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People are actively rooting for Betty and Simon to "just move on"?? Why??? Why can't they be happy? Why is the fact they've suffered so long points in FAVOR of them ending up sad and alone for you?
Simon lived for TWELVE YEARS in Ooo after Betty became Golb. He lived his life as best he could. It's not like he did nothing but wallow. He has a self help book on his bedstand. He does open mic nights. He has a life. He isn't unhealthily obsessing. Betty was the love of his life! He's not going to just get over that! Why should he need to? What's so horrible about the fact they loved each other enough to sacrifice everything to save the other that they both deserve to suffer in eternal anguish?
You can't tell me Simon just needs to "move on". That's not how grief works. You can't really think that "everything they sacrificed was for nothing and they realize that the only way to live is up give up on their love and resign themselves to eternal loneliness" is a more satisfying ending to you than "lovers who fight for their love for a thousand years and overcame the end of the world to come back together at last"
"I'm begging the show runners not to have them be together in the end. They need to just move on with their lives, without the other, or its not narratively satisfying"
You are a tar pit
#fionna and cake spoilers#listen I realize I'm way more worked up about this than I should be#because my depression meds are the wrong brand and so they stopped working#but 10 years of waiting only for them to end the show with the same as AT#'they are sad and alone forever lol'#would feel so stupid#why even have this show if they just do that?#my heart can't handle it
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starting to feel my enjoyment of cooking seeping back in after a long period of intense burnout that had me really slogging along preparing meals with gritted teeth for a good month there. i credit the return of this spark to the much needed break i took on our 3 day vacation that resulted in us eating solely theme park food. while delicious, in all its greasy overpriced glory, i found myself missing the kitchen. so last night for dinner i made heavily spiced chicken wings with crushed peppercorns and garam masala that rendered slowly in its own fat while roasting in the oven, resulting in flavorful charred crisp skin and a really juicy bite. we picked them clean over steamed rice with lime and scallions. i also baked a loaf of marbled pumpkin and dark chocolate bread yesterday for my neighbor as a thank you for doing me a favor last week. it looked delicious. the crumb was tender and plush and velvety, the spiced ginger molasses pumpkin batter swirling alongside the bitter dark chocolate espresso batter, with puddles of dark chocolate bubbling across its top. it looked so lovely i whipped up a second one for us to have for ourselves that's in the oven now, i think it could be a really good breakfast pastry for us this week.
#ugh it feels sooooooooo good to be enjoying cooking again#it was so bad the last like month or so i just#have been sooooo burnt out#it's genuinely insane what a 3 day vacation can do to reset you :(( it makes me sad lol#i wish that everyone could rest to their hearts content forever#i think i am someone who is extremely prone to burnout and i need about quadruple the amount of quiet alone resting time#that the average person does#so when i get burned out its like excruciating to pull myself out of it again#but im also the primary cook of my household so there isn't really time to take a break and recharge and find my joy for it because#we have to eat lol#3 times a day#every day#forever#BUT#i am feeling so much better about things now after making that dinner and baking a little bit#its feeling soooo autumnal around here lately too which helps#the changing of the seasons is so good for my cooking motivationg#idk#i was feeling pretty depressed that i was starting to resent cooking for a while there since when i enjoy it it's like#life-giving#soul sustaining#wonderful hobby that gives my life purpose and meaning#and it was breaking my heart that i wasn't feeling that way anymore#but i can feel myself coming back#writing about food helps me too#something about describing it#and sharing it with other people who are delighted by it#makes me enjoy it a little extra#sigh#i feel like im returning to myself finally !!!
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Ignore if you donāt want to read about me being stupid once again
#pls dont read if you cant handle venting and whining#once again i am here to say that i am the loneliest person alive and i feel like i canāt grasp the basic consept of friendship and do it lol#like idk how to be friends#i feel like i will forever be sad and lonely#and i know everyone will say you can talk to me and i know that but iāve just been by myself for so long that i donāt remember how to have#actual conversations with people i feel like i am disconnected from reality#i feel like i am an extremely unlikeable person and thatās why i was all alone in highschool and idk i am oversharing on the internet again#because itās the only place i kind of feel safe doing it#pls take care of yourselves first before comfoting me or anything im sorry i sound very pathetic#how do i start living again#how does one live anyway#im just in my head all the time#this was supposed to be hot girl summer but itās once again summertime sadness#im so stupid!!!#im so anxious and depressed that i dont know what to do with myself#im so sorry for oversharing i have a therapist dont worry im kind of taking care of myself#but the eternal loneliness just wont let me go#idk how to be a person anymore#iām just sad#thinking of going to a church and pretend to be a believer so i could have a community again lol
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oh my GOD. I just did the thing I absolutely never wanted to do and I said I'd fight Solas and THATS THE WAY THAT ENDS??????? ARE YOU JOKING
bro, whose ENTIRE kit that you've seen thus far has been ICE based spells, and who has otherwise HIGHLY favoured the tactic of, ya know, PETRIFYING people............. ......... ......... just stands there. he says to rook "you can't beat me alone lol" and it's like he HAS EYES he can SEE the fucking two people that are right here with me! and he earlier was gassing us up going on and on like oh *I* could never do this !!! I don't have a team, but YOU guys are sooo amazing and cool and badass bc you're together!!! you can win!! .... .... .... .... ......... ........ ........... ................ like blood magic on rook or not, we have seen him fucking petrify people in every instance he shows up!!! EXCEPT this one LOL. bc then he can't go "you can't beat me alone lol" and then instead get his ass beat by all the stupid little Found Family Friends that jump him that he for some reason is completely now not aware of.......right.
not to mention, he's alone bc the writing demanded it. agents of Fen'Harel whomst, idk her. elves on his side, nah. spirits, never. nobody like this fuckin guy, nobody would ever fight alongside or for him!!!! definitely not the people we already said were doing that lol
and you honestly. you literally. I mean you for real have his final words be fuck mortals they're stupid and "I am a god" . . . but again, any people who may have ACTUALLY seen him that way, bc girl idk how to tell you this but no he doesn't feel that way about himself even if he's the last evanuris, and one might expect to idk faithfully dutifully and even blindly follow him into whatever plans he has...yeah those people dont exist. so he's just some arrogant asshole that apparently you were totally right about !!! yeah! he fuckin sucks totally and completely and all he ever cared about was being right and being worshipped for it !!!!! also he's the most careless and stupid Trickster God you've ever seen and he is easily fooled and also he is simultaneously too moral and good to execute any of your crew that might interfere with his plans that he is so evil and conniving about even though they are right there and interfering with his big bad evil guy plans but he is still pure evil and must die. you know him so well
#honestly i was speechless. one....we didnt even fight? we just fucking MOB HIM in a CUTSCENE? and we moralize at him while we do it lol#lmfao. girl. what the actual fuck was that.#i will go back to ignoring that immediately now. it's actually bothered me so much im just gonna reload and see how much worse trick is#cause i KNOW thats gotta be worse bc its also gonna make him look stupid.... and ur stupid chars will be so obnoxious abt it.....#and then im just gonna fuckin reload AGAIN do mythal again and never fucking do anything else#this is playthrough three of seven. maybe eight for the opposite emmrich romance.... every single other run is going to be solavellan lol#i thought the friend one was brutal enough. my pookie so sad and alone forever.......but bruh the character assassination i just saw????#HE JUST GOT GOT BY FRIENDSHIP????????? good fucking LORD.
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Anybody know how to get rid of a curse š
#throwback to when i was a kid and my mother the monster that she is wished upon me to never be happy just as she isn't#and that i should never be granted love or happiness. just like her.#this happened repeatedly#my heart gets broken over and over while ppl around me find love and get to keep it and be happy#i feel so fucking broken. like im literally not a person. idk what im doing wrong#i love my friends' love. im genuinely happy to see them thrive#ive been alone and yearning for a quarter of a century#i cant take it anymore#of course i had to fall in love with someone who wont be with me#thats the easiest way to make sure im fucked up and alone for as long as possible#and it's happened several times#they may love me but they cant be w me#I'm literally so fucking sad#the one person who was gonna make it work. i made them hate me bc of some huge misunderstanding abt the nature of our relationship#i miss them the most in the whole world. i think about them constantly. biggest regret of my life#the grief of it all is eating me alive. i keep getting close to being happy n in love and. dare i say it. loved#and then its all getting ripped away from me. again and again#every day it hurts and it makes me paralysed and i cant do shit or be who i want. i wish i could b sedated forever#goodnight lol
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for people who have anxiety but live alone anyway: how do u deal with the panic? I live with 2 other people and still have bubble burst moments of random fear that only gets soothed by putting myself in someone else's eyeline. what do you do when the catastrophising starts???
#my body has a lot of random weird pain frkm 26 years of bad things and every time im like#i should have written a will its really happening this time im about to drop dead#so i skitter around the house to stand close enough to someone else that theyd hear me if i fall over LMAO#insane behavior i know. i have a mountain of medical anxiety bc of my grandparents#but like i cant even wrap my head around what id do if i felt that way and was alone 24/7 at home#panic forever???#who makes you eat and shower bc its sure not MY executive function keeping me alive on the bad days LOL#id wither away if i lived alone i think#kinda sad my life went a way where thats never going to happen tho. to the end of wanting to know who id be#how would i dress and act and decorate?? eat?? what kind of dishes would i get. throw blankets too#what would i learn abt myself etc its an iteration of me that will likely never happen bc im happily married#hmmm#ur always going to wonder about the lifestyles you didnt have. thats normal#but it does make me wonder what i would have been like if i had friends and my own space#oh to be a fag making out with his friends in the privacy of his own home#or maybe thats just how i feel bc were literally married and have never been able to afford to live alone Together lol
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the miserable angry person I become when I haven't eaten is, in a word, atrocious. it is 9pm I have not had my dinner murder is about to be on the menu if I don't fix this soon
#i spent. SO LONG (5min) trying to iron a shirt that would NOT be ironed#and then SO LONG (60 seconds) futilely trying to shove the ironing board closed (gave up and left)#and now i want to CRY because i CANT STAND INDECISIVE YOUNG MEN#what is going ON in your BRAIN if you would COMMUNICATE i might UNDERSTAND!!!!! WHAT is the struggle WHAT is going on#if you were INTERESTED as so many people have CLAIMED YOU WERE why didn't you SAY anything why didn't you DO anything!!!!!!!!!!#LIFE IS LITERALLY SO SHORT WHAT IS GOING ONNNN I CANNOT SIT HERE WAITING FOR YOU FOREVER I CANNOT !!!!!#they said it might be because you had qualms about long distance. BOY I WOULD'VE GIVEN LONG DISTANCE AN ENTHUSIASTIC SHOT#not to be like. once again i am the one more interested i am the one so ready to open my heart i am the one more invested#but like. dude. we live in an age of technology. if you want to get to know me. TEXT ME I'M LITERALLY IN THE SAME COUNTRY!!!!!!!#also what a day this has been. i agreed to teach sunday school (i am burned out and felt dread the whole time and then after i said yes)#and then socialized with too many people and then spent about 2 hours commuting and then came home and watched a romcom#that was happy that made me sad because it was happy. i too would like to be treated tenderly and pursued intentionally for once. anyways#in the same day one friend got engaged to her best friend and one friend got involved with a horrible boy and the whiplash was Horrendous#also if you cant tell i am indeed on my period and feel like too much and not enough lol i need to be alone for a little while
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Chappel Roan saying sheās sad sheās demisexual and then thereās me being aroace as a whole like donāt you think Iām even more sad š
#not saying sheās not allowed to feel sad at all#just makes me think about myself LOL#I hate being aroace itās like everyoneās part of a secret club I will never be a part of#and that people donāt tend to understand and if they do they never uphold that fact#like I actually have thrown up before from the concept of being in a relationship because itās horrifying#and disgusting to me in a practical sense#like I donāt want to throw up every time I start thinking about those things I just want to be normal#and not panic like a relationship sounds like even worse than a death sentence#ppl think aroace is cute and problem free but itās literally so uncomfortable and inconvenient when youāre in a world which a) doesnāt#understand wth aroace is b) doesnāt respect it at all c) has shit povs on what friendship is and how it can be more fulfilling than somethin#and d) how badly it impacts some ;-; like ik it sounds easy but try telling yourself omg I want to have a forever bestie#but then said forever bestie will never end up truly putting you first because theyād have a partner who will be their number one#and as usual you wonāt even be second place you will be last like always#because Iāve noticed that the moment ppl get a partner suddenly they become their forever bestie role and then I canāt have that cause it#freaks me out and disgusts me all at once so Iām literally just cursed with forever feeling lonely and not meaning anywhere near as much to#someone who you wish could even look your way the way you do to them ā¦#honestly by the day these reminders make me feel more and more aplatonic but itāll simultaneously always feel like a hole in my heart#because apparently being aroace is like being some weird person and some freak#and not in the š»šāÆš¶šš type of connotation LMAO I mean just plain freak#and then that loneliness will always accumulate and accumulate and accumulate until I physically cannot handle it anymore or I take matters#into my own hands and just off with her head to myself LMAO#dora daily#and that is why despite aroace being cool to me itās just not placed in an environement which makes it cool#as those assholes tend to say oh meh meh meh you never struggled girl ā¦ weāre in the 21st century every person in the lgbt community is#living the life dating who they want and being with who they want#but allegedly it is but a crime I canāt like anyone and that nobody fucking listens to me when I say I have an attraction deficit#and that they take it upon their hands to define what Iām attracted to or head canon me as whatever they are#I swear Iām not even fucking worth that shit just leave me alone š#I promise like if I was with somebody they will regret the day they were born by being with me LOL I am not all that in fact me being aroace#is saving them from torture ā ļø anyways ! rant over :3
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Random Sorta-long Rambling abt MLP
Okay I haven't watched every episode of FiM, I do rewatch a few eps time to time, so maybe this was said somewhere I didn't know or forgot about,
But honestly was it ever really said that Twilight canonically became immortal and will outlive her friends when she became an ailicorn? I see this all the time in fanworks, I even hear ppl act like this is 100% canon when I don't remember if it was??
Tbh I haven't rewatched MYM in a long itme, but from what I remember it was extremely vauge on anything to do with specifics of Twilight and her friends in the future. Maybe I forgot but I really don't remember there being any hint that Twilight outlived her friends or was immortal specifically, for all we know they could all be dead.
And don't get me wrong I don't mind or care if it's used in fanworks/fics or whatever, but it just seemed weird to me how sometimes I'll hear someone talking abt Mlp and bring this up as if it was 100% something that is canon and idk it kinda bugs me a little bit
#Ngl I never liked the idea of Twilight outliving her friends#It just seemed unnessarily sad for a show like Mlp and never believed they would have that be canon#I don't wanna yap too long even more already but you could also even make an argument that it would suck narratively too?#Like Twilight went through a whole character arc on growing to apperciate friendship#with her friendship bonds being so strong it can literally create magic and power things like the elements of harmony...#...only for her apparent destiny to be like āLol actually you're gonna outlive all your friends/family and never get to reunite with them!ā#Like thinking abt it doesn't even make sense bc she earned becoming an ailicorn and the princess of FRIENDSHIP#yet doing this leads to her forever leaving and missing the friends that helped her earn it??#She'd ironically feel more forever alone from normal ponies who aren't ailicorns after a while?#Compared to if she was still a recluse bookworm at least she'd have her family and eventually get to reunite with them in the afterlife??#Idk where I'm going with this anymore LOL#mlp#mlp fim#ramblings#text#twilight sparkle
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#im back from a week with my dad at home and at the lake#it was really nice to b home for a while but now im a mess lol#bc it really makes me wanna move back to Appalachia and not do another semester out here#and also this was our 1st trip to the lake without my mom being there. she loved the lake. she grew up on the water and was named after an#island. she died before she could use our new jetski. which my dad bought for her and she would have loved#and i stood in her sandles bc my dad keeps them out by the fireplace and my toes fit almost exactly into the impressions of her feet#and i came come with another bag full of her clothes. and i feel bad for my dad being all alone in that big house#i mean hes got the dogs but theyre 7 and 8 and theyre big boys so they probably dont have all that long left. itll be so sad when they die.#there was a moment where i was talking to the dogs and he said i sounded exactly like my mom. which was kinda intentional#on my part bc i say a lot of things bc she would say them. stolen phrases and intonations. pieces of things ive taken.#its still weird that she's just gone forever. the time in the hospital feels like it was some horrible nightmare.#and now shes never gonna kno where we end up. she's left rooms full of half tumbled rocks and half sorted photos and half organized#classroom supplies. the outlines of a person that will slowly be stitched out of existance as time moves on until theres nothing left and#the memories are gone. its just sad is all. especially bc she didnt deserve it. no one does but expecally not her.#but unfortunately life isnt about getting what you deserve. its chaos and coincidence all the way down.#unrelated
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October mood: I'm in a relationship with a cinnamon roll.
#cinnamon#cinnamon roll#october#october mood#mood#cute#happy#sad#alone#love#inlove#yummy#delicious#funny#lol#sweets#autumn#relationship#couple goals#forever alone#single#cake#boy
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"your violence is unspeakable now " ive always committed grievous acts of violence and war crimes . You are just mad at me for killing someone who matters
#hector#book 22#book 24#again imbued with themes ig#cause while yeah this is haha silly#it is also very much a take ive seen lol#less so in the case of achilles and more so with hector post patroclus#and can be applied to practically any other character#like there is horrific violence and devastation everywhere in this story#the evil isnt the person acting it is the totality of it. war and violence make monsters of men#there is a totality of devastation that is recognized in what happens between the 3#but it isnt just limited to the characters alone. if u limit it to that it is so so deeply one dimensional#anyways if yall can stomach war crimes discussion#i would forever recommend the doc the act of killing#every so often i think about it and justā¦..god.#i havent watched the second doc still and im sad about that cause it is about a victim confronting the abuses exacted by these people#but the act of killing is justā¦..interviewing these people years after they horrifically maimed and killed so many. and then#asking them to describe the act. and how they felt. and how they feel now. and if it was justified. is justā¦ā¦god fr a must watch if u can#handle that type of pain. both visually and in spoken word#but yeah. nuance is the point of this aside lol#oh but also just cause no one gets upset over all those men who die. like that post that is like is the whole book just like this#these descriptions of death at a massive scale in another catalogue type form#hell ik people have talked about character kill counts on here. i have been that bitch#to prove a ferocity in battle or whatever the hell#but there is no recognition of that depravity. it is only when it touches someone we know by the narrative to be loved#to be powerful. to be good. to be worth something to the people around him#and to see him act with his family and in battle before the end and with the gods and#humanity makes it hit more obviously. that is how stories work. but to step back from that and recognize#oh so many men also died terribly. so many things happened to their bodies. and they only get a line. that is what gets me
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flippin boobahs!
#weezer#rivers cuomo#brian bell#patrick wilson#scott shriner#OKAH HI CHAT#iāve been thinking#this tag will be just a rant not really weezer related#yk laufey ?#i was listening to her song āletter to my 13 year old selfā and just started overthinking about myself when i was younger#i just think about my younger self and get so sad thinking about her; i wish i couldāve done more for her#i was a huge introvert and talking to anybody made me super super anxious; so much so that my teacher noticed and had me join a āsocial#emotional learningā group where we spoke about low self esteem and how to raise it and everything like that#i only left it in 8th grade because i didnāt wanna keep missing class for it; but it made me so sad to think i thought so low of myself#i would wear hoodies all the time and jeans because i used to hate my body a lot#which is awful to do in socal heat!#i think it started because in my family i was always stereotyped as the fat one; yk how mexican families are? they called me gordita for#the longest time; which made me incredibly insecure and only in 10th grade did i start showing my arms š IK ITS DUMB BUT ITS SO WEIRD#i still canāt do it entirely; iāll wear shrugs and things like that because i still am insecure about my arms sometimes but ive been better#i only really had one friend but she had a different lunch; so i was alone for most of the time on the swings by myself or sitting at the#lunch tables alone waiting for lunch to end and this noon duty came to me a lot and would talk to me since she felt bad i was always alone#while everybody else played with each other ; and i donāt know why i just broke down thinking about how lonely i was at the time#iād go to the schoolās friendship room everyday after that because it was just a teacher who let kids come inside her room to play games if#they didnāt wanna be in the heat and soon i became friends w the teacher and sheād play uno with me everyday; mainly because the room was#relatively empty until they got loom bands! and i was an expert on loom bracelets so i would help others make them and that was a confidenc#e boost; i remember being proud of myself for socializing like that LOL#i just get sad thinking about that time; i like to think that if little Lyss saw me; she would be so proud because i have friends;#a boyfriend ; good grades ; and iām well liked and regarded. i hope sheās proud of my progress socially because it was such a leap#i wish i could go back in time and tell her how much better things get and how she wonāt be lonely forever#ā¦and to not online date. definetly donāt do that one.
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I just learned that my piece of shit ob gyn that did my IUD was suspended two times for medical neglect and sexual harrassment of a student. he caused a miscarriage bc he didn't care to check if a patient was pregnant after he was told her latest period was 5 months ago, he told her it was a digestive issue, did a biopsy, was rough, and the fÅtus died. the woman learned that a week later at the hospital and she still had to go into labor to get the fÅtus out. he kissed his student without consent bc he thought she was flirting with him. the board also forced him to see less patients bc he was seeing up to 10 patients/hour (that's craaaaaazy). he also refused to take a call while he was relaxing in Florida bc it was "not urgent" but the patient could have suffered an uterine rupture. he also had a lot of complaints abt him.
he was suspended 15 then 21 months and now he's retired. I'm glad he'll never hurt anyone else and I'm glad he was exposed for being the piece of shit he is
#personally I wish he was dying alone in a ditch but this will do lol#sad pathetic bitch ass doctor#I wish the suspended him forever but obstetrical violence isn't really punished so I'm glad his face was in the paper for malpractice
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Baby fever so bad I've been thinking about the ideal number of kids for characters. What is wrong with me.
#no main tag#anyway. I think for freddy it would depend. he's the anxious type- so having just one kid would be a lot for him#I'd imagine his decision of having another baby would be impacted a lot by how the first kid went#if everything was mostly alright he'd be all for it- if shit went sideways he would forever dread having a second one#fred doesn't like children. so... he probably wouldn't have any if not tied to freddy. and even then would insist on only one#chica... I think she'd like two. I've heard headcanons that she has younger siblings#and I see her as the type to want to want that for her children too#although I also imagine she would want to have her kids later in life... mid 30s maybe#fox I also see as someone who wouldn't really want kids- especially since I headcanon him as trans#he doesn't want to be pregnant and he doesn't want to dedicate years of his life raising a child#when he already spent most of his childhood having to take care of meg since they didn't have any parents#maybe if his partner wanted to adopt. and they adopted a slightly older child instead of a baby. but that's a big maybe#bonnie... I'm not too sure honestly. I feel like he values his freedom and would want to enjoy his youth#but I don't think he'd be against having a kid or two (maybe even three)#also I find the idea of him having lots of kids funny because. bunny lol#so idk about him#golden meanwhile I fully believe would want a big family. he felt so alone growing up and he's so starved for love#so he dreams of having his own family with lots of kids living in a big house and being very happy <3#I think he'd be happy with up to five kids lmao. although he understands if his partner would rather have less#he'd definitely want at least two though. he always thought having a sibling would've made his childhood less lonely and sad#so he wants that for his own babies :')#I was going to say more characters but now I'm embarrassed lol goodnight
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when mitski said I know no one will save me im just asking for a kiss and when she said give me one good movie kiss and Iāll be alright and when she said still nobody wants me and when she said I donāt need your pity I just want somebody near me and when she said
#DONT listen to the evil little creature in your head that says listening to the song that makes you sad after a certain time is fine#you WILL. feel sad.#someone get this song out of my god forsaken hands#I know itās just bc Iām tired and I havenāt been sleeping well so I feel shitty but god#Iām going to be alone forever huh šno one want me š#Wish I was a person!! Wish I could act like other people!! I will never figure it out!!!#I was supposed to be a pile of leaves but instead Iām something that yearns for love that probably wont ever happen. Lol. Lmao even#sorryyyy for venting again on main. Iāll be funny again tomorrow#no one look at meš#ben talks#personal
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