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uesrnmane · 6 months

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@dear-ao3 , Count Me In

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I got your picture, I'm coming with you, @dear-ao3 , count me in

There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen

When the lights go off I want to watch the way you take the stage by storm

The way you wrap those boys around your finger

Go on and play the leader' cause you know it's what you're good at

The low road for the fast track, make every second last

'Cause I got your picture, I'm coming with you, @dear-ao3 , count me in

There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen

Make it count when I'm the one who's selling you out

'Cause it feels like stealing hearts, calling your name from the crowd

Live and let live, you'll be the showgirl of the home team

I'll be the narrator telling another tale of the American dream

I see your name in lights, we can make you a star

Girl, we'll take the world by storm, it isn't that hard

'Cause I got your picture, I'm coming with you, @dear-ao3 , count me in

There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen

Make it count when I'm the one who's selling you out

'Cause it feels like stealing hearts, calling your name from the crowd

Woah-oh-oh, haha

Take a breath, don't it sound so easy?

Never had a doubt, now I'm going crazy

Watching from the floor

Take a breath and let the rest come easy

Never settle down, 'cause the cash flow leaves me

Always wanting more

'Cause I got your picture, I'm coming with you, @dear-ao3 , count me in

There's a story at the bottom of this bottle and I'm the pen

Make it count when I'm the one who's selling you out

'Cause it feels like stealing hearts, calling your name from the crowd

'Cause I got your picture, I'm coming with you, @dear-ao3 , count me in

#ides of march #while we are already making movies #why not also make (or remake) songs #this is the first one #i wanna see more #and lets also have an anime #this can be the intro #cause yk #yea #march #march 2024 #dedicated to dear-ao3

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turtleblogatlast · 5 months

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[ cw: death mention / family death mention / ]

Mhmm I sure love thinking of the reality where we did get more time to really know Karai and her dynamics with the bros. Losing her hit hard in the finale, but it would’ve hit much, much harder had we known Karai longer and really saw her relationships develop with everyone.

I especially would have been interested in her dynamic with Leo, as past iterations often have the two of them clash in ideals and the like while still sharing many characteristics. Two sides of the same coin, and all that. Her specifically being the bros’ Gram-Gram also adds a whole new dynamic as well.

Imagine how interesting it would be, to have Karai start off on Leo’s side for once, showing wholly just how alike the two are at their cores and bonding as family without the worry of betrayal or animosity that other iterations suffer through, only to have Karai die anyway. Their parting hug and the desperate look of horror Leo wears later on would have hit that much harder, I feel.

#rottmnt #rise of the teenage mutant ninja turtles #rise of the tmnt #rise karai #rise leo #rottmnt karai #rottmnt leo #I think a lot about these two in particular #and how that dynamic could have flourished #the way it was depicted in the finale is so purposefully unique and painful like #that hug man #can you imagine how much more heartbreaking that would have been if we knew her longer #not that it wasn’t already sad but we just simply didn’t know her long enough to be completely attached #also imo having more episodes with her and in general would have presented something I’ve been thinking about since the finale #so like - I like to think each bro kinda immediately leans more toward certain family members #Mikey has Draxum #Donnie has April #Raph has Splinter because this is another one that would be SO GOOD and make the finale moment where Raph sees his memories hit harder #if they had an ep or two more of Splinter and Raph together bc I really do feel like Raph respects Splinter most of the four #and finally- Leo has Karai #and then he loses her #imo? this would align with the movie even more #because it was the act of heroism that kinda killed her in a way - makes sense that Leo would initially be leaning away from that #and yet he ends up exactly like her anyway #haha sorry for rambling I just really love the interesting dynamic these two tend to have #and it’s a shame we didn’t get to see it really explored in rise #but yeah make no mistake while I’m focusing on Leo here I wanted more for all the boys and karai #Mikey’s little moments with her were so sweet and we already know how much he yearns for more family #Karai being from an age long gone would mean she’d be super impressed by literally any invention Donnie has (adult validation!!)#and could you imagine her training with Raph - with this training being referenced in the finale?

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sysig · 11 months

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Ellen McLain’s commentary from my trivia playthrough

#She's so cute <3 #WPP #Portal #Ellen McLain #If you haven't played through the audio commentary I would Absolutely recommend it it is So fun #I clicked out of curiosity - kind of just expecting like a movie's audio commentary y'know? Like a video that highlighted specific scenes #No it's just the whole game again but with trivia pop-ups! I love that!!#It reminded me so much of like trivia track or the pop up fun facts from special editions of movies I would watch as a kid #But you can play through them!! You have to click on them and they spin! I love that!!!#I always love hearing the design and development process - fascinating how the playtesters reacted to this new game!#We take it for granted now but yeah I imagine it would've been very confusing at the time #And I was like ''Well it was such a small team and Ms. McLain was such a large part of it - surely she'll have a few bubbles?''#She does lol - as soon as I got to her first one (it was a slow burn! They buried the lead with her lol I'm already invested!) I had to go #I saved-quit the game out of sheer excitement and giddiness lol I had to sleep on it before I was ready to come back #It is so cool to hear her natural voice ah <3 And the kinds of direction she was given! Other bubbles also talk about her vocal direction :)#Very cool! I wonder what TTS they used for reference :0 #But to hear her real laugh without the audio processing over and and she still sounds like GLaDOS! I mean of course she does but just jfdksl #That's /her/ laugh! They share a laugh! It's a very similar laugh!!#Not to mention her talking about wanting to play and just fdskalfd they clearly did such a good job with her performance and ahhh #It's too cute it's all too cute sharing a room with GLaDOS while her voice actor talks about making a cake to share with her friends stopppp #I am so enamoured <3 #I also took a bunch of screenshots of GLaDOS still shit-talking while she was being destroyed lol #Actually beat the ending in one try this time :P I ran out of time the last time pfft #But now I've beaten it twice in as many days :D Although I did start it the first time several days ago - but I beat it again quickly!#Has me all the more itching to replay 2 ♪#WPVG

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yoinkschief · 1 year

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ffuuCCKK my hyperfixations are hyperfixating again and it's that time where I get violently "LET ME TELL YOU ABOUT MY INTERESTS PLEASE PLEASE PLEASE" again

This is literally me right now, had to quickly whip out MSPaint to visualize my crippling feelings

I swear the next time one of my interests is brought up I'm making a youtube video essay script about it I need to get it out before I [REDACTED]

#y'ever get so violently autistic about your interests #like I'm gonna scream and climb the walls like a feral cat if I can't rant to you for the next 5 1/2 hours abut the Markiplier timeline #there is no need for that man to have made an edgy internet joke into an ENTIRE CINEMATIC UNIVERSE #AND NOW HE'S ONE UPPING EVERYONE BY MAKING A WHOLE ASS FAN MOVIE #Eddsworld should be ashamed of itself because this bastard pulled an entire professionally done movie out of his ass #while we sit here with a barely finished fan movie #no hate to the people who worked on it and put their heart and soul into it #animation is hard #but FUCKKK HE TOTALLY JUST SHIT IN OUR CHEERIOS #first the FNaF movie NOW THIS #He knows what he's doing #jay talk #fuck talk jay rants in the tags cause he treats it as a P.S.#not even P.S.#a whole seperate paragraph for a college style essay #I'm not kidding about the "making my autism + ADHD (AuDHD? Is that it?) hyperfixations into a YT video essay #I'm already making one about a show that doesn't deserve it

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autumnrory · 23 hours

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i rmr when all the initial meta around endgame was coming out people were talking about steve being depressed and whatnot and it's like well yeah but he's BEEN depressed, like he woke up alone in this century and he kept going, now i can understand it being worse this time after finding a family and getting bucky back and losing them all except of course that's not why endgame steve was on about so like......the people writing meta were trying to connect these things that of course weren't really there on screen because that simply wasn't our steve

but i think it really could've been SO interesting to see this is the thing that finally makes steve stay down like he's lost so much and he just CAN'T keep fighting like i get some people think that's what they were going for but considering the ending......it's really not. and so i'm just thinking about a version after iw, maybe he gets some of the thor treatment except not turning his depression into a dumb fatphobic joke lol and maybe nat and others are trying to get through to him and it just doesn't work and then we get some flashbacks (which you could have done for all the original avengers actually which would be particularly important for bruce and nat and clint who did not have their own trilogies) including his mom telling him "you always stand up" and THAT being the thing to finally get him moving like it would've been such a perfect way to finally show sarah rogers some respect and ACTUALLY show steve really struggling instead of whatever they tried to do with him in that movie

#steve rogers #mcu #anti endgame #why am i still rewriting this movie five years later #really though i think i rmr just trying to work through it all #and a lot of the meta i was reblogging initially still wasn't really accurate to endgame or the rest of the mcu #like they were still making steggy more important than it canonically was while trying to explain why it was a bad ending #and it's kind of like you can say steve would respect that peggy had a life and wouldn't interfere with it but that's about it like #going on about how he DID love her so much and just wouldn't be selfish enough to do those things #or that she was soooo important to his moral compass (hence why so many fic writers had her telling him to go back to bucky lol insanity)#are just not accurate lmao i do think much as she may be rightfully disliked #while canonically he did not LOVE her he did respect her even if we think that's annoying bc she's an asshole to him in catfa #but yeah no he had a moral compass before her i understand what people were going for with the compass being symbolic but like....#any time she said anything did he listen? except for maybe when she told him he was meant for more? it really doesn't seem like it #nor did he need it! jesus! the whole point of catfa is he was chosen for a REASON he was already a good man #he did not need peggy 'sure i'll let nazis into shield' carter to teach him shit #but yeah it was bc i followed one stucky blog at the time who was reblogging a lot of good shit but a lot of that nonsensical shit too #and i was just reblogging it all bc everything sounded better than endgame #and i really did start seeing more of the discussions around peggy where her culpability in catws hadn't even occurred to me #bc i was so in fic from the beginning of joining fandom that not only was their relationship made as impt as stucky #it was also made out like what happened to shield was hurting her legacy and it's like...but she had to have at least SOME responsibility #and yeah eventually it's like okay no it's not just that steve wouldn't Do That it's also that they would've been a terrible couple #and not only would he not be so selfish but he wouldn't give up everything for HER lmao but he would've for bucky as was shown over and ove

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dragons-and-yellow-roses · 6 months

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So I'm an area director at a summer camp, but yesterday my boss called me and asked if I'd be down to be the director of two areas and I said yes without thinking about the consequences. So now I'm the director of two areas? That means two groups of staff to train and lead, two sets of lesson plans, two areas to teach at and make the schedule for and make the lesson plans for, two physical areas to set up. They're right next to each other, but this is going to be fucking insane

#the reason this is happening is because we dont have a dining hall director anymore because the first decided to take summer classes #and the second got a research position. so the director of the area that my area is right next to. volunteered to switch #so the camp director called me yesterday and was like 'this is all happening would you want to take on another area?'#so i would be director of both. with kind of a concentration in the new one. while my assistant director concentrates on the first one #but id still have to lead both staffs. teach at both. be available to both. do records for both. set up both #i start thinking about it and i always realize another thing thats gonna be weird about it #but on the bright side ive decided i cant do the 5 mile hike requirement for my old area #every thursday we do a five mile hike for our class because its for requirements. and i hate it cuz its hard lol #but i realized that it wouldnt really work out for me to be across the lake with one area and leave the other area directorless #so guess i cant do that! oh nooo /s #but i have to make two teaching schedules.whoch i started last night #i have to both teach a suitable amount in both areas but also have enough free time to be flexible and available for both #i am so tired already. and i just got this news yesterday #i was up until 5am because i was planning shit and then i layed awake anxious for another hour #also i watched the disruptors which admittedly got me to stay up pretty late too. the grant obrien and ally Beardsley movie #its very good. but mostly i stayed up late because i was trying to figure out being the director of two areas #i think about it for two seconds and i realize another reason itll be super hard. i have to introduce two staffs at the campfire #i have to talk about two areas at the leaders meeting. i have to learn a whole bundle of new merit badges #im so tired

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maddy-ferguson · 11 months

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failed my driving test twice, no actual friends in college, applied to a cool thing and was rejected, no bitches...thank god i'm seeing goodfellas in theaters in a few days because what do i have going for me rn

#the only ones who understand me are cher horowitz and pacey witter. and pacey got his driver's license later (i don't remember but #like i'm sure he did lmao) we don't know if that'll ever happen to me #what's annoying is i still don't think i'm a bad driver. delusions of grandeur maybe. but like yes for like 30mn after i failed the second #time i cried like while walking to the bus stop (i only saw like three people because YEAH it takes like an hour for me to go to the place #where you take the test like it's so annoying i have to take 2-3 different buses AND THEN i don't even have it. plus the money...) and #i was like you are the dumbest bitch ever but it's not because i don't feel capable it's because i DO and i make dumb avoidable mistakes #like it's just very frustrating #talked about the no friends at school thing like a month ago. we were together on wednesday and it's actually not as bad as it felt the day #i posted that but i don't hang out with them outside of school and don't want to is my point. they're like acquaintances that i'm not sure #i like #the thing i applied to i really wanted after i failed my test i was like i need ONE GOOD THING to happen to me this month and then i was #like no i can't post that because what if i don't get it. well #no bitches is self-explanatory #and goodfellas in theaters is real remember when it was already playing earlier this year but there was only one showing and i couldn't go #and i was so annoyed. there's three this time and i could even go to all three if i wanted to. one scorsese movie every monday at 1 from #now on for me please #and like i say: brf slt

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shigussy · 4 months

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the amount of pedo youtubers i watched growing up was insane but its actually really worrying that i had crushes on most of them and im so so thankful that my interest in most of them disappeared before they got exposed bc i would've lost my mind which did happen once with miniladd

#also i literally met one #i met bryanstars when i was 14 i also met some other members of mde and damon fizzy but LORD #i also talked to him online before that as well publicly and privately and im so glad nothing bad happened in those messages bc i was #already having such a shitty time as a teen and i would've been pushed over the edge #im not bring this up outta nowhere i saw a video about this general topic on tiktok and didnt wanna leave an essay in the comments but #needed to rant #also i was actually so pissed off about miniladd liking miniladds i was obsessed with his videos in hs and i took it as a personal betrayal #i was always watching vanoss and his friends videos growing up so i had spent so long watching him not the longest ive ever watched a #youtuber(that goes to phillip lester who i found on complete accident when i was literally 5/6)#i did get groomed by a few older men online tho i Was of the kik generation #one of them was my bsfs bf who was a junior when we were freshman who would message me that he had a secret gf that didnt want to go public #he also would threaten to kill himself if i took too long answering him back so i was on my phone 24/7 basically and was stressed out so bad #combined with transphobic and homophobic bullying at school caused me to have a public meltdown in the class that held all my bullies and #had to convince my parents to enrole me in homeschooling after which ultimately also fucked up my relationship with 1st gf who was also #manipulating me at the time and also trying get me to make out with her while we cosplayed as levi and eren from aot #which i was uncomfortable with considering i wasnt an aot fan and also was aware of the age difference #i did get back with her after this and she did break up with me again after and i probably would've gotten back with her a 3rd time but #i never saw her message asking to talk again bc she messaged my old fb after my bsf made it an advertisement for the bee movie #i don't believe in a higher power but something was definitely protecting me bc i didn't see that message until TWO YEARS LATER #this went in so many directions #im tired #tw pedophila mention #pedophillia mention #pedophillia tw #suicide tw

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immamapletreekid · 4 months

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one of my favourites from the hq movie? kuroos laugh and the way u see how hes laughing with his entire body his entire being his entire soul

#uuurugufhdhdjfk kuroo tetsurou the man that you are...#the haikyuu movie experience is crying screaming and laughing and lovijg the entire thing while also mourning all the scenes that didnt mak #the cut into the movie... imagining what we couldve gotten with an entire season...#IVE SEEN SO MANY POSTS ABOUT IT ALREADY BUT STILL THE NUKBER OF KAGEYAMA SCENES THAT DIDNT MAKE IT.!!!!!.!!! ;0;#no flashbacks of young old coaches.....#NOYA FOOT SAVE!??@?!?!??!?!!! GONE NOWHERE TO BE FOUND WHYY ;;O;;;;;;#yaku spotlight from ch319 ...#MOURNING THE ENTIRETY OF CH 326 ALL THR FUKURODANI SCENES #BOKUTO HINATA SCENE!!!!!!!!#i wanted to see...bokuto kuroo hug... i wanted to see their hug so so bad...#I WANTED TO SEE HIM HUG KUROO AND KAI AND FISTBUMP YAKU SO SO SO BAD #also feel like alot of te funny little quips and commentary from the audience was erased...? dont have the time to go back and check #everything yet but...yea #when the movie releases online i will be insufferable #THE ENTIRE 'YAKU MORISUKE IS A MAN WHO CAN KILL A SPIKER WITHOIT EVEN TOUCHING TJE BALL'#I WAS WAITING FOR THAT SCENE IN PARTICULAR AND IT ENEVR CAME DFFJHAJDOFJEJDOCDJKWK #haikyuu movie is so dear to me i love it so so fuckijg much i am also despairing over all that we lost #rambling about stuff

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patronsaintofposmodernity · 4 months

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nothing makes me feel quite as behind and childish and juvenile as meeting from time to time with my college friends and it's. so embarrassing

#all of them are working in our field and have been for years all of them have very stable life partners most of them are already living on #their own at least two of them are considering getting married soon #and i. still live at my parents' house my only job is anecdotal and very much not what i studied for im still living a student's life i #barely have any money of my own to spend bc my job is little more than a hobby and ive never had a proper romantic relationship like that #idk im very happy with my life rn but it always makes me feel like im struggling to catch up with them and it's exhausting #they all have very Adult™ lives and i still feel like im eighteen some days #my point is that in these last ten years my life hasn't changed much while all of them have gone through their coming of age movie arc and #the embarrassment it comes from still feeling like a teenager girl compared to them is both off the charts and genuinely hurtful #and the thing is that they are so nice and we like each other so much that i don't want to stop having them in my life so i guess I'll have #to continue like this for god knows hwo long #zai.ez

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doubleedgemode · 4 months

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There's a post that explains it way better than I do but. I'm currently thimking about A.B.As frankenstein influence

Aside from the obvious "concept art refs frankenstein by name, so one could assume the head key worked as her electrodes/bolts" I don't see many people mention how her strive boots are black platforms a la creature's movie depiction's (roadworker if I'm not mistaken?? I probably am) boots. Also yknow they have lil bolts

#one of my funny unserious theories: while we only see a little bit of frasco I assume it's quite big. idk it's a mansion lab.#so there were a lot of keys #for its many rooms #WHICH think abt it seems to be kinda implief since aba had a key collection even before meeting para #one could argue she took em in her lil escapades but we don't know how long they could be (cause she couldn't go too far n frasco was prob #isolated since it was in the mountains imo. maybe there couldve been a nearby mountain village but still imo it was prob kinda hidden)#SO my goofy theory is that the creator was. wait. we can be pragmatic. we have some big keys here. those could work as electrodes yup #though it'd be interesting if they also had a key obsession fsr mirroring hers #'if it was already a normal key why did it have a skull design“ this is gg so I choose to believe frascos interior design even before getti #thrashed by the military already had a creepy monstery vibe. the creator played into thst I think cause come on.#frascos caged monsters were either made by the creator or.. aba herself #guh I'm procrastinating #worth noticing that while all of abas franken-refs are based off the movie version (which makes sense. it's the more iconic afterall!)#did u know book creatures skin was transparent. That's right. I can tie that into my 'slightly transparent skin aba“ n not look absurd lmao #look I don't even feel that strongly abt that hc I just think it's cool and adds to her vibes hence I tend to discuss it. sorry #a.b.a #text tag2b named #I rly need to read the frankenstein novel sometime...#I feel it'd be up my alley of empathizing with 'seen as offputting and shunned artificial mimicries of humans that can be oh so tragic“#edit: fuuuck I forgot ggworld confirms it's a key-shaped screw not a straight up key. but still my silly theory can work 'okay guys we need #a big chunk of metal to make a screw for my homunculus OH WE CAN RECYCLE OUR BIG KEY“#frankentag2b named

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indygotcha · 5 months

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After long observation, this is all I can think with how much Disney fumbled Magnifico and what we really ended up getting

#wish 2023 #king magnifico #dhaos #tales of phantasia #tales of #wish spoilers #PLEASE don't take this LITERALLY btw phantasia/dhaos-fans - it's the “tragic villain”-angle magnifico ended with ACCIDENTALLY #because Disney has lost their way of committing to a sincerely evil villain for real since eons ago apparently #had to make him do some weird 180 on his personality after consulting an evil book + a very tonally confusing villain song...#like #this benevolent and frankly wise king had to painstakingly rule a kingdom for eons while knowing how greedy and unknowing people can get -#regarding what they wish for VS what they truly might need - or some possibly having bad wishes/desires (which Wish hardly acknowledges)#And all of this is due him lost his family when young which motivated him to learn sorcery to build a kingdom so none could go through same #sorry but that's massive dhaos-vibes to me man #yet he's eventually driven to villainous breakdown due getting sick of people always wanting more from him #and clearly being traumatised by what happened to him in past and anxious for the kingdom he built so long to protect people from that #but Wish just has to paint his as “bad” and hold Asha's more lacking ethics on wish-granting as “right”? Is that a right message to send?#eventually he's ovethrown to gay-baby-jail mirror for rest of eternity by these very people and his wife (patented disney girlboss moment)#and possibly watch his long-preserved kingdom be destroyed by a wide-eyed wish-granter without any understanding of grey morality...#yeaaahhhh #I think Magnifico would eventually come to be a full-blown misandry and say that wickedness truly lurks in the hearts of men :7c #all I'm saying is #magnifico just feels like more like tragic villain in flavour of dhaos the more I think about the “treatment” he went through in the movie.#IDK should disney have committed on that because we already had enough poor twist villains or sympathetic ones as #but the way magnifico was marketed/hyped up as VS what we got just made me think Disney hasn't still got it and ended writing a tragic one

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finexbright · 5 months

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#i haven't really participated in any discourse as of late but watching that movie kinda made me think about dwd and mp #like. we know the holivia mess was such a shit show and i know that they wanted to make it look like they met on set or whatever #but i think that that stunt was in the works way before the movie deal even happened #we know that harry was seen with the mp novel in 2019. which isn't out of the norm for him because he has previously owned art by queer #artists. so in that moment of time it passed by easily. however now that we know that harry literally read that novel letter to letter and #convinced the director/producer that he would be best for the role it means that he's wanted to be part of it since 2019 itself #knowing that i think his team was already on the lookout for a role for him where he could play the straightest man possible to cover up his #role in mp. dwd was also in the talks for quite some time before that given that the script #was out in 2019 and olivia acquired it in the same year too. while yes shia was originally cast for it and we all know how that ended #but i'm just thinking about how mp started in 2019 too and dwd started around the same time his team was definitely aware of it #and it aligned perfectly that shia fell out of the movie and harry got the role and olivia got the contract of her lifetime #like. i don't think that harry organically got the role and then the stunt happened. i think harry getting the movie was FOR the stunt to #happen so that it could overlap his role in mp #i fully think the contract was ''you get an actor and a public boyfriend and we get a beard and a public straight narrative''#so like tldr version : harry wanted mp badly enough that his team found the most straight role for him and saddled him with a beard to cover #up his role in mp. and it worked too because his scenes in dwd blew up and people still thirst over that #even though mp got way more success than dwd did #which is also why they were pushing so hard for it to be a theatre release first and then onto streaming unlike mp which went to streaming #straightaway. apart from the select few theatre releases they did #and also like. so many actors who have played queer roles in media get asked about their sexuality repeatedly. like kit connor #or nicholas galitzine to the point where it becomes an obsessive need for the public to know about it #and by doing this harry doesn't get asked about it explicitly (maybe he has them banned idk) and still gets to do whatever he wants however #he wants. okay byeeeee #my policeman #don't worry darling

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cuteniaarts · 6 months

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Fanny, my sweet, beautiful girl

17.11.2012 – 14.04.2019

#my art #artists on tumblr #I cannot accept that it has been 5 years already #I know covid messed with everyone’s sense of time but it simultaneously feels so much longer and so much shorter than that #exactly five years ago I was holding onto my mom for dear life and sobbing as we watched lilo and stitch together #not the best movie to watch when you’ve just lost your first ever pet you know #and then I cried myself to sleep at the next morning we never mentioned her again #I know it’s because it was way too painful for everyone involved. but I do wish I was allowed to process that grief properly #instead of bottling it up and pretending everything was okay until I was reminded of her #feeling like my heart was being shattered over and over again every single time #well anyway. enough of that. I’ve allowed myself a nice long cry today and got most of it out of my system #and once I was feeling okay I decided to draw her #and I can count the number of times I’ve drawn animals on one hand so.. I’m not too sure about the result #but it felt like to commemorate her in some way.#so yeah. here she is. my dear girl. the best dog in existence. she was always so affectionate and kind #which I didn’t always appreciate bc of how young I was. when you’re a kid it feels like pets will live forever #never barked. never bit anyone. her only crime was chewing on my mlp and lps toys that I left out on the floor #but I’m grateful she did that. it taught me not to leave my toys lying around and to clean up after myself #she really was taken from me way too soon. ideally she could still be alive right now. but I’ve been down the road of guilt and regret #there was nothing I could do. I was a child. I can only hope that she knew she was loved right until the very end #even if I didn’t know how to show it properly. and great. now I’m tearing up again #I suppose it’s unavoidable. April 12th will always be a melancholy day. and maybe that’s not such a bad thing #it’s good to have a day when I can freely remember her and cry if I need to. it’s healthy. it’s better than crying every day #she never liked it much when I cried. always tried to comfort me. that’s the kind of dog she was. I miss her so much #when I move apartments and get a dog of my own I’m getting a spaniel. just like she was #well. maybe a different colour so I don’t end up sobbing every time I look at it. but spaniels really are the perfect breed #I mean. cavaliers especially were bred for love and warmth. that’s just what I need. it will be nice to have someone waiting for me at home #and while I don’t necessarily believe in the afterlife… I do hope that Fanny’s watching over me #spiritually comforting me when I feel all alone in the world. it’s a nice thought for sure #and hopefully she won’t mind me getting another spaniel too much. it will be done in her honour after all. to make up for my past mistakes

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googlein1942 · 1 year

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ive been so into rdr2 lately and i keep thinking about public nations verse where people making historical games/movies/shows/etc. consult nation people on historical tidbits and accuracy and whatnot, so queue Alfred “Favorite era of the US was the wild wild west” Jones finding his way to rockstar studios to help them out with the game accuracy/go on about whacky people he met during those days while the studio is just like write that down write that down

#sort of long post #my brain rot knows no bounds #also imagining alfred wanting to simp after arthur morgan so bad but hes like i cant i cant he has the same name as the guy who raised me #hes like trying to convince the studio to change the name and shit lmaoo #also a while back someone made posts about a post-reveal nations verse where tv studios would make like historical docs about the nations #(loved these posts so much)#and i think it would be interesting if nations got introduced to the whole thing with bc helping with games/tv/movies not about them #and then when some studio comes up and is like hey we wanna make a show about you guys #theyre like yeah fine cus we already help out with other stuff and maybe know the people we’d be working with on this #oh and they show up for like nonsensical things. historical plays. settup for local historical festival. historical parodies. you name it #i just love the whole nations being in the spotlight idea #and i have to take number 1 blorbo alfred f jones and spin him in my head like a microwave at all times bo matter what #also very obsessed with red dead rn im doing a 100% completion (story and compendium) run for my now 3rd play through #also i need to sleep 😣#hws america #public nations #hws #hetalia headcanons #and yes that IS what the F stands for no complaints

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garyfischy · 11 months

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the ai art discourse is so fucking stupid man (remembers like half my friends go to art school) (clamps a hand over my mouth)

#i rlly cant see it as anything but a moral panic. ive read panicked editorials panning the use of computers in art #if it causes mass layoffs while simultaneously making every movie look like shit (have you SEEN THAT FUCKING AI GENERATED MARVEL MOVIE OUTR #then thats capitalism treating artists like it always has #im also not disabled but seeing people go “why can't you just draw using a pencil in your mouth instead of STEALING!!!!!!!”#is arguably more ableist than saying “hey lol lets see what disabled people can make with an image scraper”#ai is going to be regulated through god knows how much legal discourse. But if the act of “scraping other peoples art with an computer” its #Lf becomes illegal? Say goodbye to popart and superflat. Adobe is already lobbying for stricter copyright #im mainly concerned abt the layoffs soon to arise from this but why be morally opposed to ai itself as a tool? It's not going away #we need stronger emphasis on unions and ending harsh layoffs of artists and crunch #idk whats going to happen #i jist dont want stricter copyright thats the death of art #not a vague abt any of my followers #fish talks

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