#why do people feel the need to do this fr
Explore tagged Tumblr posts
Text
I'm so damn angry. we're not even dating anymore. and yeah, alright, I get it. you have fucking asthma. but it's my fucking thing if I want to smoke or not. it's not like I ever smoked when I was anywhere near you and it's not like I'm gonna go and start doing that now. but we're not fucking dating anymore you don't get to tell me shit about smoking being bad for me. ✨️oh no, don't smoke🥺... for me...🥺✨️ fucking hate that shit. honestly, after all the shit we went through and now you give me this shit? what the fuck is wrong with you girl. I'm sick of this shit. alright, smoking is not fucking healthy. I don't give a shit. nothing in this hell hole called earth is healthy, what are you gonna do about it. but smoking is my fucking choice and I'm gonna fucking do it if I as much as fucking please. this was my fucking first cigarette this year and the first thing you do is ✨️don't do this for me✨️
girl I never ever smoked in your fucking presence, ever. stop giving me this shit. get the fuck out. honestly
#sorry not sorry#needed to vent#this shit made me so angry you have no idea#why do people feel the need to do this fr#i know what happenes to the fricking body when i smoke#im not stupid#i also dont give a shit#sue me#everyone can kiss my ass for all i care#you can be happy that i get a cigarette when im actually feeling myself#its not like i just start smoking outta nowhere without asking if anyone minds#i have fucking morals#so don't give me this shit#✨️do it for me✨️ my ass#get lost
1 note
·
View note
Text
Yeonjun about the strain he felt while preparing for his debut solo project ✙ "GGUM" MAKING FILM
#yeonjun#choi yeonjun#tomorrow x together#txt#ggum: making film#gifs#creations#userzaynab#useryeonbins#skyehi#rosieblr#megtag#hibiebear#heyiri#ultkpopnetwork#kpopccc#kpopco#this are like the rawest emotions we've seen from him... I feel... it's really sad to watch him like this#i mean I know they're under lots of pressure and stress#It's only natural when you work with so many people who you could potentially disappoint#and I know it was his choice to make this solo project happen now but i feel like the company could manage his schedule better#because why he films till 3 am and then right next day has a flight to another country for a concert...#and now we know from soobin they're super busy again#I'm worried his body will just say 'enough' one day and something bad will happen :(#and you have him work so hard and stress and then all this losers online whose biggest achievement is getting 100 likes on a post#writing the worst things about him for no reason... its not that hard to be kind and you dont need to have an opinion about everything :D#at the end of the day that celebrity you hate so much is still pretty and successful#and you're just a friendless jobless empty-headed rotten fool with likes on a post that mean nothing once you close the ap#I'm just glad all this is still fun for him and that he has such a great support system: his members family staff who care about him and us#all we can really do is support them and send them lots of love fr ;; you've done well my jjunie ily ♥
259 notes
·
View notes
Text
hehe. almost christmas!
#ace attorney tag#narumitsu#partial nudity /#2nd and 3rd things inspired by playing the first game and Uhh... why is phoenix accusing men of being lovers and being certain of it#and just generally containing the core of bisexuality within him#also there's that part i recall in maybe the..3rd game? where he's like Wow.. I'd Fall For Him Too... about that cinnamon swirl looking man#learnt lately that the writers upon learning that ace attorney was very popular with BL people immediately started reading BL#to understand the genre. i think phoenix would also do such Research in college. to Learn About People. About The World.#so now he feels that he has gaydar and is a good Ally etc. But actually maybe...you're also just bi too !#too bad you'll have to get kissed by a criminal to work that out! Hang in there <3#i reread my fic today !! I'm in the christmas mood now ! Sort of ! ooooh the 7 year gap.. at least we are in the 7 year gap years irl#Somewhere out there they ARE drinking wine romantically gazing at snow on a balcony in germany. thank GOD for that fr#so i shall be drawing things from THAT era next i need to depict men finally kissing NOW !!!!!!#can't do it with orufrey..can't draw cute happy romantic wintry art of them..didn't finish processing my current divorcecore arc era cycle
343 notes
·
View notes
Text
I have zeroed in on my issue with the centuries age gap trope is not the age gap really, but the inherent power imbalance and that i dont care to have an old ass ‘mature’ man. I want someone my age to share experiences with me, I don’t want someone who already has like all the answers. Men who are older (in real life and fiction) also tend to use their ‘experience’ to control their partner because they believe they know better. Fiction examples- The Darkling (pretty sure that was purposeful on Bardugos part) Rhysand (I dont think that was purposeful) and Cassian (most definitely not)
Idk i was watching the Book Leos new video on age gaps and shadow daddies (mostly a little discussion video) and i finally put my thoughts into words. yay
#arson yaps#and why are they always falling in love with younger women#not a ‘shadow daddy’ but Tamlin does fall into this almost but hes better written and his character has reasons to it (if that makes sense)#his need for control isn’t because he inherently thinks he knows better (even if he gen does) but because of his fear??#which is way more interesting than just ‘im old and have lived experiences’#I also feel the power imbalance between Feyre Tamlin wasn’t as severe in the first book considering him and his courts lives rested on her??#im always saying IF THAT MAKES SENSE#She didn’t have to be 19 (sigh sjm) but it wasn’t like tamlin sought out a 19 year old. she just ended up being the one#anyway idk#anti acotar#anti rhysand#gotta cover my bases#anti cassian#saturday morning yapping FR‼️#if anyone wants to drop their thoughts pls do. we are a constantly evoling people and i love to see different or similar perspectives
31 notes
·
View notes
Text
I see so many people, milven shippers and others, say that it'd be better if Will just moved on and got a boyfriend at the end and that'd be his like happy ending. And I would agree with that, like if the show so far was written differently I would be satisified with that, even if he ended up alone but like 100% came to terms with himself and accepted and loved himself I'd be okay with it. It would all be nice and well except they've made it basically impossible that Will could get a happy ending without Mike. Like season 4 they really solidified and hammered in the fact that Will is irrevokably in love with Mike, like he is down bad and it's not a fleeting crush or gay awakening or anything like that no he loves Mike for all that he is with all that he has. If they didn't make it so explicitly clear to us that Will is in love with Mike then for sure he could move on and find somebody else. But with the way they've shown and told us Will's love for Mike, he's not moving on anytime soon and unless theres like a 10 year time jump or something he's not gonna love Mike any less and even then part of him would probably still love Mike. So all this to say Will literally cannot have a satisifying ending without Mike and that's one of the biggest differences between Will and El's relationships with Mike. Eleven could have a satisfying ending without Mike because we've been shown time and time and time again how much she grows without him. Lol I rambled for a bit but I saw a comment that made me mad
#byler#i rambled on for way too long and people have said this before but I just feel like it needs to be said again lol#but fr tho why do they make will's love for mike so in our face all season- if it's just gonna end in rejection#that's so lame- and if they wanted it to go that way they shouldnt have let his feelings develop past season 3
42 notes
·
View notes
Text
vent
did not expect kissing and realizing i’m lowkey dating a guy to send me down an existential spiral of reminding me that i have only one life to live and then i am going to die without living any other different lives
#but i’ve been wasting time not exploring at all!!#doesn’t have to be a forever person it’s just an experience#but still#it’s really weird and idk!!!!#and if i date this guy fr i would have to like go on birth control probably and holy shit i do NOT want more medication#and what if i meet someone else?#i don’t exactly want to commit y’know???#but i’m halfway through my twenties and i don’t know how much time i actually have and if i think about it too long i hyperventilate#which WOULDN’T HAPPEN if i was just continuing on with being safe and alone!!#and what about women?? i love women!#but when i really love something or someone i go crazy about it#i lose myself#so maybe realistic and neutral is better?#am i neutral?#i don’t fucking know and my friends for the most part aren’t quite grasping what i’m trying to say#like yes i overthink and yes it might not be that deep to anyone else including the guy#but it NEEDS to be that deep. to me.#because that’s how my brain fucking works.#i don’t take shit lightly and i never have#that’s why i’m better off alone#or with people who are also deeply unchill#but this guy is so chill! and it does make me feel comfortable!#but it’s also like bro is this conversion therapy am i conversion therapying myself?#my entire identity for more than a decade has been based off being single and independent#and the lapses in that are times in my life that i see myself as unambiguously pathetic and embarassing#with men and women#i feel like a fucking unsocialized semiferal cat that wants affection but also doesn’t know how to accept it#and do i even want it? or is it want i know i should want or what would be good for me so im just slowly forcing myself into it?#it’s so much easier. so much simpler. to not have to freak out about this stuff.#sorry for venting i know it’s annoying it’s just fuck man…
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
Yeah so Pom hates being called Leo so much that she tries to get the others to call her Pom instead. This doesn’t work, aside from the exception of Dingo
#art#fanart#pikmin fanart#pikmin#pikmin 4#leo pikmin#dingo pikmin#poor pom dude#she just wants to be called pom but the world around her doesn't let that happen#dingo is about to throw hands fr fr#btw sad fact#Dingo was the first person Pom had made friends with and she proceeds to lose that friendship in under a week because time loop#bro had a friend for LESS THAN A WEEK and was back to being alone again#btw as seen before in the first Astra post these friendships do have a subconscious effect on people#Like how Russ double double checks his bombs before selling them. He just has a bad feeling and doesn't know why#the reason is that Pom blew herself up with a faulty one but Russ doesn't know that (Or need to really)#And after that timeline Dingo tends to check in on Pom more#He has no idea why he feels like he has to but he does anyway#Again and Again Until Someone Changes#AAUSC
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
so i took this practical course from my university at my actual job campus this week and it left me in such deep despair. i just feel like i wasted so much time for a job in stem when i dont even like it and now its the only thing i know but im not even good at it because i hate it and cant bring myself to do anything properly! i am changing up and doing my patissery training i know that.. but im so scared of ending up hating that as well.. and i know im not to old to start something new but like i havent even started anything at all yet
#i need to get out of this country#also i dont know if ill be able to shed the responsibility i feel to do work in agrar#like i do like the job and i think its so important and id like to make a change but i can feel it draining my soul already#and i havent even started working fr yet#like its so stressfull trying to lessen this catastrophy were creating and making worse while already living it#and all the egos of randoms just make it so difficult for everyone like i just want to cry all day#i dont know if i can just forget abt all that and all the people that are suffering that i could help maybe even just a tiny bit#and just be a random pastry chef#like i think i already have all that knowledge like why would i waste it now kind of feels selfish#idk#having a crisis rn hihi#also i just dont fuck with academics.. and i dont want to be around them my whole life#or like at least until my masters or smth#I DONT WANT TO DO A MASTERS
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
i know its normal to like. tell your parents that you're moving and got a new job but why do i feel like i have to ask permission to fucking. apply for jobs outside of michigan
#shay speaks#sry i am. thinking about how i felt like i was asking permission to accept the job in colorado that i took#in my hashtag rebellious era by just taking seasonal work wherever#and doing my own thing. im hoping with some distance between my parents and me i'll actually be able to find something#of myself. just like. my own person.#i dont want to be an extension of my parents!!!! i dont want to do what they want for me!!!#but i feel like whenever i want to do something big i have to ask permission#which is why i havent told them about any of my adventures this summer#where i went to various lighthouses and such. fr some reason i just. feel like i have to ask them for permission to do anything#even though i am 23.#saying that as if they didnt force me to go to church while i was living at home with them last winter#but at the same time i do not want a '''''normal''''' job where i'm working at an office from 9-5#i dont think i'd like that very much. as much as i love the people from the museum i interned at#i realized i did not want to do office work or paperwork or anything like that#i like interacting with people and the fast paced kitchen environments#sighs. i probably need therapy but will not be getting it any time soon
7 notes
·
View notes
Text
i keep saying i need to make some zhaoryu shit but i'm back on my y5 kazusaeji bullshit again they are just so. m
#ada speaks#there NEEDS to be more zhaoryu shit. but kazusaeji still holds my ass hostage so#if i am to write a comprehensive timeline of kiryu's sexuality and him coming to realizations about himself that lead to the way he's#changed in gaiden to be more. uh.#then i have got to start at 5 because its literally when he first begins to realize he's fr into men. and then gaiden & 8 he's like Out#i need his first time to be with saejima when he's at his lowest it just makes sense#theres so fucking much in 5 that feels like its really coming to a head#mayumi. why did they fucking do that. like also nakajima and his coworkers being like U Are Gay but.#mayumi. and hinata. why are you having him refuse sex with women TWICE in one game#i hc him as acespec but i also think he should get to fool around w saejima for narrative reasons#and by that i mean i think it would be absolutely devastating and tragic and also they would both legitimately be so normal about it#saejima knows he's going back to jail anyway so there's that#but god help kiryu he's absolutely trying to fill the loneliness void with People all the damn time#lowkey doing what he did with kaoru to saejima 😭#you're grieving the loss of your family? time to latch onto the woman going through the same thing just a year later#lost your emotional support daughter? allow a woman to live with you while you continuously rebuff her advances#lonely and directionless and feeling guilty for having dragged your loved ones into conflict again and again?#have sex with probably the Only guy who can understand exactly what you're going through but is consistently in a Way healthier mindset#it also makes the conversation they have on the rooftop of new serena so much more deranged if it happened before that#im normal btw thanks for asking
12 notes
·
View notes
Text
sometimes i feel like i’m the only person who’s as interested in milesganke as i am. like hello what do you mean you haven’t even considered (extremely specific thing that’s common but not seen as important enough to talk about)???? not even once???
#not tagging#that one mutual that don’t play about milesganke.#but fr everytime i talk about it with other people i feel like i do TOO much and have put too much effort into it#but like. special interest so i get why i’ve got more information and ideas and feel strange seeing others not have that much#at some point i was saying ‘ugh i need to get a life’ as if i don’t already have one (kinda) and just like the ship a lot#<- stop hating your interests !
9 notes
·
View notes
Text
One of my big compulsions is taking a fuck ton of screenshots Just In Case a piece of information is important in like 4 years and I can't remember it (sometimes the information is an instagram post that I might not remember later and of course needs to be recorded everywhere (I will Not be looking at that again)) so today is my transfer 16000 images off my phone admin day (woo)
Like yeah I never looked at any of them and they were completely irrelevant to my daily life, But what if I need them ✨️ later ✨️ (you'll see that the idea of Later is doing a lot of heavy lifting here) OR what if there's a vital piece of information in the mix somewhere that I'll lose forever if I delete them? So: onto the external hard drive they go
This is one of those cases where. Yeah. Ideally I wouldn't take 16000 screenshots in half a year. And YEAH ideally I'd just delete them and not transfer them somewhere else to never look at again. BUT at least I get a clean slate and I can maybe not mindlessly save everything for 2 seconds. It's like. Small wins? Progress. Yknow.
#rangnar rambles#i also use my tumblr drafts this way which is how i have probably 2000 drafts for this blog that are just? like me saving a post for 'later#and then theres too many in my drafts for me to even find *MY* drafts#i need to just hard reset the draft function bc its literally unusable for me#'matt this is all irrational and weird' by god. my irrational thoughts disorder makes me do weird shit? are you fr rn??? 😨😨#i get so stupidly in my own head and then i dont make progress towards Anything#even like a fun sideblog where i can actually yknow. post that 2k nightmare? i just cringe myself out like a dumbass 😔#i feel like ocd thoughts always sound lame out loud (and in my head to myself too)#like the Urgency doesnt come across#like in the moment i am Completely convinced that my national insurance number and bank deets are in there somewhere#and theres suddenly no way on earth i could ever find them again if i delete the picture. so to the hard drive they go#i Would go through that whole thing if i suddenly needed a screenshot from 2019 btw. like the crazy isnt theoretical#ive hallucinated gas leak smells before and woken up my flatmates bc i couldnt convince myself i was over reacting#its just cus the seasons have changed that everythings ramping up but omg its hard to do anything but spiral nowadays#thats a little dramatic but i am losing like. a quarter of the day to my ocd#its like. not great 😬#im not back to convincing myself i gave my dad cancer but i am not letting myself use half the kitchen again#but eh soo la voo we ball#HAH i checked my drafts after this and i was lowballing so hard#5.7k on this blog. 12k on my main 💀. its not funny but it kind of is#this is why youll never catch me running a queue#this is such a miserable post but i do feel the need to not let it sit in the drafts pile. to prove the point i guess 💀💀💀#'no one gives a shit this is your blog' 'oh my GOD WHAT IF PEOPLE GIVE A SHIT' <- omg shut upppp youre so embarassing 🙄#one more time for the gallery: i am like. aware that these feelings are irrational. like i am fine it just takes time for reality to kick in#ANYWAYS what was that who said that that was so weird im gonna go look at old romantic era paintings now#if tam is a screenshot fiend in the next fic u know what happened
3 notes
·
View notes
Text
if anyone got tips pls share with the group 🫶🫶🫶🫶
#i've had enough 🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶🫶#i'm not getting paid enough to deal w these people's bullshit#just applied to 2 jobs that look solid#& those are the first 2 in WEEKS btw that didn't seem like fucking disasters#1 is mostly for the hybrid opportunity & bc they got ALL the insurances#the other is bc it's downtown montreal (<3) and a cause i'm passionate about - be great to do some MEANINGFUL work#seems like there's a shortage of *decent* job opportunities in my field lately#and idk how i'm getting less callbacks now that i HAVE experience as opposed to when i didn't ???#weird.#anyway.#i'm pissed off this week cause they're crossing my boundaries more and more here & also this garbage weather#FUCKING SNOW#FUCKING HAVING TO SHOVEL AND CLEAN MY CAR BEFORE I CAN DRIVE HOME#FIRST THE CONSTRUCTIONS AND TRAFFIC THEN IT WAS DONE I HAD 3 DAYS OF PEACE AND NOW THIS#LESS AND LESS TIME TO ACTUALLY REST AT HOME BEFORE I GOTTA COME BACK HERE AND DO IT ALL OVER AGAIN#MAN I REALLY FUCKING HATE IT HERE#so yea anyway 🤠😁#anybody got tips to make quick easy money? pls help. lol#i need to start my freelancing business fr fr i just don't feel like i'm creative enough to come up w something lucrative#like i'm making a little money on the side rn but it's def not enough to be a side hustle#i'm just so sick of having to apply to jobs and do interviews and sell myself and working for nasty ass people#yesterday they invited me again to their dumbass christmas party. brother i am not going to your fuckass 60+ y.o. foreign ppl dinner#there is NO one my age and EVERYONE speaks ur language that i dont understand. i'm not spending a second more than required with y'all#AND LIKE 90% OF THEM ARE MEN LIKE. EW. FUCKING EW. NO#i swear if they pressure me one more time or ask me again why i'm not going i'm gonna snap#you are NOT entitled to ANY information about me or my personal life or my reasons why i don't wanna do certain things#i'm here to GET MY MONEY and GO#i can't wait to quit.#**
2 notes
·
View notes
Text
Randomly remembered how Lawrence was a real one for knocking Qwark out in UYA to help his boss out lmao
Seriously
This was one of those rare moments I realized someone seemed to genuinely be on Nefarious’ side. Everyone else could be flakey, but Lawrence was the only one who stepped in to save Nef when he needed help and I just think about it a lot ok
Also do not mess with the butler or else he’ll knock your ass out fr. I love that he’s lowkey a threat too but he just doesn’t care enough to act on anything
#Lawrence#ratchet and clank#rac#I just#feel many things#about what we got in canon lore#and so very much wish we could get more#I need MORE#I need to know more about literally any character. even ratchet fr. but more about nef and Qwark and Lawrence as individuals. more about the#planets and moons and traveling and social expectations and wardrobe and ahdjaja#like why do so many characters ALWAYS wear gloves in canon?? is that part of social etiquette? hide the fingies#robots clearly have consciences and feelings (hi clank) and get attached (hi clank) to people and other robots (hi clank)#why does Qwark wear the outfit he has ? his family even has that shit on in that pic in that one game but I can’t remember if that’s a canon#game in the timeline… I take it as canon bc we have nothing else really#oh and also abilities special to species or different creatures#Qwark is strong but what else#ratchet is fluffy so does that mean he’s good to live in colder climates ? he has funky feet. for climbing ? does he have sharp nails or toe#beans? will we ever know??????#do robots work from an internal power source ? do they need to charge or plug in or sleep? do they consume energy like transformers LMAO HEL
36 notes
·
View notes
Text
Saw barista crush twice today and that's that
#i needed my second coffee BAAAAD#the eye candy twice in a day was not bad either#TBH...... THIS MORNING SOMEONE ELSE MADE MY COFFEE ZND IT WAS TOO FUCKING SWEET#and now the crush made it and he always makes it good soooo i was about to offer a compliment or sth#BUT THEN IT GOT CROWDED AND I DIDNT WANT TO MAKE HIM FEEL WEIRD#WITH OTHER PPL AROUND#god why do people exist like LET ME TRY TO GET MY MAN FIRST#PLEASE#need to hit that so bad fr#and i will 🖤#text
2 notes
·
View notes
Note
My mom told me the other day that it was gonna seem like I was trying to date my friend if I payed for her ticket to a show, so maybe you should try and pay for his food and that’ll indicate your intentions lol 😅
LMAO fuck maybe I could try that 😂
#not snz#i feel like it would work better if i didn't like. pay for literally everything most of the time ahskaksk#but i can try#unfortunately that's my medic and if nothing else i was taught to buy/bring food for my partners especially if they're a medic#which is fucked up if you think about it bc they get paid more but i digress lmao#but maybe it'll work if it's not fast food 👀#god is that gonna be too obvious if i wanna go somewhere decent and not like fucking taco bell#fuck he's seen me eat taco bell tho there's no way he'd ever be into me after that 😭#tho to be fair one of my fire coworkers asked me out immediately after seeing me do much worse than spill half my taco on myself#so maybe I've got a shot ahskamska#this is literally so stressful ahsakms how do people do this lmao#also why do i want him so bad now after knowing him for two years#this is so fucking sad for me lmao#like maybe i was in denial for a while there But Still#like is being nice to me when I'm like a sickly little victorian child really all it takes to make my ovaries explode 😭#i need to raise my standards fr 😭😭#partner posting
3 notes
·
View notes