#My therapy for 1000 years

[rotzaprachim]

so many convos on (my religion does this …) (my culture does this..) are so regional too like on the whole I haven’t had personal issues with tznius and used to be more *typically* tznius observant and enjoyed it. But like, people will also post away on Twitter about how Jews don’t have a problem with modesty culture or whatever, and those people are largely us Jews from outside orthodoxy, and I have this realllly strong memory of visiting a Judaica shop in a European Jewish neighborhood to buy Kippot and a Magen David. I was wearing an outfit I thought was very modest but which had loose boyfriend style jeans and a kind of slouchy sweater and turtleneck that was a pretty typical masorti girl fashion moment, but when I went into the shop both the old man behind the counter and the little boys looked at me like I was from Mars for wearing pants into an orthodox space and my orthodox friend (just as much *showing* as me but a skirt) had to be an interlocutor between me and them and told me not to buy a kippah there or try it on at all, it has to be for my Brother. Idk it’s kind of a strange dirty laundry moment I don’t like sharing with goyim OR with a lot of Jews who don’t have experience in these denominations, but it’s kind of. Scratched into my head, esp as that’s the reality of a lot of smaller portions of the diaspora if you want to engage in religious or cultural observance at all. there’s nothing like a seven year old judging you for being a whore lol

for the uninitiated: (orthodox) Judaism can have complex issues with modesty rulings cause it isn’t just about PHYSICAL modesty but the issue of social modesty: women have to dress *like women* and men have to dress *like men.* so this is part of the ruling on the issue in some orthodoxy communities that women can’t wear pants, because pants are for Men, and that’s men’s wear. So a lot of judgement isn’t or isn’t solely that you’re Showing Too Much Off and it’s sexual (though it can be that!!!) but that you’re looking like a man, and can prompt all kinds of inquiries into just *how* feminine a girl is looking. That’s why a woman who seems to be *showing* a lot more but is wearing a skirt and a very feminine hairdo may be judged more harshly than one who is more physically covered and wearing pants. This leads to all other fascinating areas: the general butch look is often *physically modest* but not *feminine*, whereas pants that *obviously* are Not For Men are often more physically revealing and show off curves. It’s part of how tznius is to my understanding different from hijab, but that extends to there being things permissible to many hijabis that might not be permissible to many tsnius observant communities, such as pants or mainstream “men’s clothes” in women’s department stores

[y-rhywbeth2]

It's a little bit fucked up that Bhaal had Durge kill every connection they made with their own hands - foster family, and paladin Drge (and presumably other classes with their own equivalents to) slaughtering their paladin order, and whatever those repeat incidents where they broke their oath was - and forced them to become his vessel.

And then, on the non-Chosen path, Durge is torn away from their family and forced to kill everybody they knew and possibly cared about with their own hands.

Sure, objectively the latter is different: the first case was them being moulded into the puppet of a god, and the second leaves them with a blank slate and the ability to be a better person and determine their own path in life. We think. Yes, I'm glaring at you, Withers.

But does it feel that way for them?

And there's as much blood on their hands as that on the corpses they've left on the ground. Orin and Gortash's crimes were also their crimes. Orin is no different to Durge, she had no choice in her life, she just never got the chance to ever be different. Durge shouldn't be different, Jergal just decided to step in and "make it all better" - and where was this divine intervention decades ago, before a "little Urge" hadn't yet torn apart a family in their own home, or before they came anywhere close to inflicting the Absolute on the world? Why does it come when it's too fucking late.

The main plot was their plan! They are the main villain of this story, they just wandered onto the wrong side of the conflict! By accident! In this little narrative of heroes and villains, bar a single accident, Durge would be left rotting on the floor next to their little sister and the tyrant they admired. It's not like this is necessarily a redemption arc either! Durge can still be an absolute monster! Also how the fuck do you even start to atone for all the horrors they committed? Does saving x amount of people really do anything to alleviate the harm they've already done? How much culpability do you assign to somebody who only has the pretence of autonomy?

There are other ways to interpret Durge and how they experience their redemption/"redemption" arc, of course, but if I were them I'd want to nap for a week after the final battle. Or a month. Maybe a few years...

[lemonduckisnowawake]

You know. One of the coolest (to me personally, that is) ideas I've ever had about long lived races like elves or dragons with human intelligence was how to reconcile the rate of maturity with, well, the construct of time. And I thought it'd be so cool that rather than have the 200 year old elf act like a 12 year old in all areas of life, you'd have a 200 year old elf who has 200 years of knowledge and experience and memories all stored up in that brain of theirs, except that their emotional and social development are still equivalent to that of a 12 year old human. Not because there's something wrong with them but because even though they know all that stuff, they still can't grasp the fundamentals despite being told what to do for 2 centuries and also their own bodies are not cooperating. But this is normal, of course, and none of the long-lived races look down on someone being 200 and acting a little immature even if they're super smart. Though the poor dragon who might get abandoned and raised amongst humans might also get so frustrated with themselves for being unable to be as "mature" or "friendly" as their peers, even if they're smarter or more powerful. I mean, imagine races of people whose intellectual maturity and/or wisdom didn't match their social and/or emotional maturity, right?

[embryhallowed]

That moment when you gotta talk in depth about Astarion, his tragic backstory, and his quest line, with your therapist for reasons 😅😅

[lord-aldhelm]

Aldhelm | The Last Kingdom Season 5.08

TFW you are dead inside and holding it together with zip ties and duct tape...

[vampirebiter]

2/3 done with reading the flowers in the attic books. enjoying them 👍🏻

[lightspren]

google how do i be a normal person

[llycaons]

feel like I just had a major character breakthrough. jc works from a place of grief and bitterness and anger but also helplessless! he's always trying to exert his will on his surroundings because he's terrified of feeling out of control. he's felt helpless for years! even as a feared sect leader with a decade+ of experience. it was so horrific to violently lose his family/home/CORE in the wake of the massacre and postcanon this is most easily seen in how much he hates failing to communicate with wwx like they used to so he's going into overdrive using threats and physical violence to control his surrounding and the people in it and if he ever chills out he'll feel like he's not in control and he can't stand that possibility and it ties in with his inferiority complex oohhhh I get it. ohh he's a very very sad man

[theartinmyheart]

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[blu-jei]

Not only is public mental health and disability care abysmal, but even if you're lucky benough to have private insurance,

Its probably still not good enough.

Over the past decade I've tried using my mom's, dad's, college's and now my own work-provided health insurance and Every. Single. Time. it has either not covered the entre cost of the service, or as had a stupidly small limit on how many appointments they'll cover, or just straight-up denied because its not one of the benefits they cover.

And I'm not trying to brag or anything about having private insurance, I'm trying to point out that there is literally NO OTHER OPTION (cause you know there's gonna be assholes who say this is a failure of a public healthcare system, but no, its the ableism baked into our entire damn society.) There is no "Just get a good job and the insurance will pay for it" for us. Insurance companies sure as hell don't want to help either.

Public healthcare doesn't give a shit about disabled people.

Private healthcare doesn't give a shit about disabled people.

And now they're telling us they did everything they could and if that's not enough then we should just shut up and die.

I need you guys to listen so bad, but I’m at least glad people on Twitter are starting to talk about this. The government of Canada is expanding Medically Assisted Death to cull the poor and disabled, and now suicidal and mentally ill (these are usually interchangeable of course here). It is EUGENICS and every single disabled rights organization is against it.

Disability payments are $1,200 a month. The average one bedroom apartment rent in the Greater Toronto Area (greatest pop. area by far here) is $2,000 a month. People with mental illnesses are on months long waitlists to get even a single publicly funded session. Weeks to get privately funded care which costs at least $200 a session. There is no housing here for disabled people. We are in one of the worst housing crises in the world right now.

Doctors are now offering MAiD unprompted to young suicidal people. This woman is 21, a health practitioner literally suggested she kill herself.

This is one of the worst Disability Rights Violations we’ve ever seen in Canada. The government is killing us because it is cheaper than funding healthcare, cheaper than giving people housing and food and basic human rights.

[maraeffect]

ohhhhhhh i feel an mcr kick coming on..........

[badolmen]

transphobes are banned from birds this is like rule number 3 yall

[walidfamile]

Hello every one ♥️

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[redflowersociety]

Saying “I Love You” for the first time. - Mouthwashing HC

These are written with the pretense that… THEY LIKE U BACK!! (Except for Swansea cause he’s married…sorri) THIS WAS SO PAINFUL CAUSE I WAS WRITING THEM IN PARAGRAPHS AND THEN… boom. 1000+ words lost. Never writing on tumblr again, rookie mistake. Anyways, enjoy!! Promise next post will be higher effort

Curly (Pre-Crash)

He’s quick to make a teasing comment on your unprofessionalism, confessing to your captain and all. But he’s honestly super flustered and trying not to grin like a kid on Christmas Day.

He takes a moment to sit with it. It’s likely that you two would have made advances toward each other for a while, as Curly is the type to take things slow if he’s serious. After a year of pining, you two were finally dating! But hearing those words from your lips brought him to such happiness because he knew you meant it unconditionally, without expecting anything from him.

After this instance, it became common practice for both of you to remind the other of your love. Curly had never been a “words-of-affirmation” kind of guy, but this was an exception. “I love you” turned into his favorite phrase, as it was the perfect way to release the tension building in his heart from just how badly he had fallen for you.

Curly (Post-Crash)

He honestly couldn’t believe that you could stomach looking at him, let alone still sit with romantic feelings for him. It brought him to tears when he heard it, unable to comprehend how somebody could show him such boundless affection and care. He wasn’t used to unconditional love.

He forced himself through the immense pain to slur the words back, and that’s when you began to cry. He forced it out again and again, until you convinced him through pleading not to speak. You knew how much it hurt him, so you assured him that knowing was enough. You didn’t need the reassurance.

Upon your return to Earth, Curly not only had surgeries to make his face a little more structurally sound, but he had attended speech therapy to make up for the years he spent in near silence. One of the first things he learned was your name, and then “I love you.” It brought you to tears hearing it again for the first time in so long. It was okay though, as he could hold you in his scarred arms as long as you needed to cry it all out.

Daisuke

At first, he thought you were being silly. “Aww, I love you too,” he giggled. It wasn’t until you spoke up again with a more serious tone that he realized, and you swear you’d never seen a man turn red so fast. He was so taken aback, asking you at least five times if you were serious and if you were sure. Once his nerves were satisfied, he returned the gesture.

“I love you too. Like a lot, a lot. Soooo much. Like, I really thought I was tweaking out or something from like, the way my whole body would go numb around you and my brain would get fuzzy-“ his drawn out explanation on how his romantic feelings for you overwhelmed him made you laugh. Within the next day, you two were dating.

Even before you two got together, Daisuke ranted to anybody who would listen about just how perfect you were. Now? Oh, man. Swansea has been really considering throwing him out into space after hearing about your confession for the twentieth time from his loud-ass mouth.

Anya

It was honestly a relief to her that you had said something first. She had been trying her best to stay professional, but seeing you all the time, your smile and laugh, the way you spoke passionately about what you loved; it made it harder every day as she fell further for you. You were one of the first people she grew close to on the Tulpar, and the first she went to when Jimmy… did what he did. The trust between you both was ample and strong.

She was quick to say it back, like it was a breath of air she’d been holding in way too long and needed out. You two laughed from the sheer relief on her face, teasing her thoroughly about it. She didn’t hesitate to grill you right back for being the one who confessed first. It shut you up pretty fast. You both agreed within the hour to start dating!

There were mixed reactions among the crew. Some extremely supportive, and then some straight up bitter and resentful (Jimbo). Jimmy began to treat you especially cruelly, and you refused to stand by and let it happen. Curly also helped to defend you when he could, seemingly coming to his senses about Jimmy’s behavior. You could tell that Anya felt intense guilt for your pain, but you assured her that it wasn’t her fault. It was your decision to date her knowing everything you did. You were happy by her side. She certainly cried over that privately, completely enamored.

Swansea

Swansea is married, so he knew to take your words in a familial sense. He didn’t return it, saying something like, “You’d better kid. With all I do for you.” But when you him on his lonesome in the utility room? Yeah, he smiled about it.

f you had a bad childhood due to your parents, Swansea could tell pretty quick. He never considered it his problem, but even still, he took you under his wing with Daisuke. He wanted to give you guidance in the ways he knew how. You deserved that, at least. He would go out of his way to help you when you needed, mostly with solving practical problems. He had never been the most emotionally aware, but he tried with you. He figured even if he couldn’t assist you much, it’d be good practice for his daughter on the way.

That’s not to say he never had any advice. He struggled to comfort, but he was quick to pick up on your mistakes and told you the blatant truth. You appreciated that, even if he was harsh at times, cause it helped you become a better person.

Jimmy

Your confession was certainly an ego boost, but nothing past that. He couldn’t believe that you could say something like “I love you” to someone like him without there being pity behind it. Even still, he returned the gesture because he knew that getting with you would make you so much easier to use. He took the opportunity.

The entire crew, aside from you two, were completely flabbergasted when they found out you two were together. Swansea was quick to ask “Why,” hoping to understand the reason behind such a horrible decision on your part. He didn’t get a good answer from you. Anya felt such pity for you, sure that a good person like you had been manipulated into that position. Even still, she couldn’t help you without putting herself in danger, so she kept her distance.

After the crash, Jimmy took out all his frustrations on you in private through abuse: sexual, physical, verbal, and however else he felt in the moment. Nobody was confused when you started wearing more covering clothes beneath your uniform. Swansea was the only one to really step up against Jimmy when he found that he was hurting you. You had to beg Swansea not to kill Jimmy for that alone, and even still, jimmy got a beating. Daisuke checked on you as much as possible, worrying constantly for your well being. Curly found your relationship to be one more thing to feel guilt over, as he once again couldn’t do a single thing to protect somebody from him.

[stormandsparks]

fuck it i need motivation

Ok I’m gonna do one of those if I get to x notes I’ll do y things

10 - Actually tidy my room (yes this is a low bar but I don’t really get notes ever lol)

50 - free art for the first 10 people to link a ref in the replies (probably a full?)

100 - I’ll plan one of the 4 long animations I should do (you guys get to choose which, I’ll make a poll!)

150 - I do a full storyboard of aforementioned animation and post it here

200 - I show you guys my cat

500 - I’ll show you my art improvement sheet (basically a piece of paper which shows how my arts changed over the past couple of years)

1000 - I make a YT account, get flipaclip and work on animation

5000 - I try to get therapy (bc i do need it)

Uhhh go wild ig? Just preferably don’t spam in replies?

Edit: ok we’re at 50, so link your refs in the replies/reblogs! I can draw cats, dragons, wolves and (kinda) humanoids, but I’ll give anything a shot!

Edit 2: ok wow 200??? Thanks @broken-obsidian lmao- here’s the poll for the animation

Edit 3: y’all dont care about my animation and tbh i cant blame you :’D so im changing these goals to be about actually useful/interesting shit

[danmei-confessions]

ive slid too far down the jiang cheng stannery slope. when i first finished reading mo dao zu shi, i thought of him as a morally grey character and could admit that he'd made some major mistakes, but now im unironically willing to argue that my poor little meow meow did nothing wrong. your honor my client had zero political capital. your honor my client had no other choice. your honor my client should not be judged for not having all of the relevant information when he was actively being lied to. your honor have u considered that i love him.

anyways my controversial fave deserves nothing but quality time with jin ling, reconciliation with wei wuxian, 500 puppies, and 1000 years of prosperity for lotus pier and yunmeng region. oh and also some therapy because jesus fucking christ dude

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