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vincent, but what if he was wearing the outfit that i’m wearing to the rebirth concert tonight 🤯🤯
#not to doxx myself but is anyone gonna be at the altria tonight….#god i’ve been waiting for this concert since actually january#and it’s here#posting this in the morning what on EARTH am i going to be doing today#prepare to be sick of me#also this is literally MY outfit why did he kinda eat me up….#final fantasy#ff7#final fantasy 7#final fantasy vii#vincent valentine#final fantasy 7 rebirth#ff7 rebirth#rebirth concert#vince’s art
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afterlife vs. love
I'm a stitch away from making it And a scar away from falling apart Blood cells pixelate and eyes dilate Kiss away young thrills and kills On the mouths of all my friends
I saw you in a bright clear field Hurricane heat in my head The kind of pain you feel To get good in the end Inscribed like stone and faded by the rain Give up what you love Before it does you in
#pain and suffering on planet earth. why did i do this to myself.#fall out boy#falloutbridge#andy hurley#joe trohman#patrick stump#pete wentz
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Sometimes you think you're doing fine. Then you look at how you've behaved over the past weeks/months. And well, you were wrong.
#i should have known when i started falling asleep every time i stopped doing something and still felt exhausted afterwards#or when i started craving sweet greasy foods#and DEFINITIVELY when i stopped making fic-plots as lil' bedtime stories for myself#i've been doing this since i was 12 how on earth did i not notice their absence ?#(that's also why i haven't posted anything 😭 no bedtime plotting means nothing to write)#new goal: self care#sorry for this post guys#it's just that i got a wake-up call when my parents told me i should watch the Olympics because it's good memories to have and all...#and i almost cried when i realized i COULDN'T#because i was so damn tired and not fine at all#(which puts in a new light the ease with which i wrote Gale's pov on the angst fics but that's something for another day)#i've been working on this for a few days but thought i'd post this if anyone needs it too 🤗#i love you guys 🥰#you've definitely helped#ame rambles
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Yes, a lot of fans know that Emperor Penguin No. 1 was a hissatsu that teikoku created specifically to counter God Hand and that Kidou himself credited Kageyama to have come up with it. But not a lot of us think about how Kidou is probably the first user of that technique and that Kageyama made sure that penguins will be hurting/biting the user of that technique knowing that penguins are Kidou's favorite thing in the world
#I will throw kageyama to the sun if i ever see him#kidou angst ig#kidou literally called himself raised by kageyama wtf is wrong w him (kageyama i mean. kidou did not nothing wrong)#i actually like kageyama as a villain character and I do want to murder him myself#inazuma eleven#inazuma 11#kidou yuuto#jude sharp#kageyama reiji#ray dark#lore talks abt ie#this is why i think the og cast did not forgive kageyama in galaxy. they jsut needed to steel themselves until the earth is saved#or so i wish#teikoku gakuen
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Another story idea. One of those basic ass stories where this child is abused by her family due to her sister (adopted) came and brainwashed the whole family into loving her and hating mc. In the end mc is framed for some crime and is ultimately executed. Only after mc dies does the family realize their fault when the whole world becomes destroyed. Following me? Basic ass brainwashing story. Anyway, here's the twist. Time gets reversed, and mc awakens to the point in time ten years before her death. But the twist? Mc isn't the main character. The story takes place from the viewpoint of one of the brainwashed siblings that slowly remembers their previous life.
#story ideas#i'm reading 'a world without you' and i am tired#why do they always go through brainwashing route?#'mc was horribly abused abandoned and neglected bc they were brainwashed!!!!!!!!!'#so unoriginal and boring#but what i find even more surprising is like...#how so many of the readers/audience wants them to die for what they did#these people were brainwashed and not in control of their actions but regardless they are the scum of the earth#idk man#i'll never get used to how people in this day and age feel empowered by the purity movement and like....#lack any and all sympathy/empathy for others#so it'd be fun to make a story based upon one of the characters they vilify#this character would slowly realize their past life#'why do i always feel guilty around this person?'#'i know they're terrified of me but i just want to help them in any way i can't#and then when they remember their past finally it's like#'i finally understand. how can i live with myself knowing what i put them through?'#it'd be a boring story but it'd be fun to shove in those people's faces
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sleeping peacefully knowing that thinking about my wips is the same as actually working on them
#Bro why do I be getting the. I did something. Brain response#I did not#It makes it look like I've dropped off the face of the earth or something lol#Like if I zone hard enough my ideas will be beamed into everyone else's head and I get to pat myself on the back 😅#That being said the daydreaming stage is critical
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💥💥💥uh oh! complaining alert!! 💥💥💥
#i have this one friend who pisses me off sooooooo bad#weve known eachother since high school and she literally cannot stop projecting her insecurities on me#any time i talk positively abt something in my life or something im proud of myself for#she acts like im saying that shes the scum of the earth since she doesnt have/hasnt done those things.....#and how not everyone has my opportunities and it isnt so easy for everyone....#like yeah duh but also it WASNT easy for me that why im proud of myself.....and you have had way more opportunities than me.........#i hate this idea that im proud of myself for something that mean i think everyone else should be ashamed#or like...u didnt do what u wwanted bc it was scary or hard and so if i did do it that must mean it was easy and safe for me#not to generalize but it just annoys me so much when ppl valorize their own misery and treat me like im worse#for building a life that actually makes me happy......#and shes always been like this convincing herself that i look down on her but its not based on anything ive done its all in her mind
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Guess who just bought a keychain of the Jin-eating-burger photo that I won’t stfu about!!!
#thank you eBay 🙏 thank you Wendy’s collaboration 🙏 amen god bless peace on earth#im so low on money but I’m breaking myself for the fucking Jin eating burger keychain/standee 😭 I meannn how can I not it’s literally my pf#Jin really do be eating that burger tho damn that’s crazyyy 🍔🍔#im so excited hehe#watch the package not deliver or smth LMAOOO ID CRYYY#I never use eBay im nervous lowkey 😞#my mom deadass bought it on her account idk why I’m tripping#💀#Jin-eating-burger standee/keychain pls make ur way to me carefully and safely and packaged w care pls…pls….🙏🙏#my first piece of Jin merch omg…#I wanted to get the takaya one so bad but I’m soooo fucking broke lmfaoo 😭😭#me applying for a job and listing my reason for applying as “want money for takaya sakaki merchandise’’#LMFAOO#I’d also like the chidori one so I could have all of Strega#but alas#as long as I have Jin I’m good to go 🙏🙏#if you EVER hear me complaining in the future say “Gio remember you have Jin-eating-burger standee in ur possession’’#and I will immediately stop complaining and instead start counting my blessings ☺️#very excited abt this if you couldn’t tell#im so normal guys i promise#persona 3#persona#p3#persona 3 reload#jin shirato#(posting this from my drafts and I did end up buying the takaya one as well LMFAOO IM DONEEE#the lack of self control is craaazzzyyyy#takajin wedding alter creation upcoming?#IM JOKINGGG
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Lupin special where the Seven Pillars of Wisdom are 'reinterpreted' as a legend of seven actual jewels that Lawrence hid out in the desert or w/e
mfw I remember the awful Lawrence-related Part 2 episode:
#anyway. uhhhh they create some elaborate riddle out of to s.a. and do some journey to the center of the earth/indiana jones shit#with light showing the way. or something. there are vastly more serious and archaeologically interesting routes to take here#but this is lupin the third where you can do literally whatever provided it is profoundly unserious#wish that part 2 episode had done more with the lawrence part instead of doing the sheik of araby 2: electric boogaloo#where were the goddamn AIRPLANES#we gotta get the raf stuff in there too#hell. maybe they start or end in karachi for good measure. Why Not. get some more globetrotting in there#sorry i hid all the actual episode thoughts in the tags. i had to “yes and” myself in a lower-stakes environment#asks#mirrorfalls#lupin iii#t.e. lawrence#the biggest question is WHY would he hide this jewels. DID he hide these jewels? was it all a hoax?#were fujiko and her victim of the week behind it? i have many questions. at least we get to see pops doing silly things in the desert again#i want to see SOMEONE do the obligatory match cut
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do you ever start writing something and go "hmm this one element doesn't quite make sense, I should come up with a good explanation for it," so you start trying to come up with an explanation...
and then you black out and wake up 3 days later with extensive worldbuilding that has gone WAY OFF TRACK and STILL DOESNT EVEN MAKE THE ORIGINAL THING WORK
#this is why my finished and somewhat-close-to-finished writing is all like... relatively canon-compliant fanfic#i cant do plot AND worldbuilding!! all my ideas start growing legs and climbing out of the ocean & im not fast enough to shove them back in#in this case. the starting concept was 'the government assigns everyone whos unmarried by 30 a spouse'#from a writing prompt blog a while ago i think#i had a small plot for this#but then i unwisely asked myself 'why would the government do that? that seems stupid. it would mostly just make people mad'#aaaand now we are at 'so like 200 years before the story starts the earth was attacked by space kaiju-'#all that WOULD be fine. except. the assigned spouse thing does not make any more sense than it did originally#and now the plot doesnt work!#bugs bunny for the love of god please help me dot jpg#personal#tin kitchen in the garret
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Sapphire stopped in her path.
Ruby tensed in turn and got out her gauntlet.
[Transcript:
Ruby: IS IT TIME TO FIGHT, (my) SAPPHIRE?
Sapphire: No. I Do Not Foresee Any Conflict.
\End Transcript]
Sapphire smiles at their approaching encounter with a curious new friend.
#my art stff#steven universe#su ruby#su sapphire#caps#I just like the idea that they spent a while unfuzed and exploring the Earth before they really knew eachother well#like that scene with the frog :)#did a quick little google and it said dodos are curious and friendly to the point the approached colonists without fear#and of course I drew a stevenized birb as a first time practicing the style#< why do I do this to myself#/not mad#my art
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IA 2.0 voisona test with a short version of drag on dragoon's ending B song tsukiru/exhausted :) now i can hear Lia's beautiful dulcet tones sing scary scary songs
#vocal synth wip#maybe i'll finish it. not sure if im fully happy with the base file yet. ive been working on it + the growing wings ver for a thousand year#the timing is super tricky. why did i decide to make an svp of the most intentionally muffled smothering whispering song on earth#as my first attempt at making an svp by myself. why did i do this myself#also the instrumental probably needs work since its just a basic like software remove vocal situation LOL#there is no official instrumental rip..... i think someone had made a nice piano instrumental like five years ago but the videos down so#this is all we got LOL#the base file was an svp because i started this whole project in sv because..... its easier for me LOL BUt also i didnt feel like dealing#with the whispering in the bg of the original so i was like. just gonna make a flat track and maybe output the aspiration separate#and like fuck around with that until it sounds weird enough. but voisona and cevio dont have that function so i just stopped at the main#vocal + the chorus double. which also i have been so spoiled by sv scripts. randomize timing my beloved. i had to manually randomize it her#it took.... a thousand years 😔😔😔😔 although i guess thats fine since the tuning is like mostly default with just some tiny adjustments#i was more interested in messing with the different voice expressions and stuff in voisona <3 IA 2.0 has like this awesome exhale expressio#that im in love with because like. okay the one thing i think UTAU banks always have on any other synth is the end breath situation#no other software has given me as expressive end breaths as ur average utau bank. but IA's exhale is getting there!!!#also hopefully this isnt too loud. this is a very loud song. drakengard is a very loud game#edit: i mixed this like deliriously melting from a lack of AC and a bajillion percent humidity and listening back i now realize how#fucked up the volume levels are LOL ia's a BIT too loud and that double should be messed with a lot#but it works for demo purposes i think at least. kinda
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just gonna make myself sad real quick by thinking of how bad rodney's guilt would've been if the solar system he blew up was inhabited with people
#lmao#:)#he would not recover from that i think#like everyone would've been so mad at him#like 10 times more mad#and then after a week they're like oh shit he's#he's Not Okay over this#and john is like hey buddy.... you good?#and rodney is like oh yeah sure i just became worse than every mass murderer in earths history combined#in one afternoon#he keeps doing a ton of dangerous shit around the city snd offworld#claims he's helping and it needs to get done#but he's just. reckless#rodney having Absolutely No Regard for his own safety#just Not Caring if he lives or dies anymore#bc what right does he have to his life anymore after what he did#im gonna go insane over this#why do i do this to myself#omg this was just left in my drafts#seeing this while i'm writing a fic with rodney's fucking funeral#WHY AM I SO MEAN TO RODNEY#he's my favourite character and i love him#you wouldn't believe it based on the Scenarios i put him in!!!#sorry buddy#rodney mckay#sga
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hi there I absolutely love your pony (and 1 goat) designs they are all amazing
I’m just curious, why did you decide to draw Grian as an Earth Pony, rather than a Pegasus when he’s often associated with flight?
Was it a thing where the fanon stuff was an after thought or was your drawing not cooperating with you at all? (As fellow artist I do understand that occurrence)
or just something else entirely?
it originally stemmed from me not usually drawing grian as an avian most of the time that quickly devolved into " hehe the irony of one of his parents being a unicorn, the other being a pegasus, and he just got the short end of the stick " was too funny for me to pass up
#beans bacon whiskey and lard#so.. something else entirely basically!#i know i draw grain w avian features Sometimes but i do not generally HC him as an avian. personally#while i did '' no thoughts head empty '' all their designs i still kept how i interpret them myself in all of them#its why bdubs is a bat pony despite his thing with sleeping. i love irony and the thought of a bat pony scared of the night..#its a lil funny :p#also i am aware bat ponies are not normally bright green. the only thing i rechecked from mlp canon#was for scar's wheelchair. canon mlp wheelchairs are so . odd. and i need to redesign scar's chair so bad#cause i did Not have fun drawing it nor does it actually look like itd function properly lol#that goes back to No Thoughts Head Empty though i just lifted the canon chair's design p much without a second thought#and i am now having seconds thoughts . rip! oh well oh darn guess i Have to draw horse scar again ohh nooo u_u#but yeah. hes an earth pony because i think its funny KJSNDVJKSDV
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i wear a lot of skirts and pink and whatnot as my style has developed with me & my personality but when one of those age regression girlies latch onto me....i do not like that
#like oh....you think im one of them...bestie no im freshly 23 and im happy i made it this far i dont wanna go back#sometimes i hate being 5'2 with a small frame you have to be very careful and kinda vet everyone you interact with#idk there's a complex discussion to be had. i am someone who has went through what they fetishize and i know a lot of girls in that#community have too. so i worry a lot if if my behaviors and preferences accidentally align with that community in ways i don't realize#bc trauma will always reveal itself. idfk. when i was 20 i got in a relationship with a man who was 30 because i misheard him and thought#he was 24. i thought he was okay until we were at this giftshop and he wanted to get me something but as giftshops are super expensive#i mentioned i could fit in childrens clothes and it saves me a lot of money ($60 shoes are $30 for kids) and tbh fit my frame better#so he was “prove it” so i did and mf said “THATS HOT” ??????????? BITCH#my style wasn't even feminine in the slightest at the time 😑 it feels like a curse to have this kind of trauma then never outgrow this body#believe me ik how trauma changes your brain but how#as a woman#can you ever be apart of that community? why do you allow this to continue and not persecute these men for existing?#you're inherently enabling it and saying its okay this happened to you and its okay that other adults can hurt other kids#when my rapist got put in prison i screamed i yelled i sang i danced my friends set off FIREWORKS for me#when he got out i cried more than i ever have. i moved STATES (not the sole rzn but nonetheless) not that i was in the one he was in prison#in anyways but i was so fucking petrified he'd find me again. its embarrassing but i started sleeping with a chastity belt again.#i made more phone calls i ever have in my life to people who have and will get their hands dirty#i understand the self hatred those girls have. i understand the girls who sleep with everyone to take some of their power back.#i even understand the girls who want to get raped if they got assaulted but it never felt like enough for the pain they're experiencing#but please stay the fuck away from me. as someone who has tried to heal and wants every man like that erased from earth.#do not give them an ounce of attention. ostracize them like they're meant to be. leave it to god for their karma they will be dealt with#reckon with your pain and make sure it never happens to anyone else. only the harmed can make the greatest teachers#tbh bro i am disgusted with myself at all that those are the kinda vibes i put out.#what are you supposed to do as a woman when feminity is equalized with infantilism? i think its tone deaf and misguided whem girls are like#i dress this way to contradict societies views!!! babes its a whole cultural issue that requires reviewing and reforming#you are not doing anything revolutionary by wearing frilly skirts and saying im not like them bc they see you and ur automatically boxed in#i dress how i want and say what i want but i know as a individual im not the beacon of a groundbreaking movement#singularily flipping society on its head. dress how you want but be aware of the connotations. you're living in this society here and now#there's consequences that may not be in your favor and youll be assumed to have values that dont align with you and it may break your heart
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bruh-
#is2g childhood abuse and CPTSD are so EMBARASSING SOMETIMES---#like why am i able to force myself through laughing off a card that misgenders me and a whole fuckload of 'its not too late to come back#to the church' 'its not too late to let jesus save ur soul' ass books. but then the thing that sends me into hysterical snotty shaking sobs#is a ziplock of reeces xmas trees#[like i am Aware its not jUST the candy that did this. moreso that its the shock of being reminded of one of the FEW memories i have from#childhood that wasnt laced with physical emotional and financial abuse. and seeing it without warning felt like a taunt at#what my childhood COULD have been......SHOULD have been...but never WAS. and that opened the black hole in my chest that i do my best to#pretend isnt there every single fucking day i walk this earth. but god DAMN]#just feels so fucking stupid when i think of it as an outside 3rd party#like 'wtf is up with THEM-?'#if yall have parents / mothers that actually love you. hold them SO tightly im not even kidding you have No idea how gifted you are.....#vent
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