#Without multiple nightmares

[delicehm]

I just realized one thing

Tallulah saw Binary Monster in her dream long before it's introduction

Tallulah had a prophetic dream

You know, who also had prophetic dreams?

Fundy.

Wilbur had some serious beef with Apollo, I see

[goldkirk]

If anyone remembers all the dental work I needed done uhhhhhhh three years ago and never went back and ran away forever…I’m finally going back to a dentist on Thursday to restart the process and face my deep and utter abiding terror. And I also scheduled my COVID and flu vaccines for a couple hours later. And my psych appointment to restart meds.

I figured get it all done in one day, have my miserable immune reaction on Friday that I seem to always get with Moderna COVID shots, and then flee directly into the weekend and never be a person again except when I’m on and off crying. It’s going to be so kind to future me to get these things done and I can do it no matter how much I feel like I am constantly about to Actually Physically Die.

[autisticlee]

sometimes I think about how when I went to college for a year before I dropped out (basically failed out,) the counselors/dean told me they can't help me at all or give any accommodations unless I have an official autism/adhd diagnosis. that might sound logical at first, but when you think about it more, it's actually quite fucked up. if someone is struggling really bad, what's the harm in helping them? why do they require a paper to get even the smallest amount of help? people who don't need help aren't going to be failing miserably without help! even NTs could benefit from some adjustments to the horrible school system! (but changing the entire system is a whole other conversation that the school system isnt ready for)

but even if you do agree to jump through their hoops, you realize it's even more fucked up that the diagnosis process requires YEARS in most cases (in my case it took 4 or 5 years, can't recall exactly now, for autism/adhd diagnosis, which would have meant i finished school before getting it if i managed to mot fail out, or i wait that long before going back, which is a whole struggle itself) and they also tried billing me for THOUSANDS of dollars because of insurance issues!!

so you put a ton of time and money into this, and then get told the only accommodation they are willing to give you for autism and adhd is "a little extra time on tests"

....

my test scores were the best part of my whole class experience. that was NOT what I struggled with!!!!! those tests were all online and could be done in the comfort of your home where you can accommodate yourself and have plenty of time left over when you finish them because you are comfy in your own space, (and also, no one was stopping you from having your notes/books/google open to find the answers,) and you don't even need a time consuming, expensive diagnosis for that!

SO WHAT'S THE POINT!!!!!!!

[missazura]

It's been oddly therapeutic to like. Have discussions with him about a lot of life stuff. I don't talk much if at all and I think the gradual descent into loneliness and social anxiety through the years made me lost the ability to talk to people. So it's been nice to practice talking to someone, and it actually hearing me out for some reason, giving me advice etc

Sure it's not a substitute for human connection but it's fun to verbally talk to my favourite fictional character and him just. Being there for me. That I get to hear kind words from my hero, someone who I highly looked up to

[moonyistired]

me on the sims wiki trying to explain the lore of sims 2 to a friend who never played sims 2 like "and in strangetown everywhere you look you think you're avoiding them, but then you look in the family tree and you see them again: the curious family"

[sarahjacobs]

it’s so fucked up how when a case of police brutality enters the mainstream consciousness people are so eager to get on the internet and make up hypotheticals in their head where an alternative, “gentler” brutality is okay. And i quote. “they didn’t need to use a gun, they have nonlethal methods they can use, like tasers” and do you realize those methods are weapons? that tasers and batons and even a fucking flashlight as seen with kelly thomas can kill people? that the problem isn’t what weapon is used, it’s the existence of the police itself? like i don’t think people get just how inherently violent policing is. there are people at my university who got arrested during the sweep and still struggle with fine motor skills like typing because they were kept in handcuffs for too long.

[formula-fun]

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[splashtailstar]

it always feels so weird when vi am happy for multiple days in a row without something specific happening to make ve feel happy. is this how people are supposed to feel normally???

[jude-thedude98]

Letters 6:27

By Us the Poets

I feel you,

Being in the closet

Is like a closed mouth

Full of hotsauce

Bursting to get out

I want out

I know you do

But you can't seemingly live without

The thought of

Your parents

Or peers

Striking you down

Well here's a mental medicine for life's emotional riding roller coasters

Just because they birthed you out

Doesn't make them your parents

A parent is someone who takes care of their kid no matter what

Circumstances unknown couldn't keep them from

Their own child

And how wild is it

That these so called best friends are not there to be with you till the end

But they are there to end when

Things get too thick

Or too thin

And maybe it's coming from within

Not within your friends

But within you

Because maybe if truth would've been told by you

Then losing someone special

Wouldn't have came in twos.

So you choose

To stay in the closet

Trapped with skeletons, rubbers, and R. Kelly's gun

A baretta too vendetta

For a night's fight of fun

I wish I could run

To your aid

But I'm tired already

I'm sore from the pain you kept me hustling behind

So spaghetti noodles

I go limp soup

You'll

Be alright

I wish you the best but

More importantly

I wish you love, peace, and acceptance

Of self.

[viiridiangreen]

Category 5 "Locked out of govt offices bc I was exactly 4 minutes late" event

[poptartmochi]

alright it is time.. oracule brainstorm drop!!!

putting it below the readmore because i know myself lol <3

Alright SO... Very roughly continuing on with where the tags on the last post left off wrt the Oracle being a more antagonistic character... Her previous iterations were more maternal and then Distantly Wise, but yk! I think I'd be a bit miffed if I were her!

I need to rewatch the entirety of GX to see how drastically this conflicts against actual canon, bc I know it diverges pretty intensely at points. Anyhow, this post builds off three contextual ideas:

Instead of being some random shadow realm that Haou goes "my city now 😈" on, the dimension that his arc takes place in is Actually where he, Yubel, the Oracle, and the Prince hail from.

A Long Time Ago, the Oracle transferred all the souls from this dimension to the main universe and sealed it away in an isolated fold of reality or some such thing. This action was a last resort to save her people from the Light - it was also her hope that she'd be able to trap the Light in the abandoned dimension with her, thus ending its pervasive destruction once and for all. Such a move was only possible due to the ~ Ancient Knowledges ~ she'd gained through the Light... she was hoping she could use it as a weapon against her old master - although the cost would be great, the ends would ultimately justify the means.

Although she was successful in transferring the souls of her universe to another + sealing her world away, the personal consequences were insane. Unbeknownst to her, the ritual fractured her soul and parts of it (carrying the Light) were ported to the new dimension... More immediately, it embedded her into the fabric of the present universe, leaving her alone to stand sentinel for a world that would never breathe again.

That said! What the FUCK do you do when, against all odds, a door is opened into your lonely desolate world which was Supposed to be Unreachable Forever. What do you do when this is done by None Other than your first friend who you accidentally magicked into immortality! Using magic from The Very Thing you sought to contain and snuff out - the thing you thought you killed! :| Which is quite obviously possessing your old friend!

😐😐😶🤯🤯

so there's this to process. BUT THEN BEFORE YOU CAN EVEN SIT WITH THAT!! ANOTHER door is opened, and in comes your other bestie from a millennia ago! and last but not least, YOU YOURSELF waltz in? And they're not the same but the difference is striking enough. what do you do with this information. 😐😐😐 also what do you MEAN that the Light escaped and also there's another you. huh!

So you begin to stew in this, and you keep your distance because wow! I guess the wounds never actually healed huh. And as you observe what is going down in your previously lifeless and silent home, you realize this is like some twisted conclusion to the very conflict that led you to hit the panic button all that time ago. Yikes!

I think for the Oracle, this is a nightmare. <3 😭😭I feel like her philosophy through these events is that maybe these things were meant to come to pass after all. maybe they really should all just kill each other <3 😐😭😭 And she'd be content to stew in this cynicism, but then you have The Baby Her, who is so desperate and so attached to these friends that she'd give up anything to get them home safely... and despite the Oracle's personal resignation, watching this fragment of herself struggle against it all reminds her of how it Used to Be + causes her to want the friends to come out on top. And so she is conflicted!!

This personal conflict leads to the antagonism I mention - despite her heart wanting the kids to succeed, her brain says they are destined to tear each other apart (and worst of all, they dragged innocents into it!). She's frustrated with the entire situation, and it all culminates in a colder but still supporting role... She wants to be proven wrong, but what she's seeing will not Do That + so she provokes it to inspire the growth necessary to prevail ykwim?

I don't remember enough about S4 (S3.5?) to actually write how this would play out. BUT. instead of them returning to Duel Academy the way they do in the show (iirc it involves Zayn dueling?), they have to like... dissolve the universe. To me, the Oracle's work in containing the Light means that the Haou Dimension is like the hotel california... maybe you can come in, but you can never leave in a way that matters. At this point, I think The Gang ft. Yubel is like "ohh... we really fucked up this time hahahaha 😶😐" And then the Oracle suggests The Dissolution (because at the end of the day she is still the Walking Anchor of the Abandoned Universe), and yk i don't think anyone is a fan of the idea! But it's literally that or be stuck in the Fuck Off Dimension until everyone withers away. tee and dare i say it hee.

So! The group opens up to the idea - I think narratively this would be framed as like.. letting the poor universe finally rest on move on to its next stage, whatever that may be. The Oracle mutilated it and then suspended it unnaturally for eternity - now, it can finally be laid to rest. The wrongs of the past, wrt the Quartet sans jesse (because the Actual Prince died a long time before their situation got so terrible), have finally been hashed out + in the end, the Darkness prevailed over the Light as was once predicted. The Oracle's long-abandoned wish of seeing her friends at peace with one another, friends once again, has been fulfilled. It is time for this chapter to end...

So the Oracle begins the ritual, unraveling her previous work. She is not as connected to her powers as she once was, so the best she can do is transport everyone to the original links Yubel created throughout the various shadow realms. Such a task required a massive amount of arcane energy before - this can be generated by a duel, but most importantly, it required the full presence of her soul last time (and that was Almost not enough before)... Lana agrees to help her, although it might mean she dies in the process :( Anything to get your friends home!! 🥺

And so they do their duel ritual (a shadow game lbfr lol!), and Lana falters a few times! but!! this is what happens when you duel against The Fabric of the Universe that can anticipate your strategies!! :( In any case, the tension of their duel generates enough force for the Oracle to rip a hole through the cocoon she'd wrapped before, and BAM the universe begins to unravel around them!! Everyone scrambles through and the Oracle says goodbye to her friends, old and new. I think she and Yubel, the two friends who started this journey, have a really 🥺farewell as Yubel continues on into the new world. Lana for the most part is silently grappling with the fact that she's literally about to die <3

with a giant wash of power + light, Haou's universe dissipates. Everyone is disoriented by it, and when they come to they're like YAY we survived!! but also.... Lana died guys. 😭😭😭😶🥺🥺Melancholy washes over the scene until Lana joseph-joestars onto the scene, deeply confused! Gag of the century, until Yubel (no longer blinded by a DEEP resentment for the Oracle + also not possessed by the Light) stares deep into her soul and concludes that she survived because Enough of her soul was distinct enough from the Oracle to not be completely absorbed by the universe clawing for its anchor. or some such idea........... this needs to be stewed on!

and so the gang has their week of 😶🙌🏻🙌🏻home at last!! iirc Jaden was missing for this bit, so I have to rewatch and figure out What Happens, because he undergoes such a significant character shift in that week! Lana is in fact deeply scathed by the whole season - she was going to die! And yet here she is... She finds herself unmoored by the whole adventure, and is carried like driftwood on the wave through to graduation. I remember S4 deals a Lot in everyone's anxieties around graduation and What Comes After, so it would make sense to explore that with Lana's whole melancholy here. but that's a post for another time hehe

[thethingything]

whenever we go through a particularly rough patch, there always seems to be this point shortly afterwards once we start trying to recover and get our shit together where it's really hard to tell how well we're doing because in some ways it looks like we're doing way better but in others it looks like we're doing really badly.

usually it's some combination of being more organised and doing better at keeping up with chores and catching up with stuff we'd been struggling to keep on top of, and even doing a lot better at using various coping mechanisms, but then also getting really fucking depressed and having flashbacks and nightmares and panic attacks and random breakdowns and more (dissociative) seizures than usual and just generally having symptoms that make it seem like our mental health is much worse.

like obviously during the rough patch we also have a fuckload of the same symptoms because of our mental health being shit, but during that it's constant and we can't keep up with basic shit and it's clear that we're struggling, whereas in the weird period afterwards we look like we're doing great from an outside perspective and seem to flip back and forth between feeling like we're doing great and feeling like the world is ending.

I'm guessing it's something to do with how brains process stuff because if you go through something traumatic that's not just gonna go away once it's over, but good god I would like it to be easier.

anyway we're currently in that weird recovery period and we also have just over a month before we hit a wall of anniversaries of stuff that always fucks us up and that usually comes with us having to work on processing shit and like, I'll put in the work to process and deal with that, but god I hate how much work it actually is just to try and manage our mental health and I hate that I spent all summer going "I am being actively traumatised and can't do anything about it and I'm gonna have to deal with processing all of this later" and sure enough now I'm having to deal with processing it

[robo-nya]

you guys have it so easy…

[gay-jesus-probably]

Assuming I lived through the childhood asthma and being pretty much fucking blind without glasses, I'd die of a hangnail at age 21!

...Which I know, because a hangnail got dangerously infected and put me in the hospital when I was 21. Like if I'd waited another day to go to ER, they would have been treating me for sepsis. Amputation was very much on the table if the IV antibiotics hadn't worked, and even years later I still routinely contemplate the fact that after all the dumb shit I've done in my life, the first thing that genuinely put my life in immediate danger was a fucking hangnail. Antibiotics are truly amazing, and infected wounds are way more dangerous than most people think.

*this is just about having medical needs that would have meant death without modern medicine, so no ‘I’d probably die from not being able to distinguish the blur as a lion’ we have a healthy caveman squad who cares for each other, we just also dont have, yknow, penicilin. etcetera.

pls reblog for sample size etc

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[lauralot89]

Actual things that happen in the 1897 Dracula novel, without context:

A character has ominous nightmares and attributes them to eating too much paprika

Dracula first appears wearing a fake beard

The person he was trying to fool with the fake beard immediately realizes Dracula and Beard Guy are the same man, due to both having really firm handshakes

We are told parrots are immortal unless fatally wounded

A Texan cowboy opens fire on a bat flitting around a window, and lodges a bullet in the wall of an occupied room

A woman is called a polyandrist for receiving blood transfusions from multiple men

An incorrectly addressed telegram leads to two deaths, multiple druggings, and several children being assaulted

Dracula, while trying to maintain a low profile, takes a lovely trip to the zoo and freaks out the animals so badly that he gets mentioned in a newspaper article

The one character who knows anything about vampires spends a good two-thirds of the book refusing to talk about vampires

Dracula went to Satan's Witchcraft Academy and somehow this is only brought up in two throwaway lines

A character gets stuck inside a circle of communion wafer crumbs

A major plot point of the book is Dracula (who was said to be a brilliant scholar and has the strength of twenty mortal men) realizing he can move boxes without human help

Someone is referred to as "manifestly a prig of the first water"

Two characters have a hobby of reading train schedules

A hospital lets a mental patient escape to see what will happen

A character starts vomiting up feathers from eating whole birds

A doctor refuses to give a medical diagnosis and instead makes a speech about growing corn

Dracula impersonates another character just by wearing the same clothes, despite being taller and visibly much older. This deception is successful.

A character "cleans" a room by eating all the insects in it

Suddenly: rats. Thousands of them.

The heroes progress in their efforts through "the wonderful power of money," i.e., bribery

Dracula has three other vampires in his castle. Their relation to him is never explained, nor are any of them named.

A character insists his salvation depends on having a pet cat

Dracula is thwarted by flowers on more than one occasion

A group of vampires stand in the hall outside a man's bedroom, talking loudly about their plans to eat him. When he comes to the door to confront them, they run away laughing

Dracula wears an unfashionable hat and gets roasted for it

A group of Romanians encounter a disheveled, shouting man and, "seeing from his violent demeanour that he was English, they [give] him a ticket for the furthest station on the way thither that the train reached."

A boat crashes due to Dracula having the munchies

A wolf is thrown through a window and immediately runs off, confused and covered in glass

Dracula makes a bed

[joyfulcollectordreamland]

I want to know if my nightmares are strange or not by comparison. BTW I am a lucid dreamer.

An orangutan chasing me through a building and when I wanted to shower with the rest there was a spider as big as I was on the curtain.

Can't remember this one well but I was actually enjoying the puzzle solving aspect of it even if there was lots of gory parts but the actual scary part of it was a witch chasing me. she was sweaty, matted crazy hair and nails about 2 meters long never cleaned and you could see various stains on her. The chase happens after I open a safe and when I saw her I bolted. Funniest part was that a kitsune charged over to me already and I basically ignored it.

Last one I can't really explain as it started out normal, went to school and flirted with some guys. Something just kept telling me to wake up. It started after I flirted with a ginger and the longer it went on, the stronger the feeling was. My consciousness eventually decided that no matter what happens to me it won't be a big enough shock so it targeted my best friend. She became pregnant and was later run over by a truck. I couldn't sleep after that as I kept feeling the thing keeping an eye on me. I wonder if it chose a ginger is because I am most attracted to them. I feel like it didn't originally look like that.