#I am in pain lol
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the thing is that they're so fascinated by sex, they love sex, they can't imagine a world without sex - they need sex to sell things, they need sex to be part of their personality, they need sex to prove their power - but they hate sex. they are disgusted by it.
sex is the only thing that holds their attention, and it is also the thing that can never be discussed directly.
you can't tell a child the normal names for parts of their body, that's sexual in nature, because the body isn't a body, it's a vessel of sex. it doesn't matter that it's been proven in studies (over and over) that kids need to know the names of their genitals; that they internalize sexual shame at a very young age and know it's 'dirty' to have a body; that it overwhelmingly protects children for them to have the correct words to communicate with. what matters is that they're sexual organs. what matters is that it freaks them out to think about kids having body parts - which only exist in the context of sex.
it's gross to talk about a period or how to check for cancer in a testicle or breast. that is nasty, illicit. there will be no pain meds for harsh medical procedures, just because they feature a cervix.
but they will put out an ad of you scantily-clad. you will sell their cars for them, because you have abs, a body. you will drip sex. you will ooze it, like a goo. like you were put on this planet to secrete wealth into their open palms.
they will hit you with that same palm. it will be disgusting that you like leather or leashes, but they will put their movie characters in leather and latex. it will be wrong of you to want sexual freedom, but they will mark their success in the number of people they bed.
they will crow that it's inappropriate for children so there will be no lessons on how to properly apply a condom, even to teens. it's teaching them the wrong things. no lessons on the diversity of sexual organ growth, none on how to obtain consent properly, none on how to recognize when you feel unsafe in your body. if you are a teenager, you have probably already been sexualized at some point in your life. you will have seen someone also-your-age who is splashed across a tv screen or a magazine or married to someone three times your age. you will watch people pull their hair into pigtails so they look like you. so that they can be sexy because of youth. one of the most common pornography searches involves newly-18 young women. girls. the words "barely legal," a hiss of glass sand over your skin.
barely legal. there are bills in place that will not allow people to feel safe in their own bodies. there are people working so hard to punish any person for having sex in a way that isn't god-fearing and submissive. heteronormative. the sex has to be at their feet, on your knees, your eyes wet. when was the first time you saw another person crying in pornography and thought - okay but for real. she looks super unhappy. later, when you are unhappy, you will close your eyes and ignore the feeling and act the role you have been taught to keep playing. they will punish the sex workers, remove the places they can practice their trade safely. they will then make casual jokes about how they sexually harass their nanny.
and they love sex but they hate that you're having sex. you need to have their ornamental, perfunctory, dispassionate sex. so you can't kiss your girlfriend in the bible belt because it is gross to have sex with someone of the same gender. so you can't get your tubes tied in new england because you might change your mind. so you can't admit you were sexually assaulted because real men don't get hurt, you should be grateful. you cannot handle your own body, you cannot handle the risks involved, let other people decide that for you. you aren't ready yet.
but they need you to have sex because you need to have kids. at 15, you are old enough to parent. you are not old enough to hear the word fuck too many times on television.
they are horrified by sex and they never stop talking about it, thinking about it, making everything unnecessarily preverted. the saying - a thief thinks everyone steals. they stand up at their podiums and they look out at the crowd and they sign a bill into place that makes sexwork even more unsafe and they stand up and smile and sign a bill that makes gender-affirming care illegal and they get up and they shrug their shoulders and write don't say gay and they get up, and they make the world about sex, but this horrible, plastic vision of it that they have. this wretched, emotionless thing that holds so much weight it's staggering. they put their whole spine behind it and they push and they say it's normal!
this horrible world they live in. disgusted and also obsessed.
#this shifts gender so much bc it actually affects everyone#yes it's a gendered phenomenon. i have written a LOT about how different genders experience it. that's for a different post.#writeblr#ps my comments about seeing someone cry -- this is not to shame any person#and on this blog we support workers.#at the same time it's a really hard experience to see someone that looks like you. clearly in agony. and have them forced to keep going.#when you're young it doesn't necessarily look like acting. it looks scary. and that's what this is about - the fact that teens#have likely already been exposed to that definition of things. because the internet exists#and without the context of healthy education. THAT is the image burned into their minds about what it looks like.#it's also just one of those personal nuanced biases -#at 19 i thought it was normal to be in pain. to cry. to not-like-it. that it should be perfunctory.#it was what i had seen.#and it didn't help that my religious upbringing was like . 'yeah that's what you get for premarital. but also for the reference#we do think you should never actually enjoy it lol'#so like the point im making is that ppl get exposed to that stuff without the context of something more tender#and assume .... 'oh. so it's fine i am not enjoying myself'. and i know they do because I DID.#he was my first boyfriend. how was i supposed to know any different#i didn't even have the mental wherewithal to realize im a lesbian . like THAT used to suffering.
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Pain is a great motivator…
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Meanwhile Toriel:
(Loud noises don't wake her up usually.)
Artist note: I’m so proud of this :))) I know it’s a lot of dialogue and reading, but dialogue is grueling work for me. I’m glad with the art and for the amount of pages I made in such a relatively short time span -w- page 5 was super fun to work on. A lot of blood, sweat, and hours here... :) The backgrounds were a big bore tbh, but I finished them! Yippie!
#CHARA WTF DO YOU MEAN “COMPUTER”????#lol i hope you guys dont hate me for what im doing in the next update.#IS THAT A MAC OS???#Yes......owo''#Kris and the Gang are LITTLE now. I've pixelated them and turned them into little game characters!#FINALLY!!#I never thought I would be going so far in the story to explain WHY Kris pulls out their SOUL and opens Darkfountains even when they killed#Berdly in Chapter 2. Pain can make people do horrible things.#Uhhhhhhhhh anyways. :3 I hope you liked it! I made this post a little too long for my liking and didnt get it out when i wanted too-#but thats okay! As long as people enjoy it :)#bread#art#deltarune chara timeline#deltarune chara timeline comic#seriously though#long post#man am I glad I switched over to the limited color palet! It helps me feel alot more relaxed uwu#This is....way over 16 hours of work q-q#chara#asriel#susie#kris#asriel dreemurr#kris dreemurr#kris deltarune#susie deltarune#deltarune#comic#my art
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Astarion ‘has never had wholesome intimacy’ Ancunin vs Gale ‘none of these thoughts are in the bible’ Dekarios
find me on bsky
#Astarion chill it’s just hand holding lmao#NO REFERENCES NO DOUBLE CHECKING WE DIE LIKE MEN!!!#the longer its been since i posted it the more i Hate it LOL i see everything now and i am in pain#astarion#astarion ancunin#gale dekarios#gale of waterdeep#bg3 astarion#bg3 gale#bloodweave#bloodweave fanart#astarion fanart#gale fanart#bg3#bg3 fanart#baldurs gate 3#my art#bg3 shitpost
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gonna be using this one a lot
#interview with the vampire#sam reid#iwtvedit#my edit#my gifs#might gif the whole quote later because it was really good but i'm too lazy rn lol#anyway he's so beautiful i am in PAIN
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bird in her gilded cage 💙🪽
#ref/pose is the vogue italia cover from nov 2005 by bruce weber#i realized as i was drawing this that it turned out super similar to the last painting i did of them (the kiss) BAHAH oop#just in a different font#what can i say... i just have a tried and true dynamic/cliche that i like LOL#aka super sane fictional men who just want to keep a girl all to themselves (and also to keep them safe) no red flags here move along#hogwarts legacy#sebastian sallow#sebastian sallow x mc#sebastian sallow x oc#sebastian x mc#hogwarts legacy sebastian#choccyart#clora clemons#i painted this in black and white and then added colour afterwards and o my god it was such a pain NEVER AGAIN!!!#i was so stressed bc i liked how i painted it but i was like WHENEVER I TRY TO ADD COLOUR IT SUCKSSSS#idk how some artists paint so well by adding colour later but i SUCK at it... i need to paint in colour from the very start#lesson learned#thank god for gradients they saved me BAHAHA#i still dont know if im happy with this but i am done looking at it
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Vincent Week went fine.
#vincent valentine#ff7#vincent valentine week#vincent valentine week 2024#final fantasy 7#FFVII#fanart#doodles#vincent valentine final fantasy#galian beast#tried to work with rebirth style more for this year#i hate his overly complicated ffxiv armor sm its pain and i am too old to be patient with it for doodles lol#i do love how they made vincent a card nerd#shakes hands#thanks squeenix
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Fitz and Amber, a redraw of Ask Me No More by Lawrence Alma-Tadema
#rote#realm of the elderlings#my art#rote fanart#fitzloved#fool's quest#fitz and the fool trilogy#fitz and the fool#fitzchivalry farseer#amber#beloved#i meant to do a *quick* study of one of lawrence alma-tadema's paintings because i love the way he paints fabric#but then i realized i could make this about fitzloved instead and things got out of hand lol#anyway its been three weeks of pain and tears and i am tired of looking at it so here you go
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Rainbows (Patreon)
#Doodles#UT#Handplates#Papyrus#Sans#This rainbow is all out of order - and so many negative glows ah :0#I didn't mean for them to trend negative! They were just easier to imagine the expressions - maybe I'll take a second pass on the positives#Or in green's case the negative :')#Again in order of when I drew them so kinda all over the place haha#I wanted to go in order! And then I got distracted pft - thus started with red ow :(#Honestly I was thinking of it just being a surprise-pain more than anything lol - like a splinter haha that wouldn't even pierce him!#D'you think that eyeglows could also act like automatic word-responses? Like how we say ''Ow'' when we're surprised but not hurt sometimes#Silly haha#The second is a lot less silly-intended tho more actual pain#It's also sad to think that Sans' red would pretty much have to be sympathy/emotional pain :(#The kind of survivors guilt of not being able to shoulder more but he's so fragile! It's not his fault!#I am quite happy with both of their expressions there tho especially their mouth shapes - and how the colours interact with their eyes#Lineless colours are some of my favourites :) You can tell it's my pencils and not my pen there 'cause it's feathery hehe#For example Edgar's scars are usually with my pen and they have an almost hard-line quality while my pencils are soft :) S'pretty#Switched colours! I unfortunately misremembered what their meanings were oops lol#Well I got them kinda half-right - I like blue as skeptical quite a lot :D I think it suits them both!#Sans as wary and logical and wanting to keep distance to assure his safety and what he can devote energy to - I like it!#And Papyrus using his brother's colour to be grown up in the way that Sans is hehe <3 It's sweet#I misremembered orange lol I assigned blue's alt meaning of ''curiousity'' - orange is meant to be bravery! Oops lol#I think I was thinking of Papyrus' childlike excitement and wanting to know and be involved! Haha#Greeeeens <3 Happy boys happy with each other! I love when they're happy ♥ Interlocked holding hands hehe#Pinks! Along a similar line! I like pink as platonic affection :D And as embarrassment lol but hgg the sweetness! The care and love!#Is my bias showing lol - especially with the bros sleeping on each other haha ♪ They're both happy to know the other is safe!#Couple'a stresses - I like Sans' more I'm not even gonna sugarcoat lol his expression turned out so good haha#And the inverse for the purples! I do like Sans' face but his body :P Papyrus tho - he turned out sad and perfect :')
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I've got another thing to add to my list of top five funniest things doctors have said to me: My latest test results came back, and I now have a document saying I have, and I quote, "unremarkable hands"
#the person behind the yarn#in context this is a good thing! they were testing to see if I have rheumatoid arthritis#I do not! which is good#I mean it would be nice to have a diagnosis but that particular diagnosis would be a promise of future pain#so I am very much not upset to not get that diagnosis#but something about it as a phrase just makes me laugh#it's not in the top three but it is in the top five-ish?#if anyone is interested I can share the rest lol
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The newest pain sharing update is literally just the post about that 6 week old kitten trying his best to take care of a couple 2 week old kittens
Its them
YEEEES, THAT'S THEM !!!!!! OMG
I personally headcanon hyrule to be 16 almost 17, four to be 15 and wind 13 almost 14, so they're all babies lmao
A kitten looking after two kittens being chased by a mountain lion lol
#hyrule noticed he was the older one and immediately adopted those kids#despite being a kid himself lol#i just think that he was alone for so long that now that he has a found family he's really attached and protective#he usually lets the fretting and fussing to the oldest links but he's the eldest link now lol#hyrule: oh i need an eldest link....wait i AM an eldest link...!#miry's ask box#lu pain sharing au
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Act 5 - The House (Trapped)
Red and Glitchy version ⤵️
#in stars and time#isat#isat siffrin#in stars and time siffrin#artists on tumblr#isat spoilers#in stars and time fanart#in stars and time spoilers#isat fanart#digital art#my art#kaydreams art#omg I am like... actually so proud of this one#listened to 'the house-trapped' on loop (ha loop) while drawing to get The Vibes right#man act 5 makes me so emotional. the pain the desperation#ALSO ALSO it was a month ago Today that I finished isat! (and I am still thinking about it all the time lol)
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been in a ref mood. I guess I can have a humanoid sona too, sometimes. They're not just human though, that'd be boring.
#digital art#my fursona#(sorta?)#ref sheet#I have been thinking about identity and kin stuff and coming to maybe thinking of myself as shapeshifter-hearted#the 'human enough' form may change that's a remnant from a much older design and context but for now it's just kinda stuck#also am i in the minority for enjoying drawing refsheets? most people i see talk about it like it's a pain but i like doing them#i don't have to think very hard about the poses lol
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not sure what I have posted here or not but have a bunch of warcraft ocs sketches!!!
#goethial art#dragonflight#world of warcraft#warcraft art#original character#blood elf#night elf#nightborne#sin'dorei#kaldorei#void elf#ren'dorei#oc leonistrasz#oc kyrigos#oc goethial#guess which one is Goethial :)#his nose and horns make it so easy to know lol#i am not naming all of htem rn i am in pain ajnfdasfa#also some aren't finished girl doesnt even have her whole staff lmao#artists on tumblr
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My piece for the @eurekazine was such a fun project to be a part of and leftover sales are open until 3/1!
[IMG ID: drawing of Edgeworth, Kay Faraday, and Ema Skye from Ace Attorney. They are standing side by side with kay punching information in on Little Thief. The background is Little Thief's window modeled after Windows 95's OS with windows of various clues from the case and games cluttering up the space. / END ID]
#ace attorney#miles edgeworth#kay faraday#ema skye#i am a week late posting this my bad LOL#anyways this was really fun to do i loved designing littler thiefs os and also doing every part by hand(pain btw)
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Delivery of one Red Alert for @sourplumjinx! Hope you enjoy!
#valveplug#transformers#tf red alert#tf inferno#i am so lucky that jinx had made a fancam of tfo red alert. made gathering refs a very short affair LOL#Ahhhhhh I tried to think of a possible tfo design for inferno but I came up so short. was rlly struggling on that front#hopefully the dont fight inferno helps ease that pain a little#i had SO much fun with red alert tho he has a very satisfying pelvis and thighs
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Today's Anti-Kawaii Character of The Day is Ren/[REDACTED] from 14 Days With You! He wears Yumekawaii as Ren and Goth Punk as [REDACTED], they also fit into the Yandere, Hinedere and Dorodere archetypes!
This character was requested by anonymous!
#cw: suggestive#ren 14dwy#ren 14 days with you#14 days with you#yumekawaii#hinedere#yume kawaii#yandere#goth punk#j goth#j punk#finding photos of redacted was a pain and the ass#though why does he look like he shops at the same clothing store as Kaneki Ken and Tomura Shigaraki?#am I the only one who noticed that lol?#dorodere
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