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silverne-nonsense · 19 days ago

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TOGETHER WE SPIRAL 🤝🏻🤝🏻🤝🏻

Because yes, exactly, why show an update about a fairy if there’s nothing to gain from it?? With how much time and effort is put into these updates, no way it’s not important! If the comment Malon made from MalonPT5 about Twi getting hurt came back to bite us, this is DEFINITELY coming back!!

I also think we are well overdue for the slate and charm connection to be brought up?? I’m honestly surprised it hasn’t come up sooner? Other than the initial doodle, it’s been weirdly absent—especially since the group has split up before?

(Don’t tell me there’s a reason it hasn’t come up yet. don’t. I don’t need to spiral FURTHER shdhfjfndhdnf)

But like?? There are so many instances of Jojo either referencing herself or alluding to future events. THE FAIRY IS COMIN BACK

I am personally subscribed to the “it’s the action itself, not the fairy” theory, but it could be anything. It could literally be anything. There’s no right answer until it HAPPENS, WE’RE JUST STUCK SHDNFJDVDJDCN

Chekhov INDEED has his gun pointed at our foreheads, he’s just waiting on Jojo’s order to pull the damn trigger

You got me overthinking about that damn fairy too.

It’s 100% coming back to haunt us, no way it’s not.

But WHEN??

Is it gonna be in the temple?? Is it the GIMMICK of the temple???

Or is Wars gonna keel over and Wind will need to give him the fairy? Or vice versa? Or someone else entirely???

Or maybe someone else without the fairy gets put in a bad spot and remembers that Legend proved it’s possible to change antifairies into regular fairies??

Is it even relevant to the temple?? Is this a long play????? Is this gonna come back like the damn mailman; in an entirely different arc of the comic?????????

Chekhov’s gun is a menace to society and I hate it (I love it, I live for the drama)

My life got so much worse ever since I learned what the chekhov's gun principle is cause now I consume media analyzing EVERYTHING and overthinking every little thing (I'm lying I love doing this lmao)

Ok but I'm so glad I'm not the only one plagued with the idea that the fairy WILL come into play, like why go through the trouble of showing an entire update centered on a fairy just to never bring it up again??

I am 99.9% sure wind caught her, so like going with that idea, wind is in possession of the fairy rn and we don't know if the others have fairies too or not

Jojo hasn't brought the pirate's stone+slate connection up in the main comic, I don't think, so with the group separated like this it's an excellent time to do it!

OR as u said, the showing of the antifairy being turned into a fairy via magic is the relevant thing and not the fairy itself

If say, wind didn't catch the fairy, we did see four really getting worked up over not knowing u could turn antifairies, so like maybe something happens to the only trio and four goes into action looking for an antifairy

AND OHMYGOD DON'T SAY THAT if it doesn't happen now I WILL be STILL thinking about it like that fairy is relevant it HAUNTS ME

CHEKHOV HAS HIS GUN POINTED AT MY FOREHEAD RN THIS IS MAKING ME INSANE JDBDKDN

#linkeduniverse #linked universe #hi welcome to Sil Screams about Hypotheticals #I have many MANY thoughts #ITS COMING BACK #ONE WAY OR ANOTHER ITS GONNA COME BACK #shhhhshshshshdhdhf #literally anything we’ve been shown could come back #ITS NOT PARANOIA IF THEYRE REALLY OUT TO GET YOU #I could talk all day about previous parts of the comic hinting at more recent ones #literally this most recent update is one of them #with Wild pointing out that Wind took notice of the coddling and didn’t like it #so Twi is gonna pitch a fit when he figures out he’s ALSO being coddled #IM JUST SAYIN #Jojo references herself ALL THE TIME #because if she’s gonna dedicate all the time she does to each update #then she’s gonna want each update to have something meaningful

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3416 · 1 year ago

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girl you okay? 😭

absolutely fucking not klfjsdklfjsdkl. look at these gifs and tell me you are

#easks #nah its fucked up man #mtich has barely opened his fucking mouth and austons grinning at him like that im so sickjdscklxlkk #IM SOOOO SICK #AND mitchs lil smug happy face sititng back.. oh my god. like #they will always have a place. as long as theyre on this team together. they will always.....#its right there. next to each other. in front of one another. filing out onto the ice one at a time. and then. coming off it. in reverse...#im just.#im about to lose my fuckingnfnnfnfn MIND #even the backwards cap and forwards cap...#the way mitch puts his water bottle in the holder n auston immediately picks his up #like what the fuck is hti s mimicry lfkjds #im aware i sound deranged but im gonna be real. i cant care fkldsj

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sapphorror · 1 year ago

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zim outliving dib but keeping an ai download of his personality around in the same manner as tak's ship... hmm

AI!Dib being at best apathetic to its own existence and at worst resentful of Zim for making it into an unwilling crutch for his grief. Zim eternally unsatisfied by this stripped down version of Dib that isn't quite a person and can't touch him or hurt him or chase him. Zim putting the thing in charge of almost all his tech as compensation, just to keep life interesting, just to have something they can fight over.

#invader zim #zadr #zadp #natterings #iz posting #this comes off depressing and uh #it is #but i think in actuality the whole thing would ultimately be very bittersweet #something about death being change and their relationship continuing in a fundamentally altered but still meaningful form #fucked up for sure but they were always fucked up #theres a new kind of bond to be forged here its just gonna take them a while to figure it out #theres no getting back what they had but one way or another #they are destined/doomed to orbit each other

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b4kuch1n · 2 years ago

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wizard looking for a way home (aka wizard of dark space)

#pokemon #swsh #champion leon #wizard leon babeyy!#thank u to cosme for hangin out with me while I figure this one out lol #this! is the piece I used for the ''speedpaint'' thingy btw. I'll try to put together the video over the next month or so #lol. usually when I make wizard leon designs I riff with what comes up and think abt like. maybe his affinity in this set #like ''oh he'd do fabric talismans. oh he'd levitate. he does poppet stuff''#that at most. but this. the moment I started fleshing this one out I was like #oh he's really lost. for a very long time. to the point he's learned so much he's forgotten what many of the things on his suit does #like lmao I guess I can Not be normal about any astronaut leon huh!! its chronic for me #I couldnt get to some of the questions folks asked with this one. so this video will probably not be comprehensive #but I'll make another when those things come up!!#fksjdfk sorry lads most of u guys asked abt colors but idk if this ones the best for that. its got a preddy concrete palette #guess I can save talking about the more insane color stuff for when that comes up too...#we'll see!! hope it's gonna happen #for now. one more wizard leon for the book. have a good night lads!#tie a yarn round ur wrist dont forget the way back

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lokh · 8 months ago

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oughh i wanted to do a cute laishuro take on the blu ray extras (what if laios had been eaten instead) but lets be honest. they absolutely would not have made it as far without laios

#they wouldve died. badly.#unfortunately ive lost the link saw it on twitter but i think laios gets knocked unconscious and imagines that it had been him that got ate #and not falin. and falin is the only one to advocate for them going back #but no one wants to go along with her presumably because they dont care for laios that much #(or at least this is laios' perception as this is just his imagination)#but also because she doesnt know as much about monsters and couldnt come up with a good argument for going back in #<- didnt know about prolonged digestion in red dragons and marcille assumed the interval was the same as in humans (1-3 days)#BUT...................... when everyone leaves falin turns back and goes in herself. and laios realises that shes always been that sort #of person and theres no point in ruminating over what could have been.#now. i want to believe that had they known falin would turn back without them. that at the very least shuro would have gone in with her.#theres no way he would have let her go on her own. and frankly i dont think he would have assembled his retainers #to go save laios rip...#marcille would have gone if she had known falin would turn back. and honestly i think she mightve known her well enough to guess this irl #anyways what i was GOING to say was maybe as they venture thru the dungeon shuro gets to learn more about laios thru falins view #maybe they get to know each other more and he opens up more about how he thinks of laios and like. falin is able to explain more about him #diffuse tension and give him a better understanding. like yeah hes still annoyed at him but he has a better view of how laios is #they get close and become better friends but maybe it also helps falin make up her mind and let him down gently............................#and maybe they go and save laios but the dragon thing still happens to him #and its again a 'you felt like that all along??' situation irt him wanting to be a monster but it turns out ok and they (laishuro)#open up to one another in the end.........................#but. again im gonna be real. they would not have made it that far LMAOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO laios the goat for real

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pikkish · 3 months ago

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idk if this is a good prompt but put doomguy in myhouse.wad I think he would find it enriching

Right, so I've been mulling on this one for a little bit now, n I'm not opposed to writing something for you, I'm just not... entirely sure what to write? Because the thing is, myhouse.wad doesn't actually really have anything to do with Doom as a story. Sure, Doom is important in that it's the vessel through which the story is told and one of the connections between the narrator and his dead companion. But as far as Doom itself goes, and the story about a man who was too angry/stupid to die, fighting demons and saving earth, none of that is at all relevant to myhouse.wad and its story. For all intents and purposes, Doomguy isn't actually a character in myhouse.wad. So I'm not really sure how exactly to fit him in there.

#pikspeak #bc like. ok so if u say write dg as if he is actually the character in myhouse.wad #then the problem is that theres a pretty huge meta element to myhouse.wad and having some of the outside context- even just the context tha #its supposed to be the creator's dead friend's childhood home- is important. youre not MEANT to 'immerse' yourself in it or pretend you are #the protag. part of the impact comes from knowing youre just an observer and this is just a videogame on your computer.#writing dg as a character inside myhouse.wad would rob it of a lot of context and therefore impactfulness. hed just be walking around an #old house looking at things that have no meaning to him.#so ok then not dg as the protag of myhouse.wad but what about just like.. him in the funky liminal space of myhouse.wad? the non-euclidean #reality breaking shifting house of leaves place of myhouse.wad? i *could* do something like that if thats what youre looking for #but then considering this is the character whose reaction to finding himself in literal hell was to go 'hey??? this is stupid???? anyway im #gonna kill everything here' he probably wouldnt be too exceptionally ruffled by finding himself in a sorta funky reality breaking space.#hed probably still just go 'oh weird. funky. anyway back to killing demons.' and that would be it. which yeah i CAN write if its what u wan #it just. yknow. doesnt quite seem like the right tone? just kinda flat by comparison #i have considered doing things in the right tone before. since it is also canon that on his way back to hell dg has to run through the #burned out ruins of his own hometown. something similar to the visiting an old place thats been twisted by time and grief and coming to #terms with its loss or something to that effect #but. if im being honest i dont know that i have the writing skill to pull that off well much less as a short fic for a prompt response #uhhh anyway where was i going with this.#im happy to write something for you; possibly even something myhouse.wad related if you want!! im just not sure how to do that hdfbhdj...#anyway sorry for letting this one sit for so long without an answer. have another fic prompt where the fic is getting a little longer than #anticipated n combining that with rotating this to try n figure out what i could write for it...#guess time got away from me a little bit. sorry about that!

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opens-up-4-nobody · 5 months ago

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#im back from a week with my dad at home and at the lake #it was really nice to b home for a while but now im a mess lol #bc it really makes me wanna move back to Appalachia and not do another semester out here #and also this was our 1st trip to the lake without my mom being there. she loved the lake. she grew up on the water and was named after an #island. she died before she could use our new jetski. which my dad bought for her and she would have loved #and i stood in her sandles bc my dad keeps them out by the fireplace and my toes fit almost exactly into the impressions of her feet #and i came come with another bag full of her clothes. and i feel bad for my dad being all alone in that big house #i mean hes got the dogs but theyre 7 and 8 and theyre big boys so they probably dont have all that long left. itll be so sad when they die.#there was a moment where i was talking to the dogs and he said i sounded exactly like my mom. which was kinda intentional #on my part bc i say a lot of things bc she would say them. stolen phrases and intonations. pieces of things ive taken.#its still weird that she's just gone forever. the time in the hospital feels like it was some horrible nightmare.#and now shes never gonna kno where we end up. she's left rooms full of half tumbled rocks and half sorted photos and half organized #classroom supplies. the outlines of a person that will slowly be stitched out of existance as time moves on until theres nothing left and #the memories are gone. its just sad is all. especially bc she didnt deserve it. no one does but expecally not her.#but unfortunately life isnt about getting what you deserve. its chaos and coincidence all the way down.#unrelated

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sysig · 10 months ago

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A hero is only as good as his weapons, so make ‘em count (Patreon)

#Doodles #Original #Another idea smol and I are working on together :D Been a bit!#She came up with the concept on this one and I fell in love with it <3 She's very cool hehe #If you're familiar with the game Minit it has Something of a similar premise - not the same strict time pressure but yes on the time loop #Y'ever notice how in some games it seems like the wandering trader or traveling shop seems to come upon you rather than the other way around #:3c Hm ♪ Wonder how they'd know where you were gonna be :3c #The crux is that you play as the weapons shop owner and you're responsible for supplying the hero and his team with weapons!#Except the BBEG has gotten wise to how the hero keeps defeating him and it sick of it - so the shop owner is cursed to be in a time loop!#I love the concept <3 It sounds so fun to play in and there's still plenty of room to think about the mechanics and how it would be played #As well as the art design! :D #We threw around some character concepts - she's really into Baldur's Gate 3 at the moment so of course they had some influence in hers hehe #Only got the starting party for the moment but there are plans for a full team of 4 plus the shopkeep >:3c And various other NPCs lol #A lot of the gameplay would basically boil down to being a bartering simulator hehe ♪#Very RPG trade-this-for-that style quests - under a time limit! Hehe #Since it's the type of game that pretty much requires replaying sections time-loop-style it's all about how quickly you can trial and error #And then hightail it to where you need to be lol #I think we were also tossing around a nap mechanic to skip right to the time loop reset in case you mess up a run haha #I gotta get back to Majora's Mask at some point I swear #We still have a good bit of concept work to do on the art side of things - she's also been really into pixel art lately and I love pixel art #I also managed to pick up a full release of one of the RPGMakers :D So that's an exciting possibility!#I haven't learned most of its ins and outs yet but I do know About importing custom assets at the very least >:3c #Same with Novelty and I haven't done that yet either lol - all in due time! I hope!!

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carcarrot · 6 months ago

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well that was a shortlived good feeling about my job

#maybe i should just become unemployed. maybe i should just suffer!#recap of todays further events .#that supervisor? who i kinda didnt already like but now absolutely hate?#she came down to confirm that i wasnt leaving. okay . and then she fucking tells me #oh we're going to get another person to help out from this other company. we were going to do that bc we thought you were leaving #but she thinks that even if im staying there should be another person on this floor. bc apparently more has to be done #and there are 'constant complaints' abt this floor . which doesnt make sense to me bc there shouldnt be #and so we're waiting to see what the manager decides but hes on fucking vacation and wont get back until. next week??#she said she was gonna email him and like right after she left i emailed and texted him explaining everything #and trying to very nicely say hey what the fuck are you doing you don't need to hire anyone else #and if im doing a bad job fucking tell me so i can do it better. bitch #and she had the nerve to fucking tell me when she was talking to me #that i wont find an easier job than this one #well if its so fucking easy why are we hiring someone else #by the way getting that extra person from this other company doesnt cost them anything which is why theyre doing it i think #which is making me not feel good abt my own future lmao. like why would they keep paying me when they can get someone for free #and she was saying all this stuff like oh you have it so good here we dont write you up i do all this stuff to help you like . ok #i didnt ask you to come downstairs w the coffee order and if you wanted me to i would come up . god #but the thing of me not being able to find a better job like wow! what if i killed you. for saying that to my face #and she talks abt how shes been w the company 20 years ok and that doesnt give you an excuse to treat me like a child. jesus #anyway im very pissed off and not enjoying my work situation lol. i dont wanna do this anymore #but looking at other jobs im so unemployable. sigh

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woodsborostabathon · 2 months ago

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“how could richie’s family possibly want to avenge him when he groomed and murdered people” well first of all he did neither of those things so let’s start there

#not for lack of trying mind you #he just failed spectacularly in both respects #amber was dogwalking him and richie had ONE count of one victim to handle #excluding sam at the hospital #and well. he did not get her! 😭#i refuse to attribute vince or wes to him idgaf #sure yeah makes total sense that the guy who was across town at the hospital #would sneak out while his gf is asleep go stab this dude clean up come back sit down put on a movie #all without disturbing anything or being noticed #versus the chick who was already at the bar. and supposed to be heading home LMFAO #same w wes n judy bc #amber was already at the house #richie was across town w a half eaten pizza cozy laid up watching yt #‘but the kill styles-’ be serious. we are all grown.#i should not have to tell you that one person can hold/use a knife in two diff ways on two diff occasions. as if amber was like #physically incapable of jabbing the knife in once and leaving bc she went too stab happy every other time b4.#i dont doubt he did a lot of the phone calls but the physical work??#nah. brother he was just there for the ride. accessory at most kinda #how is he a serial killer if he made some calls while his girl killed everyone #if richie watched amber cook would that make him a chef??#okay but in all seriousness kinda 😭#wrt that OR the grooming which. im not even gonna get into.#argue w the wall or radio silence bc ur not finna argue w me!#when its CONFIRMED she just manipulated richie into believing it was his idea!#i do believe he thought he WAS in fact playing her. he was just wrong bc she had him by the balls like 😭#richie INNOCENT except not bc he was the real victim but bc he literally #tried and failed 95% of the time at villainy 😭#still outsold j*ll but thats another matter!#ceci speaks

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seventh-district · 8 months ago

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so uh. that 2.2 Special Program, huh

#hsr #honkai star rail #hsr 2.2 #hsr spoilers #hsr leaks #the body of this post reads as far less enthusiastic than i really am #i just don’t know how to casually return from my latest 2 week hiatus only to gush abt a game i’ve hardly blogged abt before #but i’m not making a whole ass sideblog for it like i did for Genshin. nah y’all r gonna bear witness to my fixation with this one #so anyways don’t mind me. vibrating into another dimension with anticipation for the next 11 days #it’s insane man. a year ago i Never ever woulda thought i’d be so invested in this game. and it took Months for the game to really grab me #but i’m v glad i kept coming back even when i was struggling to really get into it. like i just had this feeling that if i stuck around and #gave the game a chance to really like. come into its stride. i just always felt like there was Something there and i just hadn’t found it #and holy shit i finally found it in Penacony. the devs really truly outdid themselves with this region and these characters and this story #not to discount everything that’s happened prior. like i was genuinely Liking it all before now but i wasn’t Loving it y’know #but that may be more a ‘me having to fight tooth n’ nail to force myself to consume new media’ thing than it is a matter of the actual game #anyways i came here to talk abt the program! bc since i’m not filming my HSR stuff i’m gonna be insufferable abt it on Tumblr instead ! :)#and i’m probably not filming any more Genshin stuff. or anything else at all for that matter but let’s not talk abt that dead dream #pun not intended lmao. Anyways let’s return to the subject at hand while there’s still room left in these tags shall we #i’m so fucking glad they had Aventurine on this program man. especially since he’s leaked to only have 18 lines in 2.2… it was nice to see-#-him here at least 🥹 i’ll take what i can get. his unenthusiastic little bird noises at the beginning.. him being reluctant to come out..#the way one of the first things to come out of his mouth was ‘y’know DR RATIO once told me…’ like boy we get it ur in love with him 🙄 (/J!)#i love how they can’t go on these programs w/o talking abt each other it’s adorable. AND THE WAY HE WAS THE ONE TO EXPLAIN BOOTHILL’S KIT!?#they can’t just fuel my crackship like this… god and his whole ‘muddle-fudger.. son-of-a-nice-lady?’ thing had me wheezing #Aven mocking Boothill’s inability to curse was not on my special program bingo card but fuck i’m here for it #and Robin being all curious abt him was so cute.. ‘who /is/ he? … does he order milk at the bar?’ i’m crying she’s so sweet #also the trailer was fucking insane. which feels redundant as hell bc all of HoYo’s version trailers go hard but like. still. wow.#that millisecond long shot of Boothill surveying the skyline is so fucking good. also what the fuck is Jing Yuan doing here!!#not complaining at all tho. we’ve got JY & DH(IL?). Argenti(?). Boothill. Sunday. Aven. all my men r here and i am eating so fucking good #Seven.txt #viddy game stuff

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savage-rhi · 1 month ago

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#i've had many people ask me in the DMs what could be done to help me out given the orange menace is coming back into power #the best things for me right now (I can't speak to others) is this: 1. Keep supporting my creative endeavors #no matter how little I might post or interact. Please hype me up. I need community. I need spirit to survive.#2. Help me find resources that will help myself and others. Food banks. Community meets. Passports. Finances. Mental health etc.#these are important and I don't want others feeling like sitting ducks. Even though I'm scared I want to be a solution to the problem.#I am going to be a helper in this mess cause that's who I am and I need ammo in this capacity #3. Donate so I can up my ration storage. I've been collecting food water and nonperishables and I'm trying to stock up on medication #and other basic necessities. I'm collecting as if I'm preparing to be homeless again and if I am over capacity I'm giving rations to others #I've had to make peace with the fact I can't run away. I can't move to another country as I'm broke and poor like the rest of my loved ones #4. If you have friends who are disabled or a minority or lgbtq etc. do what you can to protect them and show them that you love them #and build community #5. Share my work and that of others. Who knows if we're gonna have sites like AO3 in the future or even access to tumblr.#this is all I can think of at the moment and again I can't speak for others this is what comes to mind for myself #And I admit I'm coming from a place of the worst case scenarios #because in my mind if I imagine I'm dead or homeless etc. and work my way backward to the next worst thing before that it unravels my fear #and it gives me back my power in the situation by sitting with those fears and giving them time to speak #because in my mind if I'm already dead if I'm already homeless or at war etc. etc. then its already happened and what else is there to fear #if I've been through everything already in mind?#I'm hoping that the worst case scenarios don't transpire but I can't ignore the fact many of them could and probably will happen #in some capacity but I can control the actions I take through prep and facing these fears one by one #and most importantly sticking to routine by making sure im healthy to help people #anyway this is why ive been quiet for a while besides for spending time with friends and loved ones recently to get over what happened #im going to keep going to my classes keep helping people through my jobs try to be creative when I have spoons and little by little #make sure I have enough of what I need to get through the storm and outlive the bastards in power #I'm not sure what sort of pink variant to assign this to but its along the magenta spectrum #love you guys #we'll get through this

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itsalwaysdark · 2 months ago

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its so embarassing likee. going to talk abt a feeling you have but you already know ppl will be like Oh that sounds like depression lol and its like. well yes . i know . trust me i am so aware i am depressed . but its still like a thing ive been thinking abt and wanting to talk abt but ik itll just be like Ok hun 👍. idk idk what response i would want tho ig FNFNFNF

#not anything serious i was just thinking how like. idk. this is gonna sound rly stupid #but for me personally like. sometimes. How do i phrase this without sounding rly evil #i think obv ppl can spend their money however they want but like. its kind of hard 4 me to grasp sometimes like. there r things that ppl #spend a lot of money on bc it makes them happy like umm. vacations or pets or hobbies or whathaveyou. and obviously thats fine but #i iust feel like its all so. temporary and like. idk. idt im ohrasing this right at all i just likee. the thought of working all year to #afford to take a vacation and then working again to afford another vacation just makes me feel like i want to die. like. idk... i like #vacations we dont need to go on them a lot but ig its just like. everything we do just feels like a waste of time. not in like a Ohh you #should be doing more work Obviously its just like. idk. maybe it is just me. but i feel like im just waiting until i die and can be done #with it i guess. and everything i do is just to fill time until that happens. yk ? which is silly bc of my whole. Thing i cant talk abt #but ppl talk abt like. going out and partying or going on vacation or whatever and i like. I like those things its nice when they happen #but they dont rly make me longterm any happier i guess. everything just feels like another thing im doing. idk. this rly isnt coming out the #way it is in my head. and Again i know this is just depression shit or whatever im just like. its all exhausting. it just makes me feel so #tired. to think abt working and working and working so i can pay to be alive and i can save to do one fun thing every so often to keep me #sane enough to keep working and working and working and i probably wont ever be able to retire itll just be. work. and then ill die. yk.#but i feel like the vacations and stuff dont like. refresh me very much. maybe its just bc ive only been on one 'vacation' as an adult and #it was just like. coming home to see my family. and realizing id have to move back home yk..#+ like. my mom nd my gran taking me out for a weekend when i lived up there #nd those things were nice and all but once its over its like. it doesnt fuel me to keep going it doesnt make me feel any better abt having #to work for the rest of my life #ik im being ridiculous bc im literally unemployed and i cant even get up off my ass to get my stupid fucking ged so i can get a job and be #Useful to my family its just like. idk.... i try so hard to be like Oh nothing mayters and thats why everything matters type thing like. Yes #all things end and the point is to just try to be happy until it does #but i feel like it just doesnt happen for me. i feel like any happiness i feel is so insanely like. it happens and then its gone. and its #back to just. the knowledge that im still fucking stuck here. and i will be until it happens. yk. i play video games tomoass the time until #i go back to sleep then i wake up and i make a spreadsheet to pass the time until i go back to sleep #and everyday just feels like passing the time until i go back to sleep and itll just keep going until it happens. and its nice to have nice #days but whats like. the point. yk. everything just ends #IDK. this is all very whiny im sry. ive just been feeling it a lot lately . i hope this doesnt feel like me being like Ohhh you ppl r so #dumb participating in hobbies and going out and having fun dont you know yr gonna DIE? thats not what im trying to be like #its just like. i feel like it doesnt make me as happy as it does other ppl like. none of it refreshes me or makes me want to keep going

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 2 months ago

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#'well you cant win em all.' okay but i would like to win at least one!! (not my quote i swear ive seen it on tumblr just cant find it)#like i would kill for just one win. i would pay a crisp $10 to anyone that could provide a single win for me #today was yet another fucking loss and that was all i had lined up. like theres nothing set up to possibly be a win in the future #ive got nothing there. so weve ended on a loss and thats all i have for the foreseeable future #i counted all the wins and losses in recent memory. ive got like 13+ losses and about 1 win #i tried to count up all of my wins but truly i managed like. one.#even some things that i didnt know could become losses! like did you know you can just be refused an adhd reassessment?#like you can say 'id like to pay $160 for you to fuck up a diagnosis again' and they can actually say #'youre not even worth the trouble to misdiagnose so go fuck yourself'#but they can! i didnt know that #and then you can have the audacity to tey to hope for something and think youll get it. like hope a little too hard #truly shouldve lesrned my lesson after twelve losses in a row not to get my hopes up #but i did! i made plans! i was gonna buy a cute water bottle specifically for that job. snd take myself out to dinner if i got it #can you guess what happened? when i had the audacity to hope and plan for a job that i was so passionate about and wanted so much?#(i didnt get it. the job ive been posting about. didnt get it)#didnt get the apartment in the city i love and miss either. didnt get an adhd reassessment (which is still wild to me)#and i tried to frame them as better in my head. 'this is a chance to tey a different job youd be better at! this is a chance to save money!'#nope its just another shitty thing in a long line of shitty things and im just getting tired of it. im so fucking tired of it #i am back where i vowed id never come back to and i cant escape in any way shape or fucking form #just needed to vent because saying all this in my head wasnt helping. saying it here doesnt help either but whatever

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crossbackpoke-check · 2 months ago

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re last answer: please don't stop, being very unhinged about these two pretty white boys is helping distract me from the sharks losing streak rn so bring it on

https://www.tumblr.com/bondedpairs/764566430180147200?source=share

(sideblog woes but there's the link for you) anyway in the vid they talk about going over to each other's houses to have dinner and things and while that is a delicious example of their codependence i love it bc through an rpf lens there is definitely some old man ******* going on. they can have the dilfs and each other.

(someone else mentioned kept boys which i could write an essay on but i fear being Perceived™️)

anyway if you have anything to add to this please do, if not ignore me and i will hide under a rock until the stress-related insanity has worn off and i am a functioning member of society once more 😂

- @bondedpairs

ty for the video!!! and please, WRITE THE KEPT BOYS ESSAYYYY i promise i will read it with my hands over my eyes if you don’t want to be perceived. do it scared!! do it anyway!! we’ll all love you for it!!!

#like. i don’t know how to explain how narratively aware will smith is to me. he knows he’s being put into the codependent rookies arc.#he’s aware that zeev buium transforms into a dog. he knows that he and mack aren’t getting together because mack’s gotta work it out first.#& in a less unhinged way i simply mean that will smith has an air of both self-conscious thought & projection i think is maybe fascinating.#but not in a way in which i actually know this or think that he thinks about himself and how he comes across. he just Is Something ????#the best way i can explain is one of my alltime favorite fics i use it like a shorthand citation bc i love it so much but catchascatchcan’s #many worlds universe but specifically the second tk/pat story second person you the ouroboros spits out its tale nolan walks off screen.#like that is the kind of narrative awareness i am trying to explain that no matter where i put him will smith knows he’s inside a story but #not in a way where he’s trying to do anything to it. he’s just present there. this makes no sense to me either please understand #liv in the replies #bondedpairs #happy to have brought you something in your times of woe!!! also hope things get a little less stressful for you!! <3 #we’re 2gether p much 24/7” no go on i say in my nature documentary voice. watching them like bugs under a rock rn observing from a distance #this DID get me to actually watch the video. agreed with puckpocketed saying rich text and ur tags like. YES the daddy issues popped out.#just wants to make sure he’s having fun!! checking up!! mack the prime irritance in will’s life!! foisted off on one another w/ no choice #it’s like when your parents are friends so then you have to be friends with their kids in a way and then also like. you’re the only kids #close in age to each other but they’re NOT but it is definitely not like. i would choose you for any lifetime it is very will smith hockey #(once again) very aware he has to wait for mack to settle down. like now that i’m saying this i DO want clairvoyant will smith which is not #where it goes in the first half but just in the sense of like. those silly posts that are like ‘invested early in stock!’ & it’s a picture #of braden holtby & his beautiful bisexual wife brandi back when holts was a hipster who wore skinny scarves & now everyone thinks he’s sooo #like that but it’s will smith saying my god you are insufferable but you’ll be fantastic in five years. get in the fucking car.#(yes i am drawing extensively from the one picture where will has COMPLETELY tuned him out (there is a football reasoning reference here?#with the patriots? neonfretra drew this also but it was a tweet about the teams. there’s layers to this here ANYWAY) we’re building a life #i realize after the fact i addressed neither the dilf (gilf?) fucking here nor the content of the actual video & polycules to which i say:#brain scrampled egg. the burnsie/joe/patty/(pavs???) polycule just exists to me and the kids intersect the venn diagram but in a much #smaller portion than they intersect each other in both ways (will/mack joe/the guys)#also as for the content of the video. you’re gonna have to give me at LEAST (how long did it take me until i actually started posting tzjd?#i hate that this is my metric but it really was like. i see everyone yelling about them & i’m like ok. [please ignore the irrational hatred #i have for tz at the time it has to do with moritz seider and also whenever i see him on the ice something awakens in kill mode] and i DO #blame tzjd for my 800 drafts and it took me like. a good while before i finally went OH kay. i see it. okay i can get invested. horizon at #a 45 degree angle moon in the late waxing gibbous winds scented of orange & blowing S by SW from the vortex cycle etc etc ass conditions)

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dandyshucks · 3 months ago

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i havent even thought about what starter im going to choose omg... i don't think i have any preferences towards type, i usually just end up liking pkmn based on vibe and aesthetics LMAO, and I've never played any game except for platinum (and I haven't even finished my first playthrough of it....) so i have zero experience in choosing starters,,,, THIS IS EXCITING

#choosing to be excited abt this rather than stressed fhdkdl #i like how litten looks but i dont rly like incineroar #actually i dont know if i rly like any of the third evolutions of the starters #okay wait actually i take it back. i just looked and the third evo of rowlet is fun #im so sorry to incineroar likers and primarina likers 😭#incineroar looks silly to me and primarina just annoys me DBFJDML its calls in the anime were rly grating on my nerves after a bit 😭😭#rowlet in its first evo doesnt appeal to me a whole lot tbh which is funny bc now that i look at its evo line i rly like the others #but rowlet itself is just kind of ... shrug. like it looks very polite but it doesnt have any sort of Spark to it yknow?#its just a polite looking orb fjdksl #which is perhaps the charm of it but i feel like its an orb w a bowtie and its very plain fjdksl #theres not a lot of ✨Personality✨ to its appearance #WHICH IS PERHAPS RICH COMING FROM ME. THE INFAMOUS PIPLUP ENJOYER. DNDKSL #i think im gonna go w rowlet though which is funny bc thats the one I thought i Wouldn't be going with #i like popplio and litten in terms of design way more but i just dislike both their third evos too much to choose them 😭#WAIT WHY DOES ROWLET HAVE TWO TYPES #I THOUGHT ALL BASE STARTERS ONLY HAD ONE TYPE??? HUH??#okay anyways i gotta stop chattering djdksl i am sitting outside i should not be looking at my phone LMAO im gonna do some sketching #yall... im choosing another bird pkmn as my starter.... i fear i may be developing a pattern of some kind LOL #dandy.cmd

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