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spookykestrel · 9 months ago

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The worst part about not going to college is there not being an easy time to move out

#I have like no friends and all of them still live at home or live at college #I can’t afford to live on my own #I don’t know anyone who needs a roommate #there’s nothing pushing me to leave I don’t haven’t he money to leave #bUT I CANTIVE HERE FOREVER #my mom be like ‘wrll if you’re gonna be in a bad mood (overstimulated) you should just leave the room’#but when I leave the room she’s like ‘wtf are you in a bad mood why don’t you wanna spend time with us’#kestrel calls #chitter chatter #text post #there’s so no natural progression from im your legal responsibility part of the family living in your house #and I am my own independent person who is living in your house #and obviously there’s differences from living your family than with a romance #but I wanna be able to just do my own thing yk #at least I can be in my room on my laptop with the door shut 🤪#I hope once we move there’s stronger boundaries

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look-at-the-stars-tonight · 2 years ago

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I don’t care what the plot of the community movie is as long as it starts with a shot of Troy and Abed cuddled together in bed and sleepily singing “Troy and Abed in the morning” as they wake up

#community #Trobed #Troy Barnes #abed nadir #community movie #no this won’t happen but I enjoy being delusional #I woke up this New Year’s Day with this image in my brain so I had to inflict it upon the rest of u #it’s a giant bed btw cause they live in a mansion cause Troy successfully completed pierces challenge and won his inheritance #and abed is a successful filmmaker #and they live in LA now #Troy does ac repair or car repair for fun #he doesn’t need to but he needs to do something with his time #and he mainly focuses on apprenticeships #and teaching those skills to high schoolers who can’t afford to go to college #can u tell I’m very attached to the mechanic Troy idea #he has a GIFT and it bothers me that it was completely set aside #he doesn’t necessarily need to use it but I like the idea of him starting his own school #except this time it’s not a cult #and it’s to show people that u can have a successful career WITHOUT college #the trades are valuable.#ok I’m done #actually no I’m not #he comes home every day and gushes about his students #‘abed you won’t BELIEVE how quickly Tony can diagnose and replace x!’#can u tell I know very little about cars #and then abed makes a film about Troy and his kids and they get a SHIT TON of money and all of it goes to scholarships and expanding #the school #yes Troy has money already but also running a repair shop and training kids for free is Expensive #and they both live happily ever after.#NOW I’m done

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burgerspeople · 5 months ago

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the mental health is not mental healthing right now

#tw: mental health #I am so sick of living at home because i can’t afford my own place #and I brought it on myself with my financial recklessness #but I’m trying so hard to get it fixed and it’s so HARD #I love my parents but goddamn they #I’m truly convinced that my mom has recently decided she hates me or something

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overcaffeinated-aro · 27 days ago

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I got an email from my grandpa today and all the draft responses I’ve been working on in my head sound like an 18th century letter that’s going to have to travel for months to reach him.

pandemic year 5 really has me feeling like me and a very small handful of people I know are living on an entirely different plane of existence than everyone else

#like I haven’t seen him in over a year. I’ve seen him 3 times since 2020 #so I guess on the isolation and slow communication front it’s pretty similar #he used my chosen name. I haven’t changed my email yet but he used my chosen name #I don’t even care at this point if he never gets my pronouns right #I thought I’d never be able to tell him. I didn’t want to find out his politics were more important #he’s quiet and kind and he gives people expensive gifts any time he can afford it but he constantly forgets people’s allergies #so he might get you something you can’t have but whoever you pass it along to will love it #he cries at weddings and during church services and sometimes random holidays #he passes out in his rocking chair at every family function #he’s the unofficial photographer of every gathering ever since my great grandfather stopped being able to walk as much as the job requires #and he voted for trump in 2016 and has afaik an active nra membership #he once complimented my outfit by telling me he’d call me a stud if I was a guy #which like. ok. I have some notes #but uh. thanks?#idk I’m just. it sucks being so far away from everyone and everything because the rest of the world is ignoring an ongoing pandemic #I’m missing so much of my life and others lives and even parts of my own transition #I can make steps to reach out but it only goes so far if poeple #are unwilling to mask or vaccinate or even just ask what needs to happen to make it safe #so I don’t. idk. kill my partner #or become even more disabled than I currently am #my family’s been making steps and they’re taking me seriously but it’s all so slow and I’m still sore from bracing for rejection #I’ve been bracing for rejection for so so long it’s terrifying to reach out. about anything #this is not condusive to a healthy relationship lol #not sure what to do other than bonk myself on the head and say ‘get better’ tho #*bonk* ‘try again’#one step at a time ig #ahshitherewegoagain.jpg #.txt

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floral-hex · 4 days ago

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BABY WATCH 2024!

First 24 hours with the new kitten. Thought it was a she, but did a closer inspection earlier and I’m leaning towards a he.

Anyway, the good stuff: he is the sweetest, most well behaved kitten I have ever seen. He’s an angel. He spent most of last night sleeping on my chest. I haven’t had such an actively affectionate cat in ages. The two I have now are sweet, but they don’t really cuddle. This little dude does. This little dude is awesome. He follows me around, doesn’t get into things he’s not supposed to, and instantly knew how to use a litter box. If he wasn’t so young, I’d think he was an abandoned indoor cat. But he’s baby. My baby. Still needs a name, though.

The not so good stuff: I DO NOT need another cat! I live in a small apartment with two other adult cats and a small dog. New cats are also expensive! He’s gonna need shots and to get fixed and, to be painfully honest, I really don’t know if I can afford that now. Shit, I’m basically out of (human) food until I can get some cash on friday. It’s rough. I’m really anxious. I love this little guy. I didn’t just pick a random kitten. I’d seen him outside a couple of times and I just… I hated the idea of this way too trusting little guy trying to survive out in the world. He just kept crying out at me and following me. There are other stray cats around, but this one is so small and so sweet and he followed me home and he loves me so much I literally started crying while holding him bc I didn’t want him to ever have to fight just to survive out there. I hate it. I mean, I love him, but it does make me feel kind of sick inside bc I know it’s not exactly a smart decision to take in a stray right now. Life sucks. He’s curled up next to me in bed now and if he wasn’t so tiny and sweet and wonderful, I might be okay not keeping him & letting him stay outside with his friends. I’m glad he’s not a human baby or I’d really be freaking out right now.

Anyway, I’d die for him now so it’s a done deal. My baby now.

#baby watch 2024 #I love him!!!!!#im also really anxious and sad about how I’m going to afford/live with another cat #this is why I can’t look at the adoptable cats at pet stores. it will 100% ruin my day.#absolute unobtainable dream would be to one day own a large piece of land and adopt/foster as many strays as possible #blegh… stressful #but he’s a little angel so it’s okay #it’ll work out in the end #the juice is worth the squeeze as they say #a baby #I should say I do have a ton of experience with raising kittens #things were kinda… out of control when I was a kid #at one point my family had almost two dozen cats in the house which sounds terrible I know #hoarders level terrible #there were a few stray cats we fed and then took in #and then they turned out to be pregnant and had babies everywhere #so yeah we had a ton of kittens #we managed to get most of them adopted though so it wasn’t like we were living with a horde of cats everywhere #just long enough for them to ween off milk and be adopted #it was a very rough time #so this past day I’ve been having a lot of flashbacks to taking care of kittens #skipping school to take care of them. in like 5th grade. stressful. not smart life decisions.#what can I say I’m dumb as hell #this isn’t important #you can ignore this #text #mine

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neotula · 1 month ago

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me on an average day: why the fuck am I like this

me the moment i renter my childhood home: oh yeah. that’s why

#this is about coping mechanisms that are often detrimental outside the environment they helped you to survive #tula rambles #me living outside my childhood home: why do i have to have constant stimulation? i should work towards a healthy goal of being comfortable #in my own mind #me at childhood home:oh god please give me something to distract me from all this #like outside childhood home it’s almost detrimental how scattered i am and how distracted i am #wrt how i struggle to stay grounded #but here I can’t afford to be grounded #i have to be. in a haze.

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steviescrystals · 6 months ago

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i seriously need to get a new job and start making money again asap bc i cannot keep living at home much longer it’s driving me insane

(wrote an entire essay in the tags without meaning to oops)

#i feel so isolated from everything bc i’m not in school rn but all my friends are and 90% of the ones who are in state go to the same school #so they’re all in the same town and here i am 45 minutes away #i never get invited to anything bc 1) my friends all tend to make plans really last minute #and 2) if we want to go out and drink - which we usually do bc that’s the stage of life we’re in rn - i’d have to stay the night with #someone bc i absolutely cannot afford a 45 minute uber home and most of my friends don’t like staying over / having people stay over #so i have basically no social life and it’s only gotten worse in the past couple months since i got laid off from my main job #not only did i love that job but i loved my coworkers and work was pretty much the only time i left the house and interacted with people #and without that job i can’t even do the little solo things i used to do to cheer myself up like go see a movie #or even just go for a long drive bc i’m broke (as in i have $17 in cash to my name and am like $1000 in debt rn)#so all i do is rot in bed all day and apply for jobs that i’m overqualified for yet still don’t get hired #i barely even leave my room bc i avoid my family which just makes me feel guilty bc i love my family #but they get on my nerves so easily and most of the conversations i have with my mom end in her lecturing me about something and me crying #and on top of everything it’s just straight up embarrassing to be unemployed and completely directionless about college and living at home #logically i know i’m still very young and it’s common to live at home when you’re 20 but literally none of my friends do #i had a couple friends who lived at home for the first 2 years after high school and went to community college but by now they’ve moved out #and they’re all at universities and either graduating this year or next year meanwhile the earliest i could possibly graduate is in 2 years #i should be finishing my junior year rn but i’ve only completed my freshman year #i hated the school i was at and planned on transferring sophomore year but long story short that didn’t work out #even longer story short i ended up doing a semester each at 2 different community colleges and failed all my classes both times #and took 2 semesters off so now i’m a full 2 years behind and even though my freshman year was miserable #i’m starting to wish i stayed at that school anyway bc at least i would be at a university and accomplishing something #plus theres a huge difference between staying at home for a couple years after high school then moving out later #vs living on your own right away then having to move back home after you’ve already experienced having your own space #and on top of everything i have an older sister who’s a literal genius and graduated last year #and a younger sister who just finished her freshman year at the school i hated but she loves it and got perfect grades and made friends #so they’re both thriving and here i am living with my mom and my 13 year old brother and just completely failing at everything #i’m just so miserable and obviously moving out again and going back to school wouldn’t magically fix everything #but at least i would feel like my life was going somewhere and i wasn’t getting left behind by everyone i know #i just have no idea how to move forward and i feel like ever since high school not a single thing has gone the way i wanted it to #vent

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flowercrowngods · 1 year ago

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i just feel like it really tracks that i should be ending this year needing to find a new job, a new apartment, and strength enough to live alone

#2023 really has a personal agenda against me i swear #it looks like i’m gonna have to move all the way across the city but i just checked and there aren’t a lot of flats rn #and those i contacted haven’t reacted and are now gone which yeah of course #and i’m gonna have to live alone. there’s so much change coming in and i just wanna be a tree #my parents suggested i move back in with them but if i do that they’ll have to put me in a mental hospital for a year #god i just. wanna stop.#and not move even though my life is pointless and stagnant but i can’t afford this flat on my own and it’s too big anyway #blah #not st #personal

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ajxrn-archive · 4 months ago

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I’m going to. rip my fucking hair out.

#Why why why can’t I enjoy anything ever like it’s so draining I can’t even explain it #Everything makes me anxious and I really REALLY don’t think thats normal nor do I think it’s just general anxiety #I want. answers genuinely but no I can’t see help because of my mom. I probably won’t be able to find out what my fucking problem is until #I’m like. 18 or older #Well into my 20s even #Fuck. it’s like. would I even be able to afford a therapist.#especially if I got disowned/kicked out #I keep trying to convince my mom to get me help/try to get me a diagnosis #and she just doesn’t want to fucking. help me. it’s not even a money thing it’s the fact she DOESNT GIVE A FUCK about her child’s mental #problems and health. Besides if I got diagnosed with like. adhd like everyone says I have (I think it could be that or something deeper) it #would literally end in her getting MORE FUCKING MONEY like our homeschool funds thing would give us more money for like #disability or whatever. if it were adhd. I forget.#I’m trying to use that to convince her and she just doesn’t listen #but honestly it’s like. what’s the point. I know I would feel better if I had a diagnosis because I would know the actual cause of my issue #and would easily find ways to combat it and help myself instead of listening to everyone say I have adhd without a diagnosis and go by that #Because everything I do to try and help with adhd doesn’t fucking work with my deeper mental issues.#And to be really honest I think it’s a personality disorder and I’ve done my own research and I show majority of BPD symptoms #And it’s commonly mistook for adhd. But I would NEVER express that to my mom because she would twist it into me being abusive and awful #again like. fuck even if I can’t get medicated I know I would feel so. so much better about myself knowing WHY I’m like this #Instead of living my life questioning what the fuck is wrong with me #I’m so sick of being different #if you read this. why would u put urself through that.

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kihteyu · 4 months ago

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Anytime I mention how expensive rent is the answer is always “just get a roommate” but it’s a BAD answer

Idk I just don’t think being forced to have roommates at 25+ should become the standard. We, as adults, shouldn’t have to live with strangers our whole lives just to survive

#roommates should be a college only thing #and if you WANT to keep having roommates after that it should be optional #the fact I know few people who can actually afford to live on their own is ridiculous #including me #I make more than min wage and still can’t afford the average rent in my town #so here I am scrambling to find a roommate #I fucking hate it here #and I’m ace aro so living with a partner isn’t going to happen #personal

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thegoblinpit · 5 months ago

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Me? Trust the government?

#in this economy?#while Hobie Brown is watching?#while I can’t afford basic healthcare?#when they’ve committed and hidden or been complicit in multiple genocides?#while gas is $4?#while living through so many historical events in my quarter century of life that it’s like a shitty soap opera?#while being homeless or trans is a crime in at least one state near me?#while the promises of my youth are now all proven to be fiction and exclusively reserved for a generation before my birth?#while we have a two party system?#while corporations own the country?#while my country is the laughing stock of the planet?#while the burning shame and anger inside me rips apart my mind because I’m powerless to change things?#while the two candidates are a convicted sex offender and an alleged sex offender #while I’m romanticizing the idea of living in a Ghibli film instead?#when I see the ways they’ve brainwashed the generations before me into constant fear?#while I’m systematically healing from the ways my country’s predatory systems have tried to devour me?#while knowing that they only care about the humans they can profit off of and even then only as cattle #while I could be whimsical and silly instead #goblin posting

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cavillary · 9 months ago

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so I need to go on anxiety meds bc I can’t continue to have panic attacks at work, but I can’t drink alcohol on meds and i’ll lose the ability to have an orgasm.

AND until my body gets used to the meds (my doc wants to try lexapro bc of my anxiety and depression), there’s a high chance it’ll increase my anxiety levels, brain fog, issues i’m already having.

I have no idea wtf i’m supposed to do 😩

#i’ve been wanting to get out and date more for the first time since I was like 19 but it’s so daunting #add in all of this and how I can’t afford to live on my own as an adult bc teachers get shitty pay #and i’m in school for some continuing education certification #how am I supposed to live

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idolsgf · 7 months ago

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we found a place we really like but of course an offer has already been put in 😖

#personal #tbd #i’m going to rant a lot so you can skip all these tags #it was so nice and I could see where things would go #and it was relatively affordable for what it was #but someone put in an offer and if we wanted a shot we’d have to put in a counter by tomorrow morning #and we were not prepared for all that #just so annoying #like i don’t know why it’s still competitive out here #the tech boom has died down #and the city is mostly empty bc nobody can afford to either live or own a business down there #the governor is also bought out by the housing lobby #so obviously no rent cap 🙃#i’m so tired #the rent keeps going up but my pay stays the same #and i have a decent paying job now but i still can’t afford anything

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minty-muse · 9 months ago

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If anyone would like to be roommates™️ it would literally save my life right now

#I’m serious #I can’t afford to live on my own but things are headed in that direction and i don’t know what to do at this point

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mailperson · 3 months ago

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this season is the first time I’ve like TRULY lived alone in an apartment to myself and my brain is still conditioned to hearing misc bumps and noises from the building or outside as “the others who live here”

#I am on a sort of kind of scholarship I can’t afford my own place by myself lol #so I am not likely to live by myself beyond the next coupon years

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palms-upturned · 8 months ago

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#meg talks #screammmmssssss corporations are so evil man.#why is staffing getting leaner and leaner why are our benefits worse why can’t i afford healthcare #(the answer is straight up greed)#i remember a quote from…… chomsky i thiiiiink?#about how employment under capitalism is basically a dictatorship that we are asked to believe that we consented to living under #when ur on the clock (and even sometimes OFF THE CLOCK!!) ur employer can dictate not only what u do/when u can leave #but also how you look and speak and move and emote and feel and think #and even outside of your job site your employer determines whether you can afford housing or food or healthcare #this company owns my disabled body. i can’t stop coming to work and i also can’t get treated #if i said half of what’s on my mind rn i’d end up on some kind of list

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