#I’m fine just high and tired

[pseudobun]

Late night trauma dump

Back when my mother first got custody of me, I was given a laptop. It wasn’t connected to the internet, but it had my Big Fish games downloaded on it. On the laptop, as with most computers, there was Microsoft Word. I was around 12, maybe 13 at the oldest, because that’s when I was techno-banned. Anyway, I used Microsoft Word to “write.” I never really sat down and wrote anything substantial—maybe half of a first chapter. Most of what I did was plot outlines and character analysis… I don’t know.

After a series of events, I was having an argument with my stepfather. I don’t remember how it started—he was always starting shit with me—but that’s neither here nor there. All I fully remember is that college had been mentioned somehow, and he said, “How are you going to pay for it? I’ve read your writing; you’re not getting a scholarship.” Keep in mind, I was thirteen at the oldest. I had also been told by both him and my mother that the computer was mine and that any writing I did on it would be private, in case I wanted to type a diary (I never did; he just read my paper version instead).

I never wrote again. Maybe a year ago, I tried to start again, but writing anything more than shitty roleplay responses makes me stressed enough to want to puke. Hardly any creative writing stays uploaded on my side blogs for more than a week. I’m still trying but it’s hard.

I don’t know how to end this rant…

[yaoiadderall]

ok i’m gonna be real here. i don’t get people who vehemently hate the mcelroy brothers and everything they’re associated with. it’s one thing to just not enjoy their content/humor/media presence but ive seen so many people go full on “these guys suck so bad and anyone who enjoys their stuff is an idiot and they’re cringe losers.” a lot of times its former fans. and it just makes me think about how deeply sad and insecure that person must be, to be so desperate to feel superior to random people who find joy in something ultimately harmless.

[krowbby]

the worldbuilding i’m missing from bg3 is how all these people with horns are lying down. karlach is missing a horn so she can be a side sleeper on that side, which also accommodates her tail so that’s groovy.

how about the other tieflings though? some horn styles are unobtrusive enough to not be a problem but zevlor? rolan? the only thing i can come up with us that there’s some kind of specialized pillow tiefs can use that is small and dense enough to just support their head and let the horns go around it. or maybe they have to sleep in a massage table style facedown bed if they’ve got a real twisty pair of horns. actually i bet a hammock would actually work decently well with horns but then you’re lying on your back on your tail and we’re back to square 1.

but wyll?? i’ve looked at his character model and there is not a side of his head that the horns don’t extend past several inches. i KNOW he’s not laying on his back on a bedroll around the fire with us. he just got his horns so he hasn’t had any time to have a special pillow made. and we’re camping so he can’t have a fancy bed. i can totally imagine wyll’s self-sacrificing don’t want to be a bother ass just. sucking it up and learning to sleep cross legged.

i can’t help it these are the things that are interesting to my brain. how do people with horns lie down!!

[authenticcadence18]

why can’t my brain just. Move on. why can’t it stay moved on from things for longer than a week. I try so hard and yet I always end up sad again what is wrong with me why can’t my brain just knock it off I’m so tired of this.

[bibleofficial]

Hey, a shy mutual here, I love reading your tags on stuff, they always make you sound like you're in the middle of a manic episode or some other psychotic state, and that's exactly the sort of shit I stay on tumblr for 💖💖💖 you're doing.the Lord's work

wdym ‘sound like’ ? 😭😭

[morvantmortuary]

I’ve always believed that after the October Arc wound down, Rora had to sleep for like a week solid bc the stress of being in a human body again combined with the emotional highs and lows of high school football seeing her family again and having to rescue her brother from They Who was just too overwhelming to her system and she needed a hard reset

…and anyway I bring this up bc I, too, feel like I need to sleep for a week :’D

[milk-lover]

Can I just say that AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

[dreamyberry]

/3.11.24

[itspileofgoodthings]

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[floral-hex]

Trying to buy sudafed at the pharmacy is like yeah, I know people make meth out of this but I swear I’m actually sick please please let me buy this guilt free

[kavehayati]

I wish I could inject pasilyo into my brain so I can have permanent happiness

[gaycousinlarry]

ummm so apparently you can have burnout backlashes :)

[ghostzzy]

does everybody have a little guy inside of their chest screaming really really loudly “WE CANT KEEP LIVING LIKE THIS” at all times unless u drown him out with Pixels and Noises or is that just me

[roylustang]

Personally I literally do not mind when the heat index is 103F but I just cannot do this humidity bro. I cannot live if my body can’t cool itself off.

[milo-is-rambling]

I am so high I love you dabs I love you big bong rips I love you huge heavy bong I love you only having 20 dollars to my name and no plans but getting high and ignoring it I love you oh no I’m thinking about it

[verdemoth]

oooooooohh the agonies the curses the torments aughghghghghg