#Hannah Green

[unspokengrief]

I do not know how to be loved if it is soft and kind. I am not soft. I am not kind. I wake up in the middle of the night in a puddle of sweat, running from it all. If your love is fleeting, do not bore me with it. Do not torture me with maybe. Do not breeze by me on a winters day. Love me in your desperation. Obsessively and hopelessly. Love me fiercely, or do not love me at all.

— Hannah Green, ‘The liar, the widow and these empty four walls.’

[asoftepiloguemylove]

Jack Stauber Just Take My Wallet // Lady Bird (2017) dir. Greta Gerwig // Everything Everywhere All At Once (2022) dir. Daniel Kwan & Daniel Scheinert // Hannah Green Night Terrors // Veruca Salt All Hail Me // Fleabag (2016-2019) cr. Phoebe Waller-Bridge // Laurie Anderson O Superman (live) // Kyung-sook Shin Please Look After Mom // Ocean Vuong Someday I'll Love Ocean Vuong // Euphoria (2019-) cr. Sam Levinson // Ernest Hemingway The Garden of Eden

[sinligh]

In the name of healing I bite chunks of myself daily, spit them out in my hand with the intention to wash it away later

Eventually, i end up over analyzing them, like everything else in my life

grafts of all the causes I’m still here, glued together by my mother’s fears

be the Alpha female, she said. “feed on your most beloved, a cup of the moon’s blood every night before bed for you to run alone forever, run wild, never slip”

I Shower myself with self-loathing, lick my own wounds close Keep me sane, keep me safe

loneliness to me is just another insecurity that is dangling from my prefrontal cortex, dangling right in front of my eyes… for me to see the world through it.

I spend hours looking at the bloody chunks in my hand, thinking where did i go wrong ? how much can I hold on to this heartache ?

I've been running around it all my life, running around red lines, red lines circle me, i run in circles around myself I’m all that I’ve ever knew, yet, I only know myself in fading

A distant memory, a deja vu…

All I really know, is that the only stable in my life is the fact that I exist, and that it’s a temporary state.

jamais vu.

will the lines fade if i eat what i bit off of myself again ? if i chew and chew and chew… If i teach myself to stomach it will i be whole again?

is holding on to those pieces enough to satisfy my desire to be held ?

Or does it make me a feral rogue ?

Schizophrenic delusions ticking in my head…

Sometimes I wonder if it’s my fault that I’m this alone…

then again I wasn’t the one feeding myself all the insecurities as a young child.

I wasn’t the one playing pretend.

It was never my fault, my mother thought faking happiness is the way to protect me, it was never my fault father wasn’t interested in the details, as long as I was his perfect girl…

Now, I can’t hold on to anything the way i hold on to the lunatic turmoil that makes me sway and laugh on my own personal misery.

Call it history.

Hide behind defensive humor, get my inner demons drunk on caffeine, mistake that high for happiness cause mama did too…

And wait for caffeine withdrawal to wake us up, both of us…

I’ve never been hangover, but I imagine this is how it’ll feel

The aura ? The migraine?

The urge to throw myself up to be reborn clean.

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•Quotes: Olivia Laing/Heather Havrilesky/ Olivia Laing/ Marya Hornbacher/Anaïs Nin/Camille Norton/ Alice Oseman/ eduardo C. Corral/anne carson/ Joanne Harris/ Hannah Green/Hannah Green/Lisel Mueller

•Original context: sinligh

•Art reference:

1. Sasha Hartslief, Late Night Shower, 2021. 2. Getting Up by Vincent Giarrano. 3.illustration by Owen Gent. 4. The Lovers on the Bridge, 1991. 5. "Beverly Edmier 1967' Keith Edmier, 1998

•song recommendation:

P.s: the whole album is a masterpiece ! Give it a try, thank me later.

[irradiantflux]

[haveyoureadthisbook-poll]

[mccoppinscrapyard]

Read in 2022 (6/?)

I Never Promised You a Rose Garden by Joanne Greenberg (Hannah Green)

❝ You know... the thing that is so wrong about being mentally ill is the terrible price you have to pay for survival. ❞ 

[highladyofterrasen7]

Has anyone read The Queen’s Fool by Phillipa Gregory?

[rebloggingrexan]

[unspokengrief]

You’d love me if I was gentle, right? If I wasn’t so bitter at my mother. If I wasn’t so loud, so blunt, so damaged from my past. You’d love me if I was smaller, right?

My whole life I have been trying to make myself smaller. To live a life without an echo, without a shadow. I keep my curtains closed, my head down and use my inside voice just like I’m told.

I am just a girl, occupying the space I was given when I was 5, too afraid to ask for more.

I am confined to the smallest room, in a large, empty house. I know what I am and what I could’ve been. While they are discovering the ocean, I am still trying to unlock the door. And if all that lies on the other side of the door is settled dust, please find me a comfortable place to rest. I promise I will never ask for more.

I have seen what emptiness has done to my mother and the door never unlocks. The wound never closes.

— Hannah Green, ‘As The Dust Settles’.

[the-rookies-playbook]

Hannah Green, The IT Girl of the Golfing World

10/22/2024 Rookie's Playbook

Hannah Green, Australian Golfer, shot a 1-under 71 this last Sunday, winning the BMW Ladies Championship in South Korea.  This marks her this marks her her sixth victory on the LPGA Tour and her third this season.

Welcome to another Rookie-Tuesday where today I tackle golf!  Now this I know something about, because I used to play golf when I was younger (ignoring the fact I haven’t picked up a club in actual years).  

As we all know I love supporting women, and Hannah Green seems like the perfect person to put in the spot-light today.  Green, 27, has placed first in the leader board during this championship season, which in my books, marks her a winner.  

At Green’s last game she 19-under 269 for the tournament and lead the board after all four of the rounds! 

Frances Celine Boutier finished just a stroke behind Green shooting 6-under 66.  Chanettee Wannasaen of Thailand however, shot 68 putting herself two behidn the winner.  I love to see girls win and I can confirm that this is also achievement worthy! I’m happy to see it. 

There was however, a tie for fourth South Koreas Hye-Jin Choi with 67 and compatriot Yu Jin Sung with 72!

Eight of the top ten LPGA players were present at this years competition.  The main absence came in the form of No.1 Nelly Korda, who sadly had to withdraw due to a neck injury. 

I’ll leave it here this week! There was a lot of talent coming from women during this golf season, and it’s amazing to watch the hard work they put into their craft and the determination they carry with them!

[heavy-nfld]

SHOW ALERT: Fly Festival 3 ft. Hannah Green, Andrew Smith, Baraka, Liz Fagan Band, and Dofish @ Theatre Hill - Saturday, November 2nd, 2024. Show from 5:00 PM to 10:00 PM. Free. All ages.

[deerdollhouse]

Can't wait for the Hannah Green book to come out

[untilthenexttee]

Next Tee News - May 1st, 2024 (The Epson Tour Returns and Those Crazy Ass Aussies)

In this weekly recap of golf action from the past week… The Epson Tour returns to action Juliana Hung (Note the pro tip in the video) Going Green in LA “Team Lowrory” LIV Golf Adelaide Is Foster’s still a thing? And more… Until The Next Tee!! #fightandgrind #seeuonthenexttee

[lovejam]

Reading Christina Rossetti’s Poetry

View this post on Instagram A post shared by Dalnavert Museum (@dalnavertmuseum) The readings of Christina Rossetti’s poetry. For more information on Christina Rossetti, here’s a link.

[geekgirl750]

Say what you want about The Guy Who Didn't Like Musicals and Black Friday but Nerdy Prudes Must Die is truly the darkest timeline because it doesn't feature Peanuts the Hatchetfield Pocket Squirrel™️

[batfamgalore]

Oliver: I knew you two couldn’t stay mad at each other.

Dick: Oh yeah. We’re closer than ever.

*Dick and Roy hold up their hands and they are both handcuffed together*

Bruce: You wanna tell me how this happened?

Roy: Well, Wally thought-

Bruce: Oh man, I wish that boy would stop doing that.