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Superbat parenting babies would be a breeze in my humble opinion. Bruce's medically well-versed enough and immune to even enhanced interrogation levels of sleeplessness, and loves kids and would probably be happy reading them stories to sleep every night.
And Clark could always tell if the kid swallowed fridge magnets/batteries/something else. Also, tell me which baby wouldn't enjoy Clark's presence and calmness. They'd be like little hamsters cajoled by the steadiness of his hold.
#I think Clark has demonstrated pretty great parenting and he's also immensely kind while balancing out certain rules#And toddlers would beg to be flown around.#maybe this is too optimistic#considering that B's track record with kids isn't perfect#but I genuinely believe they have a decent shot#I feel like the gentleness and kindness of Thomas from Batman Begins is kind of a good example of what I'd picture a calmer Bruce's mentall#stable parenting to be like#batman#superman#superbat#clark kent#bruce wayne#and I'm also willfully ignoring some stuff/chalking it up to questionable writing/can't be bothered to make sense of everything that's cano
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So in February I drew Eiko in a Sailor Moon AU (a.k.a. Sailor Blood Moon), art which I haven't posted here and have archived on Instagram bc it's sadly a little ugly. 😔 So here is the AU again but in the manga artstyle.
This AU remains a favourite of mine, and I've also had the itch to study Naoko Takeuchi's artstyle for a really long time, bc I honestly think her style is gorgeous. The way she colours and shades is especially beautiful imo, and I wanted to emulate her style for the comeback of this AU, instead of drawing in the 90s' anime artstyle like I did with the art from February.
I am begging the Sailor Moon fandom to stop sleeping on Naoko's breathtaking artistic skills and yes I know about the fuckass proportions but jokes on you I like the fuckass proportions. They're iconic atp
Also in the manga there is some art of the characters in this chibi style in some pages, so I drew some for Eiko too! I like the sailor senshi one, but the civillian one feels like I didn't get the style quite right. I'm too tired to try to fix it, so I'm posting it anyway.
#I'm really proud of this tbh#obviously it's not 100% accurate to Naoko Takeuchi's style but I think it's a decent enough attempt :')#oc#original character#adagiorii oc#oc eiko#sailor moon#pretty guardian sailor moon#sailor moon au#sailor moon oc#digital art#digital artist#artists on tumblr#my art#my oc#oc art#original character art#oc drawing#oc artist#oc artwork#art#my ocs#also fun fact: this Tuesday my phone took a dive into a toilet and now it's possibly dying and I feel like dying too#it wouldn't be so bad if I didn't have over 1000 Samsung notes' worth of lore there#and old IbisPaint X art too#it has successfully killed my motivation#fml
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Unironically, I think that Saeyoung would enjoy carrying his S/O around in his arms the most out of all mysmes characters. Take a moment to think about it. He knows he's in good physical shape. But nobody else does. He avoids talking about it or showing it off. It's a rather big contrast compared to his other skills and accomplishments he loves bragging about in the chatrooms, even if he often muddies the truth to keep everyone safe from his true identity. And when someone does notice the defined muscle in his arms, he's rather dismissive of it. A strange: 'Oh, yeah, I got some muscle' attitude, before he casually switches the subject. I kind of feel like he has very negative connotations about his own physical strength.
Saeyoung is a protector. It's his best AND he's worst quality simultaneously. As a child, he was too weak to protect Saeran. He used his brain, not his muscle. Now, he's a grown man. A strong, grown man who's probably much more capable of protecting someone physically when push comes to shove. But instead that strength is utilized by him for shady jobs at best, and downright horrible crimes at worst. His strength does no good for him. But he's forced to maintain it nonetheless. To remain alive. In order to protect Saeran, he needs to remain alive. To protect his brother not with his muscle. But with his brain.
Now, imagine this. His perspective on himself changes greatly when you come into his life. You help him believe in himself, to fight for what he thinks is right, to have hope into the bright future where he actually deserves to be happy and free, along with his family. He has viewed himself as nothing but a fraud, a forever tainted fallen angel, but you make him see the good and earnest man inside him that has always been there.
And with you, he can use his muscles for good, for the first time in his life. He can make you smile, squeal, and giggle in delight as he effortlessly sweeps you off your feet and twirls you around, joining you in your fit of laughter. He can help you carry the groceries on the way to his car, such a simple and mundane gesture, but one he finds himself enjoying almost too much. He can make you feel safe as he carries you up to your shared bedroom, since you can just relax and nuzzle into him without any worry in the world.
Because he's got you.
I'm skeptical that Saeyoung will stick to the same workout routine he had to follow while being an informant. Once his father is out of the picture and he knows his family is safe, he can allow himself to relax. Indulge a little. But I do think he'll maintain some of his muscle mass, specifically in his arms. As time passes and you settle into the quiet life of domestic bliss he's always dreamed of, his shape will become more supple and round, but his arms will always be there to remind you that he'll forever be your anchor.
And for him to remember that his strength can now be used to make someone happy.
#mystic messenger#mysmes#mysme#mm#saeyoung choi#choi saeyoung#luciel choi#mystic messenger 707#WROTE THIS ON THE SUBWAY TRAIN BC BRAIN IS VIBRATING HOPE IT'S DECENT#riding to work thinking of my blorbos#also i did write the whole 'now he's a grown man' thing but i kinda don't like it but idk how to phrase it better 😭#a grown adult???? a grown person??? human??? idk doesn’t sound the same#but saeyoung's gender is very much fluid so he can be a pretty girl when she feels like y'know y'know#eugh i'm too sleepy and rambling maybe i'll clean up these tags once i have my shot of espresso
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Seeing how some people talk about Mythal is insane. Not to say she isn’t super sus and done a whole lot of bad things but the way people try to frame it like everything Solas has done is somehow her fault is insane. He is a grown ass man who can make his own decisions! Pretty sure I saw someone talking about the “I release you from my service” line like Mythal was somehow controlling him the whole time through elfy magic when it’s super clear that’s the shade of someone Solas cared for and feels responsible for getting killed telling him that’s it’s okay and he can stop trying to get revenge in her name. That he can finally let go of everything he has been holding onto.
It seems super obvious especially with how it mirrors the talk with Varric in the regret prison where Varric absolves Rook of the guilt they feel for his death because it was his choice to talk to Solas just as it was Mythal’s choice to talk to the Evanuris. Rook and Solas didn’t cause their deaths but that doesn’t change the fact that grief often manifests as guilt because you’re so often left with so many what ifs, so many things you wish you could have said or done and wondering if you might have been able to stop them from dying if you’d have done something different.
The reason Solas is able to finally make the right choice in the end is because of Mythal telling him that it wasn’t his fault that she died and he doesn't have to keep on his path of destruction to bring about the world he thinks Mythal wanted because he feels like that's the only way to atone for her death. Mythal and Solas made all those bad decisions together and committed some terrible wrongs and as the last man standing Solas is desperate to make it all mean something that he has blinded himself to everything else. Mythal was the only person to truly understand the weight of the guilt they both bear for their actions and so its only her that can offer him absolution for their mistakes because after all these years Solas sees everything as his own fault so Mythal acknowledging the part she played in leading him down the path they went down and telling him its okay to stop, that he doesn't have to continue walking on the path just because he feels it what she would have wanted.
Mythal and Solas are the only two people who know the true damage their mistakes have caused and while Mythal was able to accept and grow past it and appreciate the world as it is, it was Solas, Pride, who saw his only recourse was to try to make things right even at the expense of everything the world has become. Mythal offers him both apology and absolution in the end and that is what finally gets Solas to stop. Mythal is the only one that can properly understand and acknowledge the depths his grief and offer him the solace he needs to finally let go of it and begin to live not in the past but with his feet firmly planted in the present and his eyes towards the future.
#feel like i'm definitely missing some parts to this bc this was mostly a shower thought i wanted to share#but i do think its a pretty decent reading of the complexity of their relationship and their shared sins#solas#mythal#dragon age
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i admit that i find it a little bit frustrating how Wildly Astonished other antizionist jews act when i tell them my israeli jewish family have lived in the region since [some unknown length of time before 1800 when there start being records about it]
#and then they're like ''ohhh they're mizrahi!'' [connotation nonwhite‚ virtuously indigenous]#and i have to be like. no. it's just that‚ as palestine was in fact ottoman-administered greater syria for most of the last 600 years‚#you could get there from other parts of the ottoman empire. such as the part of now-ukraine your ashkenazi family is also from.#it wasn't actually a hermetically sealed arab-only ethnostate that evaporated immigrants on sight. it was a pretty decent place to live as#a jew by at least some accounts. or better than the front of the hapsburg-ottoman war anyway which is where they were coming from.#i'm not sure who you think it's serving exactly to believe that there were literally no ashkenazim in the middle east before the 1st aliyah#however there were some. and this information does not actually threaten a modern anti-state of israel position like at all.#but since apparently you've constructed your new Diaspora-Centric Identity around the idea that 'palestine' and 'diaspora'#are the two mutually exclusive nonoverlapping regions and the former is ontologically a no-european-jews-allowed zone#i guess i can give you a minute to try to figure it out.#ugh sorry this is nothing it isn't anything. for one thing it's fantastically unimportant#and for another thing i don't know how to like talk about it in a way that doesn't make me sound at least kind of like im trying to justify#myself as being somehow less complicit or something. i mean i think my complicity as an american dwarfs the rest of it honestly but.#i just feel really insanely alienated where the rhetoric of my theoretically most closely politically aligned group is not really built to#like. accommodate the facts of my family history.#sorry. i have honestly no idea why im so obsessed with articulating this concept ive just been chewing on it pointlessly for days#box opener
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oh.. So I just found 16 IS the final volume good god... So that volume would have both my favorite chapter of this series and the worst chapter(s) of ANY PIECE OF MEDIA I'VE EVER ENCOUNTERED(this is a personal take) in the same book oh god no....I thought it'd be separated into two volumes, there is no hecking way I ever want to set my eyes on the later chapters of this series, it feels so terrible!!! I was thinking I have to look up some reference to draw that fan comic series I'm drawing because there is a character design I need reference of (yes.. Sarina in 163) but I have to brace myself for even that. The later chapters hurt. It's made me suffer but in a very hollow and meaningless way for me, things felt very unnecessarily cruel. I hated it.
I was; thinking of buying the one w 154 in it and making it my last(I have all the physical copies so far) but goodness.. Hahaha
I bet the author knew splitting the later chapters as separate volumes would be bad on the sales. I get that, but this is the worst!!! I learned the existence of 166.5 too and hahah, I only happen to read the outline but it's so bad...omg akane's into occult??? What.?? I'm glad Kana went to hollywood but seriously??? Is this a joke? and Well I'm glad Ai's not there, glad she's not ruined, I'm actually pretty sure my.. What I've been making out of this series could be better in some aspects, oh I'm ACTUALLY relieved they don't discuss my favs in the added content too! What a relief!!
This comic is, I'm so sorry to say this, but it's so dumb!!! And rude!! Goodness!! Ugh!! Oh I'm.. I..; I'll def give at least a few characters from this series some sort of better closure in my fanwork, I sound so entitled rn I'm sure but, it's TERRIBLE... The original piece is badly written!! Wow, this series had the most ugliest and unfulfilling ending I've ever seen and I'm really sad about that. I devoted a lot of my passion and time and love thinking about it. I wonder what the author has on their mind but l'm sure they know what reception their work would have, it's not their first work either.
I felt really distressed reading the final few chapters of this piece but maybe it wasn't even worth feeling that grief over, I felt really distressed. It actually hurt;;;because it handled a lot of these emotional pain and certain subjects really bad. Things felt so helpless and awkward, I've never been this disappointed about something I read and that is a lot because I had a lot of let-downs. But maybe it wasn't even worth clutching my head over trying to make sense and devote my efforts into deciphering and analyzing things after all. But oh I'm so glad they don't discuss anything about Hikaru and Ai even in the added content in the volume(seems like it?) They don't- I'm sure the writer holds a lot of love towards Ai, I think she's the best written character in this piece(look what happened to Aqua; I can't even say he's written so well anymore and I liked him a lot before the final arc!!)-give them ANY justice
I can chill and do whatever I want w them now omg, idk about Ai but I think I can write Hikaru better, how are they even going to make the anime's third season with this mess I can't???;
I actually wanted a physical print of 154 but I don't want to have those later chapters on my shelf, it feels terrible to read them. It's just unnecessarily painful and it got engraved to my brain in the worst ways, I just don't know why the author would do that, I wanted to love their piece so I kept hanging by and it was so ugly.
This is a very personal take and I know it sounds emotional and all and you may not agree with me!! but I feel this way upon having learned these things. Incredible.
I'm so conflicted. I did want 154 but am I going to risk getting the book for the sake of it. The cons are way too strong. Hikaru I'm so sorry for what they formed of you as a character, the writer ditched you. I don't blame the artist, I blame the writer. The art IS good. It's ridiculous, but maybe it's safer that way. I hope they don't have anything to do with that character ever again, and Ai as well. I'm thankful they weren't ruined any further. Not in a sarcastic way, I'm sincerely relieved. What a piece this is.
#this shouldn't be put in the tag omg#I'm sorry for the negativity; wow but#oh they shouldn't do this to the anime staff omg#I'm pretty sure my theories abt hikaru's right??? it makes everything like 90% more comprehendable#why aren't they doing that?? they put in the hints!! it's all there#this series is...not very good.#the ending is really bad in my opinion#not just bad..I find it so harmful...it didn't tackle the important subjects with the responsiblilities it needed to!!!#it had so many chances to be good. decent. there were so many different options#at this point maybe they made sarutahiko mad for having portrayed him and his wife like that and thus; diverged into the worst path possibl#random blabbering#oh I know I shouldn't criticize someone's hard work like this but this piece was totally a fever dream of some sort it can't be real#I'll complete my fancomic.. I was so scared I portray things wrong but.. I think no. I think I can be confident#I feel really bad;; why did they do this to their own piece of work
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If you ask Mush, winter is one of the best times of the year, but it seems he's one of the only people in the lodgings that feels that way. What starts as a way to take Blink's mind off of the now cold, dark months ends up being a bigger scheme than even he was imagining, and he's more than happy to take the opportunity to plan a celebration that'll have everyone raring with holiday spirit. With help, of course.
OR: Mush throws a Christmas Party.
#MERRY CHRISTMAS#of course the second I try to upload is the second ao3 goes down istg#no matter- it's all working now :D#I'm decently proud of this one but I think it's mostly just my incredible bias towards mush- any story with him in it is going to be good#I'll probably try and write some more for him at some point to really hone his narration and like voice and stuff#he's such a good character to me and I want to make sure it's coming through#but for something that was only meant to be a little project to get me into the christmas mood I'd say it's done pretty well :D#have a load of mush and david besties agenda on me- a present for all of us this christmas#I seriously hope you all enjoy- and I hope that everyone who celebrates in some way has an amazing holiday!!#i love you all so much mwah#my writing#my stuff#newsies#newsies 1992#92sies#mush meyers#david jacobs#kid blink#blush#newsies fanfic#newsies fanfiction#jack kelly#he can have an honorary mention because I'm feeling generous#dutchy newsies#because he's actually in it too#maybe even more than jack oops#anyway#see you all soon
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dead by daylight-- the game where you can play as steve harrington from stranger things, and can get sent to partake in a match of murder hide and seek at midwich elementary from silent hill, where you can then use a lute to perform bardic inspiration from dungeons and dragons to give a bonus to your teammates, except for the one who is being chased by nemesis from resident evil 3.
#dbd#thoughts about media#yes steve's jacket is bugged. it's done this before but I didn't think it'd do it again.#better than whatever the hell bug aestri has rn with her face.#girl looked like the fucking unknown.#anyway I was lagging WAY. WAY too hard to try another match for a better picture with a different skin.#I just remembered I unlocked bardic inspiration on that day my internet actually cooperated and I HAD to see steve play the lute.#it's so cute. the survivors all smile when they play. T___T I have to see gabe. claude. and nancy do this.#but I'll wait until my internet isn't getting me randomly downed by zombies.#I'm pretty sure my lag got elodie killed too so I feel kind of bad but it is also sort of funny that I wasn't even playing-#-killer and still managed to get a survivor killed.#not that I haven't done that befoooore.... or that I haven't done it deliberately in the past...#I will never forget you RPD ghostface who showed me he had the matching “I'd kill for you” heart charm to my “hooked on you” one.#and then killed a david for me when I asked him as a joke LOL. we watched his body ascend in the entity's spidery limbs together.#it was a beautifully romantic moment <3#generally speaking I am a decent survivor who will die so you can get out. like a good steve player should be.#However. if the evil man that I find sexy is nice to me? I'm so so sooo sorry for what you're going to endure if he only wants to spare me.
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(Spine about to buzz out of my back)
Time travel au that digs into what a slap in the face it would be from fate if Shizuma was Itachi and Kisame's son.
Itachi seeing that the peace he spent the majority of his life trying to build has finally come to be. But at the cost of damning (at least half of) the next generation of their clan to the same mistreatment they'd already faced for so many years. Seeing his son face the same sort of scrutiny the Uchiha had, just under a different clan name this time.
Kisame seeing that after everything. Kirigakure is still soaked in lies and deceit. Punishing those who can see clearly enough to call it out.
Them seeing the continuing cycle of scapegoating Kisame hated so much + Itachi was forced to carry in his life.
Seeing the same "This dog is bad! When you strike it it bites!" situation play out again.
Them realizing their lineage was set to suffer through similar pains to them despite it all. And knowing that no matter how well their decendant was dressed up + how beautiful Kirigakure sounded from even his spiteful accounts. The faults they tried so hard to rid the world of were still there. Just hidden better now.
Them looking at this boy, who has been unable to learn anything of his Uchiha heritage due to circumstances, and actively sabotaged from learning anything about the Hoshigaki part. This boy who can't visit a single grave in his family because they're either in forgein lands or have been destroyed on government orders. Half are under a stone because of Konoha and half aren't allowed under one because of Kiri.
And the village wonders why he feels like there's no home for him in this current world, jfc.
#shizuma hoshigaki#Shizuma#Itachi#Kisame#Kisaita#Itakisa#Hoshigaki#Fun fact if I so much as see Shizumas name it puts me into a spiral of misery and pain#I may be decent at recognizing overlaying themes and character points but by the gods do I suck at putting it into words#So most of my attempts with Shizuma just sort of feel like I'm pointing at a bunch of rocks going#There's Gold In There! Did ya guys see the gold! Shiny#Fools gold is still pretty don't come at me /j#Not writing it out before bed when I've been awake Forever would probably help but#I am not patient enough for that
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i. do not want to go back to uni in a few weeks
#i. feel like you're not supposed to hate uni this much. or want to drop out on a daily basis#like. i Hate it. its nice being apart from my parents and stuff but uni in and of itself is so annoying and so much workkkkk#i feel like complaining is kinda shitty tho since my parents are paying for most of my tuition and i actually have pretty few#loans compared to most people (esp for the school I'M going to.......) like .#i Dislike it but also i'm not gonna just . take that for granted >.>#hopefully my degree will get me Somewhere at least . i can write for viddy games. i'm a good writer#well. a decent one. people don't Hate my writing at least
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me and my friend were playing outlast trials and now I keep thinking about what it would be like to play w/ my f/os,,,,,
I feel like it'd go off the rails FAST. Since I'm kinda just a goofy runner at this point. Like they're doing stuff to be helpful and I'm just on distraction duty / lead away from the homies duty. Also if any moots ever wanna play together hmu.
#genuinely feels like it'd be a blast#but also ik the game is pretty gorey and uh. wild#but I have a ton of fun w/ it since I never take it seriously#I'm a decent looper and pretty good w/ puzzles#My friend has the ' I crouch everywhere ' thing where I'm running and jumping over things#My other friend I plyed with: I was the tech guy and she was the runner#it's really funny to see it change#⌞❦ wyrmsom rambles ❦ ⌝
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oooh what kind of things do you bake? I'd love to try them sometimes 💞 have a sweet day!!
hello anon!!!!! thank u for giving me an excuse to talk about BAKING
sooo just before covid i took a 3 week dessert course and kind of became obsessed??? during lockdown i used to watch tons & tons of videos on process nd technique instead of physically yaknow Doing Anything bc i hated the idea of ~wasting ingredients~ at my mediocre skill level which looking back was an insane approach but i kinddd of think it helped bc when i started making things more regularly the improvement was p quick !!
my fave thing to bake is pastry (puff, choux, shortcrust, filo) so basically any kind of sweet tart/croissant/eclair/profiterole/pie ❤️ i also love a savoury curried egg or chicken puff but that's kind of a gamble bc what EYE think is an okay level of spice does not fly for everyone else. when it comes to large batches for a party or something i usually stick to sweet 2 be safe
pictured: fruit mascarpone tart → mango danish → tiny baby pains au chocolat <33
course i make cake and stuff too and it's FINE but i also know lots of ppl who are better at it lol. i'm pretty Terri at piping anything more complex than a simple swirl so when it comes to deco i tend to stick to covering the top with store-bought macarons/fruit and calling it a day. also maybe it's just me but full layer cakes are such a hassle to cut and store...... i adore a cutieful low commitment CUPCAKE tho <33
my order of preference when it comes to baking is pastry > cookies/brownies/cupcakes > layer cakes >>>>> bread. ugh BREAD i cannot figure her out but i Want to...... someday...
thing is bread is honestly such a delicate process where ur final product will flop unless the ratios are justé right and u proofed at something.000001 degrees and mercury is in retrograde whereas the rules of pastry are more relaxed and intuitive and involve doing vaguely unhinged things like holding fistfuls of ice cubes before you handle ur dough so the heat from ur palms doesn't melt the butter... it's also great for LAZY BITCHES LIKE ME because a "4 hour recipe minus baketime" sounds intense until u realize 3h15 mins of that is just chucking the thing in the fridge between rolls
choux au craquelin is probably what i make the most often. love a textured little cream puff!!! versatile and scalable and easy to transport... she's that girl truly
also today i remade the mango one i was telling k about and it turned out muchhh better with a chunkier filling yay 🥭
convinced i'm never going to get a pretty cross-section in my life but wtvr they still tasted good !!!
goals for the future:
bread but specifically this yummy pesto babka i had in february
creme brulee donut......... need her
crookie but less dry bc i've been kind of unimpressed by the ones i've had so far
something citrusy w/o relying on chocolate as a crutch
basically i really love baking! like experimenting/trying new recipes ofc but also just the process of consciously altering and improving upon stuff you've already made :')
and yeah feeding ppl is bonus <3 hope u have a good day too!!!
#sorry this got kind of long gkdjjk#thanks again for this ask anon it was fun!!!!#tbh with most things i do i kind of feel like a talentless hack just going thru the motions but#i've got a decent amount of pride when it comes to pastry#there's a ton i don't know/could improve but as it stands i think i'm pretty good ❤️#answered
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He's late!
Jekyll as the White Rabbit from Alice's Adventures in Wonderland (for my au). This wasn't intentionally Easter-themed, just a wildly timed coincidence 😁
#that is a comically large pocketwatch in case anyone was wondering idk if that's clear#i hope this is at least a decent jekyll drawing i love him so so so much but i never feel like I'm doing him justice#but I'm kinda proud of myself i worked pretty hard!#tgs#the glass scientists#tgs jekyll#jekyllposting#tgs aaiw au
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tfw i have $948cad and rent is $980 AND MY PLACE IS A WRECK
#lay text#i'm okay i'm fine i'm chill i'm SO RELAXED#it's due on the 1st and i'm applying to freelancer & upwork jobs like a madwoman like i've been working on stuff all day everyday#and trying to sell so much stuff on facebook#including things i rly like but i just have to :']#c'est la vie!!!!!!!!!!!!! capitalism!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#disability aid DOES NOT GIVE ME NEARLY ENOUGH#crying wailing slamming my head on my pillow etc etc#i really really hope things work out#i really hope my stupid flaky client will ACTUALLY PAY ME FOR THE WORK I DID AGES AGO............#she was on holidays and i bet you a billion dollars she'll blame it on her dumb client again. i mean i still rly like this woman#and she pays pretty decently-ish#but holy shit#earlier i got super discouraged and felt so crushed#but at least i did a bunch of shit today and i have to let myself feel proud of that much at least. it's so much work. it never ends#all i want to do is focus on my writing/youtube/activism stuff#but i have to keep doing dumb shit i don't care about#and my apartment is a mess :((#i spent all day working on marketing my services on freelancing sites etc and i'm so drained but i have to vaccuum and do my dumb dishes#and i wanna game w my friends later but my brain is fried#january will most likely be rly rough hahaaaa i guess i'll dig myself deeper into credit card debt to pay rent and after that uh ???????#who knows#just keep working hard begging ppl to hire me#and um. pray to the goddess or smth. i did not expect so many extra costs in december and i kinda did this to myself#i need to not bully myself too much ugh#i want to work on the lay & the gyns projects too#but idk how much time i'll be able to dedicate#it's not like i'm not trying hard or working hard to benefit society or whatever!!!!! i spent all my time focusing on activism & writing et#but somehow it's just considered not enough#i'm rly hopeful i can get a grant for the lay & the gyns business since we'll do marketing for sapphic businesses/freelancers
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Sannyo's Flowers
You occasionally see art of Sannyo with flowers:
The reason for this is not only that Sannyo Komakusa is named after the Komakusa flower, but also that she named and themed her Spellcards after Japanese mountain flowers.
Mountain Sign "Heaven-Shaking Kumomagusa" / Mountain Apparition "Astonishing Kumomagusa" (depending on difficulty)
Mountain Sign "Usuyukisou Shining with Bewitching Light" / Mountain Apparition "Usuyukisou of Thronging Crowds of Youma" (depending on difficulty)
And of course, her namesake
Mountain Flower "Komakusa of Massacre" / Mountain Flower "Mountain Queen of Massacre" ( depending on difficulty)
Even her nonSpells resemble flowers.
Its extremely cute that instead of modeling them after smoke, or gambling, she chose some of her favorite mountain flowers. She has very unique tastes, especially the Usuyukisou which aren't quite conventionally beautiful but they definitely look like lasers with sunlight shining off of them. Though they certainly have their charm shining in the sunlight.
She actually has a few flowers in her den in Lotus Eaters as well.
After Mizutaki released the script for a bunch of Lotus Eaters. Including LE29 and 30, it was revealed that both her dragon divider and flowers were part of ZUN'S script, making Sannyo's flowers primary canon!
We aren't likely to be seeing them in Lotus Eaters again since Sannyo can only keep them on the mountain, but it's really great we got to see them when we did. It's nice knowing she canonicaly takes care of some in addition to modeling her Spellcards after them.
Also last but not least, the Title Lotus Eaters gave her was.
a very appropriate, and poetic title for her; and it explains why she loves tough mountain flowers so much. she's a bit of a mountain flower herself after all.
#sannyo komakusa#touhou#lotus eaters#sannyo#東方project#cute#touhou project#unconnected marketeers#touhou 18#gambling#STG#Flowers#I bet Sannyo and Yuuka would get along very well#I'm not able to identify the flowers in Lotus Eaters. But it's really impressive they are doing okay indoors.#She's got some pretty fun Spellcards considering she's stage 3. I especially like “Komakusa of Massacre ”#I posted just the link to kajatony's art so make sure to check out the full image. It's remarkably beautiful and Sannyo's cute#Actually. Now that I think of it. I'm surprised nobody has done a Yuuka x Sannyo ship yet.#And since Yuuka likes visiting seasonal flowers it's not even that unlikely on the mountain. Surprisingly workable ship.#The Usuyukisou was hard to find a decent site on. Maybe because it's a rare mountain perennial people see it as more of a weed#Unconnected Marketeers#I definitely want to do more detail on her Spellcard flowers later but wanted to introduce her love for them first.#Not all Kumomagusa have 6 overlapping pedals like her Spellcard. Some have 5 evenly spread ones.#I might have added too much here. Maybe I should have stopped at showing her Spellcards for flow. But I wanted to show the Lotus Eaters one#I really need to personally get screenshots for her Spellcards. They deserve better definition photos#I feel like I should properly say “alpine” flower but i thought writing it plainly “mountain” flower would seem less ostentatious
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you can always tell the people who give social media advice who are naturally or conventionally attractive even without even having to look at a photo of them cause they're always the ones that recommend showing your face in reels or videos to promote your art and it's like,,, talk about pretty/skinny privilege lol
#it's one of those days folks#brb going on an extreme diet (jk but not really)#okay but really. all jokes aside Even if I WAS thin or lost a bunch of weight...#I'm still just fundamentally unattractive enough that I think i would lose insta followers if I showed my face in reels or posts 🥲#idk I know it's better for the algorithm but eh. i don't want to subject my subscribers to having to look at me lol#and I would wear makeup but I'm so bad at putting it on that I look worse with it on 😭😂#If i was good at make up i legit wouldn't leave the house without it#that said. i do have decent skin health 🤔 I get like. less than 1 pimple a year IF that. So that's something to be grateful for i suppose#but if a genie offered me a chance to be pretty for ONE day but in exchange I had to give up ALL my talents. interests. personality. etc#and i could never get those aspects of myself back for the rest of my life...#I would 100% take up that opportunity LOL 👍#anyway feel free to ignore me I'm not looking for compliments (I don't think anyone on here even knows what i look like?)#(which is by design lol and trust me. be grateful you don't have to look at my face haha)#I'm just venting into the void bc a mutual on insta did a reel where she showed her face and I was like#*shocked pikachu face* oh she's pretty#oh. oh so THAT's why i never should show my face. I'm pretty toad-like in comparison 😂
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