#Because we are crying here
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I'm getting 0 notifs from torasan I think it just gave up 😂 You're on your own, son.
#dのオタ活#A saw a jp fan call the reichuri page a wasteland of scorched earth and it really is it really is#thank u to circles who do their best to meet the demand#Because we are crying here
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i need help with vet bills (again).
hi. for those of you who remember, earlier this year i asked for donations to help me afford toos' vet bills, who we found out through your help had kidney failure, and again with your help we got her on medication for it. unfortunately it wasn't enough, and we lost her. and then shortly after, dexter began deteriorating, which we put down to his grief of losing toos - she kept him young, he followed her everywhere, he only played because of her, he only ate when she ate, etc. without her he just stopped. and then he started to have seizures and fits daily. we got him blood tests, but he was suffering so badly. we made the decision to put him down. i didn't ask for donations this time, because i was so deeply embarrassed to ask for help again. but we are still recovering financially from that, as well as the parts of toos bills that didn't get covered from donations. my mother hasn't worked for a very long time, she's disabled and very sick, and she receives PIP from the government that only covers her monthly medications that are not covered by the NHS. my father retired early to become her full time carer, and we are living off his pension. i am too disabled to work, but because my mother already receives PIP and i live with them, the government are resistent to giving me any help - so i have zero income, and rely entirely on my parents.
this is jenny. she's a 14 year old cairn terrier, who loves when we garden because she wants to help dig holes. she helped us bury dexter and toos, digging their graves for them with my dads help. she's an angel, and loves people so much she likes to escape under the fence and join other families for awhile. one time she got into someones back garden and asked to come in as they were eating lunch. she really hates flies, and will try to bite them out of the air (she has never succeeded but i believe she will one day). she will rub her face against you until you start stroking her, and will growl and even bark if you stop! we don't have the money to take jenny to the vets, for a checkup or for anything they may want to do. this has been an ongoing issue, but toos and dexter took priority, and it hasn't been a bother to her. she existed as normal for a long time, but that's since changed.
jenny has this lump in her mouth, it is larger than the picture shows, but she is a nightmare to force open her mouth since this got so big, i think it's uncomfortable or painful for her. she can't properly close her lips now, and it has pushed all her front teeth away, misshaping her mouth, and sometimes it bleeds profusely. eating has become difficult for her, she can't eat anything hard, and currently will only eat soft human foods like rice, scrambled egg chopped up so small she doesn't have to chew, and things like soups and gravy. she's lost a lot of weight, and i'm getting frightened. to add onto it, i've found lumps like this across her body. i've done as much research as i can, and i believe it to be an oral tumor, it fits, and it looks right, and it spreading across her body is called 'full staging'. and going by all i've read - they will want to remove them in surgery. according to my research, this will cost anywhere from £585 - £4,740 for just the lump in her mouth. that's not including any checkup/test costs, or the other lumps on her body.
she hasn't been to the vet yet, i don't have any secure goal or bills to share, just my assumptions and beliefs from researching myself online. my parents refuse to take her because we can't afford it. i want to save up money, have it in my bank, and show them that we can help her now, before it gets worse, or it's too late. as i said before, i don't have any income, so the only way i can do this is with help.
here's a link to my paypal.me
the icon is a little mouse, and the @ is rivellon
i struggled so badly posting the first post like this for toos. i felt so guilty and embarrassed and ashamed. but i have no choice again, i want to help jenny. i don't want her to suffer. and selfishly, i can't handle losing another dog so soon. this year has been waking nightmare, and i need your help to stop it getting even worse.
please reblog and share, even if you can't donate.
thank you for reading.
#animal illness#animal sickness#pet illness#pet sickness#vet bills#vet help#i don't really know what to tag this as. i don't remember what i did before#and i don't want to go look for my toos post because it will hurt so bad to see it i think#im on hiatus because i cant deal with this and be here right now. but im gonna queue/schedule this a bit i think#im sorry for asking for help again. but please consider helping jenny. she's so lovely#and she's keeping me alive right now#losing toos and dexter ripped me to shreds and shes the only reason i havent completely broken down#i am absolutely terrified of what will happen if we lose her too#god i feel so fucking guilty. i can't stop fucking crying. i hate this so much#im so sorry guys. please reblog and consider donating even a tiny amount#tiny amounts add up yknow#anyway . i should post this now instead of hiding in the tags
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Remember: The burning sensation is part of the process.
#Mouthwashing#blood#body horror#Emphasizing here that this is in reference to a media and character and not a cry for help on my end.#Mouthwashing is one of those games that tickles my brain and checks all the boxes for my niche interests -#-but it wasn't something that got the silly comic part in my cortex firing up. My analysis brain is eating well though!#What said...It is impossible for me to see this scene and not say out loud: “Me in the middle of my work day".#While there is a lot more going on with curly I personally resonated a lot with his struggles with burnout.#Burnout feels like mouthwash to me. That you keep rinsing out your mouth trying to get rid of the rotting smell#but it's just surface level solutions. The real cure requires something far more significant to actually make a difference.#The job 'is hard' and 'everyone struggles'. It's part of the process right? You're tired? Anxious? Depressed? Us too! Chin up!#Actually I resonated with a lot of things within Curly (this is a curly positive space - he's not perfect. He's just human).#One thing being his desire to see the good in people and believe in their potential.#Because here's the thing. Some people truly do just need someone in their corner who stands by them so they can grow and improve.#And some people will take advantage of your kindness. You focus so much on their humanity while you stop being a person to them.#The horrifically toxic relationship persists because Curly tries to see the bigger picture and believes in the good within.#Anyone who has lived through constantly trying to reframe the hurt as something else knows-#-just how many excuses your brain will make to avoid cognitive dissonance. It's human psychology.#Jimmy sucks so bad. But we the audience have the privilege of not having years of baggage associating him in our minds as 'friend'.
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✅️ new character
✅️ think about him 24/7
✅️ fall completely in love with him
#✅️✅️✅️#uh ohhhh#here we go again#it's sooo good to cross off each item on the list#all that's left is to 'cry because he died very tragically at the end'#BUT i'm hoping that doesn't happen#jose pedro balmaceda pascal#pedro pascal characters#pedro pascal fandom#pedro pascal#pedropascal#marcus acacius#general marcus acacius#gladiator ii#gladiator 2
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#i'm here to ruining EVERYONES DAY#tw: torture#i felt like more people needed to know the lore about the arkhamverse because it's absolutely gut-wrenching so hehe ur welcome for the pain#the fact that bruce did try and find him for so long makes me wanna scream#cause ya know they make it sound like he gave up really fast and just abandoned him#but he did try for SIX months? up until he thought jason was dead? (and yes we can debate that he should have known but pls it's a game)#(they needed that to happen for the story so blame the writers)#just as jason had hope for several months that bruce would come for him!#and that makes me so fucking feral#“finally gave up the search” stop stop im crying im not okay#oh my god bruce and jason melts my brain#jason todd#jaybin#red hood#batman: the arkham knight#batman#arkham knight#the arkham knight#ak jason todd#arkham knight jason todd#joker#dcu#jasontoddedit#my gifs#info from wiki and so#this is truly THE saddest version of brujay honestlyyyyyyyyyy#i also like the “mentor and ward” aspect :3#he was likeee 18-20 here i believe?#:(
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maffhew who refuses to say runebergin torttu because he knows hes gonna butcher it so bad he might be kicked out of the country the second he tries and staunchly avoids that by going "the one dessert that barky is going to have to explain 😃"
sasha who gets faced with the most generic description of everything hes ever eaten in his life so far because of maffhew and going "???... oh you mean runebergin torttu!"
"he did good he liked the food and he likes the finland so far so its good" sasha says with so much pride now that all the anxiety has left his system that his husband teammate is enjoying his country and doesnt hate it
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the smile of a man who knowlingly doomed his husband and said husband using all his brain power to context clues his way to whatever the fuck he just got asked that his brain is running hotter than a mid 2012 macbook air thats somehow still alive in the year of the lord 2024 but girl does she chug along shes louder than a fighter jet
#matthew tkachuk#aleksander barkov#florida panthers#2425#the famous vanha kauppahalli date™#we know how bad he is at pronouncing words not in english he does not want to fuck up his husbands language in front of him#(the nhl stars try to speak german video has entered the chat)#different attitudes here lmao#“he did good” mate he was... eating food... what... what is there to praise here..?#i shivered sweet mary and joseph sasha this is how you praise maffhew? yeah id be an annoying little shit about it too#whatever they have. unexplainable. i wont even bother#im glad to see pie and cake are still very confusing for esol#somehow ive had the conversation with several different people in my lifetime and realised even i dont know what the fuck it is#in the sense that when i translate pastries into english for my american friends i just pause and go#wait... i think this is a pie... but its called a tart in spanish but its also kind of a cake? and- [windows reboot sound]#ive had to do this with pastafrola and im like please just eat it dont make me explain im gonna cry if i do#I DONT KNOW WHAT IT IS IN AN ENGLISH CONTEXT BECAUSE IT DOESNT EXIST IN AN ENGLISH CONTEXT TO ME JUST EAT IT#“so whats the difference between a torta and a tarta and isnt a tarta kinda like a pie-” “stop asking questions you dont want answers to”#you have no idea how upset i get trying to explain#im glad sasha at least protrays a little of that frustration by going “i dont know english word” girl SAME
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Tony DiNozzo and Ziva David ↳ UNDER COVERS
#tony dinozzo#ziva david#tiva#ncis#ncisedit#my gifs#my posts#mine: tiva#mine: ncis#userannalise#usersof#cinemapix#userthing#dailyflicks#usersource#tvedit#filmtvdaily#userstream#useroptional#otpsource#did i really make a scene set if i didn't make it 3000 gifs long because i can never decide what to take out#i forgot how hard it was to gif s3 tiva like wow what whiplash this has been. but these are better than my gifs 4 years ago of them#loving the new tumblr sizes bc i can make them bright and it lets me?? madness. still ruins it making them bright but i've accepted my fate#crying that they changed the filter on the first kiss gif like who approved this?? we need to have a conversation.#these match kind of but we will ignore the mess and embrace the green. moment of silence for my ps who had several breakdowns making these#so many things to obsess over still in this. the way she takes his hand? leads him across the room? the confusion on his face? perfection.#anyway it's under covers day tomorrow so here is an under covers set. need them to go frame by frame explaining this episode for my sanity
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most unrealistic thing ab house is people acting like james wilson isn’t funny as hell
#like when he and house are eating in the cafeteria and house is on his ‘ stacy is still in love with me ‘ stint#and wilson is like ‘ yes i’m with you these makes complete sense ‘#or when house was in the mri machine and wilson was like ‘ house . this is God . ‘#when he was playing poker with cuddy and house was on the phone with him so he was talking in ‘ code ‘#when house was using his office because he wanted his carpet back and wilson walks in and he’s like#‘ hm . that’s weird . the door says james wilson . what a crazy typo ‘ ( or smth )#when he and cuddy are in the stairwell and cuddy is like ‘ are we here to hide from house ‘ and he’s like ‘ unless you wanna make out ‘ 😭😭#please his deadpan deliveries always take me the fuck out#motherfucker has me crying from laughing so hard sometimes . james if i was there i would laugh at all your bits#house#house md#james wilson#houseposting#lgbtq#lgbt
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Our love was made for movie screens
For @saltpepperbeard 💕 Show: Our Flag Means Death - Season 1 & 2 Music: All I Want by Kodaline YouTube
#ofmd#our flag means death#ofmdedit#ofmdaily#ofmdsource#ofmd s2#gentlebeard#blackbonnet#edward teach#stede bonnet#ofmd edit#ofmd video#ella’s edit#my dearest jodi. my wifey. my babe! 💕✨#HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!!#how am i meant to show my love for you if not with a video edit made especially for YOU!#there's fluff. there's angst. there's more fluff and emotions!!!! all wrapped up with a neat little bow#i have barely slept for like 4 days because of this but WIFEY YOU DESERVE THIS LITTLE GIFT!!#(also it's entirely my fault because this vid was supposed to be 1 minute long and then it got away from me and here we are asbsjksdks)#you better cry in my dms later 😤#no but for real you're fantastic and sweet and just the right amount of insane and ilysm!!!!!!! have the most wonderful birthday ever!!#❤️#💍
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Me almost falling asleep going full conscious with a cold sweat: "Actually, if it was Stanly to go through the portal instead of Ford, Ford probably would have not done anything to get Stan back because he knew what all the implications of reactivating the portal were and would not want to risk the dimension's safety for his brother's life (also because he was very mentally unstable and did not hold Stan in hight regards at that time) unlike Stan, that spent 30 years to trying to bring him back. So he would just probably stew in his own guilt for 30 years still trying to find a way to stop Bill until the twins arrived at his doorstep."
#We need to remember that Stanford was battling sleep and a demom#he was not thinking straight for a second#bill had a direct access to our dimension thanks to Ford so he going through the portal was kinda good because it shut off bill from here#but if Ford stayed here with no help?#he is going full crazy before probably killing a unicorn to get their hair and building the protective spell#and the paranoia about bill would be astronomical#he would not dare to touch the portal with a ten foot pole#stanford pines#stanley pines#bill cipher#gravity falls#gravity falls au#making myself cry
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“Here, how about you cease that bitch crying?” Apology Tour Edition
#it was hard finding the perfect shot for this one#because most of them made me wanna bitch cry#but here we are#apology tour#stolas#stolitz#helluva boss#helluva boss spoilers#apology tour spoilers#blitzø#helluva memes#memes#helluva boss memes
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hi can we just talk about how much finnick protected peeta? like not just in the games but after?!?!! he was the only one to not raise his gun at peeta, who stepped forward and tried to help him. he reassured him it was okay to ask questions when he needed to. he ran lines with him, told him he had this. even when he killed someone on their squad and was going after katniss finnick didn’t become violent with him. just retrained him and tried to calm him down, literally telling peeta i got you. and the line “peeta just tuck in there” I’M SCREAMING
#it’s if we count how many times he saved peeta’s life in catching fire it makes his guilt for saying how he wanted to go back for him#and the others even worse#he knew everything that was probably going to be done to all of them and his guilt made him have a mental breakdown#like bro!!!!!!!!!!!!#this boy has so much empathy and care within him ugh#also peeta telling them to leave him behind after finnick died is so important because imagine how that fucked him up#i need to go cry now#the hunger games#finnick odair#peeta mellark#catching fire#mockingjay#here laur goes again..
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I know we’ve all been calling Eddie‘s moustache, his gay moustache and I’m as guilty of it as the next person, but the reality is moustache he’s gave far more symbolism than being gay - in fact the gay moustache is actually a very recent thing (the 1970’s!) and an intentional movement by the gay community to subvert cultural stereotypes.
You see the moustache has been symbolic throughout history. They have been symbols of wisdom (think long Chinese moustaches), status (in parts of rajput India, historically only those of an upper caste could wear a moustache so it was associated with being ‘higher born’) and in Europe and America it was a symbol of masculinity and male virility. Indeed many European armies required officers and often enlisted men to wear moustaches. So its association with the military is long founded (apart from the equipment only allowing moustaches, it’s also a part of the reason firefighter swear them - because it is a male dominated career and therefore the moustache is a symbol of masculinity) and predates the moustache as a symbol of queerness.
All of this combined with Eddie diaz having one at this point in time is so interesting, especially because we now know that he’s going to symbolically shave it off on screen as a part of his emotional arc.
Eddie growing a moustache in the aftermath of the Shannon/Kim of it all - the fact Eddie has clearly not dealt with loosing Shannon or his grief, and there is a lot of other emotions and things tied up in dealing with that grief is super important. Eddie growing a moustache is him expressing his masculinity - tying himself to his heteronormative relationship and his military past.
To Eddie right now - his military past is when he had Shannon - it’s when he had a ���complete family’. He isn’t seeing the cracks in the walls or the fact the foundation is made of quicksand. He isn’t able to see that his In his mind that is when he was happy and that is why he can’t grieve. Which is why he’s grown a moustache - because he’s clinging to his masculinity and the time when he felt he had control over his life.
It is essentially Eddie breakdown 2.0 and in the same way breakdown 1.0 came with a new haircut, but ultimately allowed him to process and deal with part of his trauma, breakdown 2.0 is likely to be the same thing. This time, likely dealing with Shannon and very likely the fact that she was essentially a ‘beard’ for him (even if he wasn’t fully cognisant of it at the time - I genuinely believe he loves(d) Shannon - but I also believe she enabled him to not have to look at himself too closely and keep himself in the closet) so shaving off that moustache is symbolic of shedding his beard (because he’s a firefighter and cannot have a full beard) and embracing his true authentic self.
So Eddie’s moustache is a symbol of his queerness - but only when he shaves it off.
#this is incoherent so I’m very sorry#but I have a lot of thoughts and feelings about Eddie shaving off his moustache on screen#I’m very much going to cry watching him shave it off - because of the symbolism of him freeing himself from his past#and it’s going to be beautiful#the history and meaning of moustaches is something I did a bit of a deep dive into when we first saw Eddie with one#but I didn’t post them because I wanted to see if we got any more information#(and I was having fun with the gay pornstache jokes)#but now I’m over here screaming about his moustache and its meaning#it’s departure is a symbol of his freedom from his past and the closet he’s trapped himself in#911 spoilers#eddie diaz#Eddie’s moustache#911 abc#s8
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i can be your angle (hawkahy should happen because it suits the narrative's themes of vulnerability, honesty, and dismantling the idea of the rugged individual) or yuor devil (beejpeg should divorce because it suits the narrative's themes of vulnerability, honesty, and dismantling the idea of the rugged individual)
#as always These Are Just My Takes. if you don't like 'em just ignore 'em and we can each amicably hold our own opinions#i use ''should'' here mostly just for emphasis as a gag of course. or do i? yes. unless?#shebbz shoutz#mash#and i also hawkeye and mulcahy should cry during sex. because of the themes
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getting emotional over the fact that mr reca really would guide you, just as a good director is supposed to, but would still retain the authority to make executive decisions if he felt your choices were not beneficial to your film (life) or your growth as an actor (person)
#mr reca x you#mr reca x reader#i love him i love him i love him so fucking much#i’m going to cry like actually i am so goddamn emotional over him right now it’s not even FUNNY#i’ve been having a MELTDOWN over this man all fucking day#so anyway#i have so many fucking thoughts about him but i’m trying to post them in a timely manner instead of just spamming#oh my GOD i love him#the point here is that daddy is still The Boss at the end of the day#he’ll allow you to make your own silly little decisions and learn from your silly little mistakes and cheer you on throughout it all because#he loves you SO much but at the end of the day he has the final say#his word is LAW as we have heard <3#inky.reca
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Aww bancho that's such a sweet sentiment! It's really
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#p4#p4g#p4d#persona 4 dancing#persona 4#persona 4 golden#hanamura yosuke#yosuke hanamura#DONT TOUCH ME IM VULNERABLE RIGHT NOW#everyday i come on to this app to yell at you guys about how important yosuke is to yu#i know we all know this already but still BUT STILL every time i look at the evidence i want to cry#LOOK AT HOW CLOSE TO HIS HEART BANCHO HOLDS YOSUKES WORDS#GUYS THAT WAS THE FUCKING SCENE THAT RISE WAS CONFESSING HER LOVE TO YU IM ACTUALLY YELLING BECAUSE#HERE YU IS. REPEATING YOSUKE'S WORDS ON NATIONAL TELEVISION#he's good with his queue
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