#about this lmao

[trashcanwithsprinkles]

Honestly idk I have like a lot like A LOT of unresolved insecurities and rlly weird thought about masculinity, but uhh context is I am a trans man and I have ocd and it can lead to really messed up assumptions

Like this is far from the first time that I'm learning that something I've been obsessing over so much that I just kinda believed it to be true is actually not and i just let my intrusive thoughts win. And most ppl don't think like that, actually

Sorry for the weird ask, i think i do a good job at figuring out those things most of the time bc it's ridiculous (ALWAYS like not a single instance when it wasn't a delusion) but I also read mostly TERF content when I was still figuring it out so maybe it just stuck with me? (Kinda TMI tbf but I had like a couple months straight where it kept me up at night and I would get gender disforia until I manged to finally shut my brain down one way or another)

Anyway this actually eye opening so I'm gonna write it down and talk to my therapist abt it

Again, sorry 😞

Didn't mean to give you a glimpse of my mind, it's a terrible place to see on a good day

honestly anon i think *all* of this is TMI but like im kinda fascinated that you actually came in and just told me all this ngl im very impressed

genuinely don't really know how to respond to this other than telling you my stance on the whole zhongchi/zhongchili thing? not as in like. admonishing you or anything. more- since you mentioned struggling w those things. if nothing else the post where i mention it is buried who knows where lmao

sparing the rest of you with a cut

now this is probably partially because ive been in fandom spaces for like. upwards of ten years now. but ive always been an advocate for unique ship names, as opposed to just the character's names mashed together or putting an 'x' in the middle

aside from the fact that i just think this closes people in on having to stick to one or the other (AxB or BxA for example) and thus keeps them from exploring different facets of the characters, this also, as you've probably realized, just- perpetuates the idea that people HAVE to be one or the other. there's no room for nuance. straight ships of course have their own trove of issues for this, but at least (whether for better or worse, mostly worse if you ask me) people there have a more general consensus on woman-bottom man-top. but for mlm wlw ships? since it's usually two men or two women, people lose that sort of- taken-for-granted system of deciding who tops or bottoms, and so they start going on sketchy territory trying to decide which traits will make the characters in these senarios which role. this obviously usually just results in feminine traits being associated with womanhood and therefore bottoming and masculine traits -> manhood -> topping. which is all bs if you ask me but that's beside the point

this all gets even more cumbersome when, as is the case for me, you don't even write sex scenes. or anything sexual for that matter (intentionally). so why should any of us care whose dick is going where if no dicks are ever going to matter. the most these idiots are gonna do is make out. do we want to assign top/bottom dynamics to kissing? i personally don't. what about the nuance if we do? it vanishes. it becomes boring. we go right back to the childish notion of dominating -> masculine -> man -> dick in hole -> top. isn't that super trite? where's the room for more interesting variation, more characterization? nothing wrong with a character following that exact ruleset, but shit gets boring real quick if that's all we do. and as you're likely far more aware than i am, anon, it becomes harmful for ourselves irl

this is my main gripe w ship names like AB and AxB. i use them because i am one person and unlikely to change established fanon at this point, but if i could, boy would i love to propose we start actually being creative about ship names. i was so pleasantly surprised when people started calling mualani/kinich 'pixelshark'. like?? 1) that's so fucking cute and 2) i don't immediately think who tops or who bottoms. yes you can make the argument that this is still in a kinich top mualani bottom order, but it's a massive improvement from like. kinilani. or something.

so when people ask whether i write chili or zhongchi, i wish i could just tell them neither. i couldn't give less of a fuck as to who you think is putting their dick where. it gets all the more... odd, when people assume it's one or the other based on the dynamic i present, which again always circles back to combinations or variations of masculine -> dick in hole -> top. this is of course not to fault anyone for how they perceive my fics! we've started using zhongchili here because it sort of combines both and thus leaves you thinking what is actually going on. like afaik zhongchili isn't used to specify one or the other? we have zhongchi and chili/tartali for that. idk where you got that from anon imma be real

but the point is that i wish i could avoid this mess altogether. i wish i could just put 'marriage chopsticks' or whatever in the ship name and speficy sex dynamic if needed. i wish the fandom would agree to always list ship names in alphabetical order so we could list childe/zhongli for tag purposes and not have to debate who's bottoming

but oh well

[lrndvs]

compliments from girls go hard

[koobiie]

shoutout to everyone who wants to infodump but cant string together coherent thoughts to form sentences and instead just look at you like this

[doctorsiren]

More on that AU where Ford takes Stanley with him to Gravity Falls…I realized they’re kind of like the Winchesters if one of the Winchesters was autistic about cryptids

[evidently-endless]

i think we should remind musicians they can absolutely make up little stories for their songs btw. it doesn’t have to be about them at all. you can invent a guy and put him in situations to music. time honoured tradition in fact.

[durisicle]

logan's two little hair tufts make him look like a meow meow :)

[kendyroy]

“They gave me runway in this film. There’s one monologue in there. I can’t tell you the details of it. I say more words in that monologue than I said in an entire movie once as Wolverine. But there are sides of the character that I’ve been scratching at for 24 years […] There is stuff in this movie where I was like, ‘This is the thing I’ve been trying to get out’ and I feel so excited about it.”

— Hugh Jackman talking about Logan in Deadpool & Wolverine (x)

[cassianandfenrysaremyboyos]

Goncharov coming third in tumblr's top 100 movies of 2023 is so damn funny. Imagine being a film studio exec who spent millions making some of the other 97 movies listed below it only to be beaten by a film that cost exactly zero dollars to make and doesn't exist

[wasabi-gumdrop]

local ladies man’s signature move totally useless against autistic monster enthusiast. more on Kabru’s fumble era at 6

[cart00nmilk]

About being in love with and absolute idiot

[qiinamii]

new guy in the Express

bonus:

adding more to the whimsy

[napping-sapphic]

take your clothes off and get on the bed what no we aren’t having sex right now we’re cuddling and pressing every inch of skin together as close as possible for the next six hours

[nouverx]

Arcane season 2 ending made me too sad so yk what, everything is fine actually, Viktor is now a teacher at the Academy and he mentors young Zaunite students. That's how I choose to cope.

[mikimuun]

fanart of this fantastic au animated by @blabberoo

[fwicksart]

how long you think it'd been since he'd last seen his reflection?

[merrigel]

Everybody do the wenis!

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