#please omg can someone hate my ass . not really. but in previous games it sometimes did feel like i was earning approval back
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let me be clear i like veilguard but it does suck that no one disapproves anymore outside of like. three choices. i want to be fighting for my life earning approval back again someone has GOT to hate my ass. i should be careful about party composition and companion reactions again. i miss tactically taking fenris out of the party before i'm nice to merrill like those were the days
#please omg can someone hate my ass . not really. but in previous games it sometimes did feel like i was earning approval back#like a. 'even when we fight i still love you. don't forget that' way . i wanted some uphill battle and dav IS super sanitised#the difference is more staggering to old players than new ones. i think dav plays rly well for someone who doesnt know the franchise#but i keep asking questions like 'should the dalish not be more worried about solas/etc' 'the crows r not this nice'#'why wouldnt isabela ask about varric' 'there should probably be more fantasy racism here'#of course these r the devs who were slandering zevran weeks before release. however its also just. man.#I AM ENJOYING THE GAME THOUGH. just wish it had a bit (a lot) more relevance and respect to what its built up in the prev games#dragon age#dav spoilers#veilguard spoilers#dav#txt#like for example i think one of my favorite small writing moments is cass asking about the inquisitor's family in dai#where she approves if you are also estranged but disapproves if you say you want to go back#because for a split second she does not just see a so called 'herald' that she's forced to work with#it's someone just like her who never got along w their family and despite herself she likes the inquisitor more for it#or it's someone who couldn't be less like her and her dislike and initial mistrust becomes more certain#it just. there's is an amount of depth lost when vg tries this hard to make rook be loved as a default
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BnHA Chapter 328: Pandoraâs Box of Discourse
Previously on BnHA: DEKU TOOK A BATH.
Today on BnHA:Â
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Also Naomasa grew a beard. Goddamn.Â
please let this be a cool chapter that plays nice with my ADHD lol
(ETA: lol I feel guilty because a lot of people hated this chapter, but Iâm just happy there was a lot of stuff to make fun of, and also that I have another week to work on my backlog of meta posts since the kids were MIA.)
around one month ago?? ah, okay, so weâre gonna find out what was in that Tartarus security file huh
I love that they just randomly set the place on fire
was it necessary to do this in order to escape? no. was it a good idea to set the island they were occupying on fire while they were in the midst of still occupying it? uh. was it cinematic as fuck? fuck yeah
wow itâs a pervert!!
thatâs so great that the villains set loose this fine fellow who Iâm sure is definitely not a serial rapist. truly the LoV is so noble and misunderstood. theyâre just trying to free society from its chains people
oh my god??!
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SHANKED!!! oh my god I cheered for Stain before I realized what I was doing. time to have an identity crisis I guess
so heâs all âhey whatâs going on.â which, while a respectable question, is something I personally would have waited to ask until I had put a bit of distance between myself and the fiery murder island. but thatâs just my personal preference
Stain you really are tenacious Iâll give you that
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âwhatâs the point of escaping prison if youâre not gonna be smart about itâ well shit. anyways yeah youâre dead right, society is in the process of collapsing and the outside world is in total chaos, good call there
oh shit
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I mean itâs not like we really expecting anything otherwise, but still. fucking brutal. I feel like these guysâ fates were decided the minute that one guy called AFO âscumâ back in chapter 94. AFO is unmatched at getting long-term revenge
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ahh, was it the security footage??
fdsdfk heâs still alive??
and heâs immediately launching into an inappropriately theatrical monologue even as the darkness closes in on him fdlfksjdlk. you know, was it ever confirmed that the other guy back in chapter 297 was Seijiâs dad? Iâm just saying
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very impressed that heâs still coherent enough to weigh the pros and cons before making the decision to gamble on giving this info to Stain, who at the very least has his own moral code and isnât allied with AFO. it was definitely still a risk, but as we now know it was also the right call
what a weird alliance. so Stain tells him that heâll give it to a just person, and the guy is all,
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okay for real though Iâm gonna need someone to run a DNA test on this guy. maybe it was some kind of cuckold situation?? the other guy had the family resemblance, but this guy absolutely 100% raised Shishikura Seiji and you are not going to convince me otherwise
anyway, so Stain is all,
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PRISON GUARD: â???? ??????? what the hell. what the fuck does that fucking mean. Iâm dying here, jesus christ, whatever man fuck youâ
(ETA: I kind of feel like this might have been Stainâs last appearance in the manga, given all the fanfare. thereâs not really much else he can do for the story at this point, and he seems to have gotten all the character development Horikoshi was planning on giving him. so if this really is it, hasta la vista and good riddance I guess.)
DWLFDKSLDK MEANWHILE, OUTSIDE
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(ETA: I feel like this is meant to be evocative of that Sermon on the Mount painting, but in a really fucked up way lol.)
if it were me stumbling upon this scene I would just shake my head and walk right back into the flaming building. not getting involved in that mess. sorry not sorry. Iâll take my chances with the fire, especially given that itâs half-assed neutered BnHA fire lol
blah blah blah and so he decided to pass the info on to All Might -- HOT DAMN, HOLY SHIT
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NAOMASA HOLY SHIT. THE APOCALYPSE LOOKS GOOD ON YOU, BOY
âI really like that facial scruff thing Aizawaâs got going on, I think Iâm gonna get in on thatâ yes sir. âalso thinking of ditching the tie in favor of the bulletproof vest look. also thinking of getting totally fucking jacked.â good lord. except Iâm pretty sure thatâs just body armor, but also I donât care. anyway I should probably stop staring and actually read the fucking speech bubbles here lol
âAll Might first handed this information over to Nao, and then went to see Deku, and then came back to Naoâ thanks for that tidy little summary Horikoshi. we are capable of piecing events together in sequential order, I just want you to know that. but thank you
âso has Deku finally gotten a bath? also, sucks that Stain saved the day, but what are you gonna doâ Nao I missed you so fucking much and didnât even realize. how am I just now realizing that you are the perfect man
for a second I was gonna ask why Tartarusâs security systems would be cut off from the outside world, and then I remembered thatâs a basic security control, and then I actually got impressed by how sensible that is. like, itâs been a while since I could genuinely say that the good guys (excluding class 1-A) did something smart. not that it helped them much in the end, but still
anyway so theyâre talking about how AFO was able to coordinate the attack by communicating between his horcrux self on the outside and his ugly peanut-faced self on the inside
huh
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okay you have my attention. I am taking notes here lol please continue
ah okay so he says that prior to Jakku, the transfer of information between him and his Vestige self was only one-way. but post-Jakku when Deku was in the hospital, he was able to tell what was happening inside the OFA Radical Lisa Frank Dead People Book Club Realm when he touched him. I feel like we established that before, actually. but he didnât talk about how it actually felt, though
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boy we already know this lol. yes AFO can talk with his horcrux self. and he can also communicate with his little bro in OFA too, letâs talk about that sometime why donât we. what exactly does that imply, based on the rules weâve established here
my god I cannot get over Naomasa and his fucking facial hair
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no wonder All Might was in such a hurry to leave Deku and get back here
like I have no idea what this radio waves nonsense is but my god, people
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that jawline. also so itâs a quirk, I see. except last I checked Deku didnât have a radio waves quirk, so that doesnât really explain his connection to AFO. but whatever, hopefully weâre at least getting closer to some kind of reveal here
(ETA: since I sometimes forget that other peopleâs lives donât revolve around my theory posts, here are the two relevant links if you by chance want to know my thoughts about this.
Hagakure is still The U.A. Traitor⢠regardless of whether Deku is passing information on to AFO through his psychic link, which he almost certainly is.
speaking of said psychic link, Deku is a horcrux.
just posting these now, because whenever trippy OFA stuff happens I tend to get an influx of theory asks. so hopefully this will be a bit of a time saver lol.)
-- wait, what
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THATâS what the recording was??!? holy SHIT. I genuinely was not expecting that. yâall wiretapped his fucking telepathy. fucking quirks, man. wild
AND THEY USED THAT POWER TO DETERMINE WHAT WE ALREADY KNEW, HUZZAH. GOOD SHOW
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-- oh shit wait lol, except I forgot weâre not talking about 38 days from the present, weâre talking about 38 days from the date the conversation was recorded. heh. um
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yeah thatâs the face I would make too if All Fucking Might just casually told me we had eight days left until the end times
oh, pardon me. three fucking days
r.i.p. anyone who thought we were going to have another band arc sob. I sure hope Deku is enjoying that nap
(ETA: I realize people were hoping for a longer rest period here, but given that the man warned us all the way back in chapter 306 that we were entering the final act, you canât really blame him too much when that turns out to be true. anyway but I do recognize that weâve reached the point in the story where this kind of discourse is going to become a weekly occurrence, simply because thereâs no possible way for Horikoshiâs actual endgame to line up perfectly with the variable headcanons of millions of fans, all of whom have wildly differing and in many cases contradictory expectations which canât possibly all be fulfilled. anyway, so Iâm already bracing myself for that lol. this coming year is going to be a wild ride.)
damn, U.A. out here looking like the motherfucking United Nations
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-- is this U.A.?? I actually just realized, U.A. is four interconnected buildings, not two. wait holy shit is this Shiketsu?
wait holy SHIT
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based on the overwhelmingly powerful vibes of bureaucratic incompetence, Iâm thinking this really is the (future) U.N., or whatever organization it is that deals with international hero stuff
âjust let them handle it themselves Iâm sure theyâll be fineâ yeah okay, thanks guys. appreciate it
wait oh shit did he say that itâs not just Japan?
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soooo, what youâre telling me is that AFO is this close to bringing about the end of not just Japan, but the entire world, and you guys donât think itâs a good idea to help the Japanese heroes stop him? so, genuine follow-up question: are you guys already planning your rich people exodus into space a la Wall-E, and thatâs why you donât give a fuck?? like, what??
omg international heroes
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these guys are from World Hoodie Mission, right? is this Horikoshiâs way of reminding me to buy tickets
(ETA: and it worked too lol.)
WHO??? WHAT???
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donât tell me youâre introducing yet another badass new female character for me to fall in love with only to watch as you dismember them and/or blow them up, Horikoshi. Iâm getting tired of playing this game my dude. donât lie and tell me this time will be different. weâre not doing this again goddammit
noooooooooooooooooooo
god fucking dammit lmao. [sighs and rips the previous paragraph into shreds]
on behalf of Americans I apologize for our superheroes always being Like This
I also apologize because I love her already and Iâm gonna be shameless about it. so fucking shameless you guys
is her fucking hair red white and blue. it is, isnât it
this is the volume cliffhanger, 100% lol. it will take every ounce of Horikoshiâs willpower not to put her on the volume cover. heâll have to settle for the spine or the inner cover this time because Deku VS his class 1-a superpals takes precedence. but it will be a close thing let me tell you
tbh itâs that smile that does it for me. sheâs definitely All Mightâs protege. get out there and show them how itâs done girl. and maybe call Salaam and BRD and see if you canât convince them to play hooky from their governments as well. why not. worldâs ending in three days you guys. âsorry, Iâm busy this weekendâ ainât gonna cut it lol
so while I am not fully caught up with Vigilantes, I have read far enough to know that thereâs an American hero named Captain Celebrity whose superpower from what I recall is being a humongous douchebag. and while I havenât read far enough to know what happens to this guy, I canât say Iâm very disappointed to learn that heâs no longer the number one hero in the U.S. (actually, didnât they kick him out and thatâs why he moved to Japan to begin with?). anyway, so my thanks to Horikoshi for having a marginally higher opinion of Americans than Furuhashi, even though we have definitely not done anything to warrant said opinion lately, and you may have inadvertently opened the door to a pandoraâs box of discourse lmao
(ETA: lol I went into the tags and they donât disappoint. âwhy is she dressed like a flagâ because sheâs an homage to Captain America and Major Victory and literally every other character on this list. again, I apologize for fictional American superheroes being Like This. âoh boy another thicc waifu to make the fanboys happyâ look, tumblr fandom never seems to have a problem thirsting over Dabi or Tomura or Aizawa or Nao, lol, Iâm just saying. âwhere is Captain Celebrityâ idk, probably murdered by the exploding bee cartel, letâs just be grateful for our good fortune and try not to Beetlejuice the man.)
anyway, so letâs see if Horikoshiâs recent character development with regards to making Mineta not terrible anymore will apply to other aspects of his writing as well. I know I was making light of discourse just now, but I do think the complaints about him introducing yet another new character at the 11th hour to be cannon fodder in the final battle are absolutely valid. and again, it wouldnât be a problem if he didnât keep maiming/killing off his female characters one by one instead of developing them and letting them kick ass long-term. but that said, I will never complain about Horikoshi adding another female character to the series, regardless of how clumsy the attempt may be. go ahead and pander away, just give us more girl power lol
anyway so weâll see how it goes, but I think Iâm gonna be optimistic and let myself hope once again, even though Iâm probably gonna regret it lol. it is what it is. she is standing on an airplane just chilling for fuckâs sake. Iâm only human. anyway fingers crossed
#bnha 328#stain (bnha)#tsukauchi naomasa#all might#stars and stripes (bnha)#all for one#bnha#boku no hero academia#bnha spoilers#mha spoilers#bnha manga spoilers#makeste reads bnha#eta: how did I forget to type 'bnha' in the title sob
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So, to elaborate on the Love Bombing; my ex best friend who I talked about in the previous posts, when she lied to my face when I didnât offend anyone. Saying THREE TIMES, twice in her discord that everyone could see and the third in private messaged me; is the girl Iâm gonna talk about Love Bombing and why my mental health on people not messaging me back has gone down the shitter.
Before I say this, itâs not just me she did this too, she did this with EVERYONE! Even the people she worked with as content creators. Now I know she has bad mental health too, not gonna go into detail about it too much. Trying to be vague about it as much as I can; her family caused her mental health and I know she has some deep deep deep Trauma Bonding Issues with her family, especially her dad.
So, letâs get into the Love Bombing of my ex best friend.
She would leave discord servers to, take a break from her mental health and take a break in general. I donât mind that. She did this so often that no one really questioned her. Then when she came back, it was all filled with love, sending people gifts and so on. It was pretty intense and I couldnât cope with it, it was TOO much love that it was overbearing. Sometimes I had to take a step back because I couldnât handle the intense compliments, the showering of gifts and her explosiveness of love. Itâs not just âoh you look prettyâ it was âomg youre so pretty! I wish I was pretty as you. Omg youre so good with makeup, youre so gorgeous, youâre so kindâ and on and on and on. Like I said, it was intense.
However, the minute she kinda just left and ignored me for months, I would feel guilty that I wasnât a good friend and I needed to be more kind. Then she came back telling me âyoure such a wonderful person. I love you so much! Youâre like a sister I never had. Not like my family who didâŚâ and basically Trauma Dumping me with her problems. Itâs like she didnât understand boundaries and she didnât know when is the good time, not to talk about certain shit she was dealing with. Like she had NO self aware of what she was doing. I get it she had a bad life, but please, donât do this. Itâs uncomfortable when people do this.
She would even leave the content community gamers (I canât say their brand, I know they get paid on YouTube) and just leave and saying âIâm gonna miss you guys. You guys are the best. I love you all so much, youâre my familyâ and just really uncomfortable over loving when she left.
[Side note and side rant/vent; she could leave servers and no one bats an eyelid. THE MINUTE I LEFT? Oh no, Iâm bad. Fuck off. Especially when my bf couldnât handle the drama in her server with her friends, he left on his own accord. Oh no! Heâs also the bad guy because he left. Fuck off. The more she caused drama and her friends (aka followers) tried and I mean fucking tried to get me to snap, the more I wanted nothing to do with it. I walked away and I know they hate that. Oh well, not my fucking problem. Again, fuck off with that bull shit. Me and my bf got fed up and left their bs. But noooooo we are the bad guys for leaving the fucking server. She can fuck right off with that bull shit.]
Again, when she came back it to the content creators, she was just filled with love. Looking back, it was toxic. I donât have to prove my love to you, when you left. Fuck off. I will love anyone unconditionally, but the minute you Love Bomb me, Iâm leaving. Iâm done.
She would think if I didnât give her the attention, she needed, Iâm the bad friend. Fuck off. When I didnât see her post, when I didnât see the thing she tagged me in straight away; Iâm the bad friend. Fuck off. When I didnât see her message straight away and I didnât respond straight away; Iâm the bad friend. Fuck off.
Like I said, she had no personal boundaries and no self awareness on what sheâs actually doing.
Omg everything has to be SJW (social justice warriors) bs but only pick and choose whoâs the more popular opinion. Fuck off. Like with Johnny Depp, oh she didnât like how he âretaliatedâ back to Amber so Johnny is the bad guy and women are âneverâ abusive. Fuck off. How when the tea channels all agree with something, you have to agree with them. Fuck off. When âIâ should agree that ALL Republicans are the bad guys and everyone should be put in a box. Again, fuck off. Not everyone is the same, everyone is different. Omg if I had a different opinion of hers she would get âtriggeredâ. She and her âfriendsâ can suck my cunt. UghâŚ. I hate those types of people. So immature.
How about this, instead of calling yourself a SJW, just be a decent human fucking being. Itâs not e=mc2 for fucks sake. God, the SJWs need a participation trophy to fight for basic human rights�� ugh. I hate people.
She and along with her friends would complicate sentences to make themselves feel and look smart. I just see a dumb ass tbh. Hereâs the thing, even my bf said this âany idiot can make anything complicated. A genius can make something complicated into something simpleâ. I agree, they would try to use the (as I call it) âthe gaslight dumb logicâ to make them feel smart, but the minute you question on what they are saying and trying to understand on what they are actually saying ; they have a 5 year old tantrum. Really pathetic tbh. Thatâs toxic btw. You are not smart, nor you are clever to do that bull shit. Itâs pathetic.
I still got the messages she sent to me when she deleted her old discord account because again, she caused drama⌠I wonder fucking why đ
Iâm honestly glad sheâs out of my life. Now I can focus on not being such a cry baby bitch when someone doesnât reply straight away. I know she caused that, it brought me back when I was living with my family. My mental health got that bad at one point.
Donât get me wrong, I used to love bomb people when I was teen, but Iâve learned from that. I havenât done that since I was in my teens. Iâve grown up, matured since then. People who love bomb are so fucking immature adult babies. Iâm done with people like that.
If want me to go into detail and explain what Love Bombing is in psychologically terms and put it into basics so you can understand; Iâm happy to do that.
EDIT: This girl is in her mid 30s or late 30s but sheâs acting like a teen. When I found out she was (I think, donât quote me on this) 36? I was shocked. She acted like she was in her 20s or younger. Donât get me wrong, even me at 29 I have my immature moments and I act like a kid sometimes, but this was different. Itâs like she didnât know how to act certain times and I have plenty of friends who are a lot older than me and we all act immature sometimes. I just canât put my finger on it, itâs like she didnât want to be an adult, or like she didnât want people to know sheâs older than she is.
Yeahh we can all act immature and have a stupid humour like laughing at farts or making silly faces, singing with our brushes or get drunk and act like we can do anything (as long youâre not doing anything illegal). Nothing wrong in that, me and friends still do that. Or even playing games and we piss each other off so we kill each other. Again, nothing wrong in that.
I canât explain it, itâs hard to explain on the way she acts. Like she when she didnât get her own way, she attacked my bf because she couldnât get to me because I blocked her. When she couldnât get my bf because he blocked her, so she attacked my friends. This screams immaturity and only teens and children do this when they canât get their own way. Itâs pretty pathetic tbh. I donât know, itâs hard to explain.
EDIT: I can do another post on Trauma Dumping in psychological terms and put it simple so you guys can understand. I can do that, been thinking of doing that for some time.
#cptsdhealing#living with cptsd#cptsd problems#cptsd thoughts#just cptsd things#actually cptsd#cptsd tag#tw cptsd#actually ptsd#cptsd vent#love bombing#love bomb#sjw idiocy#sjw cringe#ex best friend#ex bestie
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Day 7
Clown:Â Happy one week of me being annoying!
Clown: I like you
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WHAT A WAY TO START THE MORNING LMAo. With the normal morning routine, and a cup of coffee, Iâm ready to head out. I wonder if anyone wants to carpool today and I opt for texting the class chat.
Clown: yOOOOO
Clown: Anyone wanna carpool to school?
Pebble:Â Itâs 7
Pebble: Youâre insane
tiNy:Â Iâll carpool if someone else does
Spam:Â Iâll join
Spam: CAn we get slushies again?
Clown: Sure
Clown: Yâall can play on the switch in the backseat or smth
Clown: Alright be there in 5
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The drive to their place is calm, much like how waters are before a storm.
âyO! GET IN THE CAR LOSER. WEâRE GOING TO SCHOOLâ
âHow excitingâ they make their way into the backseat.
âOff to get the other?â
âCan we just leave him at home? Like let him be late or somethingâ
âThatâs rude. Iâll give him 2 minutes to get out of his house thoâ
âThatâs fairâ
The drive to the otherâs house is chaotic. The conversation rallies between school and their new game tournament. When we do arrive, said person is nowhere to be found. Ringing their phone seems like the only good way to get him.
âDanny you have 2 minutes before I kick your ass and leave you hereâ
âiâM SORRY! I NEED TO FIND MY SCARFâ
âItâs in your locker. I saw you shove it in there yesterday after schoolâ
âIt is?â
âAsk our valedictorian if you donât believe meâ
âEh. Youâve gotten better at observing things ever since you started vibing with our valedictorian. I trust youâ
âAlright now get out here. You have 30 secondsâ
A crash, slide, and panting could be heard on the other side of the line. It was funny messing with him like that.
âiâM HEREâ
âWelcome aboard shortieâ
âI hate that even after my growth spurt you still wonât let me live the nickname downâ
âEh. Your problem for getting the short end of the stickâ
âSoâŚâ
âSlushies, Coffee, or Boba?â
âCan we get Chick Fil A?â
âIs it open?â
âIt opens at 6:30am in the morningâ
âIf the drive-through is empty enough, we can get Chick Fil A for breakfastâ
âI LOVE YOUUUU. MARRY ME CRESSIEâ
âYouâre disgusting. Thatâs why I never hang around our valedictorian when youâre thereâ
âIâve been hurt on more levels than oneâ
âOk but you are extremely obnoxiousâ the friend.
âSam shut upâ
Well there goes 3 names. Might as well throw the rest of them out there-
âI can literally hear you narrating right now. Please stop.â -Sam
âAs much as we love you Cressie, I do not want to go through you narrating. We know as a matter of fact that we told you to leave that behind in middle schoolâ
âSo meanâ I pout. âaNYWAYS. So. Have any early college admission letters arrived?â
âNope.â
âOh I got one from Chapman but I donât think I wanna go there anymoreâ
âYou still waiting out for Yale or something?â
âKind ofâ
âGood luck with that one then. But I mean that one summer camp you joined should be bonus points?â
âYeah. I just hope it works outâ
âIâm sure itâll work outâ
âchICK FIL A PLEASEâ
âI thought you forgot hissâ
âNever. The drive throughâs basically empty. Please?â
âWhat do you guys want.â
âCan I get chicken minisâ
âIâll take some hashbrownsâ
âGood morning and Welcome to Chick Fil A how may I help you?â
âGood morning. Can I get Chicken Minis, hashbrowns and a chicken egg and cheese bagel?â
âAnything to drink?â
âoOH CAN WE GET COLA?â
âI want a Mango Passion Tea Lemonadeâ
âA cola, a sweet tea, and two mango passion tea lemonades pleaseâ
âAlright! Your total will be $15.59.â
âAlright thank you!â
âWhoâs the sweet tea for?â
âGuessâ
âPebble?â
âNope. Itâs for our valedictorian who Iâve been annoying for a weekâ
âSo you wrote the letter?â
âPfft. Itâs probably from an underclassman. You know how persistent some of them areâ
âA freshman?â
âIdk. Does he not know who?â
âHe wonât tell meâ
I pulled my card out and handed it to the employee.
âMakes sense not to. I mean. You did spill to the whole school about his crush in middle schoolâ
âI STOPPED DOING THAT ALREADYâ
âThatâs a lie. He just stopped telling you about his secretsâ
âIâm hurtâ
âYour card missâ
âThank youâ
âSheâs only the rich one because she lacks a parental figure in her lifeâ
âI did nOT offer to pay to get insulted by you allâ
âSorryâ
After getting their food, the ride became quite. They were busy munching on their breakfast.
âOh look weâre here!â
âAnd weâre 5 minutes earlyâ
âI never get how your driving schedule worksâ
âI donât know either.â
âCan I go with you for a 3am run sometime?â
âAnd see me flirt with the cute McDonalds employee? If you want. The offerâs up for tonight. If you want to get a decent rest, sleep at 6 and expect a text at 3â
âhUH? Sure!â
âYouâre really going to do that huh?â
âNo oneâs stopping me.â
The three of us headed in. It was funny. Ironic even, that Iâve carpooled with everyone except him.
âYouâre late todayâ heâs salty.
âI went for Chick Fil A with the other twoâ I huffed.
âI figured.â
âDo you want your tea or notâ
âYou got me something?â
âTo get you in trouble with our english teacher yeahâ
âI knew you didnât mean any good with your gesturesâ
âAwww. Is liking you not a reasonable excuse?â
âHa. Funnyâ
âMeanie!â
The day passes like the love for a crush. Fleeting, quick, and violently. The hammering in your chest is quick, harsh, a constant reminder of who that person is to you. The school day resembles that to me. Itâs violent, the constant reminder that if you want to go to the college of your choice, you canât start slacking. Your grades canât drop, especially in a private school where all eyes are on you. I may not be the valedictorian, but I am the girl with no family by my side. One drop, one falter, and everyone is suddenly talking about you.
The drive home is relieving. Itâs like being hit with the ac at home when you return, or maybe more of a getting ice cream during summer vibe? Not too sure. But when I get home, thereâs a feeling of relief. The feeling of finally Iâm not within the proximity of him. But today is a 3am run, and quite frankly, Iâm not excited.
6pm comes quicker than usual, and Iâm going to bed again. 3am comes, and my alarm is ringing in my ear. I drag myself out of bed today. Tonight? This early morning? This late evening? I donât even know anymore. So then I opt for texting 2 people tonight.
Clown: 3am snacks?
Sleep.
This is why you arenât growing
Clown: Youâre boring
Clown: Iâll find someone else then
Seen at 3:03
Knowing well that he wouldnât respond, I text the friend from earlier.
Clown:Â yO SAM
Spam:Â How long
Clown:Â Gimme 10 minutes.
Spam:Â Alrighty
The drive to his house is silent. The songs on my phone are playing softly and Iâm humming along. When I do get to his house though, he slips in next to me and he grins. It isnât until weâre on the freeway to the McDonalds close by that he starts talking.
âDo you usually stay quiet at night?â
âSometimes. Other times Iâm violently switching songs.â
There was a soft silence.
âYou definitely know something about who confessed to our valedictorian. He tells you everythingâ
âDoes he? We donât have 3am emotionally vulnerable chats or anything. He only tells me things about school. But sometimes I canât help but wonder if I could break down the wall he hasâ
âYouâre getting off-topic. What do you know about the culprit?â
âMm? I donât know who it is. Why are you so persistent in knowing?â
âHe. I feel like getting him a girlfriend will let him loosen upâ
âIn Senior year?â
âYeah.â
âHis grades canât drop. And we know how our class does when it comes to relationships.â
âI still have a feeling he can pull throughâ
âPerhaps. What do you want?â
âCan I get fries?â
âSureâ
âGood morning darling~â
âMorning!â
âWhat can I get for you today?â
âTwo large fries. And an M&M Mcflurry please!â
âDo you have a friend with you?â
âYep!â
âOmg is it the hot dude youâre pining afterâ
âlNFJDSK wHIch ONEâ
âwHCIH ONE?â the two were in sync.
âLmao darling iâll give you a discount.â
âI loVE YOU TOOâ
âI LOVE YOU MOREâ
âNO I DOâ
This goes back and forth for another couple seconds before I drive up to the window.
âOOoo. Is he gay?â
âIâm right hereâ
âIâm straight.â
âAh yikes. Wish me luck on my quest for boyfriends then darlingâ
âGood luck.â
The night passes in silence. Other than the occasional conversation with Sam, it isnât much different than the usual. At some point, he passes out due to exhaustion, and I start working on my new piece.
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