#actuallyosddid

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Having like a thousand different disorders that cause memory issues for different reasons is fucking frustrating because dont i remember this because of my shit working memory, because of anxiety, because of dissociation, because of trauma, or because of severe depression or mania... or maybe I am just fucking stupid idfk

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Sometimes the system experience is seeing characters who aren’t systems in canon and it would be incredibly offensive if the creator of those characters implied they were a system and headcanoning them as a system because you’re allowed to do it

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what is polyplex? is that like polyfrag? i never heard of it until today....

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Throwback to when we ran into the word "dissociation" on tumblr as a teen and thought "huh sounds rough, glad i don't deal with that stuff myself"

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how it feels when you have to act like the host around others

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system where all parts are hyper avoidant of conflict and will definitely let themselves get abused to avoid making thyoe abuser upset except that one spiteful bastard who wishes death upon any stranger online who disagrees with them on the silliest stuff

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Ok so I think one of the most annoying things about having a CDD is that I never know who tf I'll be at any given point in the future. I can feel so ready to go to work and then I wake up and Shy Kindergartener Who'd Much Rather Watch Cartoons will be in control. I can try to tell myself that I'll never again use my body to get attention, but then Girl Who Relies On Sexual Validation will take over and get us into trouble. I can get into a small argument and suddenly 7 Year Old Girl will make it even worse by acting like a 7 year old girl. Or maybe Middle Aged Man With Anger Issues will take over and make it worse by refusing any compromises and getting into fights. Maybe I'll be Silly Ironic Meme Queen and be waaaay to over energetic and immature for the given situation

All dissociative parts have a role in the system, but sometimes they aren't fronting at the right time at the right place

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Protector voice: I hope they die violently

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made after dissociating hard for weeks,,

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undiagnosed system things: psychiatrists, psychologists, nurses, doctors, therapists, ect. struggling to find out why tf you change all the time and you have no explanation for that either

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Ok, I wanna do a poll. I struggled with wording this, but hopefully my idea comes across /gen

Again, sorry if this poll is shit /gen

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Society is waiting for me to kill myself

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That dissociative part moment when you have feelings for someone who doesn't exist, never has and never will, because you're a fictional introject and the system decided to ship your source character with another character to cope with trauma and now you're just stuck here alone like

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Us a few years ago: "I've read and watched a lot of videos about DID/OSDD-1, so I know a decent amount about it and this means I definitely don't have it since I'd have known now I have this vast insight from systems and specialists online :)"

Also us a few years ago: *showing clear symptoms of being multiple which are documented in our medical papers and our vent art and tumblr posts*

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Us, a system: "I'd wish I could be open about the people in my head to people outside the internet, such as family and friends that I'm close to"

Therapist: "but why do you want that?"

Us: