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#my parents ability to make me question my moral worth and conclude “i should just die” in a million different ways is commendable#like I'm petrified of being a selfish or evil or tone deaf or cocky person because of how much i get told that i am all that#like dear mother ..me indulging in unhealthy habits is not a result of arrogance? like look at me hiding in tags instead of speaking freely#even in my own account#do you understand the amount of shame i carry#can you as a narcissist even visualise the size of the shame i am built of#there is nothing left in me other than shame and guilt#me telling you i wanna stop existing and kill myself is not a threat to get what i want from you#and honestly no amount of money or materialistic bullshit will ever be able to give me what i want from you#because you simply don't have it#you were built different#you were built only for yourself#you don't recognise what i need because you don't even understand it#if you did you'd see what a gaping hole of an existence is mine#life is actually so fucking beautiful#and i am not
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Controversial? opinion but I actually really like Astarion's chaste little kiss, because it isn't a performance. It isn't at all the way he would've kissed you in Act 1. And yeah it doesn't have lingering touches like Karlach's kiss animation or extreme passion like Halsin's, but it feels true for him. It feels real.
It's quick and sweet, maybe a little uncomfortable or uncertain. He approaches Tav and takes the lead, which I love, but he's still figuring this all out. It's so new. He's in the process of defining his boundaries, what he wants and needs physically+emotionally in a relationship. The kiss is intimate but there's space too, and that's okay.
#as an ace person i feel very represented by that kiss too ok#bg3#baldur's gate 3#astarion#baldur's gate iii#it's buggy for some people so they should fix that and maybe adjust the camera#but conceptually i like it a lot#astarion romance#youtube comments were complaining 'it doesn't feel like they're lovers!' uh to YOU. I'm built different
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me when the campaign with characters i’ve praised for being essentially pawns/npcs in the greater world is ending by underserving the main characters by [checks notes] highlighting the role those characters have played as quasi-npcs who are nonetheless still the narrators of their destinies within the limits of a world beyond their control
#critical role#cr3#maybe i’m just built different (with media literacy) but i’m psyched that the campaign that has been an interrogation of agency and#‘the people’ included like. an actual depiction that grappled with the fact that bell’s hells story. as a consequence of choices made at#character creation and continually remade by the cast throughout the story#is more than just bell’s hells story. like it’s. a fair expectation after campaign 1 and 2 were both vox machina’s and mighty nein’s stories#but campaign hasn’t been bell’s hells story in the same way. it has explicitly been about larger implications and exandria. as has been#reiterated in every interview. 4sd. etc etc with matt and overall campaign discussion. to be at the end of the campaign & still shocked#that bell’s hells story required the inclusion of other stories. when it actually emerged out of another story like#‘it’s unfair that campaign 3 doesn’t actually honour the party it’s about’ you mean the crown keepers. so true.#kind of fucked up that their story has this random insertion of characters that detract from the narrative :///////#cr fandom
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poor aiglamene
#cog creates#the locked tomb#nona the ninth spoilers#kiriona gaia#crux#comics#black on black on black on black on black#sorry to your screen gamma but im built different#bonus: when crux is like 'i knew your were dead' another four? pages later#like no shit you knew she just told you#everyone on the ninth was affected by the stupid gas apparently#aiglamene
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i adore how quick the boys are to help crutchie when he needs it. no discussion, no pity, just support.
when morris pushes him over, it isn't jack (who is right there) who helps him up, neither is it race nor romeo, who we saw him interact with earlier in the song. it's albert who helps him up, and it's albert who carries him until he gets his crutch back. did they have a system? was it albert's job to carry crutchie when needed? was it because they're close friends, and we just never get to see it again? or was it that any of the newsies would have done it, but albert happened to be the closest?
when the nuns hand out food, kid blink and smalls don't hesitate before hoisting him onto their shoulders. jack and specs both place their hands on his back to ensure that he doesn't fall backwards. it's so smooth, so natural, like they've done it a million times before.
and note: i don't think crutchie interacts with any of those characters (albert, kid blink, smalls) at any other moment in the musical.
conclusion: crutchie is so so loved.
#also andrew keenan bolger is lowkey ripped so kudos to those two for being able to lift him so casually#and sky flaherty?? its one thing to pick up a buff man but its another to RUN with him in your arms#also the screenshot is excessively wide just bc iain young <3#also jfc sky's arms hooooly hell#ok i actually need to stop lmao#newsies#crutchie#crutchie morris#livesies#albert dasilva#kid blink#smalls newsies#also like ok logically i know it was probably just#albert finch race and jack are the ones who are near him already in that scene#and both jack and race have lines to say so its between albert and finch#and like yall know im iain youngs biggest fan but sky flaherty is just built different so makes sense that its him#they were prob just like ok sky is strong - great he'll do it#BUT LET ME DREAM AND OVERANALYSE OK#bc what is fandom if not excessively overthinking the tiniest details#if u read this far i love you <3#newsies analysis
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true, there is control in self destruction. remember that we're capable of so much more.
#force masc#forcemasc#forcestem#anti ana#op#never forget that we were built for survival. every little thing you do to build that upward momentum makes a big difference.
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Seeing people say that we never see the Doctor and Ruby talking for more than 30 seconds makes me think 73 Yards and Dot and Bubble has just clouded their memories because the first four episodes of this era are almost nothing but the Doctor and Ruby talking and bonding.
Yeah, the Doctor-lite episodes meant we haven't had as much lately, but so many are going on as there's been none at all, as if every episode before 73 Yards was like Rogue where they were mostly separated in their own plotlines.
#doctor who#dw#fifteenth doctor#ruby sunday#ncuti gatwa#millie gibson#and don't get me started on the tardis bookends discourse#that argument lost all credibility when the same people insisted the ending of rogue be moved to the tardis#for no reason other than they wanted it in the tardis#it was exactly the type of scene they said the season was lacking#but didn't count because it wasn't in the tardis#same as with boom#one of the reasons they don't do tardis scenes at the start and end of every episode is because they get rather repetative#if you started rogue with the doctor and ruby in the tardis it would just end up being a repeated of the devil's chord#they decide to do bridgerton and get all dressed up#we don't really need a scene explaining why they're there#it is built into the whole show that they are just roamers#often randomly showing up in places and trying to have fun#for them going to a regency ball is no different than going to a club is for most people#wildest one was someone complaining why they were in wales at the start of 73 yards#they argued that because we didn't get a scene in the tardis we had no idea if being there was intentional or not#but that is irrelevant#the tardis often just lands in random places and the doctor and co have no idea where they are until they step outside#so many episodes start with them stepping outside and going “where the hell are we?”#everything that could've been said in the tardis was said outside it#there was no need to split that between two locations#especially when one actors time is limited#this all feels tied into the ongoing discourse about shows being longer#which many say is to it in more character beats#but honestly just feels like a hunger for more content
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let me be clear i like veilguard but it does suck that no one disapproves anymore outside of like. three choices. i want to be fighting for my life earning approval back again someone has GOT to hate my ass. i should be careful about party composition and companion reactions again. i miss tactically taking fenris out of the party before i'm nice to merrill like those were the days
#please omg can someone hate my ass . not really. but in previous games it sometimes did feel like i was earning approval back#like a. 'even when we fight i still love you. don't forget that' way . i wanted some uphill battle and dav IS super sanitised#the difference is more staggering to old players than new ones. i think dav plays rly well for someone who doesnt know the franchise#but i keep asking questions like 'should the dalish not be more worried about solas/etc' 'the crows r not this nice'#'why wouldnt isabela ask about varric' 'there should probably be more fantasy racism here'#of course these r the devs who were slandering zevran weeks before release. however its also just. man.#I AM ENJOYING THE GAME THOUGH. just wish it had a bit (a lot) more relevance and respect to what its built up in the prev games#dragon age#dav spoilers#veilguard spoilers#dav#txt#like for example i think one of my favorite small writing moments is cass asking about the inquisitor's family in dai#where she approves if you are also estranged but disapproves if you say you want to go back#because for a split second she does not just see a so called 'herald' that she's forced to work with#it's someone just like her who never got along w their family and despite herself she likes the inquisitor more for it#or it's someone who couldn't be less like her and her dislike and initial mistrust becomes more certain#it just. there's is an amount of depth lost when vg tries this hard to make rook be loved as a default
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There is nothing funnier than the image of Price and his stereotypical pretty housespouse both going through a series of emotions when he brings home the human equivalent of a stray cat that is Nikolai, and realizing that a) Oh god he's hot and b) Oh god he's hot and I think I might like him
#pov: you are price's partner and now you're staring at an absolute brickhouse of a man going to town on the food you made for him#price either goes through a bisexual awakening or spends the next two hours googling cuckoldry#personally I'd cheat on price in a heartbeat if nik were sitting across from me but maybe im just built differently#pricenik#nikprice#nikpricereader???#nikolai x reader#price x reader#obligatory cheating is wrong#unless it's nikolai then yeah I get it#my friend called him a dirty russian scoundrel and that's how price describes him#this entire situation is just a romcom of price crying to himself bc he likes his wife/husband AND nik and his spouse going#“why not both” like that old commercial#mentally im off today and you can tell
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POOR GABRIEL MONTEZ! YOU NEVER SAW THIS COMING DID YOU? ALL YOU WANTED WAS POWER. SECURITY. SAFETY. & THATS EXACTLY WHAT YOU GOT! JUST IN EXCHANGE FOR YOUR BODY. LETS JUST HOPE NO ONE FUCKS THIS UP. LETS JUST HOPE YOU WONT HAVE TO CLEAN UP THE MESS.
#jrwi fanart#jrwi show#cw gore#jrwi suckening spoilers#jrwi suckening#jrwi gabriel#jrwi gabriel montez#LOOK FAMILIAR?hahahahahDONT WORRY#IM REUPLOADING THIS HERE BC i fixed up the drawing a lil. and also i wanted to add main tags#U WONT SEE ANY DIFFERENCES BETWEEN THISSUN N THE POST ON MY SIDEBLOG.i changed the image there too.HA!!!!!!!#ANYWAY.i rambled plenty about pain and gabe on my sideblog.SO LETS TALK ABT THE ART SHALL WE.ihad i very hard time getting the colors down#would u believe i nearly left this uncolored??FUCKED UP!! it was only a sketchhow did it end up like this. it was only a sketch...#BUT IM RLY GLAD I WENT W COLORING IT.this time i actually used the airbrush n pencil tools BUT i also have a handy dandy brush i made#its just the mspaint air brush tool. fucking LOVE THAT THING. but now its in fire alpaca and it can be slightly transparent.IT LOOKS SOGOOD#perfect for splatters and grime.i love you mspaint i love youuu.im also so happy w the blood here.i think i reached a shift last year#back when i made that genloss fanart something abt the way i draw blood finally CLICKED and im like OH. the inside must always be darker.#like i KNEW that already but it was like my hand itself finally had it click.i wonder what i will learn next?I LIKE THE ORGANS HERE TOO#not as veiny or thready as i usually draw em. but i think thats fine. not as WET as id like em to be but thats also fine.#i got the point across. the point ofc being WOW THIS IS GRUESOME AND PAINFUL AND TERRIBLE#I LOVE HIS EXPRESSION.i love pain and thinking abt pain. you lose yourself to it after enough time passes of just being in an ocean o agony#at one point its just too tiresome to scream or writhe. theres a point when the body accepts it.sometimes.atleast.#OHHH GABRIEL AS A CHARACTER DELIGHTS ME SO MUCH.he is a dog to me.a thing to serve others.I WISH I KNEW MORE#WHAT ELSE DID YOU WANT BOY?? SURE POWER AND SECURITY AND SAFETY ARE NICE.BUT DID YOU HAVE DREAMS? WANTS? PASSIONS?#WHAT WAS THE STORY BEHIND THAT TIGER TATTOO ON YOUR ARM?WHAT DO THE DOGTAGS SAY BOY?I WISH I COULD HAVE TEA W U#OHHH TO SIT DOWN WITH A CHARACTER AND JUST SPEAK TO THEM. AND YET. AND YET IN THE END ITS ALL TRAGEDY AND COMEDY#TRAGEDY AND COMEDY THAT IS SO SO PAINFULLY UNBALANCED. SIGH.#WHATEVER CMERE BOY YOURE BECOMING AN OC OF MINE NOW UR GONNA BE IN SPACE AND UR NAME IS GONNA BE VINEGAR#UR STILL GONNA BE SHIP OF THESEUSED THOUGH. OOOHHH GABRIEEELLL GABRIEL MONTEEEZZZ#HOW MANY PEOPLE WERE BUILT INTO YOU.HOW MANY DID YOU LOVE AND CHERISH.HOW MANY TATTOOS DO U RECOGNIZE ON UR NEW ARMS#WHAT WAS IT LIKE? ON THE NIGHT U WERE SIRED?WERE YOU EXCITED? DID YOU SEE YOUR BOSS' FACE?WHAT WAS THIS PROMOTION LIKE?
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I keep turning this idea around in my head and I need to get it out
post-The Search For Spock Kirk ending up at some 20th/21st century museum through some time travel shenanigans and ending up in front of a painting of Orpheus and Eurydice. He stare at it for a long time until, eventually some other attendant makes some small talk, talking about they always loved this myth. Kirk tells them that he’s not too familiar with the story but he likes the painting. That it feels very emotional, somehow. The attendant seems surprised at this admission and starts to explain, very happy to do so. They explain Orpheus’s love for Eurydice, how he followed her to the underworld to bring her back from the dead and his deal with Hades. “He couldn't hear her footsteps. He tried to call for her but she didn't respond and he got scared, y'know? So eventually..." and Kirk nods with an understanding they couldn't possibly comprehend
"He looked back" he finishes for them
The other attendant laughs a little, like they find it both silly and obvious "Of course he looked back. He loved her too much not to. That's the tragedy, I guess." and with that, they walk away, conversation decidedly over.
Kirk looks back at the painting. He looks at the painting for a very very long time. He looked back, huh?
#someone else write this I dont have the skill#the obvious difference here is that Orpheus and Euridice and K/S is that Orpheus and Euridice are a tragedy.#Kirk on the other hand got Spock back. He metaphorically went to the underworld#looked back at his lover#and got to save him. he got to beat the tragedy of the situation. Spock didnt come back entirely “right” but he came back.#Kirk traveled far and wide to bring his lover back and it worked fr this time. Rip to Orpheus but Kirk is built different ig#they were a HUGE Percy Jackson kid! and Kirk is like haha yea (who the fuck is Percy Jackson)#honestly this works if Spock is there to. they just have that moment of understanding together.#idk someone else write it im just providing the prompt#honestly if its a 21st century museum you could do a joke about the attendant mentioning that oh MAN they just love Greek Mythology#Star Trek#star trek tos#jim kirk#james t kirk#spock#spirk#star trek the original series#the search for spock#the premise#kirk/spock#james kirk#captain kirk#s'chn t'gai spock#tos spock#the journey home#i feel like i should probably tag that movie but. yk#my posts
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every time i think of krakoan-era charles running i can't not think of one of those dog show videos. yk what i mean.
#snap chats#like them lil bastards running through the obstacle course quick as hell. yeah thats krakoa charles to me jLKEAKJA#i love the idea that he genuinely is fast as hell like yeah sure he won those track races in highschool#because he was a telepath and could tell when others were getting tired or w/e but he also just built different#you just dont expect it .. he usually just standin there or sittin somewhere but then he starts runnin and its like Fuck#like a small animal ... a small six-foot animal vELVKEJVKLA#ok bye ima go play rivals then i may or may not have a treat in the works .....
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Ohhhh.
I massively hate myself for putting this out into the universe, but what if Tim talking about a tree falling in relation to Eddie is actually a reference to Abuela dying? 😭😭😭
That this pillar of his life - someone who has supported him and loved him - the matriarch of the family - is going to die and leave him feeling uprooted and lost.
Narratively it would make sense as it can help Eddie and Chris reconnect and also play into the Shannon of it all at the same time - as well as helping build into queer Eddie and buddie!
#please don’t come at me for this#because I have thoughts about Abuela and her connection into a queer Eddie arc#I feel like she had a scene with Eddie in s7 that was cut that would’ve played into to universe is screaming at you of it all#because I have a feeling that we were originally going to see more of Eddie’s queer arc in s7 - but then Gavin wasn’t going to be available#so they had to make a few changes - so they extended the bt relationship and kept Marisol for longer#and changed up the purpose and fallout of Kim#and if so - then it would make sense for there to be an Eddie-Abuela scene in 8b#and for it to be about Eddie needing to look at things in his life and realise what he has etc#I can very much see a sort of death bed confession of some sort#playing into an Eddie missing buck - realising what he and buck have built - feelings realisation arc#in fact it would be rather amazing and whilst I would cry at losing Abuela and the positive force she represents in Eddie’s life#I would accept it as part of getting buddie together#it’s a play on the family tree concept#and it would be a massively powerful thing too#plus it gives us emotional Eddie in a different way#and it would be a way of reconnecting Eddie and Chris - through grief - and having a conversation about Shannon and moving forward#there are many ways it could be played out that build into Eddie and Chris reconnecting and into buddie as well#and I think Eddie having something akin to Abuela blessing would potentially unlock a big chunk of his repression#like I don’t want to kill off Abuela - but it makes narrative sense to do so#911 spoilers#eddie diaz#911 abc#buddie#911 speculation
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something about roy tucking his face into jamie's neck during 2x12 as a direct contrast to jamie having fully melted into the hug during 2x08 but still taking a few beats before his eyebrows turn and He tucks in his face and starts hiccuping. yea
#beebles#royjamie#ted lasso#roy kent#jamie tartt#i don't have anything smart or sexy to say about this one it's just like. damn#jamie has accepted the affection but the shock and sheer terror in his veins slowly falling off of him#till he's just sobbing quietly into roy's shoulder and the whole team is just fucken. Watching.#to then roy head butting the fuck out of him because their relationship is sort of built on violence??#and taking it from him and treating him delicately would be theeeeeee last thing jamie would want from him#especially at that stage in his character arc#tbh in both of their character arcs.#but to immediately follow it up with such unwavering and blinding affection#not even just hauling him into the hug but tucking his nose against jamie's next#directly paralleled to jamie tucking his face into roy's#god. God!!!#roy gave the first affection after an act of violence twice!! in such differing contexts!!#and they were both equally meaningful!!!#roy kent!!! you fascinate me!!!!#so deeply deeply the zeitgeist of their whole relationship#they have to have some sort of violent undercurrent before they can really connect and even when they do that violence persists#in a really compelling way btw i love it#theyre besties they inexorably tied to one another theyre sharing traumas and secrets and they also canonically knock one another senseless#i love it. love their relationships to love and violence and emptiness and consumption#man y'all's baggage just lines right up don't it.
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Love that the team continued to uphold Lloyd being extremely mentally unwell at all times. Barely functioning but insisting its fine. Plagued by the visions™. Legitimately had a panic attack when everything started to go wrong. Completely willing to fuck over his entire physiology with weird dragon magic because "yeah that'll probably be helpful later". Waking up screaming and shrugging because its totally normal to have nightmares that horrifying on the regular. A+ on this assignment lads, you've broken Lloyd down to his bare essentials.
#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#lego ninjago#lego ninjago dragons rising#dragons rising#lloyd garmadon#text post#talk#ninjago team#it was WILD to hear lloyd say 'my panic attack' like OH#YEAH THAT IS WHAT THAT WAS. COOL SO WE'RE ACKNOWLEGING IT#lloyd has zero understanding of basic mental health#and the parts he DOES understand he just chooses to ignore bc 'im built different'#my sweet summer child you sure were built different. you were built so different that you need like#triple therapy#lloyd is hanging on by a thread#that thread has snapped multiple times#somehow there is always another thread underneath for him to catch#usually this thread was thrown down by the others to make sure he doesnt fully plunge off the deep end#because frankly if he does it will go one of two ways#hes going to kill everyone in this realm OR himself#the fun part is figuring out if hes gonna do either of those things on purpose or total accident
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Wait if all the journal 3 pages were restored after Weirdmageddon why does Bill’s book insist there were still missing pages that just conveniently happened to pertain to his incredibly sad backstory and concepts brought up earlier in that same book
#going off of memory here for that first bit but iirc the journal gets chucked into the bottomless pit alongside the other two#with all of their pages still intact#right?#so then why would bill have more pages if there shouldn’t be any more?#gf#screw it this goes in the general tags too#gravity falls#the book of bill#ANSWER ME YOU FUCKASS TRIANGLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!#ALSO if the answer is supposed to be “ford tore them out of the journal out of shame” wouldn’t it make more sense to leave them in as a-#cautionary tale? he already left the “my muse” pages in why should these be any different? to protect his identity? fiddleford’s?#the last half of journal 3 throws all anonymity out of the window too#so then if he didn’t tear the pages out himself… why would bill have them? HOW would he have them; he’s stuck in the theraprism!#did he stow them away somewhere? nope; he burnt the journals and then got punched into oblivion. could one have popped up at the theraprism#nope; specifies its journal 3 lost pages! how could he have gotten journal 3?#okay so the pages are fake. what about the events that happened on them?#look into my eyes and tell me you really believe fiddleford won against the krampus. the guy who built a mind eraser gun after getting-#snatched by a different monster.#sure SOME events could have happened— who’s to say they didn’t? but when you take into account everything else about the pages and the book#how believable is it really?#how believable is anything he says for that matter? how much are truths? half truths? lies on paper but truths from a different angle?#“LIE UNTIL WHAT YOU WANT TO BE TRUE BECOMES TRUE.”#“LIE UNTIL YOU CANT REMEMBER WHATS A LIE AND WHAT ISNT.”#“LIE UNTIL YOU ARENT LYING ANYMORE”#how much are lies that he wishes were true?
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