#4n4 trigger

[th1nsp1r4t10n4l]

♡ 85.4lbs ◇ 38.7kg ♤ 14.5 BMI ♧

[ocdbrucewayne]

i want to be 85 pounds

i want to be so small and frail people constantly worry about me

i want to see my bones without having to suck in and pose

i want to shop in the youth section because even adult extra small is too big

i want to disappear into nothingness because it would be easier

[fearofheights9]

From relapse to relapse I guess

[ffleurc]

𔘓 ﹏ b&w th1n$p0

[lainhasissues]

black looks good on everyone but looks best on tiny girls

[alarexic]

It's the evening, I just weighed myself and it's a whole kg up--

[str4wberrysh0rtc4k3]

ʚɞ ⁺˖ day 1:

i currently do not have access to a working weighing scale :( these stats are just loose estimates based on the last time i weighed myself 

CW: ~70kg | 154 lbs 

SW: ~70kg | 154 lbs 

GW: 50kg | 110lbs

UGW: 47kg | 103lbs

[lenaseatingblog]

3rd Dec

Been on my period so I gained 2kg, natuarl babes but freaked me out, but I lost it again and we are back at 60.3kg

Im at my dads this weekend so there is a high chance that I might go below 60 by monday, it's saturday morning and ive aet three black coffies banana, blueberries and a bunch of pickles since i got here yesterday. I dont know if he noticed anything. Keep skinny my loves.

[th1nsp1r4t10n4l]

XS is too big for me

[fearofheights9]

If I could I would just make my whole diet apples and protein yoghurts

[luvanamia]

I honestly hate food so much, If I didn't need it to survive I just wouldn't eat.

Yet at the same time I have an obsession with it and it's all I think about .

[alarexic]

First time under 40kg since 2021!

[str4wberrysh0rtc4k3]

food log 🍧 17th nov 2022

ʚɞ snacks:

✿ lightly sea salted popcorn - 35kcal

✿ skinny whip double chocolate bar - 77kcal

total: 111kcal

ʚɞ lunch:

✿ apple grapes and strawberry pre sliced - 72kcal

✿ diet coke 500ml - 2kcal

total: 74kcal

ʚɞ dinner:

✿ 2 celery sticks - 11kcal

✿ 3 coca rice cakes - 120 kcal

✿ 1 mini light babybel - 50kcal

✿ 1 extra light laughing cow cheese - 19kcal

✿ 2 teaspoons lightest philadelphia cream cheese - 7kcal

✿ 2 teaspoons light onion and garlic dip - 16kcal

✿ 5 slices of cucumber - 4kcal

✿ 3 jacobs cream crackers - 106kcal

✿ 1 low cal jelly pot - 5kcal

total: 338kcal

ʚɞ total calories:

✿ consumed: approx. 523kcal

✿ lost: approx. 379kcal (walking)

✿ overall: approx. 144kcal

ʚɞ water:

✿ 2L

ʚɞ steps:

✿ 10.5k 

ʚɞ notes/diary entry:

today was a bit all over the place. i started pretty strong at lunch and restricted myself well and then went shopping for a few low cal food options which i ended up eating for dinner. i had initially planned to get some shrimp nigiri for my tea as its pretty low in calories and very filling but despite the excess travel i did to get there unfortunately they only took cash and i didn’t have any on hand. 

this kinda sent my mind into a frenzy and it felt like my plan was falling to pieces. i was really tempted to go walk down to the shops and get a bunch of sweets and chocolate to just binge on but i managed to control myself and just walked out with a pint of 90kcal per 100ml ice cream which i’ll eat over maybe a month or two. 

i literally was shocked by how quickly i snapped, and tbh this one thing i had planning kinda ruined my entire night and now i feel really shitty about what i ate.

so in the end i just had a platter of some of the things i bought today. to be honest it was super filling despite such a low calorie count but the fact that most of the measurements are rough estimates i feel really unsatisfied and upset, even tho the calorie margin is probably only in the single digits. also just the fact that i ate SO much and in such wide variety has kinda scared me and made me question whether what I’ve eaten is truly as low cal as I’ve calculated. 

in part i am glad with regards to how much walking i got to do as a result of attempting to get the nigiri for my dinner however i know i’d feel a lot more satisfied with just having had that. 

i’m also so annoyed about the jacobs cream crackers that i ate! :( the laughing cow cheese that i bought honestly isn’t that nice and so to counter the taste i just ate three of the crackers with them and some cucumber. the crackers are so high in calories i’m just gonna get rid of them so i don’t feel tempted to eat them. because if i hadn’t eaten them I’d literally be down to 38kcal for the day! that was my absolute biggest regret today :(

but omg those mini light babybels are SO good! 

i’ve decided i’m gonna have a rest day in terms of work outs since today has been my lowest calorie intake and my highest steps all week. i’m gonna continue to work out for the rest of the week of course :)

i’m trying to tell myself i’m really proud of my low calorie intake today despite but my stupid brain keeps telling me i ate WAY too much today because i genuinely feel like i have :((

[adalanaisdying]

~ !!! Workout !!! ~

finally taking the time to write this out and finalize all the deails so maybe ill actually do it.

Also I'm going to add how many cals everything burns next to it, however I want to clarify that these numbers will only be acurate FOR ME. It would only be acurate for you too if you have the same hight and weight as me.

I am 5'7/170cm tall and I weigh 122lbs/55.3kg

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START

Cardio x1

3 min walk (4.5m/h) -> about 18 cals burned

3 min jog (7m/h) -> about 30 cals burned

Total cals burned: 48 cals

Drink water

Abs x3

1 min plank -> about 5 cals burned

1 min plank hip dips -> about 5 cals burned

1 min scissor kicks -> about 12 cals burned

10 crunches -> about 2 cals burned

1 min russian twists (with a 10lb weight) -> about 5 cals burned

Total cals burned: 87 cals

Drink water

Legs x3

30 squats (with a 10lb weight) -> about 10 cals burned

30 lunges (each side) (with a 10lb weight) -> about 15 cals burned

50 side leg raises (each side) (with a resistance band) -> about 16 cals burned

50 glute bridges with hip abduction -> about 15 cals burned

1 min wall sit -> about 7 cals burned

Total cals burned: 189 cals

Drink water

Arms x3

idk yet i need to watch some youtube videos

Drink water

FINISH

Workout total cals burned: 324 cals

[th1nsp1r4t10n4l]

I'm so tempted to keep posting pics of myself at my LW

It's so triggering (in a good way) to see what I can achieve. No sense in lying to myself about my limits when I have physical proof of what I can achieve.

[dietcokebbg]

imagine wearing an xs t-shirt and your upper arm is as small as your wrist so that the sleeve is big af