people I know and know of on things like food stamps and SSI don't.

And like, to those who're mutually mad because they were fucked if Harris or Trump won... like, I get it. I extend my sympathies and solidarity to you, as long as you give the grace to extend it to me.

To the rest of those being smug as hell, I do not extend that grace. Like, I half expect you to start calling people who're going to lose, say, Medicaid "Hitlerites angry about their little treats."

I don't like that mindset.

And like... well, speaking as a member of the DSA (a thing more of you in the US should be IMO), a lot of folks I talk about in meatspace do tel me when I talk about these gripes with online leftist meanness to "touch grass."

Note these are perfectly nice leftists I tend to get along with decently, or at least the best my socially awkward ass can. And, there's merit in that, to be sure. Like, if there wasn't, I would not be in my local DSA, and they do good work, especially on the Public Power campaign.

But also, I feel like that can be unfair, the online sphere is wildly under-organized, especially in the field of creatives, and we are going to need far more of that, especially as the right-wing crackdown on porn accelerates ever faster.

And I have bitched about the brain-drain on that a lot. But I will note, a lot of the specific type of leftist I'm mad about is also heavily harping on the "Touch Grass" talking point.

And I feel like they should do some introspection on the fact that they are the people that we're trying to touch grass to get the fuck away from.

But they won't. Because they're assholes.

...If I may be slightly bitter and cranky for a moment, I feel like a lot of communists on here don't get why people (at least in a USAmerican context) don't believe them on non-electoral action/revolution, even as the Dems have failed us for over 40 slutty, slutty years.

Which is, firstly, they have (Again, at least in the USAmerican context) repeatedly and consistently watched non-electoral protest movements full of passionate committed people eat shit and collapse when the pigs came to break them and end up materially changing nothing all their lives. Occupy, BLM, the Iraq War protests, the Battle for Seattle, the list goes on.

Secondly, none of you motherfuckers have ever managed to say how the fuck any of this is supposed to translate to us getting, say, fucking healthcare, without interfacing with the government at least a little.

And no, the "we have a functioning social safety net at home" that is "mutual aid" doesn't count. Just ask anyone who's poor and disabled and stuck in a rural right-wing shithole and all their online friends are also too poor and disabled to provide any material help.

And thirdly, YOU PEOPLE ARE SMUG IRONY-POISONED ASSHOLES. ASSHOLES, ASSHOLES, ASSHOLES!

YOU MOTHERFUCKERS CAN'T EVEN BE NORMAL ABOUT AUTISTIC PEOPLE HAVING A SPECIAL INTEREST IN ANIMATION, WHY THE FUCK DO YOU THINK WE'D TRUST YOU ON THIS SHIT!

I COULD NAME NAMES!

[sherlock-is-ace]

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[icewindandboringhorror]

Everytime I face a new character limit on a website that didn't have them before/used to have really long ones... AUGHHhhh the modern social media world was not made for people like me (lovers of details, rambling, elaboration, thorough explanation, and nuance)

[loderlied]

prev rb shana is def one of those people lmao.

[bandzboy]

i am just truly in my idgaf era i don't even care if those flop i'm just here to post things for comfort atp it is what it is 😭

[imflyingfish]

side note. im just upset now about how it feels like my work is no longer belonging to me. I dont get to choose what it is put into. it is now a comodity for whoever believes that they have a right to my work.

When I work in an art-based industry, what I produce will not be my own. It will be owned by another company who hired me. I could spend hours on it and pour my life force into what I create, but it could be held by the company and not released or released and removed from my ownership.

Now tumblr is the same. now every website is the same. You never have control of what you post forever. You never get to choose what happens to your online work. But now I know that what I post will go directly into the content meatgrinder that is AI technology. I will not get to choose this. I will not get to own my work any more. Even if I opt out, even if thousands of users opt out, not everybody will. Not everybody will know. Not everybody will want to. Not everybody will be bothered.

Theres a difference between individuals reposting my work onto pinterest and an entire blog being fed into AI. Theres a difference between a single human feeding artwork that isnt theirs into AI and an automatic process in which my data, my artwork, my life is being fed into AI. I will never own my own work again unless I keep it directly next to me and never share it.

Im debating pulling all of my work from this website.

[bmpmp3]

Getting into stuff that has a lot of pre-announced release dates is really good for me like vocal synthesizer products and new love live etc franchise music releases....I'll be lying in bed at like 2 AM with ur usual 20-something's fear and existentialism over time and the future and then I'll remember a piece of singing software or a new song related to cartoon characters I like is gonna come out like next month and I'm like 😌

[thetriangletattoo]

today my nephew asked me what an mp3 reader is I finally understand my elders