#I have to go to class

[grease-got-a-hold]

johnny likes the taste of blood. sodapop loves the smell of dirt. dallas is allergic to red food dye. darry throws away his eraser shavings instead of brushing them off the table onto the ground. ponyboy is scared of driving. steve chews on lemon rinds. two-bit likes drawing cartoons. thanks good night

[luneariann]

I will literally just wake up and already want to go back to bed and sleep for 10000000 more years like a fairytale princess

[slyandthefamilybook]

wuh oh. the tankies have found my posts. prepare for the worst takes imaginable

[absentmoon]

ecstasy

[catless-and-covenless]

Mt. Vesuvius has nothing on Baja Blast being spilled all over a table.

Okay that's a giant exaggeration but still. G seemed far away tonight and the whole spill seemed even more an indicator that something as wrong. But I'm not going to pry inside a Taco Bell. That's a car conversation at 3am. And no one here is going to let me stay up that long. He asked about Ca but I just shared that she's going home. Makes sense but poor thing. Looks like she has so much on her plate too. I really hope that she will be able to use the flowers and friendship bracelet as anchors during this time.

Something has been weighing on me. Ca hasn't cried and it's making me nervous. There's only so much stress a person can take without crying. I don't want her to be in pain but crying would at least maybe release that stress. I worry if it's not tears and companionship what she's doing to cope with all of this. So much happened in two days. Three. Maybe I can express my worry and offer something when we meet up. Hopefully. I want Ca to be happy

((Complete side note but new high score of Candy Crush UNLOCKED))

I know it's lame but it relaxes me. And apparently G too? At least he seemed to be enjoying watching me play. Probably just zoned out. It was weird though. Maybe I zoned out? Maybe I just had too much caffeine. But I could have sworn as I was thinking about Cr and G that the abyss tried to comfort me. That everything would be okay even if they both had things to talk about eventually. I caught Cr's eye and he gave me The Look. So that part was true. I can only hope the rest is too.

But I'm used to these gut feelings. Used to either the bad timing of premonitions or a something. But I felt something over my shoulder and thought I saw...a jaguar?

Obviously nothing was there....from what I could see,,when I turned around. But I think.....It might have been Tezcatlipoca? It felt like a Nahuatl. It felt...comforting. It's the feeling of being understood and seen. I haven't had much of a moment alone. But.....maybe I can reach out. Tomorrow? After class? Toxcatl is his ceremony after all. I would think he would maybe have answers. Maybe. At least maybe know why R would be trying to do this. It doesn't track.

R might be whatever she is but she loves this town. Causing a type of destruction doesn't make sense. I'm missing something. Or maybe it's the new her. She's different but I suppose I am too.

Maybe G and Cr aren't the only ones who feel like bad things should happen to them. I know I didn't fight back for half a decade. Is it possible R feels like....no. I'm projecting. I clearly am sleep deprived.

Which explains why when Cr started our usual BS I hid behind G. It was fun though. Seeing everyone square up jointly and pick pairs. And when Ji just was so honest about fighting skills..? I don't know. It's the happiest I've felt in a while.

Which made it more devastating seeing Ir tear up. And it's a look I know well. The look of being lost around things that should be familiar. Of having words but no meaning. We went out and talked about it. Hugged and just took comfort. I still had a dried rose on me. So I gifted it to them. I respect them so much. The amount of power and magic under their skin and knowing it must be used responsibly. Not that the others are irresponsible but they're new to this. New to their skins and the abyss being so close. The thinness of the veil. Ir understands and is like me. Opposite banks of the same river. Ir IS nature and nature aids me to push out my will. Once we both settled and went back inside though we all split up.

Cr went with N again. And I miss him so much. I wanted nothing more except to bring him home with me. I don't know. I don't know anything I guess. We'll talk soon and everything will be okay.

And G drove Pablo. Except Pablo was being weird. I think I know why. I think Ca might have been pulling a little prank. It felt like a little poltergeist and she's the only one with that kind of mischief. Which....considering the flickers and lights is a little funny. I mean to be fair if I could do it I would too.

But home was home. Convinced G that walking home alone was not an option with Nahuatl's around. And thankfully had the pjs to accommodate the people. And G...I saw G and just. It was surprising but not....I think he thought I was going to run. To scream. To be scared. But if anything it's just proof that I want to stay more. I wasn't any more gruesome than what I willingly watch on screen. And it's G. It almost broke my heart seeing how he thought I would....I don't know. But it didn't scare me. I just...I don't know how to convince him I'm not leaving? That he deserves someone in his corner. And if his heart is missing...I have one we can share. Even as just his normal or his friend. Even if I want more it's not...a requirement for that. I can eventually learn to love him how I do Cr.

I don't remember much after that. I remember promising Ir in my haze of fascination. A silly thing on my end when I don't know what they do or don't like to eat. Not that my pride didn't take a hit when they didn't like my food. I should have taken some empanadas from Abuela. Those are sweeter.

What I do remember clearly before finding out that I need to diversify my cooking was seeing G tear. I never want to feel so helpless again. All this power under my skin but I couldn't stop my...-...G from hurting. From crying. Crawling in next to him and offering a hug was the least I could do. Holding him close while he explained and just....Ca having that and meeting up with R. It feels bad but Ca wouldn't hurt G. Not willingly. I believe that in my bones.

But it sure doesn't look good.

And It mentioned some things. Things that could help. Things I won't write down. And I told them things that I haven't spoken about in years. Things I haven't had the chance to tell Cr yet. Things I will mention. But if Ir needs leverage I can be a crowbar. G shouldn't hurt anymore or put himself in danger. And Cr deserves a life fully lived. I trust Ir won't sign me up for what I can't handle. If the truth or using me as a bargaining chip can get us closer to Cr being free. I'll do anything. Through heaven, purgatory, and all levels of hell and back. Anything for him.

P. S. Mom likes Ir...maybe there's hope for G? Maybe Abuela talked to her? Here's to hoping

[idk-i-just-really-like-tsc]

whereeeeeeeeee are trailers let me see my friendssssssss

[inkskinned]

having good & true friends will literally save and protect you in a million unfathomable ways. like okay we have written so many times about lovers. but the way a platonic friend laughs and cries with you. the way they hold your hand at 14 years old and at 34. the way they keep a little silver tie to you, touching base over and over and over. how you can go years without talking, only to re-meet and discover: oh shit! you're still cool!

there are people who have been in my life for more than half of it, and i have loved every version of them. do you know how fucking beautiful that is. yeah love will save the world. but the way friends love you is gonna save the you.

[pumpkin-toast]

when this movie comes out i might actually die.

[xxplastic-cubexx]

[right to left]

STILL thinking about drunk chess actually

stupid as hell bonus:

[betweenbooksandmoths]

I JUST LOOKED OUT MY WINDOW WHAT THE FUCK

[mashmouths]

does anyone know how to stop the body from keeping score? i have shit to do

[egophiliac]

finally got some time to finish these guys up! which is sort of ironic considering I started these because I wanted to draw Malleus with a Dragapult, and then I just didn't for a million years!

Malleus has the aforementioned Dragapult, except it's a super special non-canon color Dragapult (like an anime-only form that you could get in-game exclusively through some limited-time event where you have to show up in-person at a specific location in Japan) (it has some wacky overpowered exclusive move/form and the OT is listed as Malleus) (so like that kind of ridiculous specialness) (Leona is extremely salty about this). also hoards and hoards of Dreepy. Dreepy LOVE Malleus. they take naps on his horns inbetween begging him to throw them across the island at mach speeds.

Lilia has a Drampa and a bunch of Woobat that he hasn't actually caught, they just follow him around in swarms because they sense a kinship with him. (also breaking my own rule again to say that he had a Mawile in the past, because...I just really wanted to give him a Mawile...)

Sebek has Sandile for obvious reasons, and also a Pikachu that bullies him relentlessly. :(

Silver has a shiny Corvisquire; I really went back-and-forth on also giving him an Aegislash, but...hm. those pokedex entries though. he can stick with just one for now.

(I hadn't planned on the shiny for him, but after I'd decided on the Corvisquire line and was looking it up for reference, I realized that shiny Rookidee is gold and then turns silver when it evolves and I lost my entire goddamn mind)

[checkadii]

too lazy to grab a ref whatever girl

[theoldkyokodied]

[Hi Dennis. How was the lion feeding?...?]

This has been something I've been working on for quite a while now, as some people who look at my insta story might know, but I'm finally done!! those text messages from s14ep5 are so unhinged, they haunt me every goddamn day. To drop "i love you so much" just to follow it with what essentially is a "no homo.. for u... even tho u r so hot and i like you so much!". exploading them with my mind into a million pieces, okay?

[bacchuschucklefuck]

class swap design masterpost for convenience (from top to bottom: bard!riz, cleric!gorgug, sorcerer!kristen, barbarian!fig, artificer!adaine, and rogue!fabian)

[bixels]

Posting a sneak-peak of this now because I'm about to be In The Shit school workload-wise, so this'll take me a while to finish.

Doing some character design exploration/expression sheets for Celestia and Luna. Figuring out Celestia's weird ass anatomy while I'm at it.