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Umbarian: Magendi riss Inquisitor: Brother Capdeth (Not sure abt this one)
#star wars#star wars oc#inquisitor oc#Magendi is okay people#he got scared at first and then just handled him as a distressed teenager#with respect and mutual trust#haha of course not#with emotional manipulation yeah
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sometimes I think of all the on-the-surface warm, well-meaning but deeply ineffectual advice and attention john gives harrow through harrow the ninth (make some soup and get some sleep! get a hobby! don't be so hard on yourself! self care harrow! as long as I need take no actual responsibility in this relationship whatsoever I would have loved to be your dad!) set up against the stark truth that with his other hand he has been staging her attempted horrific murder again and again and again like a living nightmare on the logic that it will 'put her down or fix her'. and then I find that I wish there is a hell. a special hell where twitch streamers turned necromantic death emperors go
#the locked tomb#harrowhark nonagesimus#john gaius#harrow the ninth#this is why I don't buy john as misunderstood and initially well-meaning AT ALL#this is a pattern you see with him again and again and again -- right down to his interpersonal relationships#(and indeed it's in the more grounded interpersonal relationships you can most clearly see him as he is I think#the fantasy death empire of a thousand years doesn't register quite as viscerally because it's like. heightened; not quite real#but the emotional violence and manipulation that surrounds him? oh boy that is EXTREMELY real and scarily well-observed)#there's a premeditation to so much of what he does (contracts with planets that only end 'in the event of the emperor's death' anyone?#yeah john we get it you're hilarious and I wish you weren't)#the greatest trick john ever pulled was making anyone think he's just a lil guy. what does he know he's only god#when you first read the book the complete callousness of the other adults is so horrible that john seems like an oasis of care#(though you start to get this uneasy feeling when that care never seems to translate to like... relief or soothing or resolution)#and it makes it feel almost obscene when you find out what's actually going on#it's the mercy & augustine enabler hour but at least they're completely honest in their cruelty there#while john is -- well he sure is being john huh#this is just me being angry with him btw philosophically I don't think this is how the story will or should end#(with john slam dunked right into hell that is)#it's just... harrow is so vulnerable. and what he does to her is so insidious and fucked up#john is very deeply human. unfortunately the capacity to quite simply suck so much is deeply human too
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Kerian's getting desperate, and Lunar's putting his foot down
More security breach comic's
Also all the Kerian X Lunar Comic's on Ao3
#art#my art#comic#laes lunar#laes kerian#Lunar X Kerian#yeah I'm probably gonna wrap up this series soon#emotional manipulation#Lunar's killed the creator by now#Will Kerian back off or push more?
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more toxic kaiser stuff. (he possesses me. parasite smh)
wc: 428
cw: toxic kaiser (duh), implied yan but like. early relationship kaiser will be the worst man you know before he's suddenly your guard dog anyway.
“Y’know, you’re annoying as shit.” Kaiser hates himself immediately. He’s hoping you beg and cry to him; it’s some stupid ploy he wants to try on you, testing you in some way. He would compare it to the way a cat scratches its owner, but he knows he’s doing something way worse than that.
He braces himself for you to yell and get mad, but you just sit still and…nod. No rebuttal of any sort, which makes the whole thing worse.
In an attempt to save himself: he jokes about it “like, you’re so damn cute all the time, asking me about my day. I just want to sleep but now I need to cuddle you and let you pamper me.”
He pats your head. And he doesn’t miss how you flinch from him. Did that comment hurt that badly? you’re never like this.
“I didn’t mean it. You know that.” Kaiser tries to reason with you, but it’s worthless really. You get stuck in your head easily, and he only huffs in response to your lack of one.
“Do I actually annoy you?” Your throat constricts around his words. It's not like you weren't aware of what kind of person he could be, but you've thought he trusted you enough not to play these games.
Kaiser can only feel what most humans would describe as guilt. Maybe even pity. You’re worse than he is at this whole emotions thing.
“Not really. I wanted to see how you’d react.” Yeah. Remorse would be it. You’ve never looked more pathetic before.
Your sleeves are frayed from picking at them, a habit that has only worsened with your current boyfriend. It’s not lost on Kaiser; a certain part of him revels in drawing such emotions from you. He knows a normal person would have fought with him, but he’s knocked down so many of your self-imposed beliefs and wishes that you have nothing else and no one else to turn to. His heart feels sick, but his mind is happy knowing you won’t be leaving his side anytime soon.
You try to laugh, and Kaiser only scoffs again. Yeah. Annoying. He wants to take care of you.
"you're meant to refute that, you're allowed to." It sickens him that he has to remind you. That the both of you need reminders that its okay.
you whisper his name once, then twice, before he willingly falls into your arms. He does the best to apologize, a soft kiss there, and a word or two of affirmation (hidden behind gentle scolding).
#what did I want to convey#I have no clue#bro evades me#michael kaiser x reader#michael kaiser#bllk x reader#tw toxic behavior#tw manipulation#guys is it manipulation#ig emotional#he has to stop giving me thoughts. I need sleep.#me @ my kaiser merch : stop giving me thoughts#the logical side of my brain : he's. not real.#but my heart is full of whimsy (lies) and joy (lies)#also like. yeah. he's fucked up in the head. no idea what to do
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imagine how op grayson’s and jameson’s college admission essays were. like with their piles and piles of trauma (and last name ☠️) they probably got in without a moments hesitation.
#‘yeah so i was raised to be the stone-cold heir who doesn’t show emotion but i got disinherited. then my gf died then my grandfather who-#raised me died then i got manipulated by my situationship oh and my parents are deadbeats.’ -grayson#‘im constantly seeking validation bc my grandfather never gave me any btw he’s dead and so is my girlfriend who i watched die and who-#juggled her relationship between her and me and her and my brother bc yes i was in a love triangle with my brother twice. -jameson
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dark crink ahead
(cw: unhealthy relationship, manipulation)
so in underverse ink meets cross after timeline x ended, and xtale has been rendered into a white void. i think since ink has fear of emptiness, he wouldn't stay in xtale for too long. instead, in this scenario, he brings cross with him to explore the wonders of the multiverse, teaches cross about the in-and-outs of it, and helps cross to manage his newfound abilities after merging with xchara.
of course, ink is still keeping that promise with his old friend xgaster, but having a new friend wouldn't hurt, right? and ink revels in cross' attention and adoration - he's just so easily enamored with everything the multiverse has to offer. ink can't help getting closer with cross, eventually showing cross his art. cross doesn't understand the importance of this gesture, but he still greatly appreciates it and showers ink's creations with fascination. cross asks ink to teach him how to draw and ink eagerly complies. they just have a great time honestly.
that is, until the honeymoon ends. ink eventually tells cross that he can't help him restore xtale. he's the guardian of creation. he himself cannot create a universe - that is the duty of the creators themselves. hearing this is like the wake-up call to cross. he has forgotten what he has to do all along, his responsibilities. xchara is so vindicated - he knows that nothing about ink can be trusted after all. cross has fallen for the biggest trick in the world. is the time with ink so wonderful that cross is prepared to abandon his empty universe, abandon his friends and family? will he choose ink over them?
... but what if he can have both? he can have ink, and he can find ways to restore his universe? ink wouldn't listen, but cross/xchara can make him listen. they have a power that they haven't experimented on a live being yet - the hack knife. and eventually, ink becomes the first test subject for it. and it's easy, because it's just like a betrayal kill, something that cross is not unfamiliar with, no matter how terrible it makes him feel. but this is for the greater good after all, and ink is too much of a valuable ally (... or something even more) to lose.
and that's how cross and xchara find out about xgaster's plan. imagine how mad they are. but it's fine, really. with ink under their control, they don't have to worry about that old coot anymore. xchara wants vengeance, but cross wants to keep ink. i imagine they don't know about ink's immortality yet, so xchara agrees that ink will be under cross' care. cross is a little bit irate that xchara treats ink like a misbehaved pet, and they argue a lot about it. ink is just so small (he's canonically 3ft8 what), he's vulnerable and cross has to protect him, especially from that damned destroyer who keeps interfering with their plans.
now imagine if cross and xchara meet nightmare and killer. the things killer would comment about how nightmare and cross are so similar with their "pets" and all.
#longer post than i thought#yeah i hope this is not too ooc#cross has problems#more focused on cross because i think leaving ink's thoughts and emotions ambiguous would be interesting#cw unhealthy relationship#cw manipulation#crink#cross sans#ink sans#xchara#sanshipping#sanscest#undertale au#utmv
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I think Gerald Robotnik is the perfect example of how sympathetic doesn't mean forgivable and I havent seen a single person talk about it
#sonic 3#sonic movie 3#gerald robotnik#so i will#like the scene of him manipulating Shadow by forcing him to relive Maria's death...#fucking horrific#and yet in that same scene it shows you how destroyed Gerald was by it#so in that moment you sympathise with him#but as soon as you come out of that flashback you remember what hes just done and suddenly all that sympathy is gone#like yeah the movies are silly we can all agree#Gerald Robotnik has his silly moments here and there#but god the majority of the time hes so cold and calculating and manipulative to those around him#people you expect him to care about#people he probably wouldve have cared about in the case of Eggman or did care about in the case of Shadow#'They want to take Shadow from us Maria'#from US.#yet when Shadow betrays him he only remarks that he was once so useful to him#this man does not care about anyone and he never will again#and so the movie does not expect you to care about him#its so expertly crafted and i want to talk about this more so so badly but nobody is going to take this seriously#because its fucking sonic the hedgehog 3 and somehow non sonic fans are immune to realising this movie is peak fiction#god im so insane over everything about it#i love how unimportant they made his death. it was so quick and they made a point of making it into a complete joke#every other death or near death experience in this franchise#are treated with serverity and intense emotional moments like longclaws death and sonics near death in 1#and even like characters that most people wont care about like commander walters are given a decent amount of respect#yet Gerald gets fucking bugzapped and is not mentioned again#its just so perfect because thats literlly what he was going to do to everyone#they wouldve had barely any time to come to terms with their deaths#some people may not have even noticed they wouldve just been there one moment and gone the next just like Gerald
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MiqoMarch Day 26 - Faith
Though she is constantly reminded of her status being blessed by the goddess- Hydaelyn's chosen, as they called it - Arsay maintained a reluctance to allow her fate to be subject to the will of any higher being. Instead it is her friends, her family, whom Arsay puts her absolute faith in. Their bond is the greater gift by far.
#miqomarch#miqomarch 2024#ffxiv#scions of the seventh dawn#ffxiv scions#ffxiv gpose#Hydaelyn's chosen was one of the only titles Arsay never really vibed with#which is for the best since her faith in hydaelyn was honestly on the rocks for a while and even worse after that one reveal in shb#arsay is a summoner and a primal slayer so like#she sees things like gods through that lens mostly#that gods aren't like a set being that exists on some separate plane of reality#they are a myth brought to form through aetheric manipulation#primal summons have always been influenced by the emotional and mental state of the summoner#it is their will that ultimately determines how their god acts when brought forth into the world as a aetheric construct#in the end its the believer in control not the god they believe in#so arsay chooses to believe in her friends and her friends believe in her!#thats how she finds strength in even the most desperate of situations#and yeah arsay admittedly had a bit of egg on her face when the twelve show up and are like well we are actual guys#in her defence literally how was she supposed to know#WOL posting#Arsay Nun
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Ensemble and Intelligence
Everyone in the main cast is really smart, actually. Every last one of them. But it doesn’t feel repetitive or unrealistic because they’re all smart in different ways.
Seraphina: is probably the most obviously smart. She’s capable of perfect grades, she’s a skilled liar, good at reading people and puzzling information together, and she’s really really clever. The moment that sticks out to me most is when she used clever wording to trick Nadia, the lie detector, during her interrogation in chapter 28, without hesitation or breaking a sweat. I’d argue that she’s actually the smartest character in the cast.
Blyke: is mostly academically smart. He gets good grades in school and finds the work to be easy. Beyond that, he’s also good at reading people. He’s not as good as Seraphina is, but he’s able to read his two best friends like a book, and he has a much higher emotional intelligence than I initially gave him credit for. He also uses his ability very creatively, even before his power up. A moment that sticks out to me is when Remi was secretly going after EMBER, and Blyke was able to read her and piece together what was going on, meanwhile Isen had no idea anything was wrong.
Isen: is not a high achiever in school, but he excels in writing. He is proficient at gathering, piecing together, and expressing information. He’s also the only character except maybe Seraphina who consistently makes the smart decisions (as opposed to the reckless, emotional, hasty or ill informed/advised ones). Most characters make at least some stupid decisions and mistakes, but Isen is pretty much always focused on logic and foresight. Notable moments include: being able to track down John’s records, tracking down Claire, choosing not to publish the article on fake Jokers because he knew it would exacerbate the problem, tracking EMBER’s movements and basically anything he does on his computer.
John: initially seems like a total birdbrain. He acts like a dumbass, and he gets fairly bad grades. However, it’s clear from the beginning that he’s a good strategist. He thinks on his feet well, he’s good at sizing people up, and when he chooses to, he uses his ability with incredible creativity and tact. His intelligence is largely fighting centered. However, much later in the story, after John’s suspension, we see another side of him. It doesn’t show up much when he’s acting like silly old hair gel John, and definitely not much when he’s too buried in his anger to think straight, but John is really clever. This side of John is a lot like Seraphina’s smarts— he’s good at reading people, and he’s good at putting pieces together and thinking critically. Things that come to mind are when he read Arlo like a book, (something along the lines of “But you do need help. You wouldn’t have lost your cool if you had things under control.) and when he immediately sniffed out Sera’s lies (She said she was talking to Arlo about “Safe House stuff”, and John identifies that as a lie because if it were true she would have kept Remi in the room instead of asking for a private conversation with Arlo).
Arlo: is very cunning. He’s constantly scheming and thinking five steps ahead. He makes many misguided decisions due to his naïveté and misplaced trust, but he’s also very often the voice of reason. He’s a great leader and an even better manipulator. He’s always thinking analytically and connecting dots. An example is the fact that Arlo is the only person who suspected that John was actually a high tier, and looked deeper for more info. He also provided valuable insight in the Spectre investigation, and, like Isen, often encourages others on the side of caution (advising Seraphina not to meet with Spectre, involving John with the Spectre issue, telling Remi not to go after EMBER, etc.) Now, Arlo actually does give off the impression of being stupid at times, which is something I’d like to look at. He has many areas where he acts purely on his emotions and against common wisdom, but that is something that every person does. I think the reason why Arlo’s emotion-based decisions come off as stupidity moreso than other characters is because of the image he upholds: Arlo hides his emotions, pretends he doesn’t care about anything, and portrays himself as a person who acts on logic alone. Because of this, the emotions he acts upon aren’t always immediately obvious, or the audience doesn’t perceive them as being intense enough to make him behave the way he does. Therefore, Arlo’s mistakes (namely: targeting John because he feels abandoned and unfairly burdened, and refusing to believe the authorities are EMBER because he loves his aunt) — can be mistaken for a lack of critical thinking as opposed to a strong emotion.
Remi: is probably the least smart by conventional standards, but she sure as hell isn’t stupid. She has good critical thinking skills, she’s able to come to logical conclusions on her own, and she has good leadership. She was probably the first to put together that the authorities and EMBER are connected, and she was the one to realize that the writer of the Kovoro Mall article (Terrence) had been following them (Ch. 52). Not to mention that it was Remi who came up with the idea for the Safe House. However, the most notable facet of Remi’s smarts is her emotional intelligence. Remi is very good at navigating social situations, understanding herself and others, and she is excellent at communication. Highlights include the way she handled the situation with John (being understanding of him, hearing him out and offering to help him, but without compromising her own values), and the way she expressed to Blyke that she wasn’t mad at him but rather, scared for his safety, which was a clear, concise and honest way of explaining a very intense and complicated emotion, which is difficult to do in the heat of the moment.
#unordinary#arlo unordinary#john unordinary#blyke unordinary#seraphina unordinary#remi unordinary#analysis#ensemble entry#They are all. So smart.#i also think it’s really important to acknowledge that smart people can do stupid things#because emotions overriding logic is something that happens to everyone no matter how smart they are#this especially goes for Arlo because he is easily manipulated#but being manipulated doesn’t make a person stupid because manipulation deals with emotions and not logic#But as I discussed with Remi#emotions and intelligence do have overlap#but having emotional intelligence also doesn’t necessarily stop a person from doing stupid shit bc of their feelings#its complicated#but yeah.#hope that all makes sense.
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guys cmon. be ffr please. akemi did Not love taigen. the only reason why she was desperate to search for him to the point of putting herself in danger is because she didn't want to get married to an abusive man (which she believed at the time that takayoshi was). when seki tried to dissuade her from running off, her reason was not "but i love taigen and wanna be with him 🥺" it was because she refused to be controlled and have her autonomy taken from her; she literally says "i won't be locked away in edo married to a stranger." and when seki still tries to argue that getting married to the heir of the shogun would be better than getting caught by brigands, she then says "that kind of man"—referring to takayoshi—"treats women like animals. they say he's a tyrant." and when seki chuckles and says "what man isn't?" her response is "you." she doesn't even talk about taigen. she is using him as much as he was using her. they both see—or, well, saw—each other as means to an end. for taigen he saw that marrying into the tokunobu clan would elevate his status and wealth. for akemi she wanted the right to choose who she married, and she wanted that person to be someone kind. that's it! neither of them loved each other. but since they were courting of course they acted sweet to each other, and they do still care for one another, especially due to their romantic history. but let's be real! akemi is a boss bitch who dropped taigen and forgot all about his ass as soon as she saw takayoshi was a nice guy. because duh? not only is takayoshi a better lover (it's implied their lovemaking lasted a long time) but he's also kinder towards her and presents her with an opportunity to claim power and freedom, which she would not have if she had married taigen, as she would have still been stuck under her father's thumb. so literally why should she settle for taigen's stupid ass! she may be a little naive at times but she's still incredibly intelligent. she would not do something stupid for the sake of "love." you know who would though? taigen.
#blue eye samurai#wank.mp3#kinda?#fandom.rtf#shut up haydar#like out of the 4 main characters#akemi is the brains (the mental aspect)#she mainly uses reason and rhetoric. that's why she's so good at persuasion and manipulation.#ringo is the soul (spiritual aspect)#ringo serves as the show's moral compass and gets mizu to follow her morality#taigen is the heart (emotional aspect)#taigen will always impulsively follow his feelings (he's so brash for this reason. if he feels angry he will act on it etc)#mizu is the body (physical aspect)#mizu suppresses her emotions. her reason. and her morals. she only lets her skills and primal instincts guide her.#that's why she's almost super human sometimes#but anyway yeah#akemi? is a strong-willed self-empowered woman! she is not some damsel. she is intelligent though somewhat naive#please do not mischaracterise her cuz she is a boss bitch! she is a queen a cuntress a baddie#also on that note. the nature of taigen and akemi's rship is one of the reasons why im not keen on a polycule ending#like please explore it in fanfic and fandom! i personally just dont want it canon. i just dont see it working!#like literally i dont even think taigen found her attractive...#i mean he did obv find her very beautiful as everyone does. but did yall SEE his face when she propositioned him?#no desire in that man's eyes. he is GAY! his sexuality is men + mizu. he is a raging and bitchy bisexual!
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do you think dale is just an emotional guy or do you think he cries sometimes to get his way/manipulate his partner? idk i feel like he’s just a big ol sappy guy
Yeah, I do think he seems really emotional and would cry pretty frequently. Like the screaming in the car, that’s for no one else’s benefit so I think at least some of the emotions we see from him are very real.
Since I imagine any strong enough emotion would make him tear up anyway, whether or not they’re sometimes manipulative depends on you. If seeing him cry has you bending over backwards to get him happy again (no shame in it, me too), he’s employing them at every opportunity. BUT the opposite is not always true, seeing you cry turns him on because he’s a freak like that. Only if he’s the one causing it though. Anything else feels more real to him and he’ll desperately try to fix it for you.
He’d still try and sway you with tears even if he knows it’s not going to work. After a few tries, he eventually just gets angry and embarrassed that you don’t seem to care, resorting to more extreme ways of getting a reaction from you. Instead of trying to communicate, he wants to make you feel what he’s feeling, an equivalent of how much you’ve hurt him. He knows nearly everything about you and he’s so petty. Even though he just enjoys collating all those facts about you, he’ll still use any of them against you. So your ‘punishment’ will be perfectly tailored. Ignoring you, pushing your boundaries, being especially rough. Whatever he knows will affect you most and get his point across, then after he’s all sweet again. Wiping away your tears, all the gruffness gone from his voice and back to his usual light sing-song tone “I hope you’ve learnt your lesson, I don’t enjoy hurting my sweet angel.” Lies! he most definitely does enjoy knowing he can get to you so much.
#i think his emotions would be really easy to manipulate tho so you could get away with not giving him what he wants#its more about how you make him feel than the actual contents of your words#does he know he’s being manipulated? yeah but you smile and let him down gently and he doesn’t reqlly care#im trying to write him a little less soft too but im just a loverbabe so its hard 😩#longlegs x reader#dale kobble#dale kobble x reader#ask
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I'm so heavily anti-advertising that all pitches sound goofy silly to me/I can never take them seriously, so I have no idea how I'll manage to to advertise my game even if I do finally finish it soon-ish lol...
#Especially how so much modern media advertising is like... getting people excited about random tropes and stuff like#''Do you love enemies to lovers? Do you love sad stories that make you do a heckin CRY? Do you love big stupid dumbo muffin cake#sinnamon roll babies who are too good for this world? Have you ever wanted to read a blah blach blah" whatever stuff and it's like#... i cannot type that... I couldnt do it.. I couldn't even think of how to do it ghbjhbjh#I am such a literal person... Like I love when an advertisement is just like 'This product works well. Look at it. Buy it if you want. Ok'#You know what makes me want to read a book or watch a show or play a game? Reading a detailed plot synopsis or the full wiki page#for it and then deciding 'yeah I wouldnt mind sitting through seeing the events I just read about happen in more detail' lol#OR aesthetics. since I do often watch things JUST for the set/costume design. Sometimes I will watch stuff literally#just because I saw a picture of a costume in it that looked really cool and I want to sketch costume looks whilst watching#But aside from appearance like... little bullet point break downs of things that are in a story just ... do not do anything to me at all.#And i just hate 'selling' things to begin with. I don't want to have to convince people to like something.. they should just... like it...#LOL.. like.. just be born liking it. just like it automatically please. Dont make me beg to you like a weird little freak. So many commerci#als seem weirdly desperate and manipulative. Like those Truck/Car commercials that will have like a freaking dog crying and#a war vet in a wheelchair with the american flag in the background and a family hugging around a christmas tree or some shint and its#just like oh my GODDD... shut UPP.. you could literally not be MORE blantant about just trying to prey on peoples emotions to build#some sort of fabricated positive association with your product/brand.. begone.. Or brands having their own twitters where they post#~~relatable content~~ as a means of shallow audience endearment GGGRR..... ANYWAY.. hhrgh...................#Maybe that's something I can ask playtesters I guess like.. I feel like I don't know my own audience very well because I am not#much of a media person?? ironically.. Like I do enjoy MAKING media. But I've never been in a fandom. I've never read fanfiction. I've never#spent much time in those spaces. I've just never really had the inclination and don't personally derive much joy out of stuff like that#(since I'm already so focused on my OWN world and projects its like.. hard for me to even find the time and mental energy to expend on#others). Even when I finish a movie or game and really like it.. I just kind of like...move on? and don't really dwell on it much? At most#I will get into the worldbuilding of a piece of media and read the wiki for a while or watch Lore info or critical analysis videos. But I#never really care for or attach to the characters or the plot itself very much. So I feel like.. the way my brain works. I'm just not as#good at approaching things from that angle? Kind of like how if you're a lifelong vegetarian whos never eaten meat - you might#struggle to write an ad for fancy brand of steaks bc you'd be like... idk what meat eaters are even looking for? whats the selling point??#Which I'm not saying that I wouldn't play my own game. i AM definitely the audience for it. But it's more like.. I would play it for my own#very niche specific reasons that I think are different from what MOST people might want to play it for. So I need to somehow#tap into the minds of the Majority who play things for Normal Reasons than pure lore collection or whatever lol.
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i think it should be possible to scream without making any noise or disturbing anyone or inviting any questions . just sometimes . as a treat .
#hhhhHHHGHGHHHHHH#jay screams into the void#(deeply personal rant incoming feel free to ignore)#a friend of mine has just been undiagnosed with bpd which . lovely for them but it sure as fuck invites a Lot of questions#suddenly a great deal of previous shitty behaviour that was excused on the basis of bpd has a lot more to answer for#(obligatory I Know BPD Isn't An Excuse To Treat People Like Shit . im aware . i have bpd myself and i have v high standards re my behaviour)#(however allowances were made bc they were unmedicated & out of therapy through no fault of their own)#(and our whole group has enough experience with untreated mental illness to understand that it can make u a bitch sometimes)#but yeah no there have been a LOT of instances of b&w thinking + manipulation + unfair judgement + high emotion + snap reactions#and every situation Could be explained by untreated bpd and the bad times have never been prolonged or often enough to outweigh the good#but Hoo Boy if that wasn't bpd then what the FUCK was it#like either the new psychiatrist is wrong (possible but i seem to be the only one questioning it) or they're just Like That#and again . not enough to outweigh their numerous positive and loveable traits#but the whole group has been destabilised on a number of occasions due to their actions during a bad spell#and i'm really not sure Any Other Explanation is enough to justify that#ah well . this seems like the kind of thing that will eventually come up during a sleepover heart to heart#but rn i'm stuck in a bubble of MAJOR rsd & brainfuck abt it . which is unfortunate bc now is exactly the time i Don't need brainfuck#anyways ✨ goodnight tumblrinas i am . kind of hoping nobody read this bc i fear i sound like a bitch#i am genuinely happy for their undiagnosis it seems to have put many things into perspective for them & theyre v happy about it#i'm just . uncomfy w some aspects of it that i have only been halfway brave enough to discuss with them personally#That's One To Bring Up With My Therapist In A Few Weeks#Bit Of A Shame I'm No Longer In Therapy And Now Have Only 2 Quarterly Reviews Left Before I'm Discharged From The Service
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Im sorry i get like its a continuation of the previous game so as the PLAYER you may have sympathy for Solas and want to save him but from the MAIN CHARACTER standpoint of datv why would Rook of all characters feel any need to do so by the end? Like unless u romanced him in inquisition, it's not like the inquisitor puts up a huge argument for him.
I dont even feel like the regret memories add to his defense much from Rooks perspective, esp with some backgrounds.
Like theres multiple times characters are like "rook trust us he isnt actually bad" but never addresses what he did to Rook? Narriatively why would Rook give a fuck what other ppl are saying when they lived first hand his worst? U cant even have conversations with ur team abt what happened really from Rooks perspective. Weird.
Oh well just something to expand on in my head ig.
#like actually i get the varric reveal was emotional but if i was rook and varric was like he just is PLAYING a villain bc its easier#id be like hello he killed you made me think u were alive then locked me in a regret prison meant for gods#datv spoilers#sorry lol this is just such a weird narrative problem to me esp from a perspective of an older rook#ig this game is designed and written with the idea that ur rooks like 20 and easily manipulated by others opinions of the world but#that falls flat when ur playing a rook whos got a lot of world experience and is like hey i dont fucking gaf what u say#like my rook had specific dialogue where he was like yeah i used to be a bad person but everyday i work to be better even if its harder-#-and u expect him to say 'okayyy heres your 15th chance' to a guy he hardly knows and has never seen prove anything personally
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TW: manipulation, abusive relationship, grooming in the manipulation way
(also I think this counts as romanticising them, but still portrayed as negative just in the unreliable narrator way)
Self indulgent transgroomed scenario that AAAAAAAA /pos ;w;
I want to talk to someone friendly and nice. But then they would slowly start toeing boundaries. I might notice and ask them to stop, and they would apologise, maybe draw back a bit, but return to their previous behaviour within a few days. They'd keep gradually going further and further, but it's normal to often be uncomfortable in relationships, right? We'd be talking about something I like, I'd be stimming with happiness but then they'd suddenly say something uncomfortable, that'd make me fall silent. My hand would start shaking in that awkward, nervous way, and I wouldn't know what to say or how to react. So I'd just laugh nervously, or try and do whatever I thought they wanted me to do. It's my fault for not being good enough at socialising, that's the only reason why I'm feeling so uncomfortable and why there's so many ups and downs in how I feel around them. Whenever I did something wrong, made a mistake in how I should act around people, they'd point it out. I mean that's good, it's fair if some of my behaviours are weird or are making them feel uncomfortable. They'd point out stuff I knew were problems, like forgetting to answer messages or rambling about a boring topic for too long. But they'd also tell me stuff I didn't realise were so weird and uncomfortable for others. And soon I'd realise that it's normal to do whatever they want, and that I'm a bad person if I try making a scene about something. I've always had problems with being too dramatic, and I can't let this happen here. I'd just go along with whatever they said, even if it would have been unthinkable to me just a couple months ago.
#So basically an abuser playing off my insecurities about socialising yayayay#Also while writing this I've realised I may have been cisgroomed in a way lol.#Like I've been wondering if i can call it that for a while but thinking more about how the manipulation inherent to grooming works ...#But yeah this is basically a very self indulgent piece of writing! :D#Writing works so well it put me in the right like mood/mindset where i feel the emotions i crave XD#And also have not been manipulated in this way so this is just a nice scenario :3#transgroomed#radqueer#transid#rq 🌈🍓#transharmed#transabused#transmanipulated#transid please interact#transx please interact#rq safe#radqueers please interact#Also purposefully very vague about what I'm doing lol#Aaaaa I'm kind of nervous posting this for some reason ;_;
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im stuck trying to uproot this invasive species of plant in my brain thats been put there by my abuser. im stuck with this brainworm that has his voice that tells me what he likes and what he doesnt like and nitpicks every little thing i do and say and every person i talk to. its only been four months since ive stopped talking to him and stuff and im still only just starting to realize the scope of how bad it was, in that way where you know what happened sure but you dont Really Know until the True Grand Scheme Context hits you. i dont know i keep posting like "fuuuuck recovering from abuse is crazyyyyy" but to be honest recovering from abuse is kind of crazy
#txtpst#god i dont even knowwwwww man. abuse makes you feel so fucking lost.#its like i dont know how to just Be without the constant stream of criticism and insults and manipulation and emotional agony#sorry ive been so personal lately and whatever but yeah. teehee <3
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