#Traumatic Experience

[i-will-say-what-i-believe]

Not being condescending here.

But I have heard from my late mom that when there's a traumatic experience, people revert back to what they feel familiar without having to be aware of what they're saying or doing.

When she had a pulmonary embolism, for us, visibly, she was awake.

She talked to me. Asked me whether I'm ok and why do I look tensed. She even laughed and tried to make me laugh.

Once she was all better and I told her about what had happened and how she was concerned about me when she was the one sick, she said she couldn't remember anything. She just remembered the last thing that happened before she had the emboli and can only remember from where I visited her in the ICU. Nothing in between. It was just her unconscious mind reverting back to what it knows. Me. Caring for me.

This thing also work in other ways.

My dad has always been ab*sive verbally and mentally towards her. She never displayed any fear in real life.

But when she got Covid and was serious, she was in and out of consciousness, she got SO SCARED seeing my dad near her bed and panicked and I had to step in. The moment she saw me, she visibly relaxed and smiled. The doctors noticed this and didn't allow my dad to visit her thereafter.

So you know, may be Eddie not remembering anything is not so far off.

Just saying.

PS: Explaining all this was hard. I miss her terribly. She was my everything 🥺😞

And that was it? That was it.

[odiabonecessario]

It's impossible to separate the symptoms of autism from the symptoms of trauma because our society hasn't produced a single autistic person who wasn't traumatized in childhood yet

[bpdmaxxer]

“But he was just a child”

So was I

And I’m suffering and he’s not

[raywhitfield92]

I don't get why people think Stolitz is a toxic relationship. It is a relationship made up of two people who have been through trauma, and do you know what happens when you have been through trauma? Your bad at communicating, take for example this:

Blitzø thinks he's being serious, but Stolas is just joking here. When you've been through trauma it is hard to distinguish between a joke and reality.

These two have both got trauma issues and they need to address it and talk to each other carefully.

I have seen more toxic ships than these two before in BL and Yaoi, and also this:

Val and Angel Dust is a toxic relationship, Val uses threats to keep Angel close.

So how is this different to the transactional arrangement between Stolas and Blitzø? It's simple really, the instant Blitzø is uncomfortable Stolas stops.

After Ozzies Stolas realises he's done something wrong, that the transactional arrangement was not a two sided agreement and that Blitzø felt obliged to do it for Stolas' grimoire which is why he goes out of his way to give him an out, because he sees he's uncomfortable.

The instant he realises this he stops using nicknames and calling him over for the full moon nights. As we see in Stolas' phone, he's trying desperately to get Blitzø to come over and just hang out rather than have any sex.

He asks 'if you want to' no abuser ever asks if you want to come over you can, they will find a way to force you to do exactly what they want with possible threats or violence, take for example Valentino's voicemails to Angel, he starts them saying 'please come home' then quickly resorts to violence, and then back to being nice again, because he has an unhealthy relationship with Angel, and he wants to know who he's with every second of the day, and of it's not with him he has a mental breakdown.

[batwingsrosa]

People don‘t seem to understand what trauma can do to you and how it can have an immense effect on your mental age.

Children and teenagers who experience traumatic events will develope differently than others.

Trauma can‘t just be erased.

I am in my mid twenties and sometimes still feel like i‘m barely eighteen.

That‘s because i didn‘t get to develope right- emotionally- during my childhood and my teenage years.

I was highly effected by my experiences-

mainly bullying and neglect.

I think quite a lot of people who had to experience things like these end up emotionally stunted and don‘t age the same as others.

I know people who come from a healthy family and never had problems due to bullying etc.

And they are a lot younger than me and still act a lot older.

Because they didn‘t have to fight dpression and mental disorders while maturing.

We on the other hand had to pick up the pieces of ourselves while trying to grow up besides others who never had to fight to stay alive.

We were so distracted by our problems that we had to stay behind.

I think this is exactly what happened to Severus.

He was not able to mature like others because of how his trauma affected him.

People tend to forget this and just shrug his experiences off.

Which is pretty horrible, insensitive and disrespectful to other victims of abuse as well if you ask me.

[killabeeblog]

My childhood trauma didn't make me stronger. it made me a people pleaser. it made me forgive way too much. it made me not speak when i'm supposed to. it made me an extreme empath.

[wendevee]

TW: Blood, gore, trauma, scary themes.

Newest piece depicting a trauma event that I experienced as a child. I am more than proud of this piece, and even prouder than I can broadcast my trauma without fear to the world.

[ifwebefriends]

Sometimes I look back at my younger self who was so scared and upset and dealing with so much more than they should have and couldn’t really control anything and I wish I could go back in time and give them a big hug and tell them that things are kinda gonna suck for a while but there will still be pockets of discolored joy and comfort in the suffering and that things will get better one day and it will all be worth it. It won’t be perfect or the same ever again but it’ll be alright. I wish I could tell them that I’m sorry.

[harmoniousbpd]

"I love you."

Then why does it hurt every single time you say it?

[darthkieduss]

Children of September 11

Shadows in the sky so high As the towers screamed to the ground Fear in the eyes of a child Echoes of silence all around

World turned to gray that day Memories in a young heart stay Flames and smoke lit up the screen Haunting dreams don't fade away

Hearts breaking everywhere Lives lost in the burning air I can't forget the screams and fire Living now in fear's desire

8 years old with eyes so wide Innocence lost deep inside Watching the world come crashing down Nowhere safe in my hometown

Years pass but the scars remain Living through this endless pain Trying to heal what's broken within Strength to rise and begin again

Hearts breaking everywhere Lives lost in the burning air I can't forget the screams and fire Living now in fear's desire

[megahorous]

PaRappa the Crapper decides--for reasons clear only to him--to traumatize a CHILD !

[odiabonecessario]

You dying wouldn't be enough to satisfy my anger if you didn't feel what you made me go through

[bpdmaxxer]

I hate that I need validation for my trauma

Like I didn’t have a mental breakdown so bad yesterday over my flashbacks my mom called the hospital

And yet I still question if I’m being to dramatic was it really that deep? Was it really sa? I don’t even remember enough

[irlangelsdiary]

What is COCSA, CSA, and IFCSA?

Child sexual abuse (CSA) is defined as sexual activity with a child by an adult, adolescent or older child.

Child-on-child sexual abuse (COSCA) is defined as sexual activity between children that occurs without consent, without equality (mentally, physically or in age) or as a result of physical or emotional conflict

Intrafamilial sexual abuse (IFCSA) is sexual abuse that occurs within a family environment, and can be perpetrated by a family member such as parents, siblings, grandparents, foster carers, and parent's partners,uncles or aunts, step siblings, and cousins.

if you or someone you love is struggling, help and resources are available❤️‍🩹

https://standwithvictims.carrd.co

[batwingsrosa]

Snape coming to Godric‘s hollow that hallow‘s eve:

*steps over James Potters body*

What y‘all apparently wanted him to do:

*Oh gosh, oh no, James! Let me just bury you in the backyard real quick, then i shall check on Lily and find out whether or not she is alive.*

Like, be for real. 🙄

Snaters are so strange sometimes, i swear.

To turn this into an argument against him is so bizarre.

(I am aware this is a movie Snape thing and not detailed in the books.)

[wendevee]

TW: Blood, mentioning of trauma.

This piece is a reconstruction of a drawing I did a very long time ago, only this time, I am hinting at the abuse I experienced behind closed doors.

Behind being called a “prodigy” and “artist” for the drawing on the left, I was going through many forms for emotional and physical abuse. I thought it was a cool idea to recreate the piece, but hint at my covered-up reality.

Click for closer look and higher quality.