#LET US ENJOY THIS MOMENT

[lets-steal-an-archive]

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[suave1foru]

Never letting go

[cheaploafs]

no fights are ever won without sacrifice

[ricky-mortis]

I drew Ted from the wonderful @nabwastaken ‘s Time Bastard Au! The original design is by the talented @midnightnautilus , and was so very fun to draw!

[qui22]

sabres photographer i owe you real money (1, 2)

[angelnumber27]

violently forcing myself to have better days

[bloggingboutburgers]

Have you watched the Nimona movie? Nimona is a good movie, but people need to stop overestimating this movie and the characters in it.

I just watched it now! And yeah, I think some of the stuff is very on-the-nose and that's been a pet peeve throughout watching the movie (like, the way a lot of the antagonists are treated in particular), but to be honest... Personally I really liked it too, I think it was very solid.

Part of it is probably because I'm watching it with a pretty key timing here. My country (France) has been in turmoil lately because of some bullshit "protecting of order vs chaotic monsters" rhetoric that's caused a lot of hurt, and is causing even more hurt to this day by reframing narratives and finger-pointing where fingers shouldn't be pointed, instead of focusing on basic compassion, and so many citizens here raising their voices online about it seem to be completely buying that reframed narrative and just... Yeah, man, I don't know. It's been filling me with disgust, so I guess a movie that had a message that went "Hey, maybe don't go surprised pikachu face after someone you call a monster over and over snaps because they've been treated like shit one time too many" was a bit therapeutic to me, in return.

[nostalgia-tblr]

finally caught up a wee bit with dr who, i skipped the babies one cos it sounded terrible, went with the music episode.

good things: i like the doctor and the baddy was fun and clarose (i forgot her name twice now) is fine. also a very good episode for reaction images:

less good: i think i made a few of those faces myself while watching. what i assume was foreshadowing was pretty bad (had someone decided "one word repeated every episode" wasn't enough?). i am not sure why the doctor knew exactly what was happening, i don't mind that as an occasional plot device (they do know pretty much everything, after all) but it felt over done in this. why was there a music battle? why was there a song? WHY IS MURRAY GOLD BACK, HAD WE NOT AT LAST BANISHED HIM?

[keeps-ache]

sigh. i think i just do not like dogs very much lol

[grunklefordpines]

Wow, drunk ford! Never thought I’d see that after your “karaoke” night. People say “drunk words sober thoughts”, so what are your thoughts on Calypso, and did you and Bill ever actually date? (Am I asking this cause I wanna hear ford drunkenly gush and rant? Yes.)

(due to everything going on during the Christmas Party, I didn’t get the chance to get to my inbox!

But, now that I have the opportunity, I will begin to answer questions that were directed to Ford while he was intoxicated.. “translated” text will be in the tags)

Wwise words! (mumble mumble)..Ssober tthoughtss…..I nneed t’ write—tthat down…

Callie?..Haha…II rreally enjjoy hher company….hher ppresence is…Wwith jjust a word, oor a llook..II’m weak! Haha!

Ssshe iss..llike an angel—Jjust the...Tth—the Sweetest. Jjust the best ddate..I’mm gglad she llet me bring hher…

—But. Bbill? Ggod, ddon’t get—mme sstarted.

Wwe..nnever rreally put..a llabel on itt…Sspent a llot of ttime together..kkaraoke..mmaybe shhared a mmoment or ttwo..Bbut he betrayedd—hhe used me—Thhrew oour rellationshhip—whatever—awayy. Nnone of it mmatters anymmore.

Hhis loss.

II’m ddone—ttalkin’ aabout it.

[suave1foru]

Find your world

[sea-owl]

Me after seeing the new trailer for Kung Fu Panda 4:

[my-current-obsession]

So I've only played Baxter's step 4 (and 3) once so far so maybe I missed the options to lead me down the path I wanted, but for the first time in this game I felt pretty railroaded.

So for context, I did get romantically involved with him in step 3. Was okay breaking things off when he left because I understood a long-distance relationship wasn't feasible but I had hoped to stay in contact as friends and didn't appreciate him shutting that down. But I did respect his wishes and not even bother reaching out to him when it was clear he wanted to cut ties entirely. I chose the "for better or worse you don't really care anymore" option about how I felt when step 4 kicked in, because I'd like to believe I would be over any pain/anger from a brief fling from five years ago.

Of course, then you unexpectedly reunite and he proceeds to continue trying to freeze you out WHILE highkey reminiscing and wanting to relive all the good moments you shared, which is confusing and frustrating.

I was wanting to play things in a sort of "once bitten, twice shy" way. I was open to giving him another chance and wanted him in "my" life again, but only if HE was also willing to put in the effort. Beyond getting answers for his behavior and why things are the way they are, I actually DIDN'T want to be pushing to be part of his life. Not while he was still pushing me away. Why should I be making an effort and getting hurt repeatedly when ANY kind of relationship (not just a romantic one) takes work and dedication from BOTH sides?

But this is where the game absolutely failed to provide me the stance I wanted, which in turn make the entire resolution to the conflict not sit well with me. Once Baxter started opening up about WHY he cut ties and was continuing to be avoidant, I felt very "but thou must" about the choices. Again and again, 4-6 choices with slightly different tones/connotations that ultimately serve to reinforce how we want to help and be close to Baxter as opposed to any other more complicated or negative feelings towards him.

I understand that we're meant to like Baxter and I'm definitely not UNsympathetic to his severe self-worth issues and how that affected how he sees all relationships, but for the first time I feel like the story prioritized painting HIM in such a good light that it forgot to account for a protagonist that was anything other than 100% willing to continue loving and throwing themselves at someone that had ALREADY pushed them away and hurt them before and was CONTINUING to do so.

Why should "I" have to keep chasing relentlessly after someone who repeatedly rejects me? Why do I essentially have to keep bashing my head against this brick wall even when it's obviously bad for me?

What I desperately wanted but felt denied by was a confrontation that led to compromise. I wanted to be able to clearly express "my" hurt/anger and make it clear that while I cared about him, I WOULD NOT keep endlessly trying if he wasn't going to meet me halfway. I cannot single-handedly save the bridge that he is burning, he actually has to STOP burning it for us to get anywhere.

But no, it is only after you prove that you WILL keep trying and caring about him NO MATTER WHAT, no matter how much he continues to hurt and reject you, that he is able to overcome his issues and reciprocate. And really, what's doubly unsatisfying is... aren't we just validating his insecurities this way? It's literally by proving ourselves so stubborn and kind (to our own detriment) that he truly believes we'd never give up on him that he can trust and reach out in turn. Whereas if I had the option to make it clear HE has to work for this if he wants it, then he genuinely needs to face his problems and decides he cares about us more, that we are WORTH the risk.

A relationship takes two... but in this case I felt FORCED to do about 95% of the work in pursuing him AND playing therapist for him. It would have been much more satisfying if, after he rejects you one too many times, you CAN say "screw it" and give up on it just for him to finally turn around and be the one trying to chase YOU instead. I was frankly already pretty fed up with things, but by the ending when he avoided us AGAIN at the wedding (AFTER he'd opened up, more than once, and just generally made it clear that he DID care about you; truly this man is a master of the mixed message) I wanted DESPERATELY to just be able to say "fine, if you won't make an effort then I won't either" and leave it at that. If I was just allowed to express that dissatisfaction and hurt, then him coming around and trying to forge a true, long-lasting connection with us despite his uncertainty would have been so much better.

[unproduciblesmackdown]

speaking of bsol through speaking of xmas xtrav that like i'm so augh god hand over heart falling over (just like the bloodsong b/c it's the like conclusion of being Overwhelmed By Artistic Effect that then in the ideal version you may as well die) at the thought of the finale where you have the main plot conclude as that Story w/those Themes like ah but even then, the influence, the other the musicians now, that this whole time like yeah you have to do it even if you just keep building or die or were thwarted even prior to that b/c you didn't know you wouldn't be....but that then just like in the opening song Outlaw or sort of distillation of the theme abt being someone making art Last On Land or that at other points other characters have emerged as not really their characters not really a greek chorus but elements of the story helping to Tell It, here's Everyone again for the friendship song altogether & each with an instrument & like not even able to see it but pics & imagining & the enthusiasm & the Thematic Resonance like this is when you are pursuing these pursuits together like _o__ (splayed out facedown emoji) aaauuughhh ;;mm;; bsol finale with everyone showing up playing & singing & dancing the song celebratory finale it's all the Theme when the full cast of Characters had only ever all been together for the one standoff scene at the end & yet obviously We've known them all & everyone is outlaws which is a song like i'm already going sicko mode & this is just the intro, so yknow, The Conclusion, good lord find an iconis musical finale without that place for the celebratory outpouring of enthusiasm right amidst other feelings & situations but Good Lord Here's This in a story that'll always have been all about people's depths & heights & widths & breadths & variations & tumult & all the dimensions, people will have Brought It all over the place & it's like yes leap around together playing & singing this song together which isn't The Story but is such an extension of it b/c bsol has its show within the show quality still infused all in it & if this flurry of Actors Celebrating Outpouring We Put On This Show but still within the show you are seeing as an audience in this venue wouldn't have been part of the original plan with a whole [outside the show within the show] plotline like. embraces bsol holding it so hard my becherished

[ffverr]

When I catch you Kieron Gillen.....WHEN I CATCH YOU!!!!

I guess this makes him uncomfortable!!! It bothers him! There is a deep itch to ruin everything he writes! What is it?? Insecurity????

[lurking-latinist]

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