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chrisevansonly · 2 years ago

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A Very Beachy Night Out 🌊 (Little Duck AU)

pairing: chris evans x female reader (momma evans)

summary: it’s time for a date night and chris knows just the spot to get away for a few hours…

warnings: slight mentions of angst maybe, overall fluff

a/n: in HONOUR OF 900 FOLLOWERS I know i’ve been slacking on little duck so i wanted to pull something together to say thank you and how much I appreciate every single one of you!

word count: 877

The breeze that drifted across your shoulders rose goosebumps across your skin as you sat overlooking the water, Chris sat next to you only his eyes weren’t on the view, they were on you. How your tanned skin glistened under the soft lights in the private cabana you were both sat in, the way your eyes were sparkling and just how happy you looked. It was your last day in the Bahama’s and Chris wanted to take you out for a date night, and it was your first night away from baby Wes, but you had so much family with you, it wasn’t a major worry for either of you

“You look so beautiful”

Your eyes moved to focus on Chris, your face flushing because no matter how many years you’d both been together, he always made every moment feel like a first

“Thank you, baby, you look quite beautiful yourself”

He chuckled taking your hand in his

“I’m going to miss the beach, but I definitely miss home too, dodger and all the animals”

“Yeah, we really have quite the farm going now, don’t we?”

You laughed nodding in agreement before taking a sip of the peach martini that rested in your hand

“Honestly feel like we should have bought an actual farm, but good thing we’ve got all that space to build, Arlie’s going to keep bringing home different creatures”

Chris couldn’t help but laugh at that, in all honesty he knew Arlie would start to find animals of all shapes and sizes and you’d become more of a rescue centre than a family farm. Though if you were being honest, you’d been debating making a career change from a district attorney to maybe more of a holistic stay at home approach, but take clients on in smaller quantities, which would not only give you more time at home with the kids but could also let you spend more time with the animals, which is something you’ve always wanted.

“Where’d you go honey?”

You smiled shrugging

“I was just thinking about the future, there’s a few changes I’ve been wanting to make recently”

“Oh yeah? What are you thinking”

“Well, I think I want to step back from the DA’s office, maybe take clients on my own time and my own terms? I’ve always wanted to expand our little farm, and maybe I can do both while being home with Wes and Arlie…?”

Chris smiled, taking you hand in his and pressing his lips to your knuckles

“I think that sounds like a great idea baby, and whatever you choose to do, no matter what path you want to take, I’ll be there every step of the way”

You knew he’d support you no matter what, but the confirmation from Chris was enough to have you leaning over to press a kiss to his lips

“I love you, so much…thank you for loving me, and supporting me the way you do”

“I will always do my best to be there and to support you no matter what, I love you to the moon and back”

Food was suddenly brought out which caused your stomach to growl softly, only causing the two of you to laugh with one another, in a way being with Chris made you feel like you could be entirely yourself. You’d often look around at your work gala’s and see coupled hardly interacting or just in a state of constant seriousness, yet when you were with Chris it was the total opposite. You both still had a childish side to you, never letting yourselves stay serious for too long, you brought the best out of each other and even these quiet date night moments were proof of that.

“I’m glad we came here and took a vacation, I won’t lie seeing you struggle after Wesley is something that hit me harder than anything else had, and watching you slowly come back to yourself, start smiling again and just let go, that was worth more than this entire trip…I am so proud of you every day Y/N, your strength and resilience is something I will always admire”

The tears that lined your eyes were quick to appear

“Dammit…”

You let out a tearful laugh, catching a few stray tears before leaning on Chris’s shoulder

“Thank you for loving me regardless, and for helping me find the sun after all the storm clouds, that sounds cheesy but, I wouldn’t have been able to do this without you, you’re the best husband and the best father, we are so lucky to be loved by you”

Chris could have said something to reciprocate just how much he appreciated you saying that, but he settled for a kiss filled with only what you could describe as pure love and adoration. You couldn’t imagine your life with someone else in it, this past month had shown that, but so had every other year you two had been together. Soulmates is a term you’d only really believe when reading one of your romance novels while waiting for Chris to get home from a shoot, or meetings, but you were starting to think right now, in this lifetime, you’d found your soulmate…and Chris would say the exact same thing too.

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fabi2kool · 8 months ago

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‧₊˚✧5 YEAR ODYSSEY✧˚₊‧

10 YEARS AHEAD: In ten years I will God willingly be 29. If all goes well I am a dentist by now, specialized, who knows only time will tell. I would have graduated for a couple years by then so hopefully I have a stable job maybe working at an institutional dentist. My biggest hope is that I didn’t throw in the towel. I wonder where I went to school, high school me wants to hope usc dental school college freshman year me thinks I’ve lost my marbles and don’t want that much debt and hopes for me to not stay enclosed to something my younger self hoped for. Its okay for things to not go exactly as you want. As of now I just want to go somewhere with the least amount of debt possible and graduate enjoying the journey. I’ll be pushing 30, that reminds me of that one friend's episode but hopefully I’m not too far from my parents by then and feel good about where I am in life. Everyone around me will be even older, jeez. Scary thoughts. My nephews will be around my age now, I hope they're going down a good path. Overall I see myself close to my family, with the job I’ve always wanted, and doing something good with that. So far I haven’t figured out what, but hopefully by then I should.

Tangentially Related Path: Girl if I’m not a dentist I have no clue what I could be, props to doctors but that doesn’t seem like my jist. Maybe a nurse but ehh. There's nothing tangentially related I would do if I’m being honest, I’d probably start a business. Nothing major but something that for sure gives me bank. Anything else I’d want to do requires me to completely change the course of my life right now.

Entirely Different life path: I think about this quite frequently, if I didn't put so much pressure on myself would I have tried so hard? If I hadn’t found the “perfect” answer as to why dentistry would be pursuing something else? I don’t particularly like the idea of letting myself imagine what could be instead. Only because there's so many other interests completely unrelated to dentistry I could choose. In a different life I’d want to be a lawyer, more specifically an immigration one. I think its an ideal career. I'd be passionate about the direct help I could be to those who remind me of my parents, only I’d want to do more to influence the children of immigrants. Children like me and my friends who grew up not knowing of all the opportunities out there. I know I’ve been blessed with great parents who worked as a team and had my mom to guide me and my siblings almost all the time. However most of my friends didn’t have that, and its a recurring cycle for the majority, so something with more of a direct impact to my community.

In the end I want the same thing in different ways, to somehow give back to my community. The ways to get there are completely different, but my hopes are that I am a dentist because it’s something I want for myself. I hope that through my career I can help people who don’t have the luxury of affordable healthcare and in that way inspire others to pursue higher education, to know that they can have other options than what is stereotypically believed.

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shamelessrabbithole · 5 months ago

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i was reading your previous asks and wanted to add something to them! okay so, the hotel thing being the same he ‘shared’ with other partners is something that i find a bit uncalled for! i have noticed he has a ‘path’ of doing things with his partners (bringing them to the same places, doing certain instagram posts, travels etc.) which imo is what makes it hard for him to keep the relationship going, it always ends up in a break up and he never changes ways of doing things so at some point he should realise that everyone is different so he should focus on the person, creating new memories, experiences (in different places and such) and also change something about him or the way things are dealt. i also think he’s very pretentious, im not saying that you can’t like art or be into things that make you ‘profound’ (does it make sense?) but the way he shows it and acts about it gives it off as him trying to fit into that category cause he knows it’s cool. he knows he good looking and that + being into those things make people fall for him over and over. he kinda knows how to make people fall all over him and to me that feels like he might be lacking a bit of proper identity (which can happen when you are a child actor) i think about this one post he made in the past. it was post-work out. he was naked and took a picture that hinted he had nothing below but still wouldn’t show it all (thankfully) and commented how it seemed like he was a fuck boy but he isn’t. to me, he really is that but knows it’s not a good look to be so direct about it but still wants to show off (maybe back then he tried to get someone’s attention like that. who knows!) he seems pretty immature when it comes to that, trying to get girls attention in specific ways. he never looked genuine to me, maybe when he was younger (around s1/2 of shameless) but he probably noticed people were all over him and the ‘power’ his looks had and never looked back from it. which is also why i think noel is the type of person people want to be ‘serious’ with (to reference the other ask!) he seems more serious about his life and relationships. he doesn’t seem to enjoy ‘chaos’ or the need to show off to people. it might be because he’s older or because he grew up in a different setting/family, who knows! i feel like if i had to choose which one of them i would rather spend a day with in a room, it would be noel cause i definitely feel safer when i think of him/see his interviews. he’s genuine, comforting and i don’t sense him being a try hard. i think the fact that frenny’s actress adores him and sees him as a proper uncle shows how lovable and ‘safe’ it feels to be with him. i also started to notice how cameron’s smile started looking less genuine as he grew up, i look back at pictures he took with the casts or even with noel in season 3/5, those looked very soft and charming. from there on i just got the ick from it because it looks like he always has to impress someone and show off.

The hotel thing is definitely something that feels repetitive in a way that would upset a new girlfriend if she was blindsided by it. I agree.

I think some of the pretentiousness you see in Cam makes him off-putting, so I'm not sure I'd agree that he "uses" it to make people fall for him over and over.

Being an actor from a young age and the way he was raised have a lot to do with the kind of person he is today, for sure. It's different from how Noel grew up in significant ways, that's also true.

And I've noticed Cam's smile having a disingenuous look to it often, as well. Especially with fans.

As for how serious he is about his life and his relationships, I don't know. I think he's outgrown that "fuckboi" desire for attention, but not entirely. He strikes me as a guy who's recently entered his thirties and is career-focused and financially savvy; not so much looking to settle down, but is quietly enjoying his life to the fullest while he can.

#shameless tea #shamelessrabbithole #ask me stuff #ask me anything

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sitp-recs · 2 years ago

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im here!!! noisy anon 🙈 i wanted to ask you where are you from, first of all! also this is mostly because i’m at a point in life where i have no idea what i want to do : what’s your job and how did you come to find this path in your life? 🤔

Hello again! I’m originally from Brazil but I’ve been living abroad for the past 5 years. I work for a consulting firm which may sound fancy but in reality it’s a stressful, target-oriented call center-ish environment. I hate it but I’m good at it and because I work well under pressure I’ve been promoted twice and so I’m staying until I can find something that pays me better to work fully remote 🥲

I’ve had the luxury of getting to choose my graduation and really loved my field of study but my current job has little to do with it. This is something that took me a long time to accept, the disenchantment of making a materialistic choice to sacrifice both my mental health and intellectual gratification, but the immigration process has significantly affected my career path too. That means I can’t offer many helpful insights, except maybe for this one: a job is just a job. It serves a purpose and almost anyone can be trained to do anything. And that can be a comforting thought when we’re feeling lost and/or aimless, I guess?

Don’t get me wrong, it’s wonderful to work with something you love and get that feeling “YES, this is where I belong.” I’ve been there and it was extremely hard to let go. But most people don’t ever get the chance to experience a dream job because real life responsibilities rarely allow us the luxury of waiting for it. So whenever I get disheartened thinking that I had to take so many detours that I’m not at all where I wanted to be, I take a deep breath and decide to be gentle to myself, and understand that I did my best within the circumstances. Once I fully realized that my job is just a way to pay my bills and does not (or should not) reflect my value I felt much lighter and started seeing things in a different way. That includes pursuing activities that bring me joy - such as fandom - for the simple pleasure of it, without feeling guilty for “wasting time in a non-productive way”.

I won’t offer personal advice because I don’t know your struggles and I reckon education/job systems differ a lot from county to country, and now that I think about it I don’t think my commentary was all that helpful 🤣 but I can offer this post as a space for more people to share their insights on this topic. You’ve got this, anon!

#asks #anon

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secretariatess · 2 years ago

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“In countries where women are getting education, the birth rate is much lower than countries where women’s jobs are to get married and have kids.”

Maybe it’s not so much that educated women spells doom for the birthrate, but rather how countries with educated women treat women. For example, men often have the ability to strive for both a career and a family. But for women, a career and family are presented as a “choose one or the other.” And then there seems to be this expectation that women will just naturally choose family over career, because that’s what they’re “biologically wired to do”?

Yeah, it’s easier for guys to be able to do both. But I honestly don’t think that a woman should have to choose one or the other. There are women who aren’t just naturally inclined to choose having children over everything else. Maybe they want kids, but they also want to pursue a certain career. Women are multifaceted- they don’t have a single interest in raising children nor should they be expected to want that as their sole job/goal in life. So in a culture that presents the two as an either/or, women who don’t feel strongly about being married right off, or have a larger interest in a career path, will end up choosing the career and being forced into sacrificing having a family.

I know it’s possible for women to have both, and do it successfully (my brother is the stay at home parent while his wife works- some have a part time job with their spouses, etc.), but these options aren’t always readily available to women’s attention.

It’s not even “traditional.” Women worked in addition to having a family all over the world. Some of those jobs weren’t even easily done around rearing children- there were/are cultures where women did/do hard labor such as working the field while caring for children.

I don’t think that’s the only reason why birthrates are down. From country to country, it will vary (America’s reasons will be different than Japan’s reasons for lower birthrate because of culture). I know for here in the West, there are many choosing not to have kids because they don’t want to interrupt their lifestyle. Someone else pointed out that women who do want families are hesitant because of unreliable men, and they don’t want to have kids with a guy who may end up just making them a single mother. But I think that one step in helping birthrates could be figuring how we can make both career and family accessible to women instead of making them choose and then blasting them for making the wrong choice, based on where we stand on the issue.

#in a lot of discussions about falling birthrates #there also seems to be a lot of blame placed on women #''women aren't having enough kids!''#and all that #I don't think this is solely a woman's issue #I think there's probably blame on the men's side as well #as they say #it takes two to tango #and I know there's abortion and usually it's the woman's choice #but you can't convince me that there aren't men who pressure the woman they got pregnant to abort

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xiabablog · 2 years ago

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I’m autistic and i enrolled into a university to learn coding because they said they have learning support to help autistic students. But since august it’s just been so stressful and feels like they actually don’t care at all about how hard this is for me. I haven’t been able to do the work because their schedule is too much for me, the lecturers just don’t care and have been passive aggressive to me in their emails even when I try my best to be polite. I don’t know what to do. I’ve been suffering from health problems that i cannot sort out on my own and the stress from the university just makes it worse, leading to me not being able to work even more. And they don’t understand that either.

Today i received a voicemail from them that if i don’t get back to them soon they’ll just remove me as a student. I am terrified of what will happen if my parents find out, they threatened me before that they’ll kick me out. I have no place to go if that happens. But i just do the work under these conditions.

I know this is a lot, but maybe you could give me some advice. Do I stay in university? How.. Or do I just accept that and how bad it’ll look that I’m a uni dropout and probably won’t be able to get a job either after this?

Oh my goodness.

First of all, I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. One thing is being autistic and having difficulty with school life, I have a little cousin who is autistic and she needs extra help in learning just to get by like her non-autistic peers. Obviously, not all autistic people are the same but there is a trend of needing extra help in learning. WHICH your university said they would provide but they didn't in the end. That really sucks, so I'm sorry about that.

I already assume that you explained numerous of times to the university that you need help or extra time or whatever because of what you're going through but they still haven't helped. Honestly from that, I wouldn't stay in that university at all because that's just one year, what about the rest of the years studying? It's not fair on you and possibly be wasting your time and affecting your mental health because of it.

One suggestion: Find a community college to study at instead. Maybe the same course and something different.

I don't know what your career path is but learning how to code isn't something you have to go to university to learn. Obviously, if you were studying something like data science or machine learning etc, the university route is the best route to getting a good job, but for practically anything else you can self-teach yourself.

Have you considered being self-taught? If the teachers can't provide the help you need, maybe teaching yourself at your own pace is the better option. But it all depends, being self-taught requires a lot of discipline and focus! Studying online courses, earning certificates online, building projects, fixing your resume/CV and just going up from there. It also depends on the field you're studying towards!

About being kicked out, I seriously don't know what to do on that part. It's sad that your parents are not understanding the situation and just leave you on your own because you choose to not put up with what the university is doing to you anymore is super unfair.

The 'safety net' here is just to stay at that university but it's becoming too much for you. If you leave there is a high chance you get kicked out of your home. What about the option of explaining everything about university being hard PLUS the teachers refusing to help you properly? And then mention possibly entering a community college instead? Maybe they just don't want you to not do any higher education? My Dad was like that and refused me to not be doing anything for years; it was either university, community college or apprenticeship.

If being kicked out is a super high chance, you should look at resources online from either the government or local council/government that can help you because the risk of homelessness should be a high priority as that affects everything in your life and you'll be worrying more than you were before.

If anyone else reading this has any advice on what Anon should do, please comment 🙏🏾 Obviously I am viewing this from my POV and how I would handle this situation. I wish you the best of luck and if you need any more help, my DMs are open always! I hope I helped a bit, as what you're going through is a lot.

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alyjojo · 10 months ago

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Libra Yearly Career & Finance Reading 🪖 2024

Preshuffle: Moon energy, you don’t know what to do, fumbling in the dark, keeping busy at work but mostly paying the right-now things, there could be a lot of outstanding debt that is in the way of reaching your goals. You don’t know how to fix this or if you even can. For some, these debts may be due to a divorce or someone leaving you high and dry, with payments you can’t make, things in your name that weren’t your fault, or other specific things where there’s nothing you can do. You think?

Meditation: You were drowning and I couldn’t even see you. It wasn’t people but waves 🌊 that lifted you up out of the water and into The Sun ☀️ where you could finally rest. It wasn’t about taking action per se, it was survival. Others around you may need to help lift you out of a difficult situation, I heard “get you out of there”. Or again, it wasn’t people, it was Spirit, things may play out in your life to redirect or “save” you. Whether you see that or not idk. You just went to sleep, exhausted from struggling, finally able to. Things will come to you at the right time, could be an offer to pay debt cheaper, could be a friend that goes through it and shows you how, pay attention to things that are too coincidental to explain. And if you get an offer, take it ❤️ It’s like Spirit is trying to get to you, but you may be “fumbling in the dark” or can’t see it because of struggle - understandably. This could be showing a need to separate yourself from your emotions - water. In true Queen of Swords fashion. Into light, clarity, happiness, truth, where we can see you. Some of you may be bringing your struggles to light in a public way, online, writing, music, or just to your own people that don’t know.

Main Energy: 2 Wands

Jeez there’s just something about your energy and readings for this year. They’re potent, powerful, and intense 💯 There’s always one sign that repeatedly stands out in this way, for awhile it was Cancer, but now it’s you. 2 Wands is an energy you probably know well, standing at crossroads, needing to choose a path and then once you do, sticking with it and taking it all the way to the end. Or that’s the idea. You’re planning your future and what you want that to look like. For some, this could be because of some disaster that happened last year, a breakup, a divorce, broken family ties. Doesn’t seem to be a job but could be that too. Your oracles have a message by themselves. Actualization - a 10 - an ending. Something has ended to lead you here in the first place, now what do you want to do with it? 2 Wands, charting your course. Resistance & Collaboration came out together, avoiding people. Understanding why you have to, why you should, or why you have, depending on the situation. 11:11 is here with Resistance and 4 Wands, resisting love, stability, a home?, a deeper commitment, romantic or family relationships, could be “coming home” if you’ve been away. Or you’re wanting to get away 🙏 You’ve not wanted input from others on your life, or you have done that your whole life and now you’re over it. Collaboration shows creative people with energy to inspire & help. Risk follows. For some this is validating you, and for others it’s like “why resist?” You’re going to need to know the Risks involved with each person you collaborate with, but should you resist them all? Being Libra? You guys thrive on Collaboration…maybe it’s just certain people where risk is involved. Many of you are going at it alone, and need to, the reasons will vary. Be honest about the risks, see them clearly, then decide. Or question why is there a risk at all for differing opinions, if you’re confident about the one you’re choosing?

January: 9 Cups & King of Swords

Oracles: Organization

Zodiac Signs: Aquarius, Libra, Capricorn Mercury

You seem to be approaching “cups” topics from an analytical perspective, again probably weighing risk vs reward. It’s because you don’t really know what you want, or what’s possible. Should you continue doing what you’re doing, and that’s the path to happiness, or do you need to switch things up entirely and head down a whole new path? Your hopes and dreams are being considered in a logical way, you don’t want to add any more burden to your plate, but may have to for long-term rewards. An example would be a gym membership, you want a toned butt but it’s gonna cost you time, effort, money, etc., is it worth it? Will you stick with it? Doesn’t have to be life changing, but for some it probably is. Queen & King of Swords are on the table, you could be dealing with an ex, maybe even still want them and that’s what you’re considering. Heal or end it? Mercury Capricorn thinks in terms of rewards, long term, practicality, sustainability and definitely money. You want this thing but aren’t sure if it’s the best thing for you. Could cost a lot. Could be work itself. I don’t see a decision being made this month or for some time tbh, you’re just mindful of how you feel & the facts. Some of you are getting exactly what you’ve wanted and now you’re not sure what to do with it. What comes after? You could fear being judged if this was an impulsive or expensive decision, logic may have been an afterthought, or coming from someone else that you see as judging you. Or you’re worried about judgment at all. Why?

February: 7 Pentacles, 9 Swords & 4 Wands

Oracles: Optimism

Zodiac Signs: Aries, Sagittarius Moon

A home situation has you stressed out. Or someone else and not you at all, could be either. If someone has left a relationship for a lover, moving in together or something, either you’re holding back from people because you’re very upset and this plays on your mind constantly…or other people are upset and have things to say, you could be avoiding them, waiting for them to get over it. Either side of this. Some of you are currently living somewhere that stresses you out, maybe the landlord or the area, you could have heavier crime or something that’s worrying, maybe even keeping you up at night. Safety could be what this is talking about, if you don’t feel safe you can’t sleep peacefully. 7 Pentacles shows you’ve put effort into whatever this is. Better locks, notifying neighbors, putting a wheel lock on your car, I keep getting safety examples. Waiting to see if your effort is worthwhile. You could be saving for a house, but is it enough? Maybe you’re partially there but not fully. 10 Cups on the bottom PEAK happiness, this is what you want, period, have a nice day, no matter who or what says anything about anything you’re standing firm on what you want. Good for you, Queen of Wands energy, she shows up again later and feels like either you or a romantic partner that’s not going to be swayed over an issue, they’ve been patient or have already taken actions hoping for the best, either it works or doesn’t but they/you won’t be swayed from their 10 Cups, no matter the story. 9 Cups in Jan, 10 Cups in Feb, that’s good progress. You have every reason to be optimistic and see things positively, confidently, you want what you want and it’s Justice for you, you deserve it.

March: 8 Swords, 2 Swords, Queen of Swords

Oracle: Escape rev

Zodiac Signs: Heavy Libra, Gemini, Pisces Mars

Nothing is going on this month, either because you’ve impulsively spent everything, or you don’t have the clarity/money/cojones to speak your truth to anyone else involved. You could be not speaking to most people. Like the oracles show, you want to make things how you want them and don’t want other people’s advice, judgements, input, gossip, it’s none of their business. Quietly controlling or insecure, both simultaneously. Not toxic though, not mean, just sure of yourself and easily influenced or malleable in beliefs is kinda what I’m getting. You’re SURE, till someone says something, then you’re not. That’s Libra’s thing, being able to see all perspectives, to the point it gets fkn confusing because what do you even want anymore? They’re all right and wrong. And you’re trapped in indecision…pleasing people most likely. Avoiding even discussing your plans or actions for fear of judgement or what someone might say…afraid to look stupid basically. I don’t think you would but you fear that, you’re questioning things enough and don’t need help with it. 8 Swords is trapped, blocked, stuck in your head, and there’s no escape. Or if you’re trying to leave a home, a job, feelings in some cases, The Star clarifies as a dream or wish - again - but also healing after upheaval. A rest month where idk how much rest you’re actually getting, your brain has been going full force in stress mode for awhile. People who don’t know how you feel probably won’t. You aren’t even sure. If you acted impulsively, now you’re stuck with it. Or someone else is, and you have to heal, but you’re playing things over again and again and maybe can’t, especially is this was a breakup. Work isn’t even shown. Your mind is your focus, where that is taking you, on repeat.

April: Wheel of Fortune & Queen of Pentacles

Oracles: Health

Zodiac Signs: Sagittarius, Heavy Virgo

Help is on the way! That’s what I heard. Two Queens, it’s possible these are two people, friends, family, coworkers, Wheel of Fortune is beneficial, lucky, good fortune upright. Usually. It shows what’s outside of your control or blessings that Spirit are bringing your way for some purpose or another. Next month shows more collaboration. So you’re being supported by at least one other person who has their shit together and can help you create the life for yourself that you want. Health is the topic, that could help describe them, it could be a health crisis that leads you to them or vice versa, it plays a role in getting you out of your head and back in action. If it’s one person, it’s someone that really loves you and wants to help, very generous. This may all happen very quickly or unexpectedly, one of those things you’d never see coming but good grief did it help! You’re being celebrated, validated, or your decision is, you’ll definitely feel more confident and happy this month than you did before ❤️ People at work may support you and try to boost you up, give you more hours, maybe even a slight raise or something, they want to help. If no people at all, then you’re handling this “doing it alone” thing like a boss, you’ve got this and don’t actually need anyone, like you’re proving it to yourself. I don’t see that for most but it’s here for someone. Taking care of your health is the priority in that case, and I do see nurturing self care along with a lot of work, if you’re alone in whatever you’re doing, then you’re doing an amazing job 👏

May: 6 Pentacles & 3 Pentacles

Oracles: Adaptability

Zodiac Signs: Capricorn, Gemini Moon

Does this help come with strings attached? Maybe. Are those strings toxic? I don’t think so, but you could see it that way. How it’s showing up is *mutual*, if someone is helping you out then they expect you to help them in return. Teamwork, friendship, Collaboration 😳 You may be being pointed out as kind of a villain here, expecting things from others but not wanting to reciprocate, essentially using someone/something for what they’re offering and then bolting off by yourself. “I can do it myself!” Well sure, but why do you have to? I’m seeing you don’t, and whatever is being expected of you is fair. Adaptability shows trickster energy, possibly like I said using others or being out for yourself. But that’s the very thing you fear or expect from others, that could be a projection that needs to change. When it comes time to do your part, you may fold, even leaving someone behind in order to prove a point, or just getting away from them/the situation. It’s being said you expect help and then bolt, there’s a lesson here on reciprocity and exchange, you scratch other’s backs too. Weird to be saying that to Libra of all signs, this is kind of your thing, your area of expertise. It could be switched for someone but doesn’t really feel like it. It feels like a case of “gotcha bitch”, which won’t be taken kindly.

Outside of that, for those grateful and trying to put in their effort too, understanding it’s expected of you, you could still be uncomfortable depending on someone/anyone, but you’re trying to do so with a smile because they’re being nice and you may not have a whole lot of options otherwise. If these are just coworkers, maybe they’re giving you rides or something, you hate it but you need it, and wait for the day this will end so you don’t have to feel at the mercy of someone else. Or switch it, maybe you don’t like someone dependent on you.

June: 8 Cups & 4 Pentacles

Oracle: Manipulation

Zodiac Signs: Heavy Pisces, Capricorn, Scorpio Jupiter

The shit 💩 hitteth the fan this month, because of you. Most of you anyway. 4 Pentacles describes your energy, maybe you’re trying to save money, maybe you’re holding back how you really feel, maybe you’re deeply uncomfortable and just going with it because you’re at the mercy of someone else’s kindness. Pride burnsss. That’s going to change though. Suddenly, impulsively, angrily even, you’re going to stop going back and forth on “being nice” and just tell it like it is. You’re done with this, thank you but no thank you. Not having really planned out what to do after the fact, now you don’t have a ride. But you don’t have the guilt of it either. Many of these feelings inside of you - Manipulation is highlighted as one of them - is projected. Not real, but feared to the point of lashing out at someone or something because this is how *you* see this reality. But it may not be someone else’s intent, or even their truth. I’m getting them just being nice. Maybe when they ask you for a favor in return, you lose it? It’s a you problem my dears 🙏 Shadow work.

Now in someone’s case this may be a legitimate concern of feeling manipulated, depends on what’s being asked. Or this is someone’s feelings or actions towards you, feeling manipulated. Is someone nice only to receive something from you? Are you using someone for what you can get? It’s being shown as the concern and being left behind because of this. But it’s not shown as *true*, that’s the problem here. Communication is necessary and needed but after the impulsive action, I don’t see that either. You fear being right or especially - being wrong. Ok, but now what?

July: 5 Cups & 9 Wands

Oracles: Enthusiasm

Zodiac Signs: Scorpio, Heavy Sagittarius

Regret, remorse, sadness. Either for the things you’ve said, done, lost, someone you’ve hurt, pain you’ve caused. It’s possible you acted impulsively and however someone else responded - that hurt. There may be regret for not only hurting someone but doing it *enthusiastically* like you thought you were winning here, now…what did you win? That could be what someone else is saying, a father, boss, spouse, ex spouse perhaps. Or whoever you lashed out at. Some of you are spilling your woes at work, transportation issues is a big deal here. Maybe trying to work at home, see if something can be done, can you be advanced money or work overtime? Maybe you’re trying to transfer somewhere closer or even take vacation time or something - either because you need money and won’t actually vacation, or you just need time to work things out. If you’re messaging a father or authority figure for help, it’s burning your soul, because they’re going to tell you exactly what they think and it may sting. This could be legal too, police, government, if a rule or boundary is broken there are consequences, even if you’re pleading a case, that’s what I see here. Or you could be this way with someone else, could be someone with a sob story. If you have done this already and were harsh or caused pain, now you just feel bad about the events that followed - Wheel of Fortune. There is sadness and regret, focus on what’s been lost and actions taken or words said. Gossip may play into this somehow as well, or what other people say, your pride is wounded.

August: 8 Pentacles & Queen of Wands

Oracles: Acquisition

Zodiac Signs: Taurus

You’re not going to stay down for long! You could be putting more effort into your physical attributes and appearance, aiming for attractiveness and charm to win you favor from those who you still have to face but would rather not - Venus energy lays on the charm and beauty…avoiding aggression, or in Libra’s case, coming on strong to pressure submission from anyone who would dare to speak up - because that’s your real fear. Projecting Aries energy, Libra tends to work in extremes in between finding the balance, it’s a whole life thing. You’re feeling kinda small, extremely insecure and anxious, so you’re overdoing it a little and projecting BIG. Sexy, charming, on top of it, a bad bitch. Nothing wrong with that, except that it’s not really what you’re feeling inside, you can miss out on deeper connections or bonding by wearing a mask, but sometimes that’s needed. You have goals, even if you have to fake it to make it, people do it every day. I heard “Bravado”.

For some this Queen is someone else entirely, could be your ex’s new person and you’d rather die than have to see them, it upsets you, understandably. If you share children, you could be staying in the car, dropping off, and not interacting at all. No thanks, not my business or problem. Does it hurt, yeah. Enough to engage, nah, you’ll just avoid them all like the new plague, and focus on what you need to. Or the opposite, you could attempt to be way more in your face or proudly waving your cute flag in an attempt to make the new/ex lover feel intimidated or some shit. It’s rooted in insecurity either way, it may all be flipped and they may avoid you, because they don’t care and aren’t interested in talking to you…which just makes the anxiety worse. It’s possible some of you are looking for a new job and trying to win favor with attractiveness, possibly going through a lover in order to do that. Like working with them. Is it a scheme, yes, you need something. Will it work, maybe. Acquisition shows you getting *something* or that’s the goal. You could just have the hots for someone at work, and are trying to win them over.

September: Page of Pentacles, The High Priestess & 3 Wands

Oracles: Flattery

Zodiac Signs: Virgo & Gemini Sun/Venus

I’m seeing 222 as I start this month, decisions needing to be made. I’m picking up on some masterminds here fr, y’all plot your objectives well. Or will. You keep your plans very quiet and just wait for them to come to fruition. It’s killing you that they’re not moving along faster. You��d like quicker results and feel kinda trapped or defeated because that’s not happening or you’re having to put in a lot of effort every single day in order to get something. Flattery may get you far, or that’s something you’re trying to use in order to move this along in some way. That could be “killing them with kindness” with whoever is involved. Coworkers. Ex’s. Family. Whoever. If you absolutely have to interact that is. Some of you are going back to school or working towards an advancement, certificate, degree, training, something. Others may be waiting for a contract to end, could be divorce, a lease, anything keeping you from moving as fast as you want. Could be literally moving. More than anything, Flattery shows intelligence and that all of your moves (or inaction) is well thought out and planned ahead, you’re strategically planning a future for yourself, putting in a lot of hard work and effort. But waiting for something to end. It’s boring, when does the excitement come back into this situation? You could need to get out and have some fun and you’re waiting on people that aren’t very fun at all. If you’re into someone, they take it slow, and you’re like omgggg speed up! You could lay it on thick with the flattery, you want them, like quit deliberating and take me out already! If you’re in sales, real estate, etc., someone could take a long time deciding or actually signing a contract, and it eats your soul.

October: The Hanged Man & Ace of Pentacles rev

Oracles: Idealism

Zodiac Signs: Scorpio, Sagittarius, Aquarius

If romance was the thing last month, or attraction anyway, you may lose it for them this month, and chalk it up to missed opportunity. For most, car problems are blocking your progress or opportunities. Maybe you don’t have one, lost one, it’s a beat up old hunk of junk you’ve already fixed 1000 times but alas it doesn’t run. Can’t get passed for inspection. Something like this, it’s eating your money and keeping you from lasting potential. Maybe this has to do with travel, not being able to go somewhere, or not invited for a work trip somewhere actually cool. Maybe you’ve been depending on the help of others and that’s run out, it’s like you’re seeing things as glass half full, or how it could be, and you’re hurt that it’s not that way. You’re missing out on finances in some way, it could be difficult to deal with. A car accident is possible, be very careful, this may show an injury blocking you as well, needed healing and a major loss of money or resources. You keep having to come up creative ways to deal with issues, that’s gotta be exhausting, 9 Wands is exhausted. You could just have a big bill, car payment, insurance, repairs are all highlighted. The daily grind is draining. It’s a burden to be the strong one, or to do it alone. You have no money, none extra anyway, maybe not even enough, and there is no fun, it’s just your own creativity keeping you amused…but it’s enough. For now. Cuz you have to.

November: 8 Wands & 5 Wands

Oracles: Rebellion

Zodiac Signs: Taurus, Sagittarius & Aquarius Mars

Your principles and beliefs are coming into question from others who don’t agree. Could be a King of Pentacles/earth sign that you have a mutual exchange with. There’s an old way and a new way, and you’re fighting for the new way out of rebellion, opposition, feeling the need to compete or prove other people wrong. King of Pentacles is a boss, someone that can be rigid, because they’re responsible, especially with finances. This may be someone who tells you can’t do something, or that you should. You may have done something one way in the past, now they expect it from you and you’re fighting them. Or that’s switched. This could be an ex spouse fighting over children, 6 Cups can show them or this is someone you’ve known, something you’ve done for a long time. Maybe a job you’ve had for a long time. The argument or action is regarding gifts 🎁 either expecting one and not receiving it or giving one that’s like…idk you don’t subscribe to religion and this person gifts you a Bible or some shit, you’re triggered. That may be the intent. Or you’re doing that. You could also be notifying family the holidays are gonna be different this year due to xyz and getting negative feedback from them. You can not afford it honestly, 4 Pentacles isn’t much, but rather than be honest it seems like you’re making it some grand gesture about beliefs or something. Can’t argue over beliefs! I’m suddenly not into holidays, don’t call me and I’m not coming. You or someone else may be venting over things they’ve bottled up for some time and it’s a big dramatic thing. At work, you could be receiving competitive energy, jealousy, or some kind of argumentative behavior because you get a gift or some kind of perk, and another person doesn’t…maybe people, 5 Wands can show several people. If you’re dealing with an ex, you could be arguing over children or maybe a new person’s involvement with your children. Like if they try to discipline your kids you’re gonna have their head on a spike. Could also argue over shared something, resources, contract, whatever involves you and another - created or made in the past somehow.

December: 6 Wands & 3 Swords

Oracles: Power rev

Zodiac Signs: Libra, Scorpio Sun & Moon rev

You’re going to be in your feelings because you feel powerless. Queen of Pentacles. Financially you’re fine, you’re not floundering, but you are having to do things alone, maybe with not much support from another person. If you’re a parent you’re probably the dominant one, and the other shlub may get the glory with none of the work. Or that’s how it seems. Things are outside of your control, and though you’ve tried to manipulate situations in your favor, and protecting yourself from the same thing, it either didn’t work or not how you’d intended. There is heartbreak here, deep burdens, financial burdens that keep coming every month, over and over again. You’re still dreaming of a new beginning, but don’t feel like you can act on that right now. Could also be travel. You can’t for whatever reason. That was probably a plan or agreement, maybe what the argument was about last month. If your ex has the kids, you may not see them on the days you want, or the ex is introducing a new person to the family - your family. You’re resistant, out of control, potentially emotionally volatile and feeling alone. You have no power here and it makes you sad. Someone else getting attention and recognition is a similar burden. Having to deal with this new person forever. Heading towards a new start you don’t even want but have no choice in going back, only forward. Circumstances piss you off and hurt you. The positive is, you will get through this, you will have a new beginning, and 10 Wands shows an end to the burden, but only when you put it down & surrender to the changes happening outside of your control. How you handle this may differ, but the situation itself is major arcana, meant to be. It’s how you deal with it matters. Some of you have enough to live on, but not necessarily spend, gift wise, and you’ll put a lot of pressure on yourself over that, especially with kids. Next year - The Fool, a clean slate, an open door, the feeling that you can do anything & the courage to actually do it. That may be what all this build up has to happen for, to push you in a new direction. Is it easy, no. Is it worth it? It’s probably wait and see 🙏 This year feels like a necessary struggle, on the way to something bigger & better, eventually. It’s more about relational issues, even at work, than finances themselves, they’re just folded into bigger issues. The career is similar energy to the yearly, spiritual practices are probably the best thing for you, focusing on self care through the madness.

#Libra #2024 #career tarot reading #february 2024 #career tarot #career reading #astrology

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daveinediting · 2 years ago

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So this is about yesteday’s project... but the part where I realized to whom I owe a particular thanks. Here’s what happened:

I spent most of yesterday organizing footage into categories and identifying the most likely sound ups from each of the team members as well as a number of choice group interactions. And I created the few graphics called for in the script. The idea being to have a mental image of all these pieces as if they were on labeled shelves, waiting for me to pull them into a finished work.

It's a great way to operate, by the way. I don't always choose this option. But this project, based on the client’s desires for it, required that kind of prep. Including not thinking one bit about the music.

It's a choice, of course. Maybe an offbeat one given the client was looking for something kinetic. But because I knew all that motion would come from the actions and activity and interactions of the team members, I blew off the music. Didn't give it any thought.

No kidding. I knew this was the way to do it. So that's what I went about doing. And when I finally put it all together, when I got a good sound mix for everything but music...

That's when I started thinking about what the music should be.

Now, for these projects I use a music library. So right off the bat you've gotta be thinking search terms. Interestingly, I had guitars on the brain for some reason so I started there. It quickly became obvious that the song I was looking for would have a kind of vamped introduction that would open up wide. A reflection of what I’d done so far.

Within a short bit of time, I had four cuts of music that fit the description. Each one a different sound from the others. So I tried one...

Nope.

I tried the next...

Nope.

And the third one. Well... the third one is actually the point of this story.

The lesson occurred at the beginning of my editing career. At the time, and because I was a musician, I always cut videos to music. I always chose the music first and cut to the beat. With one producer, though, the moment I started looking for music, she waved me off of that endeavor. She told me to cut the piece — a thirty second promo featuring the UW mascot, Dubs, and the then UW president, Richard McCormick — she told me to cut the piece without music.

Wait. Without music???

Trust me, she said.

So I cut the promo according to my own sense of timing, my own internal beat, if you will, and when we were done, the producer had some ideas for the kind of music she wanted.

Now, from this distance I don't remember how many cuts of music we tried. I'm thinking... five?

However many it was, we tried the first one...

Nope.

We tried the second one...

Nope.

And so on until we tried the last one and BAM.

It worked.

What do I mean it worked?

The piece looked like I'd cut it to the music. It fit. It was perfect.

And that's the way it was today. I had four different pieces of music with the same underlying structure and, while the first two weren't right, the third one was BAM.

Perfect.

It conjured just the right vibe across all the right places. Which is exactly the moment it hit me where I'd learned to work this way. From whom I picked up this way to cut something.

Ann Coppel.

Back at the start of my editing career. Long enough ago that it's just something I know how to do and when to do it when, in fact, it was a fantastic lesson I learned one day. From someone who knew there was more than just the one path to great work.

Thank you, Ann.

🙂

#editing #music #internal metronome #dubs #richard mccormick #video first #music first #enduring lessons

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lgcjungmo · 2 years ago

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trainee mission 011 | journal entry

dear journal what’s up party people! (๑˃ᴗ˂)ﻭ,

it’s your amazing, funny, talented, beautiful, handsome, pretty boy jungmo here with a brand new thrilling installment of jungmo’s journal! i want to reiterate that everything i say now is the whole truth and that nothing is exaggerated whatsoever. it’s one hundred percent me being park jungmo, the best trainee to ever grace legacy’s doors, detailing my life and experiences as usual. well anyways just to recap the last month or so, we were forced to attend several image maintenance workshops. as if i needed them. i’m the cool, charming jungmo. whoever is reading this, please don’t laugh, i’ll be mad. real mad.

... anyways. to catch you up on what’s happening now - we, as in just the male trainees, are supposed to be helping the kitchen by preparing the ingredients for the cafe. you see, i wouldn’t have a big problem with this if i wanted to be a chef or something. i didn’t realize that being a trainee meant i had to dip my toes into other careers too. i can’t be a cook though. i literally have never used a knife to cut my own ingredients before. it’s way different from using a knife to cut a nice, juicy steak, of course! i’ve done that a million times at least. but cutting raw vegetables and stuff like that? kinda gross. hmm, yeah, i’m not sure that’s gonna be a good fit for me. not my style. if i injure myself, i’m expecting at least a week or two off from training. just kidding! haha.

oh ho, but that’s not all folks! we’re also being forced... i mean tasked to carry these things called briquettes to families of low-income? apparently, it’s made out of coal? coal as in like what santa gives to naughty children or whatever. and these people use it to heat up their homes for the upcoming cold season? interesting but so so unfortunate. usually, when it’s cold, i just ask our housekeeper to turn up the heat on the thermostat. i’m just putting it out there that i am not santa so why should i be the one to deliver these poor families some coal? being given coal is because you’re naughty and you’re on santa’s naughty list! that’s all i’m going to be thinking about when we go volunteer. i don’t think we should have to bring coal to them. i think they’d feel bad for being on the naughty list but that’s just me. what about giving them heated blankets instead? plug it in and boom, nice and toasty.

also, since we’re on the topic. why am i being forced to volunteer when the act of volunteer work should be done through one’s own personal choice? this was certainly not my choice. in fact, it might as well be my last choice. hmm. for me, i think i’d prefer to spend my time doing something in the arts, like maybe moving art supplies for kids that don’t have access to them. or anything involving music instruments. or better yet, maybe if legacy gave us a list of different volunteer work, i’d be more inclined to have a happier time enjoying this kind of thing. hello coaches, if you see this, please let me do volunteer work for something else that’s more my speed! thank you!

well, whatever, volunteering is definitely gonna be ten times better than image maintenance and learning about the legacy groups by a long run. i don’t know if it’s obvious but i have never been interested in all these music groups or the music industry in the first place. i never followed those kinds of trends before i became a trainee but now here i am. a real trainee. at legacy. it feels ironic, yes. but i just want to be famous. that’s my end goal. which path i choose is just whatever’s available to me and hopefully the easiest i can achieve. but hi, hello, i’m jungmo, i’m 21 years old and i’m ready to be a superstar! just putting it out there.

but please don’t get me started on maintaining one’s image and learning how we should act so we can avoid scandals. the thing is - you can do whatever you want - just don’t get caught. i feel like that’s common sense but then again common sense isn’t so common. either way, couldn’t be me! i wouldn’t ever get caught. at the very least, people should’ve just kept secret rendezvous under legacy walls. oh well, can’t turn back time now. we can only look back on this and learn from past mistakes or whatever. that sounds like a good life lesson to me.

that’s about it for my thoughts. whelp, thanks for nothing! i hope you enjoyed reading this week’s exciting installment of jungmo’s journal! check back again next week and i’ll gladly tell you all of my thoughts again. we’ll see if the rest of the month turns out as bad as i’m thinking it will. i’m practically an open book at this point anyways so you’ll know exactly what’s up.

to whoever's reading this sentence, i hope this journal finds you well and if not, that’s not my problem. (´｡• ᵕ •｡`) ��

sincerely,

park jungmo (future star and the most handsome and talented trainee)

#( solo )#lgc:traineemission #( 889 wc )#im sorry that jungmo's talking straight out of his ass #jungmo wouldve actually included way more doodles and drawings tbh lmao

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meenie · 2 years ago

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happy lunar new year

I asked Mom about my career choice, whether I should choose a career in higher education like what I am doing now at EVC, or follow my educational pathway to become a Data Analyst. I mentioned my confusion to Luan. He said I would get better pay with my path for data. I can make more than 100k in the long run. But if I work for a community college, the full-time position they're hiring that has the same title as mine has a salary range from 70-80k/year.

Luan told me to pay him back 8k lol, meaning I would waste all the money if I chose to work a stable and easy job at school. Ironically, the money was from my account when I paid for it.

Mom was like she knew me so well. She said, remember the times you stressed out because you worked so hard that you had breakouts? Do the thing that makes you happy. Why do I have to pressure and push myself like this?

Remember when I see all the Asian parents put a lot of pressure and expectation on their kids to either be a doctor or engineers? I feel like Luan is that Asian parent to me, expecting me to study hard, have a good-paying job, and be a mom, one thing I don't know when I will ever be ready for.

Of course, Mom wants me to have kids too. Of course, she wants grandkids. Of course, she knows how hard it is to be a working mom. Guess she has a different strategy for me.

Because she loves what she does and wants me to have that kind of job too. I think that makes her happy and positive and full of energy.

Mom said after she got Covid for a month, she felt weak, which is kind of sad. She said she didn't want to travel anymore because she could get tired. She saves her energy to maybe one day go to the US to visit me. I hope so too.

Her solution to me is that I can try applying for a data analyst job, then if I'm not happy with it, I can come back to work for school later, which makes so much sense. How can I know if I don't try?

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lets-talk-spirituality · 2 years ago

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Hi dear! I have a personal question, which I hope you could answer if you have time. I’m 18 and I’m having trouble picking a career, and next year I’ll be going to university so I need some clarity regarding which major to choose. 🪷 First of all I’m from Italy, Gemini sun Pisces rising, my north node is in Taurus and south node in Scorpio, if it’s indicative of anything. I read that we should look at our midheaven but I don’t know what to make of it? I got a Sagittarius MC in 10H, so ruled by Jupiter, which falls into Virgo and also 7H in my chart. Could you offer some guidance? I’m undecided between International Relations/Business and BioArchitecture, in general I’d love to help the planet become greener and sustainable, humanity needs to be connected with Mother Nature. I also really love to travel and meet new cultures and traditions. A high-income job to be financially independent but one that also fulfills my inner purpose, if that makes sense? Thank you so much 💗💗

Hi! Well one you’re 18 so I’d encourage you to explore as much as you can at college, classes and hobbies and people because you don’t feel it but you are young and what 18 year old you wants will be different from what 30 year old you wants. Don’t go into this thinking it’s a forever thing, follow what makes you feel alive and happy. You don’t have to pick and stay with a career. Gemini, Pisces and Sagittarius are all mutable signs which means adaptable, movement. All I’m trying to say is you don’t have to box yourself into conventional ideas of a “career” or one job you do forever. It may not work for you and that’s okay. That’s sort of the place I’m at in my career a decade after starting college. When you’re young, it’s easy to follow the paved path, but don’t be afraid to follow a cool bird caw, you may learn how to navigate better even if you get lost.

The nodes are interesting but hard to say without house placement. The north node shows where you are heading in this life. Taurus rules the second house and handles material possessions, building wealth, and how you find value, depending on the house will show the area this plays in.

Sagittarius MC shows that you are someone people see as cultured, opportunistic, worldly, and philosophical. Sagittarius energy rules over international travel, philosophy and religion, and all things that are expansive, including of the mind.

I hope you can find a job that’s high income and fulfilling. I’ve not met anyone who’s found both yet. And that’s mostly because of the system.

My advice, don’t cling to preconceived notions of what you think you want, try to go on a journey of discovering what you enjoy. I pursued my career from the place of what am I good at that makes money, it almost killed me. I’m realizing now, I need to follow what makes me feel good first because the most important thing is joy. I didn’t understand what my own joy meant at 18, and when people told me to follow what I loved it confused me. That’s why I encourage you to explore as much as possible. Think about not just learning for your career but for your self development! I know this is maybe not a direct answer, but the earlier you learn to trust your desires, the better. I can’t tell you what’s right or best for you. That’s for you to discover, I’m not gonna take that away from you. And I’d encourage you to listen and take in all sorts of perspectives but take what feels right and best to you, that applies to career advisors etc. A lot of people in life are gonna tell you they know what’s best for you, and their intentions may be true, but you have to listen to yourself!

I hope if nothing else, this helps you to really listen to yourself and to feel like maybe this shows ways to approach things you weren’t thinking before. What I’m telling you is what I’ve learned and would tell my own 18 year old self. Take risks! Be bold.

#ask box #life advice

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sinsandsuccubus · 3 years ago

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I have a request. Jack and Urban get into a fight and he’s annoyed, pissed even and so you defend him. He gets turned on and you bone in the tour bus lol

Team Defense - Jack Harlow

Context: “Don’t hate the player, hate the game.”

Warnings: 18+ ! Sexual activity.

Pairings: Jack Harlow X Fem!Reader ; Urban Wyatt X Platonic!Reader

A/N: shout out to @creme-delacreme for the help.

Please DO NOT ENGAGE if not older stated age. Reader’s discretion is advised. I am not responsible if YOU CHOOSE to continue.

Masterlist ☽☾

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“Urban, I’m trying to put this in a nice way, but you’re slacking here.”

“Dude, I’m doing the best I can. What the fuck else do you want me to do?”

The tour bus was empty, just you, Jack and Urban chilling out while the other members of the team moved on with their needed agendas. Jack and Urban had decided to take to the tour bus to look at some photos that Urban had taken while they were traveling.

Recently however, Urban had been falling off, his work clearly not his best. This was, from what could be assumed, due to the fact that his recent hook up had gotten unhooked. And he wasn’t have that shit, at all.

“I don’t know Urb, maybe do your job correctly?!” Jack announced, his voice slowly escalating.

“Shut the fuck up Jack, you wouldn’t know anything about taking photos. All you know is how to sit there and be the pretty boy the industry wants!” Urban responded, his voice matching Jack’s as he stood up to look down at him.

Jack immediately rose to his feet, getting on eye level with his best friend.

“Really Urb? Really?! You know, ever since that bitch dropped you, you’ve been a real fuckin ass and I’m sick of it.”

“Sick of it?” Urban chuckled, stepping to Jack. The two grew closer, basically in one another’s faces.

You had heard the beginning of the argument but decided to remain silent, letting them handle their own business. However, it was when you heard scuffling that you decided to rise from your seated position in the booth and moved to where the two were arguing towards the back of the bus.

At that point, Urban had pushed Jack away from him, anger in his eyes.

“I’ve been following you around this whole time on your career path, and you want to say you’re “sick of it?” I’m sick of you and your fucking egotistic ass.” It was then that you decided to step in.

“Urban, Jack, calm down. Y’all can talk this out.” You tried to reason.

“Don’t tell me what the fuck to do Y/N. Stay out of grown folk's business.” Before Jack could even go to defend you, you took it upon yourself.

“I don’t know who the fuck you’re talking to Urban,” You took the time to look around the bus to emphasize your point.

“But it surely ain’t fuckin me. Jack’s right. Ever since that bitch moved on from you, you’ve been walking around acting like a fucking dickhead, when we all knew that bitch was nothing but a fuckin bum. You and Jack were in this together since y’all were fuckin kids. If anything you’re fuckin dick riding on his career because you wouldn’t be anywhere if Jack hadn’t brought you along with PG. So really, you should be fucking grateful for Jack, especially since he’s been looking out for you, but yo stupid ass got your head in your ass and can’t get it the fuck out. So I suggest you do before you end up doing and saying some shit that’ll fuck up this relationship.” You spoke, stepping to Urban. Despite your height difference, he knew you meant business and what the fuck you said.

“Y/N…” Urban attempted to speak.

“No, don’t say shit to me. The fact that you stepped to your bestfriend like you’re about it really shows where your head is at. And the fact that you even spoke to me that way, knowing damn well I ain’t do shit to you tells me that you need to get your shit together. So Fix-it-Felix, cause this shit ain’t fuckin working. Got it?” You looked at him, anger written all over your face.

Jack stood there in shock, not because you held your ground, no he knew you could do that, but at the fact that you did it not just on your behalf but on his. He found it extremely hot.

He was bricked up.

After taking in your angered face, Urban took a step back from you, grabbing his bag and heading towards the door of the bus.

“I’ll check you guys later.” He spoke, avoiding eye contact with both of you.

“Don’t come back till you get some fuckin sense Urb.” You spoke before the door shut, letting out a loud huff. You turned to Jack, shaking your head as you walked toward him.

“Are you okay baby? What he said was fucked up, sounds like some insecure shit.” You spoke, looking up at Jack, the anger dissipating in your face.

He looked at you with lustful eyes, placing his warm palms on your face.

“Oh, I’m fine ma. But I do have a problem.” He spoke, his thumbs rubbing your cheeks.

“What’s wrong babe?” You spoke, tilting your head. He took your hand and moved it towards his crotch, pressing it to his hard-on.

“Oh…” You spoke, looking at Jack again.

“Did this- Did me defending you turn you on?” You questioned.

“Fuck ma, it did. It was so fucking hot, the way you stood there and made him take it, fuck.” He spoke, forcing your hand to palm at his dick.

“Oh, you’re really turned on from this.”

“Yeah, did you think I was lying? Shit ma.” He grunted out, moaning as you slipped your hands into his pants and boxers, stroking him further. He became putty in your hand, allowing you to push him onto the couch, straddling him.

You began kissing and licking at his neck, soft grunts and puffs of air leaving his lips, your cunt clenching around nothing.

He forced your hips to grind onto him with his hands, moving his face to indulge you in an intense make-out session.

“Fuck baby, need you. Right here, right now.” He groaned, lifting you off his waist to tug at his pants. You quickly moved off him, pulling down yours as well as your underwear to make a pool at your feet.

Immediately Jack grabbed at your hips pulling you to hover over his dick.

He pulled you down, your walls slowly sinking on and grasping at him, for-fronting a deep moan from the two of you. Jack began thrusting almost immediately, your body leaning forward to rest your head in the crook of his neck.

“Shit ma, fuck.” You whined in response, Jack immediately finding that spot to make you keen.

“Fuck yes, Jack, baby, fuck. Please don’t stop.”

“I won’t pretty girl, you feel too good, fuck.”

The sounds of skin slapping filled the air as you began to meet his thrusts, grabbing onto the back of his neck and curls, meeting his lips with a sensual kiss.

You moaned into one another’s mouth, tongues battling for dominance as you reached your peak.

“Baby… I’m getting close.”

“Cum for me. Cum all over me princess, give it to me.” To which you came hard with a grunt, your thighs shaking as your walls clenched and trembled around him.

“Shit!” Jack moaned out before filling you up with his seed, moving to your neck to leave light kisses.

“That was so hot ma.” You laughed at his comment, moving to kiss his lips once more.

“I’ll always defend you, baby. No matter what. Unless it’s controversial and damn right stupid, then you’ll end up like Urban.”

“I’d probably get bricked up from you yelling at me too, shit.”

Before you could comment, the sound of the door opening echoed the room, you and Jack scrambling to pull yourselves together.

“Y’all done fucking in here? Urb wants to talk to you, Jack. Oh, and you too Y/N.” You heard Neelam announce before the door shut.

You looked at Jack as you mixed yourself, nodding at each other’s proper appearances and signaling to head off the bus.

Urban was sitting on the ground outside in the shade, twiddling his fingers nervously.

You and Jack sat down across from him, forcing his head to look up.

“First, I want to apologize to you Jack. I know I’ve been slacking, it’s just…” he paused.

“That shit with that chick fucked me up man. One minute I thought we were good, next thing I know, she’s dismissing us over texts as if nothing happened. What she said to me.. was fucked up. But I should have never taken that out on you, and for that I’m sorry.” Urban announced, his eyes sincere.

“Did you mean anything you said?” Jack asked, his tone soft.

“Fuck no. Okay, sometimes you’re a little egotistic, but still! I love you bro, and I’d follow you anywhere. We wanted this since we were kids, I ain’t goin nowhere.”

“Good.” Jack said as he moved to shake Urban’s hand, doing their handshake.

“And Y/N, I’m sorry I stepped to you like that. That was totally uncalled for. You’re right, you didn’t do anything to me, and it was pretty fucked up for me to even come at you knowing damn well all you want is the best for me. I’m truly sorry.”

“I know Urby.” You nodded, smiling and leaning to kiss his cheek.

“But if you ever do that shit again, I’m reading you for filth.” At your statement, Urban threw up his hands in defense.

“Yes ma’am.”

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I don't write cause I feel I don't have a good grasp on the characters personalities etc, the characterisation of akaashi post is so helpful! 👀👀 Would you do kuroo or bokuto?

a/n: I hope you like both of these! again, if yall want me to do others, let me know! these are across the span of their life, so some may seem college-related and some may seem young-adulty!

[MISCHARACTERIZATIONS OF BOKUTO AND KUROO]

bokuto kotaro.

clueless: i’ve stated this in akaashi’s post, but bokuto is extremely emotionally intelligent. he can pick up on the slightest changes in people’s demeanor or posture, he can tell if someone is sad or happy even if they aren’t good at displaying emotions. he’s not a dumbass -- and he can pick up on others’ limits and boundaries very quickly. despite his ability to read people relatively well, he has no qualms about pushing people out of their comfort zones and forcing them to do things they might hate at first, but will love later. he pushes boundaries according to your comfort level, and respects your hard limits.

only positive: a lot of people write bokuto to be someone ho’s only happy-go-lucky, or someone who rarely gets sad (aside from his moods that are less sad and more discouraged), but I think that almost dehumanizes him. he gets back up faster than most, yes, and at the end of a lost game where everyone is crying, bokuto is dry-eyed. he’s the type to get home and plop down on his bed, face-first into his pillow, lips quivering and eyes lightly watering. there are times where he feels insecure, especially when he’s younger, just because he can tell he’s different from the rest. he has a feeling that people are put-off from his personality, he has a feeling that he’s not as (traditionally/academically) smart as everyone else, he has a feeling that some people find him annoying. that’s why when he’s near his close friends he’s very loose -- he doesn’t feel the need to hold back even a little because he knows that they love him for him. this translates to his toxic trait with his lover being that he feels dejected/insecure if you ever want space. while he can read boundaries, he would really benefit from a lover who has just as few as he, because then he can be his truest self.

love-at-first-sight: he’s not the type to fall in love at one glance, he’s just not. yes, he might get interested or you may catch his attention, but he’s not going to fall in love with someone because they have a pretty smile. it’s not that he’s calculated or over-thinks his emotions, he knows exactly what he feels, it’s just that his heart is a little slow when it comes to falling in love. he’s such an energetic all-over-the-place person that love is never really on his mind (he gets into some trouble with accidentally leading girls on because he’s so friendly). when he eventually falls in love, though....oh boy. he stutters, he’s over-thinking all his movements when it comes to you -- he’s usually impulsive but with you he really, really doesn’t want to screw up. he wants everything to go smoothly -- so he’s the type to plan out a confession and actually try to stick to it. when it comes to something like love, bokuto is surprisingly slow and careful, because he knows how fragile a heart is.

never gets angry: i think most people like to imagine his anger is so rare because the image of an angry bokuto is scary, especially with his stature. and while it’s true his anger is uncommon (because he’s good at processing his own emotions and not lashing out at others), when he does get angry it can be pretty unnerving. he’s the type to slam his fist on the counter unknowingly when having a really bad fight with his lover, and he has a booming voice. he’d never hit someone, but he doesn’t realize how intimidating his physique is. anger is uncommon, but that doesn’t mean he’s not scary. he always apologize afterwards, though.

boundless confidence: i touched on it earlier, that he has bouts of insecurity, but again, i really want to emphasize that he’s not endlessly confident. honestly, maybe in the anime and manga he seems that way, but if you want to make him more human, have more life than a fictional character, you have to create limits or certain traits. bokuto is very sensitive, and the slightest thing can either inflate his ego or deflate it. plays in volleyball constantly not working may dig at his confidence, but he always re-inflates. in real life, outside the court, there are things that keep his confidence low everytime they happen. fights with his lover are one of these things; he’ll get jealous when they leave the apartment after a fight because he’ll worry about you finding someone more stable than him. jealousy alone is a solid sign of chipped confidence, something that someone as sensitive as bokuto gets every once in a while.

overall, bokuto is a lot more intelligent than what people give him credit for. he’s honest with his own emotions and can read people very well, which is probably why he’s such a people person, but he still has flaws. he does not have boundless confidence or have no perception of boundaries; he’s unbelievably understanding. he may be initially insecure, have intimidating anger, etc. but ,after all, he’s human, isn’t he?

kuroo tetsuro.

sex god: don’t get me wrong, I definitely believe that he’s had a lover or two, especially in college, and that he’s played the field a little bit. but i don’t see him as the guy that has had sex with every person in his major. he’s a genuine guy and can’t have sex with someone he’s not emotionally invested in -- despite not being a ‘player’, he’s totally gotten in trouble with a few people because they think he’s leading them on when he walks with them to class everyday.

intimidating: people always characterize him as this mysterious, sexually intimidating guy, but i just can’t see him as someone intimidating. if anything, he may be a little unapproachable because he has a really tight knit group of friends that he’s always with, but he’s not scary. he’s not the center of attention but he’s not a wallflower either, he enjoys observing people and watching drama play out, but he’s not silent and glaring all the time. he’s quite fun, he’s loud, and he enjoys embarrassing his friends in public. he’s the type to twerk in public and laugh his ass off when akaashi or kenma give him the side-eye and bro-kuto joins in. he likes to have fun, ya know? i don’t know about you, but a guy that twerks in public isn’t very scary, to me at least.

prideful: I understand why people paint him as a prideful guy, he obviously likes what he does and has a personable personality, but honestly, he’s not perfect. he often has moments where he doubts himself because of his past decisions, his career one of them. kuroo is an amazing middle blocker, and his choice to go into sports advertisement rather than an actual volleyball league no doubt haunts him at night sometimes. he thinks of the ‘what-ifs’, and he dreams of what he could be. especially since his best friend is bokuto, a professional player, it’s often on his mind. it’s a super touchy subject for him, and if someone were to question his job-choice i have no doubt that he’d get really sour and distant from that person because he’s not sure of himself either.

frat boy: he’s not someone who can’t cook, he’s not someone who sleeps at 5am everyday, hungover. he’s not the type of person to be immature in any way -- he’s got his shit together. i’m sure most people can actually see this, but kuroo is very responsible and realistic (which is part of the reason he didn’t do professional volleyball). he does his taxes, does his homework, gives out good advice, gets up early and eats everything that a healthy person should eat (in all the right proportions, too). he doesn’t even drink often, if anything he’s just a social drinker. he goes to bed at 10pm and wakes up at 6am to work out, no joke. he’s gotta keep that physique somehow.

decisive: i know i said he’s responsible, but i don’t think that translates to decisive. i can see him having a lot of conflicting things going on in his life, different wants and different paths that he wants to take but can’t keep all open. it happens in love, his career, his college major, etc. he wants a lot in life, he wants success, happiness, a good love-life, everything. when he had to choose between volleyball and a life-long, stable career, he was broken for weeks. was he good enough for his dream? was it wise to chase his dream? would it be better to get more kids into volleyball, do what he did, what he couldn’t do? in his love life he always hesitates, too: does he see a life with them? how long will they love him? will they be able to deal with him once they see that he’s not perfect? is it worth it? it doesn’t matter if he’s in love or not, because his extreme caution can come off as very distant and unwilling to let you in, hence his toxic trait. he’s indecisive, scared, yet passionate and hard-working.

overall, kuroo is full of contradiction. he wants a lot from life and is willing to work for it. he has dreams and tries to stay healthy and put himself out there, have fun, the whole shabang -- but he’s not perfect. he’s overly cautious when it comes to making important decisions simply because he can see a future with all of the different paths he can take. but honestly, isn’t everyone a little contradictory?

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