#!!! venting

[nofuckingideawho]

it's with great regret that I inform you that giving all you have won't just make people stay. would you like to consider absolute isolation an an alternative?

[thedenofravenpuff]

I'm greatly disappointed to see this year's Disability Pride Month starting off to negative commentary from people who seem to willfully misunderstand the point.

No we are not celebrating being sick! We are celebrating being alive!

Disability Pride Month is to spread awareness and show the individual struggles that are unique from person to person.

It is to shout out and point out we exist and not to just be brushed aside. That we deserve compassion, but not infantilized and propped up for abled people to feel good about themselves.

No one is celebrating sickness. We are celebrating people, that often get overlooked or talked over.

You don't hafta join in, if you don't wanna.

But do keep your negativity to yourself then, rather than actively try ruin the fun for the rest of us.

[graceashcroft]

The 4th of July celebrations in Los Angeles officially been cancelled due to the sheer volume of ICE raids happening. We're still helping the war criminal led nation of Israel commit genocide against the people they stole their land from, while fueling their need to destroy the ENTIRE middle east. Unemployment is steadily rising. 17 million people are losing health care. Groceries are still just as expensive in every state. Gas is about to go up.

Are we feeling great yet?

[sanshofox]

Newest trick studios use: blurays and dvds got rare, because studios stopped producing them, but demand for physical media is still there. That’s an old hat. But what I observed recently is that instead of rereleases for movies on standard dvd or bluray, they now rerelease them through higher cost versions like UHD or 4k blurays or steelbook or limited/anniversary editions. Like…steel magnolias on a 4k bluray for 30€??? Are you kidding me? I see right through that shit. Because who needs a 4k version of older movies? Makes no sense when the original was recorded on a 80s studio camera and mostly „remastering“ the frames usually don’t look good. That’s cash grabbing money. Because a pseudo prestige edition for all movies before 2010 is more profitable for them than a standard bluray rerelease for 10€.

EDIT: Also another thing I observed is that even if they sell/produce standard edition blurays for movies…they do so through third party companies now, which results in prices higher than 10-12€. It’s up to 19-22€ now, so these companies can also earn some money besides the studios AND they never go on sale (I am looking at you koch media (german company)). I really want princess bride with german dub on a bluray, but since the bluray production license went to a third party the standard price is 22€ now.

[dejavous666]

I HATE this

Why can't trans men exist and be evil like me why is it always whhhhhhhhhhhhhhhy gooseworx do i have to live in this world where me being a misogynist asshole isn't allowed because I was "born a wemen" or something LIKE MAYBE ITS BECAUSE IM DYSPHORIC OR SOMETHING like im not a girl THATS WHY IM SO PISSED BECAUSE PEOPLE SEE ME AS ONE... AND YES IM OBSESSED WITH A FICTIONAL CHARACTER AND PROJECT ON TO HIM

WHY CANT HE JUST BE A TRANS MAN LIKE ME SO I DONT FEEL so alone...

Please please please please plEASE PLEASE PLEASE PL

[emsleyanbluejay]

i’m so sick of hearing people complain about “whiny transmascs who don’t transition and still want to be treated like men”

either pay for my top surgery or shut your mouth. some of us are disabled and have to find doctors willing to take the risk of a potentially deadly health crisis mid-surgery, on top of living paycheck to paycheck. do you have 13k, plus travel expenses for a week to the only surgeon i trust to not kill me? because i don’t.

[borderlesbian]

i'm really fucking scared this is all i will ever be

[renrockzzzz]

"my daughter is fine"

no, your daughter isnt fine, nor your daughter. he's your son, and he's not fine either, because he can't tell you he feels this way and he's fucking tired of it.

[finn-hasnoclue]

context for how stupid this post is. i have orthstatic hypotension and for that past two days i have been super dizzy like 85% of the day. normal human blood pressure is 120/80. my blood pressure right now (previous standing and walking, now sitting) 91/51. which yikes.

but even better i cant take the medicine that brings my blood pressure up if i want to sleep tonight :) because i cant lay down for four hours after taking it otherwise ill get a headache. because too much blood pressure in my brain.

i went to dizzy island and everyone knew you there.

i went to the salt store and they said that you’re a regular.

i went to compression sock land and they said you’re there *all* the time.

i’m at laying on the floor town and i heard you’re there too.

i went to low blood pressure land and they said you’re a frequent visitor.

i went to passing out island and they said that you never want to visit them.

[nofuckingideawho]

being mentally ill AND self aware? zero stars, would not recommend

[jewishvitya]

"Those people believe x. We know they're wrong because y, but here's how they got to this point."

"So you think x!"

"No, I'm explaining what they think."

"You're making excuses for it and arguments that support it!"

"I'm laying out the arguments they give. I'm not making them, I'm showing them. I broke down why it's wrong and how it became a prevalent view."

"You're an x-apologist!"

Right, sorry, my mistake. Those people don't have a distorted worldview that leads them to cruelty, they're just evil by nature, their essence is darkness and violence, there's no humanity in them, go ahead and fantasize about wiping out whatever population you marked as bad. Didn't mean to interrupt your fantasy. I can see you're quite attached to it. Go on, advocate for whatever useless violence you think should happen in retaliation. I thought violence should be a horrible but sometimes-necessary tool, but it can be a goal, that's fine too. Everyone needs a dream I guess.

[hel7l7]

Sorry, I didn't text back. Everything has been a lot lately.

[kayliebeanie]

I guess I don't do a whole lot of life update posts so in case anyone wants to know how big of a thing this really was for me here's basically my life story up to now in a brand new format I came up with:

- Be me

- Born in rural southern US

- Get assigned Gifted Kid status basically immediately

- Breeze through school for the most part but barely make any lasting friendships or spend time with people my age outside of school

- Become a furry at some point during high school, for some reason

- Get tired of trying to block every queer furry I run into online and realize that maybe the whole Hating People Different From Me thing won't help me get into heaven

- Oh I'm bi

- Start to feel very burnt out around senior year but still manage to graduate

- Somehow obtain a Discord boyfriend

- A bit of a stoner but super sweet and in a similar living situation to me

- Start my first semester of community college in Fall of 2019

- Then my second in Spring of 2020...

- You already know what happens here

- Flunked out after dropping or failing most of my classes cuz I was struggling to even start assignments or pay attention to online lectures

- Oh I'm a girl

- Spend the next 2 or so years working at the same dead-end job and coming home to my parents' house to rot in my room playing video games alone or occasionally with Discord boyfriend, who also happens to be bisexual

- Survive a hurricane of unprecedented magnitudes for the area I live in

- Return to work after a few days, parking lot is now the largest relief center in town

- About half of all customer interactions involve hearing about people losing their homes or loved ones, but fortunately didn't lose either myself

- Eventually power and water return to town, things slowly return to post-Covid normal

- Election Day 2024

- Spend a couple more months rotting in my room and hearing news about how much the government wants me dead while everyone around me praises them for it

- Finally muster the courage to submit a therapy request through a place I found that lets you fill out a form online rather than making a phone call, AKA the most horrifying thing in the world

- They call me a few hours later and I let it go to voicemail while I curl up in bed and cry

- Eventually call them back, get an appointment

- Ride the high of successfully returning a phone call until the day of the appointment

- Day finally comes

- Car breaks down on the way there, find out pretty quickly that the engine is totally fucked and have to call my mom, who I hadn't even told about the therapy

- Feel like more of a hopeless failure than ever

- Immediately have my own break down when she picks me up and start crying in front of someone for the first time in years

- She has no idea how to handle her son having emotions past the age of 5 and I have to lie about most of the reasons I'm upset so it isn't exactly cathartic

- Get home and eventually calm down enough to reschedule the appointment, via email

- Finally make it to therapy (in a different vehicle) the next week and I'm nervous as hell the whole time but I still make it through the introductory session

- Nicest fucking person I've ever met and also they're non-binary and awesome

- Get to talk to someone in person about being bi, trans, and having a boyfriend for the first time

- Get to keep doing so for an hour every week

- Also talk about my problems with social interaction and college of course

- They recommend me a psychologist and we work up to me eventually calling them

- Psychologist also turns out to be non-binary and awesome

- Get psych evaluation

- Oh I have ADHD, Social Anxiety Disorder, and Persistent Depression Disorder

- Actually that's not surprising

- All the weight of dropping out of college despite being The Gifted Kid all my life starts to fall off my shoulders

- I continue therapy, feeling much more comfortable with the therapist and my current life status over time, including my long standing online relationship

- Finally start talking more with my boyfriend about meeting up

- Book a hotel, request time off work for myself for the first time, and even call ahead to confirm the reservation

- Day finally comes

- I finish packing, tell my mom I'm gonna be camping with a friend for a few days, and get the fuck out of there before she has time to ask too many questions

- "Son" of white Christian nationalists goes on "camping trip" with a "friend" she met online...

- You already know what happens here

"Son" of white Christian nationalists goes on "camping trip" with a "friend" she met online, smokes WEED, sucks COCK, and gets RAILED all for the first time. Many such cases!

[fae-screams]

maybe killing myself is the only way to sever the attachment i have to you.

[bladeechan]

Hmmmmmm