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Art queue refilled
finally refilling my queue! It's a lot of gem galaxies to start. I no longer consider myself to be a player of that game nor a like, "fan" of it, but I am proud of the characters I developed and the art I made, so its going up here. Just know that when that part of the queue passes thats probably it, at least for a long time.
#i speak#I still have a soft spot in my heart for the game#its just the way the discord is right now that is really killing me.#The final nail in the coffin was when they got rid of the starboard#It was what motivated me to keep working on my projects.#Without it its just not as fun to post#if starboard ever returns to the server id probably make more art#I have so much unfinished GG stuff#Like#I have a whole comic planned out and 2 pages of it finished#but i just dont even know who i would want to show it to#it makes me really sad#i check back in every few months to see if they brought it back#but it seems like im the only one mourning#alas#anyways please enjoy my silly gay rocks#i hope they are enjoyable to you all#plus once i get through them theres lots of other fun stuff to show off#so yayyyy
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Ok gang!!!
It's been a while, and I think it's time to come clear about a plan I used to have, and how I am very unsure about whether or not it's worth doing.
I technically have the first chapter of The Empire of Preys ready to go. I have basically only that. I did plan to release it on the birthday of Halfway Home's last released chapter, but the truth is: it's happening smack in the middle of an incredibly busy time for me, so I have basically nothing ready as far as promotional material goes.
Also, and it was my plan for a little while, I don't think I can sustain the one chapter per week release schedule I once had with Halfway Home --and I had to come to terms with the fact that I do not have it in me to polish that story nearly as much as I did Halfway Home. I still love it, I still want it out... but I think I'll take it much slower and at a more regular "fanfic" pace for me than what I did with HH. The story of TEoP is not completed yet. I am not completely sure on how to go about certain PoV characters. But, I feel like I can't wait for a "perfect" version like I did with HH, or I will never release this story.
So, while I'm not sure whether or not I'll actually post the first chapter on the 20th of April, I will try to begin posting it relatively soon, and make no promises on when the next one will come out.
I have, however, character portraits in the work! It's coming!! At some point!! Maybe this week if I can finish my work by then!!
Anyway, I hope you are all doing fine, and stuff is doing good, and all of the things. <3
#mass effect#halfway home#the empire of preys#once my HUGE pile of work is somewhat behind me#I plan to return to the routine of going to work in cafés to try and power through the edits + what's left#because it isn't that much tbh!#but yeah it's complicated because it's a project that is very much... not at the forefront of my mind anymore#and interest for it has dwindled overall#and there's also this thing with HH and TEoP is that I feel that because I take so much time working on it#it kind of misses the moment where it would echo the best#I think TEoP was a story for 2017-2018 it would have been *perfect* then in the sociopolitical osmosis#in 2024 it feels redundant and obvious in many ways#2024 would be a year for override#but we're not there yet#so yeah it's a weird set of project and a weird trilogy#I still deeply love the characters and settings but it's just *so much* so I need to find ways to keep myself motivated#maybe if I have time I'll replay the trilogy at some point#might help
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My ass is cooked in crit tomorrow đ
#I couldn't get to the alpha cards in time MY TREES LOOK LIKE SHIT!!!! đ„đ„đ„#At least I know I'm passing bc of midterm grades#BUT STILLLLL#My 3D work is being beaten down by senioritis#At least my gameplay/design is good#Sighhhh if only I could just keep doing that#I'm realizing my work interests lie outside of directly creating something#Saves the creativity for stories and personal projects I have motivation for :)#Too bad I gotta wait until I graduate to enjoy that UAHGG#tech artist probably what I'm gonna lean towards#though modeling characters are also really fun at times#the game animation industry is probably too competitive for me to get in straight out the bat but yes to that too#Rambles#Complaining
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It just all feels more pointless now. I think i lost some of the spirit. I dont know if its temporary or how to get it back
#found myself less passionate about my ocs and their stories and about making them real one day#but not in a good way#its not letting me go of my perfectionism or whatever instead its just like. whats the point. theyre not that good anyways#theyre as in the stories#im increasingly aware of the plot holes and the parts that are kind of held together with string in order to make the plot make sense and--#--im not sure if anyone ever could get as passionate about them as i was?#especially since like. *i* dont feel as passionate abt them as i said.#my main baby my main oc project that i cherished and hoped to make real in some way now feels like i should keep it private.#the other one that i was hoping to make into my first long term project remains unfinished plot-wise and i dont feel motivated to work--#--on it further#the one that i think has an alright plot that i could share is just kinda in the bg#and also i always felt like i was good at like...symbolism...metaphors...parallels...this kinda stuff#i felt like my stories were something you could dig into#now it feels like i overestimated them#and theyre actually painfully simple and just. idk. feels like theyre not that good#maybe its because i recently didnt have time to work on them?#and fell into a fandom that has a painfully not-deep story where i also often feel like other ppl in the community dont want me there#maybe i gotta get away from that lol#but it doesnt feel like its gonna help. idk what will.#all of this isnt giving me any relief its just making me feel empty and like i thought too greatly of myself#bcs i still want to Make things and stories and now i just feel like im lacking at that??
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i NEED to get back into writing but it's so hard and im being so brave about itđ
#i have so many tabs open i keep changing my mind about what i should write#ive just been fucking around on my laptop for like an hour idk what im doing#at first i was like well i could just warm up with some random prompts. but then i was like thats not motivating enough rn#so i was like okay i'll work on memory wip. but i don't have an outline and i've only written a little bit of the first draft#so i don't know what's going to happen which means i'd have to Think. and also read through my notes bc i don't remember what i've decided#abt the characters and worldbuilding#but like. i just cant be bothered to do thatđ#so you see the issue is laziness#i guess i should just use a simple prompt at first even tho i dont feel like it just to get over the hurdle#at least i'll have written something....#speaking it into existence I CAN WRITE REGULARLY IF I CHOOSE TO!!!#I'll need the outlet when I start my new job in august im so fucking nervous#i'll need something to keep me saneđ#and i want to actually be able to finish the projects i start! at least finish a single draft! i've done it before i can do it again!#vee.txt
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hey siri how do I stop feeling gutwrenchingly anxious in the guilt way for using the treatment methods available to me to not be in constant misery
#starlight personal#itâs very bizarre to have my life going objectively well - work is good! personal life is good! family is good!#and still be very mentally ill and feel like Iâm faking it even though I know damn well I ainât scream-sobbing every couple of days alone in#my apartment for attention because What Attention??? my cat????? Bug is never moved by my tears she cares only for string and wires#like I know that cannabis has been immensely helpful to getting me to fucking sleep on a regular schedule and thatâs integral to -#my functioning and I know that having emergency klonopin in the event of a total breakout is helpful#and I KNOW that my PMDD and depression and anxiety are very treatment resistant and ketamine is the only thing thatâs provided any -#meaningful relief and logically I know Iâm not abusing any of these#Iâm getting a promotion at work I still go out to see friends regularly I have hobbies I have a girlfriend (??? Wild right)#like clearly these things are working because iâm better now than i was for years leading up to now#SO LIKE. DONâT STOP USING THE THINGS THAT HELP. LOGICALLY THIS MEANS THESE ARE GOOD FOR ME#I always roll my eyes when ppl go off their meds b/c theyâre feeling better like babes thatâs what the meds are meant to do#if you stop taking them you stop feeling better - but itâs REALLY HARD to get past the cultural conditioning#the feeling that âbut I can white knuckle my way through this I can force myself to live withoutâ like WHY BITCH#WE DONâT HAVE TO LIVE WITHOUT#AND ALSO. WEâRE STILL GENERALLY MISERABLE BRO. EVEN WITH OUR LIFE IN A BETTER PLACE!!!#DO YOU NOT THINK THIS MEANS THAT WE SHOULD USE WHAT WE KNOW WORKS TO BE LESS MISERABLE#basically itâs really hard to not feel like a loser when the only things that help are âfunâ drugs like weed and psychedelics#I feel like Iâm being a hedonistic reprobate which 1) is actually kinda cool now that I wrote it out#2) @ myself were not a good enough liar-faker that every medical professional we see wouldnât pick up on that if that was our motivation#time to remind myself that itâs arrogant to think I could trick many trained professionals without actively trying tbh#that generally helps me get out of my self-pitying âohhhhh Iâm awful and lazy and bad and abusing substancesâ spiral#to be very mentally ill on main it is weirdly reassuring to be like âjust as my fanon interpretation of obi wan kinda hates himself but is -#practical enough to take care of himself even when it makes him cringe and want to scratch his face off; I too am aware that self-care is -#radical and punk and In Fact Necessary to beat back the dark and live in the light with hope so yes even though I doubt and -#feel squiggly and guilty about it Iâm not going to NOT prioritize my health and well-being b/c self-hatred and self-denial benefits no oneâ#thank you inner obi wan i love projecting my issues onto you mwah mwah mwah smooches for my favorite boy!!!!!#and smooches for me Iâm going to be proud of myself gosh darn it even if I have to fake it at first#see I wouldnât be able to be nice to myself like this if I hadnât been doing ketamine treatment for a year IT WORKS BRO KEEP IT UP#SCHEDULE THE DAMN APPOINTMENT AND CLEAN YOUR BONG
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Writing or drawing always end up kinda the same way :
I notice a plot hole/interesting dynamic to play with ; i start to daydream about it whenever I draw something else or vibe to music ; it gets fleshed out slowly by thinking and imagining scenes in my heads ; I get the urge to draw/write ; i either draw something (either full on illustration or refs) or write out the scene i replayed endless time. Rinse and repeat until I get confused on the timeline of stuff. Only then do i (in both cases) write out an outline. I try to stay vague and only the plot defining moments/cool scene I really want to keep to not loose the fuel. That works... Sometimes lmao
For comics it's a bit different.
I get an idea (more often than not very vague) and write the dialogues. Something nice and quick paced. Then I draw out the thumbnails. Something nice and quick to get a good reading flow. Most of the time I redo my pages bigger to have a better idea of how to place my character/object/text in each frame. Then it's my usual drawing process : 1/2 sketchs. Line. Flats. Multiply, overlay and luminosity away.
And for characterization OH BOI that's another can of worms.
For me, it's like getting to know someone. At first, you're trying to get a feel with pretty general informations : what age feels right, personality, personal background. In this stage, the character feels a bit one dimensional, not much in the way of deeper motivations or goals. From there, I just put them in dire/interesting situations. I gauge their reactions from writing it out or just imagining it. Getting to know slowly how they would react all the while keeping in mind their past experiences, likes, dislikes and (once I know enough) I set a clear goal for them.
All in all, it's also impacted by others headcanons or just random thoughts. Sometimes I ask myself "would Y like lemons ?" And I have this feeling it's "yes, they munch on it like a feral animal and that's concerning." In a way, it's playing god by putting characters in random situations and just observing how they resolve it on their own. More than I choose their way of acting, I get to know them ? They act and I write. Sometimes they don't do something I expect and just write themself.
OK, so I was inspired and now I wanna start a bigger conversation and I wanna know: fic writers, comic makers, au creators, etc. how do you do it? How do you go from plot bunny or story idea to completed chapters/story/comic update? What's your process? What programs do you use? Do you draft stuff? Outline? Storyboard? Do you chart or sketch? How do you settle on characters and characterizations? How do you plot (or do you)? I wanna know all the nitty gritty details. It's just so interesting because everyone does it so differently.
#lots of rambling#most of my process works around and with my ADHD#i HAVE to keeo each steps as engaging and new as the previous one to not loose the motivation/interest#sometimes its frustrating because its less about disliking the current projet and more my brain being difficult#it makes long winded projects like comics hard to manage long term withour burn out#have to do the best with the cards i was dealt#at least i have a very good visualization capacity#pretty much a 10/10 imagination to reality perception#i can see the sillies in my brain like in cinema#well that's a bit different but its the closest comparition i can explain fast#anyways lots of my process is dissociating into the story and shaking my motivation back and forth to keep it going#rambling#reblog đ#characterization is so weird to me#be it canon characters or ocs#its like sitting into a speed dating room#you never what will come at your table next#thought after a few more dates#you get a hint to who they are more clearly
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ADHD tips from a girlie who was diagnosed in her late twenties and has had little to no support since and is being so brave about it:
1) Make it easy, make it accessible, and make it appealing. If anything this is the most important thing, all tips going forward are based around this concept.
2) That thing you think would help you but you havenât bought/done it yet because youâre technically surviving without it? Buy it, you need it. It doesnât matter if people around you might think itâs wasteful or that youâre lazy, youâre not, just do it, trust me.
3) Expanding on tip #2, if youâre like me and eggs are your main source of protein because theyâre quick and easy and feeding yourself is a near insurmountable task- buy yourself an electric egg cooker, make a bunch of hard boiled eggs and keep them in your fridge for quick and easy protein to add to any meal (handful of crackers, a hard boiled egg and a banana? 5 star meal right there. Or mash them up with some mayo for egg salad sandwiches). Other easy proteins include: potstickers (put them in instant ramen), edamame (they have microwaveable snack packs), chickpeas (put in salads!), beans (can of beans microwaved with shredded cheese and some tortilla chips), peanut butter (with crackers, apple and cheese, adult lunchable style), and tofu (cut into cubes, throw them into a ziplock with some seasoning and potato starch, shake that shit up and bake it until crispy).
4) Spend a little extra (if you are able) on daily use items that excite you, it will make you more likely to remember/want to do said daily task. For example: the only reason I remember to use sunscreen is because I bought some fancy japanese sunscreen that smells like roses so I get excited to use it, same for laundry detergent and body wash! thereâs a gajillion different body wash scents out there, switch it up!
5) If thereâs a task you continuously struggle with take a moment to think about which part of the task is making it difficult, it could be something even as small as âI donât put my dirty clothes in the hamper because my hamper has a lid on it and lifting the lid is one step too many-â, sounds a little stupid huh? But trust your gut, itâs not stupid if it works. See tip #2 and BUY A HAMPER WITHOUT A LID.
6) If you are having trouble starting a task, break the task down further, sometimes the way I start a task is just by going âOk step 1) stand up-â and so forth. Donât worry about the task as a whole just take it one step at a time.
7) If youâre halfway through a task and have to stop, leave it out. All this, âPut things away when youâre done with them.â is bullshit. you will be much more likely to finish the task if restarting it is easier because you left it out plus itâs a visual reminder. You can also create faux deadlines like âI gotta finish this project before my friend comes over on tuesday because after I finish it I can clean off the dinner table.â etc.
8) Itâs okay to outsource tasks and donât let anyone tell you otherwise, humans are designed to ask for, and to require help (what do babies do when theyâre first born?? cry for help!!) ask for help and receive help without shame, if it makes your life better, you are WINNING.
9) If you have one big overwhelming task that you think you need to get done before anything else, but you feel motivated to do other tasks, do those other tasks first, itâs okay. Otherwise in all likelihood (at least in my case) youâll put everything off until the last minute and then have to do said overwhelming task and those other tasks wonât get done at all. Doing those smaller tasks also lowers the mental load and you can use them as a motivation launch pad to tackle bigger things.
10) If you notice you tend to not put something away/forget to do something, perhaps consider moving and storing the item closer to where it ultimately ends up or where you are more likely to see it. For example, my makeup, pills, and mail are all stored on my desk because thatâs where I tend to do my makeup, take my pills and deal with my mail. I used to store my pills in my bathroom medicine cabinet but all too often I would forget because they werenât in my line of sight. Now that theyâre on my desk, I have multiple chances per day to pass by them, go âoh I gotta take those.â and take them.
11) Open storage, open storage, OPEN STORAGE.
12) Motivation can look like all kinds of things. sometimes the only reason I get out of bed is because I remember I have a fun snack and I get to go eat it if I get up. Itâs okay to lean into those simple âanimal-brainâ type motivators, youâll eat because then you can use that fun new kitchen gadget you got a daiso? Neat. youâll shower because then you can paint your nails that fun new color you got? Fantastic. Youâll go to the dmv and do that annoying thing because youâll take yourself out for boba after? Superb. Lean-IN to those small motivators, they arenât stupid or childish, they are VITAL.
13) Donât buy into the cult of âif itâs worth doing, do it properlyâ itâs guaranteed to set you up for failure. If itâs worth doing, do it in whatever capacity you are able to. I put sunscreen on once a day because thatâs fucking better than not doing it at all and I sure as all hell will fail at reapplying it multiple times a day. If itâs worth doing, do it half-assed babieeee.
Go forth and prosper!!! xoxo âïžđ©”
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Training for Two
Chapter 7. Motivated, Sir!
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Summary: You struggle to keep up with your freelance work - Soap has the wonderful idea of bringing you and Riley to base.
Warnings: cursing, yeah.
Sure enough, Simon had requested your services about three days after youâd run into him in the cafĂ©.
He had sent you an email the Tuesday following your run in. It was the same as before â short and to the point. leaving thursday at 0900. riley will need her meds at 1300. iâll be on base for a few days for trainig, wonât be far. call if you need anything.
You showed up no later than twelve-thirty, your backpack hanging off one shoulder and a fresh bag of peanut-butter-bacon cookies in your free hand. You cooed and smiled at Riley as she all but attacked you as you entered through the front door. She seemed to have grown to miss you, which had your heart swelling with pride. People pleaser and a puppy pleaser, it seems.
After a dose of her medicine and a much-needed walk through one of the nearby parks, you crashed on Simonâs couch to do some freelance work. With your feet kicked up onto the coffee table (politely, with your socks on and your shoes by the front door), you tapped and clicked away at your laptop, fiddling with the edge of your sweatshirt as you concentrated.
You may have bitten off more than you could chew, as much as you hated to admit it. Prancing your skill online â boosting social media posts that boasted about your expertise in logo design and marketing had brought in more customers than you anticipated. Recognition was exciting, and you had taken on four clients at once; something you were currently and mentally kicking yourself for. The burnout had settled in quickly after you finished the first portfolio of logo samples, and you wanted nothing more than to take a nap with Riley as your blanket.
You sighed, sinking further into the couch cushions and running your hands over your face. You were dangerously low on motivation.
A few moments later, you were holding your phone, listening to each ring as you chewed on the edge of your sleeve. A bad habit, one that your mother had tried to break you of in your teenage years, but you stubbornly kept to it.
Soon, the phone picked up with a click. âHey, babe.â
âHi TylerâŠâ you said with a relived exhale. âYou busy?â
âEh-â he grunted; you heard the sound of tinkering in the background, and the voice of the secretary at his main office. âIâve got a moment. Everything alright?â
You sighed. âYeah⊠nothingâs wrong, Iâm just stuck.â
âHow so?â
âWellâ â you sat upright, crossing your feet under you and putting your laptop to the side â âIâve finished the one project, and now I-â
âWhich project?â Tyler interjected. You heard beeping, followed by one of his coworkers asking for a wire stripper.
âThe logo design for that new attorneyâs office off of main and thirty-fourth.â
âOh! Yeah yeah, I remember.â
You cleared your throat. âYeah, I finished that one. I have three other projects now, and one is due by the-â
âThree?! I thought you just had the one!â
A sigh escaped your lips. âI did, and then more clients flooded in, I just got ahead of myself-â
âSweetheart- here, Max, hold this for a second- you got too much on your plate. Youâve already been house-sitting for that one guy, Sam-â
â-Simon.â
âRight, yeah. But, doll, maybe you need a break. Can you tell him that you need him to find someone else for now?â
You faltered. âYouâre saying quit the house-sitting gig?â
âNot quit, I know Riley likes you â but maybe just have him get another guy to finish the week.â
âI canât do that!â you said, a bit taken aback that Tyler of all people, Mr. Work-Till-You-Drop himself, would suggest that you let go of a project. âHe canât exactly find a different sitter right now, heâs not going to be home.â
âAlright, alright- what about dropping one of the logo gigs?â
âThat would look bad for my business.â
âWell, babe-â you heard someone call for him in the background of the call. â-give me a sec, Ron, itâs important- I donât know what to tell you. You bit off more than you can chew, it sounds like.â
Your heart dropped into your stomach; why am I bothering him? Heâs working, and this isnât something he can exactly help with. âYeah- Iâm sorry. Iâm just- I dunno. I need something to motivate me.â
âDonât be sorry, sweetheart.â Tyler sighed; you could hear the pinch in his brow. âIâm not trying to be short with you, I⊠eh, I guess this wasnât the best time, hmm? Tell you what: when Sam comes back-â
âSimon.â You said with a chuckle.
âShit, sorry- when Simon gets back, and youâre back home, letâs have a day in, yeah? You pick a movie, Iâll get the takeaway, and have a look at your portfolio. Sound good?â
You smiled, the knot in your stomach easing up a bit. âYeah, sounds like paradise.â
âGood.â Tyler said, and you could hear the smile in his tone. âIâll make sure it is. Let your mind rest a bit, alright? And give Riley a kiss for me.â
âWhat, I donât get one?â
âYours are automatic!â
âLeavinâ me for a dog, are you?â
âI wouldnât leave you for Aphrodite.â
You smiled. âI love you. But go back to work! I donât want Ron to hate me.â
Tyler chuckled, the sound sending butterflies fluttering in your stomach. âAlright. Love you too.â
You ended the call, tossing the phone onto the cushion next to you. Why did I call him? He was at work â I knew that. He doesnât even know anything about design. I could have texted him â or I could have just left him alone. Why would I even bother him with this? How could he have helped?
You groaned, closing your laptop and moving it to the coffee table. Looking across the room, you saw that Riley was no longer in her bed, her blanket partially spilling onto the floor next to it. She whined; you turned your head to find her sitting at the door. She met your gaze, licking her lips and tapping her feet anxiously on the floor.
âDo you need to go out?â
She whined again, impatient.
âWhy didnât you say anything?â you huffed, standing on your feet and stretching your limbs. She trotted over to you with a groan, then back to the door.
You followed her there, slipping on your shoes. You reached into the closet and grabbed her leash, leaning down to clip it onto her collar. She grunted and jerked her head back, taking a few steps away from you.
Confusion settled on your face. âCâmon girl, donâtcha want to go for a walk?â
She let out a few voofs, raising a paw and stomping it indignantly. You tried again, reaching out with the clip of the leash, but she darted away once more. She stood by the closet and barked shrilly, still staring at you.
This lasted for a few more minutes; youâd stand there, taking every woo and wuff that she threw at you. After a few moments of the following silence, youâd take a step towards her, holding up the leash with a cocked brow, and sheâd huff and turn in a circle.
âIâm sorry I donât speak awoowoo.â You said in frustration, putting your hands on your hips. âspreek je Nederlands?â
She huffed dramatically, lying down and resting her nose on her front paws. You sighed yourself and headed back towards the couch â she yipped, whining at you through her nose.
âWhat?â you asked, throwing your hands up. âI donât know what you want!â
She barked back at you. Helpful.
You groaned. This wasnât getting you anywhere. You went back to the couch and grabbed your phone, flopping stomach-first onto the cushions. Riley trotted over to your side and whined, sitting politely on the rug.
With a few clicks, Simonâs contact appeared on your phone; well, it was Rileyâs face, her snout taking up most of the camera and her ears tucked back against her head as she had sniffed the lens in the moment. You chewed your lip. Itâs not an emergency⊠but maybe he forgot to tell me about part of her routine? She hadnât acted this upset the last time you were here⊠and she had certainly never indicated no when you got ready to take her outside.
You pressed the call button, putting your phone on speaker. Not half a ring had passed before Simon answered.
âWhaâs wrong? âS Riley ok?â
âN- hi, Simon â yeah, Rileyâs ok. She-â
âAre you ok?â
You chuckled. âYes, Iâm fine. This isnât an emergency.â
You heard him sigh, and quickly tried to deescalate the situation. âSorry, I didnât mean to worry you-â
âDonât apologize,â he said, âya did nothinâ wrong. I know you wouldnât call if it wasnât important.â
You laughed again. âWell, I donât really know if it is or isnât â Iâm trying to take Riley out for a stroll, and she wonât go,â
âNo?â
âNo. I try to put her leash on and she runs away. Sheâs yapping at me though, like sheâs got something to say.â You looked at her, reaching a finger to boop her nose.
You heard the faint sound of gunshots in the background of the call. You had half a mind to ask if he was in battle- war- whatever they called it- at the moment, until you remembered that he said he was training this week. âYa sure she needs tâ go out?â
âSheâs acting like she does.â You said, rolling onto your side.
He grunted. âPain flarinâ up?â
âSheâs not limping.â
âBiscuit?â
âSheâs had her first daily.â
He sighed. âBeats me. Iâd think she was-â
âOi! LT!â
You listened closely, suddenly drawn to the commotion beyond the speaker. âSimon?â
âOne sec, luv-â he said quickly. âIâm busy, Soap-â
âCap needs ye back oan thâ feld. One oâ the Jimmies hud oâ nice fall.â
âFuckinâ wot?â
âOne oâ the rookies collapsed.â Soap was now closer to the phone; close enough that you could hear he was out of breath. âCap wants ye out there.â
âTell him Iâm busy.â
âTell âim yer feckinâ self, ye dry piece oâ shite-â
Riley suddenly barked, making you jolt. She stood with her paws on the edge of the couch and staring at the phone.
âAwe, thaâ mah girl?â Soap said from the other line. âMah Bonnie, yea? She miss me?â
ââM on the fuckinâ phone, Johnny.â
âAh know, Iâm talkinâ to the pup.â
You thought for a moment, as Simon and Soap bickered in the background. Maybe, Riley misses Simonâs coworkers? She used to work with them⊠judging on her reaction â panting and ears perked up as she listened to the conversation â youâd guess you were right.
âHey, uh⊠Simon?â
â- hm?â Simon halted his bickering with Soap at the sound of your voice.
âDoes she maybe want to see your- team? Or Soap, at the very least?â
âAye, she does.â Soap chimed in, making Riley whine. âYa hear thaâ? She misses âer olâ uncle Johnny.â
âBugger off, mate.â Simon grumbled.
You suddenly felt like you made a mistake even voicing your thoughts. âSorry if itâs not a good idea, I just heard how she reacted to Soapâs voice, and, yâknow â how she used to work with you allâŠâ you chuckled at yourself. âNow that I think about it, I probably couldnât even get on base, could I?â
âIt would-â
âNone oâ that keech!â Soap said, cutting off Simon for the umpteenth time. âGhost, ye can tell the gate guards youâll be expectinâ er. Or cap, heâll vouch for âer. Want tae see my girl.â
You felt a bout of excitement roll through your veins. âI think that would be great! And Iâd get to meet you all finally. I should know who Simon travels the world with, right?â
There was a moment of silence over the phone, save for the distant gunfire and the cadence of orders being called out. You wondered if you had said something wrong; âtravel the worldâŠâ itâs deployment, not a vacation. Why did I say that?
âDonât see why not.â Simon finally said, and you sighed quietly.
âYou sure?â you confirmed.
âItâs jusâ what the pup needs.â Soap said. âProbably misses âer other friends, too-â
âJusâ head towards the naval base, nâ Iâll send you the address to the gate.â Simon said with a huff. âTell them youâre here for Ghost.â
âGhostâŠâ you repeated.
ââS my callsign. Oh, and, uh- put âer harness on. She wears that to base, probably why she wonât take jusâ the leash.â
You smiled, heart fluttering a bit at the information. âGreat! Iâll see you soon!â
âDrive safe.â
You bit your lip as the call ended, that warmth still bubbling within your chest. A thousand, fleeting questions circled within your head as you rolled onto your side, clutching your phone to your chest. Does he call everyone luv? What gave him the callsign âGhostâ? I wonder what his team is like⊠I wonder what Johnny- Soap?- is like. I wonder if theyâre all as attractive as-
Riley barked; you yelped, body tensing as you were torn from your thoughts. She pawed at you, still standing on her two hind legs and yowling lowly in your direction.
âAlright, alright- letâs go!â you rolled off the couch, equally as excited as she was. She happily obliged to sit next to you when you grabbed the harness from the closet, slipping it over her head and latching the leash to its back. She then eagerly trotted to the door, tapping her feet anxiously and whining.
You stuffed your feet into your shoes (you hoped that a sweatshirt, leggings, and rain boots would be appropriate for bringing your clientâs dog on a military base). You stepped out into the overcast day, locking Simonâs door behind you and shoving the key into your bra; excitement boiled underneath your veins as the two of you headed over to your car, right as your phone buzzed with Simonâs text.
Simon watched as your contact photo faded from the screen. His eyes hardened as he turned to Johnny â the bloke had a cheeky grin on his face, staring right back at his lieutenant. Simon wanted to grab him by his mohawk and swing him into the wall like a discus.
âWhaâ?â Soap said innocently, shoulders shrugging with irreproachability. âI miss âer.â
âYa donât have nothinâ to miss, you wanker.â Simon snarled, stuffing his phone into his back pocket. âYouâve never met âer.â
âThe dog, ya git.â Soap sighed. His eyes narrowed in amused suspicion. âYer awfully protective oâ the lass, donât ye think?â
Oh, Simon could have launched the Scot into next week. He knew what he was doing, the bastard. He knew Johnny was either going to try and pair you with himself, sweep you off your feet and charm you with his stupid blue eyes and bright smile â or, he was going to pitch you with his lieutenant. Simon didnât like not knowing how to prepare himself: to either cockblock you and Johnny, or to refuse any advances Johnny made to him on your behalf.
Soap huffed, not intimidated in the slightest by Ghostâs dissociative, angry stare. âCalm doon, LT.â he said, shoving his shoulder with two, sturdy fingers. âSheâs got a lad, aye? I jusâ want tae see Riley. Iâll leave your precious house-sitter alone.â He held a hand up and crossed a finger over his chest. âScoutâs honor.â
âYou were never in Boy Scouts.â Ghost grumbled.
âDoes it make a difference?â Soap said with a quirked eyebrow.
Simon sighed, leaving Soap on the training field to find Price. He had to let him know youâd be coming to base, or youâd be stopped at the gate and turned away â or worse, dragged off by the military police. It would be a surefire way of keeping you away from Soap, but it was also rather unhospitable. Riley wouldnât be too impressed, either.
Still, Johnny had a point. Why was he fretting? You werenât his.
âJusâ keep an eye on the recruits. Be back in a moment.â He said over his shoulder.
âAye, LT.â Soap responded: Simon could hear the grin on his face.
Smug bastard.
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hot girl tips to be more productive
With a million things to do, where do we find the time? Sometimes it can be so easy to just procrastinate, not do your work and keep pushing it back till it's too late. Let's not do that anymore.
5-minute rule - start small. If you've been putting something off for a long time, trying to commit 1 hour to it can be challenging. You can't do a marathon without a warm-up first! Could you set a timer for 5 minutes to do that task? After 5 minutes if you want to continue, go for it; if you don't, that's okay, because at least you've done 5 minutes today, which is better than 0. Tomorrow or later in the day, try to challenge yourself to do 7 minutes this time, then 10, then 15, and you will get into that rhythm.
Eliminate distractions - it's all because of that damn phone đ but seriously, tech and social media can have such a tight grip over our productivity and our attention. If you cannot control your usage, set app timers that lock the app after you use it for a certain amount of time or delete the app. I've been using a minimalist phone launcher called 'OLauncher' that removes all my icons and makes me manually have to type and search for the app. In the time it takes me to search for the app, I get to ask myself, "What am I looking for? Do I need to use it for something specific or do I just want to scroll?"
Schedule properly - note down all your commitments and non-negotiables in an app like Google Calendar and make sure all your big events are displayed there. Some people can fall into the habit of planning every second of their day, but I instead delegate a few tasks to each day and give myself any time within the day to complete them, the important thing being not when I do them, but that I do them in the end.
Write to-do lists - now this doesn't just mean in-app lists, which are very useful. Physically write them out. I use a scrap piece of paper and I write: "Today I WILL..." and then list all the things I want to get done. Having it written down helps me commit to it more and the feeling of ticking it is so satisfying.
Know your WHY - Why are you doing this? Why do you want to be more productive? Why do you want to study more? Always look at the bigger picture. Where do you want to be and how will your productivity help you get there?
Celebrate your wins - whether you completed all the things on your to-do list or just one, be proud of it. Some days, you will feel super motivated and fly through all your tasks, and other days you just want to stay in bed and do nothing. Making an effort is the first step to your success.
No matter whether your goal is to complete a project, get good grades, get into the school of your dreams, or just get your work out of the way so you can focus on other things, tackle it little by little. Just 20 minutes every day for a week is better than trying to do 140 minutes worth of work on the last day.
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77 quotes to change your perspective
carl jung
"if the path before you is clear, you are probably on someone else's."
"until you make the unconscious conscious, it will direct your life, and you will call it fate."
"the world will ask who you are, and if you do not know, the world will tell you."
"it all depends on how we look at things and not how they are in themselves."
"there is no coming to consciousness without pain."
joe dispenza
"can you accept the notion that once you change your internal state, you do not need the external world to provide you with a reason to feel joy, gratitude, appreciation, or any other elevated emotion?"
"if you want a new outcome, you will have to break the habit of being yourself and reinvent a new self."
"if you were to start investing your attention and energy into the unknown, your body would then be able to follow your mind into the unknownâa new experience in your future."
"if you cannot get beyond your stresses, your problems, and your pain, you cannot create a new future where those things do not exist."
"if you focus on the known, you get the known. if you focus on the unknown, you create a possibility."
eckhart tolle
"the primary cause of unhappiness is never the situation but your thoughts about it."
"life is not as serious as the mind makes it out to be."
"you find peace not by rearranging the circumstances of your life but by realizing who you are at the deepest level."
"pleasure is always derived from something outside you, whereas joy arises from within."
"most of the so-called bad things that happen in people's lives are due to unconsciousness. they are self-created, or rather ego-created."
wayne dyer
"when you judge another, you do not define them, you define yourself."
"you are not stuck where you are unless you decide to be."
"begin to see yourself as a soul with a body rather than a body with a soul."
"be miserable. or motivate yourself. whatever has to be done, it is always your choice."
"you are what you choose to be today. not what you have chosen to be before."
louise hay
"every thought we think is creating our future."
"i do not fix problems. i fix my thinking. then problems fix themselves."
"you have been criticizing yourself for years, and it has not worked. try approving of yourself and see what happens."
"there is no written law that says that because you once believed something, you have to continue to believe it forever."
"the more we love ourselves, the less we project our pain onto the world."
jen sincero
"if you are serious about changing your life, you will find a way. if you are not, you will find an excuse."
"your life is your party. you get to choose how you invite people and experiences and things into it."
"you need to go from wanting to change your life to deciding to change your life."
"what you tell yourself on a daily basis is more powerful than you know."
"comparison is the fastest way to take all the fun out of life."
tony robbins
"it is your decisions and not your conditions that determine your destiny."
"you cannot have a plan for your day until you have a plan for your life."
"belief in limits creates limited people."
"the only thing that is keeping you from getting what you want is the story you keep telling yourself."
"if i could uncover what beliefs and values control me, i could literally redesign myself."
marcus aurelius
"the happiness of your life depends upon the quality of your thoughts."
"our life is what our thoughts make it."
"the best revenge is not to be like your enemy."
"every living organism is fulfilled when it follows the right path for its own nature."
"today i escaped anxiety. or no, i discarded it because it was within me, in my own perceptionsânot outside."
jay shetty
"the more we define ourselves in relation to the people around us, the more lost we are."
"actually, the greatest detachment is being close to everything and not letting it consume and own you."
"it is impossible to build one's own happiness on the unhappiness of others."
"if you are satisfied with who you are, you do not need to prove your worth to anyone else."
"the grass is greener where you water it."
mel robbins
"if you only ever did the things you do not want to do, you would have everything you have ever wanted."
"you are one decision away from a completely different life."
"when it comes to change, goals, and dreams, you have to bet on yourself."
"change your decisions, and you will change your life. and what will change your decisions more than anything? courage."
"if you have the courage to start, you have the courage to succeed."
alan watts
"man suffers only because he takes seriously what the gods made for fun."
"never pretend to a love which you do not actually feel, for love is not ours to command."
"you are under no obligation to be the same person you were 5 minutes ago."
"a person who thinks all the time has nothing to think about except thoughts. so, he loses touch with reality and lives in a world of illusions."
"hurrying and delaying are alike ways of trying to resist the present."
ram dass
"the quieter you become, the more you can hear."
"your problem is you are too busy holding on to your unworthiness."
"i can do nothing for you but work on myselfâŠyou can do nothing for me but work on yourself."
"free yourself from the illusion of good and bad days. labeling time makes us nostalgic for the past and demanding the future. there is only here and now. let it be."
"no matter what someone else does to you, never put anyone out of your heart."
lao tzu
"care about what other people think, and you will always be their prisoner."
"the best fighter is never angry."
"respond intelligently even to unintelligent treatment."
"if you do not change direction, you may end up where you are heading."
"nature never hurries, yet everything is accomplished."
muhammad ali
"if my mind can conceive it, and my heart can believe itâthen i can achieve it."
"do not quit. suffer now and live the rest of your life as a champion."
"he who is not courageous enough to take risks will accomplish nothing in life."
"i have never let anyone talk me into not believing in myself."
"i am the greatest. i said that even before i knew i was."
steve harvey
"you cannot leave what is important to you up to someone else."
"stop wasting time looking at someone else's reality while doing nothing about yours."
"the dream is free, but the hustle is sold separately."
"your dream has to be bigger than your fear."
"you cannot tell big dreams to small-minded people."
albert einstein
"i am enough of an artist to draw freely upon my imagination. imagination is more important than knowledge. knowledge is limited. imagination encircles the world."
"anyone who has never made a mistake has never tried anything new."
đŻ entryfromsane004 (extracted from the old blog two years ago)
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wave | lee donghyuck (part two)
part 1 | masterpost | full fic not split in two
pairing: lee donghyuck x fem reader genre: college au, academics rivals to lovers, kinda fake dating, forced to work together on a project, smut, fluff, humor (idk), music major!haechan, music major!mc | not really requested but thank you đ anon for the inspo summary: your indifference toward Lee Donghyuck, also known as Haechan, becomes rivalry when he decides to sabotage you. The battle turns into a war, the war turns into a plan, and the plan, well, the plan fails miserably... or succeeds wonderfully. After all, itâs all about points of view. Or, Haechan thinks he found a way to distract you and be better than you, but doesnât think it thoroughly and screws it up. warnings: smut, weed/alcool consumption, thigh riding, oral (receiving, giving), unprotected sex, teasing, etc | inclusivity notes: reader wears different hairstyles (no mention of texture, type and color), no mention of body type (but haechan lifts her a few times), no mention of skin color, no use of y/n wc: 20.3k (out of 42k)
a/n: hereâs the second part. please if you liked it leave feedback (comments, reblogs, asks), i love knowing your opinions and it keeps me motivated to keep posting my writing. enjoy!
After too many dates, too many studying sessions together, and in general too much time spent together âeven with his group of friendsâ you feel like this is a relationship that simply hasnât been named, yet. Something about everything doesnât feel like just sex and hate.
Youâre fine like this, for once believing you can let loose a little and still do well in your studies.
Haechan, instead, thinks his plan is going amazingly. He knows he has you distracted, he knows he takes away your time, and he knows everything is technically perfect. But the plan is not the best made of his life, and the more time passes, the more he forgets about it, and the more he thinks about you.
He never planned to use you, that had to be clear. He just wanted to distract you with sex âsomething you both wanted to haveâ and give you a boyfriend experience so you could write the song in the best way possible. But in doing all that, he is more caught up in you âand not only because of the plan, he is just caught up in youâ than in his studies.
Itâs nine pm on Sunday after he dropped you home around four pm this afternoon. He made you meet his girl friends too for lunch and then you went back to his place to stay together for a while. But even if you spent almost the entire day together, he still misses you.
He rolls on his back as he goes into his contacts to text you again, he doesnât have to scroll down, youâre second on the list since he last annoyed you forty minutes ago but you still havenât replied.Â
haechan: can you answer me?
haechan: i miss you : (
haechan: you didnât even let me eat you out
haechan: you looked so pretty in that skirt i think it looks better with my head underneath it
haechan: fuck and now iâm hard thinking about you
mortal enemy: the only hard thing should be the books you should be studying on, remember we have a test tomorrow?
âFuck,â he screams, sitting up. âWhat?â
He never forgets these things. He always writes them down in his agenda that he maniacally reads every day to make sure heâs always on time with his studying schedule. He canât have forgotten about it. But, apparently, he did.
His thumb quickly wipes to call you and your answer doesnât let him wait.
âIâm studying,â you huff annoyed as you pick up his phone call right away.
âWhy would you go out with me if tomorrow we have a test?â
Your chuckle reaches his ear through the phone before he gets to hear your voice again. âWhy not?â
âDonât you want to be the top one? What about your grades? This adds up for the finals.â Panic fills his voice, heâs hoping you remembered just now and havenât been studying since you went back, but youâre too relaxed for that to be true.
âYeah, I know,â you reply, too calmly for his liking. Was his plan working? No, because you knew about it. And he completely erased the test, too busy thinking about you.
âAnd you go out?â He asks again as anxiety starts to take over him.
âWhy would I lock myself up before a test? Itâs not even that serious. Thereâs the topic you pick, and then like four questions that will surely be the main things we discussed in class, Professor Kim only knows one way of making tests.â
He groans, he canât believe youâre always so ahead of him. âHow do you know these things?â
âI use my brain,â you reply nonchalantly. Â
âSo you started studying⊠when you got home?â
âLast week.â
âLast week? Are you kidding me?â He screams so loud that heâs sure you have to move the phone from your ear.
You sigh, rubbing your temples, Haechan knows it, you always do that when he pisses you off somehow. âYou didnât open the book at least once until now?â Â
âIâŠâ I would usually read through the notes at least once a week, but Iâve been too busy. âIâve⊠I read the notes, until some weeks ago. I got busy, okay?â
âWere you perhaps distracted by something Hyuck?â You ask teasingly, and he can see you twirl the end of your hair in your fingers while your tongue pokes at your cheek.
âNothing distracts me,â he mutters, frowning even if you canât see him.
âThen hang the call and try to read the notes at least, Iâll send you the recordings of the lessons, play them all night maybe something will stick to your brain.â
âOkay, bye. Wish me good luck, please,â he says, and you chuckle. âNo seriously, donât manifest against me, I need all your good energy.â
âI will, Hyuck. Just give it a quick read and then try to get as much sleep as possible. You have a brain and youâre smart with it, itâs better for you to be active tomorrow than force information that just wonât get in, alright?â
He hums, weirdly feeling a bit calmer at your words. ââkay, goodnight, babe.â
âGoodnight.â
Haechan sighs, slumping on the bed, boner long gone and anxiety on his chest, until the screen lights up again and a few messages from you show up.
mortal enemy: 10 audios + 10 files âmusic theory notesâ sent the audios anyway but my *perfect* notes should be enough to not make you pull up an all-nighter also donât stress too much, I appreciate the act of chivalry to make me top this class grades again :;
He forgot about an exam, he didnât study for it, yet heâs smiling like an idiot because of you.
Haechanâs screwed.
âSo, how did it go?â You ask, blocking Haechan as soon as the bell rings and Professor Kim dismisses the class, letting you know the results will be in next week.
Haechan glares at you, and you suck your teeth. âCome on, it wasnât that difficult,â you say, sitting on his desk, as he looks for something in his bag.
âI did great, I just donât want to admit your notes are perfect and were enough to save my ass,â he says, and you canât hold back the smile.
âYouâre welcome,â you say, standing up and kicking him playfully with a swing of your hips.
âHey! You couldâve made me fall,â he jokes, grabbing his bag before taking a step back so you can lead the way out of there. âAnd thank you.â
You chuckle, lowering your head to hide that dumb grin on your face. âYou know, I wanted to ask you why we never revisited music theory but I thought you wanted to do it on your own, maybe you were scheming something against me.â
âWhat? I would never scheme against you,â he says as you start walking to lunch.
You stare at him with a raised brow, and he huffs. âIt was in the past and you did it too. Also, what would I scheme?â
âI donât know, maybe you sneaked into his office and stole the test to already know the answers?â
âThat would be cheating, not beating you. Thereâs no fun in that,â he says, holding the door of the cafeteria open for you.
âYouâre such a fair rival,â you joke as you head to the buffet to grab something to eat.
âWait,â he stops you when your plates are full. âWhy donât you sit at our table? I hate seeing you eat alone.â
âHave you ever considered I canât stand how loud your friends are?â
âOh come on, you already deal with them when you come to my place.â
âExactly.â
Haechan huffs, standing in front of you to stop you from going toward your table. âWe can go to yours today.â
You furrow, lightly tilting your head to the side. âWe donât have anything to study.â You try to decipher his expression and think if you could get so distracted to forget something you had to work on or revisit. Â âThe song?â
He shakes his head. âI mightâŠâ he pauses, trying to find a way to say what he wants to say thatâs not so humiliating, but then he gives up with a heavy sigh that rolls from his lips. âOkay, I need help.â
âYou?â You scream, attracting some attention on you, and Haechan glares at you, pulling you to the sides so that the curious gazes can linger away from you.
âYes, me,â he replies through gritted teeth. âItâs just a small thing, but I donât get it.â
You smirk smugly and he rolls his eyes. âFine, I canât wait to tutor you,â you reply, starting to walk to his group of friendsâ table.
âWhy canât I ever win with you?â He whispers, shaking his head and following you.
Youâre not sure Haechan told you the truth. He is smart but he isnât the best actor ever, and when he came to your place to try to understand that small thing he didnât understand in sociology, you were pretty sure it was just an excuse. You explained it in less than five minutes, he got it too quickly and immediately started messing around.
You donât mind it, though. You enjoy spending some time with him. Heâs a good distraction. Surely you wouldâve fixed some notes or listened to some lessons instead of⊠well, instead of being on his lap with your fingers in his hair and his hands on your ass, grinding on him.
You hold in a moan when he concentrates on your neck, kissing, biting, and sucking the spot that makes you shiver. And youâd like to go on like this, but you need more. So you shift on top of his thigh, while yours presses against his hardening dick and makes him growl.
âWhat are you doââ
âShh,â you shush him quickly, pressing your thumb on his lips before replacing it with your lips. âOuch,â you gasp when he bites on your lower lip. âWhy did you do that?â
Haechan chuckles, shrugging before leaning close to you again. âWhy not?â
You frown but have no intention of carrying it any further. You can feel your panties stick to your skin and you just want to come, not really caring if itâs just like this.
But the moment of intimacy, if you could call it that, gets interrupted by the buzzing of his phone in his pocket.
âGod, just answer,â you yell when Haechan ignores the third call but whoever is on the other line has no intention to stop trying.
Haechan rolls his eyes as his right hand leaves your ass to search through his pocket and huffs annoyed when he sees the name on the screen.
âJaemin, what?â Haechan groans as you keep moving on his thighs, ignoring his deadly glare. âNo, Iâm busy.â
You faintly make out an angry reply from the other side, but you donât care enough to understand what Jaeminâs saying.
âNo, I canât go out with you.â
âWe can,â you reply loudly enough so that Jaemin can hear while Haechan scowls at you again, muttering a scold under his breath, but his anger is quickly addressed to his friend on the other side.
âYes, Iâm with her,â he huffs, rolling his head back, trying to stop your movements but failing. âDonât ask questions. And yes, fine, fine.â
When he hangs the call after mumbling a quick, annoyed goodbye, you chuckle. âThought you didnât want to hear my annoying friends?â Itâs all he asks, leaving a small, teasing slap on your asscheek.
âWhat were we supposed to do? Stay inside all day?â
âYes, we have everything here,â he says, spreading his arms to point around. âAnd youâre still grinding on me.â He looks down, eyes narrowing as he stares at your hips.Â
âIâll finish and then weâll get out,â you wink, starting to move faster but he has no intention to get back into the mood, not yet, at least. Â
âYouâll stain my pants and where do I come?â He huffs, and youâre sure heâs trying to find an excuse to donât go outside rather than one to donât fuck with you. He would never say no to that, especially when you two are already in the middle of it.Â
âTake them off,â you urge, jumping off him, waiting for him to get undressed as you do the same, your panties the only thing staying on. Â âCome on. You donât want to be late.â
Haechan groans, âyouâre so⊠so greedy. You just want everything.â
âYeah, am I allowed to have one flaw?â You bat your lashes at him, grinning when his eyes roll in the back of his head. âOh, will I stain the underwear, too?â You ask when his lower half is completely bare to your eyes.
âHoney, Iâm not coming inside my boxers, canât wear your panties to hang out with the boys,â he says annoyed.
You chuckle, climbing on his thigh again, watching him whimper when your bare leg brushes against his dick and you press on him to be as close as you were before.
He doesnât know why you didnât take the panties off, but he knows he doesnât want them there. He wants to feel you on his skin. As hot as this is, he wants to feel your pussy drip down his thigh, and your panties are stopping the full experience.
âOh, for fuckâs sake, Donghyuck!â You scream when the sound of the fabric ripping hits your ears and the chill air of the room hits your warm core.
He groans. âItâs so hot when you say my real name with an angry tone, makes it hard to hold back fucking you.â
âYou need to stop ripping my stuff,â you complain, trying to hide how hot you found that, the ripping of the panties and that fucking smirk on his face now that he lays back against the headboard of your bed, so proud and snotty that is hard for you to hold back fucking him.
âShut up, you love it,â he says, pulling you into a rough kiss, pushing your body closer while his hand rests on your hips to guide you in the movements. âAlso they werenât a good pair, if you were in lingerie I wouldâve asked you politely to take them off.â
âYou will never see me in lingerie,â you retort, pulling away as your hand sneaks down and starts moving up and down on his throbbing cock.
âFuck,â he groans, âat least warn me?â
âIâm half naked, grinding on top of you and I have to warn you when I grab your dick?â You ask. âIf you donât want, I wonât make you come.â
âNo, just âfuck,â he glares at you when you concentrate on the tip, âdonât be a bitch.â
âSorry, sorry,â you chuckle but still move your hand quickly, following the steady rhythm of your thighs. Your head rolls back when one of his hands creeps under your shirt and cups your boob, his thumb brushing against your hard, sensitive nipple.
Haechan sucks in a deep breath when your thighs start shaking around his and your cum drips down his thigh. âFuck,â he moans, eyelids fluttering as he looks at you, head reclined back as you hold onto him with only one hand, the other still busy taking care of him. âThis is so hot, you are so hot.â
The compliment pushes you closer to reaching your high and when he lifts your shirt to wrap his lips around your sensitive nipple, you lose it.
You whimper and quiver, hips moving messily as you keep riding your high, breath getting stuck in your throat when he accidentally bites you as his orgasm washes over him unexpectedly.
âFuck, sorry,â he mumbles, and if you werenât still so lost in your pleasure you would let him know you liked it.
When your hips still, and the dizzying sensation calms down, you lay your head against his shoulder for a while as his arms wrap around your waist.
âCan we stay in?â Haechan pouts when you try to get away from him, reaching for your hand to keep you next to him before he rolls over when you shake your head and jump off the bed. âPlease.â
âWe canât always fuck and study and study and fuck,â you reply, cleaning yourself up, holding in a sigh when you realize he stained the cover of your bed with his cum. Â
âWho said I want to do either of those things?â He says, looking up at you with puppy eyes, pushing his lower lip out to pity you.
âI know you,â you reply, glaring at him before pulling your pants back on, not even caring about putting on another pair of underwear, you wouldâve had to wash all those clothes anyway after taking a well-deserved shower, but for now you only had to pick some clothes to go out with the boys.
âNo, letâs stay in and, I donât know. Should we sing?â He proposes, jumping on his feet and putting his discarded underwear on.
You laugh, staring at him in shock. âYou want to sing?â
âYeah, you have a guitar, right?â
You nod, turning around the corner where your guitar is.
âDonât you want to hear my angelic voice?â
You take a deep breath at his brag and then exhale loudly. âBut Jaemin?â
âFuck him, I donât care,â he says while a small victory grin already starts widening on his face. He knows youâre about to give in. Â
You huff, rubbing your temples and giving up fighting him when his fingers are already typing on the phone to tell his friend you two canât come anymore.
When he puts the phone away and smiles at you in anticipation, you sigh. You really are stuck with him, arenât you?
âWhy donât we prepare biscuits?â You suggest. You wanted to bake something for a while now, but you never really find time to dedicate to the kitchen.
âBiscuits?â
You nod, stealing his sweatshirt to wear on top of your shirt before walking to the kitchen âthat space you consider the kitchen.Â
âIâm a mess when it comes to cooking, you know, right?â He confesses as he leans against the countertop, watching you move around to grab all the ingredients and tools you need.
âYou? Admitting youâre bad at something? To me?â You ask with a teasing tone, but youâre genuinely surprised he let you know without turning even this into a competition.
He fakes a laugh. âVery funny,â he says. âI just donât want to hear you complain if I make some mistakes and ruin your perfect biscuits.â
You chuckle. âCan you weigh the ingredients and then put them all in a bowl?â
âAll at the same time?â
You nod, handing him what he needs and showing him where the scale is. âIs not that hard, even you can do it. Plus, it will be another thing I teach you today,â you wink.
âCareful, baby. Donât start thinking youâre so much better than me,â he says, starting to weigh the ingredients and putting them in each separate bowl.
You scoff. âHoney, I wonât start thinking that,â you say, resting your head on his shoulder, âI already think that.â You leave a teasing kiss on his cheek before he hits you with the flour and you gasp.
âOh, no, weâre not doing that,â you warn, taking a step back, seeing how heâs ready with another handful of it.
âThen take it back,â he says nonchalantly.
âI never take back the truth âoh, Jesus Christ, Donghyuck!â
He laughs loudly, bending forward as he glances at you, flour on your face and well, his sweater. âDonât call my name like that again, though. I wonât resist this time,â he says when he finally stands up and stands right in front of your face. âNow, will you take it back?â
âNever âAh!â You scream when he lifts you up without a warning and sits you on the table before he starts tickling you. âNo, no, please,â you babble, shaking your head and trying to stop his hands on you but heâs faster. âOkay, fine, Iâm not better than you â Iâm not better than you!â
âGood,â he says, stopping his torture and smiling proudly. âI love it when you listen,â he jokes, kissing you again.
You should hate it âor at least donât like it so muchâ when he kisses you like this, out of nowhere, for no reason at all other than wanting to shut you up, or maybe to feel you. But you truly donât mind. Actually, you lean in for another one, and another one and another⊠until you feel this is once again going in another direction and, as much as youâd love to indulge in the moment, you want to prepare those biscuits.
âEnough,â you say, pushing him away and jumping off the table. âNo more food waste and weâre doing this together.â
You discover you and Haechan work better in the kitchen than in other fields, maybe because thereâs no tension pushing you to do better but you are listening to each other, teaching tricks, and simply having fun. And this atmosphere stays with you even when he grabs the guitar and starts playing the tune of your song, you sing some bits of the lyrics and then jokily propose to add some about baking cookies on a cloudy spring afternoon, expecting him to laugh at it but he just smiles and tells you to go on. And you do, mumbling something about being in the kitchen, humming, baking, and laughing. You think itâs too clichĂ©, and you will surely go back to it obsessively until it comes at you like you want it, but he loves it.
Then the oven rings, signalling the biscuits are ready and none of you can believe they came out good, nothing burned, and theyâre tasty. Somehow, those cookies, feel like the biggest achievement you two ever made together.
âMaybe we should stop fighting each other,â he mumbles, after chewing his last bite. âWe make a pretty great team.â
You smile, cleaning your lips with a napkin, crumbs falling on the table. âHate to agree, but we do,â you say. âI mean⊠we kinda teamed up months ago, donât you think so?â
âWe want to kill each other, and you call that teaming up?â
âItâs our way of teaming up,â you reply, handing him a clean napkin so he can clean himself, and he takes it. âWe just like to keep the flame alive, if we stopped bickering at all, it wouldnât be so funny.â
Haechan shrugs, he guesses so. âNot like anybody else ever stood a chance with us on top.â
You chuckle. âImagine if someone is using our rivalry to get to the top and we never noticed them.â
âHoney, trust me, I wouldâve noticed.â
Once youâre done eating, you push him into the shower. Thereâs flour, and dough on all your clothes, and you still need to wash off the sex of before. Youâd opt to shower separately but youâre tight on water and you have to make the best out of the confined space, reason why his plan to fuck another time fails.
âWhy are you wearing my pink robe?â You turn around two seconds to grab the towel you prepared for him, and he betrays you. âThis was for you,â you say, holding up the white towel as you stand there naked.
âI already put it on, itâs wet,â he says. âCome on, itâs pretty.â
âYeah, thatâs why is my favourite robe,â you pout, but still wrap the towel around you because you donât want to freeze.
âIâll make it up to you,â he says, and, before you can even think how, you donât feel the ground under your feet anymore. Your arms immediately wrap around his shoulders for more safety as you let him carry you outside. You have no idea what is going on today, but you like this, how heâs taking care of you âin his way, of courseâ and how this feels good.
âYou have to change it anyway,â he says when he drops you on the bed and, as soon as you open your mouth, he knows youâre about to complain about the wet towel on the dry covers. âIâll help you change it later.â
While you change into your new clothes, your pink pyjamas with small black hearts as a pattern, you watch him walk around as if heâs so familiar with the place ânot that it would take much for anyone to know where everything is, considering how small it isâ but something about it makes a feeling of comfort and warmth spread in your heart. Nobody else had ever been inside that place.
But then you snap out of it and realize heâs naked, and his clothes are dirty, so you rush to the closet to find something to give him.
âSo, mhh,â you say, making the things you grabbed fall in front of him, whoâs sitting at the table. âI have those sweatpants and a sweater, or these pyjamas if you want it, itâs pink, but it doesnât look like you care much,â you note, looking at how much heâs rocking your robe.
âPink pjs! Weâll match,â he says, eyes lighting up as he wastes no moment getting out of the bathrobe.
âOut of the kitchen!â
âThereâs not even a wall?â
âStill, get out,â you say, pushing him with force away from there. âBetter.â
He rolls his eyes but still grabs the shirt and pulls it on him, blinking when he sees a pair of clean boxers. âWhy do you have these?â He still studies them, thinking he has seen them before.
âBecause theyâre yours,â you say nonchalantly while fixing your hair in a braid.
âTheyâre mine? I left them here?â
âI mightâve accidentally dragged them with me once,â you confess, looking at him with a big, awkward smile.
âWhen?â
âWhen Jaemin almost pushed the door down and we had to rush to get dressed. I just stuffed everything in my bag and your underwear was next to mine so, ta-da,â you say, stretching your arms and shaking your hands to complete the sound effect.
Haechan sighs, nodding. âOf course, it must have been because of Jaemin, somehow.â
âWell, it turned out useful, just put them on. I donât want to see your dick more than necessary.â
Haechan scoffs and bites back a comment as he finishes getting dressed. âYou have to admit I look really good in pink.â
You look at him up and down while he twirls, and you smile. âYou would be my favourite Barbie at the mall if they sold you in boxes.â
âGod, youâre so annoying, canât ever make normal compliments,â he complains. âCome on, help me with the bed. It wonât clean itself.â
Making the bed with him is tiresome. His weird way and theories about making it lead you two to bicker more than you should and remake it twice to see who is right âyou, obviously. So, once youâre done with it, laying on it with him by your side, you know not even God himself will make you stand up to cook dinner. You donât need to say a word, Haechan already has his phone out ready to order, and you couldnât be happier. Â
You spend ten minutes deciding what movie to watch and another five bickering because you donât want to eat on the bed, but he insists you wonât make a mess, and if you do, he will help you clean up. It ends with you giving up and the bell ringing with your order ready.
You never have nights like this. You always try to cook on your own and donât waste money on eating out, and you also never finish the movie or the series you start, either too tired halfway or with something more important to care about, for example, some notes to copy, or lessons to listen.
But this is nice.
You two joke, laugh, eat, and then you start to feel the sleep take over you, and you donât think about sending him home or falling asleep on the pillow.
And as you rest your head on his shoulder, Haechanâs more and more sure that his plan failed.
âYouâre playing with me, right?â You ask when Haechan messes up for the nth time. The end of the year is approaching, and you two are getting ready for yet another test, the last before the finals, but right now heâs testing your patience not getting a single answer right. Youâve been stuck in his room for hours now.
âI wish I was, my brain is fried,â he huffs, throwing his head back on his chair.
Youâre speechless and you shake your head. âItâs super easy, you were better than me in this class, what the fuck is wrong with you?â You snap.
âHey! Why are you so pissed? Shouldnât you be happy youâll beat me even in this?â
âBe serious,â you say, sending him a deadly glare. âWhat are you thinking about?â
âIâmâŠâ he huffs, shaking his head, and turning around in his chair to avoid you. âIâm just stressed for a lot of things. Iâm tired, I didnât sleep tonight.â
âYou struggled even last week. And when the Professor asked you something in class you gave an answer that is just not you,â you say, cutting off his bullshit, grabbing the armrest of the chair, and forcing him to face you with a rough tug on the chair.
âThere are too many things to remember,â he says, after frowning at how harsh you have been. âItâs not that I donât know, itâs that I mess it all up.â
You sigh, rubbing your temples. âDo I have to motivate you?â
He lifts his head, staring at you with a furrow. âWhat do you mean?â
âLetâs play a game,â you say, sitting better on the chair, and Haechan gulps when doing so your skirt âshort skirt, incredibly short skirtâ rises. He will never tell you, but the way you show up on your dates is another reason why he canât concentrate. Itâs May, itâs so hot. Itâs your excuse, but he would bet youâre also doing it to mess up with him.
âNo,â he replies, already fearing your proposal.
âWhy not? You didnât hear it, yet.â
He sighs but signals you to go on with a quick movement of his fingers.
âSo, weâll revisit once again, Iâll try to explain all your doubts. Then, Iâll ask you a question, if you get it right, Iâll take off one piece of clothes, if you get it wrong, youâll take off one, and vice versa.â
âHow studying with you butt-naked would make me learn more things?â He almost screams in a high-pitched voice.
âSee!â You say. âYouâre already starting with the idea youâll lose.â
âBecause I canât get anything in my brain, and if I get it right then youâll have to take something off and all Iâll think about will be⊠you.â I already only think about you, heâd like to add, but thatâs too humiliating. Just like the grin on your face. He hates how weak he is. He hates how easy it is for you to win battle after battle. And he hates even more that his plan is showing flaws with each passing day. He doesnât want you to be his Waterloo, but heâs not sure he can come up with another strategy soon enough to beat you.Â
âFine, then no study-strip-poker,â you give up, but the smug smirk on your face doesnât drop when you start to think of something else that could motivate him, it only grows bigger when you finally get it. âIf you answer right to at least ten of the fifteen questions, Iâll suck your dick.â
Haechan gulps. His eyes immediately fall on your lips as his brain starts to wander on lands he shouldnât think about, not now at least, not when he has a bigger obstacle to face if he wants to get there.
âHey,â you call his attention, snapping your fingers and waving them in front of his face. âIt has to be motivation, not distraction. Do you want me?â
He huffs, throwing his head back. âCanât we just fuck and then weâll start again?â He pouts like he does every time he wants something from you.
âNo,â you reply sternly, stealing his sweatshirt from his chair and putting it on you. âYou donât get the prize if you donât win.â
âThatâs not fair. And why are you covering up?â
âSo you canât distract yourself,â you say. You might like to tease him with more revealing clothes, but your intent is never to get him to be this distracted. You donât want to be the reason he will fail this last test.
âYouâre not my distraction,â he scoffs, diverting his gaze, and moving closer to his desk.
You decide to ignore him, you know the truth, and as much as the idea of him starting to lose because heâs too busy thinking of you, sends you on cloud nine, you also donât want him to do terribly, especially in a class you know he loves and is good at.
âI know the theory,â he says, stopping you from going back to the start. âI wouldnât be able to produce songs if I didnât.â
âYeah, but you just failed to explain how you create and add effects, and you forgot the basic difference between the dry sound and the wet sound, so revisiting some theory wonât hurt.â
Haechan sighs but soon gives up as you hand him your notes. He always thought you were crazy for also having printed pictures of how the software works but now that he needs it, he couldnât be more grateful that youâre so precise with everything.
You start explaining things once again, cutting short about the most basic notions and diving deeper into the last lessons, as you try to stop as much as you can to make sure heâs still following you. And, after almost an hour, youâre done.
âWhat are you doing?â He asks when you take off his sweater again. âWhat about my concentration?â
âI needed your focus while I was explaining, now you have to answer even if you have distractions.â
He huffs loudly, throwing his head back. âBut donât play dirty, you canât touch yourself or anything like that.â
âIâm not that cruel, I just want you to answer me,â you say. âSo, letâs start with an easy one, should we?â
Haechan answers the first questions with ease, not like he usually would, but itâs still better than the mess of before. And he would be so close to getting the last one that keeps him on thin ice, he only got five wrong...
âNo, no, no, please,â he begs, trying to stop you in place. âPlease, give me one last chance. Ask me just one last question.â
âYou got six wrong, babe,â you reply, loving how heâs almost on the verge of tears as his big brown eyes look up at you.
âBut it was hard, I will never remember all the types of old reverbs unit,â he whines, coming closer to you.
âThen why do I?â
âDonât lie, you donât remember them either, I canât even pronounce some of those names.â
You chuckle. âOh, itâs really funny when the lack of a good fuck gets in your brain.â Itâs not about sound design anymore. Itâs about the desperation behind his eyes; knowing he wants you so much even if youâre the biggest reason for his despair gets your body hot and your pussy wet.
He groans, slumping back on his chair as he gives up on you. Or so he thinks because when he doesnât pity you enough and youâre still packing your things to leave, heâs back again with his complaint.
âPlease, one last chance? I didnât mess the others up, I just made some tiny mistakes.â
âAnd you didnât answer to two,â you say, ignoring him, trying to keep a serious face to not show your true emotions.
âDo I have to get on my knees?â
You snicker. âYou look good on your knees,â you taunt but you donât expect him to do that. âGet up!â
âNot until you give me another chance,â he retorts. âPlease.â
You huff, rolling your eyes. âFine, but just one.â
He nods enthusiastically, almost looking like a puppy being teased with a treat before he sits up in front of you.
âThe differences, all the differences, between the shelving equalizer and the peaking equalizer.â
âOkay, I know this one, I know it,â he says before he starts explaining without missing a single detail. âSo?â He asks with eyes full of hope as if he doesnât know he just gave you a perfect answer.
âIt was⊠great,â you tease him but you canât keep a straight face when you see the pout on his face. âKidding, kidding, you answered perfectly. So, I guess you deserve your prize.â
âYes,â he screams, and in a second he throws himself on you but you shake your head and push him back on his chair. âWhat?â
âYou sit there and let me handle this,â you say, placing your hands on his thighs. âTake them off,â you order, tilting your head to point at his grey pants. You see heâs confused about where you want this to go, but he obeys you anyway. âEverything,â you add when heâs still in his boxers. âGood boy, come here,â you say, patting your lap.
Haechan frowns. âYou said you were going to suck me off.â
âI know, and have I ever break my promises?â
âI donât know.â
âJust trust me and come here,â you order, waiting for him to follow. âCanât believe youâve been this hard all this time,â you say, wrapping your hand around his hard cock, starting to pump the pre-cum that leaked.
âYou teased me,â he huffs, trying to keep his composure as he watches your hand moving on him delicately.
âI know, babe. Iâm sorry,â you pout, one hand sneaking under his big white shirt to tease his nipples.
âDonât,â he mutters, but you only laugh.
âDonât, what? Let me take care of you, youâre stressed.â
He doesnât reply, his head falls back as your movements on his dick quicken. He feels so small in your hold and he should find this more embarrassing but he doesnât care. He loves the way your hand wanders delicately on his body and your lips leave pecks on his neck while the movements on his dick are fast enough to give him what he wants but not too fast to ruin this moment.
Your hands keep moving while your lips kiss his neck and jaw.
âFeels so good,â Donghyuck hums, shifting in your lap.
âI told you,â you chuckle, watching him roll his head back on your shoulder as his eyes close. âThe others will hear you,â you say when his whimpers get louder.
âDonât care,â he moans. âFeels too good.â
You smile and shrug. If he doesn't care, who are you to worry about it? Itâs not like they donât know what happens between you two.
So you quicken your hand, sliding up and down his sensitive dick so fast you make him tremble in your hold.
âYouâre so cute like this, you know?â You say. âYou look so small and delicate.â You expect him to get mad but instead, he moans and nods swiftly. And you know that stress got him good. Donghyuck, admitting to be vulnerable in your hands? You can only thank the weight the University is putting on his shoulders. But if thatâs a way to make it go away, you canât complain.
âIâm gonna â gonna come,â he whimpers when you start rubbing your thumb on his tip. âFuck.â
You trap his scream with your other hand, staring at him as he slumps against you as his orgasm washes over him, squirting white strings of cum on your hand and his crumpled shirt.
âGet on the bed,â you urge while lifting the shirt off his body, leaving him naked. He barely has time to put himself together, but you donât care and you know he needs more too.
âDonât you think itâs a bit unfair that youâre still all dressed up?â He asks, still sitting on top of you.
âDo you want me to suck your dick, or do you want me to leave?â Is the only thing you have to say to make him obey with no more complaints. âGood. You should be thankful I gave you another chance. Right now you would be masturbating all alone and have no knowledge of sound design, so⊠what do we say?â
âWhat do you want me to say? You didnâtââ
âWhat do we say?â You shut him up, pulling his hair back harshly as your body weights on his lap, eliciting a broken groan.
âTha â thank you,â he mumbles, cock throbbing right against your thigh. âThank you but, please, do something, Iâm⊠I need you.â
You snicker, letting go of his head and crawling back on the bed. âYouâre so pathetic,â you mock, grabbing his dick again. âBegging on your knees just because you wanted my mouth.â
Haechan groans, throwing his head back but the harsh slap on his thigh makes him snap his eyes open.
âWhy?â He squeaks.
âEyes on me when Iâm talking to you,â you order before lowering down so you can tease his tip with your tongue, making him bite back a loud moan.
âPlease,â he pleads, and you finally give in. When you take him in your mouth, the broken breath that rolls from his lips makes your pussy clench around nothing.
âShit,â he moans, fists clenching in the sheets as you suck harder, moving your head up and down in quick movements. He wants to look at you, knowing it will be even harder to not come on the spot, but heâs fighting with so many parts of him, he doesnât know what to do.
When you pull away to look at him, he whines, hips bucking up in search of physical contact. You snicker, âand then I am the greedy one?â
âYouâve been teasing since you stepped inside the house,â he whines, trying to grab your hand but you donât let him. âCome on, Iâve been good.â
Itâs true, he has been good, but you donât want him to come yet. âYou canât come, not yet.â
âFine, just â just donât tease me. Please,â he cries, begging you with his eyes.
You start taking care of him seriously; bobbing your head up and down while your hand wraps at his base to touch him where you canât reach. Your movements are quick, but not too messy, since youâre trying to avoid creating a pool of spit and pre-cum all over his lap.
âYour mouth, fuck,â he groans, involuntarily fucking into your throat and uttering a slurred apology. âYouâre just so good. God,â he curses, and you catch him rolling his eyes. âEven at â even at this youâre good.â
You snicker to yourself and keep focusing on his dick, heavy on your tongue as you suck with force.
You might be too good, cause it doesnât take a lot for him to explode in your mouth; a brief warning for you to choose if you want to pull away and then the pleasure runs through his body for the second time.
You barely have time to clean your chin from the cum that dripped down that Haechan pulls you close to him, kissing you intensely while his hands are all over your body. âWant you, please, please fuck me,â he begs against your lips.
You slip out of your panties, quickly grabbing the base of his cock to line it with your soaked entrance because you canât wait anymore.
âOh, fuck, youâre so wet,â he hums when you sink, wrapping your hands around his shoulders.
âWant to take merits for this, too?â
âWell, yes,â he retorts. âShit, donât move, itâs not fair.â
âEverything is fair between us,â you say, starting to pick up a rhythm that makes him struggle to come up with a snarky reply. âLoss of words?â
He groans, throwing his head back and tightening the hold around your waist. âYou can âmmphâ you can talk all you want but âughâ I am the reason why youâre soaked.â Somehow the way youâre bouncing on his dick itâs not enough to wipe away that smug smirk off his face, and you canât stand it.
âJust shut the fuck up and enjoy this, will you?â You snap before kissing him roughly, cupping his chin with force before nibbling his lower lip, making him hiss. âI like it when you moan, so please, just fucking moan. The only words I want to hear are my name and begs.â
Your âthreatâ is effective because he doesnât dare to open his mouth again.
âGood boy,â you praise without ever stopping to kiss him and moving your hips at a quick but regular speed.
You quickly realize that stress has gotten to you, too. You love to pretend it doesnât affect you, and that you donât need to let off steam, but you do. You are desperate to feel carefree for a few moments, put all the books and papers behind and have fun. And worst, you need him.
Donghyuck is what makes you feel good. It doesnât matter if itâs mostly physical, he takes you to another world every time. He makes you feel wanted, he puts you through the test, but he makes everything worth it.
Youâre so sure of it as you let your body crush against his, your fleshes meeting in a messed-up tangle of flaws. The kinds of flaws you both grew close enough to show each other.
In a few minutes, waves of pleasure hit you both and your bodies collapse into each other as you keep lazily riding that sensation; muscles on fire, lips meeting in messy kisses, moans panting the room, and your hands looking for each other.
When you lay on the bed side by side, you feel disconnected, and, truly, the only thing youâd like to do is to close your eyes and fall asleep, but your eyes fall on the clock against the wall and remind you why you went to his place.
âFive minutes and then weâre revisiting again,â you say, knowing the only way to get up is to say that thought out loud. Â
Donghyuck groans, pressing his face against you and mumbling, âcan I eat you out if I make no mistakes this time?â
âWeâll see.â
Youâre woken up in the middle of the night by the sound of the piano playing from the living room. The other side of the bed is empty, and the sheets are crumpled up, signalling you Haechan got up somewhere during the night.
You two went on a trip the whole weekend. Not like you had a choice when he passed by your place and told you to get in the car without giving you any information. You got mad at him when he told you it wasnât a one-day thing, but you were too far from town to even think of going back. And even if initially you were angry because your plans for the weekend were different âstudying all day for three daysâ your anger disappeared quickly.
This is the second night out; you spent the entire day wandering around a town you didnât even know before and got closer to each other. You love the thrill with him, but you soon realize you also love it when thereâs peace between you. Itâs impossible for you to donât bicker, but you learned how to balance everything. And the more you get to know him, the more you like him.
âCanât sleep?â You ask, watching his features being lit up by the faint moonlight and a small lamp at the side of the piano. Itâs an old one, almost left abandoned in the living room of the small, cheap house youâre staying in for the night.
Donghyuck shakes his head. âGot a tune I couldnât get off my mind so⊠here we are.â
You smile, tucking a strand of hair behind your ear as you sit next to him. You donât talk, you only watch his fingers move on the notes looking like ballet dancers. Youâve never seen him play the piano before, you werenât even sure he could. But youâre amazed at how many things heâs talented at, the guitar, the piano, production, singing, dancing âand making your days less grey.
You donât tell him, you only lean in, resting your head on his shoulder as he keeps playing the sweet melody.
âItâsâŠâ he huffs, stopping for a second. âDoesnât it sound messy?â
âNot at all,â you reply. âIt sounds upbeat. Happy.â
âOut of all the ways you can describe music,â he chuckles, looking at you.
You look up, shrugging. âIâm describing how itâs making me feel.â
âYeah? And what does it feel like?â
âPlay it again,â you say, closing your eyes and letting the tune lull you. âIt feels like spring. Like a field full of sunflowers, the ones you see at the side of the highway, passing by so fast before you can even get lost in their beauty.â
Haechan chuckles, holding back the big smile on his face. âIt reminds me of those late summer evenings, when the heat dims a bit and the sky is pale pink and purple and blue, and time is frozen.â
âYeah, when youâre ten and you donât want summer to end because it means you have to go back to school,â you smile. âWhen you would stay out all day and come home with the smell of your favourite cake that your mom just baked.â
âReally? Your mom would bake that too?â
You nod. âChocolate cake, basic and too messy for the heat of summer. But my mom loves me too much to donât bake it for me, even if itâs 30° outside.â
Haechan chuckles, and his fingers start moving faster, starting the melody of what could be the chorus of the tune.
âIn this part, it feels like a wave. Iâm picturing running on the beach as the waves crash at your feet and the wind blows against your face.â
âWhy are you smiling?â He asks.
You shake your head. âI â I can⊠it feels oddly romantic, a bit tormented, maybe confused, but in love,â you whisper. He gives you a weird look, and youâre not sure if itâs because youâre not using technical words to describe it or because youâre just weird. But thereâs a reason youâre not being technical, youâre saying what it makes you feel, the vivid pictures in your mind. And, somehow, thereâs you and him.
You two on the beach, walking on the sand before he starts running, teasing you to follow him. Thereâs the scent of the sea filling your nostrils and your lungs burning up as you reach him and then fall in his arms and feel your heart explode.
âItâs an unexpected feeling, something that wasnât supposed to happen and then⊠changed everything. Itâs thrilling. Scary, but satisfying.â You avoid his gaze but hear him hum in agreement, and wonder if heâs thinking the same, if he can feel this tension.
âSo, something that sweeps everything like a wave,â he asks, and you nod. âSunset,â he adds, smiling at you, slowing down the rhythm of his fingers. âI can also see the sunset colouring the scene. The kind that makes you look up and stare in awe like a child.â
âThe one we saw yesterday,â you reply shyly. âIt made your eyes look even more brown,â you confess, watching his cheeks tint up of rose.
âThe kind that leaves you breathless,â he whispers. His fingers are still moving but theyâre playing the same notes, heâs too busy staring into your eyes, leaning closer to you.
âAnd speechless.â
And a bit closer.
âAnd grateful youâre on earth.â
And closer.
You move back, coughing and lowering your head because you feel on fire. Is he making fun of you? Does he feel this? Why is he so confusing?
âIt feels like a road trip with nowhere to go,â you say to fill the silence, and your words make him play again. âThe calm while everything outside is falling apart.â
âLike running to your safe place?â
You nod. âIt feels like⊠home.â
He smiles, looking in your direction while his fingers still play that sweet melody. âI always believed home is a person, even people, but not a place.â
You swallow, staring at his lips before your eyes meet his. âIâve forgotten that feeling quite some time ago,â you whisper, feeling your head spin. You left home and never looked back, eager to chase your dreams, the ones youâve been fighting hard to achieve since you were a child, but in that marathon to success, youâre starting to realize you lost something.
âYou just need to find the right people, and then never let go.â He leans closer to you, hands falling from the piano as he leans in completely to trap your lips in a kiss. His hand cups your face while the other moves to the back of your neck, pulling you closer and moving his thumb in small circles. You feel like your lungs are on fire, and your legs are weak, but your heart never pumped harder than this. And when he slowly pulls away, youâre staring into each otherâs eyes.
You know all the words to your song.
Itâs true youâve tried to avoid Donghyuckâs group of friends as much as you can âmostly to preserve your brain from early injuriesâ but itâs also true that the end of the second academic year is tearing you apart and you need to do something to donât go insane.
So here you are, itâs Friday night, at their place, and youâre surrounded. Haechan has left you alone for a moment, busy talking with Mark. Jeno is trying to set up the table in the living room, while Renjun runs after him because âthings are not perfect enough.â Yangyang âno, he doesnât live with them, but for some reason, he is always aroundâ is in the kitchen doing only God knows what.
For your luck, you have Jaemin and the girls by your side. Ningning, who apparently has something going on with Mr Loverboy at your side. Yeri, who is there just to bully Haechan, Mark and Yangyang  âan old tradition that goes on since high school, and you love her for that. And Minjeong, whoâs the nicest and yet smartest person you know, you are relieved she is in creative writing with Jaemin. You met them all before, one of the thousand times Donghyuck dragged you around with him, and the four of you got along right away, quickly becoming friends.
âTheyâre so loud, I would have a constant headache living here,â Yeri huffs loudly, rolling her eyes and falling backwards in Ningningâs arms.
You raise a brow as a âtold youâ moment.
âTheyâre not that bad usually,â Jaemin defends, looking at his friends, now all too interested in something that regards what they are supposed to eat.
âPfft, please, Jaem,â you say, glaring at him.
âHow would you know?â He says. âOh, no, yes, actually you would, youâre always here.â
âSee, so stop defending them,â you say before becoming aware of the three sets of eyes boring holes into you. You turn around meeting your three friends and lift a brow in a questing look.
âWhy would you always be here?â Ningning teases, nudging you.
You roll your eyes. âDonât wander too far with your brains. Iâve got a project with Hyuck.â
âHyuck? You used to go around calling him by his stage name just a few months ago and now itâs Hyuck?â Yeri points out, smirking smugly.
You throw a pillow at her. âHeâs always attached to my hip, of course, we got closer,â you explain, frowning.
âSure, sure,â she laughs. âNot even the boys call him Hyuck.â
âThey do,â you retort.
âOf course you know, youâre always here,â Minjeong giggles and you gasp.
âYou traitor!â You say, grabbing her shoulders and shaking her as you both laugh.
âMove your asses over here, motherfucââ Yangyang screams before Renjun slaps a hand on his face.
âI will kill you all one day,â Renjun says, storming into the kitchen to bring more drinks as you sit down around the table.
âPlease leave us out of it,â Yeri screams loud enough so he can hear.
âSure, you can even help me get it done if you want to,â he says, sitting between Jeno and Yangyang, handing the bottles around.
âIâm in,â the four of you say simultaneously, raising your hands and they all gasp as they glare at you.
âGuess we better sleep with our eyes open tonight,â Yangyang mutters.
âYou should always sleep with one eye open,â Yeri threatens, smiling creepily.
You chuckle at their antics, but your attention is caught by Donghyuck who sits by your side. âWould you kill me?â
You smile, caressing his hand on his thigh. âHoney, what are you saying? You would be the first that has to go.â
The smile on his face drops and you laugh, turning to the table to grab something to eat.
âYou know,â he whispers, leaning in so only you can hear, âno dick tonight.â
You lower your head, trying to hide the embarrassment, but then lift it up and shake it, fixing your hair behind your ear, and turning to him. âNot like something couldâve happened tonight anyway.â
âPeriod?â
âPeople,â you say and he chuckles, opening a can of beer before taking a sip.
âAs if that ever stopped you.â
You roll your eyes, stealing the beer from his hand, âas if that ever stopped you.â
He smiles, resting his head on his palm as he looks at you. âYou never said no, though.â
You wave him off, returning your attention to the table, but it doesnât last much, theyâre deep in a heated conversation and youâre missing something. âWhy are they bickering⊠again?â
Haechan chuckles, shaking his head, grabbing a spring roll, dipping it in the soy sauce before taking a bite. You roll your eyes because you need to be updated right away but when you look at him munching happily you canât hold back a smile.
âSo,â he says, cleaning his lips after he swallowed, âJeno wants Renjun for a project, but Renjun has war traumas of the last time they did a shooting together and doesnât want to.â
You giggle, grabbing a spring roll too, and dipping it in the same small cup of Donghyuck, while you both pay attention to the conversation.
âBut youâre perfect for it,â Jeno insists, shaking Renjun from his shoulders, not caring about the pissed-off expression of the older.
âIâm literally not, ask anybody else but me,â Renjun repeats, a deep crease visible on his forehead.
âBut you look like an angel,â Jeno pouts, finally stopping his movements and batting his lashes to gain some pity.
âI might look like an angel, but I feel Satan rising in me every time you talk,â he says, making everybody laugh before he glances, and the room goes quiet.
âCome on, how bad can it be?â Minjeong says, and you see her shift closer to Mark, but you donât say anything.
Renjun groans, throwing his head back. He canât believe he might be convinced into this by the end of the night. âHeâs too much of a perfectionist, and Iâm not comfortable in front of the camera. Also, heâs not rich enough to have a studio and he always takes ages to put the light boxes in their place once heâs done.â
âOh, I wonât annoy you, I promise,â Jeno begs again.
âWe can rent a studio,â you say, all eyes on you. âI mean,â you cough, placing the small bite of the roll left on the plate in front of you, âme and Hyuâ Donghyuck have to shoot the cover for the songwriting project, I donât think we can wait any longer since we also have to record the song and then come up with an advertising strategy.â
âThen rent a studio?â Renjun says, coming out colder than he intends to. âNo, wait, I just donât get why you have to drag me in this.â
âJeno proposed to be our photographer, but I doubt we can do it at home. And since we wouldnât be paying for his job. Sorry,â you mouth quickly glancing at Jeno who shrugs and smiles at you. âWe can at least put the money for the studio.â
âAnd where do I fit in this,â he cries, shoulders slumping as he knows thereâs no way out of this, no matter what you say next.
âWell, since you pay the studio per hour, I donât think Jeno will torture you much. He takes two hours with you and two hours with us and in a day, we are done. Also, if there are four of us, we can be quicker,â you finish explaining, hearing some hums of agreement from your other friends.
Jeno doesnât say a word, heâs only smiling widely with his face close to Renjunâs as the latter regrets all the life choices that brought him here. âFine, Iâll do it,â he exhales, groaning when Jeno hugs him and screams a cheer in his ear. âStep away before I change my mind,â he warns, slapping Jenoâs arm and glaring at him when he does as told.
Yeri sighs deeply at your side, rolling her eyes and muttering, âchildren.â
You chuckle, finishing your roll, and stealing Donghyuckâs beer again before talking to him. âSo, I guess weâre almost done.â
âAlmost done? You still didnât show me the lyrics, have you even written them?â
âHey,â you scold. âAre you doubting me?â
âI donât know, last time I checked, you were the one struggling. I offered you four bases, and all the words Iâve read from you ended up crumpled in the bin.â
You sigh. âIâve got the song,â you reassure him.
âReally?â
âYeah, and I also picked the production. I mean, I⊠I wrote it because of that production.â
Haechanâs smirk widens when you start stuttering and looking away, trying to look unsuspicious in your friendsâ eyes. âReally? And why are you shying away?â
You almost jump when you feel his hand on your thigh, resting on your bare skin under the skirt. âIâm not,â you whisper, trying to keep cool.
He snickers. âYou know Iâll have to see it and you canât keep it a secret from me, right?â
âI know, I donât want it to be a secret. Youâll read it.â
He squeezes your thigh, and you glare at him. âNot now.â
âRight, later, under the cover when weâll watch a movie,â he jokes.
Yeri coughs beside you and you see your entire life pass in front of your eyes, but you fake nonchalance and turn to her. âNeed something? Some water?â
âSome tea, honey, some tea,â she says, raising a brow and pointing at the man at your side, now busy talking with Yangyang.
âI can make some.â
âStop playing me,â she whispers, sending you a deadly glare. She can be scary at times, youâre not surprised the boys listen to her in the blink of an eye.
âHeâs just being stupid, he flirts even with walls,â you say.
âDoes he touch their thighs?â
âNo, heâs not,â you say, only to gasp when she looks down and his hand is still on you. You push it away but he puts it right where it was and you can only sigh.
Yeri snickers. âAh, lâamour.â
Your head rolls back as you let out an annoyed sigh. âLove my ass.â
Yeri shrugs, sipping from her small bottle of soju. âDonât care, thereâs still something going on, and Iâm interested.â
âIâd love to mock you with somebody but youâre more closed than an unopened can of beans.â
âYou are so bad with words. How do you write songs?â
âI donât write about beans, clearly,â you say seriously before you both laugh.
âYou two, mind to share whatâs funny with the class?â Ningning calls you out.
âSorry Professor Ning, weâll be even more annoying next time,â Yeri retorts.
âWhy do I feel youâre quoting something we canât understand?â Renjun says.
âBecause youâre right,â Yeri replies.
âYesterday Yeri almost got us expelled,â Ningning says with a forced smile on her face, making you all gasp.
âWhat happened to sharing information?â Mark screams, leaning in with interest.
âWhy do you care so much?â Yeri shrugs, grabbing a bowl of tteokbokki to eat.
âMh, hello? You got your asses out of Uni,â Minjeong says.
Yeri only rolls her eyes, resting her head on Ningning. âIf a tteokbokki falls on my clothes youâre dead,â the blonde-haired warns before bringing her gaze to all of you. âIn her defense, it wasnât her fault. Not at the start, at least.â
âNo,â Yeri retorts, sitting up straight again, and placing the bowl on the table, âit wasnât my fault, period.â
âHere she goes again,â Ningning sighs, puffing and shaking her head, making you chuckle. But Yeri is not paying her attention, too busy telling the facts right.
âProfessor Choi hates us and treats us like kids. Not only his lessons are boring, and I would like to add, useless, but he also thinks weâre in kindergarten.â
âDid you fight with him?â Jeno questions, frowning, already fearing a positive answer.
Yeri gulps, looking around to take time to answer.
âOh, God, tell me you didnât,â you say, staring at her with a worried expression.
âHe asked for blood,â she says, getting fired up.
âYou fought a Professor?â Jaemin gasps loudly.
âShe didnât,â Ningning intervenes when Yeri is about to open her mouth again. âJust because I was there to babysit her, but she didnât.â
âI didnât come here to be treated like a child,â she says, crossing her arms on her chest. âWe werenât even being loud. We were sitting in the back of the class, minding our business and he called us out. There was a group of boys in the middle row watching fucking porn and he called us out.â
âEw,â it comes out collectively.
âBut unless the headphones werenât connected how would he know?â Yangyang asks.
âI donât care! He hates us,â she groans.
âSo you decided to make him hate you even more? Smart move, Yerim, smart move,â Renjun says sarcastically, and she glares at him.
âI just decided to drag her out when things got a bit heated,â Ningning says.
âNot in a Beyonce way I guess,â Haechan jokes, and Yeri slaps him as you move back to give her space to hit him.
âHey! Why are you helping her bully me?â He asks offended.
âCause you deserve it?â You shrug.
Donghyuck looks around in disbelief, groaning when everybody agrees. âFake ass friends, canât even trust your own shadow in this group.â
âBack to what matters, safe to say you wonât pass the class,â Renjun says.
âWe will, thereâs only one lesson left, and weâll pay attention,â Ningning says and Yeri raises her brows. âWe will pay attention. He might hate us, but, you know, a bit of boot-licking and weâll be fine.â
âFine,â Yeri gives up. âBut only because I donât want to see him ever again.â
âWe once fought so hard we got kicked out,â Haechan confesses, bringing the attention to him.
âYou and?â Jeno asks.
âDumbass, Miss Better than him, thought you heard them bicker every two seconds,â Renjun replies instead, pointing at you with his index finger.
âHey!â You say. âI mean, thank you for acknowledging Iâm better than him but it wasnât so bad.â
âOh, trust me, it was,â Mark comments before drinking his beer.
âAnd you were teaching us a lesson, uh?â Yeri teases, eyebrow raised at you two.
âWe didnât insult the Professor,â you explain. âWe were just at each otherâs throat.â
âWhy?â Minjeong asks.
âHonestly? Canât remember, we fight about everything,â Donghyuck replies.
âWe donât fight,â you clarify. âWe discuss. And sometimes things take a bad turn. Not anymore, we learned how to survive with each other.â
âOh, Iâm sure,â giggles Yeri and you kick her knee with yours, making her groan.
Haechan sends you a look you ignore, and you go on explaining. âWe were just stating our thoughts, but we werenât exactly agreeing, and we couldnât stop, so the Professor told us to take it somewhere else.â
âAnd you did? You simply couldâve stopped,â Renjun asks in disbelief. He canât believe he thought you were normal.
âWe had business to settle, okay?â You explain.
âOh, and we sure did,â Haechan chuckles under his breath or so he thinks because the room goes quiet, and you think you want to strangle him.
You have to come up with something.
âYou only won because I gave up,â you say, looking into his eyes, seeing the devilish glint behind, warning him to not say a word more.
âYou always give up if thereâs a prize you can take,â he clicks his tongue and you gulp.
âOookay, weird tension in the room, itâs clear the only one not getting laid is me,â Yangyang cheers, bringing you two out of your competitive stare. Youâd like to complain, saying itâs not what he thinks about, but youâre still stuck, brain busy thinking about something else.
âThis night itâs boring, if we donât do something funny, Iâll act out my plan of killing you all,â Renjun says, standing up.
âI still donât know whether youâre joking or not,â Mark says.
âBecause Iâm not.â
âCaught you!â
âHyuck!â You scream, turning around, holding a hand over your chest as his arms wrap around your waist and his chin rests on your shoulders. âYou couldâve killed me.â
âYouâre eating cake without me, thatâs the crime,â he says, pulling your hand to his face to take a bite.
You roll your eyes. âJaemin told me he had to store it away because Jeno and Minjeong were eating it all.â
âSo, you were hiding, uhm?â
You hum, cutting another piece and diving it in two to give it to him. âHe said I could eat it. Also, I think I had too much alcohol and I need to put something in my stomach.â You sit on the countertop and he takes his place between your legs.
âAm I allowed to eat it?â
âI guess so, Iâll take the blame if he says something,â you giggle.
âDonât think he will notice, too busy dancing with somebody,â he says, hinting at Ningning. Â
âThey look cute together,â you say, smiling fondly.
âOh, they do. If only he could grow some balls and confess,â he says.
âDo you confess, Casanova?â You tease.
Donghyuck smirks. âHow does it look like?â
You shrug. âDonât know, you tell me.â
He rolls his eyes before he realizes you two are not together. âWait, are we⊠no, never mind,â he says, pulling away, and turning to the door.
You grab his hand, stopping him. âWhat?â
âJeno called,â he lies, trying to escape your hold.
âNo, he didnât. Heâs sitting with Yangyang passing the blunt around,â you jump off the top and face him. âAre we?â Youâre not sure what you expect him to say.
Donghyuck gulps, struggling to keep his eyes on you. âAre you fucking somebody else?â
Whatever you were expecting, that wasnât it. âAre you?â
âI asked you first,â he retorts.
You blink. âOh, really?
âYeah, really.â
âDo I look like I know somebody else besides us?â
âJeno likes you, and he told me you two are texting.â
âAs friends, Hyuck. I already told him Iâm taken â Iâm not, Iâm⊠Iâm taken by other things in my mind. Uni, fighting you, especially fighting you.â
Donghyuck snickers, not really what he expected from you, but deep down ânot even so deep, trulyâ what he wanted to hear. âYeah, I agree, youâre taken, mostly by me.â
Youâre about to retort but he slips from your hands too soon, leaving the small kitchen to reach the others. But youâre smiling. Itâs a dumb, small smile that lights up your face in the dark of the night, and your heart pumps. You two didnât name any of this, but âbickering asideâ you objectively know you acted like a couple. Itâs not about the sex, itâs about everything else. He started to pick you up before lessons so you could go to class together and sit next to each other âwhile he did everything he could to distract you. You ate at your friendsâ table at lunch, went out for dates, and occasionally even slept over. You are taken and probably for longer than you even realise. Donghyuck started filling your days months ago, and even your life.
Youâre still caught up in your thoughts that you donât hear Ningning enter the kitchen.
âI spy with my little eyes something suspicious,â she sings while pouring herself a glass of water, leaning against the countertop where you were before.
âFirst Yeri, and now you?â You ask, a small smile curling your lips while you walk to lean next to her.
Ningning gasps offended. âShe knew before me? Is this how you betray me? After I helped you style your hair?â
You laugh, resting your head on her shoulder, and inhaling deeply; she always smells nice. âI didnât tell her,â you confess. âHonestly, I donât even know myself.â
You canât see her, but you know sheâs smiling when her arms wrap around your body.
âSo, what is that, love?â
You hum. âI donât know what it is, but I know I like it.â
âI knew you were a romantic at heart,â she jokes, pulling away to squeeze your cheeks.
âIâm just happy. I donât think I need to put a name on this⊠on this happiness.â
A big smile spreads on her face and her eyes crinkle, her hand softly caresses your cheeks. âItâs not only Donghyuck, is it?â
You nod, pressing your lips in a flat line because something about this feels too emotional for you. Itâs 11 pm and thereâs faint music playing in the living room while people laugh, and joke, sharing a blunt or bottles of alcohol. And youâre in the kitchen talking about a boy you want to kiss and strangle with who, youâre sure, can now consider your best friend. Itâs the stupid fun of the early 20s. Itâs the sense of something youâve been missing for too long since you only let yourself be absorbed by your studies, leaving friendship behind.
And when a lonely tear rolls down your eyes, Ningning coos, gently wiping it away. âIâm happy,â you say, nodding.
âI know,â she replies, cupping your face.
âIâve been on my own since I came here and I never regretted believing in my dreams even if it meant leaving the ones I loved the most behind, but now I realize what Iâve been missing,â you confess. âI love that theyâre so loud they give me a headache.â You both chuckle and your hands intertwine. âAnd I love that we all sit together at lunch even if most of you have to run from the other side of the building. I love how none of you hesitated one moment to consider me part of your group.â
âIâm so happy youâre with us,â she says, smiling. âI guess Donghyuck does something right sometimes.â
You both laugh.
âYeah, he definitely made my second year less boring than the first one,â you admit.
âCome here, I guess we both could use a hug,â she says, not giving you time to reply before youâre into her arms. You stay like this for a while, and you know more than before that this is what you missed the most. This is what college means. It isnât in the loud parties, the sex, and the drugs, itâs in the people you do things with. Nine young people like you, trying to survive this craziness by being each otherâs strength. You can still look at your goal right in the eye even if you have fun, even if you date, even if you have someone to walk down this road with.
âYou know, I knew you were a good one when you slammed your fist on the table at lunch when he made you fuck up the essay,â Ningning confesses when you pull away.
You laugh, wiping away another tear. âIâm glad he did, I wouldnât be here today if he didnât.â
âYou and Ning disappeared in the kitchen before,â Donghyuck says, searching in his closet to find something to make you wear for the night.
âYeah, we talked about us. I know I might not show it, but Iâm glad I found this,â you sigh. âI like them.â
Donghyuck smiles, sitting next to you. âThey all like you just as much.â
âItâs like I finally have a place where I belong. I have people to rely on, so maybe Iâll learn to stop wanting to deal with everything by myself.â
âI told you life doesnât have to be lonely,â he says. âI know that coming from me sounded like sabotage but I meant it. Having someone by your side makes everything easier.â
You smile and nod, grabbing the shirt heâs handing you. âI hate to say it, but you were right,â you chuckle. He doesnât reply and you donât drag the conversation, simply enjoying the thousands of words you two should be telling each other, but are not ready to face, yet.
âCan I use the bathroom? I need to freshen up a bit,â you say, breaking the comfortable silence. Most of the others are crushed in the living room, you think you saw Ningning sneak into Jaeminâs room but you were too caught up in Donghyuck to be sure of that, Renjun and Jeno might still be awake but youâre sure that all the weed they smoked wonât make them pay attention to you.
âSure, if you need towels theyâre in the cabinet under the sink,â he tells you, and soon youâre out of the room.
It doesnât take you long to clean yourself up; you wash your face and steal someoneâs products to get rid of your make-up, quickly get rid of your dress, put on some perfume âyouâre pretty sure itâs Donghyuckâs cause you smell like himâ and then wear the shirt he borrowed.
Once youâre done, you quickly make your way to the kitchen, and, passing in the living room, you see your assumptions are right; thereâs no sight of the two love birds, and the only ones awake are Renjun, Jeno and Yeri, while the others are crushed on the sofa. You expect a remark from the girl, but she barely notices you, too busy playing âtrying toâ something with the other two.
After a few minutes, youâre back in Donghyuckâs room, and you notice heâs changed into something comfortable, too. Heâs lost folding his clothes, and you let yourself get lost in his beauty. Too busy fighting him and trying to prove something, you realize you never noticed the smallest details that make him so handsome. The bridge of his nose, his soft lips, the moles on his cheek, his soft brown hair falling around his face.
âYou alright?â His voice brings you out of your daydreams and you nod shyly, feeling embarrassed for being caught staring.
âYeah, everything fine,â you reply, quickly walking to the bed. You see him staring at you with a confused expression, but avoid any awkward moment by reaching for your phone and pretending to be busy. But youâre not busy, youâre confused. Youâre not used to this, any of this. Your nights have always been filled with yourself and books (whether for school or your entertainment), and if you felt wilder a movie, rare were the occasions when you would go out with your friends. And regret is creeping on your back. You feel like you lost a lot, you feel like youâve punished yourself to get where you are now. And you think about love, how you treated your relationships, how little weight you gave them. And when you think about what you felt in these past months you wonder if you have ever even been in love.
âRemind me to never make you drink again if you get this sulky.â Once again, Donghyuckâs voice brings you back to earth, and when you turn toward that sound, you see heâs sitting next to you.
âIâm not sulky,â you chuckle. âI was just thinking about what I said before.â
He hums. âAnd?â
You shrug. âNothing. You canât change the past, I was just⊠having some bittersweet emotions.â Itâs the truth, but you know that deep down your brain is trying to make you focus on the friendships because you donât want to think about your biggest problem: the man you have by your side. This wasnât supposed to be whatever it is. It wasnât supposed to happen. And you donât hate that it did, but you donât know how to feel and act about it, cause you didnât plan it. You couldnât study this, you couldnât put this on a PowerPoint and have it all laid out for you to understand it, itâs not logical, itâs not a theory, a study, a thesis, itâs emotion.
âYou seemed happy before,â he whispers after a few minutes of silence passed. His hand gently rests on your stomach and you feel your heart race.
âI was,â you reply. âI am. I just wish I found this sooner, I always focused on my studies and career, and looking back at it now, it was lonely. AndâŠâ you sigh, rubbing the bridge of your nose, âIâm jealous of you, âcause you managed to be at the top with all of this.â
He chuckles, but itâs a tender sound, and then smiles at you. âWell⊠I managed until you came around. YouâŠâ he coughs, struggling to confess, âyou distracted me a bit, so I think youâre better than me at this socializing and rocking your career at the same time thing.â
You laugh. âI distracted you?â
âJust a bit, donât get too excited,â he warns, falling deeper into the mattress and laying in silence. You have your thoughts tormenting you, but for him, itâs no different. He knows his plan failed. Youâve been filling his thoughts, days and seconds for a few months now. Even when he was studying or recording, somehow, you were always there. At first, for spite, surely, but then, it turned into something else. Hate turned into teasing, teasing turned into lust, and lust turned into something more. He knows he doesnât just simply want you or need you. He craves you and your company, your study sessions together, your smart talks, your witty words, your annoyed eye-roll when heâs right, and the soft eyes when you listen to him. He craves you and your laugh, the suppressed one during lessons and the loud one when you are alone, or your hidden smirk when he makes you smile even if you donât want to.
He constantly comes back to you.
âAre you listening or are you avoiding me?â You ask when he doesnât reply to your question and he shakes his head, mumbling an apology.
âSorry, I was thinking.â
You chuckle. âItâs alright, it was a bitter question anyway.â
âNo come on, ask me again.â
âIt was just for fun. I wanted to know if I was the reason why youâve been doing a bit worst than me lately,â you say. Thereâs no mockery in your tone, instead itâs light and hides a timid blush as the words roll down your tongue.
Donghyuckâs body shuffles next to yours and only then you realize how intimately close you are, with your legs almost intertwined, his hand still on your stomach and his face resting on your chest. âWell, yes, you were an unexpected presence in my life, soâŠâ
âSoâŠ?â You laugh. âAm I so hot I got you horny all the time?â You joke but he doesnât crack a smile, instead he furrows and stands up to sit on the bed with his arms crossed.
âIâm not that horny,â he murmurs.
Your body mirrors his, and then your hands lift his chin up. âSorry, I was kidding. I didnât mean to offend you. I just didnât think you thought about me that much. I wanted to be on top but not like this.â
âTechnically, youâre not on top of everything, but anyway, we just spent a lot of time together, you know? So different studying methods and so on, shocked me a bit.â
You raise a brow, not because youâre so pretentious to think you distracted him that much, but because you think you learned to read him a bit and heâs not being honest at all. âSure, and you werenât busy thinking of me after our⊠dates? Coming home and texting me, and telling me how you shouldâve been between my thighs instead?â
He blushes, and you canât believe your eyes. âIt only happened once, and either way I never study at night, my pretty brain canât handle it.â
You laugh. âYour brain is pretty, now?â
âYeah, of course, everything about me is pretty.â He shrugs.
âYouâre a bit of a liar, you know? First telling me I distracted you and then taking it back, but itâs alright, I think we settled this war. Weâre equal now, right?â
âI guess you could say that.â
You huff rolling your eyes. âYouâre so competitive, God.â You fall on the mattress again. âBut maybe itâs good, we can keep this healthy and competitive.â
He hums, thinking about it and then nods. But you donât expect him to cage you with his body as he sits on top of you and reduces the distance between you. âDoesnât sound bad, we could try.â
You smile, trying to act nonchalantly, but itâs hard when heâs so close; hair a mess, face tired but still so fucking handsome, and plump lips so temptingly close to yours.
âI want you,â you whisper, looking straight into his eyes even if they make your knees buckle.
âI want you, too,â he replies before diving in and kissing you.
The last weeks before finals are hectic. You and Donghyuck spend all the time studying together. When youâre not locked in the library youâre either at your or his place, and most of the time you end up sleeping over with the excuse of âspending just a few minutes together without thinking about exams.â
Yet, none of you confess anything. Your relationship lingers in that limbo.
In all that chaos, what takes you more time is the songwriting project. You spend days in the studio to record and mix it. Then when you are done, you move to the studio with Jeno to shoot the concept photos. And it would been enough for the exam, but you and Donghyuck just have to go an extra mile, making an entire booklet with the photos and the lyrics inside, the physical CD with the track, the instrumental, and an acapella version.
Even if the shooting is long and tiring, since you have to style and do each otherâs make-up, and the only help is from Renjun, you have a lot of fun.
If at the start you feel a bit insecure with the poses, Donghyuck is the perfect partner to have to feel at ease. And Jeno knows how to do his job, making you feel like a queen after the first awkward shots.
âI love how the photos turned out,â Jeno cheers happily on your way to their place. âThe three of you are the perfect models. I will annoy you again to build my portfolio.â
Renjun rolls his eyes as his head slams against the bus window.
You chuckle. âCome on, Jun,â you say, pinching his cheek. âYou had fun too, you canât deny that. Also, you got so many beautiful photos for free, I wouldnât complain.â
âFree? Iâd like to remind you I helped you pay for the rent,â he retorts, sitting straight again. âBut yeah, I had fun,â he admits, making Jeno clap happily. âBut, I will do this again only if she comes with us.â
Jeno bats his eyes at you and you snicker. âYes, if I am what he needs to be dragged into the studio, I will come with you.â
âI love you,â Jeno screams, hugging you tight. When you hug him back, you make eye contact with Donghyuck, but he swiftly turns his head. Not quick enough to hide heâs not enjoying this so much; jaw tense, fingers closing in a fist.
You find his jealousy of Jeno quite interesting. Even if itâs true you got very close to him, itâs hilarious how Donghyuck thinks anything would happen between you two when Jeno is clearly taken by someone else; someone too busy plotting his murder to realize his feelings, but thatâs another matter.
And Donghyuck shows his jealousy even more when, once at home, you sit around the table to watch Jeno post-produce the photos and create the mock-up for the entire project with your supervision.
His arm wraps around your shoulder as he keeps his leg pressed against yours, and you have to hold back a chuckle. Yes, itâs obvious thereâs nothing between you and Jeno, but this makes you feel wanted, and you let him show it.
You know youâll have to deal with other menaces tomorrow; a hangout is already scheduled in the group chat with the girls after a quick text sent right away by Yeri. You love her, you do, but without that, maybe, just maybe, you wouldnât have four other pairs of eyes set on you â Jaemin and Yangyang are very curious when they want to.
âAre you listening?â Jenoâs voice brings you out of your thoughts.
You blink twice and then mumble, âwhat?â
He shakes his head. âDo you like the font?â
âOh,â you whisper. Your eyes adjust again on the screen that you were mindlessly staring at and focus on the project. âYeah, I love it.â
âWe were thinking of not putting our name on it since itâs more trendy lately,â Donghyuck says.
You nod. âYeah, I think itâs better like this. I also love the picture, I think it would be more powerful without the name on it but weâre not that famous, yet,â you joke making them laugh.
âThatâs why I didnât make it too big, so the focus would be on you two.â
âLove it, that's perfect,â you praise. âHonestly, seeing it all almost done, I feel guilty for not giving you anything.â
Jeno shrugs. âItâs alright. Iâm having fun doing this and can put it in my portfolio anyway. I did much worse and less fun for some courses.â
âWe will offer you a dinner,â Donghyuck says. âSomewhere cheap, though.â
After a few hours, everything is almost done. Jeno still wants to double-check everything tomorrow before sending it to be printed but the final results wonât differ much.
âSo, I think we should celebrate the project that brought you two so close,â Ningning says, winking at the last words, before raising an empty cup.
You chuckle, trying to escape Donghyuckâs hold, but itâs still firm on you. âItâs just a Uni project, there's nothing to celebrate.â
âWell, mine and Markâs is not that good,â Yangyang snorts. âI donât understand why you two always want to do so much extra work but whatever makes you happy.â
âWe love the song,â Donghyuck replies. âAnd weâre proud of it so we might as well fool ourselves it might get more than 30 listens on SoundCloud.â
âFor me,â Ningning says, âthis is huge. One day youâll be famous and we will get to say we were here from the start, so we need to treat ourselves and party.â
âYes, letâs treat ourselves to the cheapest pizza on the block. Oh, how I love being an adult,â Yeri huffs, slumping on the couch. âNo, but really, this is something to celebrate.â She then moves closer to you so that only you can hear. âAnd maybe if we get you drunk enough weâll get juicy info before tomorrow.â
You roll your eyes and shake your head. âFine, order these pizzas and letâs celebrate.â
The girls donât get you drunk enough to spill anything but get themselves drunk enough that Jaemin has to drive them back to their place. Truthfully thereâs nothing to say anyway. You and Donghyuck still didnât talk, you didnât even have sex lately. Too busy with everything, that was the last of your thoughts. But you did sleep together and basically lived in symbiosis. So?
You should feel happy about this project. Academically it will be another success, and honestly, one of your best works so far. So why do you feel this emptiness in your chest now that youâre sitting on a chair in Donghyuckâs bedroom?
This is the end. Now nothing holds you two together, and you fear that what you built over these months might not be strong enough for you to still hang out with you. You wonder if this meant anything to him. Sure, he likes you, but how much? Sex means nothing, and even if said between the lines, he got you to try out romantic things to make you come up with the song. And he succeeded. You have the song, the lyrics you tried so hard to put down. Fake dates, fake flirts, fake everything, but everything you put down is real. And itâs terrifying.
So absorbed by your torments, you donât see Donghyuck stare at you, standing in front of you changed into fresh clothes.
âHey.â His voice makes you flinch in surprise and quickly look up at him. Thereâs a frown on his face. âWhatâs with that face?â
You shrug, diverting the eye contact.
âAre you not happy with the result?â Donghyuck asks, grabbing the closest chair so he can sit right in front of you. Â
âNo, I love it. I loved everything so much and thatâs why Iâm sad.â There are many reasons why, and youâre not a master at dealing with too many emotions at once. Subjects? Books? Essays? Projects? They can fall and pile up on you and you wonât feel the weight of it. But real life? Feelings? Not where you excel.
âCause you wonât have any excuses to spend time with me and see me?â He teases, chuckling. Heâs still the same person you met one year ago but behind his playful voice and acts thereâs something tender, at least you like to see it this way.
âUhm, I hope we will keep seeing each other,â you confess shyly, doing everything in your power to not meet his warm gaze. His hands on his lap are a beautiful view now. âBut noâŠâ
His teasing smirk turns apprehensive. âHey, whatâs wrong?â
You shrug. This should be the easy thing to confess. A bit humiliating considering showing some weakness to him still feels like letting your mortal enemy pour salt in your open wounds, but youâre hiding more vulnerable things from him. Â
âNothing but⊠I was so sure I didnât want to be a singer, and I was more and more sure of working in Pr, and now⊠I donât know. I loved writing the song, like I always do, but this time felt different, as if⊠thatâs what Iâm supposed to do in my life, you know?â You look up because even if you canât take a mocking look you have to see his reaction.
He smiles, caressing your cheek. âI think youâre good at it so yeah, you should.â
Youâre taken aback by that reply. Deep down you wanted him to shred your dreams cause you feel like all of this is insane, and if you have nobody supporting you maybe you wonât indulge in it. But itâs clear that Donghyuck is not an enemy anymore and has your back now. Â
âYeah but⊠I loved singing and doing it with you. Being in the studio, recording, but even before when we were working on the melody and everything. And working on the concept? We did all that with just one song, can you imagine what working on an album feels like?â
He smiles and nods. âWell, yeah, I fantasized about it a lot, so yes. But why is it a problem? Why canât you pick this as a career?â
You can see in his eyes that heâs confused. Not by your change of path, but by your sudden insecurity. Deep down youâre shocked by that too. You have changed goals a few times in your academic career but somehow this feels so different.
âCause itâs rare to make it,â you mutter, nervously playing with your hands. Truth is, the chances of failure are so big, and youâre not sure you could take it. You and your perfectionism and your need to succeed on the first try. Â
âCanât say youâre wrong, itâs hell out there, but⊠youâre good, and beautiful, and Iâm sure that with your songwriting skills and your voice, someone will notice you.â
He had tried to make a name for himself longer than you, he knows it. During some vulnerable night conversation where you showed him your songs, he told you how many demos he had sent, and how hard he tried to build something at least on the socials. So you donât care if his words are driven by sympathy, he could discourage you, but instead, heâs supportive, and thatâs all you need.
âAnd what am I without your production? Will you be my Jack Antonoff?â
Donghyuck laughs. âIâd prefer to be your Aaron Dessner.â
âYeah, fine. I like that Haechan,â you say, highlighting that name that now sounds foreign.
âI donât want to hear that name roll from your lips anymore,â he chuckles and you hum laughing. Â
âTalking about lyrics,â he says after a few seconds, the phrase lingers in the air⊠âthis song was interesting.â
âInteresting? What do you mean? Is it bad?â Your eyes widen and the anxiety that left you jumps at you again.
He shakes his head. âI said interesting, not bad. You should know the difference.â
âItâs not funny, interesting means nothing.â
He chuckles. âSome phrases are interesting⊠thatâs it. They look familiar.â
You feel your body burn up in flames and you have to shift your gaze from him. You shouldâve scrapped that, he isnât dumb. (You believed he was up until two seconds ago, but apparently, he was just waiting for the right moment to trap you.)
âI wonder if something, or someone,â he winks, âinspired you.â
âThe sea. When we went there together. The sea inspired me,â you whisper swiftly, nervously biting the inside of your cheek. âThatâs why I called it wave.â
Donghyuck laughs. âIâm not talking about the title, and you know it,â he says, resting his hand on your knee. âFlow that Iâve never felt before? Meeting you through distinctive distraction is a miracle?â
âYou told me you liked it,â you say, playing innocent.
He rolls his eyes. âI do. I love it, actually. I just wanted to analyse it with you.â
You gulp when his fingers start rubbing on your skin. âWe shouldâve done it before recording it, donât you think?â
He clicks his tongue. âNah, I want to do it now. I think I already know who inspired you.â
âThe sea ââ
âDrop it,â he retorts sternly, squeezing your knee. âI think our plan worked. Well, unless you found someone else who inspired you to write a love song.â
âItâs barely a love song,â you stutter, body heating up.
âRight, some lyrics felt sexy,â he giggles. âYouâre such a master in holding me here and there and going up and up down and down again.â
You try to scoot away, but he blocks you by putting his feet under the leg of the chair. âSo what? Also, youâre dirty-minded, thatâs not what it meansâŠâ
He snickers, rubbing his thumb on your cheek. âWhy are you so flustered then?â
âCause youâre too close to me, I can barely breathe.â
âMhh⊠it reminds me of something.â
You roll your head back and mutter a curse under your breath. âIsnât it what you wanted? To inspire me? I did it. I romanticized everything and we got the song.â
âRomantized everything,â he hums. âIn this wave called you thatâs pushing in, I fall in love. You are the center of my heart. Feeling new, feel now. The wave that started because of you, babe. Dive into the world called you. Damn, your creativity is so good, you are talented.â
âAre you mocking me?â
âNo, IâŠâ he sighs annoyed. âIf you wrote it down in a song, why canât you say it to my face?â
You gulp. âI have nothing to tell you.â
He raises a brow. âSo youâre still confused. Should I satisfy you to hear you say it?â
You hide your face in your hands and groan. âFine,â you snap. âI â I wrote that about you. And I, God, this is humiliating. You heard the song, you sang it. Do you want me to say it out loud? Was that not enough?â
Donghyuck smiles, and, for a moment, you fear he will break into a mocking laugh, but instead, his smile gets bigger. âYes, I knew it,â he screams.
âOh⊠of course itâs funny to you, maybe this is what you wanted all along, make me fall in love and then make fun of me.â
âFall in love?â He whispers, stopping in his tracks to look at you, and only then you realise you said it loud and clear. And itâs worse than saying it in a song. âYou love me seriously? Like itâs not just attraction and maybe liking me?â
You feel like choking up on tears but try not to show it. âSo you can laugh at me more?â
âWhy would I laugh at you? I just want to know if what you feel is real,â he replies, and somehow he sounds even more annoyed than before.
You hum and nod, no words can leave your mouth.
âDid you really think I would use this against you? Donât you trust me?â
âI â I⊠I donât know, okay? I do, but also, this was⊠this was all fake, just to write that song and now itâs real. And it was never supposed to be real, and maybe you never wanted me, cause Iâm not your type and you hated me and we both wanted this to be over and now I feel like I can barely breathe without you, and I know that in the song I said I wouldâve left the decision in your hands but the idea of you not wanting me back makes me sick and I ââ
Your words fall into a void as he kisses you with no hesitation. Hands cupping your wet face and holding the back of your neck to keep you close.
âYouâre so fucking stupid. So, so smart and yet such an idiot when it comes to feelings,â he chuckles when he pulls away. âYou said I was an unexpected thing that completely changed your flow but do you have any idea of what you were to me? You ruined my second year,â he confesses, and your face quickly shifts into a worried expression, but he clears your doubts right away. Â
âI thought I could beat you, I thought I could have the upper hand and⊠you messed up my days and nights. I thought you couldnât fill up so much of my time when I already had so many friends but, fuck, I was wrong. And instead of distracting you, I let you distract me.â
âBut I â I didnât plan it, I didnât want to ââ
His thumb shushes you as his eyes crease in a smile. âYou didnât do anything, I just miscalculated. I didnât know the amazing person you are, and let jealousy consume me before love took its place without me even noticing.â
You almost gasp. âLove? So, you do love me back?â
He nods. âStrong word, I know. But goddam, you were ten times cheesier in the song.â
You laugh and he does the same.
âBut I am hurt, though. I canât believe you thought I was playing you.â
âWhat were the chances you were going to fall for me, too? Nobody ever falls for me.â
âGood thing you only needed me to fall for you,â he says, kissing you. âSo⊠did you fall for me at the beach?â
âI was confused back then. I knew I felt something but I didnât know what it was. I thought it was only attraction, but at the same time, I felt like I needed you, you know?â
âAnd to think I wasnât even sure of taking you there,â he giggles.
âReally?â
He nods. âI wanted to study, I already felt like I was falling behind and I thought I could use those three days to catch up, but then you crossed my mind and I forgot about the rest.â
You look down to hide the big smile on your face. No, youâre not happy you almost made him fail his second year in this war, but you love knowing how much he cares about you. The old Donghyuck wouldâve never confessed this, he wouldâve never shown how weak you make him. But now heâs proudly telling you how you genuinely occupied his thoughts.
âI know I didnât show signs of failure, but you did succeed in your plan just a bit.â
He snorts. âDonât need fools gold.â
âNo, Iâm serious. I mean, maybe youâre right, you didnât, but I think you succeeded in something better. You showed me I can achieve my academic goals and still live life. You showed me so much. I had fun on my own, and I loved it, but I also only had myself and nobody to count on, and that sucks.â
âI didnât do it.â
âYes you did, you pushed me out of my comfort zone and trust me, I did panic sometimes. I just hide it better. But you gave me the chance to meet seven amazing people allowing me in your friendâs group. Some of you have known each other for so long, thatâs probably when I shouldâve put my heart at ease and realised you truly cared about me.â
âYou fail to understand how likeable you are. Everybody loves you, you just donât pay them attention.â
You shrug. Heâs probably right. You never cared about that, but you wonât start caring about it now. You found your people, you found your place.
Staying at his place for the night is tempting, but, truth be told, you two want to be on your own on your first night as lovers. So, with the excuse of wanting to eat an ice cream (not an excuse, you will eat ice cream), you slip out of the place.
The others donât care. Honestly, itâs clear that everyone except you two was expecting this ending, but you will deal with this tomorrow at lunch with the girls. For now, you chuckle at Jenoâs wink before he rests his head on Renjunâs shoulder again, who barely waves goodbye before going back to the movie theyâre watching. Mark seems to be the only one confused at the way your arms are linked when you walk through the living room, but youâre sure that Yangyang, who has a teasing smirk on his face, will fill him in as soon as youâre out of the door. Jaemin will sneak at the girlsâ hang-out tomorrow, his face lets it all known.
âI love this place,â Donghyuck says when you enter your apartment.
âReally? This hole?â You chuckle, leaving your bag at the door and getting rid of your shoes.
He nods. âItâs cosy and quiet, and I get to have you all to myself.â Before he finishes the phrases he pulls you in his hold, almost making you lose your balance and you scold him.
âCan you be less clumsy?â
âMhh... no.â
âAlso, itâs not like not being alone ever stopped you from being the clingiest man on earth.â
He huffs, throwing his head back as he slowly starts walking backwards to reach the bed. âAs if you donât like it.â
âYou got us many suspicious looks,â you complain.
âGirl, everybody knew about us,â he says, falling on the bed with you. âI fear they were betting on a situationship but well, we didnât do anything to keep this on the low.â
You shrug. âWhatever,â you say, caressing his face to move the hair on his eyes. âI donât care. Tonight I just want to think about us.â
âNow youâre talking,â he hums happily. âCan I get a chocolate-less kiss?â
You laugh. âYou can get all the kisses you want.â
Your lips connect to his to start a sweet kiss that lasts for a while. You never truly pull away as your hands start moving on each other to get rid of the clothes and leave you half-naked on the bed.
âWanna taste you,â he murmurs, rolling around so your back is on the mattress before he starts going down. His fingers hook with the band of your panties and pull them down. âA bush?â
You huff. âI was just a bit busy, and didnât have time to shave.â
âGood. I hope you donât find time to do it ever again,â he says making you laugh.
âYou like it?â You ask.
âI love it,â he replies.
You donât have time to react because his lips are on you as soon as he's done talking. Your hips buck up and you fail to hold back the moans.
Donghyuck takes his sweet time, licking up stripes to get you wet before he starts sucking on your hardening clit.
Your head rolls back against the pillow and your hands canât help but tangle in his hair to pull him closer. The groan of pleasure that comes out of his mouth at your gesture makes you tremble.
âSo fucking sweet for me,â he mumbles against you. âMy sweet girl.â
A dumb grin curls your lips and your eyes try to open to get a glimpse of him. You regret that action cause his pretty face smashed against you as he eats you out as if you're his last meal sends shivers straight to your core.
âPlease,â you whimper, making him open his eyes to stare at you. Your throat tightens and you feel like you might pass out from that, but still force yourself to finish the phrase. âDonât stop, youâre so good. I â I never felt like this.â
He grins, pulling away only to reply. âYeah? Am I that good?â
You groan. Heâs still so competitive and always has to prove a point. But you donât care. Thatâs fun. Thatâs what you love about him. âYes, youâre that good. Just please, keep doing it.â
âNever planned of stopping.â
When his mouth starts moving on you again you see stars. Your neck falls behind, enjoy the softness of the pillow, and you stop trying to keep it together, moaning loudly and chanting his name.
His hands wrap around your thighs, keeping you close to his mouth. And each flick of his tongue pushes the climax closer, making you see stars.
Your breath gets messier as you hit your peak and pleasure takes over your body as you let go to that blissful sensation running inside you.
Youâre still gasping for air when you feel his fingers prodding at your entrance, slowly entering you.
âHyuck, what are youâ?â
âI want you to be ready for me,â he says. âI won't make you come another time, I promise. Just getting you wetter.â
You mumble a sound that makes no sense before you decide to relax and enjoy the sensation. Itâs not like you would ever complain about his fingers, you simply donât want to be too sensitive already. But heâs true to his words, his two fingers fuck into you, curling up right on your sweet spot, turning you on more and coating them white.
âAlways so good for me,â he praises when he pulls out, sucking them harshly before he leans in to kiss you. Your hands wrap in his hair as you pull him closer, letting your legs wrap around his waist to pull him down. âDamn, calm down,â he chuckles close to your lips. âIâm not going anywhere.â
âI know, but I want you close.â
Donghyuck smiles. âUnhook your legs for a moment and Iâll be as close as possible.â
Reluctantly, you do as ordered, knowing that as soon as heâll slip in, your legs will be exactly in the same place.
You barely pay attention when he does, too focused on the gentle kisses he's leaving on the crown of your head, cheeks and neck. Your eyes only open when he bottoms in and brings your legs around himself.
âHappy now?â He asks, brushing behind a few strands of hair that fell on your face.
âMore than happy,â you reply smiling. Your body moves on its own when your hips buck up against him, eliciting a deep moan to slip past his lips.
Thatâs the sign he needs to know he can start moving. One hand places on your waist to keep you in place and the other supports his body as he starts dragging his hips out.
You can feel your heart skip a beat when he leans down and hides in the crook of your neck, inhaling deeply. âYou always smell so good, thatâs what tricked me to always be close to you,â he mumbles, nibbling your skin.
You chuckle, shaking your head. Even now he has something to say. Still, his words donât distract him from his actions. With each stroke, he hits deep inside of you, hitting sensitive spots that make your toes curl and your fingers close into fists on the sheets.
After finding the perfect angle, Donghyuck starts speeding up, his thrusts not harsh but fast enough to build up a steady rhythm. And, with each one, you feel a wave of pleasure invading you.
âCome here,â you whisper, cupping his face to pull him close. âWanna kiss you.â Your lips are on his right away and you both let go to a long passionate kiss as the hold of your legs around his waist tightens. One hand leaves his face to run on his back, feeling his muscles flex.
Your moans get louder with every passing second but they end up muffled in the messy kiss youâre still sharing.
When his hand sneaks between your bodies, so he can touch your clit in quick circular motions, you know you wonât last much longer. Your walls clench hard around him, and more wetness coats him as your hips buck up for more friction. And the last drop comes from his lips, leaving yours to wrap around your sensitive nipples.
âHyuck,â your voice trembles as you call for him. Pleading eyes looking up at him. You should say something sex-related, maybe praise how good heâs making you feel, or how close you are, but even if those are the thoughts on the tip of your tongue, the words that come out are completely different. âI love you,â you whisper in a hush, feeling the weight disappear from your chest. Saying it clearly is like finally coming to the real realization.
Donghyuck smiles, kissing you repeatedly on the lips. âI love you, too.â
And soon after, you both reach your peak. The pleasure shoots through your bodies like fireworks in the sky.
You stay like that for a few minutes, kissing each other as you wait for your bodies to calm down.
When he slips out of you gently, putting his shirt under your body to avoid a mess, you still have a dumb, but content, smile on your face.
You donât have the energy to move, so you lay there as you watch him move around to grab new clothes and two glasses of water. Just the time to pull yourself together, and youâre once again under the bedsheets, cuddled up against each other. You relax at the feeling of his fingers rubbing circles on the back of your neck and let his heartbeat be a sweet melody.
Mamma Mia is playing on the TV, but none of you has much energy to sing along to ABBAâs songs âhe has a bit more than you as he hums the words.
When he chuckles, you look up at him.
âWhatâs so funny?â You ask, staring at the tv with a frown on your face. The SOS scene not being exactly one of the funniest one.
âI was thinking about us,â he says.
âI do hope we wonât end up like this.â
âYeah, no, but you ended up being my Waterloo, I guess,â he whispers, looking at you. And then you get it, remembering when he sang it to you.
âI told you,â you reply, making him gasp offended. âWhat? You expected me to say something nice? You mocked me, you bragged and I cursed you with eternal love for me.â
Donghyuck laughs and then wraps his arms around you to pull you flatter against him, resting his chin on your head.
âYou know this doesnât mean Iâll stop trying to beat you, right?â He chuckles, but when you lift your gaze, getting a glimpse of him, you see his serious expression. And you hope he's true to his intention and that that spark set by your ambition will never die.
You smile smugly before relaxing against his warm embrace. âYeah, but weâll see if Iâll let you.â
YEARS LATER
âIs everything alright? Why are you looking at us like this?â You ask, shifting on your seat on the couch, looking at the girl in front of you.
âIs it true?â
âWhat?â Donghyuck says.
âIs it true that you two couldnât stand each other?â She says, big brown eyes staring at you with curiosity.
You quirk a brow, giving your full attention to your daughter. âWhy this sudden question?â
âCause itâs embarrassing to see tweets of people going insane over you two, but also I think itâs unfair how these strangers seem to know more about my parents than me.â
You and Donghyuck laugh. âAnd what do they say?"
She rolls her eyes. âThat they canât believe you hated each other and that you started dating her to distract her but ended up falling for her?â
You look at each other smirking before a tender, nostalgic smile takes its place.
âWould it be so terrible?â He asks, tilting his head.
She thinks about it for a moment and then replies. âIt would be a bit embarrassing for you, Dad. But also... cute. So?â
âIâd say itâs true,â he replies, shrugging.
âWait, so you really started dating because you hated each other?â She screams, sitting straight on the loveseat, leaning toward you with her body.
You chuckle. âWe didnât hate each other. We believed we could outdo the other. And your father did too much, as always.â
âYou were miserable before me,â Donghyuck replies, tightening his hold around your waist. âI had a plan, and it wouldâve worked.â
You roll your eyes. âImagine thinking you could make me fall in love and not fall in love with me,â you say to your daughter. âI was a real heartbreaker back then.â
âYou still are,â she replies, smiling. âMy friends go insane every time they realize who my parents are.â
Your daughter never brags about being your child. The famous singer, producer, and dancer Haechan, and you, who had a good launch as a singer before you realized that wasnât your world and decided to stick to be a choreographer and PR manager (well, mostly Donghyuckâs choreographer and his manager). But everyone close to her knows who she is, and itâs not easy to act nonchalantly about it.
She has heard many stories about you two. The gossip about your story running wild since you broke into the industry. But you never sat down and explained it to her, not until now.
âWe still have our charm,â Donghyuck laughs.
âI think the most important thing is your love and that you might be the best parents in the world. But Iâm saying it officially only if you donât turn it into a race.â
âUs? Turning something into a competition? We would never,â Donghyuck jokes.
She rolls her eyes, huffing loudly. And you canât help but smile thinking how similar to your husband she looks right now.
âHoney, forgive us. How do you think weâre still having so much fun after all these years? Thatâs how we thrive, we learned how to push each other healthily.â
âYeah, fine, Iâm glad your love story is still perfect, but seriously, no competition when it comes to me. I love you both so much.â
âCome here,â you say, patting the space in front of you on the couch. Hugging her when she sits down between you two. âYou are the only thing we wonât turn into a competition.â
Donghyuck hums in agreement, wrapping his arm around you two. âWe both won with you.â
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Motive | Pornstar!Javier Peña x Fem!Reader | Part 3 of Unscripted Desire | ~10k wc | Series Masterlist | gif cred | Explicit. Minors DNI.
Summary: Another chaotic shoot... but at least it's in Malibu?
Tags: more plot keeps sneaking into the porn, angst, frankie has entered the villa, jealous!javi, reader stands on business, it's a porn set other people are also fucking, masturbation on camera (m), dirty talk, lots of cursing (f bombs my beloved), an attempt at a blowjob, javier can't get it up, a dash of misogyny, author projects her ooc thoughts about problematic age gaps in the porn industry, no use of y/n, reader has a degree in film production, other shit iâm probably forgetting.
A/N: me nervous that part 3 isn't going to live up to the hype? more likely than you think! đââïž this fic is taking on a brain of its own and i'm just along for the ride, baby! for my just the tip stansâ i'm sorry but i'm going to have to edge you until part 4 *crowd boos and i'm dragged off stage* i was going to wait to post this, but i really wanted to get it out because i'm so damn proud of it lowkey, lol, so i hope you all like it đ€ let a bitch know what ya think! also, shoutout to my pookie @persephone-girl for reading over this đ love u mamas
Your phoneâs shrill ring pierces through the haze of sleep, and you groan in frustration, burying your face deeper into the pillow.
The comforter is pulled tight over your head, shielding you from the annoyingly bright sunlight filtering through your window. Your hand shoots out, fumbling blindly across the bedside table until your fingers finally close around the receiver.Â
âWhat?â you grumble, voice thick with sleep and muffled beneath your sheets.
âThere she is! My beautiful, talented camerawoman. Have I ever told you how much I appreciate what you do?â Robbieâs overly cheerful voice blares through the phone, so you pull it back from your ear slightly, wincing.
âWhy are you calling me this early in the morning?â you snap, already regretting picking up.
âEarly? Itâs almost noonââ
âWhat do you want, Robbie?â You cut him off, not in the mood for small talk, especially since last nightâs bar shift ran past four in the morning. You were hoping to sleep through most of the day, recovering in your bed with no interruptions. Clearly, that plan has gone out the window.
âLook, Iâve got a big shoot happening in Malibu today and Iâm short-staffed. I could really use your magic touch behind the camera.â
âNo.â
 âCâmon,â he drags the word out, âIâll make sure youâre well compensated for working on your day off.â
You rub your eyes, the remnants of sleep still clinging to you. âHow much?â
He tosses out a number, and despite your best effort to remain indifferent, your eyes widen. Damn. Thatâs more than decent money.
âMalibuâs all the way across town,â you point out, âI wonât make it there in time if I take the bus. And a taxi? Thatâll cost me a fortune.â
âDonât worry about that. Your rideâs outside waiting for you.â
You blink, confused, and get out of bed, dragging the corded phone with you as you move toward the bay window. You pull the curtain back just enough to peer down at the busy street below.
Sure enough, Steve is there, leaning casually against his Jeep with sunglasses on, a cigarette between his lips. The second he spots you looking down, he grins like the cheshire cat and waves.
âSeriously?â you mutter to Robbie, flipping Steve off with a half-hearted smile. âAnd what if Iâd said no?â
âWe both know you wouldnât have.â
After a few more quick exchanges, you hang up, glancing once more at your ride through the window before turning to rush and get yourself ready for the day ahead.
Truth be told, youâre still not fully awake, your body moving on autopilot as you shuffle through your morning (midday) routine.
Itâs been ages since youâve been to the beachâ especially one as nice as Malibuâs. The thought of it softens the blow of losing your rest day. You tell yourself youâll make the best of it, turning this unexpected workday into something that benefits you, too.
After shooting wraps, youâll indulge in a quiet evening by the shore, sinking your toes into the warm sand with a good book in hand. No rush to head back. This time, youâll gladly take a taxi if it means getting some peace seaside.
With that plan in mind, you dress for the day accordingly. Your halter-style bathing suit doubles as a cute top, the color complimenting your skin, while your favorite denim shorts sit comfortably over your bikini bottoms.
You pack a few essentials into your beach bag and make sure to grab your camera bag as well. Once youâve double-checked that everythingâs packed, you make your way downstairs, feeling a bit more awake now.
Steve catches sight of you approaching and flashes a dramatic grin, straightening up like heâs about to chauffeur royalty.
âYour chariot awaits,â he announces with an exaggerated flourish, swinging the passenger door open.
You roll your eyes, but you canât help the bemused laugh that escapes your lips. âGod, youâre ridiculous,â you mutter, shaking your head as you climb into the seat, tossing your beach bag onto the floor.
He shuts the door behind you with a smirk. âRidiculous? I prefer charmingly dedicated to my craft.â He hops into the driverâs side, flicking the cigarette away before starting the car.
You snort at his self-satisfaction, leaning back against the seat and putting on the seatbelt.Â
âMalibu, huh? How the fuck did he manage to swing that?â
He chuckles, one hand lazily draped over the wheel, the other tapping out a rhythm on his knee. âHe didnât tell me much eitherâ just asked me to stop by and pick you up on my way.â
That makes sense. Robbieâs always been a bit scatterbrained, occasionally running around like heâs managing a multi-million-dollar empire when, in reality, heâs holding it together with duct tape and half-assed enthusiasm.
The drive is surprisingly fun, Steveâs constant jokes keeping your spirits high. He always manages to make you laugh, which is why you tolerate his quirks.Â
âIâm pretty sure Javiâs going to be there,â he says, almost too nonchalantly, meaning heâs in the mood to be messy.
You keep your gaze focused on the coastline, watching as palm trees blur past. The wind from the open windows has you squinting momentarily, but it canât cool the sudden heat spreading through your body.Â
âItâs not going to be weird seeing him, right?â He presses and you finally turn to face him, moving your sunglasses to the top of your head.
âWhy would it be weird?â you ask, the challenge clear in your voice.
He shoots you a look, brows raised and lips quirked in that irritating way of his. âOh, I dunno. Maybe âcause of the whole flirtinâ with you during the middle of a scene thing? Or, yâknow, the elevator incident⊠which, by the way, what the fuck even happened there?â He glances at you, curiosity practically oozing out of him.
You roll your eyes, crossing your arms over your chest defensively, but you canât stop the way your thighs rub together at the memory.Â
Javierâs mouth... God. âNone of your damn business.â
âDonât tell me you fucked him.â
You laugh, loudly, the sound bordering on forced. âAbsolutely not.â
He shoots you that okay, sure look, and you groan internally.
Steveâs like a dog with a bone when he gets curious, and you know heâs not going to let this go until you give him something. You sigh, deciding to indulge himâ partially.Â
âHe was being an asshole,â you start, and he immediately interjects with, âNothing new there,â causing both of you to share a laugh at Javierâs expense.
You shake your head, returning your sunglasses to the bridge of your nose. âNo, seriously. He was pushing my buttons, being his usual peacock self. I donât even know how it escalated, but one moment weâre arguing, and the next... heâs got his tongue in my pussy.â
Steve chokes on his own spit at your bluntness. Heâs heard and seen much worse on set, yet your confession has him all tripped up.Â
âSo, you did fuck him?â
You roll your eyes again, shifting in your seat as the horny flashbacks hit you all at onceâ Javierâs lips wrapped around your clit, the perfect rhythm of his tongue, his fingers.
You shove those thoughts away, focusing on the road ahead, annoyed at both Javier and Steve now. âGetting head isnât fucking. Itâs, like, third base. And anyway, I made it clearâ thatâs all he was getting from me. Iâm not about to waste my time rolling around in bed with him.â
He gives you a lookâ a knowing lookâ and you scoff, shaking your head. âWhat now?âÂ
âNothing. Youâre just the first person Iâve heard say that about him.â
âSomeoneâs gotta humble his ass,â you mutter, though the words feel heavier than they should. You try to act like youâve put Javier out of your mind, like that moment was nothing but a blip in your life, but deep down, you know itâs not that simple.
Youâve never met anyone like him, and the fact that he can elicit such reactions from you pisses you off so bad.
As the coastline stretches out in front of you, Malibu drawing closer with every mile, you canât help but wonder if seeing Javier today will be as easy as youâre pretending it will be.
The mansion is far more extravagant than anything you could have imagined. Its grand facade, with towering columns and ivy crawling up the sides, feels like something out of a movie set, and for a second, you almost forget why youâre here.
But then, as soon as you step past the threshold, you hear itâ echoing from deep within the house are the unmistakable sounds of exaggerated moans, grunts, and the rhythmic thump of bodies meeting.
You adjust the strap of your camera bag on your shoulder, your beach bag abandoned in Steveâs car. As you step further into the foyer, Robbie appears, that infamous smirk plastered on his face.
âLong way from home, arenât you, Dorothy?â he jokes, taking in your wide-eyed amusement as you scan the expensive decorâ the towering glass chandelier overhead, the marble floors gleaming beneath your feet, the floor-to-ceiling windows.
You canât help but be a little impressed.Â
But of course, heâs there to give you shit about it. You turn your wide-eyed gaze into a glare, bringing your attention to him. âSo funny. You should quit your current sleazy day job and take up another sleazy oneâ stand up,â you reply, your voice dripping with sarcasm.
He just grins, unbothered by your sharp tone. âYouâre always a joy to work with. No wonder Javi asked for you specifically.â
Your entire demeanor shifts viscerally and you curse yourself for it mentally, caught completely off guard. âWait, what? Javier asked for me?â
He shrugs, indifferent to your confusion. âYeah. Heâs set for a solo shoot upstairs in one of the bathrooms before heâs on with...â He snaps his fingers, trying to remember. â...Mariella. Real pretty girl, itâs her first on-camera gig today.â
The world blurs a little as your mind zeroes in on that one bit of information: Javier asked for you. And not just for any shootâ a solo one. You blink, shaking your head to clear the fog. âIâm sorry, can we go back to the part where I was summoned here by someone who isnât my boss?â
âOh yeah, he made a real fuss about it. Sent away the other guy we had lined up for the shoot. Told me he wouldnât do it unless you were behind the camera. Even offered to pay out of his own pocket just to get you here. Itâs the only reason weâre paying you as much as I promised over the phone.â
Your stomach twists and you can feel your face settling into a deep frown, the kind that pulls some of your mood down with it. So thatâs why he dangled such a big paycheck in front of you this morning.
After the elevator incident (as Steve has so eloquently named it), after the intense heat of his mouth on you, the way he had youâ he said heâd leave you alone. He was supposed to respect the boundaries you set, but here he is, yanking you back into his orbit.Â
You can already picture him upstairs, lounging in one of those stupidly lavish bathrooms, probably smirking that damn smirk of his, waiting for you.
You try to squash down the way your pulse quickens at the thought, the lingering memory of his fingers digging into your hips, his tongue working between your thighs, is beckoning you into temptation again.
âFucking great,â you mutter, more to yourself than your boss. You have half a mind to storm up those stairs, find the pornstar, and give him a piece of your mind before marching right back out to spend your day on the beachâ free of drama and distractions and him.
But the reality is, youâre being paid nearly three times what youâd normally make on a gig like this. Itâs enough to drown out the temptation to walk away, however satisfying that would be.
Youâre an adult. Youâve dealt with worse. You can handle this.
Robbie gives you a sidelong glance, clearly sensing your hesitation. âYouâre not backing out, are you?â
With a sigh, you force a smile and shake your head. âAs good as itâd feel to leave, no, Iâm not. Iâll be up in a sec.â
Relief flashes across his face, and he gives you a few pointers before rushing off into this maze of a house.
You linger for a second longer, taking a deep breath to shake off the nerves. Come on. Get it together. After a final mental pep talk, you head toward the grand staircase that winds up to the second floor.Â
The sight that greets you at the top of the stairs stops you in your tracks: Lexxie is splayed out on her back atop some console table, currently getting the life fucked out of her. The visual is chaotic but nothing new. Youâve seen it a hundred times before.Â
A guy with a scruffy beard and a beat-up baseball cap stands behind the camera, looking more bored than impressed, barely watching as the two stars go at it.
You lean against the nearby railing, your voice cutting through their heavy breaths and grunts. âGuess your marriage to Javier didnât last very long,â you tease from off camera, referencing the honeymoon shoot.
The starâs eyes snap open at the sound of your voice, and she flashes you a playful, almost sweet smile in between heavy breaths. âKinda regretting stepping out on himâoh, fuck.â Her snappy comeback dissolves into a breathy moan as the guy currently rearranging her on the table pushes her legs up to her chest, hitting just the right spot.Â
âSorry, didnât mean to ruin your shot,â you say, throwing a glance at the cameraman, knowing how annoying it can be when someone messes with your focus.
He waves it off with a lazy shrug. âItâs not ruined. Honestly, I wouldâve quit filming ten minutes ago. Itâs starting to drag. Iâm impressed theyâre still going.â
You let out a small laugh, nodding in agreement. âYeah, theyâve got stamina like you wouldnât believe. Makes me feel lazy in bed sometimes, but then I remember how unrealistic this shit actually is.â
He chuckles, scratching at his jaw. âShould make it an Olympic sport. Bet weâd bring home gold.â
âPretty sure that already exists and it happens in the Olympic Village.â You smirk, finally peeling your eyes away from the couple to look at him properly.
Heâs cute in that disheveled, stray-dog kind of way. His curls poke out from under a worn baseball cap, his beard patchy, and his clothes rumpled, like he just rolled out of bed and threw on the first thing he could find. He fits in perfectly with the kind of guys youâd expect on a porn crew.
Earning a genuine laugh from him, he extends a hand. âIâm Frankie.â
You shake it, offering your name in return. âIâm also part of the crew. About to go shoot a scene in the master bathroom.â You explain, noticing how his grip lingers just a little, his smile playful and easy. You feel a bit of warmth rush to your cheeks, and heâs about to say something whenâ
âOh fuck, Iâm about to cum!â Lexxieâs voice is piercing, loud and breathless, pulling your attention back to the scene.
You shake your head, stifling a laugh. âWell, thatâs my cue,â you mutter, stepping out before you get too caught up flirting with him.
âNice meeting you,â he says before dismounting the camera, moving in closer to capture the so-called money shot.
Cute. Too cute. Itâs almost enough to make you forget about the man youâre about to see.
You push open the door to the room Javierâs in, and the sight of him has you doing a double take.
Heâs standing in the middle of the room with nothing but a white towel hanging dangerously low on his hips, his defined Adonis belt drawing your eyes in a way you hate to admit.
His toned, brown torso glistens with the thinnest layer of sweat, the sunlight pouring into the room making him look like heâs glowing.
You need to toughen up, and in order to do so, you have to bitch at him. Itâs the only way to keep that lustful cavewoman instinct away.
âYouâre a piece of work,â is what you settle on, making sure to let your tone really punctuate how annoyed you are by the stunt he pulled today.
The second his eyes lock onto yours, amusement flickers behind them, as if heâs been waiting for this confrontation.
He quirks a brow, lips curving into a lazy smile. âÂżDe que hablas nenaâ?â
âWhat happened to âif you donât want me anymore, Iâll leave you aloneâ? Was that something you said just to lower my guard? To get me to give you what you want?â You cut him off, keeping your distance even as you notice him inching closer.
Your eyes are daggers as they bore into him, and for a brief second, you hope he feels at least some of the fire burning in your chest. But if heâs affected, he doesnât show it. He is frustratingly calm, like heâs above it all.
âYou gave me no indication that you didnât want me anymore.â His voice is casual, almost patronizing.
You groan as you throw your hands up in exasperation. âI literally said, âHope you got your fix because itâs never happening again.â What the fuck else do I have to say or do to get you off my back?â
Silence settles between you two as you stand there staring each other down. Heâs unreadable, watching you with an intensity that makes your skin tingle.
âWell?â you demand, impatient.
âIn my defenseâ it didnât sound very convincing.â You stare at him incredulously before turning on your heel. Hell no. He can keep his money and his bullshit. Youâre not doing this.
But just as your fingers graze the doorknob, his voice sharpens with a hint of panic, calling your name.
âWait, look,â he starts, running a hand through his hair, âIâm not trying to start anything. I just thoughtââ he pauses, searching for the right words. âIâd feel more comfortable if you were behind the camera during this shoot. Not the other guy Robbie brought in.â
Frankie? He seems so harmless, and besides, Javierâs never had an issue with whoeverâs in the room when heâs filming, so why is it a problem now?
However, his tone does sound sincere. You turn to face him again, narrowing your eyes and refusing to let your guard down. âThis better not be another one of your tricks, Javier. If youâre doing this to try and get into my pantsââ
He almost grins, but catches himself just in time, clearly biting back a remark. You can see it in the way his mouth twitches, and you know exactly what heâs thinking. Already have, his brown eyes seem to say. But he holds his tongue, offering a faint nod instead.Â
âI promise. No tricks. Just a professional shoot. Thatâs it.â
You give him one last warning glance before sighing. âFine. But Iâm telling you, Javierââ
âI know, I know,â he interrupts, holding up his hands. âI get it and please stop calling me Javier.â
You arch a brow. âThatâs your name, isnât it?â
âYeah, but everyone calls me Javi.â
Ugh, whatever. âOkay, fine, Javi. Just show me where Iâm supposed to set up.âÂ
He bites back another grin and motions you with a flick of his head, and with the weird tension simmering, you follow him toward the ensuite bathroom. The door creaks open, revealing an elaborate setup, and you pause in the doorway, eyes widening.
Itâs surprisingly... beautiful.
In front of a massive window that overlooks the sprawling blue ocean outside, thereâs a porcelain clawfoot bathtub filled with what looks like a milk bath. Various colored flower petals float delicately on the surface, scattered in an almost artful arrangement.
You let out a breath you didnât realize you were holding. âWell, damn. This actually looks nice.â This bathroom is bigger than your entire apartment.
Javier notices your reaction and leans against the doorframe to the connecting walk in closet, arms crossed over his bare chest, a smirk playing on his lips. âCatering to the female gaze,â he says with a cocky shrug, âAt least, thatâs what my agent told me. Seems like Iâm very popular among the ladies.â
The way he says it makes you want to smack him upside the head. Heâs pushing your buttons again in the most subtle way, and you hate how good he is at it.
âCute,â you reply dryly, walking past him to set your camera bag down on the large counter.
As you begin to unpack and set up, you can feel his eyes on you, watching your every move, lingering on the exposed skin of your back then dripping down to your legs.
It kind of feels good to have him ogling you like this. The whole look but donât touch thing is really doing it for you, more than youâd care to admit. Thereâs a certain power in keeping him wanting, yet also forcing the distance.
âItâs not just about the ladies, you know. I actually want this to be good. I trust you to make it look that way.â
You glance over at him. His playful arrogance has slightly faded, shaded in by the genuine want to make this feel more than just some raunchy scene.
âIâm not a director, I just film it,â you remind him, adjusting the camera lens as you try to play it off. âSo just do whatever you think is right. Robbie gave me some pointers, but it wasnât much.â
âStill,â he presses, âthereâs some finesse to what you do.â
At least heâs aware of that. âLetâs just get this over with,â you say, deflecting the compliment.
You finish setting up the camera, adjusting the tripod to get the perfect angle. Itâs important to capture the full picturesque scene to begin withâ the soft light spilling in through the window, the sparkling blue ocean in the background.
You clear your throat, âOkay, Iâm all set for whenever youâre ready.â
Javier moves casually as he unwraps the white towel from around his waist. His cock, already half-hard, demands your attention, but you force yourself to look away. You rub your lips together then lick at them unconsciously, trying to focus on anything other than his naked body.
âGot plans after this?â he asks as though heâs asking you about the weather.
You blink at the normalcy of the question âJust going to hang out by the beach,â you reply plainly, trying to keep your focus on the camera and not on his crotch.
It almost feels strange talking to him like this, without the usual teasing or sexual tension-laden bickering.
âSounds fun,â he says as he steps into the tub, the water sloshing around him. âReal nice out here. The weather is perfect for it today.â
You watch as he settles in, the milky water rising around his body, and for a moment, youâre completely mesmerized.
The scene in front of you looks like something out of a romantic painting, and it hits you how undeniably beautiful he looks. His skin, a warm golden brown, contrasts perfectly with the creamy white of the bath, and the colorful flower petals floating on the surface make the whole thing look like a dream.
He leans back, the water just kissing his chest, and you catch yourself imagining what a soft, hazy vignette filter would do to the shot, how it would add an enchanting glow to an already intimate scene.
You shake your head slightly, snapping yourself out of the reverie. Youâre supposed to be filming him jerking off, not admiring the aesthetics like this is some fine art shoot. But fuck, itâs hard to separate the two when the visuals are this damn good.
Javier, of course, senses your brief distraction. He watches you, eyes thoughtful as he stretches out, letting the water ripple around him. He doesnât say anything, but thereâs a slight smirk playing on his lips, like he knows exactly what youâre thinking.
You take a deep breath, trying to focus on the task at hand, despite the heat pooling between your thighs. âIs there a clear direction for this scene, or are you just improvising?â
âIâm just winging it,â his voice is a rich, velvet drawl, a little rough from all the smoking he does. âNo dirty talk. They want my natural noises to be the main focus⊠amongst other things.â He cocks his head to the side, one arm coming up to rub at the back of his neck.
Heat blooms low in your belly, shooting straight to your cunt at the sight. The way his bicep flexes, the muscles shifting smoothly beneath that taut, sun-kissed skin, showcasing just how defined he is while still looking so maddeningly soft.Â
Calm down, girl, you silently reprimand your pussy. Sheâs fucking purring right now.
You clear your throat and give him a nod, signaling him to begin. Stepping behind the camera, you focus through the lens, grateful for the distance.
Javier moves slowly. His head tips back against the edge of the tub, eyes falling closed, the soft curve of his lashes fanning out like shadows against his skin. One hand trails down, lingering at the hollow of his collarbones. The movements are unhurried, almost reverent, as though heâs savoring the feel of his own skin.
The intimate build-up draws you in, despite your best efforts to remain detached.
You unmount the camera from its tripod after a few moments, stepping closer to him, framing the shot tight around his chest, the slow glide of his hand along his torso. You canât help but notice the pounding of your heart, each beat mirroring the steady, throbbing pulse at your clit.Â
The sight of himâ relaxed, fully in his element, bathed in the soft glow of lightâ stirs that fucking feeling deep within you.
Itâs not just desire, though thatâs certainly there. Itâs the maddening awareness of how sensual, how magnetic this man is. And even though you try to tell yourself youâd feel the same about any other attractive man in his place, you know thatâd be a damn lie.
Javierâs hand moves lower, ghosting over the ridges of his soft stomach. His other hand trails slowly through the water, sending gentle ripples through the milky bath. You swallow hard and focus the lens on his faceâ the slight parting of his pouty pink lips beneath his trimmed mustache that you just now realize has a small patch right above his cupidâs bow.
Even his imperfections are attractive.
The flushed skin of his cock makes an appearance, his thick, swollen head breaking the surface of the water with each subtle movement, teasing you and the camera. The way it peeks through, the slick tip glistening in the milky bath, almost feels like a tauntâ winking at you.
Doing as youâre supposed to, you adjust the lens to zoom in on the way his cock flirts with the surface.
If you were anyone else, one of his usual co-stars maybe, youâd lean down and give it a few kitten licks. Youâd tease the sensitive crown with your tongue, circling the tip before letting it slide past your lipsâ just enough to drive him wild.
Your tongue twitches at the thought.
A soft groan escapes his lips as he gets closer to where heâs aching to touch. Itâs as if he can read your mind, as if he knows youâre imagining the feel of his cock in your mouth, the taste of his salty skin, the way heâd twitch against your tongue as you tease him until he begs for more.
Maybe heâs picturing your lips wrapped around him, too.
You bite down on your lower lip, forcing yourself to stay quiet, to stay focused, even though your body is betraying you. The mess in your panties, the way your nipples stiffen beneath your bathing suit topâ everything about this moment is dangerous.
Then finally, his fist wraps around his cock, a soft slosh of water accompanying the motion. The eroticism of the sceneâ paired with the proximity, the memory of those hands on youâ ignites that annoying need deep inside.
He strokes himself slowly, eyes still closed as though lost in the pleasure of it all. You focus the camera on his hand, on the way it moves with purpose, his thumb brushing over the head of his cock, slick with precum.
His groans start to fill the air, and your own body reacts, hips shifting slightly as you try to ignore pressure at your cunt.
âStill with me?â His voice cuts through the silence, raspy and knowing, eyes fluttering open to look at you.
Oh. Have they always been this golden?
âYeah,â youâre proud of yourself for keeping your voice steady.
Javierâs body is pure, unfiltered sin in motion. As you move around the bathtub to capture every angle, you canât help but admire him. His muscles shift with every slow pump of his hand, the sinewy lines of his arms and torso rippling just beneath the milky water.
His stomach contracts with each exhale, drawing your gaze lower to the faint trail of hair leading down to his cock, which you catch glimpses of when his hips buck up inadvertently.
His breathing grows heavier, his pouty bottom lip caught between his teeth, brows furrowing in concentration as his pleasure builds. Itâs mesmerizing, the way his face contorts, his expressions almost too intimate, too personal for the lens. But you canât tear your eyesâ or the cameraâ away.
His fist moves with such confidence, touching himself with an unhurried rhythm that only a man used to his own pleasure can manage. Every time his thumb glides over the tip of his cock, a heavier grunt rumbles in his throat and itâs so hot.
Youâre too focused on capturing every inch of him that it almost catches you off guard when he begins to speak.
âWish it was your pretty hand around me right now, baby.â His voice is husky, laced with want, and the words hit you like a punch to the gut.
You blink rapidly, heart stalling in your chest as the camera wavers slightly in your hands. âJavier,â you sigh, his name slipping from your lips before you can stop yourself.
âFuck, I know, but shitââ His words are more ragged now, spoken between heavy breaths. âYouâre all I can think about still. You stay in my mind, muñeca. Canât get you out.â
Even though every rational part of you knows you should stop him, should leave or at least say something to shut him up, you donât.
You donât run, you donât protest. You just... let it happen.
âTalk to me, please.â
âI-Iââ The words get stuck in your throat, âI canât. Iâll ruin the shoot.â Why is that your priority right now?
âYou wonât.â
The way he says it chips at the walls you've built around yourself.
âWhat do I even say?â
âAnything,â there he goes again, using that tone that makes him sound like heâs begging.
So, you say what youâve been thinking of since he got into this damn tub. âYour cock is so pretty, Javi.â You purr, throwing all caution to the wind, lying to yourself that this means nothing.
The effect is immediate. He groans, a deep sound from his chest, and his hand moves faster over his shaft, the slickness of the water amplifying the movement. âFuck,â he says, his breathing now erratic, âsay it again.â
Your gaze flicks down and itâs mesmerizing watching the way his body responds to his own touch, but itâs the fact that heâs unraveling in front of you that leaves your mouth dry.
âSuch a pretty cock, Javi,â you repeat, voice steadier this time, growing bolder with each passing second. Every flex and contraction of his body feeds the arousal pulsing in you. âI bet it would feel perfect sliding down my throat, hitting the back of it until Iâm choking on you.â
All those hours spent listening to cheesy porn dialogue are finally paying off.
His head falls back, exposing the strong column of his neck, Adamâs apple bobbing as he swallows. A guttural groan escapes him as the image of what you just said sets in. His other hand moves down to cup his heavy, swollen balls, the water around him rocking more violently now as he starts to lose himself in the fantasy.
âShit⊠Iâm close,â he growls, voice breaking with need, the words barely coherent. âKeep talking to me, fuckâŠâ
You lean in slightly, the camera momentarily forgotten. âYou want to come for me?â Your whisper is dripping with lust, the idea of him falling apart because of you making your pussy ache. âYou want to make a mess? Pretend Iâm kneeling right here, my mouth open and waiting for you to fill it, warm and wet just for you?â
Youâve seen him come so many times, watched him fill too many cunts with his spend and paint different parts of their pretty bodiesâ but none of it compares to the sight before you.
The way his body jerks in response tells you everything you need to know. His grip tightens on the edge of the tub, knuckles going white as he pumps faster, rougher, pushing himself toward the brink. His hips start lifting out of the water with every thrust into his own hand, chasing that final release.
âFuck, yesâŠ,â he groans, voice strangled, barely holding it together. His eyes squeeze shut, every muscle in his body tensing, going rigid as he falls over the edge.
His bilingual expletives cut off into a long, drawn-out moan as his cock twitches, thick ropes of cum spilling out in messy spurts, splattering against his fist, swirling into the milky bathwater. The petals float lazily across the surface, some clinging to his skin, as the evidence of his release drifts around him.
You stand there, heart pounding, frozen as your brain tries to catch up with your pussy.
âShit,â you mutter under your breath, fumbling with the camera as you stop the recording. You quickly move to pack everything up and try your damndest not to look at him.
âWait, donâtââ Javierâs voice is still hoarse, but thereâs a touch of urgency to it now, breaking through the post-orgasm haze. You hear the water sloshing violently behind you as he moves, and you know heâs getting out of the tub. âJust⊠hang on.â
âNo. I-I gotta go,â you stammer, your hands frantically packing up the camera, the lens cap slipping through your fingers. You try to grab it, but your nerves are shot and it fumbles. Thankfully, it doesnât take damage. Youâd hate to hear Robbie bitch at you for breaking the brand-new camera.
Just get out of here is the only thought running through your mind. Every time youâre around him lately, you end up a confused, horny, exasperated mess, and you canât handle it anymore.
âHeyâwait!â Javier slips as he tries to step out of the tub, nearly falling as he reaches for you, his wet feet squeaking against the floor. You turn just in time to see him catch himself, water dripping from his body, his skin still flushed from what just happened.
âWhat the hell?â You shoot him a look, âYouâre gonna break your neck trying to stop me from leavingââ
âI wasnâtâfuck, just let me talk for a second.â He runs a hand through his soaked hair, water dripping down his neck, over the curve of his shoulders, and you hate how even now, youâre distracted by how good he looks. He reaches for the towel and loosely wraps it around his waist. âI didnât mean for this to happen.â
âNeither did I,â you snap, stuffing your gear into your bag, not caring how haphazardly itâs packed. âThisâ this isnât what I signed up for. Iâm here to work, remember? Not⊠whatever the fuck that was.â
He steps closer, reaching for your arm, but you yank it away before he can touch you. The last thing you need is his hands on you right now, reminding you of everything you shouldnât want.
âYou think I donât know that?â His voice softens, but thereâs a frustration beneath it, like heâs grappling with the same confusion you are. âI wasnât trying to mess with you, okay? I just⊠I donât know what the hell is happening between us either.â
You stop, finally meeting his gaze. Thereâs something in his eyes that pulls at the part of you thatâs freakishly tethered to him, but you canât let that get to you now. Not when everything feels so damn complicated.
âJavier, thisââ You struggle for words, shaking your head. âThis canât keep happening. I canâtââ You pause, your breath catching. I canât have you. âI donât want you,â you correct yourself.
His jaw clenches, muscles ticking under the strain. âStop bullshitting me,â he growls, eyes narrowing.
âIâm not,â you shoot back, but it comes out too quickly, too rehearsed.
âYouâre lying through your fuckinâ teeth, and itâs pathetic. What is so wrong with giving me a chance?â He keeps circling back to thisâ chances.
One thing about him, he knows how to trigger a fucking migraine.Â
âEverything!â The word bursts out of you like a confession. âEverything about this is wrong. Itâs why Iâve been trying to stay away since day one, but youâre soâ ugh!â You throw your hands up, exasperated, the bathroom suddenly feeling too small and claustrophobic. Heâs got you spinning in circles, tying you up in knots, and you canât think straight around him.
Without a second thought, you turn to leave, your feet moving as if youâre fucking levitating. So what if youâve made a habit of running away from him? You donât owe him shit.
âNenaââ Desperation laces his voice and that stupid nickname makes your skin curl. âI donât want you to leave like this.â
âWell, too bad,â you snap over your shoulder. âIâm leaving so you canât sweet-talk me into anything.â The slam of the door echoes behind you, a final punctuation to your statement.
As you step out into the hallway, the distant sounds of people fucking filter through the air, kind of grounding you back to the real world.
You canât keep working with him, not if every interaction is going to end like this. You make a mental note to talk to Robbie after todayâs shoot. No more Peña.
The day drags on, the tension from earlier still lingering, but now, sitting outside on the shaded patio, you feel a small reprieve.
A half-eaten sandwich rests before you on the table, your eyes lazily tracing the lines of the zero-edge pool that blends into the horizon. The soft rustle of palm trees swaying in the gentle breeze lulls you into a sense of temporary peace. You glance around, taking in the pristine luxury surrounding you. Rich people really have it made, you think, marveling at the extravagance of someone elseâs life.
The spat with Javier lingers but youâve done your best to ignore it by keeping busy. The other shoots happening in the house have kept you distracted, but you know whatâs coming: the last scene of the dayâ with himâ and the new girl, Mariella. A small sigh escapes your lips as you sink deeper into the patio chair, absolutely dreading it.
Your tranquility is shattered when you feel a presence nearby. Already anticipating another confrontation with Javier, you steel yourself and donât even bother looking up before snapping, âOh my god, can you just leave me aloneââ
The words get jammed in your throat as your eyes land on Frankie, not Javier. He stands there, looking taken aback, a paper bag in one hand and an awkward smile tugging at his lips. You instantly feel like a bitch.
âShitâ sorry,â you stammer, cheeks burning with embarrassment. âI thought you were someone else.â
Frankie lets out a small chuckle, brown eyes softening as he rubs the back of his neck. âNo worries, I can leave if you wantââ
âNo, no,â you say quickly, waving him off. âPlease, stay. I didnât mean to be snappy.â
He hesitates for a moment before motioning to the empty chair across from you. âMind if I sit?â
You shake your head, and he lowers himself into the seat, setting his lunch down. The small talk starts easily, flowing naturally as you both munch on your food. He tells you about his daughter, a proud smile on his face as he recounts how sheâs the light of his life. Then he goes on about how his friends call him Catfish because of some dumb inside joke, and also the fact that heâs a retired pilot. It somehow doesnât surprise youâ the career fits him.
âHow do you go from flying helicopters to shooting porn?â you ask, the question half serious, half teasing as you lean back in your chair, eyes hidden behind your sunglasses.
Frankie raises an eyebrow and smirks, clearly amused. âShit happens,â he says with a shrug. âHow do you go from having a film production degree to spending your days staring at tits and ass?â
A wry smile tugs at your lips. You tilt your head, pausing for effect. â... Shit happens,â you echo, the irony not lost on either of you.
He snorts, taking a slow sip of his water, the sound of his laughter rolling into the lazy afternoon air. You canât help but steal a glance from behind your shades, your gaze wandering over his rugged features.
Thereâs something about the way the sun hits him just right, casting a golden glow over his tanned skin. You swallow, feeling a subtle pull in your chest, an unexpected attraction. Heâs not flashy, not like the other guys youâre used to working withâ thereâs an unspoken confidence in his ease, a solidness that makes you want to keep looking.
âSo⊠whoâd you think I was? Just then?â He asks, adjusting his cap.
You try not to let your small smile falter. âOh, just an annoying coworker.â
âAh, the kind who shows up at the worst times, huh?â
âExactly,â you reply with a laugh, âYou know the type.â
Frankie leans in just slightly, lowering his voice. âWell, Iâm glad Iâm not that guy.â Thereâs a flicker of flirtation in his tone, his eyes lingering a beat too long. âBut if you ever need someone to⊠keep him under control, you just let me know. Got the remedy for that right here.âÂ
He exaggeratedly flexes his biceps, and the snug t-shirt heâs wearing pulls taut around his arms, highlighting their impressive size.
You canât help but admire the viewâ heâs really fun to look at, all charming smiles and playful confidence.
âI might just take you up on that, actually,â you reply, matching his energy with a teasing smile of your own. âI could definitely use someone who knows how to handle things.â
He raises an eyebrow, a smirk tugging at the corners of his pink lips. âIâm more than equipped for that, trust me.â
For a second, it feels like the two of you are in your own little worldâ until, of course, it comes crashing down.
A voice cuts through the moment like a knife. âWeâre ready for the last scene.â
You turn to see Javier standing there, arms crossed, jaw tight, his gaze flicking between you and Frankie. His entire posture screams annoyance.
âAnd who are you?â Frankie retorts, squinting one eye against the harsh sunlight, playful defiance dancing in his tone.
Javier doesnât seem to like that response at all. âIâm ready to get this shit done with,â he snaps, and you narrow your eyes, practically shooting daggers at him.
Frankie clears his throat, sizing up Javierâs bristling energy. âRight.â
You catch the word presumido slip from his lipsâ the Spanish insult that has you exhaling a light laugh through your nose, because heâs so spot on and he doesnât even know it.
Both of you stand, Frankie gathering the remnants of your lunch. âIf youâd like some company down by the beach later, Iâll still be around,â he adds smoothly, sliding the proposition in there as casually as if he were just suggesting grabbing coffee. You almost donât mind him crashing your solo date.
âIâll let you know,â you reply, pushing your chair in. âIt would be great to not have to take the taxi back, but I was willing to do it for a nice afternoon by the water.â You can feel Javierâs possessive stare burning into you from across the way.
Frankie, absolutely unbothered, leans in closer, a charming grin on his face. âHereâs my number if you need that ride.â A pen appears out of nowhere, and he scribbles down his digits on a clean corner of his napkin, tearing it off with an effortless confidence before handing it to you.
âDefinitely,â you say with a flirty smile, tucking the napkin into your pocket, feeling a thrill against the scowling presence of the spectator watching from the sliding glass doorÂ
Frankie branches off to use the restroom and you push past Javier, no intention of speaking to him untilâ
âIf you spent less time flirting with the crew and more time focusing on your job, weâd be finished by now.â
You can practically taste his jealousy.
You stop in your tracks, turning to face him, your patience running thin. âReally, Javi? Youâre jealous of Frankie? Thatâs what this is about? Did our last conversation not put shit in perspective for you?â
He steps closer, eyes hard, voice low. âJealous? Of him?â He scoffs, but the tension in his jaw betrays him. âI just donât appreciate having to wait because youâre too busy cozying up to someone else. Especially someone who looks like they just got picked up off the side of the road.â
âAnd you wonder why I donât like you.â Is all you can say, brushing past him yet again, his presence looming heavy as you head toward the living room where the last scene is set to be shot.
The moment Robbie goes on with his usual pre-shoot rundown, your attention shifts to the newbie Mariella immediately, drowning out his usual spiel.
The girlâ and she is a girl, no matter what the paperwork saysâ looks painfully young. Her cropped tee hugging her braless chest, barely keeping her breasts from spilling out, and those flimsy pajama shorts riding high on her thighs. Itâs the kind of outfit that makes you uneasyâ one youâve seen too many times in this industry, designed to play into the fantasies of men who want their women to look barely legal.
You bite the inside of your cheek, the sour taste of frustration building in the back of your throat. This is the part of the job that gnaws at youâ the undercurrent of exploitation that no one acknowledges.
Youâre not naive, you know exactly what sells in porn. You know what these people want to watch, what they get off on. The younger, the better.Â
Still, it doesnât make it any easier to stomach when youâre standing on set, watching it play out in real time.
Just as Mariella positions herself, preparing for the camera to roll, you canât stop yourself. The words come out before you can think to censor them. âHow old are you?â
Suddenly, everyoneâs attention shifts to you. Robbie. Steve. Frankie. Even Javier, whoâs lounging in the corner, waiting for his moment to shine. They all freeze, the casual banter dying off as your question lingers in the air. Mariella blinks, looking around as if unsure who youâre even talking to.
âIâI turned twenty last week.â
Your expression hardens, and the disapproval is written all over your face. âSheâs not even old enough to drink, and youâre having her fuck Javier?â Your eyes cut to Robbie, whoâs staring at you like youâve just sprouted another head.
The silence stretches for a beat too long before he scoffs, shaking his head like youâre being ridiculous. âI donât pay you to hear your opinions on shit,â he snaps, clearly irritated. âJust sit there and record the damn thing.â
Your eyes roll hard enough that it almost hurts. âYouâre all a bunch of perverts.â
Poor Frankie catches a stray with that one. Itâs like everything is grating on you in ways it usually doesnât. Normally, you can shove it down and keep your head low because, at the end of the day, youâre just here for the paycheck.
âPerverts pay your bills, sweetheart,â Robbie throws back, all nonchalant. Whatâs worse is that heâs right.
Moments like this make you wonder how long you can keep doing this without losing a part of yourself in the process.
You look around at the other three men, none of them stepping up to say anything in your defense. Useless.
You shouldnât be surprised, but it stings. Even Javier, usually quick with a sarcastic quip or biting comment, says nothing. He just sits there, stuffing out a cigarette thatâs magically appeared between his lips.
It feels like a betrayal, even though you know better than to expect any different.
And Mariella? Sheâs clearly distracted, caught up in the magnetic pull Javier has over people. The way sheâs looking at him with that starstruck, wide-eyed awe only makes it worse. You can see it in her expression, the way her gaze flickers over him like sheâs already imagining how itâs going to feel when he fucks her. Thinking with her pussy instead of having common sense.
You recognize it because you were just in her exact position, drawn into that same orbit. You find empathy for her, but not the other motherfuckers.
The room descends into awkward silence, as if everyoneâs waiting for the other shoe to drop. But youâre not in the mood for a full-blown argument, so you shut down, slumping into the chair behind your camera with your arms crossed tightly over your chest.Â
You know itâs only a matter of time before all these feelings youâve been aggressively pushing down come back up and make you snap, but for now, you continue to force it all away.
Youâre assigned to shoot the stoic, wide shots while Frankieâs in charge of the close-ups, and honestly? Youâre relieved. The last thing you need is to be up close, watching this trash unfold.
The scene starts with the typical, raunchy premise: Dad pays babysitter with his cock! It explains Mariellaâs barely-there outfit and the cluttered coffee table with school notebooks, setting the scene.
Then thereâs Javier who looks the part too; dressed in dark blue slacks, a typical white collared shirt with a few buttons popped open to give that Iâm stressed, come take care of me vibe.
Heâs the picture of temptation, and itâs obvious Mariellaâs already in the clouds.
The filming begins and they share that cheesy, erotic dialogue and lustful touches. You feel yourself sink further into the chair, silently counting down the minutes until youâre decompressing by the beach.
She sinks to her knees before him, her doe eyes looking up at him with that practiced innocence they all seem to perfect so quickly. She reaches for the buttons on his slacks, her delicate fingers fumbling just a little before she pulls down the zipper and tugs at the waistband. She nuzzles her face against his thigh, brushing her lips against his skin, and finally pulls out his cock. Even soft, itâs still an impressive sizeâ but itâs definitely not how this was supposed to go.
âWell, are you going to suck it or just stare at it?â Javier snaps, his tone cutting through the air with an edge that feels too sharp, too real. It doesnât sound like the crudeness thatâs meant to spice up the scene.
His hand shoots out and tangles in her hair, yanking her closer. Heâs rougher than usual, harsher, as he forces her mouth onto him.
She wraps her lips around his head, suckling softly at first, then taking him deeper into her mouth. Sheâs trying to do her job, playing the part of the eager babysitter, but somethingâs off.
Javierâs head tilts back, eyes squeezed shut, but itâs not the usual look of pleasure that crosses his face. Itâs more like heâs concentrating, forcing himself to feel something that isnât there.
You canât help itâ your eyes flick around the room, looking at the rest of the crew. No one seems to be noticing what youâre seeing, their eyes all honed in on the action in front of them.
But youâre catching the small details like you always do.
After a few more moments, itâs clear that itâs not happening. Javier lets out a frustrated curse, pulling out of her mouth with an audible, wet pop. âFuckâjust, give me a second,â he grumbles, stepping back. Mariella wipes the saliva from her lips with the back of her hand, looking up at him with a mix of confusion and hesitation.
You take that as your cue. Reaching over, you stop the recording, your finger hesitating on the button for only a moment before pressing it. Frankie does the same, Steve lowers his mic and pulls his headset off.
Javier runs a hand through his hair, his eyes darting to the floor, like heâs trying to avoid looking at anyone directly. âI just need a minute,â he says again, but itâs more to himself than to anyone else.
Your gaze lingers on him for a second longer than you intend, and your mind flashes back to earlier, to the way he was with you. The memory is sharp and clear, the contrast striking. Heâd come undone for you without hesitation, without needing any coaxing or forcing. Just words. But now, with Mariella kneeling in front of him, offering herself up like a gift, heâs struggling.Â
âHow long will this minute take? We gotta be outta here soon so get it up before I get one of these two to take your place.â
Javier scoffs, dismissive, âTape wouldnât fucking sell.â
âWell one featuring a soft dick wonât either,â comes the retort, and the two of them start their back-and-forth bickering.
You rub at your temples, trying to ease the pressure building behind your eyes. This has to be some weird-ass dream; it sure as hell feels like it. Maybe youâre still in bed, blissfully sleeping until three in the afternoon.
Javier storms off and Steve puts his equipment down. âIâll go talk to him.â
Robbie just waves him away. âTake five,â he mutters to the rest of you, going in the opposite direction. This is such a mess, and poor Mariella remains on her knees, picking at her cuticles.Â
âPlease get up and sit on the couch. You look pathetic,â you say to her, not cruelly but bluntly. Itâs not her fault, but the sight of her there is making you itch. She complies like a chastised child.Â
Frankie drops down beside you, letting out a breath that mirrors your own. âThese things usually go like this?â He takes his hat off, ruffling his hair before putting it back on.
âNo,â shit has just been weird amongst this group for weeks now. âBurnout is inevitable, I guess.â Youâre not about to sit there and shit-talk Javier, despite everything. You might have a mountain of complicated feelings when it comes to him, but you wonât kick him while heâs down.
Before Frankie can respond, Robbie comes barreling back into the room, his face flushed with anger. His eyes lock onto you, and you can see the accusation in them before he even opens his mouth.
âThis is your fault,â he spits out, voice sharp, acidic. âAll that shit you were talking earlierâ now heâs fucking broken.â
You narrow your eyes, standing your ground. âExcuse me?â you snap, incredulous. âI was making a valid point. How the hell is it my fault that he grew a conscience?â
âYâknow,â he starts, his words dripping with the kind of vile, misogynistic shit that makes your blood boil. âYouâd do me more good in front of the camera. Have somethinâ shoved up in there to keep you fucking quiet.â
The reaction is immediate. You shoot up from your seat so fast the chair scrapes against the floor, the sound sharp and angry, mirroring how you feel. âWhat the fuck did you just say?â
Frankie stands too, his face hardening as he takes a step in front of you, finally coming to your defense. âWatch it,â he warns, and it feels like the whole situation could explode into something much worse.
Robbie, of course, just sneers âWhat? You gonna defend her? Sheâs been a pain in my ass for weeksââ
âIâm done.â The words tumble out of your mouth before you can think them through, but they feel right.Â
Youâre tiredâ so damn tiredâ of this whole mess. Of dealing with assholes like Robbie and Javier who think they can get away with saying whatever they want. âI quit.âÂ
Your bossâs mouth opens as if heâs about to say something else, but you cut him off with a cutting glare. âIâm not going to sit here and listen to you treat me like shit because your precious Javier canât get his dick hard. Go fuck yourself, Robbie.â
You donât wait for a response. You turn on your heel and head for the door, your heart pounding in your chest, adrenaline coursing through your veins. Youâll double up on shifts at the bar or go back to waiting tables like you did throughout college. Whatever keeps you away from this bullshit.Â
As you stride down the hallway toward the entrance, you pass Javier and Steve. Javierâs face is stormy, brows knitted together as if heâs still reeling from whatever heated discussion they just had.Â
The moment he spots you, his expression shifts. Thereâs a flicker of surprise, maybe even concern.
âWhere are you going?â Steve asks.
You yank the heavy, probably expensive for no reason, front door open, the sound echoing through the hallway. âI just quit,â you snap, voice sharp as glass. âSee you never.â
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Summary: In a world where vampires and humans coexist albiet not peacefully, you come to realize everything is not as it seems after meeting Hyunjin.
Pairing: Vampire Hyunjin x fab reader
Genre: thriller, fluff, smut 18+ MDNI
Word Count: 6.3k
Warnings: stalking, coercion (briefly), breaking and entering?, description of blood (obviously), blood tasting, nipple play, fingering, monster fucking, unprotected sex (don't), creampie, squirting.
Notes: This is my first fic for my spooktober event! Yes this is a vampire fic. I had fun with this and added my own twists to what we know as vampires hehe so don't come after me lol. I hope you like it and it gets you into the spooky mood hehe.
If you enjoyed this, likes, reblogs, and comments are appreciated as they keep me motivated âĄ
Dividers by @saradika-graphics
Please do not copy, translate, modify, use, or repost this work elsewhere without my permission. ©moonchild9350 (2024)
âNight is purer than day; it is better for thinking and loving and dreaming. At night everything is more intense, more true.â -Ellie Wiesel
Youâve never been afraid of the dark. You could sit in a dark space for hours, listening to the sounds around you, feeling the air move through your fingertips. No, the dark never bothered you. What you did fear was what is lurking in the shadows, creatures of your deepest nightmares watching your every move, waiting to pounce on you.
You felt like prey at night, always feeling like you were being hunted. You lived in a world that included vampires, creatures of the night mostly.
Growing up, you were told to avoid them at all costs, that they were dangerous, cunning, beings that shouldnât walk the earth. Your mother instilled these thoughts into your head, making you promise to never associate with one of these beings.
Not wanting to upset your mother, you promised, the fear taking root deep in your core. Now as an adult, you still kept that promise. You never interacted with them, avoiding them at all costs if you could. You also made sure to be home before nightfall, afraid for what was lurking in the dark or who.
You were mindful of this fact as you prepped for the day. You needed to go to the library to work on a project for work, which would take up the majority of your day. Packing your bag, you grabbed a sweater and left, making your way to the townâs local library.
It was a cool day, autumn in full swing. The leaves were changing colors to vibrant shades of red, orange, and yellow. Some leaves already have fallen from the trees, landing on the sidewalk, the crunch echoing as you stepped on each one.
You hoped your friend had made it to the library first, making sure to get the good seats. You knew she would have a warm London fog with her, as she knew what your favorite drink was.
It didnât take long for you to arrive, the old building looming in the center of town. You marched up the steps and opened the door, a burst of warm air enveloping you like a cozy blanket. You scanned the area, looking for your friend Aria, finding her at a desk next to one of the many windows.
She was engrossed in a book, her nose almost touching the pages. You chuckled and walked over before blowing on her face, startling her. She narrowed her eyes at you while clutching her chest, âthat wasnât very nice.â
You grinned, pulled out a chair and sat down.
âIs that for me?â You asked, hope in your eyes as you eyed the cup next to her.
âIt is, although you donât deserve it after the stunt you just pulled.â
You rolled your eyes and reached for the drink. âSo dramatic. Thank you.â
Aria stuck her tongue out at you and then went back to her book, her nose once more barely touching the page.
You started to unpack and set up for the day, gazing through your list of things to do. Opening up one of the books you brought with you, you started to skim through it looking for information for your project.
You became lost in your work, the silence settling around you, the only sounds heard were the occasional rustle of paper. You were making progress, however, you needed more books as references. You signaled to Aria that you were going to go look for more books. She nodded her head and went back to reading as you got up and stretched your legs.
You walked over to the non-fiction section and started browsing the titles, looking for anything that may be useful for your project. You were so engrossed in searching that you didnât see the man standing in the aisle, book in hand. You bumped into him causing him to drop his book, startling you.
âOh, Iâm so sorâŠâ your words died off as you looked at the man before you.
Your breath caught as you eyed him, taking in his looks. He was tall, looming over your figure easily. His face was beautiful, reminding you of Adonis. His eyes were a dark, chocolate brown, the orbs piercing, but yet gentle. You felt lost in his gaze, as you forgot where you were, your mind going blank.
The man smiled at you, reaching out his hand to brush the hair from your face. The action made you snap out of your reverie, shaking your head to clear the fuzziness within your brain. You knew what he was, the very creature you vowed to stay away from.
âAre you ok?â The man spoke, his voice silky, smooth, and deep.
He peered down at you, holding your gaze as you tried to look anywhere but at his face. You didnât want to engage with him and were looking for a way out. Before you could run away, the man brought his hand to your chin and had you look him in the eyes.
You tried to look away, but to no avail as he held your head steady. He looked deep into your eyes, his lips slightly parted, a grin forming on his face. You felt calm and less terrified, your body relaxing with each passing second.
âAre you ok?â The man asked again.
You shook your head as best as you could, âyes, Iâm ok.â
The man smied, his dazzling teeth on display. âGood. My name is Hyunjin. Whatâs your name gorgeous?â
You intently listened as Hyunjin spoke to you, eager to hear more of his voice. Clearing your throat, you replied, âY/n.â
Hyunjin hummed in acknowledgment. âSuch a pretty name. Fitting for such a pretty girl.â
You leaned more into his touch, wanting to be as close as possible to this man. However, something felt off, but you couldnât place your finger on what. With much difficulty, you searched your brain, trying to understand why the interaction felt off.
Hyunjin continued to look into your eyes, his face searching yours for any clue as to what you were thinking about. With sudden clarity, you understood why things felt off. He had you under his charm. Yes, that was it. You could vaguely sense a different scent than before, the smell of bergamot and patchouli gracing your senses.
You focused on this thought deep within, trying to break through his spell. It was difficult as he was a vampire so to say, their spells not easy to break for the average human. However, you fought hard, willing yourself to unleash yourself from his charm so you could run away.
Suddenly, you felt like yourself again and with a breath, slapped his hand away, shock gracing his beautiful features.
âGet your hands off me,â you said, your eyes laced with fear but also anger.
Hyunjin stared at you in shock and slight awe. You were actually able to break his charm. No one has ever done so, not in his hundreds of years roaming this earth. He already thought you were beautiful, your calm demeanor sparking a flame within him he hasnât felt in centuries. But now? He was fascinated and he wasnât going to forget you anytime soon.
He watched as you turned on your heels and quickly walked away back to your friend, your strong scent of lavender and honey lingering in your wake. He quickly said a quick spell, satisfied once he was done. Your paths would cross again, sooner rather than later if he had any say.
Adjusting the ring on his finger, he made to leave, slowly strolling out of the library into the night air.
You made it back to your table, pulling out your chair and sitting down. You tried to catch your breath as you held a hand to your chest, feeling the rapid pounding of your heart. What the hell just happened you wondered. Did you really just cross paths and actually interact with a vampire?
You were terrified. You hoped to never see him again. Surely you wonât right? You were lost in your thoughts that you didnât hear Aria call your name. Snapping your head up, you looked at your friend.
âAre you alright?â She asked as she looked at you anxiously. âYou look like youâve seen a ghost!â
Close to it you thought. âIâm fine. JustâŠsaw a rat and ran away.â
âEwww, really?! I would have screamed.â Aria said, none the wiser to your lie.
She went back to her book, not paying you any more attention. You attempted to continue to work on your project, however, your mind was preoccupied. You couldnât get Hyunjin out of your head.
You knew vampires were gorgeous, their beauty being one of the points that lured unsuspecting humans into their grasps, but you didnât think they could look that beautiful. Your mind was all over the place, not able to focus on the task in front of you.
Finally givng up, you decided to pack up and go home. You explained to Aria that you were leaving. She merely waved you away.
âText me when you get home,â she said, not looking up from her book.
Grabbing your bag, you made to leave. You cautiously walked into the night, the darkness settling in around you. You had stayed longer than you had liked. Not many people were out and about, as it was late. You listened to your surroundings, the occasional hoot from an owl reaching your ears.
The moon was bright, casting a glow to illuminate your way. You hummed a song as you continued to walk home, feeling at ease for the first time since you had that chance encounter, given the circumstances.
You were almost home when you felt odd, your senses tingling, as if someone was watching you. You looked around you, looking for anything out of the ordinary. Seeing nothing, you shrugged your shoulders and continued on your way. You did not see the figure lurking in the shadows, watching as you made your way home.
It didnât take much longer to get home, your apartment being a short distance from the library. You walked up the steps to your door and stopped in your tracks. Lying delicately on your doormat was a kadupul flower, in full bloom.
You quickly looked around, looking to see who could have left such a flower at your door. You felt uneasy. Picking up the flower, you unlocked your door and quickly slipped inside, latching the deadbolt in place. You looked at the flower in your hand, the rich, white petals in full bloom.
You walked over to your sink, and found a vase, filling it with water and setting the flower inside. You made your way to your bathroom to shower, trying not to think about the odd events of the day. You walked through your night routine and once finished, slid into bed.
Turning off the lights, you laid underneath the covers, staring at the wall. You tried not to think of Hyunjin, as you willed sleep to come. It must have worked, because before you knew it, you dozed off, succumbing to sleep.
As you slumbered, a figure loomed over you, watching as you slept peacefully. Hyunjin was happy you accepted his flower, bidding him to come inside your house. After all, it was one of the ways vampires were granted entrance into someoneâs home.
Now that he is able to come inside, he can watch over you more closely, get to know you, your routine, and if he plays his cards right, youâll be his before the end of the fortnight. For now, however, heâll watch over you tonight, and make sure you have sweet dreams.
The next morning, you awoke feeling oddly refreshed. The sun was shining, you could tell as the rays threatened to break through your curtains that you had closed. You stretched and got up to begin your morning routine. Your day wasnât terribly busy, only having to go into the office briefly to meet with one of your colleagues regarding the project.
You happily sipped at your coffee as you read your book, the events of last night forgotten. Now that you think about it, you had pleasant dreams too, which was a nice change from the typical nightmares you usually get. You didnât dwell on the thought too long however. You were just happy to finally get some sleep.
The time came when it was time for you to meet your colleague, so you fixed your hair and grabbed your bag, before making your way outdoors. The walk was pleasant, the warm sun gently warming your skin. You smiled, feeling truly happy.
Now that made you think, as you havenât felt true happiness in a while. It was sad to even have to consider why you felt happy. Maybe you shared a funny joke with Aria or had a great conversation with your family on the phone that you canât remember. Neither option seemed right however.
You felt confused, a frown slowly gracing your features. You felt like a part of your memory was gone and you werenât sure why.
Hyunjin watched you from afar, the spell he placed on you yesterday at the library alerting him whenever you left the house. He followed you as you walked to your destination. You seemed happy enough. It didnât seem like you remembered him or your encounter yesterday.
However, your demeanor changed, your stride slowing, a frown appearing on your beautiful face. You seemed lost in thought. He didnât approve of your anxiety and confusion. He wanted you to be happy. The other spell he casted over you last night must already be wearing off sooner than usual.
Maybe he needs to back off a little, let you get back into your daily routine. Hyunjin did not want to mess this opportunity up. Heâs already told the others about you. They are very eager to meet the mysterious human that has preoccupied their friend.
Yes, he will back off. He will let you go about your life and then when you least expect it, re-approach you. He is certain he will succeed at his next attempt to make you his.
Your days passed quietly, nothing out of the ordinary occurring. You filled your days by going to work and back home and occasionally going to the library to continue working on your project. You met with Aria a few more times, grabbing coffee or food depending on how much time you both had.
You had just arrived home after a long day at the office. You were more than ready to relax, ready to binge watch your favorite show while stuffing your face with pizza. Once you placed your order and changed into more comfortable clothes, you made up your home on the couch for the next few hours.
However, you happened to look over and notice the flower, still in its vase from a week ago. Who gave that to you again? You couldnât remember. Shrugging, you decided to toss it, as the flower was shriveled up and appeared to be dead. Once you were done, you sat down and flipped the tv on, pulling up your show.
You were already an episode in when you heard a knock on the door. Thinking it was your pizza, you skipped happily to the door and swung it open, ready to greet the pizza delivery person.
Instead of pizza however, there was a dozen of the same flower that you just threw away. Startled, you looked up, looking this way and that to see if whoever left them were still around. Nightfall had fallen, quiet had descended upon your town.
A shiver went down your spine, unease settling in within you. You noticed a note on top of the flowers. Picking up the square piece of paper, you unfolded it and read what was written inside:
Time may pass but you become ever more beautiful. Await me my love for we shall be reunited soon.
Now you were scared. There was no signature indicating who left the note. It was handwritten in beautiful script, the words written carefully upon the piece of paper. You needed to get back into the comfort of your home and it needed to happen now.
Against better judgment, you picked up the flowers and brought them inside. You filled the vase with fresh water once more and set them inside. You stared at the flowers, not yet in bloom. You placed the note next to the vase.
You could feel your senses go into overdrive as your body went into fight or flight mode. You became aware of every sound around you, listening for a potential intruder after this strange event. You jumped when you heard another knock on your door, hearing the person on the other side say âdelivery.â
Taking a few deep breaths, you made your way back to your door, unlocking it to take the pizza. You thanked the man and closed the door, once more in the safety of your home. You made sure the door was bolted before sitting down on your couch.
You werenât really hungry anymore, too on edge after finding the bouquet of flowers. You turned to look at them, letting out a gasp as the flowers had since bloomed. They sat within the vase, an ethereal look to them as the petals lay spread out. You sat in shock, just staring at the flowers, not noticing there was another presence in the room.
Far too late, you turned your head to notice a man sitting next to you. You let out a scream, the color draining from your face. You cowered in the corner of the couch, your muscles tense and ready to run at moments notice. When did he get in here? Something about him seemed familiar, but you couldnât place where you had first seen him.
âHi angel,â the man said as he looked you in the eyes.
You let out the breath you were holding, your body relaxing little by little as you stared at the man in front of you, a feeling of calm spreading throughout your body.
âDo you remember me?â
You started at the man, your mind a jumbled mess as you tried to make out the situation. A strange man somehow broke into your house and is now sitting in front of you asking if you remember him. You felt strange on top of that, oddly calm given the situation.
âI see you got my flowers. They look beautiful just like you love.â
You struggled with your conscience, trying to overcome this fog that was placed over you. You looked in horror as the man scooted closer to you and gently grabbed your face. Your heart was pounding in your chest, your vision blurring as you felt tears prickle the corners of your eyes.
You fought internally with yourself, trying to break through the fog. As you struggled, the man was leaning closer and closer to you as though he was going to kiss you. You closed your eyes at the last second, squeezing them shut. You felt his soft and pillowy lips brush yours.
You needed to wake up now, or who knows what will happen. At this, you felt the fog lift, your mind clear once more. You screamed and scrambled back as far as you could go away from the man.
He stared back at you, his hand in midair as if he was still holding your face.
âAngel, donât be afraid.â He said.
âWho are you? Howâd you get in here? I didnât give you permission to come in!â You all but screamed.
The man in front of you sighed. âPerhaps I left you alone for too long. My name is Hyunjin. Weâve met before.â
He stared at you long and hard as his words sank in. You looked terrified, your body shaking in fear. He didnât want you to be afraid. He wanted you to feel at ease around him, he wanted you to want him, to be his.
âYou brought the flowers inside your house. They have a spell on them, one that grants me entrance to wherever the flowers reside.â
You listened to every word he said, fear still coursing through your body.
âWhy? Why me?â You said, your voice shaking with each word.
You tried to take deep breaths, as you felt dizzy, feeling like you were going to pass out.
âPlease, angel. Donât be afraid. We are meant to be. Let me show you. Please.â
Hyunjin had a pleading look on his face. He made no further move to get closer to you, respecting the distance placed between you two.
âYouâre a vampire. How are we meant to be? Iâm a human.â You said, rolling your eyes.
Hyunjin looked sad, his eyes falling at your denial of his advances.
âIf I can show you how we were meant to be, will you accept me? One night, thatâs all I ask angel.â
You looked at Hyunjin, really looked at him, searching his face for any deceit. He was a vampire after all. You thought long and hard, as the shock of a strange man in your home wore off. Heâs a vampire, he canât be trusted. He just wants to use you and once heâs done, heâll kill you.
Why trust him? Yes he was staring at you with his beautiful eyes, but you didnât want that to distract you from the fact that he just cannot be trusted.
âPlease angel,â he pleaded once more.
You considered his plea once more. You were about to make a dumb mistake, but before you could change your mind, your mouth opened forming the words âyes.â
Hyunjin smiled at you, his brilliant teeth glowing in the low lighting. âExcellent! I will pick you up tomorrow night.â
He quickly got up and walked over to you. You tried to scoot back but found you had nowhere to go. You froze in place as Hyunjin approached you and grabbed your face once more. He slowly leaned down before pressing his lips to yours in a brief kiss. Before letting you go, he nipped at your lip, pulling at the flesh before standing up.
âGet some rest angel, you will need it.â
With that Hyunjin was gone, disappearing in thin air. You were shocked, your eyes never leaving the place where he was standing just moments before. You reached up and touched your lips. Did that really happen? Are you really going to give a vampire a chance?
You knew your mother would be disappointed if she were she alive. Oh well however, the deeds been done. Tomorrow your fate would be sealed.
The next day, you were anxious, your hands slightly trembling, your mind unfocused. You didnât know what to expect tonight and that was driving you insane. You paced the floors, unable to sit still for too long.
What were you expected to wear? You didnât think to ask that last night. On top of the anxiety, you were scared. What if he killed you once he was done showing you whatever he wanted to show you? Your mind was riddled with thoughts, none of them the typical thoughts youâd have before a date.
As dusk approached, the orange and pink sky showing through your windows, you decided to get ready. Somehow you knew exactly which outfit you wanted to wear. You chose a white dress with cross ties in the front. The hem of the dress had asymmetrical ruffles. You thought it would be a perfect contrast to going out with a creature of the night.
You did your makeup and lightly curled your hair. Spritzing some of your favorite perfume, you were ready for whatever the night brings.
You heard a soft ruffle behind you and you turned around in shock. Standing before you was Hyunjin. He was dressed nicely, making him look even more handsome. He eyed your outfit, a smile slowing forming on his face.
âYou look gorgeous angel,â he purred reaching a hand out towards you.
You took his hand and watched as he placed a soft kiss on your hand, his lips lingering for a few moments. You felt yourself blush, the heat rising to your face.
âReady?â He asked as he straightened up.
You shook your head yes, ready for whatever he had in store. Hyunjin smiled at you and took your hand, his fingers gently lacing with yours. He led the way, out the door, down the steps, and onto the sidewalk. The night air felt nice on your skin, feeling warm enough to where you didnât need a sweater.
The moon was bright and hanging perfectly in the sky, no clouds around to dampen its light. Hyunjin led you along the streets, walking in stride with you. You were lost in thought, lost in the man next to you when you felt a squeeze of your hand.
You looked at Hyunjin before looking to where he was pointing to.
âHere we are,â he said as he stopped in front of a building.
It seemed old, the style outdated. There was a soft glow from within, seeming inviting. You swallowed nervously. This is it, you thought, this is where I die. You followed Hyunjin as he led you to the door. Grasping the handle, he twisted the knob before the door swung open.
He stepped inside, pulling you along. The interior of the building was breath taking. The architecture was old but warm, definitely from another time period. The furniture reminded you of the 1800s, screaming old money.
Hyunjin could see the curiosity and awe on your face. He smiled to himself, happy that you didnât seem taken aback. This was to be your home shortly after all.
âThis was my parents house,â he said, as he guided you through the house.
You were looking this way and that, taking in the various rooms that you passed by. His parentâs house? Where were they now you wondered. You knew vampires lived for a very long time. Would you get to meet them tonight?
Sensing your unease, Hyunjin squeezed your hand as he stopped before a door. âThey died long ago, murdered by humans.â
You gasped, not knowing what to say. After a while you opened your mouth to speak, âIâm sorry.â
Hyunjin merely shook his head. âIt was centuries ago.â
You nodded and held your breath as he opened the door. Inside the room was a dining table, set up for two. Candles lit the room, the shadows from the flames dancing along the walls.
Hyunjin walked you to a chair and pulled it out, gesturing for you to sit. You did as you were told, tucking your dress underneath you as you sat. He effortlessly tucked your chair in before rounding the corner and sitting down next to you.
He clapped his hands and food appeared, your plate piled high with delicate foods. You were shocked, your mouth hanging open. You looked up as you heard Hyunjin chuckle.
âEasy to do angel, with a spell.â
You simply nodded your head. Of course, he could do anything.
âDig in angel. Iâm sure youâre hungry.â
Hyunjin watched you as you cautiously took your fork and grabbed a piece of food. He watched as you brought the food to your succulent lips, the flesh wrapping around the utensil.
He smiled as you groaned, savoring the food on your tongue. You ate in fervor, not realizing how hungry you were. You looked up at Hyunjin and noticed he wasnât eating.
âAre you not eating?â You asked, setting down your fork in embarrassment.
Hyunjin waved your concern away. âI cannot eat human food.â
As he said this, he looked at you, a smirk forming on his face.
You gulped. Of course vampires couldnât eat human food. You didnât want to think what this meant for you.
âEat, itâs ok you eat,â Hyunjin said with a smile.
You nodded your head and picked up your fork once more. You finished off the rest of the food, your belly full and happy. Hyunjin nodded in satisfaction once you finished, snapping his fingers, the dishes clearing away immediately.
He got up and reached out to you, grasping your hand in his. You followed him as he led you out of the dining room and up the stairs. You held your breath as you ascended the beautiful staircase, unsure of what was to come. Where was Hyunjin leading you now?
âHere we are,â Hyunjin said as he led you to a room just off the stairs. He opened the door and allowed you to walk in first.
The room was beautiful, filled with ornate furniture. There was a little sitting area near the window, the night air filtering through the open window. In the center of the room there was a canopy bed that looked warm and inviting. You turned to Hyunjin, a questioning look in your eye.
He grinned and took your hand once more, guiding you to the sitting area. You sat on the couch, unsure of where to look, what to say. Hyunjin sat next to you and brushed the back of his hand across your cheek.
You blushed and shivered at his touch. You felt something stir within you. Yes, you knew Hyunjin was no good for you, a vampire, a creature you cannot trust, but your mind and body had other plans.
You looked into Hyunjinâs eyes, your heart rapidly beating within your chest. Hyunjin smiled at you before leaning forward, causing you to lay back on the couch. He brushed your hair to the side before placing his lips on yours.
You couldnât help but sigh at the kiss, your hands reaching up hesitantly to wrap around his neck. Hyunjin continued to gently kiss you, his lips molding with yours with ease. His lips felt like heaven, nice and soft against yours.
You felt Hyunjinâs lips tip up in a smile. âFinally, you are mine angel,â he purred before kissing your jaw, the underside of your neck before he latched onto your sweet spot below your ear.
You let out a low moan as he nipped and sucked the area, his tongue lashing out to soothe the skin every now and then. You felt like you were floating, becoming lost in Hyunjinâs kisses. You closed your eyes and relaxed further into the couch, your fingers playing with the hair on the back of his neck.
Without warning, you felt a sharp prick, a yelp leaving your mouth as your eyes flew open. Hyunjin bit you, his teeth still lodged within your neck. He was going to feed from you, the shock from the realization causing your to panic. You tried to move away, but found you could not, your body paralyzed beneath the man above you.
However, before you could further protest, you felt a warm sensation travel throughout your body, down your arms, settling in your fingertips, down your legs settling in your toes, down your belly before settling in your core, arousal flooding your panties and soaking the material through.
You arched into Hyunjin, clinging onto him even tighter as he fed from you, the feeling of ecstasy becoming stronger with each passing moment. Hyunjin let out a growl before sitting up, blood smeared over his lips, his fangs still bared and bloody.
âYou taste amazing angel, just like I thought. You felt good too? I know you did.â He cooed.
You did feel good, the feeling still lingering even after he detached himself from you. Your body felt like it was on autopilot, needing more from Hyunjin. You opened your legs more, allowing Hyunjin to slot himself more comfortably between your legs.
He grinned at your eagerness before he slid the straps of your dress down, your breasts on display. His fingers brushed lightly over your nipples, the buds instantly peaking between the cold air coming through the window and his touch. You mewled out as he leaned down to suckle your nipple, his tongue flicking against the nub.
Hyunjin loved your body, your beautiful breasts fitting perfectly in his mouth. He suckled your nipple, his hand massaging your other breast. He let out a groan at the sound of your voice, whimpering his name, telling him not to stop. He was ready to make you his.
With a pop, he let go of your nipple and sat up. With a snap of his fingers, his clothes disappeared, a chuckle leaving his lips at your shock.
Hyunjinâs body was beautiful. He was toned, his muscles flexing with every movement he made. Your eyes traveled down, down until they landed on the hard appendage between his thighs. His cock was pretty, the prettiest youâve ever seen, the perfect length and girth, his tip leaking with precum.
You watched as he pushed up your dress, bunching the material at your waist, his eyes snapping to your dripping core. You heard him mutter something under his breath in a language you didnât know, watching as he slid his finger between your folds. You moaned as he circled your clit, applying pressure to the bud occasionally.
âYouâre soaking angel. All for me hmm? Youâre mine right?â Hyunjin asked, his eyes searching yours for the answer.
âIâm yours Hyunjin,â you whimpered, finally succumbing to the man.
Hyunjin smiled, letting out a breath at the words heâs been waiting to hear since he met you. Grabbing his cock, he brought it to your folds, pressing the tip within your tiny hole. He watched your face, pleasure taking over as he pushed inch by inch in.
With one final push, he bottomed out, the stretch causing you to yelp from the pain. You reached out to push against him, silently begging him to stop. Hyunjin just grinned and took your hands in his, bringing them up and above your head. With a chaste kiss to your lips he thrusted his hips against yours, dragging his cock through your warm walls.
The pleasure was overwhelming, his cock hitting your spot just right. You loved his weight on top of you, cradling you beneath him as he rhythmically slid his cock in and out, in and out. You felt Hyunjin drop his head into the crook of your neck, his breath tickling your skin as he breathed.
You squeezed his hands and wrapped your legs around his waist, pulling him ever closer to you. The new position allowed his cock to reach deeper within your walls, his tip kissing your cervix. You mewled out as you felt your high approaching.
Hyunjin groaned as he felt your pussy clench around him, keeping him within your walls. He fit perfectly within you, just as he thought. You were made for him. He felt the sweat off his forehead and land on you, his pleasure building with each stroke.
He needed you to cum with him, like he needed air to breathe. As he continued to thrust into you, he bared his fangs once more before sinking his teeth once more within your neck. You howled at the pain before succumbing to the pleasure as he fed from you.
He couldnât get enough of you, as you were perfect. He felt you stiffen beneath him and with a cry, you squirted around his cock, your arousal coating his pelvis and dripping onto the couch below. The feeling of your pussy fluttering around him caused tip over the edge, spurt after spurt of his warm cum filling up walls.
You felt full and satisfied, as you came down from your high. You winced as you felt Hyunjin withdraw his teeth, before he pressed his lips against yours. You could taste the metallic taste of your blood, causing you to groan as you tightened your hold around him.
You felt like you could lay here and kiss him forever, your worries forgotten, the world forgotten as you laid in the little cocoon that was Hyunjin. Hyunjin gave you one more kiss before sitting up and slowly withdrawing his softening cock. He couldnât help but watch his cum spill from your pussy, the sight beautiful to his eyes. It meant that you were his, finally his.
âLet me run a bath,â Hyunjin said, getting up from the couch.
You laid there beneath the windows, the moonlight shining through, awaiting Hyunjin to come back for you. It didnât take him long as he was back within a few minutes. He carefully picked you up and carried you to the large in suite bathroom.
You felt sleepy as Hyunjin carefully washed your body, the scent of cherry blossoms filing in the air. You could hear him hum a song, the melody soft and sweet, almost like a lullaby. Once he was done washing you, he carefully brought you back to the bedroom, setting you down on the bed. He quickly dried you off and slipped a shirt over your head before pressing a kiss to your forehead.
You grinned at the small sign of affection, reaching out to him with your arms, wanting to feel close. Hyunjin chuckled before picking you up once more. He placed you beneath the warm covers before sliding in next to you.
You snuggled up next to him, resting your head on his chest. There was no heartbeat, nothing present to let you know he was a human. You couldnât help but feel attached, needing to be close to Hyunjin at all times. If this is what it felt like being with a vampire, then you didnât mind, you actually wanted it, craved it.
He was yours, just as you were his. You snuggled closer as he whispered sweet nothings, his hands smoothing down your hair, his fingertips lightly brushing against your back.
âI love you angel.â Hyunjin whispered, kissing your hair as you drifted off to sleep.
You mumbled incoherent words, hoping the three little words were audible to Hyunjin.
You never were afraid of the dark, never fearing the darkness that covered the land each day. Maybe what lurked in the dark wasnât so bad either. Maybe what lurked in the dark was what you were looking for all along.
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Anatomy
Gojo x reader
18 + Youâre about to take one of the most important exams. Unfortunately you suck at your anatomy and need to learn the material fast. Luck for you Gojo is good at everything, not only that but heâs also a teacher. Soon you learn about his odd teaching techniques.
"I donât think Iâll be able to pass this test." You groan as you drink your coffee Shoko had bought you.
You were out with the two of your friends so they could cheer you up. As a healer you had to go the health care route in your studies but it wasnât so simple.
"Why donât you just cheat? Shoko is cheating!" Gojo looks at her before returning his gaze back at you.
You let out a deep sign as you slouch in your chair.
Just because sheâs cheating doesnât mean you should too. Sheâs had some good memory so it was easy to learn everything for her. Unlike you who had to actually go study for it.
Shoko said she would help you cheat through the homework, quizzes, project but you where on your own for the final exam. If you wanted to graduate at the same time as her then you would have to ace this anatomy exam tomorrow.
You felt too scared to cheat. What if you were caught? You would be academically expelled!
You groan loudly before looking up at your friends who had worried expressions.
"How bad do you guys think Iâm going to do?" You ask.
"Fail"
"Youâll be fine"
They both said at the same time. Shoko elbows Gojo and then proceeds to grab your hands.
"Just study hard. I would love to help but I have a mission to go on butâŠ" she turns to look at Gojo who was biting his biscuit. "But Gojo here is a teacher now."
Ah right, that moron did take up a teaching job right after graduating. Now that you think about it Shoko might be right. Heâs a teacher! His job is to teach material to students. He could help you learn everything you need to. Not only that but he was good at everything he did, he would be able to learn everything in no time.
"Gojo you have to teach me!" You say with a pleading look.
"Haha, right as if you would want to learn anything from me. Donât you two always make fun of me? Saying Iâll be a horrible teacher and whatnot."
Both of you glare at him.
"Ah, your serious I see.,." He says confused yet surprised.
â-
He was taking his sweet time looking over your text book. Giggling over a few certain pages before slamming the book shut.
You lift your head up from the couches arm.
"Alright I got everything down. Do you want to start with the bones or muscles?"
Gojo decided that the best place to study was in the comfort of his own home. You had protested by saying a library or coffee shop would be better because it would motivate you more.
He then proceeded to call you delusional and dragged you to his place.
Itâs not like you havenât been here before. You all used to hang out here almost everyday during high school. Now he was too busy working while you and Shoko were busy at school trying to get a masters degree.
"Bones"
You figured out really soon that his teaching techniques were quite odd.
Wack
"Ow! What was that for?!" You say as you rub your thigh.
Did he really just hit you with his arm?
"Where did I hit you?" He asks.
"My thigh you idio-"
"Wrong, tell me the name of the bone."
Ah, of course. You sigh as you tell him that he hit your femur with his ulna.
Wack, wack
Thatâs how studying went for a while. Eventually he would speed up the process by going faster and by hitting multiple spots at once. At the end you felt so sore.
You laid sprawled out on the floor as an ice bag rested on your rib cage.
At this point five long hours had gone by. Thankfully you had learned all the skeletal bones in the body but it was taking longer than you initially expected it to. If you guys keep on like this then it would take you forever to learn the muscles.
"You look so defeated already." Gojo said amused as you laid still.
"This is just harder than I thought it was going to be. Donât you have a different way of learning anatomy without hurting me?" You ask.
You saw his mouth turn into a wide grin before he squatted down.
"I do have a different way but I feel like youâd dislike it." He smiles.
"I Dont care, I just need to learn the muscles in two hours!" You say looking at the clock.
"Letâs put consequences, people are prone to make less mistakes and to try harder if thereâs a punishment."
You roll your eyes.
The exam was early in the morning and you needed all the rest you could get. He was just wasting time at this point. You sigh and just go along with his nonsense.
He grabs your hand and pulls you up so you could sit. He then sat across from you and took his mask off from his face.
He must finally be taking this seriously. Grabbing your hand once again he pulls your index finger and puts it on his cheek.
This was the exact same method, just with no pain involved.
"Masseter"
Then he dragged your finger to his temple.
"Temporalis"
You watch as he squints his eyes at you and looks at you suspiciously.
"I thought you needed help. Seems like you have it down."
"I obviously know a few things. For example the obvious ones like biceps. I know everything above the neck too."
He sits there in his thoughts for a moment before grabbing your hand again.
He slowly unfolded your hand and brought it to his chest. It surprised you for a second but you quickly remembered why he was doing this.
"Breast."
The both of you look at each other for a solid second. Holding eye contact before he suddenly burst out laughing. He had to catch his breath before correcting you.
"Pectoralis major"
Right⊠you would have totally gotten that right if it wearing for him doing such a thing.
You repeat the answer under your breath as he moves your hand once again.
This time itâs was his abs.
You swallow hands as he runs your hands over them. He wore a tight black shirt making it feel like it was his real skin. You could tell he was watching you carefully. Trying to read the facial expressions you were making. He was enjoying thisâŠ
You could concentrate at all. You had the answer on the tip of your tongue but it would spill out.
He kept running your hand up and down
"Youâre taking too long y/n, the answer is recuts abdominus. We can come back to it later. Shall I give you a hard one?" He asks.
Maybe this was enough for today. Clearly he was toying with you and you had no time for such thing. Once you get home youâre going to study till midnight.
He moved your hand before you could tell him the study session was over.
It took you a moment to realize what you where not touching and it was indeed hard.
You jolt as he squeezed your hand around his length.
Donât think about it.
Donât think about it.
Donât think about it.
Just answer the stupid question and be over with his games.
"Your small penis"
He glareâs at you as he runs your hand up and down his shaft.
"You know well this isnât small."
You turn to look away from him so he wouldnât see your cheeks turning pink. You could feel how it twitched under your touch, how it was pulsing begging to be let out. Begging for any sort of attention. Something you werenât willing to give so easily.
"Anyways youâre wrong. A penis isnât a muscle."
Huh?
"Itâs not?! But you can move it right?"
Gojo for some reason took this as in invitation to unbutton his pants and to spring it out. You didnât know whether to look away or take this as a learning observation.
Learning! Youâre doing this to learn about the human anatomy! You hum in your head.
Averting your eyes down you see it. That wide long monstrous thing. How could that possibly fit inside of anyone?! Who would even want to sleep with him?
He moved it somehow. You watched it move up and down slowly.
"Thatâs two answers wrong in a row y/n" he coos.
Right. The punishment.
"So what are you going to make me do? Run laps? push-ups? Your chores?"
"No itâs something even better. Not only will this benefit me but itâs also going to make you learn a bit faster hopefully." He says.
Grabbing your leg he drags you towards him. You yelp at the sudden surprise. You knew he was a hundred times stronger than you so you didnât bother to fight back. You watched him carefully as he climbed over you. His hair dangling over you.
He leans in slowly into your ear and whispered six words.
"Iâm going to put it in."
Your breath hitches as you pushed him back.
This man was trying to kill you! Thereâs no way, absolutely no way that was going to fit in you at all! Of course youâve had your fare share of men in you but nothing this big.
You shake your head repeatedly at him.
"You scared? Donât worry Iâll be nice and careful. Iâll even let you stop me from moving if you answer my questions right." Gojo moves your hair to the back of your ear.
He ran his thumb over your temple in circles trying to sooth you.
All you had to do was get the answer correct right? Youâll just get them all right so he wonât even be able to enter you.
You feel as his hands run over your waist. His cold hands touching your sensitive skin before he gripped your bottoms and yanked them down. Your hands quickly go down to hide everything but he was quick to grab both of your wrist with one hand.
"Youâre tempting me to just ram into you if you keep squirming like that."
You stay still causing him to laugh.
"Since you got two wrong I get to put two inches in." He says as he lines himself up with your hole.
You kick him and yell at him to stretch you out first but he refuses by saying that it wouldnât be a punishment if he were to do that. With that out the way he began sliding into you. The second his tip went in you let out a cry of pain.
You try to run away by scooting back but he held you down and kept going in.
His eyes would squeeze shut at he bit his bottom lip. You could feel as he gripped your wrist and the leg he was holding up.
You let out a louder cry as he kept going. Begging him to stop and to let you adjust. Thereâs no way women actually enjoyed sleeping with him. He was carrying and actual weapon. He could literally kill someone with that.
Once he did stop you let out a loud groan.
"Such a good girl, youâre doing so good. Who would have know you were so tight." He kisses the inside of your leg.
You whimper in protest.
"Whatâs this?"
He points at the side of his rib cage.
"Y-your external oblique." Your voice trembles.
"Atta girl."
He then points at the middle part of his thigh.
You began to panic. Name, whatâs the name?!why couldnât they have simple names?! Why are there so many different muscles?
You open your mouth hoping the right answer would hopefully come out. The femur was located there so it had to have the word in the name right? Or at least rhyme with it. Femur-loris? Femoris? That sounded right but what if thereâs a second part. Or maybe it was just one word.
You looked at him hoping for a hint but he just stared at you. Finding it amusing the way you were trying to think so hard while he was inside of you.
"Youâre taking too long." He says as he shoves himself deeper inside of you.
Ngh!
You whimper as gets I n deeper.
"Femoris!" You yell out.
He makes you take in another inch.
"Fuck! You piece of shit! Youâre a horrible teacher! Iâm not going to learn anything like this!" You curse at him.
He slams the rest of his three inches inside of you causing you to cry. Your eyes almost roll back as you felt him stuff you. He slams your arms above your head and presses his pelvis deeper into yours. Rolling his hips over and over again making you go crazy. Your eyes began to water as you felt overwhelmed. Hot tears coating your eyelash.
Mascar stains your under eyes and your face begins to heat up. Youâre begging him to slow down. Looking at him with a pleading look.
"Gojo, please! I donât know the answer. I canât even think straight right now!" You sob.
âRecuts Femoris." He says through his teeth.
He leads your hand to his chest and makes you tell him the answer to that one again.
You give him the correct name of it and felt as he began to slow down inside of you. He lets go of your wrists and brings his thumb to your clit. Rubbing it in circles to give you pleasure.
"A reward for being such a smart girl." He whispers.
He watches as you squirm and jolt at the sensation. He kept sliding in and out of you slowly but the pleasure was more overwhelming than the pain.
You start moaning out his name the faster he went. Youâve never felt this good before. With all the men you slept this had to the best one yet. He wasnât even fucking you probably! He was toying with you!
What would it feel like if he was actually trying?
"Canât you just fuck me properly?!" You say
He looks at you shocked before smiling. He put your legs over each shoulder and leaned in closer to you. You moan as he somehow reached a deeper area inside of you.
"I will when you get everything down and if you pass Iâll even eat you out." He groans as he grinds himself onto you.
You donât know how or where all of this knowledge came from all of a sudden. Each place he pointed out you got the right answer, well almost. You would slip a few times making him pull away and slam into you. At some point your body finally adjusted to his length. This making the punishment more wanted. Sometimes you got the answers wrong on purpose.
By the end you had everything down and he was finally fucking you the way you wanted.
He had you on your knees as he plowed into you.
"I think this technique of learning is way better. Now shall we keep doing this for every exam?" He grins.
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