#also DONT TELL ME THAT I SHOULD DANCE/POINT OUT WHEN I AM

[100frogsinatrenchcoat]

I’ve done to the conclusion that actually Parties Are Bad And Boring and also they should come with instruction guides for specific flavors of party and what the social expectations are.

[unknownati]

heyy hope you’re doing well! requests r open & i was wondering if you could do a stm w ekko evolving him and his s/o or a friends to lovers trope going roller skating ? :!!

like pls tell me you’ve seen those videos of ppl roller skating .. anyways thxs for the consideration, i luv your work <3

ix. skate to me!

a/n: TY!!! THIS IS SO CUTE LOLOLOL

dance based of this tiktok, idk if i'm feeling that song for this fic tho 🤔 imagine whatever song you want

*the song i attached was also not the song i imagined for the dance but it fit the fic...if u ask me i was thinking abt drugs n hella melodies by don toliver

guys iwas reading my old writing from like my notes app n why am i kinda getting worse at it LMAOOO

warnings/tags: gn!reader, no use of y/n, no desc of reader's physical features, fluff + suggestive (really it's just the dance but i dont see it as THAT sexual 🌚), reader is a beginner roller skater, modern!au, teaching you how to skate 🥹, friends to lovers, slow dancing (backpacking is the actual term...whoops), ekko locking tf in, to fw this fic or not fw this fic...good question!

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ekko regularly went roller skating with powder, vi, claggor and mylo. and lord, was he a show off.

powder would be skating around in her own world, humming to the music, then here comes ekko zooming by backwards, crouching down, AND on his phone.

he acted humble about it, but humility only goes so far when you're two steps from doing a backflip on the floor. regulars started to build a reputation up for him as "the trick guy" because of it.

anyway, one day the six of you were hanging around in powder's room when you overheard mylo ask, "we still on for thursday?"

you perked up. "what's on thursday?"

"oh," vi shrugged, pink locks brushing against her brow. "we're all going skating together."

powder's arms draped around your shoulder. "hey, you should come with. you busy?"

"no," you hummed, "but i don't know how to skate."

the weight of knowing glances being shot around the room smacked you like a ton of bricks, and once again you felt left out. you opened your mouth to speak up but claggor, wearing a smug grin, cut you off.

"ekko'll teach you."

ekko fumbled with his pen, spinning to face the group. "huh?"

"yeah," vi chips in. "you'll teach them, won't you?"

ekko's eyes land on you, his lips tugging into a sheepish smile without even knowing it. "of course!"

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the first time you joined them was the first time you'd ever skated, ever.

low neon lights paint the room, flicking through hues with each beat that pounded through the speakers. a glimmering disco ball spun lazily at the center of the skating rink.

ekko stepped on the slippery floor backwards, hands cupping yours. he pulled you forward and your upper half moved, but your legs didn't.

"c'mon!" he urged, drawing you closer so you didn't fall.

"i'm coming..." you croaked, trying to convince yourself more than him. your eyes remained glued to your feet.

he raised a brow and he leaned into your space. "hey," his breath tickled your ear. "i've got you."

you swallowed and awkwardly stepped onto the floor. wobbling legs mimicked those of a newborn fawn, your body lurching forward to find its balance. embarrassing, a voice rung in your mind. you heard laugh above you and it irritated you.

"ekko, help me! don't just stand there!" you scolded. ekko's fingers began to ache from how tight you gripped onto them.

"you won't learn!" he insisted. "listen, if you lean forward, all your weight will move forward. stand up straight!"

yeah, fuck all of that.

your hands abandoned his, desperately searching for a sturdier anchor. his shoulders, of course! you braced yourself on them, propelling yourself upright. every limb in your body grows stiff, your gaze meeting ekko's.

at no point did you register how close you were to him. chest to chest, nails clawing at his hoodie, faces only a few inches apart.

ekko however, was violently aware.

ekko cleared his throat, hands awkwardly floating at his side. his gaze darts everywhere except for towards you. he didn't wanna just grab on you, not without asking first—fuck, you looked amazing under the lights—but you needed help and you wanted to learn and—

"ekko?" you called for the third time.

"sorry. we'll, um, take it slow, okay? i won't let you fall. i promise."

you've only realized this now, but ekko was...kinda cute.

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you attended the skating sessions more frequently after that. a quick learner, you were. after a few weeks you started to get the hang of skating on your own without clutching onto ekko like your life depended on it.

he'll never admit it, but he missed having you so close.

the distance had you two constantly staring at each other on the floor, shooting each other smiles. they were flirtatious and shy, too nervous to go any further.

with you starting to separate on the floor came you seeing just how much of a show off ekko was. backwards, sliding on the floor, speeding around the rink, twisting with vi to create some insane shape—didn't matter. it was for fun, sure, but he loved seeing the impressed look on your face more than anything.

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you trail far behind ekko on the rink, still not quite as fast as him. he twists around to face you, arms open, beckoning you over.

pushing off the ground, you speed up to him, barely avoiding a collision. your body clashes with his, almost sending you both tumbling down. you erupt in laughter after finding your balance.

"i knew you'd learn," he comments, the distance between you two growing ever so slightly. your hip bumps his.

"all thanks to you," you coo. his lips press into a line, slipping against each other. should he just tell you? he's been holding it in way too long, now would be the best time, right?

"☆, i—"

"this next song's for all my couples on the floor," the dj's voice boomed out in the speaker. ekko looked around in confusion, looking at the dj booth near the front, lo and behold, powder was behind it, her hand covering her mouth as she spoke to him.

you moved with the threat of departure, then paused once you heard the slow intro to the song. "oh, but i love this song," you murmur in disappointment. once the dj played a song during a session, he would not play it again.

ekko hesitates to speak. "we could...dance anyway?" you glance over at him, glassy umber eyes begging you to not skate away. "...can we?" he tacks on.

you'd be crazy to say no.

your foot makes its turn, wheels sliding across the floor as you faced ekko. it starts casual; just skating, swaying to the music, eyes closed while you just let you and the music get comfortable.

ekko, on the other hand? a wreck. he could only keep his cool for so long. with you moving closer, closer, closer, he was about to fall apart. he kept glancing behind him to 'make sure he didn't crash into someone' but if he had the choice he'd keep his eyes fixed on you forever.

you caught on to ekko's feelings for you a while ago. albeit, it took multiple teasing glances from the rest of the group for it to start to click, but once you realized that you had him wrapped around your finger, that chance was taken and ran, no, sprinted with it.

your hands finally met, which is when you opened your eyes.

"hi," you chirp.

"hi," he parrots, tone dripping with something you can't quite place.

half-lidded eyes watch in awe of how effortless you made everything look. he needed to catch up, couldn't leave you dancing on your own.

as the song started to build into the chorus, ekko started to follow your lead. a lazy game of cat and mouse—chasing the direction of your body. his arm raised, readying you for a twirl that you were waiting for.

your fingers rotate between his and you make it halfway through the spin before you trip on your front wheel. your back lands on his chest.

"sorry," you gasp, heart racing from almost falling. his heartbeat drums against your shoulder.

"no, it's okay," he reassures. his wrists perch atop your hip bone, your arms crossed in front of you.

your eyes meet his above you shoulder. smooth, brown skin tinted a deep red over the lights, small twinkles curving around the planes of his face. slowly, your hips grind back into his. it was impossible to feign innocence at this point.

ekko almost chokes on his spit, but by no means is he against it. the slow wind of your body against his had the room spinning around him. it takes him...multiple seconds, but he starts to move with you, stretching your arms into the air, exposing the fluidity of your movements.

although his anxiety was eating him alive, he rocked with you ever so slowly, arms swishing back down. his hand glides on your upper thigh, chin resting on your shoulder. you crane back on his opposite shoulder, free hand raising to cup the back of his neck.

it felt like nobody else was in the building at that moment, music drowning out behind your heartbeats thumping in your ears.

you lock eyes, both of you stealing glances at the other's lips.

ekko was frozen, caught in the intricacies of your facial features. to be fair, you were losing the ability to breathe the more you stared into his eyes, but it seems ekko is losing brain cells. so, fine. you'd do it.

your noses collide at first, sending you back to his shoulder. like two teenagers. no time was set aside for any apology from either of you after you finished snickering, guiding him by his neck to finally let your lips meet.

the rhythmic beats in your chests synced, the world blurring around you as your movements slowed to a near stop. with each presage of the kiss stopping, your brows knit together and the hand cradling his neck pressed ever-so-slightly down. urging, pleading him not to let the moment end.

it was delicate, and maybe lasted longer than it should have, but it spoke every word that the two of you were too scared to say.

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during your dance, mylo's mouth flew open with a yawn.

"man, i just wish they'd get it over with and kiss."

"be patient!" powder snapped, leaning on the table, anticipation literally having her at the edge of her seat. she's been waiting for this moment for months, praying for the day that you two just suck it up and admit it.

vi leaned across the table to whisper to claggor, eyes remained fixed on the two of you. she chuckled. "ekko's too nervous to—holy shit."

[pankowblues]

pairing: rafe cameron x reader fake dating

summary: fake dating Rafe Cameron and but you two end up falling in love

warnings: kissing ig

word count: 911

a/n: idk i have nothing to say but the dividers ill fix one day i dont like how there so big what are your thoughts on them please share

You and Rafe walk hand in hand inside your kitchen into your kitchen where Rafe’s family and yours is sitting. You and Rafe had to start fake dating for your parents to I guess like you more? You don’t even know why. “You don’t have to kiss… just give me a peck on the cheek” you whisper to him as you guys walk him. He listens and fake smiles to your parents and gives you a little peck. You guys go and sit down in your seats and start eating dinner not really doing anything with each other as you are just eating. Rafe starts to speak “"These kisses are just temporary. We'll separate soon enough." He then kisses you on the lips and you not expecting it. And Lowkey he’s a really really good kisser but then you remember you don’t like him so you stop thinking like that.

The next time you and Rafe have to do this whole couples stuff again and this time it was your dad’s friend engagement party. You and rafe come inside the place where the party is being held not really holding hands. “Can you put on a smile? You look like you're ready to dig your own grave." You tell him "For a matter of fact, l am.” You just scoff and continue walking. The majority of people know you guys are “dating” but you will need to make it believable. You guys take your seat but about 15 minutes in you guys are sooo bored and you guys start making small talk which leads to conversations. Who knew you could relate to Rafe so much.

As the weeks went on you and Rafe surprisingly texted more. And as time went on things like unknowingly holding hands, even when you are not in front of family or friends, getting used to making two servings of everything, Sitting close to each other, and sharing glances across rooms all became habits.

Then the day of your birthday came. You got a ton gifts from everyone. Even Rafe, he got you a Tiffany necklace, jellycat, and some makeup (he had to ask Sarah for help ofc). It’s later at night and you’re at the bar with your all friends from school. Boys and girls so your “boyfriend” was there. Everyone was dancing and you were standing by the bar when Rafe came up to you. "Let's dance, yeah? It's your birthday, they'll be suspicious if we don't." He told you as he held his hand out. You nodded and took it and walked to the floor. Once you got home you texted Rafe you were home since he told you too which was also something he didn’t have to do but still did.

At some point fake smiles turn into genuine ones and both of you wanted to be there for the other one, even though you two aren't even a 'real' couple. You and Rafe walked to the beach with his hand on you back keeping you close. As you two sat down on the sand Rafe looked at you making eye contact. For the first time you looked deep into his eyes and you and him just gazed at each other with so much love in your guys eyes. "Kiss me." He whispers "What? We don't have to pretend right now." "I know, but I need one right now." You kiss for the first time that was meaningful, and genuine. The kiss meant a lot, more than it should have. Where would this put you two now?

This is where things went downhill. He started distancing himself from you because they started to think that there is definitely something wrong with him. You were getting really upset, mad, confused and a lot more feelings. You didn’t know what you did wrong. Then the day came where he finally came to your house with flowers and chocolate and his hair was so messy. Matter of fact he was messy. But he did something you didn’t see coming. He started tearing up and started confessing his love to you.

"Listen I...I love you. I don't know if it's okay to fall in love with your best friend, but I love you. And it's fine, if you don't love me back, because loving you has been the easiest thing I've ever done, and I'd never stop loving you even if you didn't love me back. And I’ve been distancing myself cause I can’t seem to figure out if I really do love you but I know I do I know it" By the time he was finished he had tears down his face and so did you.

You stare at him in awe, tilting your head "You know what? It is okay to love your best friend, because that's what I've done as well. And I would've never knew that you also love me, if you never said it. So let me say this, I love you too. And I understand you don’t know how you felt but you need to learn to talk out your feelings Rafe"

He pulls you in by your waist and slowly kisses you and the tears that run down both of your cheeks while doing so. The kiss showed love, passion, forgiveness. He pulled away putting his forehead on yours. “May you do the honors of being my real girlfriend” he says smiling. “Yes of course” you say giggling.

taglist: @rafecameroncoke, @0xstarzx0, @wearemadeofstardust0, @v4mqvs, @aariahnaa, @congratsloserr

[mpsideadump]

Pristine Cut new routes!

I've currently played through all of the new routes (as in the new branches of Specter, Damsel, and Prisoner) and I just wanted to get all of my initial thoughts down and share them with you guys!

So

I TALK SPOILERS, DONT CLICK THE READ MORE BUTTON IF YOU HAVENT SEEN THE NEW ROUTES OR ARE NEW TO THE GAME

The Princess and the Dragon was the first one I did and FINALLY SEEING THE LONG QUIET IN FULL because we're inside the Princess's body is AMAZING!

Like?????

And the fact it confirms that LQ just stares when he's talking with the other voices, and the voices can share control of the body and they actually have distinct mannerisms! For sure now one of my favorite chapters!

The Cage's design is SO COOL! I'm not disappointed in how the Cage turned out cuz the way the Woods look and the Cabin being on a floating island makes it one of the more distinct Ch.3s. I will say that I am disappointed in how my run of the Chapter went cuz Skeptic turned into one of the worst voices for me when he's paired with Paranoid (my favorite voice and unfortunately).

I've heard that there's actually a bunch of variations for this chapter that end up with a happier ending, but the one I got where LQ gets decapitated and he just watches his body fight the Princess's felt a bit too jaded for my tastes. I'm gonna be experimenting to see what else I can do!

And finally...

OH MY GOD HAPPILY EVER AFTER IS OFFCIALLY THE BEST CHAPTER IN THE GAME!!! (in my opinion!)

I'll be honest, Damsel wasn't really my favorite because going through it as it was was just kind of...boring. Deconstructed Damsel was far more interesting because it pointed out the problems with her as she is (and the doodle is hilarious to boot). The Burned Grey, while a cool design, also wasn't really all that impressive to me because that chapter always ends with you and her burning together (but I do get what that route was trying to get at, which is how destructive a person blinded by love can be).

Happily Ever After takes that same idea and applies it to the fricking Smitten! SMITTEN!!

We finally have a chapter where Smitten is taken to the extreme and I'm all for it. The way he kills us to get to it is fricking terrifying, and the form he ends up taking to control the Princess is also heartbreaking (pun partially intended).

BUT HAVING THE FRICKING NARRATOR FINALLY REALIZE HOW BAD HIS IDEA IS AS WELL?????

Him witnessing first hand the torture of having someone else tell you what to do and how you should be happy as well as what stagnant, never-changing life actually looks like....

And him getting a mini-redemption arc out of it🥲

And gaaaaaahhhhhhh that final dance under the stars with her was perfect😭😭😭

I actually didn't want this Princess to go and was so sad when she got picked up by Shifty (its what I felt towards Thorn but like 10x worse).

Overall, I honestly believe that "Princess and the Dragon" & "Happily Ever After" can make great final princesses before Shifty is fully reconstructed. HEA even more so because of Narrator's redemption and I have the sneaking suspicion that getting this as the last Princess might actually change his opinions when you meet him.

The Cage was pretty good, but like I said I need to see a more uplifting variation of it to be more satisfied with the chapter itself.

[salon-maiden-anabel]

figuring out teams for characters who dont have canon teams/only partially full kinda fun sometimes .

I already have talked abt Argenta's team previously bc of CiaCM but im still sticking to my decisions . Meganium specifically is her old starter/possibly child of her original starter? still trying to decide. But Meganium is just such a Her pokemon to my brain in no way i could explain. Same with ninetales it just feels right. Dragonite from the tcg cards and Skarmory from pokemas. Apharos and Floarzel have less explanation else then the vibes just felt right for her

thorton bottom text. Most are from pokemas/one a reference to pokespe team. Rotom just Feels like a thorton 'mon and Cyclizar just feels right in my heart

Darach keeps his canon 5 + gains Haxorus as once again. Trust Me Bro.

Dahlia swaps out Medicham for Quaquaval ! It fits her dancing theme to a t as a fighting type more then Medicham. and also the more i can ignore medicham the better. Gourgeist and Dragapult reserves have just been smtn ive been thinking abt for a couple years now. Which accidentally means she has a lot of ghost types lol

Palmer doesn't change his team. lmao

for the hoenn brains i don't think most of them would shuffle their teams too much and stuff down the line but i do have Thoughts abt additional pkmn they'd have. Specifically how much Greta with a Zoroark would suck so severely it should be banned from the Battle Arena. which is exactly why she should have one. Same logic for Aegislash. "How would she have a Sneasler?" how do half these people have the legendaries they canonically have. Its free real estate.

Tucker's is mostly just following his trend of pokemon that would all later receive mega evolutions bc HOW did all his canon mon receive them. He's the reason the battle frontier didn't return /j

behold the worlds most unique Brandon team /j. Anyways all canon mon else then Gimmighoul which just FEELS like a brandon pokemno but specifically not a fighter. It just sits in his office and torments Samuel

Lucy is Lucy. Lucy has snakes. I imagine Serperior would run a contrary based set to rough up people unprepared. The entire second row are non-combat pokemon though! Arbok being an old pokemon from her youth who was already old when she caught him and is now a little too under the weather to battle all the time. Dunsparce. Typhlosion Mamoswine and Skitty are based off some of her anime-only housecats but i let the first two evolve over time! Skitty is a menace to society. Skitty will make everything Your issue. Lucy refuses to accept anyone trying to tell her that her Skitty is the worlds biggest problem causer skitty.

Noland. Running out of things to say. Gestures with my hands.

I have not added any new pokemon to Anabels list of pokemon. She just has so fucking many between sun/moon and the anime originals

However. That was Fallerbel. Mega-timeline/non eeby deebied Anabel gets a different team layout then her since their life experiences after a certain point are completely different

Spenser gets a Tangrowth bc that just feels right. Given its been a little over 10 years im not sure he works at the frontier anymore though that man is over 100 :sob:

I'm still to this day deciding who takes over the Battle Palace in his place [ive been thinking abt wally but am mortified of being accused of copying other people :sob: so i gotta think] But since Anabel gets deebied to megaverse theres a spot open in the Tower for a new Tower Tycoon so. Slaps oc that needs to be redesigned so badly in here, Dia. She's Perrin's cousin but i created her before Perrin existed :sob: so feeling meh on her design. Anyways.

[thinfatfit]

Ugh I just want to yell at someone about this. So there’s this guy I like bc ofc there is always a guy. And he’s been a good friend to me and I to him, like held each other when crying, talk each other through growth, inspire each other to be better etc etc. Like we are really compatible in a lot of ways and I like a lot of little things about him that reflect bigger parts of who he is. Well we recently sort of have started a friends with benefits type thing, like companionship+. It’s pretty obvious he’s crazy into me like, you can just tell. Well lately we’ve been dancing around the “maybe we should just date” conversation. And I’ve been cautious bc I got out of a long term relationship about half a year ago and I’m not sure I’m ready for all that. And the last few times that this conversation topic has come up this guy has mentioned my weight and how he’s concerned that as a girlfriend I might not be able to keep up with him bc he’s v active or that it bothers him that he can’t pick me up. Well, this time around I called him on it. I told him that while those things might play a part in it, I thought he was actually upset bc I didn’t look the part of someone he wants to be seen with bc being fat isn’t desirable and he doesn’t want to be seen as a dude who’s with a fat chick. And he basically said like I’m not wrong but that obviously I’m a really amazing person and that matters more to him but he’s always been told he could do better then his exs and he doesn’t want to be seen as settling. And I really like this guy. But still I told him (while fighting tears) that if weight was something that important that he needed to be honest and not sugarcoat it and say my personality made up for it bc I’m not going to change. I’m not going to try to lose weight or go on a diet or wear shapewear for him. I told him that I keep dating people who don’t like me and if he’s not crazy about every part of me what’s the point. He basically replied saying that he just wasn’t usually attracted to my type but he really likes me and I told him that it’s fine to have a preference but i would prefer he think I’m beautiful including my body bc that’s the part he’ll be looking at that represents me. And then I told him he can think about what he wants to say but the conversation was upsetting me so I’m gonna go to the bathroom. Which is where I’m at now. I guess my question is…is there anything he can say that makes that thought okay? Like I really like him and he’s good for me on every other front truly truly. I’m good for him too. Is this a deal breaker?

hey!! i'm so sorry to hear this!!!!! i haven't been on tumblr as much lately so i'm not sure when you sent this. i am so sorry this happened to you!!!!!!! i would be SO upset if i were in your shoes & i honestly think you handled this AMAZINGLY. good for you for standing up for yourself, i'm so proud of you and that's so inspiring becuase that's so hard to do. his original excuse of like thinking htat you wouldn't be able to keep up with him is bullshit lol like what does that have to do with anything, like.... is he looking for a gym buddy? or like are you housebound? i dont really feel like that has anything to do with anything.

i honestly dont know what i would do in your situation. its really hard and also really easy to give advice when its not happening to you, like it would be really easy for me to bel ike "tell him to fuck off!!!!" when its not me who likes him and knows him.

i feel like if he apologizes and is really into you and doesn't act embarrassed about you or anything like that and is willing to just be a normal bf/gf and not try to hide you or do anything weird likee that then i woudl probably give him a second chance if i really liked him and he wasn't making me feel bad about myself. but i feel like if he was making me feel bad about myself in any way then it's not worht it to be with him. but also honestly like.... i'm not an expert. all i know is that you deserve a good relationship with someone who loves all of you and your weight is NOT something to feel bad about or for someone to make you feel bad about.

[pagodazz]

Can you please please please write hc about HABIT and Vinny cooking together maybe?? Thx!!

YES ANON!!! YES I CAN!!!!!!!!!!!

These guys are my absolute #1. I think about them all the time and I've thought about THIS. alot of times.

Now them cooking together is alot more like HABIT cooking and Vinnie standing around for moral support.

HABIT doesn't exactly like help, I don't think he likes to be bothered with the things he does, but he's a fan of company. Atleast Vinnie's company. he would probably get pretty sick of anyone else. He's grown accustom to Vinnies bitter personality, the same way Vinnie has grown accustom to HABITS nagging one.

HABIT likes to talk on and on about random things, and Vinnie always has alot if questions. So I think while HABIT moves around the kitchen, Vinnie is leaning against the counter asking him questions about the things he's done throughout the years.

It's time like these that they both seem to forget that they're awful people and they turn into two people who only ever wanted the eyes on them. And together they can see each other, and use each other, and stab each other in the back, but even then they'll come right back to one another.

but them cooking together, HABIT would have to guide Vinnie around the kitchen, Vinnie knows how to cook obviously, but HABIT is better and Vinnie gets a little nervous when HABIT picks up the knife, so he's probably on edge (just a little.) But HABIT is actually a pretty gentle teacher, only when it comes to Vinnie of course, but he makes sure that Vinnie understands what he's being told, and he's not afraid to put his hands on Vinnie's to guide him in the right direction.

Think of the scene where he's teaching Vinnie how to shoot a gun, right? he's very "nice" that whole Interaction.

I think they'll always have music playing while they make food together, It's just good background noise for them, neither of them like the quiet.

HABIT will ALWAYS make Vinnie try the food, he'll hold a spoon up to his face and ask what he thinks and he just EXPECTS Vinnie to just. Try it. He probably does this to the point where HABIT could come up to Vinnie when he's not really paying attention and Vinnie will just blindly try whatever he's given. HABIT has basically trained that man like a dog.

Vinnie is always really honest with HABIT too, he wouldn't lie to him because he knows that would just make HABIT angry and the last thing he wants is to start any problems. He'll give his honest opinion on what HABIT should add and HABIT will get all defensive and tell him that he thinks it's perfectly fine, but he'll always listen to vinnies suggestion, but of course, he's not gonna thank Vinnie for the advice.

HABIT is definitely the type of guy to start a food fight with Vinnie too I think. I feel like he would torture Vinnie in little ways. He's just a nuisance to Vinnie at times like this, when it's not exactly clear who really has all the power in the dynamic.

And I think after a little bit of pestering, HABIT can break Vinnie out of his shell and he can forget the horrors for a moment and pretend that maybe for a minute, he's living a normal life, and nothing is wrong.

also I am letting them dance in the kitchen as a treat for... their horrendous actions. BROS CAN DANCE IN THE KITCHEN TOGETHER DONT ATTACK ME FOR THAT.

I BELIEVE!!! TERRIBLE AWFUL GUYS LIKE THEM!!! CAN BE SILLY SOMETIMES.

[god-has-entered-my-body]

lena's dream log: the goth one

- fourth instalment -

right so i'm like. seventeen sixteen in this dream? idk but i looked in the mirror and was the SPITTING image of teenage me so yes. i'm in this bus right and it stops at this weird stop next to the woods in my hometown. This sketchy group of people get on and one of them shoved this bag into my hands and i'm like ??????? okay queen i guess this is mine now

then there's four cops in the bus and for some reason i know they're looking for me so i smash this glas window next to me and bolt out of it bag in hand. WHY DO I STILL HAVE THIS BAG? no clue BUT i'm with one of my mates i know i didn't know back then but i just DONT question it in the slightest and keep running

i'm being chased by these fuckass city orga cops down this hill and my mate trips and falls and just disappears whatever i don't question it because i'm SPRINTING at this point.

i reach this weird drugstore that looks somewhat familiar but only on the outside the inside is way too big and literally has everything imaginable and i'm just like. okay this is happening now. i run to hide and see a bunch of people i know i should know and one of them i recognise as my friend sahara and i go up to her being like GIRL IM BEING CHASED???? and she's like yeah obv you have a BOMB

So apparently i have a bomb in my bag and i drop this bitch IMMEDIATELY book it into the sex toys section and hide while they search the place and i'm like???????? HUH and they eventually leave

i go outside and jesus fucking christ the street is filled with goths. i wish i was kidding everyone was in full trad goth makeup and holding crosses and those weird fire things whatever I STILL don't question it and start trying to find ANYONE i know. i'm walking through this crowd of goth folks and reach a weird wooden stage and sahara appears behind me with this absolutely massive spliff (like at least four feet tall she's just hauling the thing) COPS COME AGAIN and i'm running once more towards this stage and that when i see children?????

these kids are fully performing a really shite dance routine to bad blood by taylor swift like costumes and shitty makeup everything and there's a bunch of people in rows of chairs (their parents????) watching the show and clapping and holding up signs that i couldn't really read

right so i somehow skip to a part where all of these aforementioned goths are sitting in a circle and there's this MASSIVE bonfire in the middle right in front of me but it feels cold and not like fire

again more cops and they start arresting everyone and suddenly there THE BOMB GOES OFF AND ITS RIGHT NEXT TO ME and i fly through the air like i'm bibi bloxberg so i'm soaring and land in this bed just chilling in the middle of the road and i'm like ??? okay queen i guess i'm here now

theres this weird PA announcement thing that just tells everyone to beware of the satanists roaming the streets and theres like. old german ladies multiplying in the windows staring into my soul and i'm TERRIFIED but in a silly way because what the fuck mate what am i DOING

anyway everyone gets lined up and "processed" ?????? in the middle of the street ???????? okay whatever suddenly there's a bottle of pink whitney's (shout out wife) in my hand and i'm drinking it and everyone has the same bottle while simultaneously being in handcuffs ??? do they have four arms ????

okay whatever and then i wake up literally sweating and my face is puffy and THIRSTY and also somewhat convinced i'm still dreaming because what the FUCK just happened to me

yay another dream log i totally didn't have to douse myself in cold water after this one

[sheenashifts1217]

Hii!! I am Aurelia or just Aurie! I want to know about my relationship with Peter Parker (andrew garfield) from my marvel dr! Thank you in advance!!

Hiii! I’m a marvel shifter too, but I haven’t met Peter so this is exciting for me!!! :))))

Your Relationship with Peter Parker

Lyrics standing out:

“You could be trusted

Salt in the wound

Laughing right at me

The good times

You and I

Now we got bad blood

Mad love

Be fine

Scars from your knife

Did you think it all through

Just don’t

It’s so sad to think about the good times

You made a really deep cut

Bandaids don’t fix bullet holes

If you live like that, you live with ghosts (I’m seeing him sneaking in your room through the window?)

Blood runs bad

Look what you’ve done”

I know when you say this song, you probably got scared, but DONT. Peter has been hurt by a lot of people so he puts up walls, maybe you do too. He’s always seen you as a person out of his league. (Like maybe the “popular people” in school) He hasn’t trusted those people, but he trusts you. You both learn from each other. I feel like there was maybe a miscommunication at some point and it took a toll on you guys, but you worked through it and it made you stronger together. Maybe there was a prank played on one of you and you of him felt humiliated and like it was the others fault. You all talked it out. You remind Peter that he can’t keep his life secret forever because he is shutting himself off. You’re his rock and help him not become too consumed in being spiderman. He feels things very deeply which is why he tries to shut people out because he wants to protect them and himself. He also really likes when you “patch him up” after a mission.

Lyrics standing out:

“Supermoon, watch it dance in your eyes

Are we just two stars passing by

Wanting your summer skin pressed on mine

Hearts on fire

Walking on a wire

You blow my mind

Tell me anything you like, except for goodbye

What’s it like up there high in heaven

(I can see him swinging through the city with you in his arm)

Wanna know what your lovin tastes like”

You guys are in the “honeymoon phase”, and you will kind of always stay like that, even when you do argue. Most of your arguments are just over each other’s safety or well being. He’s a very caring s/o, but can be forgetful because he spreads himself too thin at times. You all go on cute dates a lot. He loves to treat you like a princess. He sometimes still can’t believe that you’re his. He never thought he would be with someone like you because of how amazing you are. You’re very patient and understanding with him, yet you hold him accountable and keep him in line. He’s whipped. He likes to make out on rooftops….A LOT. Also, I didn’t get this by shuffling, but the song “Kiss Me More”, by Doja Cat, is playing in my head. That may be a message for you.

He says that it must be fate for you all to be together.

Lyrics standing out:

“A million thoughts

Should I let my heart keep listening

It’s time

So hard to let go”

There are a few different things I’m getting from this song, even though it’s shorter than the others. Firstly, are you overthinking shifting? Don’t. You know you can do it. Just trust yourself and the time will come. Let go of material things and any fears holding you back. You will be fine.

Secondly, it’s giving Peter is scared of vulnerability and you’re scared of not doing enough. I feel like this needs to be a conversation between the two of you tbh. Peter has grown and learned to trust, but a part of him still worries about you seeing all of him because you are so amazing and he doesn’t want to scare you off. You worry that if you’re not constantly there for him, something will happen. You kind of feel like you have something to prove in order for him to want you. Know that you are enough and that you don’t have to “earn” love. It’s there, just take it. Peter will come around and open up more. You just have to stay persistent and keep inviting him.

He wants to say, “I love you so much. I’d be lost without you. Don’t let me go. I’m yours”. And I saw him kissing your hand. Aweeee

Overall, your relationship is full of love, but there needs to be more communication. You both feel very deeply for each other and you’re almost codependent, but you need to work on your shadow selves. Be honest with yourself and with him. He will only feel comfortable opening up if you do the same. So if you feel like you’re not doing enough, or even if you feel like you’re doing too much, tell him. He’s willing to listen. He treats you like a princess. You’re a queen in his eyes and you never won’t be. Remember your worth and that your cup has to be full before you can fill others.

I hope this was accurate and you liked it. I could feel the emotion Peter has for you. It’s very strong. Please give me feedback, my love.

🫶💗

[haruharuz]

So. You have mentioned that you knew you wanted to be a stripper since 17 but waited until you were 20 currently I am 18 in the Bay Area and I do want to strip not because of tiktok I do have a job (I am a server while I’m school for nursing). I have watched some videos on YouTube. I am also planning on visiting some clubs. what would be your advice to me? What would be some things I should look out for?

I don’t know if dancing is a good idea right now. I know you’re gonna hate me for saying that but there’s a reason we tell you NOT to dance that early. Because at 18-19 you’re so much more likely to be trapped in the industry. I highly recommending waiting until you’re 20 to dance. But I totally understand if you still want to.

If you ARE going to try it no matter what, I want you to take in everything I say and keep it in your head.

Don’t do coke. Don’t even look at it. Stay away from all drugs or you will pay a price for it. Don’t drink. Just trust me. It’s a slippery slope and you will never get out of the industry. And I mean that.

When you get your money, you’re going to do a few things.

Avoid buying luxury and random stuff. Just avoid it.

Open a Roth IRA and max it out every year you dance

Do a savings challenge and have one at all times you’re doing

SAVE part of your money for taxes !

Make weekly goals not daily

I also highly suggest you KEEP your day job while dancing. Don’t do what I did, I started dancing and haven’t had a normal job in 2+ years.

Dancing will make you never want a normal job again. So keep your normal job, dance on the side.

If you’re going to the clubs you’re going to want to watch for family mentality. Stay away from any club that says they’re a family. They are not, you will end up pimped out.

Watch out for the girls. They’re not all your friend they will fuck you over for their bag. Look at the stages and see if it’s more money from stage or if it’s more girls hustling lap dances.

If you do decide to dance fry a book bag or a duffel bag, put these items in it: a lock, baby wipes, first aid kit, tooth care mini travel set, alcohol in a small spray bottle (spray sanitizer works great), hair care tools, a money bag 💰 (emoji is because this is what they typically look like) you want a bag that can hold a lot and one that’s smaller as well. You’ll also need a pair of pleasers, if you get boots that are closed toed size up. Outfits you can find on shein are great and so is Adam and Eve. The one near me gives me a discount as a dancer and I build points. Also put a snack and a small bottle of water + a liquid IV (electrolyte supplement) in there.

Look up some floorwork videos. You’ll want to learn how to move fluidly and sensually, as well as twerk. Stretch every single day! Before you audition there’s a few things that would be great for you to learn just so you feel way more confident! If you can get a pole, those can be amazing for learning and such. But if not, when you get there DONT try to jump on the pole! Walk with the pole in hand up high, body away. Watch a few videos on that like pole stuff without it being obnoxiously difficult because pole HURTS and it’s gonna bruise you.

Show up to any audition dressed nice. You want social security and ID ready. Confidence plays a huge part. Like a simple bodycon dress will do.

Stay safe ! I hope this helped :)

[emissaryorca]

not my 2 am ass waxing philosophical about the vgm jazz/remix scene (source: I’ve been a cellist and pianist for 10+ years and i like vgm. next slide)

when i was in high school it was nigh impossible to imagine video game music meaning much more than “silly haha chiptune” or “Brahms or Dvorak wannabe” (aka cinematic orchestra--think Halo, Uncharted, AssCreed, etc). chiptune i should mention has its own merits and real ppl not only being good composers but also working to find suitable leads or balance sound channels for that good ear-feel (Mega Man 2, Metal Gear 2, Chrono Trigger, OutRun, Street Fighter 2, this list has no end). I see a lot of parallels w/ how classical music “pros” in the mid 2000s/early 2010s treated old school vgm + how the bigwigs of warner bros view animators--the medium they accompany downplays their value to those “on top” who assign a niche’s value for all us peons on the bottom. thankfully for us, some stuffy old violin maestro telling us that Hades’s music "is derivative” wont stop Darren Korb from setting the room on fire (musically. though he might moonlight as an arsonist idk the guy)

but now in the 2020s there’s a full-blown out and proud community of video game rearrangers working to just melt minds with their breakdowns and solos. I’ve been listening to ocremix since middle school so we’ve been around, but with insaneintherain now working on original music for games, he joins the ranks of folks like Chipzel, Danger, + Lena Raine who have been avowed game fans and now work from that inspiration. almost giving back, in a way. Pat Bartley, Adam Neely, the Consouls, and the 8-Bit Big Band are a few of the names spearheading an increasing awareness for the goldmine of a source that is vgm, to the point where the 8-bit big band’s cover of Taking Over the Halberd won a fucking Grammy. you can no longer hold orchestra elitism (”true musicians dont play kiddie music!!”) over me because everyone can hear how good these guys sound. theyre skilled, driven, and by God do they love video game music. + if ppl insist that the Grammys are how we must measure musical worth, well, best of both worlds. they garner a reputation and the gamers get one! your awards shows don’t lie, do they...?!

like i know this makes me a corny ass fucker but passion has kept this scene alive, kept ppl championing for its representation in the wider media. I wouldn’t canoodle over 02′s theme from Kirby 64 if I didn’t love the source track, and insaneintherain wouldn’t make so much of his identity Pokemon jazz if he didn’t want to devote his heart + soul to what he grew up playing. from what I can tell this passion is insular--from and for fans. no head honchos telling us what racks up views or is truly meaningful, no. if we remix Snake Eater in this house it’s bc the original track makes me feel things, not bc my director says it’s valid for using a full orchestra or whatever (which it does, plus Cynthia Harrell’s voice makes me tap dance, but that’s not the point. the point is emotional attachment, something that a purely technical discussion about tone or timbre falls short of covering. nostalgia and passion, hand in hand)

anyway thanks for reading this love letter to the one true flame that’s kept me from throwing myself off this mortal coil. have this funk version of Corridors of Time. vibe with the breakdowns and pat’s face-melting solo. maybe do a little triumphant, cathartic crying? i know i might

[ethien]

The thing about the remake of P3

I had a night and a workday to collect my thoughts about the entire remake announcement, and further information about it.

It will be long, so I will cut here.

Let us start with the thing everyone is somehow a bit...disappointed. 

In an Interview with IGN, it got cleared out we’re getting a Remake of the pure Persona 3, without FES, without portable content. So, no Femc, no the answer. No chance of me dating an Akihiko made in Unreal Engine. 

Well, someone already cleared out while looking at the shared screenshots they are things from FES or portable, like commanding every from the party, which will be there. 

And if I am honest, when I read the interview, some phrases sound like “We cannot share more at this moment”

It is so far frustrating we still had to wait for further information from atlus regarding the topic around the additional content. Will there be more Remakes of P3 like Royal for P5, Golden for P4? Do we get payable DLC? Will there every be the chance for the additional content to enjoy?

Which leads to a general question: What makes a Remake something worthy called it “Remake”?

Excatly telling the origin story, polishing the graphics to the actual standard, creating the definitive edition of a collection of games? 

There a plenty games out there who got the title Remake, yet Fans argue with a wide range of argument that they didnt deserve it. 

I am myself a bit conflicted. Yeah, I had hoped for Femc not only bc of dating Aki, but also of how they managed the Social Links, and the slightly different point of view. The End of the regular P3 was heartbreaking, yet I couldnt believe some characters reactions bc...bro, we never could hangout, we just talk. While I believe they all got close, It was hard so get the full character. And then, there was the Femc Route where we got everyone from the Team to know better. Dating someone in the game and then parting at the end was heartbreaking in Femc route. 

Yet, I can understand the turn to show the first pure intention how P3 was at first before it got additional content. 

I am looking forward to play it. They put the actual standard into it which felt more like freedom like the visual novel shit I had in portable. Even when I am thankful to get the p3 experience with portable bc I never had a ps2, it sometimes cut out a lot of impression from music, atmosphere etc.The modern look is smooth, it is visually impressive. 

Yet the sour taste of there is missing something, and we dont know if we get it...it will be staying.

Another point where a lot are frustrated are the new english cast. 

Dont get me wrong, I am always a fan of “a person should be the character forever”. 

Yet, voice acting business is a complicated matter. We dont know about the contracts, the schedules, the fees they arranged, they would get, they want and what they deserved. If it was intended or they had to take the move. We just dont know until we get info. If we get Info about it.

I must say, I am looking forward to the new cast. Some voices are pretty known in the anime business, or in other famous games. Like the new voice for Akihiko. I know the voice from FE 3H, and from FF7R. The characters are way different in their tune, and I had to concentrate to clearly hear out the voice. What is a good thing if the VA can dance with his voice (Just like Robbie, the Voice of Akechi in P5...or Prompto in FF15). And I just listened to his Peaches cover of insta. I can cleary see him giving us “I’ve been waiting for this!” as good as his OG-VA (which voiced btw Grimoire Weiss in Nier Replicant, good game, you should play, it will tear you emotional apart xD)

All in all, it is still annoying we had to wait for Atlus...again. I cannot see what they had in their minds. They make amazing games, but make also terrible decision reagrding games. 

As a dumbass of a Fan for their games, I will buy everything. I am dumb enough. Like, had I mention how many versions of P5 I own? Too much xD 

But it would be a pretty dickmove of atlus releasing every additional as a new remake game. I am fine with DLC, even when there is the question why it is DLC when it could be in the game? 

I am happy it got a new shell. It fucking deserved it. 

I guess a final view can be made if I have all the info, and of course, played the game.

Or Fans are going riot and Atlus is doing something. Thats is always a possible outcame, and in my opinion, let it burn °^° xD

Lets see what we get in the next months until it got released,

[xxxg0ryygurlll13xxx]

i feel kinda bad abt taking my mental health/work day

like yea i get an insane amount of school work but theres ppl i go to school w who have practice, and rehersal and get it done. am i seriously this mentally weak and unstable?? that i get so stressed out and anxious over school i have to take a day to do it cause i cant do my work at school? really???? like i feel idk idk how i feel. i dont think guilty is the right word? but neither is weak? idk. but its bad. theres just so much going on in my family life too that im worried about and i keep trying to tell myself that this is ok and needed and i just have to get the work done but its so hard to not worry and get overanxious to the point i cant go to school. mental health is such a tricky thing and i know its important but i feel so bad when i take care of it. i will say i put on my insta note "needing to stay home from school to do schoolwork is crazy" and like 5 ppl from school have responded saying they do the same thing all the time cause its so necessary. that makes me feel less bad abt taking today off, well not really off im gonna spend my whole day working even tho thats what i did yesterday too after my PSAT and barely made a dent in my planner. its just its so much. so so so so much and i feel bad that other ppl can handle it but i cant. ik ppls brains are built different but how come i struggle so much in school and w school work and others just pass w As and dont even bat an eye???? ig stupid is how it makes me feel. guilty, weak, and stupid. its only october and i feel like im on a sinking ship, i have school to worry abt, loved ones in florida to worry abt, my mas health to worry abt, my health to worry abt, keeping the house at least kinda clean to worry abt, plans to worry abt, social things to worry abt, so much to worry abt. also slightly unrelated but i have a dr appt to go to on saturday and get to skip out on helping w open house at my school and trying to explain to my friend why no she wouldnt rather spend her saturday talking w her mothers spinal surgeon about how she could be paralyzed for the rest of her life, or how her back conditions could kill her. id rather work open house but she insisted i was "lucky" to miss out. i just feel so overwhelmed already. its only october and my mental health is already at such an edge that i cant go to school. ik that going where i go will be good in the long run and the adults around me are constantly telling me that but idk if its worth it since who knows if ill even make it to the long run. they keep insisting that too. ignoring my mental health concerns and just saying that i go to such a good school and my diploma will help me much more than if i went to public school. which is all tru but it shouldnt be at the cost of my mental, and physical health. they say itll make college easier but if this is supposed to prep me for college idk if i can make it another 4 years of this.

im not happy anymore. not long term anyways like sure hoco was fun and i was happy, i was happy getting ready and dancing but as soon as it ended i wasnt happy anymore. i was back to my now usual empty kind of sadness. i watch shows, play games, and make art that usually makes me happy and it doesnt anymore. i stopped drawing for pleasure, only watch shows and yt series to get it over with and havent touched any games in a long time. nothings fun anymore. everyone is so happy, going to parties, hanging out, having fun but here i am practically drowning trying to even crack a smile. ive started just doing the bare minimum for myself to survive. school, sleep, eating, showers basic things. ive abandoned most of my hobbies and ik thats not good for me but i just cant bring myself to do them. i wanna be happy and i dont want ppl ik to worry so i just kinda fake it hoping no one will notice and maybe i can make other ppl happy. im lonely, sad, anxious, guilty, depressed. i should be excited abt things but everything feels like an obligation now. im just trying to go abt life trying not to die and thats pretty much it.

[expfcultragreen]

[Ambling rhetorical tone....not your white ex arguing with you tone...old man sucking on grass tone...get the jeff bridges in big lebowski AI v.o. dialed in]

A dude died doing a sun dance recently, some older dudes kept yelling at him that if a native dude didnt finish they couldnt do it again for 8 years, that the tradition was riding on him etc.

His widow says, it must be that he died because someone there had their period "which is unlucky". Sure. In my culture, its amazing luck to get it or be having it 🤷

Is it unlucky because the tradition since colonization is to implicitly harass women about how they should be pregnant instead, by acting like periods are evil magic that shouldnt be happening/present and that is deeply unwanted and suspicious? How many nonnative guys was he being made to compete against btw, in this sacred ceremony?

How rude of me

Like, is the widow going to spend the rest of her life hating the period-haver for this because the old guys who are actually responsible have been telling you your whole life that periods are bad

Btw do you have to do a time out when you get yours? Really drives the point home that if you were just pregnant right now youd be with friends and family like usual

Is that how it was known who was having their period? Having to isolate means everyone knows your ovulation cycle too, anyone can track it

The culture i was raised in, as many have noted, is the opposite of this: my theory is that its paramount that unwanted suitors be anaware of your ovulation timing so the move is to never let on when youre having your period, no matter how much discomfort youre in, so that your fertility optimums cant be tracked by others

Which is a different kind of stigmatization, but, theyre still lucky to get and have, it means an unwanted suitor didnt get you, it means the future is wide open like you could even have a bunch of kids because youre young and healthy* (if you were neither you wouldnt be having it; *this is exclusive of people who stop having it for medical reasons because it sucked so bad somehow, eg going on t and/or getting a hysterectomy, which, remember that missing ut' book cover about antitrans whatever? ive never known a trans guy who did the yeet but ive known a cisish gal who did and it was because for her periods werent a marker of health and sucked haywire-bad but also its worth noting that she was raised catholic which is not my own culture so i cant really speak to that....she says in catholicism periods are a punishment from god for what eve did or smthn 🙄 sounds like more incentivization for pregnancy, to escape gods monthly wrath reminder or whatever)

So like basically she'd rather beef some random person for a mystified bodily function, than the dudes reportedly insisting that her partner not stop participating, bummer....its just 8 years, he's dead

Why is it my place to see a news item if its not my place to comment? Like why was this public information, why do i know someone there was reportedly having their period, thats pretty fine grain stuff isnt it?

Im familiar with the norm that people are expected to not comment regardless, but, i dont share it, and here i am on my own blog and not the comment section of any piece about it or the inboxes of anyone involved

Some advice from season 18 episode 4 of americas next top model: if youre trying to relate to people you cant talk down to them; people have very contrasting ideas of what condescension is like/looks like/feels like....kid gloves vs courtliness

It would simply be more polite to not comment, i suppose? But these ARE my thoughts, and i find it condescending when people politely refuse to comment

[artist-poet-lover]

D,

Talking to me is probably the last thing you wanna do, so I won’t talk, I’ll write. This way you won’t feel an obligation to reply.

I know you didn't ask for this, but I just wanted to give myself closure by expressing how I feel. You may think it's “weird” but I hope you can try to understand.

When I first met you I thought you were a really nice person. I didn't talk to you because I had romantic intent, but because I wanted to know you. You seemed to be impervious to everything, yet still very attentive. I admire that about you, still do. You helped me with many aspects in my life: academic and personal. You were there to provide a rational perspective when I remember you saying it’s unlikely I’d fail considering my track record. It’s nice you can bring out the objective side of the situation. You were right to say some situations are not worth being stressed about.

I confessed to you because I felt I was losing you as a friend. I thought it didn't matter if we never talked again because you never talk to me first anyways. I am always the one starting conversations and it gets exhausting. It would be fine if you actually engaged but you never tell me anything about your life. Is there really a point in being friends if you don't tell me anything about your life? I don't know why you take 30 minutes to reply to each message when I reply right away, especially when I clearly stated that I was stressed that time we were texting about the dance. I try my best to navigate situations but I can't do that if you don't tell me what you actually think or how you actually feel. You could have just said you didn't want to go to the dance with me in the first place. It probably would've been better because then I would know you aren't interested. I know this probably wasn't your intent but I felt led on. You said yes to going but it felt reluctant. During that time, I was making various excuses for myself and over analyzing the situation during that time period before taking the risk to confess because MAYBE you liked me back. I hope you know it's okay to say no. Sometimes it's better to just say no. Then I probably would have controlled my emotions better and not developed feelings. I understand that I may have pushed you and I'm really sorry if I did. It is never my intent to make you feel uncomfortable. I know I feel more than you do, but I hope you can empathize at least a little.

As time progressed my perception of you diverged. You appeared to be in a state of complacency that contrasted my constant self doubt. Despite how much I valued you, I think maybe we're better off not being friends; I require one on one time with my friends because they add depth to my relationships. I cannot accept being friends with someone who refuses to hangout with me one on one. I know you think it's “weird” because of how I felt about you, and I'm not trying to invalidate your feelings, but people can change and emotions can change. I also clearly stated that dating was not my intent of asking you to hangout. I want to spend time with you because I enjoyed your company, I liked you romantically because you seemed like a good person. Alas, feelings about that can change. If you still want to talk my door is open, but I am not going to always be knocking on yours.

You put on a great show. You should get and acting degree in addition to science because you sure had me fooled! I really thought you were a bright ray of sunshine but in reality youre an egotistical judgemental jerk who acts nonchalant to appear cool. You wish to be accept yet you dont accept others. This is proven by the fact that you found me “weird” for talking to you. You’re afraid to talk to people because youre afraid people think like you.

[winderlylandchime]

And we are officially at 4x03. He ran inside after his PT and then got annoyed with me that it took me a minute longer to get settled. According to him ‘work can wait, Brian and Justins poor life decisions can’t’. He now also dances when the intro plays so that’s new. ‘Love the intro but it wouldn’t kill them to give me more Justin and Brian. Where were they when they filmed this? Look at MY boy walking off into the title! That’s right, its his show!’ ‘Its my other boy Blake! Im so happy he’s still here. thank fuck Ted is clean. Good for you. AH LOOK ITS BRIAN AND EMMETT…and mike. SEE? I TOLD YOU THEY ARE BESTIESSSSS. THATS RUGHT EMY BRIAN DOES HAVE A HUSBAND! See, how now hr has zero reaction except that blinking? When compared to season 1 when Emmett said he feels left out cause its turning into a couples night out, he was all *does childish mocking voice with both of his hands on his hips* excuse me, i dont have a boyfriend. CHANGE! Oh shit its ted and emy. Oh i need them to be friends again please’ *pauses tv on Brian* ‘i dont know what this man was doing when they filmed this but he has been looking GORGEOUS every scene so far.’ ‘So Ted is now fully avoiding them? Wait Bri Bri, i thought they would be friends’ AND THE SCENE WITH JUSTINS HAIRCUT IS UP OH GOD ‘ugh this fucker again. Look the part? Pink what now? Pink Posse? *tries not to laugh* im trying to be nice but i hate that guy and the name sounds funny. ITS ONLY FOR QUEERS? Should i leave? Justin, youre just gonna let him be a dick to your friend? What? And why are they getting haircuts? He is next for what?..what is he..no. No. NOOOOOOO JUSTIN NOOOO DONT LET HIM TOUCH YOUR HAIR! NOOOOO WHY WOULD THEY DO THIS TO ME!!! He really wants people to look like him. That is a cult, man. JUSTIN PLEASE NO YOU CAN STILL STOP IT CMON WE CAN FIX- NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO *rewinds ep to cody, pauses tv and gets close to it and points at him* YOU, can officially go fuck yourself. You are on my shit list FOREVER! Who just wakes up and does that?’ It just got to the scene with Jen and Brian! ‘AH ITS JEN AND BRI! AT HIS LOFT! Am I actually gonna get my buddy episode? I AM ARENT I? FINALLY A FUCKING WIN ON MY HORIZON. You cannot tell me they arent best friends! Oh she’s helping him build the business *pauses tv when jen and brian are looking at the computer* look at us. Who would’ve thought we’d get here eventually, huh? Not you. (Justin walks in) OH GOD THIS IS HORRIBLE! THANK YOU JEN! Its called a mistake, Justin! ALL THREE OF US ARE HEARTBROKEN BY THIS. HEARTBROKEN YOU HEAR ME?! Exactly Jen, it was beautiful! This is the most devastating thing since…i dont know what but something. He looked at his mother and said Pink Posse with a straight face. WHY IS HE BEING SO PASSIVE AGGRESSIVE TOWARDS HIS MOM? Brian! Do something! Okay the Timberlake line is funny. (Brian says the haircut is hot) yeah well, you also thought working for that trump bitch was a good idea. *looks at me* its not the worst haircut and he doesn’t look bad but *makes bunch of noises while flapping his arms* UGHH’ ‘Debbie girl, BOUNDARIES! Let Vicky boy have his moments with his boyfriend! He’s finally happy and in love.’ Justin is now getting ready to go out with Pink Posse ‘wait.. THE PINK PUSS- I MEAN POSSE IS PINK SHIRTS AND CARGO PANTS WITH A BUZZCUT? *starts laughing but trying not to* i swear im trying to be cool because i love Blondie but what? Okay at least Brian also finds it ridiculous. YES BRIAN DOESNT LOOK THIS! YES BRIAN HE SHOULD GO BACK TO SCHOOL! I knew Bri Bri would hate this! He’s not an idiot and he’s for sure still thinking about the prom. DAMN IT JUSTIN. Look at him he is WORRIED AND SCARED!’

THATS RUGHT EMY BRIAN DOES HAVE A HUSBAND! See, how now hr has zero reaction except that blinking? When compared to season 1 when Emmett said he feels left out cause its turning into a couples night out, he was all *does childish mocking voice with both of his hands on his hips* excuse me, i dont have a boyfriend. CHANGE!

YES SEE! Brian grows and changes and it is so so important!

I love that your brother is correctly upset by Justin's buzzed hair. ALL THREE OF US ARE HEARTBROKEN BY THIS. HEARTBROKEN YOU HEAR ME?!

I'm so glad he's excited for Jen and Bri Bri to team up. He did call it! And yes Justin is such a little cunt to his mom in that scene. He is only like... 20? 21? though

I hope he soaks up all of Vic's happiness....

Brian IS still thinking about prom... never forget.