#MY GOD SO MUCH HAPPENED
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Vincenzo : Episode 4
HOW AM I SUPPOSED TO CONTINUE they didn’t even show a preview for the next episode
Oh I hope she didn’t watch them get hit
Also that evil man smiling as he knew what’s he about to do WHEN I CATCH YOU
What is this background music somebody is dead 😭😭😭 the case of classical music playing as someone gets murdered continues
SISTER NO
Oh this got me bad. I am actually so mad and sad at the same time 😭😭😭 I want to hug her so bad why must the good dads always die
baby <///3
also such a shoddy job, didn’t even see to check if everyone died. Babel, lawyer lady YOU WILL CRUMBLE
Should’ve continued hating her when she bragged that she blackmailed someone into killing themselves
now they’re going for character assassination too count your days you babbling Babel bitch ass corporation
Am I even going to be normal about her intern dying if this has got me DOWN (to be fair good parent dying and the child not getting a goodbye or being left alone has always hurt me )
and when I kill this lady. Just dancing just like that
the intern is the only one next to her :(
her dad was loved down. I love that
damn let me put a reminder to always put little notes on the back of photographs to remember better
lmao they’re both so unserious it is helping me rn 😭
how does someone look that good getting up from a 10 day sleep
I thought she gasped because she saw his butt but you know what I’d be more torn about someone hearing me cry too 💀
Oh he’s wearing pyjamas
my man said let me give it my all for plot conveniences and gave Vincenzo a to do list #real
I know he was trying to wake her up and wasn’t exactly wrong but that was really mean lmao
that sassy light slap #real
me trying to control the urge to punch this lady oh it’s bad for me
lawyer lady I want you to have the most painful episodes in the end 🙏💗
been in this office for a week and saying things like know your place when I get my hands on YOU
SMACK her Cha!!! I would it’s okay
The audacity to hold her neck I’m so mad ???
good one Cha
Intern just leave with her
The limbo 💀💗 awww he’s in her truck
she looks so good, always
my man so mad for the right things for being in the mafia and having killed people 😭 #real #change starts somewhere
the rain starting just as he stares at something
Public enemy number 1 so bad
how is the blood still wet it’s been 10 days ??? hey at least he seems to remember who did it.
What the fuck is that on this pretend CEO’s bed
yes Intern be her ears in this office #slay
I hope this villain lawyer lady is not the reason you die 😭
they really made her the suspect when I get my hands on this fiction lady EUGH
the chutney on the magazine that they might use as evidence 💔
Her dad’s apprentice fighting for his life to keep the door open to make Quasano help her he’s so real
Quasano pyjamas look so good. lmaooo if you’re going to lie down might as well get up ;)))
my man intern getting buffed every 3 seconds (rightfully so lmao boundaries babe but it’s nice that you want help)
oh the police is going to take this the other way 😭
look who got out of the horse
at least they got her breakfast. the zoom in makes me think they’re trying to get her fingerprints
he waited 😂
girl let the intern finish lmao, for me!!! I love when his tangents , he’s adorable (almost said babbles 😡)
how is everyone doing a background check on my man and missing the mafia link 😭
nooo she’s got no one to turn into but him 💀
Korea’s law system cannot be real let me google ??? no way
he’s got a knack for standing up for people in this building and I appreciate that. the inmate apologised for killing her dad as if he was not laughing 3 seconds ago like bffr
that cop was shady looking from the beginning but like rule number one of getting with shady people, you’re almost always going to get taken out
get this bitch Hong Cha
justice system and jails are in shambles everywhere in the world
my sister that lawyer lady needs to go!!!! they’ll keep killing but good promise regardless
to be fair he never promised
that was actually so sexy of him! get him Vince !!!!
slay apprentice man slay !!! tase him
the good guys not killing bad guys in fiction sucks because you know they’ll go to jail or can’t be revered for taking the upper hand but damn villains don’t stop killing you till they’re 6 feet underground
she said no killing, injure a little !
slay (might be a fake out though)
oh this is such a slay! count your days lady!
how are you going to have the heat and scare everyone and kill people and not be ready to take it yourself
Walking around with you can’t fuck with me I’ll kill you energy and can’t deal with the lights turned off ( she really pissed me off I’m sorry! I’m tired)
GET YOUR LICK BACK! The truck is such a nice threat touch here
their memories matter to me more than your worthless life ever could. bars honestly
real !!! how are you going to terrorise people and be scared to die omg ??? ( a problem with a lot of villains like be serious you can kill people but others can’t do that to you 😭 )
oh are they going to burn this Italy style?
damn did he actually kill those people (slay but I thought it was a fake out)
THEY ARE. GET EM!!!!
Is he just going to leave his lighter
arson never looked so good
my sister wear a mask??! what if someone recognises you
this is episode 4…. what are they going to do to me for the next 16 😨
It was a fake out !!!
not like they can go back to their boss anyway 💀
Aww the people came to help :)
this fake CEO about to get beaten up again I fear 😭
NOW?! Someone LIED TO ME because why is the INTERN the CEO WHAT !?!!!!
he must know everything about Vincenzo then
Oh I feel like someone stole the rug from my feet they gagged me I did not see this coming…
I mean it’s a great way to keep an eye on the people you hire but DAMN
Watch your back my girl 😭😭😭
#vincenzo#episode 4#written update#MY GOD SO MUCH HAPPENED#my heart#THE INTERN !?!!#ok taecyeon#but like OKAY Taecyeon you got me
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sry i have chronic only draws megumi disorder the doctor said it's terminal :/
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk#fushiguro megumi#megumi fushiguro#fanart#jjk fanart#megumi#me: 'i like yuuji and megumi Equally :)' also me:#i cant help it hes so fun to draW hes so easy to draw i love you i love you i love youuuuuu#also this is kiiind of me making good on that poll i did forever ago saying id draw catboys . so as promised here is A Catboy :3#hes sooooo meowmeow hes so gd CUTE god i love . fushiguro mEGUMI#to b fair i Do like yuuji and megu equally ffgsdjfdjh#sometimes u just gotta spend the whole entire day fully rendering what was supposed to be a megu sketch sheet#but now it is . just a char sheet by talos this cant keep happening#this all started bc i still want to practice/tweak the way i draw faces but it would appear i cannot control myself#also been loving drawing the cat megumi plush gddff fushiguro mewgumi is my favourite animal crossing villager#anyway so much for working on speed this was a fun 10 hours#its ok . i do it fr him <3 geto voice i dont mind being killed by you
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the thing about disco elysium is that it has women in it. what you see on the internet about it might lie to you about that but it has women, gay women even, very compelling women even, in it.
#Directive: THINK ABOUT RUBY THE INSTIGATOR!!!!!!#What was it rave said. This basic concern dooms her!!!!! She’s so good. She’s SO good#Rubyklaasje is literally crucial to the plot happenings and yet there are only like two dozen people who talk about them. Sad. Shut up about#that other guy please stop putting him in bunny suits.#Also thinking about cunoesse. My god cunoesse.#Cindy the skull. Liz!!! Who only shows up for a little but she is so cool. Lilienne i need to replay to go on the date to learn more about#her. Soona she’s so real… Joyce is so much so so so much. And dora and dolores of course.#esha.txt#disco elysium#Seriously.#Klaasje i literally forgot to talk about klaasje I love you problem girl
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What makes this even more impactful is that we've obviously seen in the pilot the negative effects of a player coming into physical contact with an abstracted being.
The fact that Kinger was actually even able to touch his dear wife at all in their final moments together before she was sent to the cellar 💔
#the amazing digital circus#tadc#kinger#queenie#ragatha#pomni#the mystery of mildenhall manor#god I'm so happy this episode happened#because prior to its release Kinger always seemed to be the least talked about#he was never my favorite but I have so much newfound appreciation for him
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something something seeing things through different eyes
#tigerghost#art student manny is my FAVORITE of jorge guitierrez's plans for his life. i LOVEEEE that sm#danny takes him to the ghost zone for some mission reason and hes like OHHH MY GOD THIS IS SICK AS FUCK#ITS AWAKENED LATENT FINE ART IMPULSES IN ME!!#meanwhile danny kind of tolerates being in the GZ but its very much like. not a place where Good things happen to him#hes grown accustomed to it and he loves certain things about it but he will never be fond of it and that sort of colors his perception of i#so manny coming in like WHOAH AND YOURE THE /KING/ HERE? THINK OF ALL THE COOL ASS GHOSTS YOU CAN MEET! THE AWESOME GHOST LANDS!#THE FLOATING GREEN STUFF!!!#gives him a little bit of that first-time wonder back :')#anyways the style is HEAVILY cribbed from anastasia trusova who i HIGHLY recommend checking out#when im rich and famous i shall buy many of her pieces#ntu tag#designs as always tm tm tm tumblr user nicktoonsunite#also mannys jersey was kept safe by his Painting Shirt (now tied about his waist) you know his apartment is eclectic af#but quite clean. he got the stress cleaning habit from his dad
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i cant get over the ball being so CLEARLY all for crowley i can't get over aziraphale trying to woo him with a WHOLE FUCKING BALL because that's what he knows that's what romance IS for him because he's been wanting to dance with crowley ever since dancing was invented and he's so stuck in time with the way he dresses and talks and he still thinks a dance is the high of romance AND HE MADE A WHOLE ENTIRE FUCKING BALL FOR CROWLEY JUST SO HE COULD DANCE WITH HIM like now it's so fucking obvious he gave away his BOOKS without a second thought and it was all for crowley he organised a whole JANE AUSTEN THEME BALL just so he could have an excuse to finally dance with the love of his life and i can't get over this i'm shaking my fists and pacing up and down he did not give a single fuck about anything other than dancing with crowley and HE BARELY TOUCHED OTHER PEOPLE'S HANDS WHILE HIS WHOLE FUCKING PALM WAS PRESSED TO CROWLEY'S AND i need to lie down
#im actually not okay im never getting over this#this was actually the most romantic thing to ever happen on television prove me wrong you can't#no because he spent CENTURIES reading about and witnessing and orchestring romances and he's been wanting to living in them WITH CROWLEY al#this fucking time and crowley rescuing his books was the most romantic thing that ever happened to him and in return HE GAVE AWAY THE BOOKS#HE LOVES SO FUCKING MUCH FOR CROWLEY AND OH GOD OH JESUS#how am i still not normal about this show im literally box breathing and my heart is fucking POUNDING from a SHOW i cant i just cant#i need psychiatric help#good omens#good omens s2#azicrow#crowley#aziraphale#aziracrow#ineffable spouses#good omens season 2#ineffable husbands#go s2
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Especially the lies.
#garashir#ds9#deep space nine#garak#elim garak#bashir#julian bashir#artists of tumblr#my stuff#back at it again in the krispy kreme#LISTEN#I liked the orchid from the last piece so much that i wanted to do more art with it and then this happened#am i melodramatic and extra? yes always#also i had the absolute delight of starting and finishing on the same song (florence and the machine for whoever's asking)#and dear god did it influence the vibes lolol
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2.12 Chimney Begins - 2.09 Hen Begins - 2.16 Bobby Begins Again - 7.04 Buck, Bothered and Bewildered
Tommy's family arc
#911#911edit#911 abc#911 show#911 spoilers#911 season 7#tommy kinard#evan buckley#evan 'buck' buckley#kinley#bucktommy#kinkley#tevan#pick a ship name you guys and thanks for picking tevan the most correct name#anyway analysis time!#looking back with Modern Knowledge tm about why tommy acts the way he does in the past... babygirl you were so closeted I'm so proud#babygirl was back there getting into narnia#he was so resistant to letting go of the pseudo-family he'd found at the 118 in chimney begins#even tho it was a good old boys club that he knew he really didn't fit into he was making himself fit because at least it was something#but then he let chimney in and then hen came around and he saw a very queer person being openly queer and not giving a fuck what they think#and I think his behavior in that episode was trying to support hen as much as he could without outing himself#because like. how do you give up years of relative safety with people who do care about you they just won't like you anymore if you're *you#then he meets buck in s7 which is like 10-20 years later timeline is fake and he's like oh. this is what unconditional family is#and he's like oh. maybe I can come back. maybe I can be part of this again somehow. maybe we've both grown enough#or at the very least he'll be close to something he never believed would really happen for him#rant over tevan my beloved tim minear pillow cold both sides god bless#my edits
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if the agrestes weren't rich i think that gabriel would be the normal one. like gabe's problem is that he stopped running into natural limits due to absurd wealth and his obsessive nature led him to develop some kind of god complex where he won't accept that anything is out of his control. I think that if gabe was broke again and just simply couldn't afford to go on an international goose chase for ancient magic artifacts of untold power, if he had to work a 9-5 to live and couldn't just disappear into his basement lair to commit domestic terrorism and say evil monologues to himself, then he would be way more normal. he'd just be some guy. he might even let himself have a mowhawk again. but I think that emilie would be way LESS normal if they weren't rich. like emilie needs so many people to be obsessed with her so much all the time in order for her to function. and gabe would still have his toxic codependent obsession with her, sure, but that wouldn't be nearly enough. emilie has to be at the center of the world's spotlight at all times because she doesn't know how to exist if she's not performing. anyway all this to say I am so certain that if the agrestes were not disgustingly wealthy, emilie agreste would one million percent be running a massive family vlogger youtube channel
#this post is sponsored by the version of emilie agreste who lives in my mind#in this scenario adrien still exists so maybe he's a normal baby somehow. but the important thing is that he's still exploited#this is just an exercise for me in thinking about how much of the agreste family dynamic you could preserve if they were middle class#how much wealth is an enabler of the terrible things happening in that house#but yeah agreste family vloggers au. I guess.#where adrien shows up at school and everybody knows him because his mom posted his potty training videos online and everything since#he has no secrets every milestone he's ever had has been packaged up and sold to the public#until he becomes chat noir of course. etc#oh god emilie would vlog her own death😭 help#get ready with me to die and haunt the narrative🤩#ml#anna rambles#I wrote this because im not finishing my homework:(
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new favorite oc alert favorite oc alert i am infatuated with her. tumblr gets the special space pirate au version of her
#illustration#digital art#artists on tumblr#oc art#sev ocs#my art#she’s just everything. my god i love you honda!#love her so much i draw her doing everything but her job#i imagine drawing surgery would be hard and scary. so. i haven’t yet#but i do want to… i have ideas#this is a woman who Needs to be covered in blood. i must make it happen
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#once upon a time#swan queen#ouatedit#sqedit#regina mills#emma swan#wlwedit#tvgifs#tvedit#my gifs#*ouatgif#THE ROM COM ZOOM#god i remember the crazy that happened after this scene aired#i was 110% a ouat blog back in the day#i remember having so much fun#i miss it
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i need help with vet bills (again).
hi. for those of you who remember, earlier this year i asked for donations to help me afford toos' vet bills, who we found out through your help had kidney failure, and again with your help we got her on medication for it. unfortunately it wasn't enough, and we lost her. and then shortly after, dexter began deteriorating, which we put down to his grief of losing toos - she kept him young, he followed her everywhere, he only played because of her, he only ate when she ate, etc. without her he just stopped. and then he started to have seizures and fits daily. we got him blood tests, but he was suffering so badly. we made the decision to put him down. i didn't ask for donations this time, because i was so deeply embarrassed to ask for help again. but we are still recovering financially from that, as well as the parts of toos bills that didn't get covered from donations. my mother hasn't worked for a very long time, she's disabled and very sick, and she receives PIP from the government that only covers her monthly medications that are not covered by the NHS. my father retired early to become her full time carer, and we are living off his pension. i am too disabled to work, but because my mother already receives PIP and i live with them, the government are resistent to giving me any help - so i have zero income, and rely entirely on my parents.
this is jenny. she's a 14 year old cairn terrier, who loves when we garden because she wants to help dig holes. she helped us bury dexter and toos, digging their graves for them with my dads help. she's an angel, and loves people so much she likes to escape under the fence and join other families for awhile. one time she got into someones back garden and asked to come in as they were eating lunch. she really hates flies, and will try to bite them out of the air (she has never succeeded but i believe she will one day). she will rub her face against you until you start stroking her, and will growl and even bark if you stop! we don't have the money to take jenny to the vets, for a checkup or for anything they may want to do. this has been an ongoing issue, but toos and dexter took priority, and it hasn't been a bother to her. she existed as normal for a long time, but that's since changed.
jenny has this lump in her mouth, it is larger than the picture shows, but she is a nightmare to force open her mouth since this got so big, i think it's uncomfortable or painful for her. she can't properly close her lips now, and it has pushed all her front teeth away, misshaping her mouth, and sometimes it bleeds profusely. eating has become difficult for her, she can't eat anything hard, and currently will only eat soft human foods like rice, scrambled egg chopped up so small she doesn't have to chew, and things like soups and gravy. she's lost a lot of weight, and i'm getting frightened. to add onto it, i've found lumps like this across her body. i've done as much research as i can, and i believe it to be an oral tumor, it fits, and it looks right, and it spreading across her body is called 'full staging'. and going by all i've read - they will want to remove them in surgery. according to my research, this will cost anywhere from £585 - £4,740 for just the lump in her mouth. that's not including any checkup/test costs, or the other lumps on her body.
she hasn't been to the vet yet, i don't have any secure goal or bills to share, just my assumptions and beliefs from researching myself online. my parents refuse to take her because we can't afford it. i want to save up money, have it in my bank, and show them that we can help her now, before it gets worse, or it's too late. as i said before, i don't have any income, so the only way i can do this is with help.
here's a link to my paypal.me
the icon is a little mouse, and the @ is rivellon
i struggled so badly posting the first post like this for toos. i felt so guilty and embarrassed and ashamed. but i have no choice again, i want to help jenny. i don't want her to suffer. and selfishly, i can't handle losing another dog so soon. this year has been waking nightmare, and i need your help to stop it getting even worse.
please reblog and share, even if you can't donate.
thank you for reading.
#animal illness#animal sickness#pet illness#pet sickness#vet bills#vet help#i don't really know what to tag this as. i don't remember what i did before#and i don't want to go look for my toos post because it will hurt so bad to see it i think#im on hiatus because i cant deal with this and be here right now. but im gonna queue/schedule this a bit i think#im sorry for asking for help again. but please consider helping jenny. she's so lovely#and she's keeping me alive right now#losing toos and dexter ripped me to shreds and shes the only reason i havent completely broken down#i am absolutely terrified of what will happen if we lose her too#god i feel so fucking guilty. i can't stop fucking crying. i hate this so much#im so sorry guys. please reblog and consider donating even a tiny amount#tiny amounts add up yknow#anyway . i should post this now instead of hiding in the tags
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sidelong
#my art#jujutsu kaisen#jjk fanart#jujutsu kaisen fanart#jjk art#yuji itadori#fushiguro megumi#itafushi#fushiita#itadori yuuji#megumi fushiguro#i havent drawn a dedicated itfs piece in so long im a fraud dont look at me......................#i offer u pining!yuuji content. as Penance.#i feel like its usually fushiguro emotionally repressed megumi who ppl draw/make content of looking Longingly @ yuuji#and like. for good reason i mean look at him#but i feel like hopelessly-in-love-w-his-best-friend yuuji is a comparatively slept on concept#or maybe im not looking in the right places idk man#fleeting glances and longing stares and I Should Tell Him I Can't Tell Him.....OUgh#anyway i like how the pendulum seems to have hard swung back in2 me using a bunch of red#i feel like my values r so much better now tho n like. god help me im having fun painting again what has happened#it never lasts long but for rn this is probably one of my favourite things ive drawn in a minute!!!#i love u contrast i love u random bits of red i love u harsh shadows and dramatic light sources#and it didnt even take me a week this time !!!!
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Just caught up with Dracula Daily and it just tears me apart how desperately everyone loves Lucy, and how desperately everyone wants to save her, and how fully she loves everyone in thanks. From Mina running through half the town to rescue her from her sleep-walking, to Arthur giving all the blood he can and then some for her sake, to Dr Seward and Van Helsing giving blood themselves and keeping watch through the night, to her maids begging to keep watch over her, to her mother’s solicitude for her health, to the tenderness of her words in her diary. It’s all a labour of love and desperation, and it is devastating that the Count manages to snatch her away despite it all.
#this second read-through of dracula is hitting so much more for me for some reason#possibly because I know what’s going to happen#everyone loves her so much… van helsing sees her once and can’t help but want to help her however he can#and she’s so thankful for it… her diary entry ending with ‘good-night everybody’ actually tore my heart in two I’m not even kidding#the pain of mrs westenra opening the window to give her some fresh air… ohhhh my god oh my god#oh lucy…#dracula daily
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i’ve been thinking about “sixer, it would eat you alive” since i read it and. man. every layer you peel back makes it worse. im not a bill apologist but. shit
if you (1) take it at face value, it paints bill as an apologetic murderer in his single (and maybe sole) open moment of regret. he doesn’t let his walls down often- only with ford do we even get to see the remnant of his galaxy, see the “actual remorse” ford describes, get just a hint of his origins. but he does it, because he thinks ford should know.
if you (2) take it from ford’s point of view, as something he committed to journal three, like. wow. imagine being so committed to a being that you’d hunt down and kill the monster that destroyed his home, only to (assumably) figure out later that that being was the monster. the small moments of trust, the “good times”, are so key to manipulation. how long did ford hold onto that one shred of vulnerability? no wonder ford stayed for as long as he did. in his eyes, bill was a survivor. ford wanted to survive too.
(slight tw below for unreality- any time i mention our reality, i mean “our reality” as a narrative device used in the book of bill as a proxy for the idea of bill being in our reality, since he can’t actually be in our reality. all of this is a fictional theory about a show/book with fictional contents!)
but if you (3) remember that “even his lies are lies” and absolutely Nothing bill says should be trusted. Whoo boy. if i read tbob right the book itself is being created in the theraprism (even tho it shows up with the ciphertologists at some point? idk that’s a whole other post). it’s meant to show what the reader wants to see; it manifests in our reality as what the collective fandom wants to see. so if we want to see truth, if we want to see where bill ended up and who he actually is, there’s a non-zero chance that the whole interaction was a complete fabrication.
imagine bill, stuck in the actively harmful, probably earth-illegal theraprism, once again being forced to be “fixed” and molded into something more palatable, being forced to conform no matter how much it hurts. (i know natural uncontrollable mutation ≠ just so much murder and destruction and chaos, but. you can’t ignore the similarities. bill has obviously been thinking about those silly straws.)
he looks back on everything that went wrong, back on his relationship with ford, back through every dimension where he wins. would that one moment, that one truth amid centuries of lies, have saved him from purgatory? if he had just been open? shown his damage? maybe he did think of his parents, or his henchmaniacs (especially the oracle). people who he might have once opened up to. maybe he just wanted to open up to someone again.
so in his own weird way, stuck in a cell, he reshaped reality again. in this reality, for this fleeting moment, he had been someone worth believing. and ford had listened, hell, ford had wanted to help. looking back, knowing how he treated ford, knowing how ford ended up because of it, maybe bill would have said the most honest thing he’d ever told ford: i am the monster, i am not worth your time or belief, and i will eat you alive.
#there’s nothing more pathetic than an ex god writing fix it fic for him and an old man who helped kill him#so much of my tbob theorization operates around reality and truth. probably because i’m a pretentious asshole#but also because that’s the best part imo??? like yesss fuck w the line between real and fake. see what happens#gravity falls#book of bill#bill cipher#the book of bill#book of bill spoilers#the book of bill theory#the book of bill spoilers#gravity falls theory#shutupmac#skullduggery#billford#sort of…….#stanford pines#ford pines#idk how like. legible this is#im so tired yall. im so tired and so stressed#it was write this. thing. or answer at least three uncomfortable texts. so#tw unreality#unreality#edit: fixed the last line because it was cringe#and upon rereading this it lowkey is still an oversimplification of bill and ford’s whole deal#but Fuck It We Ball#gravity falls analysis
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ok i swear i'm not going to talk about my breakup forever but the thing that just keeps bothering me:
i know that not getting what you need in a relationship is a COMPLETELY valid reason to end it but also. i feel like having a very vulnerable moment where i opened up about my struggles with intimacy and being relieved that i didn't have to keep doing things i wasn't comfortable with, then being dumped a YEAR later because of my lack of intimacy. is something i should be allowed to be very hurt by???
#ramble#sorry i'm currently in a phase of 'of course this happened' and 'oh i deserve this because i didn't give him what he wanted'#like he knew i was grey ace since the start. and he let it go on for SO long after i said i might be vaguely aro as well#if that's a dealbreaker for you bc of your love language then FINE but NIP IT IN THE BUD#he said he put it off because he didn't want to hurt my feelings but it only hurt me MORE#like you're an adult. grow the fuck up and communicate like one#holding your negative feelings in hoping somebody notices you're hiding them is what TEENAGERS do#and also i told him VERBATIM: i didn't think anyone would ever love me because i'm not comfortable with xyz. and he just confirmed that#idk i still feel like i'm being selfish because how could i expect someone to be in a relationship with me when i can't give them anything#also tmi but it's not like we did NOTHING. we still held hands/cuddled/were close. he just didn't have his tongue down my throat anymore#so obviously i'm assuming by 'missing affection' he just meant sex and as an ace person that just fucking sucks#also oh my god i HATED how much he would imply we were going to have sex. i would have to keep SAYING 'i don't like doing this'#he always spoke like it was inevitably going to happen and it didn't click how GROSS i felt about it until recently#also ALSO not to go there but i never told him WHY i struggle with it (it's sensory issues)#and like. what if something had happened to me that made it hard for me and i just wasn't ready to tell him. and then he did this#again sorry to overshare this is still just a lot for me and i have no idea if i'm being unreasonable#if you're ace and in a relationship please let me know bc i'm starting to think it'll end this way every single time
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