#I still hold the same values.

[wormchamp72]

hiiii again!! :3 ty for telling me how to properly <3 jeff!! but i was wondering about how cutesifying and shipping him was problematic? i would NEVER do such a thing, even despite how i type xD, but it would love an in depth explanation! ty again!!! <3

Ugh...where 2 begin?? TW: anger. Rage. I am going through a tough time. And this is a sensitive subject for me. Read...if you dare.

FIRST Jeff is not "cute" nor is he shipping material. Not 2 say that Jeff is not worthy of love and respect (he deserve both in infinitum) BUT he is never shown 2 have any romantic interest in anyone in the source material. I am not saying that one cannot draw conclusions based on this (one may "headcanon" him as gay, straight, acesexual, bisexual, etcetera), but it is problematic to force him in2 relationships with people he does not approve of. Ask yourself with everything you do: would Jeff like this? Would he approve? If the answer is no, then it might be time 2 reevaluate yourself.

SECOND there is a gay problem in this fandom. NOT SAYING that I hate gays! In fact, I once had a gay friend...yes, this Worm is loving. What happened 2 that friend? Well, if you know anything about me, you should know...(that friend was also trans gender. See? This Worm doesn't discriminate...well, unless ur a bully or a hater (that is 2 say that if you are a bully or a hater I will only discriminate against u on those grounds. If you are a gay and bully I still do not like you but good for you for being gay. I wish you a happy BF (boyfriend) filled life but also a life where you trip and fall and knock out all ur teeth because ur a bully)))))))))

The Gay Problem I am addressing is in fact for the benefit of the Gay Community. I think people assuming Jeffrey is gay feeds into them "cutesifying" him. Jeff can be gay. You can headcanon him as such. But is being gay a reason for someone not 2 be cool? NO!!!!! And we all know Jeff the Killer is the epitome of cool. I am noticing a correlation between making Jeff into a CUTE UWU BLUSHES *NUZZLES* TICCIJEFF YAOI~~BL~~ character and headcanoning him as gay. you can make him gay as long as he stays COOL. That is all I am saying. YOU CAN BE GAY AND BE COOL I REPEAT JUST BECUZ U R GAY DOESNT MEAN YOU HAVE 2 UWU AND OWO ALL OVER THE PLACE (Ex: Maximus P. used 2 be cool. Back when we were friends. Now, not so much...) So yeah. That's the gay problem.

SHPPING him is another similar matter. Jeff simply is too complex 2 be shipped with any lesser Creepypasta. Perhaps if he found an equal (I am slightly less offended by shipping him with Jane the Killer becuz I feel there are lots of nuances 2 be explored and I feel Jane does possibly have the depth necessary 2 comprehend Jeff's inner workings). But I most often see people shipping him with Ticci Tobi which WHY???????????? I DON'T UNDERSTAND!!!!!!!!!! WHAT DOES TICCI TOBIN EVEN DO WHAT IS HIS THING IM SORRY I DONT GET IT CALL ME A FAKE CREEPYPASTA FAN (TW: don't. U will face my wrath if u do) BUT I DO NOT LIKE TICCI TOBI OTHER THAN AESTHETICALLY (bless the fanart of u fans. Very talented people. I look upon your art with admiration no hate peace and love) HE DOES NOTHING HE HAS NO COMPLEXITIES ALL EVERYONE MAKES HIM OUT 2 BE IS UWU OWOWOWOWOW S3X WITH JEFF SHIRTLESS TOBI AUTISTIC TOBI (no hate 2 autistic people RE: Maximus P. and also Corbin from school and also some people at school call me autistic no hate peace and love peace and love) BUT THAT IS ALL YOU GIVE HIM WHO IS HE WHAT DOES HE DO HE IS NOTHING COMPARED 2 JEFF WHO CONTAINS MULTITUDES JEFF IS AN ONION TOBI IS A GLASS ONION (a song my dad likes and explained 2 me and alos like the detective movie) HE IS NOTHING. NOTHING!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Hhhhhhhh.....seething........................................................................

*Deep breath*

*Composes myself*

(I just learned about asteriks. They mean 2 imply that the speaker is doing an action)

Grrr....those "fan"girls (and boys and others) only want a charicature of Jeff...not the real thing. They simplify him down into a funhouse mirror stereotype. They want 2 see him without his scars...2 take away his identity just 2 make him match their idealized vision of "perfection." Hmph. Go read some BL....that might be a little easier for u 2 digest. Leave Jeff the Killer 2 the adults.

[t-u-i-t-c]

"You'll triumph someday, as long as you never yield. I'll take you on any time." "You never fail to piss me off, Geats."

[slothspamsstuff]

Hi guys, sorry for the hiatus. Been going thru some changes in life so I was trying to adjust to that >.< So please have Steph and Cass as pokemon trainers as compensations!! I had so much fun doing this in Pokemon's artstyle, such a fun and distinctive style to do.

Who do you guys wanna see next?

[bookwormwithadhd]

I don't ship asheji the way i ship my other favourite characters. I ship them in the they're soulmates and their existance requires their being together, they complete each other, compliment each other, make each other better, which is why they should beside each other all the time... which is why Eji's soul is with Ash's all the time.

[al-luviec]

still haven't moved on from zane in this episode (aka I hit tag limit again and am unhappy about it)

[acewizardinspace]

I don't plan to watch The Acolyte unless my pro jedi pals give it, at the very least, the 'unreliably narrator pass'. BUT, that being said, I think it would be so fucking funny if the show tries very hard to be anti jedi by having the protagonist hate the jedi, and having this hate be justified by the narrative, only for the actual stuff the jedi do to be 100% correct. Like it would be so so funny if the characters are like "Look how evil the jedi are!! They choose to protect thousands of people over ME THE MOST IMPORTANT PERSON IN THE UNIVERSE!!!!"

[genekies]

tag vent

[lobotomy-maybe-bestie]

i think trans people SHOULD get famous for bad art. i think trans people SHOULD get a major following for things they don't really put their whole heart into. i think trans people SHOULD be huge stars on the internet for decidedly mid quality content with problematic themes.

[buttercup-barf]

Under the cut are mostly self-insert doodles of decreasing quality. Again, not much directly tied to Team Fortress 2. Might as well toss these out while I have no access to my puter. Much yapping under the cut and in the tags incoming.

Another self-insert, this time less of a "here's me as a tenth class" and more of a "here's my game experiences translated into the class I would take the place of". The Cleaner. Although I guess they could still be wearing either suit. It doesn't matter that much.

That one Convict's Case taunt with Backup would be extremely funny, because the man would be on the verge of a breakdown (he does not want to go to jail so bad you have no idea). The second image- I owe no explanation. You know what I am. You see the pattern with my favourites.

The duality of the man. Resting face versus "just heard you express interest in religion/Russian folklore" face. He's not that hard to make friends with, when you pull him away from all the explosions.

Some doodles of trying to figure his face out. Unfortunately, the more I stare at him, the more I worry that he looks like A Certain Guy With The Last Name "Kazarin", and the fear of never being original in my life caught up to me.

Don't look at me, don't perceive me, I refuse to explain any of my actions to you.

[nemesis-is-my-middle-name]

was thinking abt that thing from a lil while ago where arceus cuts ingo's heart out, to spare him having to be sad about his former life. and then also got to thinking abt that thing i briefly mentioned a WHILE ago which is the idea that the reason ingo has no apparent language barrier w/ hisui is that uxie hotswapped his language from unova's to hisui's rq while he was falling as like a "sorry about your memories" consolation prize. and abt how, despite the very silly way i phrased that, that is actually like a supremely fucked up thing to do to a person and i would also consider it metaphysical violence on some level.

so anyway like. alt version where instead of it being arceus, it gets the whole lake trio in on it. mesprit takes out his heart, uxie takes out his tongue

[lanternlightss]

looking back at posts and its so fun seeing exactly which two characters in genshin i was hyperfixated on and that even after like three years it has not changed Once 😭

venti and nameless bard have me wrapped around their fingers istg

[t-u-i-t-c]

Shinobi 11: Shinobimaru, Come Back!

[caffeinatedopossum]

People actually valuing the things I do is so shocking and heart warming to me. Like I guess my only "skills" (listen I don't have the self esteem to call them skills whole heartedly yet) are things that are often abstract and awkward to put into words. Like I can... talk to.... people? But also I really care and I try to bring as much insight and understanding as I can to a conversation. Sometimes I can be confusing or pedantic because autism but yknow other than that. People have really been vocal about telling me how much they appreciate that about me and its just so strange to me. I can't believe I can be valued for something that I do naturally.

[earlyspringtranscendence]

Smth that I always come back to in the pee Nureyev experience is like. My view on Peter and Mags relationship and how I disagree with like 99% of the fanon interpretation of it (and also perhaps the canon starting in S4) (and so will ignore it henceforth) like Mag is . Nice. He's nice. I fucking know he lied to peets ok but he also like killed Mag so it evens out but it's heart wrenching to hear the audio when they're duping that New Kinshasa woman and they laugh so raucously (AND FREELY!!!! WHEN HAVE U EVER HEARD PEE SO FREE...) and well it's like. They love eachother . Kinda all I even have to say about that. I refuse to believe that Mag was a bad parent beyond the usual bad parenting of someone who isn't by any means ready or even nec willing to be a parent beforehand, but like anything that extends beyond that is so depressing to me... There's strength in numbers, even on Brahma, and pee used to have that with Mag. and anyway you cant take that away from me im putting my fingers in my ears and yelling if u try to reason w me GOODNIGHT & GOODBYE

[chantryexplosion]

the way this is the only time you can Try to hold him accountable 🧍and is this atonement in the room with us rn

[britneyshakespeare]

Sorry I can't stop talking about that ex-mutual who went off on me last night (well really I only made that one, really long and rambly, pretty over-repetitive post about it) but it's been like just running through my mind because of how hurtful that was from someone that on some level I did consider a friend. Not like a close friend who knows everything about me, in fact as I stated to exhaustion in that post I made earlier, the part that really got me was how much they were illustrating that they DON'T really know about me, how much they just ASSUME without ever having heard or seen confirmation from myself. And how unkind those assumptions were. But I did like them (do? I still have sympathy for them as a person and don't wish them any ill...). I cherished the thought of our online friendship we shared around the time I was 18-20ish or so, and even if we never kept in constant conversation (in fact, before I replied to their message last night, we hadn't chatted through DM since early 2021, if that's saying something). I'm sure they still did/do feel that way about me and this isn't easy on them, that they feel hurt by my posts in some way, etc. I did not go on a rant to them, though, attacking their moral character, calling them a coward who can't take criticism and refuses to learn and grow. I told them I think it's ok if we grow apart and though I still hold my differing opinions from them, it's ok to be upset at me for that. But don't bring it to me.

I would've seriously just preferred it if they unfollowed and left. All I keep thinking about these past couple of hours of marinating on it is: entitlement. I've crossed a line because I don't post about issues in the way they would like me to, and ultimately I still will be voting for Kamala Harris. They maintained that much very firmly even after I replied to their first message saying that they were putting a bunch of words in my mouth and not acknowledging how little they actually know about my views and actions in the real world, off of Tumblr; that I might have ways of caring about and engaging with things that are specifically not on my personal blog because of how toxic some zealous communities on this website can grow to be. They still felt the need to attack me at length for all the things I, in their opinion, "support" because I choose to vote for "a fascist" (meaning Harris). Their opinion that both sides are truly the same is the only logical answer and I'm not trying hard enough to be a good person if I don't agree with that. But that's what makes them presumptuous. That's not what makes them entitled.

I feel like the fact that they really did think well of me at one point, that we shared emotions and kind words with each other, that we talked about music and poetry and all sorts of matters of sensibility together, is why they felt the need to bring that to me. When we feel an attachment to someone, even someone we may be lacking a lot of information about, but there's that mutual sympathy there... we feel that we are invested in them. They (and I) felt that the two of us, as friends, reflected each other's values and sense of self. To be honest I was getting annoyed at some of their posts, too, that were basically fatalist about the US Democratic party and how nothing has ever actually changed since Tr mp left office. I simply don't agree with that analysis, and I didn't know how to sensitively bring that up with someone who I did respect and care for as an individual. They were asserting things that basically implied our views were irreconcilable; and yeah, I basically agree that if you're going to call me essentially a g n cide apologist, I don't really know how to reconcile that with you. I don't think that's what I am; they do. They discussed that because they felt that way they were no longer open to a dialogue (one which I never had brought up to them personally) in their reply to my response to their ask, and blocked me afterward. Well, I think it's ok to not be open to a dialogue. In that case, I really don't know how to defend myself. We're on two entirely different levels of interpretation if mild support of Kamala Harris's presidential campaign is seen as akin to me denying g n cide to you. If that's the angle you're approaching me with, I don't want to have a dialogue with you, either. I don't think one in good faith is possible at that point.

They got angry at me though not just for my differing opinion, but for the disappointment they felt in me for it. I ruined the Diana they had so much respect for. Their initial message reminded me so much of when fans hound celebrities to speak on particular issues they may not know anything about. But at least if you're, like, asking the lead singer of your favorite band to speak about a currently topical issue, you probably are falling back on the argument of thinking they have a higher status to their audience that they're neglecting to use for good. Or maybe they've seemed to do and say things in the past that make their current silence seem hypocritical. I don't particularly agree with the former argument, that every celebrity should use their "platform" to raise awareness for certain causes. There are some times when I think calling on a celebrity to speak on this or that specific thing is just kind of silly. I tend not to proclaim instances where I feel that way publicly, because I don't want to trivialize the issue or the fans' feelings. But there's also the parasocial hurt I've seen some people display when they suddenly interpret a person's silence, or (in their perception) 'inadequate' statements and actions, as genuine indifference. That tends to make fans actually angry, the disappointment that this person they admire could be 'doing better' but isn't. I was told by this person that I'm 'not even trying to do better' when we had never had a conversation about what I'm actually 'doing' or thinking or feeling, even a single time. They let their impression of me fester in silent resentment before finally snapping at me about all the things I never actually said to them.

I'm sure they felt like they had reached their limit of tolerating me, and reaching out was only so they could feel like they had some closure. That they had said their piece to a person they cared about but could no longer associate with. I don't think they actually considered what use their message would actually have to me. That it would be hurtful to be accused of all these moral failings by someone I used to just talk about Jane Austen books with. Someone I shared my poetry and feelings with when I was younger. They must have been feeling 'betrayed' at me for not living up to the expectations and standards they set for me, for not being the idealized friend that I must've seemed when we were in our late teen years. But I am feeling shock and confusion at the sudden void of sympathy or benefit of the doubt being directed towards me from someone I once mutually regarded somewhat highly and rather affectionately.

It didn't have to have been a deep friendship, where we shared all aspects of our life with each other, for this to be hurtful to me or for my words to have been hurtful to them. I'm sure they felt so angry at me because they do think I'm a smart and sympathetic person that they expect 'better' from. But I'm really not your confirmation bias friend. None of the sweet but somewhat shallow memories they once respected me for has to be null and void now because I'm not sufficiently radical in my politics for them. And again, I do think that they were under the impression that they knew my current thoughts and personal philosophies a lot better than they do, because of how much more of an open book I used to be on this website when we first started following each other. I never made some announcement that I was going to start being more reserved about certain things, guys, so, like, don't act like you know everything about me. Because should I have to? I don't have a "platform" or really any meaningful social status on this website. But they still thought I wasn't doing "enough" with it because they interpret my blog as being more intrinsically linked to my actual life than it is. My social status to them was the good opinion they had of me, that I soiled by disagreeing with them in principle about electoral politics.

I'm not less smart or kind than I used to be. That's really not how I make sense of people I mostly like, but who have done or said something I deplore and that disappoints me deeply. You don't have to abandon all faith in the individuals you love. People do not always make sense with your own moral compass, but you can still tell when they're not evil. And I don't think they think I'm evil. I don't think they're evil. None of the sympathy I ever had for them is gone. I'm just honestly hurt and confused. I don't understand why they thought it was appropriate to take up their issues with me in the way that they did.

And again, in every single timeline, I would rather have just been disappointed to see that a once-respected mutual has unfollowed me, after some years of growing apart and changing, than I would to be hurt by someone dramatically going off on me about how they can't be friends with me anymore because I'm just not good enough for them.