#I’m over life at this point
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this is my favourite daniel molloy-ism by the way
#I’m enchanted by his self-destructive tendencies.#text#daniel molloy#what does he have except his career and his talent going for him at this point in his life. of course he picks the book over his life.#interview with the vampire
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I hate this school
#I almost threw up#in PE#and then I almost threw up again#but I’m scared to text my mother bc she’ll be like#‘you just wanna get out of school’#and yes while that’s true#I dry heaved twice#like let me go home you bitch#this school and my parents make me want to die I want to stay with my friends in the hotel room no matter how much I hate the one#I’m over life at this point#what’s death like#y’know#I wanna know
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god. god. the significance of the diary pages about claudia’s assault being torn out raggedly by Louis, clearly in a fit of guilt and anguish and trauma, vs the diary pages about louis mourning lestat and regretting killing him being removed with surgical control and precision. by armand. this wasn’t a heat of the moment action it was deliberate and calculated and I can’t stop thinking about it
#I’m SICK I tell you SICK over this#how much of Louis memory and life has he been controlling all these years??!!!!#louis already has repressed memories due to depression and trauma and now THIS??? Armand’s very very careful and constant control?#and manipulation of the truth? of not only Louis’ recollections but of Claudia’s??????? GOD#I can’t fucking wait for season 2 rashidmand judgement day WILL be upon you#and my god......the idea that louis asked for some aspect of this??? my heart is broken i'm crying tears of blood....#do I know if this is true? no. do I think armand is controlling everything? no…but I also think it’s part of it all#iwtv spoilers#iwtv#amc iwtv spoilers#interview with the vampire#the vampire armand#louis de pointe du lac#m watches iwtv#tw assault#tw assault mention
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i have nothing else to say about this. i am absolutely batshit.
confused? let me show you because after my months of analyzing this song i did not see this a SINGLE TIME until it was pointed out to me.
i’m going batshit insane. this is the reason why i need to be locked in a padded room.
right after alastor said that vox asked him to join his “team” and alastor said no.
there is no other explanation for this.
LALALALA IM GONNA DIE ‼️‼️‼️
WHAT WAS THE FUCKING REASON.
#i just cannot believe this#i thought it was fucking edited when it was pointed out to me#this is the most obvious thing i’ve ever seen#i get the rainbow error bars because that’s a common error on televisions.#BUT THIS????#i’m never getting over this in my entire life#hazbin hotel#vox#hazbin hotel vox#bisexual#radiosilence#onewaybroadcast#why can’t u just be fucking normal#why can’t i just be fucking normal#why can’t i just fixate on the good guys instead of vox’s 283728473 mental illnesses#and his batshit relationship history
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h-how do you ever finish any of your work? genuine question because you seem to be productive despite your agreste syndrome and I need to learn your ways. but also how do you ever finish any of your work
unclear. last night i stayed up and finished a report worth 25% of my grade at about 5am, arrived on time for my 9am lecture, and spent about half of it zoned out while thinking about seventeen year old emilie agreste. and i was one of the most active participants in the class discussion
#in some ways it IS the move to go to grad school right out of undergrad#because your body can still sort of operate like a college kid#i’m on about 3ish hours of sleep rn and this morning it felt SO over but now i’ve eaten something and we’re so back#i also don’t really do caffeine. except sometimes i’ll go get one of those panera death lemonades#i might be able to snag a short nap before work#but anyway about seventeen year old emilie. i was thinking abt how she was in that movie solitude and adrien said she was seventeen#WAIT. NO. HE SAID SHE WAS SEVENTEEN IN THAT PHOTO ON HIS DESKTOP NOT IN THE MOVIE#well. okay whatever i’m gonna tell you what i was thinking about anyway#OKAY i’m back i just checked the wikipedia page and then i watched the end of gorizilla. to make sure i’m not lying. because i’m normal.#anyway i was thinking about the solitude film and how it’s super rare and old and obscure and whatever. and how apparently#emilie wrote it herself and andre produced it#and i’m thinking about how gabe was discovered by audrey and that’s how he got his start in the fashion industry#so now i’m like?? did gabe and emilie first meet on the set of solitude? because gabe was designing costumes or whatever?#and that’s how audrey found him? have people already thought about this??#also i just checked and it doesn’t say emilie’s last name in the credits and also it’s ‘graham films’ with the twin rings logo m#so i’m assuming she’s still emilie graham de vanily at that point#anyway it comes back to seventeen year old emilie because i started imagining seventeen year old runaway emilie having her new life in pari#after escaping her british nobility life#and the first thing she does is write and star in an original movie. of course.#and she meets this repressed bisexual punk upstart costume designer who is so the opposite of everyone she’s ever known#and he’s immediately so unhealthily obsessed with her. which she appreciates.#and then they proceed to have the most toxic doomed evil relationship of all time#also she gets cheated because once gabe gets money he represses himself SO hard that he is now exactly like all the people emilie grew up w#but at least he’s still obsessed with her#this is what i was thinking about during class today. i don’t know how i get anything done either.#ml#anna rambles#asks
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Quick doodle of a not so modern au this time, where everyone is happy and lives and Pat and Achilles build a cottage somewhere and raise Pyrrhus instead of dying in a war lmao
#tsoa#the song of achilles#patrochilles#angies art#Pyrrhus#because he needs his own tag at this point lmao#I like to think in this scenerio Deidameia realizes she doesn’t actually want to raise a kid#bc y’know in tsoa she was kind of pressured into by Thetis so she just gives Pyrrhus over for Achilles to raise and he’s like.#well I guess I’m a family man now lmao thus they mind their own damn business and live their best lives someplace away from everyone#and Dei goes off and lives her best single kid free life with the gals on Scyros lol everyone wins#very similar to what happens in my modern au :v
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2024 sequels and the mischaracterization of complicated lesbians in this essay I will-
#tag your fav mischaracterizated lesbian in media#chloe price#life is strange#life is strange double exposure#double exposure#double exposure lis#lis#max caulfield#pricefield#I’m literally never getting over this#I’m not even against them breaking up necessarily (like I am very much am and think they’d at least get back together at some point)#but my main complaint is how they did it oh my god#just completely ruin everything that makes them them by taking away the defining aspect of their love and respect for each other: their#friendship#and then saying a bunch of stuff that doesn’t even make sense as the excuse#“they couldn’t get over it WRONG#and don’t even get me started on Nicole in the new game#yes I know she’s a sociopath and she sucks but the new game was awful poorly written and just made Nicole like evil#it’s crazy#nicole class of 09#class of 09#co09#co09 nicole#co09 jecka
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i love how edgy will's older stuff is. i think it's funny. i love imagining him as some angsty emo teenager posting poetry on his vent/gore blog which is an absolutely hilarious thing to imagine. also i genuinely enjoy confusing and pissing off people and by far the easiest way to do that is to play any song on self-ish
#at this point idc if i’ve already used an image for a confession card#i was gonna use that one semi mirror selfie of him with fluffy hair over his eyes#the one that was captioned ‘you’ and ‘the guy she tells you not to worry about’#but i cannot for the life of me find it#if anyone knows what i’m talking about please rb with that image if you find it dhdhdhdh#gore mention#will wood confessions#ww confessions 180 - 189#will wood#wwatt#will wood and the tapeworms
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Catra being anxious and having panic attacks over the bad things she did is actually counter productive to any hypothetical scenario where she is self reflecting and/or receiving constructive criticism.
Her potentially having crippling anxiety over being an asshole in the past PREVENTS and/or DELAYS any changes she might potentially make.
Making this character spiral over moral dilemmas does not inherently mean she’s actively working to change her ways. Her being afraid of facing her badness does not make her good; it simply means she has anxieties toward constructive criticism/dialogue.
#in response to the dumb fuck fan comics I see about Catra having panic attacks over and over#yeah like. I get th sentiment. but really that’s not how that works#well. it DOES. but if the audience of the popular fanon POV of Catra’s character is supposed to be sympathetic#why make her a wet soggy cat (metaphorically)#why make her the sad pitiful one#if she’s making changes in her life and her behavior… wouldn’t that be… impowering ?#wouldn’t she feel happier?#she wouldn’t even need to be coddled by Adora (and company).#she’d accept the bad things she’s done and would apologize with no tears none of this wet cat bullshit attitude#actually… fuck it I’ll just write something where she does exactly that#mariposa rants#what I told you guys… that making a huge self pity party for yourself… after doing some shitty thing#is actually incredibly selfish … and silly….#(ex. bojack horseman. like. literally the entire show.)#eww mariposa ranting about bojack horseman#<<< (new tag cause I’m not down with this point)#basically. feel bad for a minute. then spend the next hour working on yourself. journaling. self therapy. actual therapy. meditate. pray.#whatever the fuck dude
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Y’know all of this made me think of a version of Inanimate Insanity but it’s actually a killing game like Danganronpa instead of a reality show
Like if MePhone4 watched Danganronpa and tried to host one himself and shit. Complete with pretending to be a despair-loving freak and all of that jazz
#attempts at socializing#danganronpa#inanimate insanity#based on II16. you know the one#spoilers for inanimate insanity and Danganronpa v3 beyond this point#I’m imagining that the contestants learn about 4 (who they believe has been infected by a despair loving virus)#they pity the guy who seemed to be a disaster magnet#first the guy has a terrible dad#second guy got infected by that virus#but then it turns out that the virus never existed and 4 was just playing a persona#not only that they learn that they were all created for the killing game#they get angry of course#but then again… the killed get revived someplace else#and the reason why he did that is because he never knew anything else#not even a loving life…#so they deduce that they are being watched#break the cameras#and force 4 to show his true self#and plan to save him from the true mastermind’s hold over him and end the killing game#so yeah you get to team up with knockoff monokuma against the mastermind :3#and yes it ends with all the contestants and shit disappearing#but perhaps at this point they have beaten the shit out of cobs and thus have completed their mission#so it’s time to say goodbye to the only ones who cared for mephone#or maybe they have done their part of the plan to defeat cons#and as say suitcase disappears they tell mephone#‘it’s time for you to break your strings.’#so yeah you get to help knockoff monokuma be the protagonist for once#and save him from Junko’s grasp#even though everything else is gone
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I desperately need people to stop saying afab when they just mean cis women. I also (for separate reasons) need them to stop saying “afab trans people” when they just mean trans men they don’t agree with.
#i hate agab language so much#It’s just tme/tmi discourse all over again#If the only way you know how to adress a man who is critical of your stance on HIS life#is to refer to him by what he was born with and not by what he is now#then you’re kinda missing the point of that language in the first place#Also I have never ONCE seen amab trans people used in the same way for transfemmes#at least not yet anyway (sorry if that’s a thing y’all have to deal with#hope my point comes across all the same)#And also sorry for venting like this#I’m just annoyed seeing casual transandrophobia from like random art blogs I follow
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#one thing i want to say#that i cannot say out loud#so i will whisper it quietly to myself here#every time someone comments on how well my son talks#or how he knows so many words#or how he is a chatter box#and how it’s so surprising for his age#I always say oh yeah he just really likes to read#but what i want to say is that#i did this#i sat down with him when he didn’t know what a book was and read to him#and we went through picture books and i pointed out pictures to him and said the words slowly#and i read him little stories off my phone when he was basically a potato and didn’t understand a thing i was saying#and i got down at eye level and showed him what shape my mouth is when i say certain words#and i repeated myself a billion times#and it’s now to the point where we read at least 4 books a night#and he has his favorites and he picks them out every night to be read to him#and I’ve spent many many nights reading one book over and over again 12 times in a row#I’m extremely proud of him but I’m extremely proud of myself because I didn’t have to do any of that#but I knew it would help him in the long run#and seeing him so chatty and excited to read means the fucking world to me#so yes#he is smart and likes reading because I fucking did this.#and the people in my life I feel forget that he is the way he is now because of my impact on him#and they don’t say it to me ever so I’ll say it to myself#I’m doing a really fucking great job with my kid
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The aroaspec experience of ‘Is this romantic attraction or just platonic. What even is attraction. Where is the line. Help.’ and then proceeding to question societal norms of attraction for a while without coming to any actual conclusion to your question.
#it’s just#it’s weird man#the line feels simultaneously very thin and blurry for close friends and like this massive leap#I wonder if it has something to do with the whole demiromantic thing#like#I haven’t romantically liked every person I’ve been close friends with#but every person I’ve romantically liked I’ve been close friends with#if that makes sense#I don’t really get crushes#it feels more like some line being jumped between close friend and More#but I cannot for the life of me figure out where that line is#and sometimes shuffle back and forth over it#there’s no real set of rules for what’s what when it comes to romantic-platonic I feel#because people go ‘cuddle your friends! kiss your friends! platonic love can still mean those things!’#but when those things are also shown as indicators of romantic love#where the hell is that line#what’s the DIFFERENCE#idk man#I’m just rambling at this point#asexuality - at least my flavour of it - feels pretty clear cut#that’s easy#but the rest? especially when it’s not solid aro and it’s Demi or gray or whatever one might have?#the lines feel so very blurred#asexual#aromantic
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if any of you annoying fucking losers seriously try to waste our time with a ‘chappell is a terf’ narrative over The Giver. i will hunt you down and kill you with a gun on her behalf and im so serious
#i’m choosing peace and love by not paying attention to 95% of people who ever react to her at this point#but i am so over it. be fucking serious right the fuck now you are fucking embarrassing#get a life get a grip maybe fuck someone and find meaning in something bigger than you#and fake internet purity politics#chappell roan
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real talk: lxl should continue to explore romance fantasy concepts in their songs. it’s clearly working for them~
#typical prince aesthetics in romeo/julieta and nonfan… and now historical rofan in meoto…#(and there’s also whatever’s going on in tsuki no hime but that has no mv :( sadge)#sorry guys i still have meoto on the brain pls suffer with me~~~~~~~~~#but mannnnn. i was struck by sudden inspiration for a meoto au a n d#well. ig now i understand why they skipped over the falling in love phase. romance is hardddd#i want to subscribe to the meoto expansion pack p l s i need to know what their deal is~~~~#bc man. how in the world did they go from complete indifference to promising to stay together forever hello#what happened???????? excuse???????????#man. m a n. ok i think im done for the night. i hope#LXL MEOTO CRISIS 2K24#(but if anyone here wants to get into the otome isekai genre in general… i recommend starting off with ✨s u r v i v i n g r o m a n c e✨#(it’s a great story and it’s still modernised enough to ease into the genre. and after that…)#(you can just go for the series with the most interesting premise/prettiest art/both tbh)#(though i personally recommend ✨the perks of being an s class heroine✨ ✨the villainess’s stationery shop✨ for milder content)#(and there’s also some series with both isekai and regression.)#(like they isekai after their 1st life in 20xx-> live out their 2nd life in the fantasy world -> regress to a point in their 2nd life)#(for that type i kinda like ✨i shall master this family✨ though ngl i’m mostly reading it bc i think the aunt is very pretty)#(a nd there’s the occasional modern regression story but that’s pretty soap drama-esque and the one i read got ridiculous at times lmao)#(but ofc the ones with less romance focus are fun too~~~~ like stories with multiple isekai-ed people for one)#(b u t i digress i think i’ll stop here before i lose the plot any longer ahaha~~~~)
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I want to be so real with you all right now, because I can’t seem to get my head on straight when I desperately need to.
I know this is a silly little fandom blog where I post about my characters and have a laugh with my mutuals, but recently I’ve been so burnt out over this that I’ve lost the want to make anything. I don’t have the mental willpower or energy to make anything.
KOSA scares me. Genuinely. I can’t tell you a time in my life where I’ve ever felt more scared and angry and upset over something so genuinely horrible.
I haven’t been able to sleep since learning of its recent resurgence and now upcoming voting in the Senate. I feel sick every time I stop doing things to distract me because of how much grief this bill brings.
If this bill passes, I genuinely don’t know what I’m going to do. As a queer transgender man, this bill not only makes me afraid of what’s going to happen to everything I’ve built, but it makes me fear over my safety and all of the things I love about the internet.
This bill will ruin all of those things. Censorship on this magnitude is abhorrent and gross, and I’m tired of the government trying to control the things they don’t like under the guise of protecting children. Especially when a bill like this is going to end up fucking over countless minors and adults alike.
If a minor lives in an unsafe home, their resources for getting out of it will be stripped away because of how the bill goes about censoring media. If a queer minor is trying to find LGBTQ+ resources, this bill won’t let them because that information is going to be protected behind safeguards and other censorship methods based on “preserving mental health”. All under the guise of “protecting” them.
Protecting children is important. This? This is not the way to do it. Period.
Putting our information on the internet to verify that we’re adults- personal, identifying information- is incredibly, incredibly dangerous. Information privacy and anonymity have always been very, very important to me. This strips that all away.
I feel safe when I can be more private online. I feel safe being able to talk to people without my private information being submitted to their databases.
This makes my already rampant paranoia worse. This makes me afraid of my personal information ending up on some insecure database that’s ripe for the taking for those with malicious intent.
Fuck this bill, and fuck anyone who supports it. I’m tired of this bill making me feel unsafe, paranoid, vulnerable, and overwhelmingly scared. I just want to live my life normally.
I’m tired of constantly agonizing over the next time when children or LGBTQIA+ people are going to be political scapegoats. I hate living like this.
Stop KOSA. Please. From the bottom of my heart, I want this bill stopped.
Please. If you can, call your reps and lawmakers- tell them that you don’t want this bill to pass. Even if you’re not from the US, you can help. Below I’ve put in a link to Stop KOSA’s website where you can email/call your lawmakers and let them know how much you hate this bill. And if you can’t do that for some reason, or you already have, please spread the word and let other people know about this bill and how to stop it.
And remember, even if KOSA passes in the senate, we can halt it in its tracks when it reaches the house. So please. Don’t stop fighting, and STOP KOSA!
(Also, feel free to reblog and add any other information you can to this post to spread the word about this bill and/or provide more resources to combat it. Every email, Call, and other way to inform lawmakers of your opinion helps. There’s a reason we stopped KOSA the first two times. We can do it again.)
#KOSA#stop kosa#kids online safety act#bad internet bills#fuck kosa#Censorship#I needed a place to rant about this because I have never felt so on edge in my life#This bill actively deminishes my quality of life#Both in the idea/possibility of it passing and the fact that it exists in the first place#I started to get really worried and panicked about an hour ago over this and since I can’t rant to one of my friends about it at this hour#I’m spreading the word as best as I can. Because at this point I don’t know what else to do
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