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Lost Cause.
Pairing: Vasco/Euntae Lee x F!Reader
Summary: Dense Vasco. That's it.
Genre/Trope: Comedy, fluff, slow fucking burn, hopeless romantic x oblivious.
Details: 1.6k words, non established relationship/crush, tomboy!reader, reader are childhood friends with Mary and Vin Jin.
A/n: That one blogger was right. Vasco not getting a oneshot is a crime. I hope this answer anyone's prayer. As always I don't do requests.
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âWhat do you want?â Jace crossed his arms over his chest, blocking your path. You scoffed, âOut of the way, monkey. I need to talk to Vasco.â You simply pushed his big head out of the way as he yelped. âHey!â As you marched forward he follows behind. âStop! In the name of justice!â
Ignoring him, you keep a calming pace towards the leader of Burn Knuckles with Jace still hot on your tail. âOi! What business to you have with him?â Again you spare no reply. âWhat's that on your hand? Show me!â
âJace!â Mary emerged in front of him. Giving him a good view of her 'mountains'. He clicked his tongue in frustration, âNot now, Mary. I'm busy.â âI know. We can be busy together.â She grinned, playfully pulling on his ear while giving you a knowing side glance. Allowing you to continue your objective.
You approached Vasco, slowly pulling out the item from your back.
âVasco! Look out!â Jace warned as he slid to the side from Mary and leaped forward. Your eyes widened at the sudden attack, causing you to miss your footing. The box opened on its own mid air cinematically in slow motion over Vasco's face.
Pause. So Let's recap.
You have a crush Vasco. It just came over you. It's a silly crush, you thought to yourself. It's a never ending phase, though the sooner you start to realise that you're actually turning whipped for this buffoon. You told no one at first, thinking it's a piece of cake to confess your feelings by asking him to a simple hangout. But to your utter disappointment, you often stammer your ass out and shift on your spot like an idiot. Deciding that it's officially an issue you need to overcome, you went to your best friends for help.
You learnt two things that day. One, never talk about your feelings. Two, never talk about your feelings to Vin Jin. Because you can always guarantee another two things to happen from him if you do. That is he will laugh right at your face and mock you after. Stuff like quote unquote âkilling two birds with one stoneâ. But no, this is killing one bird with two stones.
To be fair you blamed it on yourself. You should know his antics by now and in the end you pay the prize. You hardly took it personally. At first. Other side of you thought he was right. You, having a crush on the Burn Knuckleâs leader? That airhead out of all people. Vin Jinâs word, not yours. Mary was considerate enough to beat his ass as for you. But you don't deny the fact. Crushes are stupid. However, the constant teasing never goes unpunished by you because it's starting to actually get on your fucking nerves.
Your fist left a transparent smoke after feeding Vin one of your tasty punches as he lays there flat on his back. His face left a visible outline of your knuckles.
Mary crouched down, âWow, that's gotta leave a mark.â
âNo shit.â Vin choked. âWhat the hell? Are you on your period or somethinâ?â
You sneered, slowing the smoke off your fist. âNah. You got a bug on your face.â Vin scoffed back. Immediately after that Mary turned to you. âSo any luck with your future husband?â
At the mention of the topic your shoulders slumped, âNoâŠâ Mary stood back up, now facing you. âWhy? Just tell him right to his face. What's the worst gonna happen?â Before you could even answer, she clinged her arm around yours, âCâmon, let's go! I wanna see Jace.â and dragged you away from the classroom, leaving Vin behind. âOi.â
âCan you quit it?â Jace sighed but took no action regarding Mary pulling with his huge ears. âNah.â
Meanwhile, you are gaining your courage for your operation to confess your feelings to Vasco. He was first to greet you, pausing his dumbbells mid air like they weight nothing. âHey, (Name).â
âHey.â You said casually. âWhat's up?â or better yet awkwardly. You hardly remember the rest of the conversation after that. Three easy words, that's it. That's literally it. Yet it felt harder than pulling your punches.
â(Name) like Vasco?â Mary nodded. Jace added, âDamn.â
You cleared your throat, âListen, I got something to tell you. It's important. Sort of.â
He sets down the dumbbells, now fully have his attention on yours, âWhat is it?â
At the same time Jace and Mary continue to observe both of you.
âShe gonna say it? She better said it. How hard can it be?â All the sudden Jace seem to root for you.
âListen.â You exhaled, fisted formed on your sides. âIâŠI like you.â
Vasco pulled a small grin, âReally? Ah, that's good. I like you too.â
âR-really?â
He nodded, âOf course. Why wouldn't I? We're friends aren't we?â
We're friends aren't we?
Friends aren't we?
Friends we.
Friends.
Both Mary and Jace winced. The word seems to echo even they can feel it.
It was until then the news spread quickly to Vinâs ear. He bursted into laughter while pointing at you. âNo fucking way! He fucking said that?!â
You and Mary immediately shut him the fuck up with your own fists.
You sulked in the corner as Mary sighed, âWell, that's that. He's a lost cause.â
âThat's not his fault! He's just slow.â You bit your knuckles, crying comically. You then stop abruptly once an idea hits you. âI know! I'mma just dress it.â
She cocked her brow, âDress what?â You pulled a condescending grin, âDress to impress that's what.â
Shrugging to your idea, you later found yourself wearing a decent attire with a bouquet of flowers in your hand. Only for your knees to tremble out of nervousness. Again.
âYou suck, (Name).â Mary deadpanned.
âDon't I know that already?!â You barked. You inhaled then stood up straight. âI can do this!â
âYou can do this!â She cheered, raising one leg up.
Again you found yourself pacing away from the reserved place to meet Vasco. âI can't do this.â âHey!â Mary exclaimed. This time she didn't follow you. Vin joined her, âWell that's a bummer- ugh!â He clenched his gut at Mary's brief elbow blow.
Your snickers scratched lazily on the concrete. You tossed the bouquet into the nearest trash bin. Your mind starts to pondered the irony of the male species' difficulty to ask a woman out. Even to spare even the smallest amount of their confession and it baffles you greatly. You know that this isn't your first rodeo. Even in elementary and middle school you failed the subject of love. You tried. You really tried. But they often claimed you as scary or that âgirls can't act like boys, it's unattractiveâ. And although those words seem to do a number on you, it wasn't enough to change you entirely. Instead you embraced it and endure your crushes in silence.
You groaned and yelled to the sky, âAll this because I like a fucking boy!!â
The birds gawked upon you, basically mocking you.
âShut up!â You barked back, sitting down on one of the swings. Your shoulder slumped once more before you started swinging slowly.
â(Name)!â
You almost fly from your seat by the booming voice. You turned over your shoulder. âV-Vasco! Hey, man. My dude.â You stood up, clearing your throat and shoot him finger guns. âWhat...are you doing here?â
âI came to see you.â Vasco scratched his head and handed you a small card. âYou dropped this. It has your name on it.â
You took it from him and read it through. You froze once you realise this is your card that comes with the flowers that you planned to give it to him. You decided to just brush it off subtly while trying to hide your disappointment, âOh thanks. Nearly lost thisâŠâ
âGlad to help. Don't want that person to think it's from anyone else but you.â You couldn't help but smile at his words. You love that he's considerate. The size of his golden heart is what makes you fall for him. Too bad he's just too dense to see it. And come to think of it, maybe it wasn't too bad. You are grateful enough to be able to stand this close to talk to him. It was better to just shoot your shot and go the flow.
âHey.â You started, more loosely this time. âAre you hungry? Maybe you and I can hit the ramen shop like right now? My treat.â
He blinked before beaming with joy at the mention of food. âWould I?â
Now that part settles it, you can now confirm that you and VascoâŠare no close to being a couple, sadly. But you actually didn't complain. Although shutting Vin up is a hassle, you still get to see Vasco more often. Giving him your homemade goods is one of them.
âVasco! Look out!â Jace warned as he slid to the side from Mary and leaped forward. Your eyes widened at the sudden attack, causing you to miss your footing. The box opened on its own mid air cinematically as they fell right on Vasco's face.
âShit! Vasco!â Jace stood back up, you followed suit, pushing pass him with roughly.
âVasco! I am so sorry!â You carefully pulled the tupperware off Vascoâs face to see how much damage have you done.
And to your relieve, barely.
âMm! Strawberry. Did you make these?â Vasco licked the cream cake from his cheek.
You blinked twice before nodding, âUh, yeah. Of course. Sorry about that." You reached for your handkerchief to wipe the mess off of him.
Jace watched in disbelief. âWhat? It's not a bomb?â Your neck cracked, turning to give Jace a death glare, veins popping on your forehead. âBomb? What expired milk did you drink today?â
âDo you have more?â Vasco licked his finger.
You turn back with a happy grin, âOf course! I'll go get it right now.â You sprint away from the scene, not forgetting to give Jace a threatening gaze as he shivers with fear.
During lunch break Vasco devour your desserts like a starving man. Jace watched with anticipation as he spoke, âYou know (Name) likes you right?â
Vasco nodded with mouthful, âYeah! I like her too.â
âNo, as in she like like you. She has a romantic crush on you, Vasco.â Jace corrected himself. Vasco paused mid chew as he processed the news.
âHuh?!â Food spat out of his mouth.
#dood writes!#lookism x reader#lookism#lookism fic#lookism x you#vasco#euntae lee#vasco x reader#euntae lee x reader#lookism vasco#lookism euntae lee#lookism manhwa#lookism webtoon#webtoon#manhwa#lookism fanfic#lookism imagine#fanfics#imagines#my writing#oneshot#vin jin#jace park#mary kim
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so Rangiku's Bankai is named Haineko Asama, and since Haineko means "ash cat" and Mount Asama is a volcano in Japan, does that mean her Bankai can create a pyroclastic cloud? Or does "asama" mean something else in this context?
Got in in one!
Haineko: Asama is a Bankai that creates a Vesuvius-like eruption of 1,000 °C (1,800 °F) Hot Gases and Burning Tephra and a REALLY FUCKING LOUD KABOOM. The Pyroclastic cloud can travel up to 430mph and destroys everything in it's path- opponents closer to the epicenter are the luckier ones- the sheer kinetic energy for the explosion incinerates them immediately. Those farther away may find their bodies punctured with molten shrapnel, crushed by flying boulders, or suffocated and cooked alive as they are encased in ash like the victims of Vesuvius.
It's not an easy Bankai- the energy output is catastrophic, and the longer the 'Eruption' goes on, the greater Rangiku's risk of falling into a coma or straight-up dying from expending too much energy increases. It's also not an easy Bankai to train- For a while, Rangiku wasn't 'wielding' her Bankai so much as just 'releasing' it and learning about the damage when she woke up a week later.
In the end, the ONLY person who could help her with training Asama was Yamamoto himself, because of his Literally Divine resistance to fire, and a millennium's worth of practice at dodging to deal with the rocks and ash. He had to take her out to the ass-end of nowhere in South 80 to find somewhere deserted enough to practice without mass causalities, and the practice STILL effected the weather in the rest of Soul Society. He still spent almost a month in the 4th after they returned from The Year With No Summer, getting the burns, lung damage and broken bones treated, while he waited for his pupil to wake up again.
Yamamoto is now Very Fond of Rangiku because she's the first person in a LONG time that proved to be an actual challenge for him as an opponent, was an interesting student to teach and the first person to even begin to comprehend the problems he faces as an Avatar of Destruction.
Like most Volcanoes, Rangiku spends a lot of time sleeping. Nobody who knows what she's capable of when she 'awakens' complains about her nap schedule.
#AEIWAM#An Elephant Is Warm And Mushy#Bleach#bleach fanfiction#rangiku matsumoto#Haineko#I feel like she should be allowed to go the fuck off at people you know?#See Also: Elemental Typing solidarity in the Gotei 13
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I genuinely believe the fact that so many popular Imogen/Laudna fics are no-powers AU is, if not the main cause, at least a factor in why so many people resist or even are hostile towards any interpretation of Imogen that isn't largely sweet and harmless. Like, write the fic you want, but Imogen in particular is someone so fundamentally shaped by her powers that to write a no powers AU is to write what is essentially a completely original character who happens to share her name.
I think it's made even more obviously a factor because many of those fics try to reconstruct aspects of Imogen's personality by giving her anxiety or agoraphobia (or both) but the problem is that those are purely mental illnesses, rather than something that both gives her powers and penalties (again, the X-Men problem). Some real-world mental illnesses cover the symptoms of Imogen's abilities, but none cover the abilities themselves. It's quite literally a removal of agency: they take away what she can (and frequently does) do with her powers, leaving only the negative effects on her behind while eliminating the negative effects she can have on others. No wonder there's this overwhelming push to woobify her from that corner; they've utterly defanged her and are now crying that other people who can still see her fangs (and even like them) are talking about them.
And the thing is, for all I can be negative about fanon, it is, ultimately, fine - so long one can either keep it separate in one's mind from canon or else remain in a particular fanon sandbox. But unfortunately people leave the sandbox, and when other people respond to the canon Imogen, who as of episode 81 (RIP CRStats) has voluntarily used Detect Thoughts/Open Mind 60 times and has openly stated her intent to use it specifically to know what her party members are doing in advance and theoretically prevent it, the fanfic crowd is utterly unable to react to this intelligently. The idea of Imogen they have is sweet girl with severe anxiety and a goth girlfriend. The problem is this construct exists only in their favorite fanfic writers' domestic fluff modern AU no powers setting. And frankly, I'm not interested in talking about that warped mirror version of her when I could have all the fascination, complexity, glory, and agency of the real thing.
#i also think that turning imogen's issues into specifically mental health only is for lack of a better term Not Great.#i remember when she took off the circlet people on twitter compared it to her going off her meds as like. a sympathy thing.#and. while obviously the psychiatric field is not without many flaws and prejudices. generally going off meds is. not a good sign.#i will say i would love to see the no-circlet au in which imogen stops ashton. i don't think that goes well at ALL.#like i don't know if they stick around after that.#cr tag#anyway been thinking about the role of fanfic a lot lately in case you couldn't tell#we are finally admitting the importance of They Would Not Fucking Say That and should embrace it#and i'm obviously thinking quite a lot about the book i just posted about a lot too#it is depressing that people are more comfortable with Girlfailure than Selfish#that a woman is only allowed memeable and sanitized quirky faults. GOD FORBID she want actual power.#(were i to be called selfish by someone i respect i'd feel bad but talk through it. girlfailure though? i'm stabbing them.)
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being so incredibly sick and not being able to take time off work is actually the most draining thing i have so much guilt about getting other people sick and so much frustration because the entire reason IM sick is because nobody else is allowed to take off work either iâm so sick of this
#like my coworker had the flu last friday and wasnât allowed to call off she tried and my boss made her come lmdao#i wouldâve gone the fuck back to sleep and ignored her call but#god#iâm so annoyed#if i have a 103 fever at work all day on friday the first thing yoh say to me about it#should not fucking be#âyou better rest all weekend so youâre good to go by monday#like#my boss was saying how it was unfortunate she didnât know i felt so bad#WHY WOULD I EVER FEEL COMFORTABLE TELLING YOU THAT J DID??????#sheâs the most non empathetic person in the world like#one of those people who will compare every little ailment yoh have to her own life#so of course when i got in trouble for wearing my winter coat inside because of the chills#she was like#iâve been cold all week and i didnât wear my jacket!#FUCK OFF#none of this even makes sense iâm just rantinf
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please pick friends u can argue or have misunderstandings with and actually communicate with immediately after like, itâs so fucking important
#like if anything Iâve learned the last couple years is fucking communicate#like actually#my family isn't really big on it and that's probably part of the reason I started writing so young#tried to break that with my niece and was mostly successful we fight but can actually discuss and work things out and talk#I always have encouraged her to express her damn feelings because my stereotypical scorpio sister is in there too so I had to drag it out#and I can be the same itâs hard for me but I try harder now than before#Iâm always honest with myself but expression is hard I get it#like we fought the other day and when she came home l expected her to just go in her room#and she just stood there and looked at me like well??? like that one meme haha#and we talked instead#gotta break those generational curses man#but yeah holding people accountable and calling them out is needed sometimes and also apologizing and talking it the fuck out#even if it sucksâŠ.do it#set boundaries and u allow what u allow#Iâm at the point of my life I just wonât tolerate certain things and thatâs valid but also without communication#youâre not moving either way with clarity and clarity is everything#itâs ok to move on from any kind of relationship but were u honest first? was there clarity#and if nothing changes or you canât find peace you can move on and compartmentalize that loss better because u tried first#I get some reasons donât warrant any of that but overall#but yeah I do word things like a straight up bitch sometimes and yes u should tell me hahah#can piss eachother off and misunderstand eachother#but thereâs paragraphs coming and thatâs the important bit#Iâm still learning but better than I was
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this is gonna sound incredibly virtue signal-y i fear but i have been feeling. so fiercely protective of all the transfems i've ever met lately
#marzi speaks#I PROMISE I'M NOT TRYING TO EARN GOOD BOY POINTS HOLD ON LET ME. EXPLAIN MYSELF HERE#obvs we're in kinda a tense political climate rn#and i'm noticing trends have been getting . increasingly misogynistic lately?#in like . a subtle but for sure still noticeable way#and women are being dismissed and all this awful shit#and ppl are going. completely mask off about it when the woman happens to be a trans gender#and it reminds me of when i was a little girl. and how my mom spent so much time in my childhood#training me to not stand for and take misogynistic bullshit from anyone. and to defend other women too#she taught me to assert myself in professional or academic environments. she taught me to stand proud and take up physical space#once as a kid my great uncle (who's always been a nut) didn't let me come on a fishing trip because i was a girl#when i came to my mom crying about it because i loved boats and fishing and my family she just about murdered him. completely tore into him#my whole life my mom has been there to tell me that people will try to put me down. they will try to overlook me or dismiss me#or make me feel smaller. and if i dare to get too confident i'll be labeled bossy or a bitch#and that no matter what i do i cannot let those pieces of shit win. i cannot let that stop me#and that i'd have to fight so fucking hard for it my whole life and it won't be fair but i will do it because i have no other option#and i'm seeing a lot of transfems having to navigate that now too#but they didn't get the privilege of being trained in this since day 1. they have to figure it out on their own#and the demonization right now is so strong that a single misstep can be. so dangerous#and it makes me so mad. all of that built up anger from every time i've had to learn how to not take misogynistic bullshit comes to a boil#the little girl scout in my brain who grew up forcing people to see that a girl can do whatever the fuck she wants fuck you is ACTIVE rn#she's angry. she's so angry. because she's seeing the same bullshit she dealt with in middle school being repeated again#anyways. transfems. i love you so much. you deserve so much fucking better.#i hope you can safely advocate for yourself. until then i will fucking yell and scream from the rooftops because this shit is so unfair#you should be allowed to succeed and you should be allowed to fail. and you should be allowed to take up as much goddamn space as you want#and wear whatever the hell you want. transfems i love you and i am so so angry on your behalf. modern feminism has failed you#and i am going to kill someone over it#remember to be loudly and unapologetically yourself as much as you safely can. do not let them crush your spirit
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ykw actually I am angry + disappointed w them. I've been pushing how I feel aside and trying to make it my own fault so it's all contained but I think theyve just been mean. and they really should know me better ik I try to pretend I don't expect more from them so I feel less hurt when they do things that upset me but we've been friends for years by this point. like come on.
#just got home and went to put my shit away but my flatmate was in the kitchen and i got suddenly so mad i had to walk back out#not going to do or say anything while im this upset. i need to be a lot calmer before i can even be in the same room as her#like okay. so originally it was just the two of them getting drinks and theyd rather it was just them bc i dont drink. thats cool#it wouldve been difficult for me to join them after work bc travel. and ik theyd done this before just the 2 of them and had fun#i can fully respect that its why i said no and stuck by that decision when she asked again#but to not mention she was taking the day off work and btw i just found out that BOTH of our other old flatmates joined in too#to not mention that they were travelling that entire distance and that it wasnt just drinks it was a whole day out together#thats just mean. why wouldnt you tell me that why did none of them say anything.#and the fact they did the exact same fucking thing last weekend too i didnt know about that at all#like i need to stop trying to justify it. im allowed to feel unwanted and excluded bc thats exactly what theyre doing.#im tired of feeling like other people dont want me around. i know i can be difficult and annoying sometimes. but im really not that bad#and we're meant to be friends!!!!!! like youre supposed to like your friends. and want to spend time with them. or at least i do#and yeah everyones annoying sometimes thats just part of being alive ur supposed to tolerate it if ur friends#im allowed to want to feel like im wanted. im allowed to want ppl to care abt me. that shouldnt be too much to ask for#but the overwhelming message im getting at the moment is they dont want me around. and when i am around them i feel like they dont listen#to me and that they dont really care how i feel unless it directly involves them or theyre responsible for it#i feel like they dont see me as a real person that exists. only a version they have in their heads and they base all their assumptions and#decisions off that version instead of directly communicating with me. and constantly avoid me under the guise of 'giving me space'#when im upset or having a difficult time and most need support from other people. i just feel really unseen#and ik that part of how i feel IS exacerbated by insecurity and depression. like they do care to some degree#but also a lot of it is evidenced in the way they act towards me. mainly my roommate bc shes the person i interact with most#and personally i find the most direct ways of showing u care abt someone are showing up for them. and making them feel seen#and maybe not everyone feels the same way. but thats how it works for me anyway#so to repeatedly exclude me and avoid acknowledging that ive been having a difficult time is the opposite of that to me#which is the point im trying to arrive at... sorry ik ive probably said similar things repeatedly the last few weeks but i feel like its#crystallising a bit like this is the core reason why im so sensitive and reactive atm and why i got so upset by it#idk. not tonight bc im still very emotionally raw but maybe tomorrow if im calmer i should explain that i was upset + why to her#i avoid doing that so often when im upset bc i dont think theres much point in having a conversation abt it unless u expect some kind of#resolution from it. or if you want an apology but idrc abt being apologised to the crucial thing is what theyre going to do different#and i love her but shes very resistant to changing her behaviour bc of other ppl being upset by it. and like i said before she has
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as a 21 woman who constantly gets told that she could pass as a 15 yr old i understand claudia from interview with a vampire on a deep personal level
#âyouâre 21??? i thought you were at most 17â kys#someone today asked me if children had off from school cuz she had seen so many around HOW WOULD I KNOW#I HAVENT BEEN IN HIGH SCHOOL IN THREE YEARS#itâs LITERALLY every day too like genuinely i hear this every fucking day#and then i have to laugh and pretend to be happy when they say âoh youâre going to feel so lucky when youâre 40â#i should be allowed to kill and eat people#chicken scratch
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drunken confessions
Theodore Nott x FemRavenclaw!Reader
Summary: Theo drinks a little bit more than he should....
Warnings: Drinking, No use of Y/N, Only mentions being in Ravenclaw once, and very cute???
Word Count: 1.6K
Note: Long time no see, my loves! I took a really long hiatus abruptly because life was kicking my ass badly. I decided that my first fic back should be a Theo fluff because who would I be if I didn't give this boy all of my attention? I hope you guys all enjoy it.
Banners by @cafekitsune
Music boomed through the Slytherin common room as you tried to navigate the sweaty bodies and screaming teens. You were trying to find Theodore, the person who had invited you. It was a celebratory party for Slytherin winning the quidditch game against Hufflepuff. You were in the Ravenclaw house but are good friends with many people in Slytherin.
"Oy," Draco pulled you to the side, "Looking for Theo?"
"Yeah, you've seen him?" you asked, gripping his arm so no one could separate you both. Draco nodded, pulling you to a separate room where Pansy, Daphne, Blaise, Enzo, Mattheo, and Theo sat.
"Finally, you're here." Daphne pulled you in for a hug, whispering in your ear, "Drunk pants over there have been asking about you for the past hour."
You glanced over at Theo, who was very drunk. "He never drinks this much." You whispered back to Daphne. She shrugged. "He caught the stitch. Winner of the game tonight."
You nodded, walking over to Theo and sitting next to him. He immediately grinned and wrapped his arms around your waist. "I've been waiting for you all night," Theo said, speaking slowly so his words didn't get slurred.
"I'm sorry. Why'd you drink so much without me?" You asked, tapping softly on his wrist. "I didn't mean to." Theo said, "Won the game, so people had given me a bunch of drinks."
You nodded, allowing Theo to go back to being the life of the party. Enzo sat down next to you, to keep you company as the party continued.
"So, what's your excuse for not being at the game tonight?" Enzo asked.
"That project for Transfiguration. My partner is an idiot who waited last minute to do his part, so I had to help him. I feel bad for missing it." You said, taking a sip of your water.
"Theo was upset that you weren't there. Probably what motivated him to win the game. That boy is obsessed with you," Enzo said, nudging you. You cleared your throat, feeling a sudden sense of nervousness. "We're just friends, Enzo."
"For now." Enzo wiggled his eyebrows. You laughed at him, rolling your eyes.
Did you like Theo? Yeah, but you didn't think he would like you back. He had a lot of girls on him and he could choose any of them. You were so wrapped in your mind and your conversation that you didn't notice that Theo had wandered off until you heard your name being called.
"Take Theo back to his dorm, please!" Blaise pleaded as he and Mattheo held a nearly blacked-out Theo up. You hopped up, grabbing Theo from them.
"Oh, hey, pretty girl." Theo drunkenly grinned at you. You smiled back. "You should've stopped drinking, Teddy."
"Really should've." Mattheo agreed. "You know where his dorm is. Don't worry about cleaning up down here, we got it."
You nodded, saying your goodbyes to everyone before walking upstairs to Theo's room.
"Pretty girl." Theo dragged out the pet name. "Your hair is so soft."
"Thanks, Teddy." You opened the door to his room, switched on the lights, and put him on the bed.
"Come on, let's get you in pajamas." You tapped his nose lightly, making him smile at you.
"You're so pretty, pretty girl. That's why I call you 'pretty girl' because you're so fucking pretty. Sometimes I think you're otherworldly because of it," Theo gushed, falling back on his bed. You felt your heartbeat pick up as the compliments flowed from Theo's mouth.
"Thank you, Theo. Here, put this shirt on." You handed the shirt to Theo, who shook his head no. "I like to be shirtless."
Theo pulled his shirt over his head and threw it in the hamper. You tried your best not to stare at his chest before handing him a pair of pants.
"You're taking good care of me, pretty girl. I wish you could always take care of me. Merlin, I love you so much." Theo spoke again. You felt your eyes widen as you looked at him. "What?" You said softly.
"I love you like I'm so in love with you. I just want to be with you all the time." Theo continued. You cleared your throat, pushing him under the covers. Theo was clearly saying anything to you because he was drunk. If Pansy or Daphne were here, he would probably say the same thing. You forced yourself to repeat that to yourself repeatedly so you could believe it.
"Get some sleep, Theo, goodnight." You switched off his light as you swung his door open. "Goodnight, my pretty girl. I love you." Theo said.
You quickly shut the door, taking a deep breath to calm yourself. You didn't know how to interpret what had just happened. Theo admitted to being in love with you. Or did he? He was drunk, so he probably wasn't serious. Yeah, he was drunk. You took a deep breath before making your way back downstairs.
Mattheo saw you hurry down the stairs and raised his eyebrow at you, "You good? Is Theo okay?"
"Yeah, he's fine. I'm just gonna go back to my dorm," You said. Mattheo eyed you, "What happened?"
"What? Why would anything happen?" You asked, diverting your eyes anywhere but to Mattheo's.
"..."
You sighed, glancing down at your feet, "Theo said he was in love with me."
The room froze as everyone turned their heads to look at you. Suddenly, you felt tiny. "What? Why are you guys staring at me like that?" You asked.
"Nothing! It's just...." Daphne glanced at everyone, "We didn't expect Theo to confess that when he was drunk."
"Yeah, I had galleons on an angry confession followed by an angry, passionate kiss," Draco said, causing Pansy to hit him in the arm.
You blinked. Confess? Confess as in.... he's been holding this in for a long time?
"Wait, so he's telling the truth, and you all knew it?" You asked. Everyone made noises in agreement.
"I mean, everyone can see how head over heels he is for you. You were the only one denying it." Blaise said. Your face felt hot, and you shook your head, "I'm going to my dorm."
Everyone laughed, bidding you goodbye.
Theo woke up the next day with a terrible headache.
"Ahh, there's our champion." Blaise's teasing voice caused Theo to groan.
"Why would I ever drink that much?" Theo asked, mainly to himself. Enzo laughed, setting a cup of water and some medicine on Theo's bedside. "I don't know, but it was quite entertaining to see you get taken care of by your pretty girl." Enzo's voice was teasing and light.
Theo's face immediately heated at the idea of acting like a fool in front of you. "Did I do something stupid in front of her?"
Blaise and Enzo shared a look before shrugging. Theo looked at both of them. "What? What did I do? Oh, Merlin, tell me I didn't embarrass myself."
"I wouldn't say you embarrassed yourself," Blaise said.
"But sober Theo definitely wouldn't have confessed to her that he's in love with her," Enzo said.
It took Theo a moment to realize what Enzo had said before his face turned completely red in shame and embarrassment.
"I told her I was in love with her?" Theo groaned loudly. That was not how he pictured confessing to you. Well, he never pictured confessing his feelings to you because he was scared and had no intentions of doing it.
"It's a good thing, don't you think? I mean, she finally knows." Blaise said, "Although she might need some convincing because she thinks you only said it because you were drunk and probably didn't mean it."
Theo hopped out of his bed, finding the nearest t-shirt before slipping on his shoes. He had already confessed how he felt and if it's already out there, there's no point in hiding it.
Theo spirited to your dorm, not muttering a good morning to anyone as he pushed past them. Finally, he got to your dorm and banged on it until he heard your feet shuffling.
"Teddy?" You asked groggily before focusing your eyes on the out-of-breath and frizzled Theo in front of you, "What the hell happened to you?"
"I meant it."
"What?"
There was silence between you two. He knew you knew what he was talking about, so it didn't take long for realization to take over your face.
"I meant it." Theo repeated himself, "Every word I said last night while I was sloppy drunk was true."
"I have been trying to work up the courage to say something about it for the last year or so. Granted, I didn't think it would be while I was drunk."
"How long?" You tilted your head to the side, with a hint of amusement gracing your face.
Theo's face flushed pink, as he knew you were teasing him, as well as being genuinely curious. "Since first year. When I saw you on the train to school."
"You didn't even speak to me until third year."
"I was nervous." Theo let out a breath. "I watched you, though."
You held back a laugh as Theo immediately turned even more red. "That was creepy. I didn't mean it like that! I justâ we've shared a lot of classes andâ I'm going to shut up."
You stood on your tippy toes, kissing Theo's flushed cheeks. "I've had a crush on you since second year."
"Really?"
You nodded, smiling. "So what now?"
"Um, will you go on a date with me? Maybe next weekend after the quidditch game?" Theo asked, feeling more nervous than ever.
"I would love to, " you smiled. And I won't miss this game, I promise."
"I'm holding you to that." Theo smiled back.
You gave Theo another kiss on the cheek. "It's still early. I'll see you later, okay?"
Theo nodded, and you smiled, closing your door. Theo stayed there for a few more seconds until he realized he probably looked crazy for just smiling at your door.
Who knew getting drunk had some perks?
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â ËïœĄâౚà§Ë Spice Up Your Life
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â„ pairing: max verstappen x fem!beckham!model!reader
â„ synopsis: youâre the daughter of victoria and david beckham. ginger spice, aka geri halliwell and the wife of red bull principal was in a pop group with your mom, allowing you to visit the paddock frequently and meet the one and only max verstappen.
â„ smau - fc: isabelle mathers + girls on pinterest - as always none of the pictures are mine <3
â„ warnings: swearing !!!
â„ a/n: ft. a few familiar footballers and no horner
-August 2024-
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ynbeckham home sweet home
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judebellingham iâll let the united kit slide for now
ynbeckham đ©ââ€ïžâđâđš
user7 i need more judeyn content
k.mbappe @/ynbeckham your dad played for madrid too you know
ynbeckham @/k.mbappe yea i know
vinijr damn đ
ynbeckham i love you guys I swear đ«¶
manchesterunited welcome back
ynbeckham letâs start the season strong đȘ
user1 she is her
user6 letâs go man u girlies
user2 stop it why is @/maxverstappen in her likes?
user3 because he has good taste?
user5 iâve seen yn at madrid games sitting next to carlos so maybe max has seen her đ€·ââïž
user7 @/user5 itâs that versainz influence
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ynbeckham madrid
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erling awh she even wore your kit
judebellingham i know đ
user1 bet max wishes she was wearing his number lol
carlossainz55 @/ynbeckham i knew youâd come around eventually
ynbeckham peer pressure
realmadrid @/ynbeckham you love us
ynbeckham @/realmadrid i do đ
user2 i LOVED seeing david & victoria there with yn
user3 right! it was so sweet
user4 the way they were cheering on jude too đ„č
user5 idk anything about the judeyn loreâŠ
user4 @/user5 i gotchu! with davud being who he is yn had immediate connections to the world of football. madrid and united are the two teams most people know him from so yn quickly made friends with a lot of the players like jude!
maxverstappen1 feels like everyone was there except me đ
ynbeckham you didnât miss out on too much but you should totally come down to the pitch one day đ
maxverstappen1 @/ynbeckham maybe i can just invite you over to the paddock this weekend?
ynbeckham @/maxverstappen1 ill check my schedule
user7 SMOOTH
user8 stop it did max just pick up yn in her comment section đ
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You pulled an already opened white envelope from your counter and spoke directly to your phone, which was recording you.
"I'm sure we've all seen the Max comments, everyone was raving about it. What I want to know is... who told her?" you pointed at the camera, sunlight reflecting off of the charms on your nails.
"I got this letter from Geri with a Red Bull paddock pass inside," you stated, pulling the lanyard out of the envelope. You flipped the pass ID over to show the camera up close, "Valid for: All Days."
You stepped back from the camera with a knowing look on your face, putting your hands on your hips.
You tilted your head, "I guess I'll see you in Monza."
â§Ë °. Ęâ âč . ĘË . Ęâ§âË . Ęâ âč . ĘË . ĘË°â§
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user1 she wasnât joking đ sheâs actually in monza
user2 whatever max wants max gets
davidbeckham iâll be in the mercedes garage if you need me x
ynbeckham ok đâïž
redbullracing @/davidbeckham you wonât be joining us?
davidbeckham @/redbullracing maybe iâd join you if i had a valid pass like yn
redbullracing đŹ
user3 THEY DIDNT EVEN GIVE HIM PASSES HAHAHAHDJDJD
user5 no fucking wonder heâs hanging out at mclaren and mercedes đ
user7 gonna need someone out there to record her and max's meeting tbh
gerihalliwell glad to see you put the paddock pass to use! can't wait to see @/victoriabeckham in Vegas <3
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user9 you couldn't get david passes too?
gerihalliwell I got 2 to give away... my hands are tied
user12 double it and give it to the next disgruntled dad
user8 lets go spice girls vegas reunion
user10 if they're gonna make vegas a whole thing we might as well have geri and victoria sing like they did in '97 for the mclaren car launch
user14 the f1 spice girls lore runs so deep
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-Post Race Interview-
âMax how did you feel about your race today?â
âUhm,â he scratched his head. âDefinitely could have done better, the car couldâve been better, but you know congrats to Charles.â
âI saw the Beckhams in the paddock today. How do you feel about Y/n cheering you on in your garage today?â
âIt felt great you know? Iâve always wanted to meet her and her family. Iâve talked to two of the spice girls now so weâre getting close to crossing that off the bucket list.â he laughed.Â
âAlright, thank you Max,â the interviewer said and he walked off.
â§Ë °. Ęâ âč . ĘË . Ęâ§âË . Ęâ âč . ĘË . ĘË°â§
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ynbeckham adorando il mio tempo qui in Italia đźđč @/charlesleclerc congrats on the win, i know tifosi is proud !! @/maxverstappen1 it was truly great to meet you, i hope we run into each other again soon <3
translation: adoring my time here in italy
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redbullracing we were glad to have you in the paddock yn!
ynbeckham thank you so much for having me <3
judebellingham you better invite me next time
redbullracing @/judebellingham iâll try my best tođ«Ą
k.mbappe @/redbullracing if you invite him you have to invite the whole team otherwise itâs just unfair
redbullracing itâs just an inchident
user1 oh and you just know max is shaking right now
charles_leclerc he dropped his phone
maxverstappen1 @/charles_leclerc delete this
user2 seems like max wonât be following charles on insta any time soon
user3 i loved seeing her in the paddock today! i donât think iâve seen her at any events other than for modeling or footy
user5 hopefully sheâll keep coming back
scuderiaferrari tifosi is definitely proud of charles! iâm sure theyâd be happy to see you one day in our garage @/ynbeckham đ
ynbeckham admin đ€
redbullracing @/scuderiaferrari stop trying to steal our new mascot you already have leo and now roscoe
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ynbeckham getting ready for the versace runway
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bellahadid cant wait to see you walk â€ïž
judebellingham still upset I wasnt invited but whatever
k.mbappe yeah get in line
user1 you are SO stunning
maxverstappen1 can't wait to see you
ynbeckham đ«¶
user2 wait a damn minute max is gonna be there?
user3 or does he just mean see her again in general lmao đ
user2 @/user3 why would he mean that?
user3 @/user2 I dunno he posts comments like they're private texts
user7 why are we not freaking out over the heart yn posted
user6 maxyn crumbs
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â§Ë °. Ęâ âč . ĘË . Ęâ§âË . Ęâ âč . ĘË . ĘË°â§
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versace a collection unapologetically positive and authentically Very VersaceâŠ
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ynbeckham it was an absolute honor <3
francisca.cgomes you looked stunning đ
ynbeckham thank you kika đ
user8 the three of them ate the runway up
landonorris hire me next
ynbeckham I think max would make the perfect model đ
landonorris ...
user2 shes whipped for him
user3 is she wrong tho
gigihadid great to see you again Lewis <3 its been a long time
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user7 hang on let them cook
user12 yns dress >>
user5 lewis is completing his side quests rn
judebellingham our girl walked a runway đ„č
vinjir shes all grown up
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yns insta story
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ynbeckham GUESS WHO HAS A DATE
judebellingham it was about time
user1 whoever it is wife her up
carlossainz55 if iâm the date does that mean we get to go to a madrid game
ynbeckham @/carlossainz55 wow using me for clout much
maxverstappen @/ynbeckham @/carlossainz55 couldnât be me
user2 MAX đ
user3 max is putting in the WORK
user5 wait a minute does this mean her date is not max?
user7 wdym?
user5 he didnât like the post and sure he commented but certainly he wouldnât still be trying to put moves on her is they were already going outïżœïżœ
user6 @/user5 you better be lying đ
user10 NO please I need maxyn
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maxverstappen1 a much needed vacation before vegas
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user1 max blink twice if you need help đ°
user2 iâm really starting to lose hope in maxyn
user3 why was he at versace then?
user4 i dunno having the seven time world champ and the two current champ contenders there is good for business maybe?
user5 yn is still going to vegas tho
user6 she could just be going there for her mom and geri
user7 guys..
user10 no please they were just flirting in comments like two days ago
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â§Ë °. Ęâ âč . ĘË . Ęâ§âË . Ęâ âč . ĘË . ĘË°â§
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ynbeckham itâs race weekend! how are we feeling?
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manchesterunited feeling like you abandoned us :/
user10 i canât believe sheâs missing united vs city for this đ
ynbeckham i have to support my man this comment has been deleted
user1 yn we need a vegas vlog đ©
user2 spice girls reunion go crazy in the chat
gigihadid iâll see you again soon <3
ynbeckham <3
judebellingham wish i could be there
ynbeckham call me when your season is over
user3 judeynâŠ
user7 guys what if sheâs dating jude
judebellingham @/user7 i can confidently say sheâs not
user7 @/judebellingham but what if thatâs a cover up đ«Ł
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â§Ë °. Ęâ âč . ĘË . Ęâ§âË . Ęâ âč . ĘË . ĘË°â§
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f1 for the second time in a row max vestappen has won the vegas grand prix
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ynbeckham @/maxverstappen1 iâm so proud of you. love you so much â€ïž
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user3 MAXYN IS REAL
user7 i just dropped my phone
user10 i fell to the ground
user4 this is what weâve been waiting for
user7 congratulations max đ«¶
ynbeckham DU DU DU DU MAX VERSTAPPEN
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maxâs insta story
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francisca.cgomes you two are so cute together đ„č
user1 stop it theyâre so adorable
user2 david is being awfully calm right now lol
alexandrasaintmleux we should double date
ynbeckham weâre so there!
ynbeckham love you so much
maxverstappen1 i love you more
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voguemagazine yn beckham to be on the cover of british vogue
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bellahadid congrats on your first cover iâm so proud đ„č
ynbeckham thank you bella đ«¶
user1 she is SO beautiful
rhode come model for us đ
ynbeckham just say when
user2 your favorite nepo babyâs favorite nepo baby
maxverstappen1 buying every printed issue right now â€ïž
ynbeckham stop im blushing đ€
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bc you have things to say doesn't always mean you needa say them let alone it also doesn't always mean it's your place to say them kwim
#some ppl rlly think they have a little too many rights to decide what's okay for someone to do at what age#like shaming people for what they do with themselves n their bodies in movies in socials in works in their Lives bc age this age that#go touch some grass come back when ur ready to accept u dont have a say on anybody else. not a minor and much less an 18+ person#like that one cancelling attempt over noah liking a video about his own body. or that one scene in wyfstw that had people going like;#':o oh my gawd how can he do this. how is cinema not 24/7 tame and extremely family-friendly always?? he is like 10!' and it's a 20yo#or like millie getting engaged because they're in love and ppl being like but but but she is 19!!!! well. she is also Not You and Not Yours#she and her fiance made a choice to marry. bitch you made a choice to talk and i wasnt complaining when u did it was i#/ like people's choices with who they fall in love with. like people's relationships that very much do Not include you#/ also very important; like shaming sex workers for whatever the fuck ur reason is im about to grab you by the ear and rip it off#NONE of that above and More is there for u to be without anyone even asking u all like Okay here's my veredict- girl No#ur freedom of speech hand it over.jpeg#this other day i saw this thing abt this married couple that met cause he was a 21yo#and she was 18 and she liked him and he knew and was like wanna go out or sum and now years after theyre literally married making a family#and ppl were like sorry but that mortified me i cant be the only one thats so disturbed and girl#i know you aint shaming a happy couple rn because of age difference#people turn their heads and gape like it's illegal when they hear age difference and i think yall getting a little too comfy with judging#people for who they love. for judging what u personally dont understand. if u aint been thru it u literally just dont get it#just using someone else's ongoing relationship to victimise urself get out pls and thanku#like i Know the risk that comes thru age differences no matter how big how small but risks come from many more places than one#grooming is a Very real thing and that doesnt mean you get to stamp it on everything. how about dont throw around serious terms#guilt-tripping an older person and victimising and infantilising a young person both in a relationship they want to be in#when said people aint even /you/ dont make you hero.#then again ppl tend to twist 'younger people need to feel safe' in so many ways but thats another story#like im not gonna get into guilttripping people that want to portray real feelings wants and acts onto fictional characters that make You s#mortified you start throwing Real srs allegations that you should Not be allowed to have in your vocabulary if thats how you gon use them#u Know what im talking about#sense the level of seriousness. try and be conscious of what people go through regarding said dangers#stop pointing fingers at people that have made it so far just because they could have Not made it
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Would you be willing write a Remus fic about that super blue moon that is supposed to be happening?? like maybe itâs so so bad for him and he takes it all out on reader and sheâs really sensitive and you can go from there lol
thatâd be great love but itâs okay if not, thanks!! <3
thanks for the request! decided to make this with our Black!sister reader since we've been having fun with her <3
Remus Lupin x Black!reader who he takes out his Super Blue Moon frustrations on [1.6k words]
CW: Remus was being mean/rude to reader but we don't really see the angst... just the consequences of the angst, hurt/comfort, big brother Sirius having absolutely NONE of the nonsense!
âHey moons, have you seen my sister around lately?â Sirius asked nonchalantly as he entered their shared dorm room; noticing immediately the tension in Remusâ shoulders as he positioned his body away from the door.Â
âHow should I know?â Remus muttered darkly. âIâm not her keeper.â
And though Sirius had tried to be cool when he first realised his baby sister and best friend had less than platonic feelings for each other and vowed to stay out of their relationship, there were unfortunately some things that Sirius couldnât let slide.
âDid she eat all of your chocolate?â He asked calmly, causing Remus to roll his shoulders in an attempt to pacify himself.Â
âNo?â
âMâkay.â Sirius agreed as he put his school books in his trunk. âDid she throw your books into the Black lake?âÂ
âSirius.â Remus hissed warningly.
âDid she tell Snape to sneak out after curfew to the Whomping Willow one night so that he would come face to face with Moony, only for James to have to fight you off of him as Snape ran for his life? Oh, wait, that was me.â
âFuck off, Sirius.â
âNo thanks.â Sirius huffed as he closed his trunk with a thud. âWell, if she hasnât done any of those things, why are you treating her like such an arse?âÂ
âIâm not treating her like anything, Pads. Stay out of it.â Remus nearly growled as he stood abruptly from his desk and moved towards his bed.Â
âShanât.â Sirius refused, following his friend across the room. âYou chose to date my sister, you have to deal with the consequences.âÂ
âGreat bloody choice I made.â Remus muttered petulantly, yelping when a book hit him in the head.
âAre you fucking kidding me?â He hissed as he looked at Sirius who was staring him down defiantly.Â
âIf you know whatâs good for you, Rem, you will never speak about my sister like that again, got it?âÂ
Remus seemed to relent as he laid back on his bed and pinched the bridge of his nose and tried to bring his boiling anger down to a simmer.Â
âIâm the first to admit that Blackâs are not often a good bunch, but if a Black could be perfect, sheâs about as close as they would come. And I donât like seeing her this terrified.â
Remus sat up at that, narrowing his eyes at his friend in confusion. âSheâs not terrified of me.â
Sirius shrugged in disagreement. âShe tenses every time you walk into the Great Hall and canât seem to make eye contact with you, which usually only happens after a crucio or two from mummy dearest.â
Sirius watched the fight leave Remus almost immediately as he looked down at his lap in shame. âSheâsâŠsensitive, Rem. We all are, we-â Sirius cut himself off as he stared unseeingly at the stone wall behind his mates head. âWe canât handle these kinds of moods as well as some other people can; tension and anger always led to pain and punishment growing up.â
âItâs not her, Pads.â Remus whispered.Â
âI know itâs not. Somewhere deep down she might know that too butâŠâ
âI know.â Remus offered, pressing the heels of his palms into his eyes. âItâs thisâŠthis fucking moon, I- itâs driving me barmy.âÂ
âI understand that, but you canât take it out on her; itâs not her fault.â Sirius offered gently before retreating from the dorm to allow his friend to digest what he said; he may not like the fact that his best friend and sister found their way to each other, but he also knew that both of you deserved to be happy. If he could help you both achieve that by being supportive, well, supportive he would be.Â
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Remus felt shame course through his body as he walked through the library in search of you.Â
Between his senses being heightened this close to the moon, the additional magic at play with the super blue moon, and the fact that he knew you were a creature of habit and had a table you often frequented, it didnât take him long to find you.Â
âMind if I join you?â He asked quietly, feeling his heart crack painfully when you did, indeed, flinch at the sound of his voice and sat impossibly straighter in your chair.
âOkay.â You whispered in response, not looking away from your book as he moved to sit across the table from you, though he could tell you were no longer reading as your eyes remained glued to one spot.Â
âIâm sorry that Iâve been such an arse, Dove.â
âItâs okay.â You said quickly, still not looking at him.
âNo itâs not.â He argued softly.
He watched your jaw tighten as you repositioned yourself in your chair in obvious discomfort.Â
âItâs this moon.â You explained breezily.Â
âWhich isnât your fault, and I shouldnât be taking it out on you- dove, can you look at me? Please?âÂ
He watched your throat constrict as you stole yourself and brought your eyes up to his. They were glossy, but not like you were about to cry - glossy like you were hiding, like you were occluding.Â
He hated it; hated that you were hiding from him, hated that you felt like you had to hide from him, hated that he made you feel like you had to hide from him, hated that you even knew how to hide inside your own mind at all.Â
âDovey, look at me.â He repeated gently in hopes that youâd let the walls down, daring to reach a hand across the table in invitation.Â
He watched as your eyes flit to his hand and back up again and he tried to keep his face neutral; no pressure or force as he let you decide if you were willing to trust him.Â
You placed your hand in his, but kept your gaze pointed at your joined hands.Â
âI know better than to let my moods affect you, sweetheart. Iâm sorry.â He pressed sincerely.
You scoffed and moved your gaze to one of the rafters above you. âIâm not some delicate flower you need to tiptoe around, Remus; I can handle a bad mood.â You shot back defensively.Â
âI knowâŠâ He whispered as he rubbed circles on the back of your hand with his thumb.
He knew you werenât a delicate flower; on the contrary, you were one of the strongest people heâd ever met.Â
You gave the entire Hufflepuff house a run for their money on who was the most loyal wix in the castle. You always looked out for your brothers, constantly playing referee, devils advocate, and a surrogate parent for the two young Black boys. You grew up making sure Sirius never acted too outlandishly or brought too much trouble onto himself, making sure Regulus wasnât completely beaten down into nothing and grew up to be a semi-decent boy, and taking the blame when you were unable to do either of those things.Â
And to top it all off, you put up with him; a foul-mouthed, poor, Welsh, anger-issue riddled boy who didnât deserve you.Â
âBaby, look at me, please.â He begged, reaching forward with his other hand so he was holding your one in between both of his.
You turned your gaze to him and it seemed to be taking everything in your power to hold his gaze.
âIâm so sorry, my love.â He whispered, bringing your hand to his lips to press a kiss to your fingers.
Your eyes tracked the movement before flitting back up to his.
You offered him a curt nod and chewed on your bottom lip. âI didnât mean to upset you.â You whispered, eyes turning glossy for a whole new reason.
Remus made a pitiful sound from the back of his throat and stood to move to the chair beside you, never relinquishing his grasp on your hand.Â
âYou didnât upset me, dove, I was just upset. And an arse; donât forget the part about me being an arse.â
You offered him a wet chuckle at that as you sniffed, returning his hold of your hand and giving it a squeeze.Â
âI hate not being able toâŠhelp, to take any of the burden off of you, to make it at all less painful for you.â
âYou do, sweetheart, you do. By being here, and being with me, and being patient even when Iâm an arse, okay?â He insisted, punctuating each reason he was grateful for you with a squeeze of your hand. âI donât deserve it but Iâm so lucky to have you.â
âYou do deserve it.â You murmured, bringing your eyes back up to his.
And he couldnât help himself, really; he had always been powerless against the pull you had on him and this time was no different as he closed the distance between the two of you to press a lingering kiss to your lips.Â
âThe point of all this,â Remus said as he broke away from you and bumped your nose with his, âis that you didnât deserve to be treated the way that I treated you this week, and I wonât let it happen again, okay?â
You gave him a sad smile and gave his nose a bump in return.
âHow mad was Sirius?â
âFuming.â Remus admitted immediately.
âDid he throw a pillow at you?â
âA book.â He corrected solemnly, earning him an astonished look from you.Â
âOhâŠyou crossed a line.â
Remus nodded abashedly. âHonestly? I think it might be harder to get him to forgive me than it was to get you to forgive me.â
Remus relished in the surprised laugh that bubbled out of you at that, and he vowed to never ever let another moon cause him to go this long without hearing it again.
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call it quits or call it destiny | h. umemiya.
âź tags ; afab + fem!reader(she/her pronouns, referred to as a girl, gets dressed up by tsubaki and kotoha), reader gets their hair braided (no desc of texture) and puts on makeup, lore heavy reader backstory + personality, deliquent!reader, gap moe, best friends to lovers, idiots to lovers, themes of insecurity, mutual pining,the use of she/her for tsubaki, jealousy, confessions, loss of virginity, creampies / unprotected sex, oral (f!recieving), fingering, 18+
âź wc ; 13.9k (dont. don't say anything)
âź a/n ; me when i completely lose my mind because i have a weekend off. whats wrong with me.
anyways. there's no major triggers for this but be forewarned reader is meant to be very rag-tag deliquent type. she has a strong personality and generally is not feminine. she is like a mangy street cat a bit. also if u want u should listen to easily by bruno major while reading.
âź synopsis ; you've been quietly pining for umemiya for a little over ten years with no plans of confessing.
you did not have a plan for what you would do if umemiya confessed to you first.
Once a day, everyday - Umemiya will come into your store, pause, smile, and confess his love to you before going off on his own. Â
And once a day, everyday, you reject this confession with a soft huff telling him to quit being stupid before shooing him away. Â
It's become a ritual. A fixture in your daily routine that you're not allowed to ignore despite how hard you're trying. Â
He's been doing it for three months, more or less.Â
His reason for confessing everyday? Because heâs waiting on the day you confess back, of course. Which you've refused to do for the last few months and will continue to refuse for as long as youâve got. Â
It's not because you don't like him, alright?Â
You've known Umemiya since middle school and you've liked him for about the same time. One of the core memories of your childhood is the day you met him, crying while sitting on a swing-set, after what felt like the worst day of your life.Â
( On the day you run away from home, you seriously consider not going back. Â
You donât really know how long you sit there. People walk by but most of them move on quickly. Itâs mid-day before anyone bothers to stop and ask you something. Â
 "I've never seen you around before.â A strange looking boy approaches, friendly and unassuming but not entirely cheerful âDid you just move here?" Â
You keep quiet, closing your eyes and hoping your lack of response is enough to push him away. Your hope fizzles out when you hear the swing creak as he sits besides you.Â
"I'm Umemiya Hajime. I live close by." His voice is airy and causal. "I'm sorry you're having a bad day.â Â
"Fuck off," You reply bluntly, frowning. âI donât need sympathy. Leave me the hell alone.â Â
He pauses before pushing himself slightly forward to barely swing. Â
âI couldnât leave you alone while youâre sad,â He voices willfully. "It might make you feel better to talk about it."Â
In disbelief at his response, you finally look up and asses him properly. It doesnât do much to change your initial unfavorable impression. White hair, blue eyes and a little taller than you. Youâre definitely about the same age. All of that to say, thereâs something weird about him that you canât quite place. Â
Despite his manner and way of speaking though, you donât actually think heâs that weak which makes his whole aura even more unnerving to you. His attempt at being non-threatening doesnât work for him. Heâs being a real try-hard about trying to make you comfortableâŠÂ
Either way, heâs got an air about him that puts you on the defensive. Â
 Talking to someone about it had never been much of any option, and somehow it pisses you off that heâs being so brazen about it. Â
Maybe if you tell him about, heâll stop prying into your business. Or maybe youâre just looking for excuses to let off steam.Â
You don't care anymore. You wipe your nose with the back of your sleeve. Â
"I don't live here and I didnât move. I ran away." You reply. Â
He keeps looking at you, curious, inquisitive and sympathetic. Â
"Why?"Â Â Â
"I broke a girls nose." You scowl. The words rise up in your throat like bile. Make you feel cornered. The wounds too fresh. "Itâshe bullied me for years for one. And I never fought back, it was all petty bullshit anyway and I didn't like getting calls home. I didn't care about that but sheâit wasn't for nothing. She was causing trouble for Sensei."Â Â
Umemiya keeps to himself, humming in response to your troubles. Your voice breaks on your next sentence, chest tightening. Â
"It doesn't matter what she does to me butâ" Your hands ball up at your first. Your throat feels thick, eyes suddenly watering as your chest throbs . "Anyway, I couldnât let it go like normal."Â Â
He hums. "So you hit her?"Â
You shake your head, sniffling. "Not at first. Just told her to shut up. Said that she didn't know what she was talking about. She hit me first..." You screw your eyes shut, sighing. "...said she was gonna spread rumors about him just trying to get under my skin and be malicious,â You lean back slightly and look up towards the gray sky. âI punched her after that."Â Â
You realize he's looking at your bloodied knuckles, but he isn't making an expression that you can read easily. You donât remember the last time you spoke to someone like this who wasnât Tsukimori-sensei. Â
"Are you crying because you got in trouble?"Â Â
âWho cares about that?â You sigh âSensei had to put his job on the line and take responsibility for me,â Your brow furrows in frustration. âHeâs the one person I donât want to cause trouble for,â You grip the iron chains of the swing set with a closed fist and finally admit what youâve been avoiding to say out loud. âI donât want him to hate meâŠâ Â
The kid besides you smiles absently at your words. Half-way between listening and recalling something else, it seems like. You canât help but wonder what the hell his deal is. You barely know him but youâre spilling your guts.Â
He speaks after a long while. "I don't think he sees it that way. I think you should try to talk to him about it."Â Â
You make a face, rejecting the idea. "What? No way."Â
Umemiya shrugs, smiling - though it doesn't quite meet his eyes. Â
"He sounds like he cares about you. If he knew your reasons, there's no way he would hold it against you. And itâs important to share your burdens with people who care for you." You look over and see him smiling somberly at the mulch beneath his shoes before returning back to what youâve grown to know as his usual self. "Anyways, I think we should be friends. Tell me your name."Â Â
You sniffle again. What a weird guy. Well you say that butÂ
You still give him your name.Â
"What a pretty name,"Â
When you tell him to shut up again, your new friend Umemiya just laughs. Â
And you find you feel just a little bit lighter.)Â Â
That night, Umemiya walked with you to take the last train and told you to come see him again with good news.Â
You aren't sure what compelled you to follow his advice. Maybe because he was the first person who sat down and listened to you about it other than Sensei himself.Â
Tsukimori-sensei was your school counselor and the only adult in your entire life that seemed to worry about. You didn't have any friends in middle school and you were a scary looking delinquent girl without a mother and a mostly absent father. Â
But Sensei was always incredible gentle to you and incredibly kind. And despite what rumors that girl tried to spread - he was never anything more than an important mentor. Â
It was fucking embarrassing crying in front of him but because you were honest - you got to keep in touch with him. He attended your middle school and high school graduation - supporting you as you started to sort your life out. Became the closest thing you ever really got to a parental figure. Â
Over time, you got close with Umemiya and developed strong loyalty to him. You attended an all-girls middle and high school the next town over - totaling one other friend in all six years of your remaining education. Lack of socialization meant that Umemiya somewhat became the very center of your existence.Â
It was easy to visit him thanks to parental neglect. You sort of melted into his life. Tsubaki once called you his guard dog as a half-joke, but there's some truth to the sentiment. Quick to defend, quick to heel, and always happy to see him. Â
You, like many people, owe Umemiya a lot. His meddling over the course of ten years gave you reason to push forward. He even encouraged you to try and attend school and not give up on living a half-decent life.Â
You've got a never-ending list of short-comings but being with him didn't make you hate yourself. It made you want to be better because you knew Umemiya would accept you for whoever you decided to be. Â
So despite your delinquency, you managed to graduate high school. Post-graduation, you attended a vocational culinary school and became a patisserie before moving to Furin for permanent residency. You opened a bakery and supply bread to Kotoha-chans diner. Â
You made something of your life mostly 'cause of Umemiya. He's not your only friend anymore but he's still your best. Even though you never really pictured things like dating or romance - in some way it only makes sense that it'd be that meddling, kind-hearted idiot that you end up falling for it. Â
Lovesickness aside, you respect Umemiya more than anyone in your personal life. Â
Heâs stuck around with someone like you this long after all. That means a lot to you. Â
Somehow the two of you mesh well despite being totally opposite. Â
You decided as soon as you realized it sometime in high school that you'd keep your feelings a secret for the rest of your life. You had a strong resolve in your beliefs about the whole thing which made it easy. You hid 'em so well even Sakura's stupid accurate romance detector didn't uncover them. Â
When you picture Umemiya's future - it was easy to picture the kind of woman he would end up with. Another kind-hearted idiot like him, a social butterfly. Someone a little softer. Â
In any case it definitely was not you. You didn't need it to be. You've received so much from him already, you never entertained the idea. Plus, Umemiya has dated other people over the years, so in your head there was never any hope to cling onto. Â
For all reasons listed above, a requited romance is at the very bottom of your expectations. Â
That's why you've been in this fucking conundrum. Â
To say it was a complete shock to you when Umemiya openly confessed to you many months ago would be understatement of the goddamn century. Â
He confessed right on the last day of Spring, totally out of the blue.Â
(Itâs a little unusual for Umemiya to call you at this hour. If it were anyone else, youâd be a little upset since youâve gotta be up around four-am to get prepared for the day. Â
Itâs him though so youâre particularly tolerant, yawning as you find Umemiya on a familiar swing-set, still wearing your PJâs. Â
"Why am I out here in the middle of the night with you?"Â Â
Your words lack any real malice as you sit down. Umemiya remains totally quiet. It's unusual for him to not immediately go on a tangent upon seeing you. Â
"Oi. Earth to Hajime." You frown at him. "Did ya get beat up before coming here and scramble your brain? Give me the popsicle before it melts."Â Â
He looks over at you and chuckles as he hands you the bag from the convenience store. You ignore his odd behavior and open up said popsicle before it melts - carefully splitting it down the middle and giving him the bigger side before going to town on your own. He takes it from you but doesn't even bring it up to his mouth. Â
Weird. Â
"Did something... happen? Like seriously happen?" You take a long lick of your iced treat. It's melon flavored, your favorite. "Seeing you frown doesn't feel right. Gives me the heebie-jeebies."Â Â
He cracks a little smile at that. It makes you feel better. He shakes his head. Â
"Mm, nothing happened. I just have something I want to tell you."Â Â
You nod in understanding. "'kay. Take your time."Â Â
He blinks, surprised. Â
"Hm? Aren't you gonna scold me for wasting your time?"Â Â
"Nah. Whatever it is must be serious if it's making you all introspective or whatever. 's fine. Bring me coffee tomorrow and I'll forgive ya."Â Â
His lip twitches up. "I l really like that about you."Â Â
You feel yourself flush and wave a hand at him. "Ahh, shut up."Â Â
He pauses for a second then shakes his head. "Mm. It's more like I like everything about you, actually."Â Â
You twist your face in confusion. "What are you on about now?"Â Â
"That's what I came here to tell you." Umemiya says after a deep breath. He says it so casually you wonder if you're mishearing him - leaning back to look up at the stars. "I really, really like you. I just felt like I had to tell you that"Â Â
You stare at him in disbelief. Â
"Whaâhuh?"Â Â
He doesn't even flinch as he repeats it. Â
"I like you."Â Â
"No the hell you don't."Â Â
He furrows his brow with a light laugh. "I just told you that I do, silly."Â Â
"But that'sâ" You don't say the word impossible. You really want too, but you know exactly how he would react if you did. You simply shake your head. "No, you don't."Â
"I thought you might respond like this so don't worry but how about you?" He shrugs then looks at you intently. "I thought you might like me too."Â Â
Your eyes go wide. Oh fuck. Â
You feel like a deer caught in headlights. You know you should be happy about this, deep down. That'd be the normal response. Â
But you just feel complicated as shit instead. Fuck does he mean? Umemiya.... likes you? There's just no way that's true. Not after all of this time. And how the fuck does he know you like him back when you've been keeping it in?Â
You can't bring yourself to look him in the face and lie. Your heart rises to your throat as you shakily stand to your feet. Â
"Stop...thinking whatever you've been thinking. I'm going home." You reply in complete panic.Â
 The minute you say it, you turn on your heel so you don't have to look at his face. You donât even want to know. Â
And before Umemiya can catch you and try to talk it out, you bolt.Â
What the fuck was that?)Â Â
For the last few months, you've been avoiding the topic of conversation as much as you humanly can. Â
The possibility of Umemiya even just accepting your feelings was already far beyond your imagination, but him returning them? Confessing first? That wasn't even in your realm of possibility. Â
Ever since then, you've been losing your mind trying to force your life and train of thought to go back to normal. Youâve done all of the math on it. Â
Realistically, you can't ignore him. Your lives are so mixed together it'd be impossible unless you went under protection and changed your name which you briefly considered. You thought of turning him down but youâre pretty sure you wouldnât be able to actually do it despite how good you are at keeping it in. Either way, your best option logistically is feigning ignorance and trying to keep the whole thing out of your mind entirely which should've been easy. Â
Tricking yourself into believing the whole thing was a dream? Lightwork. Â
Except. Except. Â
Umemiya just won't give up. Â
He confesses to you again every single day. Worse, he doesn't care whose around to hear him. No one in your friend group seems even the tiniest bit shocked by it which doesn't help the situation. You can't get used to it, can't get used to him being so fucking cheeky as he stops you midway through normal conversation to tell you he loves you. Â
He's persistent to a fault and while you've done well feigning immunity - you can't survive like this. Â
You've graduated to tell him to go away and treating the whole thing like some big joke. Â
But honestly?Â
You're avoiding having a proper conversation about it. Umemiya is especially keen in not letting you forget that. And determined to make you confess. Â
But you're not going to to let him sway you. Â
You've got principles, after all. Â
__Â Â
After you close up shop on Friday, you get dressed to attend a kickback with all of your friends. Â
It's a barbecue technically - commemorating the end of summer. Togame is really into grilling and in their weird domestic partnership, Chouji really enjoys hosting. They've done this once or twice a year ever since they started living together. Â
Once you've finished cleaning up the store, you take the train to Kotoha's place - mistakenly assuming you'd leave as soon as you got there. However you failed to realize that Tsubaki and Kotoha would be getting ready together. Â
You got jumped as soon as you walked through the door - so now you're wearing a different pair of clothes that Tsuabki got for you and waiting for them to finish getting you dressed up so you can leave. Â
Tsuabkino is inches from your face while Kotoha braids your hair. You feel itchy and exposed but with both of them here there's no way you're going to get out of wearing it.Â
"Can we just go?" You grumble, not enjoying the feeling of being poked and prodded. Â
"No," Tsubaki insists, frown making her expression pinch. "You have half an eyelash on. Sit still."Â
"He'll be happy to see you dressed up," Kotoha adds, trying to encourage you. You frown and look down. Â
"Whatever. I don't care about makin' him happy."Â Â
The both of them pause and stare at you until you fold under the pressure - screwing your eyes shut and making you flush. Â
âSuch a blatant lie.â Â
Tsubaki giggles. âRight?â Â
Your face feels hot. "Ahhh, alright already. Shut up."Â Â
"Honest girls are much cuter," Tsubaki coos. You give her a half-assed glare. Â
"Don't you like Hajime? Why're you trying to set me up with him still?" You mumble. You always think theyâd make a perfect pair. Â
"Of course I like him. He's my prince." She smiles at you. âBut itâs a little different to how a certain someone loves him. And well, if you knew the way he looked at youâŠ" Â
You frown, feeling hot all the way up to your ears as you ball your fists up and look down at your lap. "Whatever."Â
"You should stop trying to worm your way out of it," Kotoha adds, much less sweetly. "You know how he is. He couldn't give up on you for ten years like some idiot."Â Â
You blink. "Huh? But ten years would mean -"Â Â
Kotoha braids your hair even tighter making you wince. "I know. You're both stupid like that."Â Â
"Don't be mean, Kotoha-chan. And you, be a little more honest, okay?"Â Â
You sigh deeply.Â
"Ain't like anything is gonna happen either way. I already told you both I'm not accepting his confession,"Â
"Cause you're a huge wuss, yeah we know."Â Â
You elbow Kotoha lightly. Â
"Maybe nothing will," Tsubaki hums mischievously. "But it feels nice to dress up for him, right?" Â
You pretend the thought doesn't make your hear flutter. Â
Tsubaki does you the kindness of laughing lightly before moving on.Â
__Â Â
You arrive to the function an hour later than planned and stick mostly with Kotoha and Tsubaki until half way through the evening. Â
Loosening up with a few drinks, the three of you part ways to catch-up with different people. It's not rare you see them, but it's not often everyones schedules allow them to be in the same place. Â
Lucky for you, Umemiya does you the courtesy of not confessing during the first half of the night before food comes out. Â
(Though you do spit beer in his face after he calls you pretty, which he takes on the chin after cleaning up.)Â Â
After dinner, the function simmers down significantly. People quietly break off into groups and chat to each other into the late night. About that time people split whatever desserts they brought among guests. Â
You brought cookies and something specifically for Chouji and Togame as thanks for hosting. Â
Towards the end of the night, you find yourself sticking sort of close to Umemiya. Though he's having his own one-on-one conversation with Hiragi while sitting next to you , turned the other way. Â
You busy yourself catching up to Suo, Sakura and Nirei - all of whom you consider yourself close to. Â
Of them, you're the closest to Nirei which always surprises people.Â
The kids a total wimp but he helped you years ago study to graduate so you're a little closer to him than everyone else. He's a great guy though and you hang out alone sometimes too. Â
The conversations gone far left at this point in the evening. Â
Suo leans back against his chair and looks toward Sakura besides him with a lazy smile. Â
"Sakura-chan would make a great wife."Â
You snort listening to them bicker. Sakura grows beet red, throwing an empty beer can at Suo's head that he catches gracefully. Â
"Go die."Â Â
"What? You're good at domestic work and you have a cute side, Isn't that all you need?"Â Â
"Shut up. I'll kill you."Â Â
As Suo breaks out into laughs, Sugishita comes down from the kitchen just in time to catch the argument. He crinkles his nose up. Â
"Oh, Sugishita-kun. 'Sup."Â Â
He nods to your greeting as he leans against the wood railing of the outdoor deck. Â
"What the hell are you two talking about?"Â
'What? You mean about Sakura being a good wife?" Suo asks. Sugishita crinkles his nose.Â
"Don't phrase it so repugnantly but yeah I guess."Â
"We were talking about marriage 'cause I was complaining at work."Â Â
"What's happening at work?"Â
Nirei sighs as he lays it out again to Sugishita after having given the spiel to the three of you once. Â
"One of my superiors at work is a lot older than me and keeps bringing up marriage," Nirei explains woefully. "It's all he talks about. He thinks I'm seeing someone."Â Â
Sugishita frowns. "Eh? What gave him that impression?"Â Â
A good question you hadn't considered asking. Â
You raise your brow at Nirei who laughs awkwardly while he holds your gaze. Â
"You know that picture of us from highschool? When he came to the cafe at your school festival?"Â Â
You smile spitefully, crinkling your nose in faux distaste. "The one wear we wearing those stupid maid costumes?"Â Â
"Yup. That's the one. It's a good picture of us so I keep it on my desk and he saw it so..."Â Â
"You keep a picture of just the two of you on your desk? No wonder he got that impression.â Suo adds. Â
You sense Umemiya suddenly tense which you find weird. He's still talking to Hiragi though when you glance from the corner of your eye. You brush it off. Â
Nirei blushes, elbowing him. Â
"Shut up. I've got group pictures and stuff too. But he just singled out that one cause you know,"Â Â
You nod in understanding before it dawns on you. Your eyes widen. "Oh, shit? Does that old man think you're dating me?"Â Â
Nirei closes his eyes and sighs. "He won't even let me correct him."Â
You pause before breaking out into genuine laughter. Â
"Pfft, that's terrible." You reply sympathetically, taking a sip of your beer before giving a mischievous grin. "Maybe you can make it work for you though, eh? Tell 'em we got hitched forreal and then I'll call you on the phone and nag you to get home for dinner so you can leave earlier."Â Â
Nirei acts like he's touched making you laugh even harder. "You'd do that for me?"Â Â
You give him another toothy grin. "I'll even help you fake some wedding photos. We'll be accomplices." You lean back with a shrug. "You gotta wear the dress though."Â
Sugishita laughs at that. "You being a blushing bride is a little..."Â Â
You snort, shooting him a dirty look "Shut up."Â Â
"Deal. Not a bad plan honestly." Nirei says with a sigh. "Whatever gets me out of the office early."Â Â
"Even if that means being married to me?" You joke. Â
He smiles at you. "Aw, what do you mean? That's the best part."Â Â
You chuckle at him good-natuedly and the conversation quickly moves on. Â
The alcohol is starting to make you dizzy so you eventually tune out as the four of them talk, glancing at Umemiya from the corner of your eye. Â
You swear you catch a glimpse of his jaw ticking. Â
__Â Â
For the rest of the night, Umemiya is off. Â
No one else can tell. You know that because the atmosphere remains light until everyone leaves around two-am. There's no blips or tension, no awkward pauses.Â
But you know Umemiya. He's been real weird all night and it's bugging the shit out of you. Â
It's a well past two now, and you've just left the late night cab you took with him. Umemiya lives close so he's walking you home. Â
He's usually energetic after a get-together like that so his dead silence is weirding you out. You're pretty good at figuring his feelings out but for once you feel totally clueless. Â
It feels as if even the cicadas and crickets have gone to sleep. There's nothing bu the streetlights overhead and soft glow of the moon, coupled with the soft click of your shoes on the pavement. Occasionally, a car will pass by. Â
At one point, it becomes too much. There's still a few minutes until you're home. Â
You stop in the middle of the sidewalk and turn around to look at him. Umemiya pauses, startled as he stops with you, and doesn't smile which only makes your concern worsen. Â
"Oi. What's up with you?"Â Â
"Hm?"Â Â
You cross your arms over your chest. Â
"Don't 'hm' me. You've been in a bad mood few for the last few hours. It's gonna bug me all night if I don't ask, so what's up?"Â Â
He stares at you. Â
"You noticed?"Â Â
"How could I not notice?"Â Â
"I was hiding it pretty well, I thought." He states more than asks, half-smile on his face. Â
"Yeah. But well," You shrug. "I'm always looking at you for better or for worse. So. What's wrong?"Â Â
He stares at you a long time before sighing, running his fingers through his hair. You've never seen him like this. You've seen him pissed off before, seen him mildly irritated - but never this... pouty? It's not like he's pissed. Â
He's quiet, taking a deep breath of cool night air before sliding his hands into his pockets and taking a good look at your face.Â
"Do you know that I like you?"Â Â
Your eyes widen as you blink wildly. Â
This is what he wants to talk about?Â
He pins you down with his stare, hands in his pockets and intense as ever. Â
"Don't even think about bolting this time, okay? I'm asking you seriously. Do you?"Â
Your eyes flicker down the concrete - feeling extremely uncomfortable and suddenly sweaty. You shrug, unsure of what else you could say or do. Â
"Hard not to know." You mumble. "You tell me everyday."Â
"But do you get it?"Â Â
Your frown deepens. Â
"Of course not. How could I possibly get something like that, stupid?"Â Â
He takes a deep breath. "But you like me, don't you?"Â Â
Panic sets in. If you could sink straight into the Earth you would. Â
"...Never said that."Â
He calls your name quietly. "Look at me, at least. Stop running away from me and just look."Â
You know you're being stubborn but you can't help it. You've kept it a secret for ten years and all of a sudden he wants you to tell him you like him? You've held it in for so long already and he's telling you not to run away.What other choice is there? Â
One wrong move move and everything will come crashing down inside of you. You can't even lie about it either. Â
Damn it. Â
"I won't look." Your voice is warbly and it makes you feel so pathetic you could die, tucking your chin petulantly "Don't wanna,"Â Â
Umemiya frowns at you. Â
"If you say you don't like me I'll let it go."Â Â
You remain very quiet and close your eyes tighter. He sighs softly, making your chest hurt. Â
After a minute, you muster up the courage to be dishonest - determined to drop it at all costs. You're slow as you pick your head up. Â
"I don't like you," You repeat slowly, carefully - trying not to stumble the words. "So quit it, alright?"Â Â
He laughs humorlessly and holds your gaze. Â
"That's the first time you've ever actually lied to me. You're terrible at it,"Â
"I'm not lying." You snap. Umemiya smiles somberly when he sees tears on the corners of your eyes. He steps closer to you. You freeze. When his hand reaches cups your cheek, you feel your legs lose all their strength and close your eyes. You're terrified to even look at him, not wanting him to see what you know is obvious on your face. Â
He wipes them as he tilts your face towards him slowly.Â
"Tell me, at least. If you're going to refuse me, don't I deserve to know why? Do you hate the idea of dating me that much?"Â Â
You shake your head. "Stupid. How would anyone hate that?"Â Â
"So I deserve to know why you're turning me down."Â Â
A long moment of silence draws you out of your feelings. You guess that's fair enough. Maybe this way he'll leave you alone - as long you're clear about your reasons. Heâs the earnest type after all. Â
You manage to suck up all your tears and clear your throat enough to give him an explanation.Â
You step back a little from him, putting some distance between you as you stare down at the sidewalk.Â
"You know... I respect ya more than anyone else. You've always been someone I admire. And I uh, owe you a lot. So I only want the very best for you and all." You scratch your neck, taking a deep sigh. "For me... regardless of my feelings, I want you to be with someone who really fits, you know? Well put-together and everything. Someone that suits you better"Â Â
He pauses before frowning.  Â
"Regardless of your feelings? Does that mean you were willingly pushing them aside?" He says distraught. "For how long?"Â Â
You shrug, trying to lighten the conversation. Itâs too devastating otherwise. "About ten years, give or take."Â
The sheer distress in his face makes you want to keep talking, just he doesnât look so disheartened. Like some explanation will clear things up. Â
"It ain't a bad thing, Hajime. You've given me a lot and I'm serious when I say I want the best for you. I love you, if that's what you wanna hear. I'm content just being besides you as your friend." You say with a shrug. "I can be kinda selfish but there's a limit to my greed,yknow."Â Â
He looks like he's in shock.Â
"Wanting someone to love you back isn't greedy or selfish."Â Â
You find you don't have anything to say with that, but hope he drops it for the time being.Â
Umemiya stares at you seriously. It makes your breath hitch meeting his eyes, blue with all the depth in the world. You feel like you can't pull yourself from his gaze. Â
"And there was never a possibility? Not once that I could've liked you? That I wanted to be with you?"Â Â
"It doesn't matter." You say. "And no, it never crossed my mind.."Â Â
"Stop saying it doesn't matter. Of course it matters. Your feelings matter the most so don't toss them aside so easily. Do you really believe that you're not right for me?"Â Â
You arenât sure how to answer him. Â
"You think you're not good enough for me." He says with some realization more than asks. Â
It's the first time you see his face change. When you look up, he looks well and truly angry. The whole thing is confusing. Â
"I'm sorry," You say. Itâs such a timid thing to say but you donât know how else to fix. Â
"It's notâI just don't like hearing you talk about yourself like that. I don't like hearing someone I love get spoken about like that.âÂ
You ignore the sentiment again and wait in the quiet. You always thought this would be an easier conversation to have but it hurts. Â
He sighs a bit, getting closer to you again. Heâs less upset than before but thereâs something else in his expression. Â
"You wanted to know why I was upset earlier right? It's because of you and Nirei-kun." He admits. Â
"What about him?"Â Â
"You talked about marrying him so casually. I overheard and it bothered me all night."Â Â
Your eyes go wide. Â
"Iâit wasn't serious."Â Â
"I know that. I never thought I was that childish either but you being married to someone else as a joke." He laughs humorlessly. "I really hated it. Thatâs why I asked if you know how much I like you."Â Â
You feel frozen in place by his admission.Â
Umemiya steps towards you faster than you can muster up a counter for why he shouldnât bother. Â
His arms around you feel sudden. His grip on you is so tight, like you could slip through his arms all at once if he loosens it. He smells like cologne and beer and summer but it's not unpleasant. He rests his chin on your head and lets out a deep breath. Â
Your chest is throbbing for different reasons now. Shit. Shit, shit, shit. Â
"If you won't be greedy, then you should at least let me be." He lets out a long, tense breath "At least let me have what I want."Â
You're stuck. Your mouth moves faster than your brain. Â
"Why me? And why now?"Â Â
Umemiya pulls away to stare down at you. You can't bring yourself to turn away from him.Â
"It was always you. I felt guilty... for wanting to you that way when you were a precious friend. Wanting to treat you delicately when you were strong and proud." He admits. Hearing him say that out loud embarrasses you to no end, âBut it was those things that made me love you. Strong yet clumsy. Prideful yet honest. Awkward yet trying to be gentle. Loyal. And always considerate of everyone. Of me, when I was taking care of everyone else."Â Â
Your stomach feels like it's going to erupt. You're losing your resolve faster than you know how to mend it. Â
"Stop saying stuff like that."Â Â
Umemiya holds you tighter and shakes his head. "No. How else will I get you to change your mind?"Â Â
"I won't change my mind." You say stubbornly. Â
"I love you." He repeats. Â
You squirm. Â
"Stop it,"Â Â
"I want to be with you. I want to kiss you. I want to hold you. I want to stay by your side forever. I want to do things with you and make you feel good. I want to make you smile. I want to grow old with you."Â
Your hearts fluttering. Fuck. Â
"Idiot. What are you saying? Let me go."Â Â
"It has to be you for me. I won't have anyone else no matter what you think. The person I love is you. I love you."Â Â
"Hajime." Your voice is shaking.Â
His drops down to a whisper. Â
âI canât change how you think of yourself overnight but I can tell you that thereâs no point in trying to push me away. Whether or not you accept me, weâll never stop being side by side - so please stop fighting it.â Â
You put your hands on his chest, trying to push him away. âStop it,âÂ
"Please tell me it's okay to love you how I want too," He says, soft and doting while he crushes you in his arms. "And please love me in return."Â Â
You put your hands up to your misty eyes wanting to wipe them away as he melts through the rest of your resolve like it's nothing. It's hard not to be moved. You've been pretending for ten long years that you don't love him at all and he's declaring his love for you like it's the easiest, most sensible and sane thing in the world. Â
A kind-hearted, willful, meddling idiot. How you are you supposed to push him away when he's holding you this tight? Â
"Shit," You voice, huffing as your voice shakes. "Donât be stupid, alright? If youâre so insistent, I wont let you back out if you meet someone else."Â Â
He laughs wetly. Â
"I already tried meeting other people, but it's still you. Always was."Â Â
He smiles above you. 6'2 with watery eyes with the look of pure relief like it's the best news he's ever heard in his life. It's too much for you. Your heart is racing so fast you wonder if you're gonna die. Â
"Can I kiss you?" He asks. Â
Your eyes go wide as you look away, not wanting to look too eager. "That's..."Â Â
He makes another puppy-dog kinda face. "Please?"Â Â
You're embarrassed by how easy it makes you give in. "...Do whatever you want."Â Â
He laughs bright and warm as his hands slide up to cup your cheeks and kiss you with all the passion he can muster. It's intense, almost suffocating the way he slots his lips against yours and breathes you in. He doesn't let you up from it, doesn't part from you for a second even when he pulls away - noses brushing and stealing the air from your lungs. Â
It's your stupid first kiss and it's perfect - so perfect you wonder if you're going to wake up in a dream. He kisses you hard and makes you stand on your toes to chase his lips when he pulls back. Elated. Ecstatic when you grasp the front of his shirt and keep kissing him when he stops.Â
He pauses before littering your whole face with pecks even as you weakly protest, unable to stop frowning but feeling the happiest you've ever been. Â
There's so much longing in between you, you feel like you could die. You feel helpless.  Â
"Can I come home with you?" He asks, once he stops - only holding your hand a short distance away. "I want more time together."Â
You feel your skin burn hot as you nod, all while trying not to read too much into it.Â
"Yeah."Â Â
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You barely get to lock your door behind you before Umemiya crowds you in the door way. Â
His arms circle around your waist, chin resting against your shoulder.. Broad chest against your back, you try not to flounder as his warm voice caresses your ear. Â
You're going to die young if he keeps this up.  Â
"I love you,"Â Â
You flush. "Enough already. And let me go so I can wash up."Â Â
"Do you need to sleep early? Thought you were closed tomorrow. Wanted to talk a little longer."Â Â
You pause. Â
"...Sleep?"Â
"Hm?"Â Â
You both freeze as the miscommunication dawns at the same time. You try to pull away from him as soon as you realize, skin burning hot. You're quick but Umemiya is quicker. Â
"Hajime." You say gravely. "If you don't let me go, I'm gonna kill you."Â Â
"No way," He laughs as you attempt to wriggle out of his grasp. "Is that why you let me in? Were you expecting something?" Â
"Shut up! Don't say anything, I swear I'll â"Â Â
"Don't be like that, baby. I'm not making fun of you. Hey, turn around. Look at me."Â Â
You're upset but you think the reason is more embarrassing then the feeling. Â
"Don't wanna,"Â Â
Umemiya laughs as he gently turns you around to face him. In your utter mortification, you can barely bring yourself to meet his gaze. Â
"Stop staring."Â Â
He doesn't. Â
"Do you normally invite guys in just 'cause they ask?"Â Â
"Whaâno! It's because it's you, stupid!"Â Â
He smiles in satisfaction. Â
"You shouldn't say yes so easily even if it is me. What if I took advantage of you?"Â Â
You think he's just being smug for the sake of it, which is pissing you off. You grab him by the front of his shirt. Â
"Fuck off. Maybe there's a reason I said yes."Â Â
He pauses before his eyes widen. You push your hand against his mouth before he blurt anything else out but he's quick to pry your hand away. Â
"Don't say it." You hiss. Â
"I was planning on taking my time. I cherish you and I want to make sure you know that. I'm just a little surprised youâre moving so quick when you were telling me not too long ago."Â Â
You can feel the tips of your ears growing hot, feeling even more self-conscious. "Whatever. If we're just going to sleep I still need to wash up."Â Â
He keeps his arms behind your back so you canât move. Â
"Hey. Didn't say that. It's not like I don't want to do it with you. Just don't want you to regret anything."Â Â
You give him an flat look. "I was prepared to give you my virginity and you're worrying about that. Unless you're planning on backing out, there's no way I would."Â Â
"Yourâ" His jaw drops a little. Â
You drop your voice down just a little close as you grab his collar. Â
"If you get it, then hurry up and fuck me. Stupid Hajime."Â Â
He gives you the dopiest smile you've ever seen while your face grows increasingly hot, leaning to in to press a kiss to your lips. He brushes his nose with yours. Laughter from deep in his chest. Â
"Yes, ma'am."Â Â
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Once you give Umemiya permission to have you, you get the feeling that there really is no going back from here. Â
You both know it. The tension in your bedroom is so thick you can barely breathe around it. Â
Umemiya lands gently onto your bed - sitting up as he holds you by your waist and pulls you over to him. You're so aware of his touch it makes your nerves feel they're on fire. You're not a total virgin - at least not enough to be feeling this worked up over someones hands lingering on your waist. Â
But they're Umemiya's handsâHajime's hands, so you can't rationalize your thoughts of out it. His hands are strong and big, a little calloused and rough from the gardening and fighting. You can feel how much he adores you in a gesture so small it makes you concerned for your own heart thinking about how the rest of the night will go. Â
He invites you into his lap gently, so pleased by the way you go to him so willingly. You spread yourself over him with your knees on either side of his thighs. He's big - wide and broad. Â
Your barely hovering over his bulge as you lean your weight onto him. His hand barely brushes underneath your top, just barely touching the skin. Â
You shiver. Â
"Are you really sure this is what you want?" He asks. "I don't mind waiting as long as you need,"Â Â
You give him an bored look. "Not very convincing when you're makin' a face like that,"Â Â
He chuckles nervously. "That bad?"Â Â
You nod before adding a little bashfully. "Dunno if I mind, though."Â Â
He buries his fact against your chest all of a sudden making you jump. Â
"The hell?"Â Â
"You're so cute when you're honest like that," He mumbles into your chest, cheek pressed against your tits. Â
"Jeez, shut up. What're you talking about?"Â Â
Umemiya pulls back and leans forward - enough to breach the inches of space between you. Nose to nose, your eyes meet. A bated breath, you put your hand on his shoulders and work up the nerve to kiss him. Â
It's chaste. Mostly for you to break the ice otherwise you're sure you're gonna pussy out. Â
He smiles at you when you pull away. Â
"See what I mean? So cute," He hums, and leans in again. "Come on. Kiss me again."Â Â
Something about him is different when he tells you to kiss him. It's not smug or cheeky. But it's not casual either. Softness tinges his words, his touch - his whole demeanor screams like he loves you absolutely. It makes your heart rate pick up again, hands shaky as you try not to lose your nerve. Â
He's restraining himself though. How he intense he could be vs how soft and calm he is being. You know Umemiya like the back of your hand so you want him to do what he wants. It's hard to find your voice. Â
"You don't have to.." You cast your eyes down in embarrassment. "âŠhold back with me, either. I'm not some maiden." Â
He smiles at you a little. "You really do know me better than anyone, huh? I was keeping it together pretty well."Â Â
"Look I know Iâm kinda difficultâŠI'm not real good with stuff like this either," You fidget with the collar of his shirt with your free hand. "But once I say yes I donât back out. So don't worry about scaring me off or putting too much pressure on me or whatever. ...'s fine to just do what you feel like. Iâm scared out of my mind but I wouldnât do that to you," Â
âDonât know how long itâll take but Iâll do my best to make you feel secure. Might take some time but weâve got our whole lives.â You flush at the implication. He smiles a little. "Whatever I want seems like a lot to give, though."Â Â
"Well...depending on what, I'm might not be good at it,"Â Â Â
He shakes his head. "I don't want anything like that."Â Â
"What do you want then?"Â Â
"You." He says easily. Your stomach flips. "All of you. I just want to make you feel so good you can't stand it. Want to worship you top to bottom. There's not a single part of you I don't want."Â Â
You flush. "The hell... I meant like a blowjob or some shit."Â Â
He laughs. "I know. And I want that too, another time." He hums, taking a deep breath. "Right now I just want you to feel so good for me. Is that okay?"Â Â
You can't look at him. You can barely stand how bashful you're being, but you can't even play coy. Something in you is bursting at the seams. Â
You love him so much you don't recognize yourself, or your voice, or how you're acting. It makes you sick but you canât do anything but go with it. "Yeah. 's okay, if it's what you want."Â Â
"It is," He says, leaning in. "All I've ever wanted."Â Â
You ignore the latter half of his comment as he finally goes to kiss you again. Â
He pulls your body close to him as you do. Until your chest to chest, arms wrapped around the span of his shoulders as you press your lips together soft and slow. Â
He slides a hand underneath your top, undoing the clasp of your bra. He lets his palm stay on the center of your back while you keep kissing - straps of your bra falling down your shoulder as he splays his fingers to feel more of your skin and hold you. Hugging you close to him, his other arm wraps around your torso. His forearms feels especially strong they way they hold you by the waist. Â
You're so close to him. Kissing him so deep, his tongue sliding against your lips. Something about the kiss is languid but the touch is so hot it makes your skin burn. You feel wrapped up in him, can't even tell whose heartbeat you're hearing.Â
More of your weight ends up in his lap as you feel your knees go weak. Something hard presses against your clothed cunt and you gasp a little into his mouth. Â
"Oh, shit." You mumble in surprise. Umemiya laughs. Â
"You're making me feel good." He hums. Â
Your face heats up. "I barely did anything."Â
"You just being on my lap is more than enough."Â Â
You make a face at him before rubbing yourself over the zipper of his jeans, slow and deliberate trying to get a feel for it. You hear him moan, nearly jumping out of your skin in surprise. Â
The way Umemiya moans is a lot for you to process. Breathy and a little low. It resonates through your whole body like a caress. Â
You make a few more tentative passes over his bulge, just to hear him do it again. Driven by your instinct more than anything, you lean into kiss at his jaw - making use of the limited experience you do have to try and draw more sounds from him. Â
"What're you thinking about?" He asks, still breathless. Maybe amused. Â
"Like the way you sound." You mumble in reply. Â
"I thought I told you I wanted to take care of you, hm?"Â Â
You frown. "So what? I can't touch you at all?"Â Â
He thinks on it. "You can touch me everywhere else and you can have your way with me later, if you want it. I don't wanna cum too fast."Â Â
"I'm just..."Â Â
He shakes his head. "You're underestimating me. I'm still a guy, you know? With a woman I love at that. There's no way I would make it through our first time if I didn't focus on you. Don't pout,"Â Â
Hearing him describe you in such an embarrassing way makes you flush. You roll your eyes half-heartedly. "Fine, whatever."Â Â
He smiles. Â
"Good girl. C'mere. Lay down."Â Â
You decide not to think about how effected the praise makes you as you comply. Â
Umemiya lays you down carefully, making sure you're comfortable before hovering over you. He looks a lot more imposing from this view - the dim lights of your room making his face seem more well-defined. Your nipples harden in arousal, peeking from underneath your shirt as he stares long and hard. Â
"You're so beautiful to me."Â Â
He leans down and presses a hot kiss to your jaw, just underneath your ear before slowly kissing down your neck. Open-mouthed kisses along delicate skin, tongue sliding over every patch he scrapes lightly with his teeth. You fidget underneath him, a dull throbbing between your legs. You try to figure out what to do with your hands but youâre too nervous. Â
He kisses your throat where it's extra sensitive and you bite back and involuntary noise.Â
"Don't hold your voice, please?"Â Â
"It's embarrassing,"Â Â
"It's not," He assures, bumping his forehead to your shoulder lightly. "I want to know what makes you feel good. Let me pay attention to you."Â Â
You frown but nod ultimately. Â
Umemiya isn't the first sexual encounter you've had in your life. You've done other things, but you've never really gone all the way with anyone. All of your other partners were mostly strangers - people mutually interested in using someone else to try and get off. Â
This is the first time anyone has taken this much time with you. A little kissing and groping, sometimes touching your chest. Â
No one's ever touched you like this, though. Â
His hands feel like they're all over your body no matter where they actually end up being. Makes your heartbeat rain drumming on a tin roof. Makes your stomach tingle, a heat in your calves and a prickly feeling on your back. Your whole being drowning with pure anticipation. Â
"Take this off for me." Umemiya mumbles. You nod, feeling absent as you wiggle yourself out of your tight little tee and toss it somewhere. Â
The air shifts again when you're naked. His eyes drink you in, tracing the soft lines and edges of your body. Looking over scars and stretchmarks with pure, blown out wanting that shoots lust straight into your veins. Â
You want him to fuck you so bad it's killing you but the very thought makes you feel so shy you could die. Â
"You're beautiful," Sounds dirty the way he says, makes it spill from his lips like wine tipping over a glasses edge. "Perfect. Every inch of you is so perfect."Â Â
He proves this to you by kissing you again. Running his hands over your skin. Up against curved sides and down against your arms, brushing the back of your biceps and forearms. Â
Infatuation in his touch ruins you. Makes your voice let out. You can't think of anyone whose treated you so preciously in your entire life and you find you don't resent it as much as you should. Â
(You find it feels so good to let someone touch you so kindly. A touch like you're being loved.)Â Â
Nonetheless it's embarrassing. Of course it is. Â
But it's so hard not to feel pulled in when you feel the way he kisses you. Draws a trail with his lips and tongue from jaw to shoulder blade - kissing down your biceps with his hands on your body, taking gentle inhales of your scent. Â
Anticipation makes your stomach tie in knots but finally he relents. Both hands squeeze the soft weight of your chest, palms brushing your hardened nipples. Â
"Fuck."Â Â
He laughs a little, heavy with want. "Yeah? Do you like being touched here?"Â Â
"Mm." Is the best reply you can get out. Â
He brushes against the tips with his fingers in a feather-light gesture, testing the waters before rubbing with a little more pressure. Your body jolts from the stimulation, wetness pooling and dampening your underwear. He leans in and takes one of your nipples into his mouth making another dull wave of lust wash through you. Â
And he makes sure to pay attention to both. It's just like him to be so attentive to some shit like that. Your spine arches as he sucks on your sensitive nipples, letting his tongue flick across them and giving into a sweet friction. You buck your hips up against instinctively, gripping onto the sheets as your sense of restlessness grows. Â
Your voice is whiny to your own ears but you can't calm down to save your life. Â
"You're taking too long," You huff. He laughs lightly, looking up at you from underneath his lashes. Â
"Don't be impatient." He tsks. Â
"It's enough already,"Â
He shakes his head. "Nope. Still got a long ways to go. Promise you'll have me when you're ready for it, so just try and focus on feeling good."Â Â
You make a frustrated sound. "It's embarrassing being the only one feeling good,"Â Â
He pauses before standing up on his knees. He takes his black t-shirt off in one swift go until his torso is bare, and undoes the top button of his pants. He gives you a little glance. "Better?"Â Â
There are too many layers of that to process in the moment it happens. You mumble. "A little,"Â Â
He beams. "Good. Now let me take good care of you,"Â Â
Sliding down lower, he kisses you from sternum to navel. Hands gripping at the softness of your sides, smoothing over the bare skin as he his thumb finds the waistband of your skirt. He glances up at you, silently seeking your permission. You nod back at him, watching him slide the short skirt away from your waist. Â
The sudden air feels cool against your skin. He presses his cheek against your belly, both hands on your hips.. Â
"You're gorgeous. Even more gorgeous than I thought. I feel so lucky being able to touch you when you're this perfect.â He praises endlessly. Â
You cover your face with your arm. Â
"Ugh. Quit it. You're sayin' too much."Â Â
"Seeing you get so shy when I praise you a little is so cute." He trails his lips down further and further - just above your sex before stopping. "You're so cute."Â Â
He sits back, standing up and bending your legs slightly at the knee. You hold the position as you feel him massage your calve. Thumb drawing hard circles in the muscle, slowly working his way up to your knee. He kisses you afterwards trailing the same spot his hands were touching seconds ago before moving onto the other side. Â
There's nothing you can call it short of worship. The nagging feeling that it's undeserved is washed away each time Umemiya holds your gaze. Â
Devotion colors every touch no matter how small. And itâs so obvious, so prominent - it feels outright wrong to deny the fact itâs there.  Â
You think the closest thing you can compare it too is the way Umemiya gardens. A patience as his fingers root through earth and soil, a kindness towards delicate things that makes even hours of work under the sun look beautiful and easy. His expression is what's most uncanny - what makes you you feel so hot.Â
An expression that says he loves doing it from the very bottom of his heart - not even a hint of apathy or complaint. Â
A face that says he loves every long, drawn out motion and actions of repetition all fro the very core of him. Â
Having it directed at making love to you so blatantly makes you more aroused than you know what to do with. You don't know how to let yourself be treated like the most cherished flower in Umemiya's garden - and you aren't so sure how you're meant to get used to it no matter how much it makes you feel...nice. You donât have any other experience. Â
Which is why you're trying to be patient. Trying to be at least temporarily secure in whatever he sees in you that makes him worship every inch of you, memorizing all your ins and outs. Â
Umemiya places hot, wet kisses on your inner thigh before laying himself between your spread legs - breath barely hovering over your sex. Â
By the time he gets there, you feel utterly melted into your sheets. Your mind is hazy, impatient and wanting as strong hands secure your thighs. He's so close. Â
"I wanna eat you out. Is that okay?"Â Â
"If you don't do something soon I'm gonna kill you."Â Â
He laughs warmly. "I'll take that as a yes."Â Â
You pause. Umemiya waits. Â
"I didn't uh," You clear your throat. "Wasn't planning on getting laid so y'know. Haven't shaved in a while."Â Â
"Were you worried that I'd change my mind? I like it for the record. Feels natural." Umemiya says. "It's your body so there's nothing I would dislike about it."Â Â
"You're too much." You reply back in earnest. You cover your face with your arms. "So cheesy."Â Â
"I'm being serious." He says suddenly solemn with how sincere he is.Â
The sudden change is amusing. You pause before breaking into genuine giggles, unable to help yourself. Â
"You're really somethin', yknow that?"Â Â
He's quiet for a long time. Long enough for it to catch your attention, turning your gaze more clearly towards his face. Swiftly, he pushes himself up to catch your mouth in another kiss. It stuns you a bit, very different to all the rest. More teeth and tongue than lip. Â
"I like you," He murmurs, forehead to yours. "How can someone be so cute?"Â Â
"Would you quit embarrassing me and get on with it?"Â
He smiles. "As you wish,"Â Â
Umemiya settles back down between your legs after easing your panties off and putting your feet flat on the bed to give himself more access. You can barely look down at him doing it. His fingers brush the slick hairs back gentle as he uses his thumbs to spread your pussy apart and look at you more intimately. Â
You can feel him. Feel his every breath and movement. He stares at you awestruck. "How is all of you so pretty? Even here it's such a beautiful color."Â Â
"Stop looking so much,"Â Â
He takes a breath, taking in your scent one more time before pressing a kiss to your clit. You make an attempt to squirm away from his grip as his finger dig into your thighs and hold you down. The strength of it knocks the wind out of you, forcing you into place. Umemiya pushes his tongue and gives you a long, tentative lick through the seam of your cunt. Â
Your whole body breaks out into shivers at the sensation. The warm weight of his tongue on your sex makes feels like an electric current through water - your toes curling as he makes the same few passes over and over. He collects your pooling arousal on the tip as he drags upwards and flicks your clit tentatively. You grind against his face instinctually, hips chasing the pleasure. Amused laughter vibrates against your core as you do, mumbling at you to be patient while he's still face deep in it. Â
You let out another pitchy whine before he finally stops teasing. He lays his tongue flat against your clit, cupping it lightly before drawing it around experimentally. He watches carefully as he plays around with pressure and angles - trying to see what makes you react the most. You can feel how closely he's watching you.Â
You cover your mouth with your hand when he does find it, your voice breaking off as he licks carefully right where you need. He smiles into your cunt as he toys with your with the sensitive bundle of nerves, pleased by the change in your reactions. The obvious pleasure he's making you feel. Â
Something blooms into your chest. You've neverâÂ
"You'reâ" You close your eyes, hands tangling in the sheets as you break out into a fever. "Ngh, never had someone l-lick me,"Â Â
He must've heard you because he seems to laser in his focus the minute you say it. He's lapping at your clit so deep, licking precisely and holding you with nose against your bush. Â
You reach down tentatively, pushing back the hair falling in his face and he gives you a look so lovesick you want to run away. The pressure changes gradually, more intensely. Â
It feels better somehow. Makes you feel restless. Your whole body curls in tight with want at the sensation of it, the lower expanse of your belly tensed. You're shaking as you drift closer to the edge, arousal upped by the wet sound of him sucking your clit. Â
"Hajime," You warn, spine starting to arch as you helplessly try to pull away from the intense sensation. It's not familiar to your body, so much so your mind can barely make sense of what's happening to it, "Cummingâc-cumming!"Â Â
Something in you goes undone as Umemiya keeps pace during your orgasm. All the tension inside of you suddenly comes loose - specks of white matter behind closed lids as you screw your eyes shut. Your back curves up into arch, your hips trembling, your insides pulsing. It comes running into you, crashing into your body as waves of pleasure drown out the noise in your head. He eats you out until you feel borderline hysterical. Â
You feel melted and reshaped by him - yanking him off when he continues to be insistent after you're too oversensitive. He laughs when you pull him away, resting against your thigh as you take worn out heaving breaths. Â
He kisses the inside of your knee as you calm down, bright smile on his features - painted pink with a slight flush. "You came. I'm so happy."Â Â
You look at him in shock. "You're a scary guy."Â Â
He pushes up to kiss your temple, voice soft. "Did I scare you?"Â Â
Your stomach flutters, tucking your chin. "You were intense, but I didn't... hate it or anything."Â Â
"Yeah?" He grins, pressing a few kisses to your cheek and face before whispering against your ear. "Then, is it okay to go farther?"Â Â
You nod silently. Umemiya smiles. Â
He stands up on his knees, pushing his hair back as your eyes are drawn to his pants. You reach out for the waistband of his pants unthinkingly, hooking your finger into it. "Isn't it stuffy?"Â Â
He blinks, frozen before rubbing a hand across his face. "Ah a bit, but it's fine."Â Â
"Take 'em off. Please?"Â Â
Umemiya looks unusually distressed by the request, but follows through without another word. You watch him undress - revealing the tight black fabric of his boxer briefs snug against his waist. Your eyes go wide as you see the outline of his cock - head still half hazy. You voice your unfiltered reaction. Â
"Your dick is so big,"Â Â
He laughs breathlessly. "Are you trying to stir me up? What's with you?" He pauses to lay down besides you. You turn to lay on your side and face him a little better. "You're being cute. I'm not used to seeing you so docile."Â Â
"Shaddup," You reply half-heartedly. Your body is still on fire but it knocked the wind of you to cum once already. "Your fault."Â Â
He grins, a hint of smugness as he laughs. "That's true."Â Â
"You gonna fuck me?"Â Â
"Mm, yeah. Gotta open you up first or it'll hurt."Â Â
"I've put stuff in before. Toys. Should be fine."Â Â Â
"Still wanna play it safe. It's your precious first time after all."Â Â
You make a face before pulling him into you, hugging him tight as your whole body breaks out in a shameful flush. "Then hurry up and do it already."Â Â
His arms slide underneath where your laying, holding you to him as he hikes one of your legs up. He slides his free hand in over your leg - his forearm holding your thigh. You press your face to his neck and shoulder - hiding your expression. "Guess I should huh? You were always impatient,"Â Â
You can barely tell him to shut up, the way your body waits for it. A warbled little noise leaves your mouth as he slides his middle finger through the sticky folds of your cunt - careful as it catches on your hole. Wet and so aroused, the first finger he puts in goes in completely smoothly with no real effortÂ
Umemiya speaks low and soft as he holds you. "I don't know if I can get used to seeing you like this. I'm glad no one else but me ever wil Youâre really all I think about lately," He catches the lobe of your ear between his teeth gently. Your head spins. "People misunderstand you because you're prickly, you know? For a long time, only I knew what it felt like to be liked by you. I liked that,"Â Â
"Why are youâmmgh,"Â
He slides another finger in carefully after the first one slides inside of you with no resistance. His voice is so hot against your skin, the low bass of it in your skull as he speaks so close to your ear. Â
"Don't get me wrong I'm happy seeing you with so many people surrounding you. But I was a little sad too. And it kept getting worse over the years until I couldnât ignore it. I couldnât figure out why for a long time and then it clicked,â Umemiya explains. You realize half way delirious this is his real confession. God, youâre gonna kill him. âSuddenly it was all I thought about. I wanted to be special to you. I wanted to monopolize you. It was my first time having thoughts like that,â Â
Another finger slides into you easily. Umemiyas fingers are so much bigger than yours. Thicker than they are long. The stretch is enough to make you gasp. Â
âHajimeââÂ
He curls them up, careful until he finds the spot heâs looking for. Your body reacts, another sensation of pressure as his middle finger rubs tenderly against your gspot. You weakly try to wiggle away as he holds you firm. Â
âI felt a little guilty, too. Youâre my very best friend. Youâre independent and diligent. Tough. But you know, when I saw you for those few months - all I could think about was how much I wanted to spoil you,â He whispers. Something in your body shifts the way touches you. Pushes in further and further - stretching until itâs easy for him to be inside. âSomehow everything I liked about you became so cute I couldnât stand it. I couldnât help but want to dote on you over every little thing even though I knew better than anyone you didnât need something like that.â Â
Your eyes well up but not necessarily from emotion. Totally overwhelmed. You donât feel like youâre gonna cum but thereâs something else thatâs waiting and each time he thrusts his fingers into you it comes a little closer. Your voice is shaking. Â
âItâfuck, quit talking. Somethings gonnaââ Â
His smile grows a little. Itâs the first time it looks so hungry. Â
âI was happy in general when I realized you liked me too. Even when you were being stubborn, I liked the way you couldnât turn me away. I liked how happy you looked talking to me as usual as if that alone was something so precious,â He hums, so focused and precise as he stretches you open on a third finger but never once losing his train of thought. Like saying all of these comes to him so easily it doesnât matter. âI didnât want to corner you. But it felt like I couldnât rest until you were mine completely. Which is why Iâm being so unfair to you. Why Iâm so persistent. âÂ
Your voice breaks on a whine. âItâs gonna come outââ Â
âYou make a pretty face when your heads filled with nothing but me. I donât think itâs bad to wanna stay that way,â He hums, almost conversational as he presses a kiss to your skin. âGo on. Let go,â Â
Something hot sprays between your legs as Umemiya fucks you open on all three of his fingers. Â
A rush of warm liquid squirts onto your sheets as your legs shake wearily. Umemiya marvels at the mess. Your hands curl into fists, nails digging in your palms as he finally pulls them out - leaving you stretched, almost gaping. Â
You lay limp in soaked sheets as you pull away from Umemiya with a very weak glare. Â
Heâs smiling at you, dopey and lovesick. Â
âToo much?â Â
Angrily, you smack at his bare chest over and over, trying to recover your pride. Â
âYouâre insane. Whatâs,â You swallow thickly. âWhatâs with you.â Â
He shrugs. Wordless, he flips you onto your back again before hovering over top of you. Pressing his forehead to yours, he brushes your noses together and plants a tentative peck on your lips as if trying to gauge whether or not youâre upset. He melts when you kiss him back, smiling happily. Â
âWere you like this with your other girlfriends? No wonder they broke up with you,â Â
He laughs. âMm, no? I was more of a gentleman.â Â
You break out into another exhausted fit of laughter. Â
âPfft, yeah? Guess Iâm pretty special,âÂ
âYeah. You are.â He kisses you again. âWanna keep going or are you too tired? I donât mind if we sleep.â Â
âStupid. I said it already didnât I? Hurry up and fuck me.â Â
âOkay, okay. Let me go get the condom from my wallet,â Â
You wrap your legs around his waist and stare up at him plainly as he tries to move, keeping him pinned in place. Youâre frowning, brows furrowed with a hard glare. He stares at you. Â
âDid you want something else? Water?â Â
âWant you to fuck me,â You restate, arms reaching up to circle around his neck. âJust do it already.âÂ
He pulls back to look at you seriously. Â
âDo you know what youâre asking?â Â
You flush. âOf course I do. Stupid. Are you trying to get me to say it out loud?â Â
âI might think Iâm deluding myself otherwise.â Â
You sigh, looking at him flatly as you try to tamp down the part of you thatâs screaming to be more tactful. Â
âDonât bother with the condom, a-alright? Or pulling out,â Â
He looks like heâs experiencing the shock of his life. âButâŠâÂ
âStop being dumb or Iâm never gonna have sex with you again.â Â
He nods suddenly solemn. âFine. But,â Â
You give him another look that silences him. He sighs again, getting the message before kissing your cheek and pull back to sit up on his knees between your legs. Pulling his briefs down, his cock springs free. It looks a lot bigger than you saw underneath the fabric, weighed down from itâs own weight even though it stands up stiff. He opened you up with three but you wonder if itâll be enough not to stretch you open. Â
You reach your hand out to touch it tentatively, feeling itâs weight and heft. He clears his throat but seems content to let you. The palms of your hands cup the shaft, feeling all the veins pulse. The tip is sticky with precum. You pull your hand away, another sudden wave of self consciousness overwhelming you. Â
Umemiya hovers over you again, placing he length of his cock against your pussy. You shift a little feeling it slide against you, hard and hot. Â
âGonna put it in now, okay?â Â
Nodding, you put your legs up. You take a deep breath when the head pushes in, letting out an involuntary noise. You feel well-stretched but the thickness of his cock is still enough to make you feel it in your legs. Umemiya is focused above you, barely sliding the tip through your folds as you open up around him. The air feels punched out of your lungs on just the first inch. Â
His face is strained is he holds his hips steady, leaning down to tap your foreheads together. âFeeling okay?â Â
âMm,â You nod, wrapping your arms around his neck. âFine. Feels different.â Â
âDifferent?â Â
âYours is bigger than all the stuff I own,â You explain. âFeels hotter. Harder, too.â Â
You feel his cock twitch inside of you suddenly, shocking you. He smiles sheepishly. Â
âGonna push in a little more, okay?â Â
You nod, watching as Umemiya so slowly presses his cock into you further. Enough that it doesnât hurt when you take him, as much as it just feels like something is inside of you. You feel a warm sense of satisfaction at how full you feel. You feel like him like heâs in your stomach, taking up so much space. After a while of pushing, stopping, and going again - he finally bottoms out. Â
âYou feel incredible,â He murmurs, half-smile on his face. Your stomach flutters. âItâs hard not to cum right away. Feels so good inside of you. I love you.â Â
You feel yourself twitch, frowning at the expression of delight Umemiya has. You put your hand against his fact to keep him away but he kisses your palm and moves it. Bottomed out, he grasps both hands and holds them - pinning them to the bed as you watch him wide-eyed. Â
âThink youâre used to it?â He hums, clasping your fingers together. âIs it okay if I move?â Â
You feel so damn bashful. âItâs okay.âÂ
He kisses your forehead. âIâll go slow.âÂ
As promised, Umemiya pulls out carefully before pushing back into you. Youâre so wet that it slides in without any real friction. It takes a few thrusts of him going slowly for your body to get adjusted to the sensation. After a few motions, though - it starts to feel different. Â
Starts to feel good. Really, really good. Â
âOh,â Your eyes flutter open. âShit. You c-can go faster.â  Â
âYeah?â Â
You nod, trying not to seem too eager.Â
When Umemiya picks up pace, you feel your the whole lower half of your body weaken all over again. Something in your legs, your spine go soft against the bed underneath, a sudden unusual arousal swelling. Somewhere in deeper as he cocks thrusts against your gspot, knocking against it with more force than before. The change in pace coupled with the visual of Umemiya over you, face drawn together in focus as he fucks you is too much. Split open on his cock, you can hear how wet you are each time he moves. Â
âFeelsâŠâ Your words come up empty. ââs so much.âÂ
âYeah? Is it too much for you, baby?â Â
You shake your head as your thoughts get increasingly cloudy. Itâs like thereâs nothing else your body can focus on. The way his cock drags against your sensitive, silken walls. The feeling of being full to empty and then full all over again. The way your pussy gets so much wetter each time he moves, sloppy and sucking him in so tight. You can feel your body want for him. Â
Umemiya lets go of your hands, sliding one between your bodies. Palm resting on your sex, he lets his brush against your clit. The difference it makes is significant, makes your eyes go wide. He smiles a little, hair falling in his face as he pushes it up with his free hand. Â
âThatâs it,â He hums, contented to keep at it like this. âFeels good, right? Your holding onto me so tightly itâs hard for me to pull out even though youâre so wet.â Â
You make a whiny noise and wonder if other peoples first times feel this good or if youâre just outrageously lucky. You decide on the latter he fucks you faster and matches his thrusts with the movement of his fingers. Youâre warm all over - skin scorching as your hands find his biceps and shoulders to cling onto. Â
Your voice is so whiny when you call out for him âYouâre so deep, ngh.â Â
He laughs, deep and raspy. âYeah? Tell me what youâre feeling,â Â
âIt feels good when youâre in me.â You reply drunkenly. âWant it faster. Please,â Â
He complies with your request almost immediately. You cry out loud, physically incapable of holding the sound in as he gets to fucking you faster and harder. Your pussy is throbbing. Senselessly horny, you pull Umemiya closer to you as he fucks you and smash your lips together. You feel so good, so thoroughly fucked and completely out of it. Heâs in you but you want him even closer, want the scent of his skin to mark you. Â
A second time your body builds up to that familiar feeling but itâs so much farther inside. An orgasm pulled right from your core. Stomach tied in knots as Umemiya fucks you hard, you wrap your legs around his waist and take him.Â
âThatâs it. Youâre so good. Cum on my cock, sweet girl. Let me feel itâ He murmurs against your skin, holding you close. âYouâre making me feel so good. So cute. Go ahead, itâs okay. Let me see how good Iâm making you feel.â Â
Pliant to his request, you hold onto Umemiya for dear life as your body gives into second orgasm. Your nails dig into his biceps as the built up arousal gives way pleasure - and you cum hard with his cock sheathed all the way inside of you. All the wind gets stolen from your lungs as you press forward with another kiss, your whole body trembling violently as you let go. Â
Umemiya sweet talks you through without letting go once, only stopping to take a pause when youâve fully ridden out your high. Â
You stare up at him in a daze as he takes a breather to kiss you, still hard as heâs bottomed out inside of you. Â
âYou gonna cum soon?â Â
âMm,â He nods. âYeah Iâm close. If I move, I will.â Â
ââs okay to cum in me,â Â
Umemiya laughs warmly. âIâm already about too. Youâre not helping,â Â
You smile a bit as you hug him close to you and tell him again that itâs fine. Before long, he holds you too, whispering the same three words into your neck as he finally lets it out. Itâs a weird feeling, thick white ropes of seed spilling into the deepest parts of you. Â
You donât really hate it, though. Â
âI love you,â Umemiya repeats. Tired you donât try to fight yourself. Â
âLove you too,â Â
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The next morning, youâre stirred away by the sound of your front door unlocking and the sound of Kotohaâs voice echoing through your apartment. Â
Youâre still half-way asleep, so it barely dawns on you that anything is off. Not cognizant enough to think twice, your body tries to go back to sleep. Â
Or it does until you hear a very loud shout coming from your kitchen that wakes you up with a start. Â
âNo fucking way,â Â
You sit up suddenly, hearing faint conversation before the sound of steps barreling towards your door. You just barely manage to pull the sheets up over your chest before she comes storming through the door of your bedroom. Â
You watch her eyes scan your entire room, mentally collecting data before she finally lands on you. As your brain starts to load back in, your eyes go wide with horror at the look of pure scandal on her face. Â
Fuck. You were supposed to be having dinner with her and Tsubaki tonight. Usually you confirm with them in the mornings since your up. Itâs not uncommon for her to drop in when you donât reply to check in since you live close by.Â
Fuck. Â
âYouâOh, I have to text Tsubaki-chan, I canât believeââ Â
Before she gets to finish her sentence, Umemiya appears behind her in your door way. The sight of him only adds fuel to the flame of your embarrassment. You went another round or two before bed last night and it looks like it too. Shirtless in sweats he left over a while ago, his biceps are covered in scratch and with a few hickies, heâs wearing his hair down with a cup of tea and a very apologetic smile. Â
You cover your face with your hands unsure of how to deal with the feeling of pure mortification. Â
Kotoha snaps a picture of your room that causes even more distress. Â
âIf you donât delete that right now, Iâm gonna kill us both.â Â
âIn your dreams.â Â
Umemiya laughs warmly. âPlease donât kill each other.â Â
He slides past Kotoha coming over to you. Bending down to kiss your forehead, he pulls the blanket up over you so youâre more well-covered. You give him an incredulous but Umemiya is unfazed - smiling as bright as ever.Â
âGood morning,â Â
âI canât believe my eyes,â Kotoha says. She points at Umemiya. âYou, go put on a shirt.â Â
âFine, fine. Stay for breakfast,â Umemiya says with a smile. âItâll be nice having it with my two favorite people.â Â
You make another face as Umemiya gives you a long, affectionate look before disappearing. She sighs as she looks at you, pinching the bridge of her nose. Â
âI would ask if youâre gonna meet us for dinner but you donât have a choice anymore so show up at seven. Iâm gonna leave before that tactless idiot comes back. Weâll talk later.â Â
You nod in understanding. She turns to leave but then turns back with a genuine smile. Â
âAnd, well - congrats. Heâs a tactless idiot but he does love you or whatever. Cherish each other,â Â
You flush, nodding your head. âYeahâŠthanks.â Â
With that Kotoha leaves quickly. Umemiya returns still shirtless, pouting a little when he notices sheâs gone. Â
âShe left already?â Â
âOf course she did. I canât believe you would invite her for breakfast.â  Â
Umemiya shrugs. âNo point being coy about it. I thought itâd be nice. I was looking for a shirt but I guess I donât need one now,â He sits besides you on the bed, turning to face with a goofy smile. âAnyways, good morning.â Â
âYou already said that.â Â
âYou didnât say it back,â Â
You frown. âGâmorning,â Â
He smiles suddenly before grabbing you from underneath the blankets and sheets - pulling your naked body ontop of him as he grins. Sunlight pours through the window as he holds you to his chest, kissing the crown of your head before pressing his cheek into your hair. Â
âMm, yeah. Itâs a really good morning after all.â Â
âYouâre stupid.â Â
âAnd you love me,â Â
You fail trying not to smile.  Damn him. You're so happy it hurts. You roll your eyes.
âI guess so.â Â
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Hii can you pls do a nanami and gojo(separately) make out fic pls??
Okay, let's do this with a little twist...
Getting caught while making out with JJK men
Pairings: Geto x fem!reader; Gojo x fem!reader; Nanami x fem!reader
Word Count: 2,2k
Warnings: well, it's getting heated babes, not 100% proofread because I wrote this in my work break (again lol)
Geto Suguru
You know how wrong it is. This is not the right time, not the right place to stand in a lonely corner with Geto Suguruâs hands all over you and his lips hanging onto yours like youâre air and he cannot breathe.
âFuck, we should get goingâ, you whimper into the lonely hallway.
In fact, getting going is the last thing you want to do right now. Not when Riko is busy saying goodbye to her former life, not when your emotions are all over the place. You hid your feelings towards Suguru for so long, tried to convince yourself over and over that you donât hold those kinds of feelings towards him. But when he allowed Riko some privacy, when you saw the glimmer in his dark eyes shimmering down at youâŠ
You were lost.
And you lose over and over again with his lips worshipping yours like no one did before, with him pressing you against a nearby wall. Countless nights, you pondered about the way it might feel to get hold like this, to actually feel him this close. But reality? Way too bittersweet, way better than anything you could have ever imagined.
âI donât want to leave you ever againâ, he mumbles against your parted mouth before starting a dangerous dance with both of your tongues intertwined.
That man who pierced through Satoru could be here every time, you need to fulfill this mission, need to concentrate on escorting Riko to Tengen-sama. After all, this might be the only purpose you have here at Jujutsu High: Completing missions after missions, doing as you were told.
No, fuck that.
This right here is what you live for. The sensation of Suguru hollering over you like a shadow, of him holding you like no one did before, putting together all your broken pieces.
âI love youâ, you finally hush.
âI think I always did.â
âI feel the same way, (y/n). God, I adore you more than anything else.â
Just when you thought your kiss couldnât get any deeper, couldnât make you lose your breath even more, he grabs your chin in order to gain better access of your mouth. Now youâre all yours, whimpering under his touch like a little girl.
Out of instinct, you wrap your arms around his broad shoulders, allow your fingertips to grab his soft hair for hold.
âHuh, really didnât expect to find ya here like that. Well, having fun before dying isnât a crime, ya know.â
Your blood freezes instantly as you pull away and get greeted by the coldest green eyes youâve ever seen. The man who fought against, Satoru. Without any doubt.
ButâŠYou eye him up and down, blood sticking onto his tight shirt without a visible wound.
Whereâs Satoru?
âLeave her aloneâ, Suguru instructs the man seriously while positioning himself in front of you.
âYouâre better off protecting ya little girlfriend from me. Sheâs cute. Maybe Iâll take her on a date when I killed you.â
Fuck fuck fuck.
Your heart drops to the floor, Suguruâs widened eyes revealing the urgency of this situation all too urgently. Out of all people who could have caught both of you this vulnerable, why on earth does it have to be him? There is no way Suguru will allow you to stay here while that stranger now knowsâŠ
âSheâs your weakness, isnât she? Maybe I can teach you a lesson about how freaking dumb love is.â
âGet Riko and escort her to Tengen-sama as fast as possible, (y/n)â, Suguru speaks out firmly while your eyes make contact.
âI canât leave you here alone, if he defeated Satoru-â
He doesnât interrupt you with words. No, instead he pulls you close, presses his puffy lips against yours until you feel like drowning in emotions.
âGet going. I donât want this to be the last time someone caught us together.â
Gojo Satoru
âGet away from me right now.â
Oh, how desperately you try to sound angry while the truth is, that you want Gojo Satoru as close as possible. Your eyes dart left and right, search for the unpromising opportunity that somebody catches you in this position.
This position.
You, caged between Satoruâs arms in the male dorm you arenât even allowed in, to be exact.
âCâmon, you donât want me to get away from you. After teasing me the whole day and giving me that looks, you want me to go? Try better next time, princessâ, he teases you while throwing his sunglasses to the ground without thinking twice.
âIf we get caught here by a teacherâŠI canât afford bad reputation, Satoru! What would my parents think, what if I get grounded, what if-â
âI know something better than using that mouth for hysteric talkingâ, he purrs with his face drawing closer and closer.
âPlease, you arenât even listening to me!â
A mix of panic, excitement and desire rushes through your veins, makes your eyes widen in sheer horror.
If your parents find out you were caught with a boy while actually, you are supposed to be a good student, youâll be screwed. Especially when they found out which boy you were making out withâŠ
Even though Gojo Satoru is considered the strongest jujutsu sorcerer of your timeline, your parents seem to hate him to the core.
âI donât care that heâs your classmate. If you ever get involved with him more than necessary, you will leave this school without a second chance.â
You swallow hard. No, there is absolutely no doubt in the fact that your father made his point very clear.
But Satoru does as well. When he wraps his arms around your waist, he catches you just in time before your wobbly knees give in. No boy ever touched you like that, no other boy ever swept you off your feet like that. The butterflies in your stomach become almost unbearable while you canât help but stare at his eyes.
Those oh so gorgeous eyes.
âI donât want to hide my feelings for you any longer. Fuck your parents, fuck their threats. As long as Iâm here, no one can hurt you.â
You let out your shaky breath you didnât know you were holding.
And then your lips collide with his. Slowly and sweet at first until your very own longing becomes too much. You grab his back, pull him closer, allow him to access your mouth. He tastes like your favorite chewing gum and strawberries, so sweet that you cannot escape. Longingly, you allow him to suck on your bottom lip until a whimper escapes your lips. This is so much better than you ever imagined, so much sweeter than you ever dreamed of. There will never be a boy apart from Satoru who sweeps you off your feet like this, who makes you feel this way.
âOut of all boys, why does it have to be him, (y/n)?â
Your heart drops so suddenly that you feel like dying right on the spot. That low voice you know so well by now, that low voice that means nothing but trouble at the moment.
âS-sirâŠYaga-sama IâŠIâ
You fail to find the right words. In fact, all you are able to do is staring at him with glossy eyes and messy hair that reveal oh too painfully what you just did.
You crossed the line you promised your father not to. You came to the boyâs dorms even though you arenât allowed to. And you got caught by your teacher doing so.
âWhy does a nice girl like you waste her time with trash like Gojo?â, he continues.
âCâmon, you donât have to be this me-â
âPlease donât tell my father!â
You let yourself drop to the floor, your head resting on top of your hands.
âI know itâs not my place to ask for something like that. But if you doâŠI will have to leave Jujutsu High.â
Thick silence hangs in the air, so quiet that youâre able to hear your tears fall onto the ground. You shouldnât see Satoru anymore, should end this relationship before it started.
But truth isâŠyou love him. Despite all the differences and your fatherâs hatred towards him, you love Satoru. You donât want to leave him and Jujutsu High, you canât stand the sheer fact of never seeing him again.
Still, itâs Yaga-samaâs job to inform your parents about your behavior, that you were caught in the boyâs dorm. And from there on there is no way out for you, no way to escape this fate.
âWhat are you talking about, (y/n)?â
Your teary eyes dart towards him immediately while you have to blink a few times in order to process what he just said.
âYou caught me in the boyâs dorm with Satoru. It is your responsibility to inform my parents about thatâ, you reply with shaky voice.
âAnd risking that youâll have to leave Jujutsu High? Youâre the only useful student of this year and probably the only one who is able to tame this idiot down. I didnât see anything today.â
âI am not an idiotâ, Satoru protests with a sly grin.
âYou can call yourself lucky a girl like (y/n) decided to keep up with you. I hope you wonât hurt her, Satoru. Or else, I might tell her father about it.â
And with that, he turns on his heels and walks aways as noiseless as he came, leaving both Satoru and you standing there bamboozled.
âSoâŠwhatâs the worst your father would do to me?â
âOh, heâd totally kill you if he found we made outâ, you reply instantly.
Nanami Kento
âI might be gone for a few days, darling.â
Gently, he caresses your back the way he knows you adore it while wearing a saddened expression on your face.
âWhat mission takes a few days? Why arenât they sending Gojo like they always do?â, you question with a pout.
You werenât really able to meet up with your boyfriend Kento for what feels like ages. During work here at Jujutsu High, you aim to be professional, to not show each other affection. After all, this is your job and both of you take that very seriously. But now that you havenât really seen each other after works for weeks, you canât escape the urge to simply hug him, to feel his warmth and take in his masculine scent.
Kento breathes out audibly while stroking your hair. Truth is, he misses you like crazy. Despite his desperate attempts to stay away from you at Jujutsu High, he finds himself wrapping his arms around you as well.
âThis is something serious. I canât let the students go out on their ownâ, he mumbles against your forehead before placing a gentle kiss onto it.
Your stomach drops in excitement immediately. After weeks without affection, just a tiny kiss on your forehead seems to be enough to drive you wild.
âI get that. It just frustrates me a littleâ, you reply.
When your eyes find his, they are clouded by a feeling you know all too well. Time stands still when his grip around you tightens and his gaze drifts towards your lips. Your oh so longing lips that cannot wait to get kissed.
Without hesitation, you close the tiny gap between both of you. Even though youâre standing in the middle of a classroom at Jujutsu High, even though you both agreed on keeping your relationship out of work life.
You simply canât right now. A swift motion is enough for him to lift you off the ground with ease while pressing your back against the cool wall. A whimper escapes your lips before youâre able to stop it, all senses directed towards him with your eyes closed by the sheer sensation.
âI missed you so muchâ, he breathes against your lips before continuing his sweet torture.
âMissed you as wellâŠsoâŠmuchâŠâ
You allow your hungry hands to re-discover the valleys of his muscular back, his broad shoulders, his oh so perfect face. How are you supposed to stay away from a man like him longer than a few hours? Him with his character of gold, body of steel and brain?
âNanami-sensei, I-âŠOh.â
Your eyes dart open immediately and find a utterly surprised Yuji Itadori staring at you with his mouth open.
âYuji, what are you doing here?â, you mumble while picking on your messy clothes in the most awkward way.
âWhy didnât I know that you two are a thing?â, the pink-haired boy continues, ignoring your lousy attempt to distract.
âBecause this is our private life. Why are you here, Itadori-kun?â, Nanami replies in all seriousness.
âButâŠThatâs awesome! You two go so well together! And I always thought that (y/n)-san is totally into you!â
âWatch your words, Itadori.â
âYuji, can you please justâŠleave?â, you literally beg.
âOh yeah, of course.â
âWait, Itadoriâ, Nanami instructs the boy just when heâs about to leave the room.
âDonât you dare to tell Kugisaki about anything you saw today.â
Yuji blinks a few times before nodding and leaving the room with a smile.
âHe will totally tell her everything. You know that, right?â, you comment, still trying to catch your breath.
âUnfortunately, yes.â
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Self-aware Honkai Star rail characters opinion on you being a streamer.
Characters: Acheron, Jingliu, Aventurine, Dr. Ratio
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Acheron
âHow⊠irritatingâ she said her annoyance overtaking her entire mood and body language. Being forced to be on stage for people SHE didnât nor about NOR care about.
Why must you make her suffer like this? She loves you, with all her being. But why are you airing her out to the world.. those âviewersâ of yours.
And thatâs another thing. How do they get to watch you? You shouldnât make yourself a fool for such unworthy humans. Have they even offered you a thing?
âAyyy~ thanks for the bits and 20â
âŠ.youâd allow them your gaze for a mere 20 credits? (Money) either your benevolence shines brighter, or itâs blinding you.
âChat what do we think of Acheron? I fuckinâ love this woman, sheâs SOOO fuckinâ helpful for grinding and destroying the enemies⊠white bar health⊠yeah cause thatâs what itâs calledâŠplease donât clip thatâŠâ
Acheron could feel herself blushing, so she quickly performs her idle animation, leaning against her sword trying to hide the blush and smile slowly forming on her face.
ChatterââSheâs good, but she keeps taking your attention from us :,(â
Instantly her giddiness is sucked away and locked in a coffin as utter annoyance and disdain grips her with an iron fist âStorm's on the horizon, heading towards youâ
âThat was perfectly fucking timed⊠did that sound different to anyone else?â Despite acherons slip up, that hatefulness holds her tighter, refusing to let go.
In short, She loves you-sheâs OBSESSED with you. But she WILL kill these âviewersâ if they stary your attention away from her one more time.
Jingliu
âWhat makes THEM so deserving of your gaze?â
Jingliu is similar to Acheron, but tripled. Unlike Acheron, she doesnât bother to hide her hatred for those viewers.
Chat: Yo (Streamer Name) you should-
Jingliu: Your Ready for death.
She says it like a statement and not a question. She hates these creatures who take your gaze off of her, she hates how a measly 5 credits is enough to get your attention.
Your benevolence is your best quality, but also the one thatâs easily manipulated, which simply makes her despise the fact that youâre TOO kind.
Jingliu hates the fact that your a streamer more then her not being able to âcut the starsâ with her sword. Why must you test her loyalty like this?
Is this even a test or a punishment for her crimes? Either way, this is too cruel. Being forced in the sidelines for a bunch of people who donât offer you anything of value.
Is her crit damage/rate not good enough for you? Are her stellar jades not of the highest quality? Perhaps her blade needs more⊠BLOODSHED.
Unlike Acheron, jingliu would VERY MUCH commit crimes to gain your attention. Like breaking the fourth wall, taking an enemies or allies turn to attack, KILLING her allies so that your attention would be on her completely.
In short, sheâs a much more blunt and unrestrained Acheron.
Aventurine
âSuch Troublesome detractorsâŠâ
Out of everyone in the game, heâs definitely the most laid back about your occupation. Mostly due to his luck.
Course heâs annoyed that some no-named randoms are taking the attention from his god off of him for seconds, but itâs really nothing.
Itâs extremely lucky that the characters havenât killed him out of jealousy (see what I did there?) This fuckinâ Avgin gets the most attention thanks to his kit and luck.
Y/n: Thanks for the Dono-
Aventurine: Eyes on me~
Y/n: Ooo~ yes sir~
Aventurine has a UNIVERSAL shit-eating grin while others are glaring death incarcerated soul-sucking daggers into him.
Aventurine would probably join in on the thanks if a viewer sends you money/bits/cheers nâ shit.
Not much to really say here, heâs just laid back to the whole thing.
Dr. Veritas Ratio
âStop this nonsense. Immediatelyâ
Dr. Raito fuckin growls anytime everytime you boot up the game, cause he knows 99.9% of the time your going to be joined by those brainless viewers.
Heâs completely baffled as to why a being such as yourself would degraded yourself to such⊠idiocy.
Thereâs only two possible reasons as to why youâd commit such acts. 1. Your benevolence blinds your logical reasoning, 2. You⊠enjoy it.
Dr. Ratioâs opinion on the viewers is that their brainless insects, he doesnât even care enough to be annoyed by them, theyâre just THAT low level of importance to him.
Y/n: Hey âStreamer Nameâ whoâs your favorite character?
Dr. Ratio: Do you have answers?
Y/n: I- that was perfectly timed.. DO infact have answers. Itâs (anyone that isnât him)
Dr. Ratio: Fail⊠Get Out!
(If it is him)
Dr. Ratio: Perfect⊠Twenty Points.
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hiii pookie I LOVED your hybrid post like it got me foaming from the mouth ngl 𫶠you're so talented!!
If you're into it, can we get cowhybrid! reader and Farmer!Gojo specifically please and thank you? I need to see the reader all needy and desperate and Gojo being the only one who can truly give her release and and what she truly needs (feel free to remix or add anyone/anything that you please)
If you're not into it, please ignore this ask instead of refusing because I get embarrassed hihiđ𫶠anyways mwah mwah love u take care pookie
ANOTHER TRY?
Notes: THANK YOU FOR THE COMPLIMENTS IM GLAD YOU ENJOYED MY WORK!!! and to the second ask Iâm very happy you requested that bull!hybrid work lLOVEDDD WORKING ON IT!! You guys are so creative I need to eat ur brain!!! THIS IS FOR ALL THE OTHER PEOPLE WHO HAVE BEEN ASKING FOR A PT2 I SEE YOU GUYS!!! (IF UR READING THIS TO MY OTHER INBOX OFC YOU CAN BE đȘŹ ANON!!)
Pairings: CowHybrid!Reader x Farmer!Gojo
Warnings: Lactation + big!boobedReader + implied chubby!reader + nipplesucking + grinding + mean!Satoru + pussy!slapping + teasing.
Gojo has spoiled you for far too long it makes his blood boil and temples wrinkle when you continue to go see Toji and Suguru, it becomes a habit for you to come back in the early mornings after having a night of âfun.â
Confronting said men proved to be so fucking useless, they just laughed in his face when he said heâd kick both of them to the curb should they continue to corrupt you.
âYou need us Satoru, why are you allowed to have your nightly routines but she cant? It was gonna happen eventually.â Tojis face was decorated with a fat sneer, all those times he tried to make sure you stayed as far as possible were all for naught, itâs hilarious seeing him seething behind a cool facade.
âNever knew what Toji seen in the woman but now I completely understand his point.â Suguru yelled from where he was transporting some wood.
Talking to them proved to be useless, as a little payback he made them clean the shed from top to bottom.
Trudging back to the main house in his thick boots Satoru comes to face you relaxing on the couch without a damn care in the world.
Why is he trying to get them to be on his level when he should be punishing you, youâre the one who didnât listen, youâre the one sneaking out every night. He doesnât know why he feels this hold on you, youâre such a beautiful girl that he canât help but keep you in this small bubble.
When your eyes land on him you donât say any kind of greeting, simply ignoring his presence for the movie on the huge ass tv he bought for you and eating the expensive food he bought for you.
You look extremely good right now, your fat boobs not swollen, but your pretty lips are. Satoru wonât say it but his pants tighten at the thought of what they do to you.
He needs you right now, heâll make it up to you as much as he can.
He approaches you calmly and collected, sitting down at the edge of the couch where your legs are propped up, you still donât acknowledge him. His trained hands start circling on your soft supple skin, you surprisingly donât push him away. You give Satoru an inch heâll take a mile.
He starts groping your thighs, the pudgy things hold within the creases of his hand. He pushes your thighs apart and gets a good look at your panties: you always choose to walk around the house like this.
Theyâre extra tight the way they emphasize your fat pussy, the groan that slips from his lips arenât-something he tries to hold back, he needs you to know how much he wants you, especially wants you all to himself.
The rise and fall of your chest makes you look so cute, why are you so shy all of a sudden? Youâre averting your eyes as well.
Satoru starts teasing your clothed folds, dragging his thick finger up and down, he pushes extra hard on your clit eliciting a small moan from you. He continues this for a little, he needs you wet to take him properly.
He peels off your soddened panties and positions himself above you, finally face to face with you. Your boobs are the first thing he attacks, pulling on your shirt and letting them spill out, the little droplets of milk call to him. Heâs grabbing one and putting it into his mouth: he loves your taste so sweet like honey as it cascades down his throat so smoothly.
âNghm⊠Toru..â finally youâve decided to grace him with your sultry voice.
He bites down a little on your nipple making you jump away. He reels you right back in and sucks even harsher, thereâs barely any milk left but heâs going to make sure he gets his full.
âToru.â You call his name so panicked and yet youâre grinding against his fully hard cock. Heâs so desperate in the moment that he unbuckles his belt and lets his cock bob free.
His fat tip prods agaisnt your folds, messing with your sticky wetness, he smears it on his tip even grinding down on your clit, but he doesnât put it in, you donât deserve that.
He teases you, pretending heâs going to give you what you want just to take it all away.
âPleaseâŠâ a harsh and loud smack is delivered straight to your clit, you yelp and buckle your legs closed.
âShirt, take your shirt off.â He commands, of course youâre gonna listen, Satoru has never taken that tone with you.
Your boobs now freely spill for him to gaze at. He spreads your legs back open.
âIâm gonna give you ten slaps, close your legs for even one Iâm restarting. Understood?â You nod and your ears move along with it. He likes this look on your face: confusion, arousal and a little bit of fear.
On the first slap you make the mistake of shutting your legs closed: completely an accident but heâs having none of it, he hits your little clit again and again.
âAhn..â youâre still so fucking wet by the sixth slap, creating a nasty mess that drips to your ass. Gojoâs cock is still throbbing, he jerks himself off, smearing his pre all over.
By the tenth slap youâre gone, completely dazed and only able to whine outloud, he decides that youâve had enough with the tears that sit on your eye line. He pushes your legs back and lines his weeping tip. The feeling of sliding into your sopping wet cunt is better than any pussy heâs ever had.
His strokes against you are fast even though he should be letting you adjust, the sounds of skin against skin meeting each other is downright lewd.
He tells you to rub your nipples, it adds so much more stimulation that you canât find it in you to hate it.
His cock drags agaisnt your walls over and over, till you canât feel anything but the sensitivity of your nipples and the twitching of his fat cock.
He fucks you like that all night, even when youâre meant to meet Toji and Suguru, you canât stop creaming around farmer Gojos length and nor do you want to.
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