#I just. idk. even where to start
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some neighbor is having some sort of a get-together, I can just hear people laughing and some occasional louder voices and my god if the joy radiating from that apartment isn't amplifying the misery I'm wallowing in
#noopa rambles#I wish I was in high spirits and had a good time#instead I'm unraveling and have no idea what to do about this#I feel bad and I feel like a burden and like I'm simply just too much I talk too much I whine too much#yet what am I doing in this post? talking and whining and wallowing in misery#I had a minor medical scare caused by my shitty eating habits yesterday#as in I full on fainted when I was out shopping and hit my head on the stone floor - twice (apparently)#bc I hadn't eaten anything all morning#I was gonna go grab some lunch after I got out of that specific store too but meatsack went fuck you#so now I'm extra stressing out about my shitty ass eating habits caused by being a human disaster#and idk how the hell I'm gonna fix the disaster that I am#I just. idk. even where to start#and I don't even know where I could possibly even ask for help let alone how to ask for it#(didn't even end up getting a concussion but the back of my head still sure is sore)
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olympics coming up…… athlete aus on the mind….. satoru as a swimmer….. unreasonably large wingspan…. huge hands..... thinks “official” competitions and tournaments are boring because he can’t use the goofy purple googly eyes goggles he likes to practice in…… practices at ungodly hours solely because he likes when the pool is empty because that means you’ll dip your feet in at the edge and be there to greet him with a kiss when he’s finished his laps….. they bring up the stats board and it’s just his name ten times before the next fastest person and he could still lap them, and even tho he’ll always put so much pressure on himself to be the best, it’s worth it to have you hold his face and tell him you’re proud of him... he’s gotten so much merch from events and sponsorships and he used to think they just created clutter but that all changes when you start to wear his clothes (esp the ones with his name on it… he’s not proud to admit that does Something to him)…. always looks up to the stands when he finishes a race and if he knows you’re not there, he looks right at the camera, draws an infinity sign with his fingers, and blows a kiss (which, some commentators routinely call “unsportsmanlike conduct” but he doesn’t care, and always, publicly says he’ll pay the fees if it means blowing a kiss to his girl at home)
#satoru w/ wet hair coming out of the pool......... GOD .#he could be a professional swimmer and he still gets in the bathtub and is like babe look I'm a mermaid like yeah dude.. u might be#he's so k/atie l/edecky coded... they bring up the world stats and his name name 24 times before the next fastest time#like wdym you're faster than yourself 23 times before somebody else is next in line.........#he also gets brand sponsorships and is on set for photoshoots/campaigns and he's always like wait can I have one these for my gf#and the crew thinks its so sweet they give him 10 extra#jjk x reader#jujutsu kaisen x reader#jjk fluff#jjk smut#gojo x reader#satoru gojo x reader#satoru smut#gojo satoru x reader#satoru x reader#hm.... nanami? idk where tho... maybe judo I think that's an olympic sport#salaryman to gold medalist lore goes crazy omg#he started bc he was stressed at work at some random gym and the coach there was like hold on... and now he's a gold medalist#yuuta does something kinda nerdy looking like the javelin but he's weirdly good at it LOLLLL#OR TENNIS!#megumi I HAVE to push my archery agenda#but like. toji/gojo definitely caught him throwing rocks or something as a kid and being emo#and they were like wait you've got good aim ... kinda scary#and now he's at the olympics... wild#whatever the case is yuuji didn't Actually want to play a sport#yuuji in track and field... honestly maybe even gymnastics... NO! I GOT IT! VOLLEYBALL!.... maybe...#but it turned out to be a way to make steady money to support his grandpa#and then it just.. spiraled into him getting scouted and then training and now he's a world champion :((((#💌#olympics au
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Here's my controversial opinion; if you're trying to write Bruce as a non-abusive, good parent, you should also write him respecting his kids' privacy, boundaries, and not stalking&surveying them.
#my dc posting#dc#batfamily#batman#bruce wayne#dick grayson#jason todd#tim drake#damian wayne#looking thru ur kids phone tracking them giving them no privacy etc etc is deeply damaging#but yall aint ready for the ''stalking is their love language' is super toxic' conversation </3#also can we retire the JL being completely chill about it. 'batman just knows things' not being bothered their secret identities were found#out etc can we. stop coddling the batfam#i just need someone anytime to please just call them out like 'hey dont fucking surveil me' like that is actually extremely unethical#and its frankly not hard to write a batman who doesnt invade his kids privacy n boundaries etc#controversially when reading fic where theyre supposed to be healthy n getting along i want to actually feel like its deserved n good for t#hem#instead of sitting there going 'woo thats toxic' 'oh that even worse' 'why are we passing over all that'. like i dont wanna be thinkin they#should go no-contact when its supposed to be fuffy n good :(#like if you can write away the hitting n other abuse why is this the one thing that just must always stay#like genuinely it aint hard to write a parent not stalking their children. actually maybe i should remind you all that stalking is not good#or funny#like i feel like w all the joking some of us are actually forgetting its not good. ever. like absolutely never dont stalk ppl#eh idk. this is why i cant stay in any one fandom too long bc i start developing Opinions which inevitably make me hostile to like#90% of the fandom's content 😔
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(guy who has never played cotl) haha au time
#this started as a design exercise bc i couldnt get sphinx/devon rex narinder out of my head#but the whole time i was thinking man imagine if the lamb brings him in as a follower but nobody knows he was actually. you know#and the followers are like haha wow our leader channels the power and wisdom of the one who waits almost as if they were them#would that be cool or what. anyway heres narinder reassuming his pre-bishop form and everything his flesh remembers before godhood#ok now im gonna ramble abt design notes#the singe marks were inspired by fallen angels like how some ppl say they burned while falling from heaven. i wanted smth like that when#the lamb is resurrected by nari.. their outfit is inspired by papal cloaks while narinders is based on crusader armor#the lambs name 'bellwether' is also a term used for sheep that wear a bell and lead the flock and i thought that was cool#idk what the thuribles do yet but i do have smth in mind where theyre linked together. and ofc the lamb has a shepherds staff#very proud of nari's little devil tail!! and it was hard to see bc its so dark but he has wrinkles around his forehead to conceal his#third eye. even he isnt aware of it (for now)#idk where im going with this au i just have a bunch of ideas?? basically the lamb is keeping nari's identity a secret from him so he doesnt#go down that path of powerhungry destruction. smth like trying to lead him down a better path but feels guilty lying to do that#also theyre in love with each other and theyre stupid pining idiots abt it. mwah#cult of the lamb#cotl#cotl lamb#cotl narinder#the one who waits#cotl the one who waits#narilamb#art#au#myart#my art#character design#cotl au#false prophet! au
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#OH I ALSO FORGOT TO SAY i tried to draw the lip incompetence here...heart <3#a doodley#there's something here abt like.#ok i think present day talon wouldn't shapeshift FOR anyone even if he did have the energy to do so#even before he began starving himself he wasn't a huge fan of shapeshifting#as he didn't want to lose his sense of self especially wrt his family and community and such#so i think here it isn't that he's doing it for smunker#more like he forgets about his changed eye color bc its not like he sees them as often as he sees his own hair#he does prefer his original dark brown eyes though so its more like oh shit i forgot yeah sure#we can give the hair a break ill humor you a bit#(also of course he gets to a point where he has enough energy to change most anything he wants#but the lavender eyes are important for me to make him look scary LMAO. i just really liked the thought of him liking his#hair so much that its the equivalent of older person dying their grey hair black ykwim...its endearing)#like he likes looking old but calls it when his hair starts falling out...he likes his hair to be its original black...idk!#there's still Something there he cares about
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STOP I'm thinking about the part in Gravity Falls where Stan shows up with freshly bought (stolen) light bulbs only to see Ford screwing a new one in surrounded by family.
And OH my GOD. AGH.
Stan gets a little (ir)rationally upset about this because... It's.. Guys,,,
Stan perceives it as Ford once again easily receiving the praise and love of their family when he had to fight tooth and nail to receive even half of it.... I'm not well ✋😔
#listen I might be too deep in the fandom space and i might actually be mischaracterizing them completely#I'm not saying that Dipper and Mabel don't appreciate and love Stan because they definitely do!!#I'm saying Stan is seeing Ford reintegrate into their new family and he's seeing him do it. so. easily.#So easily When Stan had to PRETEND to be FORD to get even a chance to be a part of their family again#Stan FOUGHT to be a part of this family#and Ford just gets to slide in and... just. be a part of it.#and i mean duh but also... man Idk#Stan had to pretend to be Ford to get even a smidgen of a foothold to be able to even just... interact with his family#Stan's a family man that HAS to look out for everyone but Ford's just.. family. He gets to just... be a part of them with no real obligatio#And I'm not saying Ford doesn't love his family I'm saying he's very repressed and bad at showing it sometimes#It's just that... Stan fought SO hard to be a part of his family. THIS family. That is all he has EVER wanted#and FORD- who had it and took it all for GRANTED- gets to waltz back in and just.... take it for granted AGAIN#hang on guys i think I'm starting to take this a little personally i need to calm down wow#Okay.... I think I'm good#But you get where I'm coming from#cole's talking#gravity falls#grunkle stan#stanley pines#grunkle ford#ford pines#stangst#stan twins#These tags really got away from me huh#Ahem-- all that to say I think Stan's vague resentment in that scene is valid!!
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okay unironically I love so much that porter is like this world SUCKS its BAD here and it HURTS you why do you care abt it!!! and literally every single bad kid is like ngl we just hate ur ass it does not matter what ur philosophy is
#dimension 20#fantasy high junior year#not art#fhjy spoilers#its!!! gods I will Be My Ass in the tags rn. but thats so like. deliciously setting typical#like porter's desire is to transcend and his contempt for the world he's in feels. idk Real#like he plays the game bc he wants to win and be done with it. how do I word this#yknow. being a god would like. be his win state. when he gets that happening thats it his story is done he checks out#meanwhile the bad kids do actually just like playing the game lmao. like they love adventuring!#theyre so solidly Of This World. they carry the values that can only be born of it and they like having mastery over it#its a meta angle that I think is very fun specifically for d20 being in such a unique position in the zeitgeist when it first started#the rat grinders are from DnD Writ Large. porter wants to escape. but this is the bad kids' home its Their Actual Play Show#which makes it so fucking excellent to me that porter's question is somewhat of merit! its their show and it tries very hard to punish them#and they just straight up dont listen to him here lmao bc they hate him but! since the moment the academic track ended its been clear#that they save the world bc they Like Playing. With Each Others#thats what riz thinks the core of adventuring is! thats why fig stayed! and I also think thats why this hovers over elmville now and#a dead god is coming back in the school gym. porter is a shit evangelist but even if hes a good one I dont think it wouldve worked like he#wants it to. the only way he couldve escaped is if he'd not involved elmville at all. thats where the bad kids met dude#its a shitty place that fucks with them but they all come back here bc they wanna play with each others#and in that regard I think thats what the stress tokens ultimately means. Is This Game Still Fun To Play. ITS A RAGEQUIT LIMIT#Im literally running from one end to another of this conspiracy board Ive pulled out of nowhere#Ill draw after this I just wanna get this out. gods this episode has done nothing but furthering my delusion of grandeur actually#Im the hottest smartest manthing on earth Im king fucking midas over here. anyways uh! great ep!
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#this is LOOSELY based on a photo of the only fictional couple I’m not normal about#(scully and mulder)#bc I had to make my new obsession just like them😇😇#hope you all have a good rest of your day I am going to bed now!!!#I am EXHAUSTED I woke up at 3am😭😭😭😭😭#my dreams are often like lucid dreams and I can control most of them#but also they’re like SO VIVID I can eat sleep feel everythinf etc etc#anyways last night I dreamt I was a detective a la Morgan freeman in se7en#going after a serial killer#IT WAS SO SCARY I WOKE UP LIKE😳😳#I’ve been awake since then & I genuinely don’t even know where it came from bc like#I haven’t watched horror movies in forever I abandoned true crime years ago…#my brain was just😃#also it’s funny I did this x files drawinf today#because I started watching that show when I was TWO#my mom figured if I watched scary things from a young age I would never be scared of anything#idk what she was thinking bahahahahahahahaah (it did not work)#hogwarts legacy#hogwarts legacy fanart#hphl#hogwarts legacy oc#hogwarts legacy mc#eloise babbit#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow fanart#sebastian sallow x mc
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Buck meets Sal for the first not by seeing him over at Tommy’s or whatever but in the ER waiting room. Tommy listed him as his 2nd emergency contact and after something goes wrong at work Buck rushes to the hospital. When he gets there Sal stands up recognizing the man Tommy talks so much about and says “you came” almost like a question and Buck answers “of course” because of course he would. He will always be there for Tommy just like he is for him. And Sal sits down again Buck at his side as he chuckles quietly to himself because he got used to being the only one that would wait in these hospital halls. Past boyfriends always dipping out when Tommy needed them most its a surprise but a good one that for the first time someone else is there for Tommy too. Chimney and Hen were right that Buckley boy is alright.
#idk where i came up with this i just started thinking about whos there for tommy when hes the one in the hospital bed#and sal being so use to having to tell Tommy his boyfriend wasnt coming#but now he doesnt because he actually has one that loves him and will sit beside him when he needs him#maybe Tommy even worried how sal would react to buck but in sals book buck absolutely passed the test#bucktommy#tevan#kinley#tommy kinard#thomas kinard#evan buck buckley#evan buckley#sal deluca
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i think people give elise too much shit for her little outburst at the end of sonic 06 because if i was running a country at 17 and had been repressing my emotions for 10 years straight and one day i got kidnapped like 500 times and ended up befriending the guy who rescued me and while spending time with him i felt like i really got to be myself and have fun for the first time in forever and formed a really meaningful relationship with him only for some weird demon rat thing to show up and kill him right in front of me just to make me cry so the destructive fire god that my dad sealed inside my body would be unleashed and then in order to save the world i had to reset the timeline and forget we ever met i would have become the joker
#posts that sound insane to people who dont know the sonic lore#been htinking about sonic 06 again lately#also i didnt know how to work this in but remember the scene where she jumped off eggman's airship not knowing sonic was gonna catch her .#yeah#also i think its pretty obvious that she wasnt actually gonna let the world end so she could stay with sonic#considering she ended up blowing out the flame anyway. she just had a lot of feelings about it. which shes allowed to do#anyway. people alwasy say elise is boring and has no personality or character#but i think shes interesting. once you actually start paying attention to her#also i dont even ship sonelise but i think its pretty clear that sonic and elise meant alot to eachother#even if i prefer to make it platonic in my mind#people who say sonic hated elise just hate elise themselves and are projecting that onto sonic#< TO BE CLEAR PLATONIC RELATIONSHIPS CAN STILL BE VERY DEEP AND MEANINGFUL#idk if my wording on that was weird
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ok so I might’ve forgotten to get something ready for Wednesday BUT-
you can have Nine and Chaos Sonic from my Sonic Prime AU being siblings instead
#wsatw#wholesome sonic and tails wednesday#i guess in my case it’s wholesome chaos sonic and Nine wednesday#Oopsie daisy#chaos sonic#miles nine prower#sonic au#sonic prime#sonic prime au#Just regular ‘stacking random stuff on your sleep deprived brother’s head’ activities#Nine is very much going to lock him out of his room for the next few weeks#But that ain’t gonna stop the beepo#Oh boy this AU has been in the works for way too long so idk where to even get started on the lore#Maybe I’ll try to do an ask blog#Maybe I’ll fail miserably#I’m sure I’ll be fine#Have a lovely Wednesday y’all#also#prismatic parallel AU#<- what I plan on naming this AU#Unsure if it’s already an existing thing but oh well#time to disappear for a prolonged period of time again
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unpopular opinion but i dont think jade or floyd would give their s/o a matching earring that they share with their brother. those two have a special bond in those earrings that cant be replicated by anyone else because they fought that sturgeon. they won together. it just doesnt feel right to me that something so meaningful to them, something they wear every day, would just be given to someone else.
#idk it just reminds me of those things where you have a special nickname for someoen and then someone else starts calling them that too#or when you thought you had something special with someone but it turns out that they just share that thing with everyone#and maybe its just me but those earrings are the *tweels* thing and i cannot see them giving their s/o an earring#that matches the one they share with their brother#NOW because sturgeon scales are seen as lucky charms in the coral sea#im not saying they wouldnt give their s/o jewelry with those scales#like a bracelet or a necklace or even an anklet#i can see them being fascinated with ankle jewelry#auburn's rambles <3
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within five minutes i'm mad at kirk AND spock in the undiscovered country because what do you mean "where's spock" ?? what do you mean you haven't spoken to him today??? you've watched each other die multiple times. life is fleeting. why aren't you having breakfast together every morning?? what are you doing!! fools!!!!!!!
#i just started it ok so idk what happens in the rest of the film#also i haven't seen the last one#so i'm sure there's an explanation#but like#guys#its the 23rd century#there has to be ways to communicate#i don't even need you to kiss but to not be constants in each other's lives is unacceptable#“where's spock”#BRO YOU JUST FOUND HIM TWO MOVIES AGO#WHAT ARE YOU DOING#get it together#might liveblog this if i have other thoughts#text#shitposting#spirk#the undiscovered country#star trek movies
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Normally Sanji is the most put together person between him and Luffy. He’s probably the most put together person on the entire crew besides Robin. Meanwhile Luffy is a walking disaster, chaos is naturally drawn to him and he’s ALWAYS getting into trouble. When it comes to their actual romantic relationship tho. It’s COMPLETELY flipped lmao
Luffy will walk out on deck with his hair slightly tousled and his vest a bit askew but that’s normal for him. He looks smug as hell but that’s also normal for him. Nobody bats an eye. Then Sanji comes tumbling out of the galley. Shirt untucked and buttoned up the wrong way, hair thoroughly ruffled, clothes rumpled, looking utterly fucking disheveled. His nose is bleeding, he’s stumbling like he’s drunk and his neck is covered in hickies. Everyone on deck proceeds to lose their goddamn MINDS
#Sanji tries to tell them he was ‘attacked’ but then Luffy goes ‘Yeah by me ;))))’ and Sanji promptly gives up#Usopp: Dude you’re a mess. I’ve never seen you this unkempt before#Sanji: I. Listen.#Luffy: 😋#Sanji: DON’T LOOK SO PROUD OF YOURSELF THIS IS YOUR FAULT#Luffy: I take full responsibility and I WILL be doing it again!!!!#Sanji: NFJSNFNSNCNSNCNSN#Lusan#Sanlu#One Piece#Sanji#Luffy#Shima speaks#Just reminding you all where my heart lies. In case you didn’t know already tee hee <3#I love the contrast between how they are normally and how they are when they’re intimate#AKA Sanji’s a fucking mess after Luffy gives him any kind of affection and Luffy is fully unbothered#Sanji getting overwhelmed at any physical affection makes me ill actually.#Luffy knows that he’s doing smth right when Sanji’s nose starts bleeding LMAO#Luffy: Cool!! I’m glad Sanji’s enjoying it :D#Meanwhile Sanji’s brain is fried. He can’t even articulate. LMAO#Idk what it is about them!! They’ve changed me!! They awakened something in me………jfjdnnd
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Hi @naffeclipse I'm very normal about your fic. Have some frantic midnight sketches as extra kudos along with some tag rambling :)
#my ârt#crush depth#crush depth spoilers#fnaf#tw blood#tw drowning#idk how many others apply#anyways this is midnight crow coming out of the shadow realm to scream at you#first of all a cs ramble is on the way I'm still recovering from that fic too#im biting you naff im biting you so dang hard#I don't even know much about iron lung besides watching a play through but damn do you make me want to know more#just. where do I even start. the atmosphere is established so well and even though there was such a small space to work with I FELT it#I felt the claustrophobia I felt the walls and the console and the single dim lightbulb as my only solace in this death trap#the THOUGHTS#poor yn had so much time to just get lost in their head and spiral pretty much constantly#the dread. the constant overhanging dread of knowing there's a 99% chance they're not getting out of there alive and at this point#they just want to accept it and let it end bc there's hardly anything to go back to if they live#naff. look at me. reading some parts made my chest actually tighten with dread. it was so well done.#this poor human just buried in existential horror and just wanting it to end in a slightly less painful way#and the unknowable beings trapped outside who absolutely REFUSE to let that happen#god those eldritch fish were trying their hardest but just couldn't get in#yn was trapped inside while they were trapped outside and I just#I am EXPLODING the more I think about it#thinking about when they thought they were drowning and tried to breathe again#wanting to die but still having that instinct to survive#asking to be ripped apart but still cherishing their last breath of air#I'm shaking you I'm shaking you I'm dying on the floor#ough.#I'll never mentally recover from this and I want you to know I genuinely get inspired by your writing#this has been midnight crow ramblings. I just hit the tag limit. have a lovely night.
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Femininity is a cage people when you ask them to recognize that trans men saying the same exact thing is not misogyny:
#it’s all ‘femininity is a cage’ until trans men start talking about it#you see the difference to them is that you still shouldn’t leave the cage#you still have to be in the cage and wear your makeup#but in a feminist way#the way where despite refusing to leave the cage#or acknowledge people who do leave the cage#you just complain about the material of the cage#they view masculinity as the issue and femininity as the solution#even if they also view femininity as a cage#it’s fine to like the cage#to find solace and safety in the cage#but it’s not okay to view someone else leaving the cage as them hating the cage#because I don’t think people who call masculinity or femininity as cages really think they should be destroyed#rather they want them to have less pressure around them. to not loose access to the cage the moment they leave it#and the very act of deeming someone who left the cage as a traitor further enforces the cage#also something something they view it as an attack on themselves because they like wearing dresses without recognizing that that reaction#just strengthens the cage they hate so much#idk this post isn’t perfect but it works for now. I’m half asleep so I probably fucked something up#transandrophobia#I could expand on a lot of things and topics this brings up honestly
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