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heres the secret about the egg if you're watching this by purity. the egg conotation (what you think) is all around you by atom.
so science breaks it down
my journey was that you removed me from religion (why i felt so deep and misunderstood) that you will never get
an atom
so you're a theist
you're not muslim at all but you went through the rat race (Rowan Atkinson movie) and you made me win you back (so i reverted to get away from you, so you got money knowing nothing (your sexism overall)
but you got the egg
the egg in the sea is your sexual orientation to your wife (not even halal but you haram gf'ed her by purity but you never believed (she married you to save my life, so your contract is void) so you sabotaged my family for 'piety money' (about me) but you would take advantage over a disabled kid to 'get rights' so you're owed money from people by default
nothing about a disabled kid is knowing you used me as a debt collector for life (me as a slave for your shitty reasoning with Islam and patriarchy cuz you knew how much you'd benefit it knowing the religion was originally a Matriarch (you got some deep shitty psychological problems over one family only 'using you' so you wanted to get the crown for... nothing)
so you wanna be pro-active JW for.. that.
you wanted to have sex and you never felt 'complete' and you made me go through your past to save my future (some role model you are) and everybody knows
what i did with Anson Seabra is perfectly halal to make my life good with a newcomer (you made me go through that shitty day for you to 'live')
what i did is that i always wanted to get married (normal for a dreamer) so he will use a society to work for him and not for the latter of his mother (who he is initially attracted to) why i hate keanu reeves is you: the reader
so it's a step by step reasoning with my soul is why i was always in pain knowing i loved my husband (state of dream achieved: dr. joe dispenza and TV theory saved me) is knowing ND people are married born (why their dads go dajjal on you in public)
so knowing that now is how my dad (clone replica of him being there irl is him knowing the world according to Allah never dies is you not believing in love but you'll eat your way through (big brother rhetoric)
so you made me up (a community) to sexualise me (why im on TV) but you'll do nothing to make it up for it (you aint muslim yourself for one gori turned muslim right back) i did not do all of this on my blog for you (i almost died to put you in the cave myself, im the fckin Queen)
and now Ru Paul hates you.
good
i hope you learn that Lee Pace is not into you and will possibly find a way to jade you out of the sequence knowing i heavily loved what i seen in my father right back to the Qur'an (humble yourself there. those sex scenes aren't for you) good, now you're raped by life (as it should be)
now get back to work before i destroy your monastery with a suprise outcome
Kevin Bacon is Muslim
Faaiz Hussein IX
you'll forget that you will look up to Jared Leto because he ran a cult if you look for him with advice is how i know what you did wrong (he wanted to have a good time)
Javed Leto Ahmed VIII
and why you don't see TV dilemma the same way again if you piss off your mother one more time cuz one, you'll never know Jennifer Lopez again the same way (Naseem Khan)
Declan Donnelly (Riaz Yusuf)
Anthony McPartlin (Anthony Javeed IV)
you'll never want to see me in the ending credits cuz my Dad ain't your husband cuz you done fucked up if my best friend is somebody you knew on TV who is just like me because why all of Glee cast is Muslim but i name drop to serve you not live with you
Tilda Swinton (Taba Swab Syaafi)
but you'll never be cuz your fat ass is never first but last, hence why you never met him (David Tennant) the first time (the hare)
David Tennant (Jaabir Zafar)
kiss my ass you'll never be better than me cuz i know your 'da'dah' does not exist anymore if he comes up telling you what you missed out only after i'm married cuz everybody knows, but i'll buy the Porsche just cuz your mother (Hugh Jackman: Hugh Jackman (Haaris Jackman) will make you do more than the ordinary (you knew your fckin uncle will hate you to end your shitty monastery with a life (now the conspiracy circuit says you're Baal, so how did you come across my acc then (your Allah)?
David Bowie (Zaafir Mumtaz Lraaz)
who you talking to?
#you done fucked up if david tennant comes over looking after your home an shit an ur the only 'terrified nigga at the back shituation' cuz#u knew how shaq got the middle finger for being alive#the only bro you supported on your 'coursework'#miss scott is 'adele jazeem'#idina menzel is already muslim is why kids loved her#an u hated me#hello#lazs#you'll never find me fucking#your#dad#shabaash#welcome back to masjid university LA#u know matthew gray gubler as ur sheikh now (criminal minds: la)
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And thus, with the passing of 24 hours, Caeru's ambition truly comes to an end. Major Nemesis spoilers below the cut- we're talking endgame ambition business here. Mostly on a character RP front.
The Doomed Scientist made quite a few... choice decisions, in the end. Killing Cups once and for all, recording his story as one of grief-
And sparing what little remained of Mr Mirrors, leaving it free to roam Parabola as it sees fit.
Some of them, he can explain. Others, he's still left to feel... discontent.
Cups needed to die. That much was certain from the start. It was a tyrant, as all Masters are, and complicit in the bargaining and eventual destruction of four (potentially five) cities, as all Masters are. It was an obstacle. A murderer. A petty monster that felt no remorse even on its deathbed, and it went out of its way to ruin multiple lives just because it felt owed its own sick and twisted idea of revenge.
It killed his first love. It looked him in the eyes and he knew what it had done and he knew from the start it was going to die.
Perhaps, in the end, it knew too. And yet it still pleaded, and wanted to live, and-
It made a bargain.
A bargain Caeru didn't take.
Not because he didn't want to. Gods, he wanted to. He wanted it. He wanted it more than anything else in the world. To have Greylu back, to give him the gift of life, of love, to show him the wonders of the Neath and the beauty of the correspondence and all of the people Caeru has met and loved and found home with along the way-
But. He couldn't.
Because Cups was a monster. And no matter what, it deserved to die. And he could not, in good conscience, allow it to live.
Even if sparing it meant everything he's ever wanted.
So he's left here, now. With a bloodied traveling coat, and a bloodsoaked knife, and a favor finally fulfilled.
And nothing to live for. No resurrected lover, no charming visits to Helicon, no slow dances in the living room, no memories to rebuild and lives to live and he won't live again-
Nothing. All he has is a coat born of obligation, not to his love, but to people he's never even met. To lives he's never even touched. To a paramour, still alive, with hair of rose-pink, who doesn't even remember her own brother's existence.
Cups didn't die for Caeru's sake. Cups died for the sake of all who wanted it dead. For the revenger's court, and the ghost screaming in his ear, and the reckoning that will not be postponed indefinitely.
And Caeru, who acted as a tool to carry out their wills? Who all but betrayed his own lover, just to satisfy a cause he never knew existed?
All Caeru is left with, is regret. Regret-
-And grief.
#yin-thoughts#fallen london#fallen london spoilers#nemesis spoilers#so! nemesis huh!#i have. a lot of thoughts#overall i think heart's desire remains closest to my heart#but that's almost certainly bc of the obvious ''you always remember your first'' bias#there's a lot of problems with nemesis that have been talked to death by other people way more eloquently than i could ever express#(the big notable stopgates littered throughout. the weird pacing at the end. the fact you never meet your actual nemesis til the finale)#but overall i still liked it a lot!! i loved it actually!!! it singlehandedly made me like cups as a master!!!!#not because of anything nemesis actually DID mind you. i just really liked making up things about it#in place of nemesis. actually featuring it.#which could either be a plus or a minus against the ambition depending on what angle you look at it from#but. yeah. i'd say i enjoyed it. i enjoyed it a whole bunch#and now that ive played 2 out of the 4 ambitions and my FL hyperfixation evidently isnt letting up#it's safe to say we're all here for the long haul#tune in (insert miscellaneous time in the future) for when i finally after like a year and a quarter#get to find out what the fuck truly goes down in light fingers#and also keep an eye out for that caeru-centric fic ive been unsubtly alluding to and still need to write.#ive got a whole outline for it and it's. well#you'll all see when (if?) i finish it#i have some ideas abt how i wanna play around with the nemesis endings + what they mean to caeru#(and i do mean endings as in both of them)#and it all may seem. insane. when we get there#but i swear i have a direction plotted in my head#i swear#scoundrelventures#<- the scoundrel isnt mentioned At All in this post but that works as a general FL oc lore tag
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drunk little guys because im sappy for them
#mentopolis#dimension 20#daniel fucks#hunch curio#hunchfucks#they are endearing to me in their fucked up little ways#truly#what if the worst people you'll ever meet held hands and kissed#d20 fanart#my art#going into the season i fully believed i would be attached to the fix#how these two took up the mantle instead i'll never find out#tw: alcohol
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is it fair to call people like this "hack writers" if the only way they find a relationship interesting is when it involves pedophilia, incest, cannibalism or necrophilia?
#context: this was in response to a quote about cannibalism in a romantic context#note: this is purely in a writing perspective.#i find the value in romantic cannibalism because it is a interesting metaphor in general#but maybe look at irl examples of cannibalism and you'll realize that it is WAY more complicated#(ex. families in different cultures eating parts of a dead family member to connect them together; even after death)#(or the written historical accounts of slave-owners cannibalizing their slaves & the subsequent trauma for black people related to it)#cannibalism as a metaphor should never be restrained to only romance or love#do you recognize how interesting it can be to use cannibalism as a metaphor for hate? or for literally anything else?#it can be used as a metaphor for control; power; possession; abuse or destroying someone at their very core#im sure it can be used for both simultaneously but i think its limiting to perceive it as 100% romantic#also it limits the discussions of real life cannibalism; both modern and historical#+ is it really impossible to think of a “forbidden relationship” without these 4 subjects?#but the persons' bio starts w/ them being into winc3st (the one who wrote that) so i dont think they give a shit#(sorry for the fuck-ton of tags. it always bothered me as someone who does writing analysis sometimes & get fixated on culture and history)#[just me yapping]#ok to rb#proships dni#tw pedophila mention#tw incest mention#tw necrophillia#racism tw#tw cannibalism#<- these definitely apply here
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That fic from Akutagawa's pov that remarked how although Dazai had left a bomb under Chuuya's car, at least that showed he had thought about him before going, while he never cared enough to spare a thought for Akutagawa.
#I think about it a lot... Something something the opposite of love isn't hatred but indifference#I can imagine Akutagawa and Chuuya fighting over Dazai when he left#“AT LEAST HE THOUGHT ABOUT YOU!” “HIS THINKING ABOUT ME WAS A FUCKING ATTEMPT TO MURDER ME AKUTAGAWA!”#...#It was supposed to be funny it shouldn't hurt me as much as it does.........#Trust me chuu/aku angst actually hits the hardest and you will never see it coming.#Because it’s not the kind of angst of “oh no my boyfriend has been beheaded by this magic sword that cuts through space and time ://”.#Chuu/aku angst hits right close to home when you least expect it and it’s so real in its inherent humanity it leaves you defenseless#ryūnosuke akutagawa#osamu dazai#chūya nakahara#bsd#bungou stray dogs#mine#q.#23/11/22#I'm sorry I don't remember the fic of course I'll add the link if I find it again#It's just that sometimes you will read something in a fic and go “oh my God” and it feels like you've been run over by a bus#And other times you read a fic and it seems like nothing happened–#and then two years after you realize you're still thinking about that tidbit of lore and you'll be like “oh... oh.”#Like fics that rewrite your entire belief system without you even noticing for real
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say hi to me i don't know, i just remembered being so much brighter, i guess
cigarette ash like wildfire burning holes in the nighttime open scars feel like barbed wire white lies flying high like a ceasefire dropping flags on the shoreline this is as far as i can feel right 'cause what you don't know can haunt you
and all we ever wanted was sunlight and honesty highlights to want to repeat let's get away from here and live like the movies do i won't mind when it's over at least i didn't think for a while
don't drag it out living like that doesn't mean a thing
so let's, make a great escape and i'll be waiting outside for the getaway it doesn't matter who we are we'll keep running through the dark and all we'll ever need is another day we can slow down 'cause tomorrow is a mile away and live like shooting stars 'cause happy endings hardest to fake
and i wanna let you know i wanna let you go but i just can't bring myself to speak but this is how it goes the end credits, they roll this bridge was built over kerosene but we can watch it and all i ever wanted was sunlight and honesty highlights to want to repeat let's get away from here and live like the movies do i won't mind when it's over at least i didn't think
so let's run, make a great escape and i'll be waiting outside for the getaway it doesn't matter who we are we'll keep running through the dark and all we'll ever need is another day we can slow down 'cause tomorrow is a mile away and live like shooting stars you can wish away forever but you'll never find a thing like today
#miraculous ladybug#felix fathom#marinette dupain cheng#felix graham de vanily#🌃#ml amv#felinette felinette felinette FELINETTE#i'm shrimping so hard i'm gromping i'm making absolute tempura#yes the 2 am coco pops félix post was made while i was finishing this yes i am constantly experiencing inconsolable félix feelings#félings even. GOD GOD GOD okay listen#i could do a line by line analysis of this song and how i made the amv i have too many thoughts to put in the tags i am exploding#but in summary REPRESENTATION. REPRESENTATION. EMOTION. REPRESENTATION. EMOTION. REPLIQUE. FUCK ME#félix's trauma an open scar leading her to the art room as far as both of them will go to feel right#ALL HE EVER WANTED WAS TO KEEP ADRIEN AND THEN MARINETTE SAFE#it doesn't matter who we are we'll keep running through the dark huAHUAHHGAG I MTHRWOING UP it's how he doesn't care what she thinks of him#how she sees him whether she hates him he's Chosen her as someone to protect and he will DO IT he will TAKE HER WHEN HE RUNS#i don't care if you beat me i know i have this under control and i'm protecting you and everything is going to be okay EXPLOIDNGNIG#tomorrow is a mile away tomorrow where i find out who you are tomorrow where we have to come apart#this is how it GOES you're the hero i'm the villain adrien is the lover i'm the monster i'm the cousin#marinette and félix and Knowing each other is so#THEY DESERVE SO MANY OTHER DAYS THEY DESERVE TO SLOW DOWN AND BE WITH EACH OTHER AND NOT HAVE TOMORROW PULL EVERYTHING AWAY AND UAHAUHGAUGH#i'm not well about them. félix and freedom and escape#ALSO i have so many feelings about félix cherishing the people he wants to save so much he was willing to do the same thing that led to#his own trauma and use the peacock miraculous TWICE. ARE YOU KIDDING ME ARE YOU KIDDING ME#you can read it differently but right now come with me ARE YOU KIDDING ME#also ALSO i often think about how felinette standing in front of réplique is a reference to pv felinette#and me placing that directly before the wish is a nod to how the pv was rewritten into canon miraculous. a meta wish... felinette remains#but also in universe you can wish away the world that once was and you'll still never find another thing quite like félix#and who you were and could have been to each other today... cherish him marinette... please cherish him for me#i hit tag limit on this essay so i'm not tagging the episodes i used in the amv but i used all eight félix episodes as always
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alicent haters are wild they'll be like "she's such an ungrateful vindictive hypocritical bitch. why isn't she nicer why didn't she have a spine and stand up for herself when her dad groomed her into being a child bride" like child brides are victims with no autonomy, which often affects how they develop (as they are busy being brides who are children in those crucial developmental years, where they learn things like how to cope with (the) stress (of being a child bride) and feelings of jealousy (over other people not having to suffer through being a child bride) and self hatred (over your body being used without your consent as a child bride)). she isn't capable of being your perfect madonna figure because of the being sold as a child by her father to her best friend's father. as his bride. hope this clears things up!
#every single criticism i see of her is genuinely so insane to me like#'she betrayed rhaenyra' actually you'll find it was her father who betrayed HER. on account of forcing her to seduce her friend's father.#'well if she just hadn't challenged rhaenyra's claim this wouldn't be happening'#well you see her decades of living in the aftermath of being a child bride#has unfortunately had something of an impact on her perspective of the world#as when the entirety of your self worth is founded on your ability to suffer through the duty of being a woman who is an object that men use#to produce more men#you may start to resent when other people have lives where they get to enjoy their own sexuality and have autonomy over their body#it is perhaps unhelpful to direct that interpersonally rather than being angry at the system as a hole#but unfortunately she was raised as a fucking child bride so her ability to step back#from her own trauma and view the situation objectively is somewhat compromised#not helped by the fact that her friend refuses to acknowledge that her father turned her best friend into a child bride#so the resentment will never be acknowledged openly by the two of them and will always be sidestepped#like gosh. sorry. it turns out being a child bride will do that to you.#anyways.
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i'm sorry but i hate gabi from aot
#✧ — kie rantsss#“you'll never find someone as good as me” HELLO??#bitch shoulda died instead of sasha 😒#i don't care if she's a kid#fuck her#AND SHE SOOO SURE SHE'S GNNA BE A TITAN#LIE#FUCKING LIE#gabi braun#gabi aot#attack on titan
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I could count the amount of original stories of mine that don't have horror elements on one hand and idk what that says about me
#thylacines can talk#actually i do know it says mmmmm making horror monster ocs is fun#outside of my fandom ocs my ocs and original stories arre dominated by horror elements and religious themes oopsie daisy#i might eventually post about them but the hk brainrot is going strong#but a friend of mine got a commission for me of my doomer human x monster yaoi so you'll see my Main Babygirls soon 🥰#hand in unlovable hand they're fucked and weird and it's an unhealthy relationship and it'll never work as everything is stacked against#them yet each other is all they have and if being together means their death then so be it. Peter should have probably ran. Should have left#would be better off for the majorth of the story had he never met it yet the two are so alike. it's the first thing that's ever unnderstood#him. it's the first 'person' that's ever truly cared for him. And even if it has flaws and his life was ruined by things beyond his#comprehension and he risks his life he's not willing to let go of the only person whos truly seen him and loved him. Who is willing to tear#its world apart and die for him. There are no happy endings here. They were doomed from the start. But at least they have each other.#also tfw your life and 'family' sucks so much that a literal monster who manipulated you and used your body to carry out ruthless murders is#nicer to you than your goddamn brother and friends. like damn dude.#I honestly think if Slaughter was born a human their relationship would be great for both of them they truly fit together like two puzzle#pieces. two outcasts who have so much in common and find comfort in one another. but because of the circumstances of Slaughter's nature and#what it was forced to be this is not a healthy situation or a relationship. Peter comes out better at the end and would be as good as dead#if not for meeting Slaughter so there's a silver lining in all of this but goddamn dude. the bullshit it took to get there.#The fact that his life was so bad literally getting possessed by a monster and almost being murdered numerous times and an insane amount of#trauma and bbeing a target for monsters for the rest of your life literally IMPROVED IT my guy truly cant catch a fucking break 😭😭
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I hate letting shitty people take up real estate in my brain, but sometimes the bastards refuse to leave.
#thinking once again about the dude i met on a dating app#who went on a red flag speed run for 2 weeks#before deciding that i was too much trouble and he was still in love with his ex#and informing me that i needed to accept that in my position a relationship was a pipe dream#but also we could totally still be fuck buddies if i was up for it#like#i am very aware that schmuck is not worth the mental energy#but the gall to be like 'oh yeah all my free time is devoted to my kids and my ex-wife that i am not in any way over'#'but your familial responsibilities and lack of a car means you're the problem'#'and also means you should accept you'll never find anyone who'll like you enough to make any compromise for your situation'#'anyway wanna watch me jerk off?'#like jesus christ dude#thoughts and prayers for your ex#also the same guy who declared being lonely surely did not bother me as much as him bc by now i was 'used to it'#no great loss#but for about a day and a half it was nice to think a reasonably attractive guy would be interested in me#but y'know#pipe dream right?
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picking an artist name is so fucking hard because everyone i've asked prefers samsa de sade and i think i'm starting to prefer it too but crispin de sade feels less "aesthetic" and more authentic and i like that. i don't know anymore. augh
#random thoughts#i have the songs nearly done. i have their names. i have the album name.#BUT NOT THE ARTIST NAME???????????#i cycled through so many after i terminated krispyn viscera.#there was s3raph (or edward s3raph. i prefer to forget that one.)#there was februaryseraph. and angel pond. do not ask i was out of my fucking mind.#and before kv there was adrian rorschach but you'll never find adrian rorschach. i killed the bitch.#anyway!! please state your input. i like both of them equally they are like children to me.
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Hey sci what are you favorite musicals
to the surprise of no one my favourite musical is probably book of mormon,, i think i just love the genre of musicals that make you belly laugh
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recently i watched the spongebob musical and honestly... has no right to be as good as it is
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underrated genre that are my favourite: showtunes about living in blissful denial. that involve pink sequins.
#slaps!#i love musicals but they need showtunes. real showtunes. with sequins.#and it's gotta make me laugh.#sci speaks#i'm probably not the biggest musical nerd you'll ever meet... but i do really love musicals.#a lot of the time you guys are introducing me to ones i've never heard of because i guess they don't make their way over here to the uk#oh. oh. phantom of the opera?? the first one?? on the west end?? best show you will ever see in your life.#also i'd kill to see cats but it's NEVER AROUND WHEN YOU NEED IT...#i have a weird relationship with cats. i don't know whether my love for it is ironic or sincere and at this point i'm afraid to find out.#oh my god. oh my god. just remembering i promised that one halloween peter and wade would dress up as mr mistofelees and rum tum tugger.#yeah. that's gonna happen. peter's gonna fucking love it to the surprise of everyone and actually wade hates it.#because the suit is itchy.#and also he wanted to be GRIZABELLA.#i think deep down peter just wants to be a sexy cat in a skin tight suit and we as a society should let him.
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Bleh.
#idk. experiencing that fun dooming feeling of knowing im too weird and sensitive to engage in proper fandom.#so i just watch everyone else have a fucking blast and i sit here in my 'i feel way too much way too hard' corner#i want to be able to engage in stuff more. to talk to people more. to ENJOY things more#instead i live in fear every fucking day of what thing is gonna accidentally upset me#and ill have to deal with the mental torment nexus that follows for the next 8 hours#like this cannot be normal. this has to be a thing that can be treated#but i have no money or resources to look into that#i just wish i was normal.#im so tired of making friends while wearing a mask#and realizing i can never take it off because they'll leave as soon as i do#be nice be agreeable be kind you have to you HAVE to or you'll have no one#idk i wanna give up im so tired all the time.#my ideas all feel like shit. all being creative has done is make people drop me and hate me.#im loved until im not what they want they thought i was.#im always needed never wanted.#i keep! trying to find spaces i feel like me in. that i feel GOOD in#and its the same fucking story no matter what. i never do it *right*.#i don't do ships right i don't do trans right i don't do bi right i don't do aro right.#every community has made it clear that im not what they want.#im tired of floating and being lost. what would it matter if i was lost forever that seems to be what the universe wants for me anyway.#im tired of living based on what everyone else wants#I'd rather die finally doing something just for me.#vent
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truly detest how pcos tags/forums/etc are absolutely crawling with terfs
#(okay to rb but stay in your lane)#maybe i just want to look and see if anyone else has experienced what i went through today without seeing someone going like#'you'll never be a REAL woman because you DON'T HAVE OVARIES#and will NEVER understand the TRUE WOMANLY EXPERIENCE of having A VERY DISRUPTIVE AND COMPLEX ENDOCRINE AND METABOLIC DISORDER'#like i think there are more important (read: actual) targets to direct our frustration at here than#[checks notes] getting mad at a trans woman for saying she relates to some of the problems caused/faced by having pcos#like. idk. the fucking medical system and lack of research/treatment options#(also. christ. reducing every person w pcos into the 'woman' category automatically bc 'ovary'.#even though it's literally an intersex condition. yikes.)#also i don't know about y'all but i don't wish this on anyone? regardless of gender??#i actually don't want trans women to have to experience this in order to be considered a True Woman#because i don't want ANYBODY to have to experience this. it sucks! it's not fucking fun!#i just wanted to try and see if other people have gone through the same thing i have. not expand my blocklist by half a mile tonight.#i wanna talk about me#even though i didn't exactly find what i was looking for (😔) and i had to play fucking whack-a-terf while searching#if there's any bright side to be found it's the number of posts/people affirming pcos as an intersex condition/identity#i saw someone say 'if you don't want the [intersex] umbrella for yourself you don't have to take it#but it's nice to have in the closet for a rainy day'#and. man. yeah.
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Oh boy it sure is nice not being alloromantic/allosexual enough to be "normal" but also not aromantic/asexual enough to be a good aromantic/aspec person (:
Sure is nice to finally have a community I totally fit into, everyone is SO welcoming
#chaotic rants#“there's no platonic explanation for this!” there is actually#“when are you gonna get a date/get married/have kids?” never#“let's get you fixed up so you and your boyfriend/girlfriend can have sex! ^w^” “i dont have one” “oh im sure you'll find one :0”#“i dont want a significant other and i never will” “oh that's just your anxiety talking. it'll go away once your anxiety's cured!”#vs#“ugh all these allosexuals are SO OBSESSED with shipping”#“are allosexuals okay”#“not EVERYTHING has to be a ship”#“if you ship a canonically aro character you're erasing the representation and are evil and should be hurt/killed”#vs...#“who cares about the lore of this game? what if the characters just fuck and nothing else”#“lol that character isnt het/bi that makes no sense!” it has canonical proof/is obviously shipteased all the time but okay#“lol that character isnt bi/pan that makes no sense!” it's not contradicted by canon even the tiniest bit but okay#-finally finds a character that's ACTUALLY similar my experience being aroaspec-#-that character is the butt of every joke and a mockery of me and everyone like me as people-#“yeah the 'aroace character is obsessed with food' thing is an annoying stereotype! but it's all you're getting so be happy about it :)”#“lol this character that is canonically het and is constantly sexually harassed is actually canonically aroace.”#“what? you find that offensive and uncomfortable? fuck you im asexual and i get to decide what is and isnt canonically aroace” okay#“you think this other character is canonically aroace? uhhhh no you're wrong that's an offensive stereotype idiot”#-it's the one character in the entire canon that's literally never shown any attraction to anyone else-#“this character was turned aroace by this other character. even tho this is offensive with any other sexuality it's totally fine here!”#“also yes you're a bad person if you ship this character even though they're only aroace in fanon”#“here's our webcomic where everyone's gay or trans or both! ...what? sorry there's no aro or ace or aroace characters in this.”#“fuck you if you were hopeful there would be”#vs!!#“oh everything in fiction is a person's idealized reality!”#“shipping is everyone's idealized romantic/sexual relationship!”#“if you like this in fiction then you like it and want it to happen in reality!”
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3.40 i woke up bc i was cold and needed to pee and now i can't fall back asleep i keep thinking of the people i accidentally ghosted. is it ghosted if there was no intent to ghost? i feel so bad and it's not even like i don't think about them i often do think "i should really reply to them... once this is over ill properly sit down and write them... " and then i don't bc something else happens and im dealing with that and the longer i leave it unanswered the more difficult it becomes because i feel so guilty and therefore want to do things properly not half assed but bc i feel so guilty a part of me also tends to avoid it even more. if i do this to you just know i'm really sorry and ill get back to you i swear
#i have this friend i didn't reply to him for 6 months and then i did with lots of apologies he replied no worries haha AND I WENT AND DIDN'T#REPLY TO THAT FOR ANOTHER 6 MONTHS and the thing is when i had texted him in january i was falling ill and then i was ill for more than a#week so i wasn't really in a condition to reply. and since bc of the illness i had missed some crucial classes and was in the middle of#exam session and i was really struggling so then too i delayed texting him. and then the second semester started and it was such a shitshow#and then i fell ill again and i thought to write him hey i was first ill then send i didn't reply to you and im ill now and im replying to#you 🫠. but then i didn't again#anyways last week i finally texted him like ''hey. how are you ? im really bad at keeping in touch im sorry. can i offer you lunch or dinne#one of these days to apologize and so that we can catch up a little?'' and he hasn't replied yet which is like obviously fine. id get it if#he didn't reply for 6 months or a year i'd pretty much deserves it id say. i'm just worried that he'll never reply bc i have fucked it up#entirely. the truth is all my lifd ive been used to seeing many people i care deeply about like once or twice a year without barely any#contact in between and when we're together again it's like time hasn't passed at all. we just pick up from where we left#the same goes with long distance friendships. to me#anyone ANYONE can tell you how little i reply. :(. still. i know it's not good. @ friend i hope you'll find it in you to forgive me and let#me treat you to lunch#god. side note there is something in this house that is triggering my allergy so bad whether its dust or cat blanket im having the worst#time#good night ill try to sleep again now#it took me one hour to write this post yes
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