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midnight rambling
its midnight and im scrolling tumblr posts on pinterest. to be more specific, both twitter and tumblr posts actually. its been 2 hours++ im not actually sure how pinterest is doing it but it has me in a chokehold (but so does every other social media!) and all i want to do is just read posts quietly about tumblr like its 2014 and im too young to actually have my own tumblr acc, as well as too dumb to make one, to the point where pinterest was the only place i could touch tumblr (like it was some sort of sacred nerd gathering like honestly,,)
its midnight, and i continue thinking about the dnd posts i saw on 4chan on pinterest like an hour ago and theres nothing running through my brain other than polite human necromancer who wears the hottest thigh highs in a party where everyone speaks rudely,,, like straight up asshole rude the kind you would want to deck in the face so hard you hope they stop existing. i dont know what im doing with this, where im going with this, or like anything at all, i just want whatever the hell i said up there (it is embarrassing to me). at this point i dont know what i would do about this post anymore like yeah i just wanted to ramble because the 2 other ppl i would ramble too are asleep (terrible) so now im here debating if i should make thigh highs necro very slutty and basically make a hentai out of it, or i make it found family wholesome and make it like,,, bad at verbal communication to an awful awful extent. could i do both? yeah i could but am i gonna? no fucking way lmao its midnight and im actually debating this im fucking insane no one is going to see this anyways </3 so like honestly whatever i guess. stress of being a writer, but do i count as one if i never actually write ? what if all i like to do is come up with beautiful plot ideas with wonderful characters and whatnot but like i just never write it out i will only keep them safe in my rambles to my bestie and i shield them, and myself from criticism and hatred, i give in to my paranoid thoughts of what if they are stolen? i live in fear of my love of them simply because i have allowed for myself to submit myself to the mortifying ordeal of being known, of letting a part of myself so intimate and unknown of me be exposed and seen by someone who understood and listened to me too well.
its midnight and i remain afraid of love. it is midnight and i remain alone. it is 12.30, and i will bury myself in silence again.
#nikkis midnight rambles i guess#im not actually sure why i typed this out in such a manner when no one will see this#im not gonna type it appropriately what if people see this#i want to be loved without being known#or something like that#no there isnt a lot of deep thoughts im just thinking#rants??#does this count as a rant#im not actually sure lol#yeah okay yeah i wanna go back#to stewing in my thoughts about polite human necro with thigh highs#i like thigh highs#hehe
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ranpoe or whatever o(-(
#i dont wanna look at this#ewww#okay nvm#bsd#bungou stray dogs#bsd fanart#bsd garlic#bungo stray dogs fanart#fanart#ranpoe#ranpo edogawa#edogawa ranpo bsd#bungou stray dogs ranpo#bsd ranpo#bsd ranpoe#ranpoe fanart#bsd poe#poe bsd#poe bungou stray dogs#poe fanart#bsd edgar allan poe#my art#but i wish t wasnt i need to go back to drawing sad clowns#but u gotta go out of ur comport zone and practise so here i am what if someone wants to commission and i dont know shit yeah okay bye
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2011 Italian Grand Prix - Vettonso
#SORRY. I AM GOING THROUGH IT.#this is why i had to put vettonso merchant in my bio bcs if i dont post them at least 5x a week ill die#their dynamic in this race is like actually indecipherable to me#cause this is the race where fernando 'allegedly' said fuck you my boy#but their dynamic is so odd????#like they have that happen in the cooldown room#and then generally ignore each other on the podium#and then we randomly get this cute moment and then they INSTANTLY go back to being awkward#but then in the press con they keep talking about each other and looking at each other???? okay :)#sometimes im just like. yeah no i give up on trying to understand them#not rly noticeable in these buts its so funny how seb pats him to get his attention#and then immediately goes to cheer as if to be like 'huh what i didnt touch uou'#to ref that one post about this race said: he didnt wanna embarrass himself again by getting turned on#stealing this from c cough cough but hes like 'oh no!! if he looks at me im gonna embrass myself on broadcast again!!'#anyways i love this moment and the pics from this are like my fav ever 2010s pics of them so yeah <3#f1#formula 1#sebastian vettel#fernando alonso#vettonso#we do a little bit of f1#*its so odd i completely remember finishing this and scheduling it last night#*but when i woke up it was only half done??? im still confused#2011 italian gp
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don't think or talk about gojo for one (1) day challenge (FAILED)
#i really miss him and started thinking too much about 236 again 😭#also been thinking since 251 leaks dropped and#im really sad about megumi :(#i really hope he bounces back and ends up being okay in the end#because it would actually be such an unsatisfying character arc if#the character thats spent nearly the entire story always trying to basically throw his life away#ends up actually dying in the end :(#like i want him to get to find a reason to keep going and live life#but i mean gege and unfufilling character arcs kinda be going hand in hand recently (imo)#ofc its not all bad and there are some good ones!!#but yeah....i dont wanna be too negative tho!! like its not all finished#so who knows what could still happen#fie.txt
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im always impressed with how well matt manages to get a vibe across in words because ank'harel is at least the fourth or fifth time i've seen a place in tlovm and gone yeah that's exactly what it's looked like in my head for years
#it makes tlovm really fun bc like yeah i've been there!#tlovm#the legend of vox machina#cr liveblog#though a bit sad that we don't really have time to go into gilmore backstory here#like okay having him give a tour makes sense#but c1 gilmore was like right okay uhhhhhhhhhhhhhh here's a teleportation circle can you give this to my parents?#unrelated i haven't been back since i left and i don't wanna please ask me no more questions#also having them have a tour guide i assume means no do you spice
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because i'm seeing it come up again, a quick "mod thoughts re: all the voter fraud" discussion:
okay so like. in a perfect world, tumblr would have email verification that actually mattered, and we, the mods, would have some more effective way to prevent voter fraud than saying "oh no don't do fraud that's bad". however, we have neither of those things, and doing fraud on our polls is... ridiculously, laughably easy.
so, imagine our distress when during the techno/scar round, a lot of scar fans started getting very, very angry about fraud we weren't sure was even happening? that, indeed, we had absolutely no reason to think was happening at the time, and no way to do anything about it if was?
well. there were two options. and we took the one that would lead to everyone having more fun and things being less toxic overall in the community. the thing is: if we'd said "voter fraud is entirely unallowed, this thing we can't prevent and can't moderate", then the toxicity of fanbases blaming each other for "breaking the rules" would have gone through the roof. full-stop. and we... didn't want that. this poll did not matter. it still doesn't matter. it had grown wildly, wildly bigger than we'd expected, and we had basically no way to control the way everyone was acting about it, but we didn't want to make a statement that would cause people to be even meaner to each other.
so instead, we took the funny option. we said "yeah do whatever voter fraud you want we don't care". SLIGHTLY regret that we didn't know tumblr tried to make you follow random strangers' blogs when you made a new account otherwise maybe we would have been a BIT more clear about 'don't do that', but listen. by saying "voter fraud is totally fine" we made it funny that people were cheating. we made it so there was basically no such thing as "cheating". we made it so, and this was key, the growing toxicity about "but they're BOTTING" was stupid, because like... everyone's doing it now. openly and blatantly doing it. voters fraud is a beautiful name for a baby girl, and this poll doesn't matter and isn't worth getting worked up over, and you can't cheat if it's not against the rules and everyone's doing it anyway, is the idea here.
like, in an ideal world, would we have rampant voter fraud? nah. in a world where we can't stop it if it happens, though... may as well make sure both sides have equal opportunity to fraud, right? like, that makes it even again, right? and more importantly, it reminds people that this shit really, really doesn't matter.
anyway all of this is to say that if you all start coming into our notes and inbox again to start being really toxic about the other side of the poll and make me cry again i will be pissed.
#mcytblr sexyman#discourse#<- not. okay it is a little bit#given that it. made me cry. yeah probably#anyway for the record it was less 'people yelling directly at us' that made us snap#and more 'people yelling at us a little while also being downright cruel to their opponents ESPECIALLY in techno/scar' that did it#and like. the toxicity about 'BUT THAT'S CHEATING' that was both deeply hypocritical and EVERYWHERE during that round is really what did it#so i want to get out ahead of it and say: yeah if we had a way to STOP IT that would be one thing#but we don't. so fraud away. it's not cheating if everyone is doing it!#anyway i'll go back to being funny about it after this i just see rumblings once more and wanna. head it off at the pass.
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"Have you ever seen [Barkov] fall? Has he ever fallen? He's never fallen his entire career!" "Uh—It's, uh, funny and I don't know if he'll care that I say this, but he's got those—he doesn't like the blades that you can snap in and out quickly. So when he needs to get his skates done in the middle of a game, he's gotta fully take off his skates, get 'em sharpened and retie them up—which is like one of the few guys in the league, I think, that still do that. So sometimes he'll have absolutely no edge, and he'll just find a way to, like, compensate and get through it—which is incredible." "That kind-of sucks though 'cuz that's like a bad dream to have. You're waiting on something else, like—even if the trainers just like snapped it back in or whatever, like maybe they had something different they can put in there. He probably wouldn't even know!" "[...] this guy's particular. He knows his game and he's goddamn good at it! And we don't say a word so!" "'Barky, we need you out there for the face off! There's two seconds left!'" "That's what I mean! He'll compensate and he'll still look better than all of us! Like if any of us had no edge like that, we'd be screwed, right? And he goes out there and does the Barky things that he does. We're all grateful for it! He's been getting me paid for 10 years now, so."
The Cam & Strick Podcast | 7.30.24 (x)
loving my captain face... absolutely smitten with the man hes spent a decade with despite still not being invited to his house... thats love babey oh hes absolutely swinging and kicking his feet
THE LITTLE SMILE HE MAKES AFTER HE GOES "hes been getting me paid for 10 years now so 😃"
#aaron ekblad#aleksander barkov#florida panthers#“one of the few guys in the league that still do that” the way i blurted out SIBNEY like i was on jeopardy and i if i didnt buzz in id die#everything leads back to him...#the amount of shifts hes missed because of his skates lmao and it just gets more egregious as time passes on#because everyones switched to interchangeable blades so yeah old man i love ya but this season i did go AGAIN. AGAIN?? AFUCKINGGAIN???#anyways congrats to these 2 princesses refusing to change with the times#may their indomitable presence forever remain untouched by father clock#ekky praising sasha. fork found in kitchen#sasha being “particular” oh im sure he is have you seen him#everytime the finns bring up his anything relating to his intense hockeyisms...#yeah particular is a word for it#not to use my friends codeword but is he you know a virgo#“he goes out there and does the barky things that he does” to be so in love with sasha its a beautiful thing#“hes been getting me paid for 10 years now so” OH SHUT IT YOU#YOU ARE ALSO GOOD AT HOCKEY I DONT WANNA FUCKIN HEAR IT RN#ekkys face in a permanent half smirk talking about sasha...okay#bless whatever these two have#to many more years and counting 🍻 (bill zito i will hunt you for sport if you dont extend this man this season)
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"they never dated but they ARE exes" is such a funny relationship for two characters to have. very awkward relationship to have irl tho
#eliot posts#it still IS a little funny irl tho#i visoted her last night cuz i was in town and the vibe was so weird#it's like. we had an EXPLOSIVE breakup years ago and we're on amicable terms now but there's just the past kinda hanging there in the air#im no longer upset about the stuff she did to me but i AM still a lil sore abt how she hurt our other friends#but sometimes i still talk to her out of... idk. nostalgia or something?#idk if it's the same thing driving her to keep talking to me or what#i don't think she holds any ill feelings towards me cuz she admitted she was totally in the wrong for pretty much everything#and the worst i did was be TOO loyal and enable her but at the same time she thinks she'd be worse off if i didn't do all that back then idk#sometimes i wonder if she wants our old relationship but but i've made it clear we'll never be able to go back there#sidenote: her actual ex boyfriend (who i am still besties with and love so much) is the one that started the joke that me and her are exes#he was like ''i think she's not just MY ex girlfriend she's OUR ex girlfriend'' when i was telling my roommate about her#(and then i told her about that and she laughed and agreed that yeah. we basically ARE exes)#her actual ex/my bestie won't talk to her at all anymore and he's totally within his rights to do that#i actually asked him a few years ago if he was okay with me talking to her before i messaged her cuz i didn't wanna risk hurting him#anyway yeah. it's weird#seeing her left me with a lot of feelings that aren't exactly bad just Weird. idk.
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playing kiwami 1 and man. all jokes about majima everywhere aside, it means Something to me that after kiryu gets out of prison the first and only person to go out of his way to find and see kiryu after 10 years is majima despite the fact that being in the tojo clan and fraternizing with kazuma kiryu at that point is basically a sin worthy of god knows what punishment (and in broad daylight at that). and all just because, in his own weird way, he missed him a lot.
#you know that quote that’s like. ‘you construct intricate rituals to touch the skin of other men’? yeah#I also feel like. well. actually I won’t say that yet cause I’ll make another post or add onto this with my next thought#cause I think it’s worth that#anyway yeah so far in kiwami ive found kiryu’s interactions with majima to get flirtier and flirtier Real quick#like it goes from ‘ugh majima leave me alone I don’t want to fight anyone without a reason to’ to ‘heh okay you wanna go? let’s do this’#pretty quick#I know that can be read as him just being satisfied with the Process working to get his abilities back after being out of practice and all#but. I think it’s a bit of both and that that fact attributes to his growing a fondness for majima#kazumaji#yakuza#yk1#kiryu#majima#rambling
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#probably my last sunny walk at home :(#keeeeellll meeeee#i think one of the things i hate about going back to uni is not being able to experience autumn and winter at home like i used to#it’s weird because i’ve always loved them and considered them my favourite seasons.#but last year (and now this year) i’m realizing that oh! i think it’s because i got to come home after a long day and be in a safe familiar#space. and at uni everything is still a bit unfamiliar and not very comforting so the long cold days get so much harder#but i will surviveeeeeee#counting on gilmore girls to get me through it!! and also love is blind s7. i LOVE having things to look forward to every week it makes tim#fly by so fast. last yr every friday night was reserved for me and i ate frozen pizza or takeout and/or my favourite snacks and#watch my comfort films :( i cooked a lot those nights too 2 save money but yeah. it was rlly nice to have that comfy safe time to myself#i think it rlly got me thru uni.#ik it’s gonna be so hard to get back into a routine but im trying to tell myself that i need to like. focus on the basics first. adulting#can be so hard & i wanna do everything at once! i wanna b perfect in all areas. always do my hobbies. etc etc but i#i couldnt even get out of bed to make myself meals sometimes 💔 so i need to like remember if i don’t journal or read a whole book in a day#not the end of the world. and most importantly i need to be EATING and staying active and SLEEPING FIRST and foremost cause then hopefully#i won’t feel like a zombie.#okay anyways.#feeling sad feeling tired feeling unmotivated but also feeling a teensy bit excited for finally BEING ALONE!!!!#i have my cardiologist appt tmrw so maybe that’s why i feel so yuck also. just thinking abt it makes me wanna throw up#i hope everything goes well#anyways bye bye#♡ dear diary…
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I can't believe my dad is retired. I feel too young for this. I feel he's too young for this. I feel like I'm still 15 sometimes. I feel surprised every time I go home and he looks older. I feel surprised when I finally FaceTime home instead of call and see he's grown a beard for the first time in my life. I feel like time should really just... freeze
#I will say that I really hope he woodworks more#I'm thinking about proposing a project to him when I go home in the summer... I wanna build a TV/media console w him#all the ones I like are either a gajillion dollars or look like they're made of plywood (...sometimes both)#so I think we can make something serviceable. only downside is I'll have to drive it back to me#OOOO maybe he can drive it back with me#o m g maybe he can come over for a hockey game next year.... yeah...#okay maybe there are upsides to retirement
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#okay but honestly#ive already been having a shitty week#for obvious reasons#and also just school work piling up#and meds and doctors stuff#and i was like aw yay 911 episode to wind down with#it was great#and sad#and kinda just disappointing#i legit really liked tommy as a charcater#and the idea of this older gay dude being insecure about their relationship and not wanting his heart to be broken#like ive read that fic#it was awesome#but it also had a resolution for both characters#and while bucks gonna go on#it seems theyre just leaving tommy blowing in the wind#plot device indeed#and idk thats just depressing#and blahblah scheduling etc real world reasons#but purely from watching it pov#im just like#sad man#i mean maybe theyll go full cliche one day when 911 is winding down#and have tommy come back for the last episode to partner buck up#that legit seems likely to me lmao#but yeah idk im just like kinda really dissapointed and sad#and also not looking forward to the gross anti hate that ive already seen spewing#and i legit kinda wanna not watch for a while idk i just feel :/#bucktommy#911
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On the train of your last ask, what are your thoughts on dragons sexuality?
Personally I think he’s Demi something (more attracted to personality than looks or gender)
Honestly because we don't know that much about the guy it's kind of hard for me to form an opinion, and if Crocodad Real then we're going to find out his orientation eventually (since we gotta find out if that was a contributing factor to the Dragodile Divorce (assuming they're divorced)) so I'm kind of okay with not forming any headcanons, since the headcanon could get thrown out the window
If anything, what interests me is how Dragon's orientation could impact the story-- like when I've discussed the Dragodile Divorce I have mainly focused on speculating how Crocodile would've felt about it, but how Dragon felt about that is interesting too
Because if he's straight then yeah that probably contributed to The Divorce, but how did Dragon feel about it? Learning that the love of his life is now happier than ever before after transitioning and being happy for him, while also losing the version of Crocodile that he fallen in love to begin with? No longer feeling thet draw to him because of the thing that has brought him so much joy and comfort? Knowing that even if they did take down the WG the family Dragon had hoped to have would never come to be, because their relationship would now end? And that it would be on some level his fault, because he's not attracted to Crocodile anymore?
Like even if Dragon took things well and the divorce happened "on good terms", it would've been sad for Dragon too.
But then there's a slightly juicier option, because what if Dragon was bi, but the Divorce happened under unpleasant circumstances (be it Dragon lashing out or things getting violent because he couldn't recognize Crocodile) and he didn't figure it out until it was too late?
Because you'd still have Dragon going through some if not all of those previously mentioned feelings, of having to come to terms with the version of his significant other whom he had fallen in love with no longer existed, the family had pictured in his mind would never become a thing, that those things were be kind of his fault and that he had hurt Crocodile deeply in the process. But then he'd be looking at some news article of Crocodile's most recent heroic stunt, seeing his handsome face with that usual, unbothered expression, and realizing he still loved him? That he still wanted to be with him, wished they were together, even now that Crocodile was a far more handsome man than he was? And then the realization that he's bi hitting him like a fucking truck But it's too late. The divorce already happened. He already hurt Crocodile too deeply. Knowing Croc, he had probably already moved on. There was no fixing it, the relationship was over. At least for now, trying to go see Croc could be dangerous due to the WG and not wanting to risk the WG finding out about them and The Kid and Croc would probably be furious if Dragon even risked that at this point, after what he had done. Oh, and then Crocodile killed thousands of innocent people attempting to usurp a country by manufacturing a civil war. Something Dragon can't forgive. (Not to mention, hearing he had been taken down by their own son... Oof)
But what if despite all that, and not knowing the full circumstances behind what had happened (like the fact that Crocodile didn't know who the hell Luffy was), Dragon still loved Crocodile? What then?
#Moon posting#Asks#Dragodile#OP Meta#Answering an unusual amount of asks today because 1) Compensating for being AFK for a while and#2) The Tumblr News are deeply fucking upsetting and I need something to lighten my mood desperately ngl#So clearing my ask box it is wheeeee#Sorry this is a little incoherent lmao#Something about Dragon looking at Crocodile and being like ''why the fuck are you more handsome than me'' cracks me up okay#When your transgender husband gives you gender envy#I just love the story telling potential bi Dragon would give us because like. Yeah if they're straight then the relationship is joever#But if he was bi then there's that theoretical possibility they could maybe reconcile and get back together#And the fucking drama? The possibilities? I'm so here for that man give it to me#Luffy and/or Ivankov telling Dragon to get over himself and admit that he still loves Crocodile and wants to be with him? Gimme#Dragon taking a deadly blow to protect Crocodile because he doesn't want to lose him again? It's a trope for a reason#OR Dragon craddling a dying Crocodile begging him not to die because he still loves him? Oh yes#Crocodile trying to sneak away while everyone celebrates the destruction of the World Government#And Dragon showing up like ''I don't wanna lose you again pls don't go ;_;''#And Croc telling him to either piss off OR to hurry up and get on the ship so they can leave before Luffy finds out#I am. Obsessed. Dragodile Retirement Romance let's fucking go#THE POSSIBILITIES MAN. Like I don't wanna get my hopes up because I doubt we'll get Canon Gay Dragodile BUT IT COULD BE SO GOOD
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dont need to go to my last class should i get a drink yes or no
#num speaks#they have nothing to do with each other#im just ready to go home.#except im transferring files rn bc i couldnt do it before class#and the guy who lends cameras to students said it was okay and that i could just come back later#thank you francis i love you francis#hes very nice#his wife made banana bread and he was giving it out earlier#i didnt get it earlier bc i was holding too many things </3#ANYWAY#drink yes or no#please give me ur opinions#i mean yeah im lacking in funds#but ive got enough for a drink..!#guys i cant do this. i dont wanna get a job rn im already too busy with school n everything#getting comms are my only solace in life#like… theyre fun. i love drawing for people. and then i get to see them be happy about it?#biggest win in the whole world its so worth it
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New beginnings - Happy endings
#call of duty#modern warfare#call of duty modern warfare#MWII#CoD MWII#blender renders#Phillip Graves#Philip Graves#Shadow Company#CoD OC#OC: Jax#Jackie Ramirez#Ship: High Places#I cried so hard ❤️#they eloped in Europe while digging up info on the konni#naturally#just ‘hey wanna get married’#‘now?’ ‘yeah’ ‘okay’#then they go back to the us#and Laswell 🤨🏳️🌈❓
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i have a new hobby!! i listen to my playlist and say things like 'oh this goes hard' 'it just can't miss' 'it's so good, you have no idea' to my brother who cannot listen to it bc i am wearing headphones lmaoo
#just me hi#'yeah it's YOUR playlist' 'i don't careeee' [<- clearly jealous] 'i don't know what you're listening to ?? i can't hear it ??'#/reporting live lmfvsh:#'it just can't miss. banger after banger [indirect eye contact]' 'CAN i listen. i hope you get executed' LOL#2 minutes later: '[not thinking] [song comes on i don't recognize] OH. no yea this goes hard' 'Okay. i Don't care' [<- clearly jealous]#Hkfhsvfjs - i'm just talking out loud cuz if i don't i might explode but i have casualties. and they make me laugh pfsvh#//oh i'm also working on inks rn :33#or- well i'm redesigning oath's armor again (yeah.... lmfvsh...) cuz uhh Welllll#i think i made the legs too big but you know what. that's good :3#i'm really pleased with how the shine is turning out ; it's doing Something that's for sure hkfhsv#i'm still tweaking it rn anyway ; i wanna play around with a different palette cuz i think i stuck to the purple for too long just cuz it#was the first colour i chose at the beginning (really questionable too bfhvskjg))#oh and i think i'll design something extra for aura later too ; though i'm nooot too sure what i'll do for her!!#she has a couple contraints so i'll havta figure that out..#but YEA i'm getting back to it lol !!#wheee here i go :3#/think i blew one of my fuses fighting w/ synfig earlier but the only thing stronger than the Mold is my artistic will so let's Gooo hkfvsh#>:3 toodles !!
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