#which isnt necessarily a bad thing- but it is a thing to be aware of

[kaibump]

I dunno man between all these 'have you watched' 'have you read' 'do you know this character' type of poll accounts it really seems like people under a certain age bracket straight up barely consume a lot of media or bother to watch anything older than current seasonal fodder and it's kind of sad tbh

[honeytonedhottie]

how to stop being toxic⋆.ೃ࿔*:･⭐️

the point of this post in general is a reminder to be self aware so that then u can become an individual that u are proud of ✨

SELF AWARENESS ;

everyone has traits in themselves that they aren't necessarily proud of and thats okay. its only natural bcuz we are humans. whats important is that u are able to acknowledge it and work on it.

toxic traits and behaviors stem from things like our own insecurities, conditioning, our egos and a multitude of other things. when we aren't toxic we free ourselves up for better people and experiences.

SELF ASSESSMENT ACTIVITY ;

do some shadow work, dig deeper and do some journalling to rly assess some of ur personality traits whether u classify them as a negative or a positive trait. some examples of traits include

having trouble taking accountability (shifting blame)

once you've classified that trait, write a sentence that explains why that particular trait is/isnt toxic. so for this particular trait ur sentence could look something like

trouble with taking accountability for myself and my actions is a toxic trait because it displays my inability to be responsible for myself/admit fault. this can jeopardize relationships and opportunities for me, it can also hinder my growth as an individual.

just because you notice toxic behaviors within yourself, it doesn't mean that u are a bad person. in fact, since u can acknowledge it and wanna improve it, that shows that u are a good person.

HOW TO ACTUALLY STOP ;

look for the source of toxic behaviors that u display. some ways that can help u to identify what makes u act in that way is by seeing a therapist who can help u to dissect and understand urself, intentional journalling etc.

when u find urself in situations in which u think that ur being toxic, u can practice mindfulness and nip it in the bud. the more that u practice doing this the easier and more natural it'll feel.

be a good listener

show urself compassion

start journalling/going to therapy

listen to feedback

listen to feedback from others from an impartial view. dont take criticism or negative feedback personally. take the feedback that u get and apply it cuz thats one of the many ways u can grow.

[possumteeths]

One thing about veilguard that bums me out is that this is the very first bioware game that I dont feel any desire to play again. All of the decisions made in the game either dont matter or are made for you so there’s no wondering like “what wouldve happened if I did this instead of that?” There’s so many moments in the game where it felt as if I should really debate what option to pick, only to realize through playing more that decisions really don’t matter. So all decisions made in later stages of the game just kinda feel meaningless.

Everything is set up so one dimensionally that the replay value is unfortunately very low. Theres very few ways to play things differently. I was incredibly disappointed that you do not have the option to kill Lucanis’s shitty cousin. You dont even get any option at ALL over what to do with him. It doesnt matter what you do with the bald warden dude, it doesnt matter whether or not you chose to kill that rando mayor… and the list goes on.

I used replay bioware games just to get different DIALOGUE! This game had very little in terms of meaningful dialogue! Much of the dialogue between characters feels so flat or unrelated to the plot. Character conflict is extremely forced so replaying the game wouldn’t necessarily give you anything new to chew on. Its frustrating that Rook is designated as the group’s therapist, but is often completely sidelined by everyone and everything going on! I romanced Lucanis and he still was hella flirting with Neve which made the romance route feel like a complete afterthought.

Approval ratings dont matter at all, theres genuinely nothing that changes besides your own insight to the different characters worldviews. If someone disliked something, you dont get different dialogue or attitude or nuffin! What does hardening even do in DAV? Neve or Lucanis being hardened has no impact on anything at all besides some rando skill buffs. I thought maybe Harding or Davrin’s endgame sacrifice wouldve meant something more if you had some way of hardening them.

It felt just kind of random to kill off one of your companions in the endgame. Especially when you’ve played through the entire game making choices that were ultimately meaningless. The choice of who dies in the endgame feels just as meaningless as everything else because you the player have spent the entire game realizing that approval ratings dont matter, plot choices dont matter, characterization choices dont matter etc. So if they want to do something as heavy hitting as killing off a main character, wouldnt it have made more sense to build it up in a way that there would be SOME emotional impact? If you were able to harden Davrin or Harding, then killing them wouldve hit harder dang it! Killing off characters feels just cheap when youre overly aware that nothing matters.

No matter your choices in this game, its still going to play the exact same every time with very little deviation. Its almost like playing a telltale game or something. The plot is pathed out for you, your choices are superfluous, your romance options are as noteworthy as skyrim’s “put on a necklace, okie doke now you’re married.”

The game itself isnt bad, but it reminds me of a mass market paperback book. The kinds that come out monthly. You know exactly what the plot is gonna be, you know there’s gonna be a cast of characters, you know theres gonna be bad guys and good guys.., and then you finish the book thinking “Yup that was ok!” Then you shelve it and never look at it again because its one amongst 17492820102 others in the genre. To use another metaphor, this game is buttered toast, it feels like something youve had before, its familiar, it tastes good… but thats it. Its just bread and butter, and theres no sense dressing it up or toasting the bread more or less because at the end of the day… its still toast.

[lifes-line]

another digital circus post dont mind me-

Just an overview for myself and others - but here is both proof for and against the idea that jax might be the NPC hidden amongst the group organized by each ep we have so far

JAX IS AN NPC:

Ep1

Jax supposedly knows Kinger has been here the longest, either he was told this or he is all knowing, same reason goes for why he says "We've been trapped here for years" how does he know how long its been?

This one is such a reach but Caine says he doesnt have control over ppls minds here and earlier Jax mentions having an adventure for the newbie, while this could be jax fucking around it is plausible he and caine have influence on eachother's ideas when it comes to the humans of this world

pt1 of Jax breaking the forth wall and no one understanding what hes looking at ("She still thinks this is a dream")

"Ow" Jax getting hurt by the gloinks. Aren't their senses cut off for the most part? How come he got hurt?

"I got a key to his room" "You shouldn't have a key to anyone's room!" Jax somehow has keys everywhere with no explicit hiding spot and simply pulls this key out of thin air randomly

Jax breaks the "Spare" sign idk if this is reaching too far but thats weird

Jax seems to be the only one who gets hungry

Ep 2

Jax is the only one who acknowledges a new ai

another fourth wall break

Once again Jax grabs something out of thin air or magically has it without it being handed to him

Can is both unaffected(Mostly) by the fidgeting car and also able to defy gravity?

But Jax is also pretty good at convincing the npcs of things while also yapping with them

Caine mentions if he loses track of whose a human and whose an npc he doesnt know what could happen, but gumigoo's temporary presence in the circus affects nothing so far

WE COULD SEE ANOTHER JAX???

Ep 3

Jax breaks forthwall

wants to see what everyone can do

Doesnt share what he does when he holds his breath

Pulls a shotgun out of nowhere again

impecable memory for what everyone can do?

kills the ghost-

JAX IS NOT AN NPC

Ep 1

Jax says "Just keep pulling on it, that worked for all of us" when Pomni tries to remove this digital headset. This is proof against because unless he is all knowing like ai tends to be in this world he wouldnt know what shes doing unless hes experienced it himself

"Kinger has spposedly been here the longest" Someone had to of told him this, this necessarily doesnt prove he isnt ai but yknow,,

"If there was an exit I'm pretty sure we'd all have left by now" implying he can leave

Caine likes to reuse npcs, we would see another jax

Ep 2

Caine is testing out a new ai which seemingly made gumigoo self aware, if this is brand new it is unlikely there is a self aware npc in the midst

jax seems to have driven a car before

Jax is NOT in the npcs list

Jax knows modern references like his movie ref

Jax has the fascination of harming npcs like a teenage gamer

Jax seemed genuinely upset over someone's abstraction

Ep 3

"We cant die"

deadass tied up for most of the adventure

"Zooble turns straight"

"Her and everyone else" in ref to pomni having a few bad days

"Dont ever quote brainrot again"

[stevie-petey]

Please never stop blabbing I love everything you have to say, I eat it up Everytime❤️❤️

Would you expand on how bug and Jonathan's relationship has changed? Is Jonathan aware of the tension between Nancy and bug? I know Steve is somewhat aware of it since he was with bug when Nancy and her " fought" on the phone ( even though their fight was pretty one sided) how does Jonathan feel about it if he is aware?

Does Joyce know everything that's happened? Does Jonathan ever confide with his mother about what's happened? Surely there would be rumors and gossip that's hard to escape in a small town. (Hopper would secretly be intevested in the " drama" he's one of those dad's that will stand by the TV and watch but " isn't interested" in it)

I wonder if or how Nancy and bug will become friends in the future considering everything that is about to happen. ( which I have a feeling I might know something but that's for another time) I really feel like they won't interact much more than what's required, too many feelings and things unsaid between them. Does Nancy want to be friends with bug? Or is her guilt too much and she'd rather keep her distance? How would you describe Nancy's feelings for bug in season three? I know that Nancy is just uncomfortable around bug and uncomfortable with the history between bug and Jonathan. Does bug ever get uncomfortable around Nancy in the same way? ( She will in season four 👀)

finally have some time to answer this ask and theres a LOT i wanna discuss, so lets dive right in <333

bug and jon havent changed too much, but now theres a boundary between them. hes with nancy, bug is basically with steve. the romantic tension has slipped away, they now more so hang out together without the touching (in season 1 bug would practically sit in jons lap whenever she could), they arent as necessarily lovey dovey, but theyre still the best of friends. this will never ever change, hes her person and shes his.

as of right now, jon isnt aware of the tension between nancy and bug. up until nancys fight with bug, the girls were actually very friendly !! they had a nice acquaintanceship, think a person youre friends with when youre at school but never hang out outside of class. thats them rn. so jon assumes theyre still pretty good, but it would crush him to find out that hes caused them to fight :(

joyce ,,, she knows. she knows whats happened between bug and jon. shes always known, even before jon admitted his crush on her, and shes always wished things had ended differently. bug is the daughter she never had, she’s done so much for the family, and joyce wishes her son wasnt such an idiot. theres a scene in my head from season 1 where after jon yells at bug that night, joyce berates him the next day and defends bug. i have a very heartfelt scene planned between joyce and bug in the final chapter that makes me </3

and finally nancy DOES want to be bugs friend, and vice versa. both girls admire the other so damn much, and we see this throughout the seasons. hell, nancy even got bug a gift basket at the end of season 2 to try and settle the tension that hangs over them, but it will always be there. however, this tension was never necessarily a bad thing until season 3. nancys feelings towards bug were all good, she likes her and wants to adopt the kindness she has, but when she finds out that bug already knows about nancys fight with jon, it strikes a chord in her. one: nancy is prideful, she resents that jon went to bug and aired their business. two: jon didnt seek out NANCY to talk about his feelings.

this last part is reaaaaally the important part. up until now, nancy has never had to really feel any resentment towards bug once she got with jon. bug being his best friend didnt interfere with nancys relationship with him until the fight happens, and its jarring. nancy thought she was ok with not really understanding jon how bug does, but to see it ? to feel that weight of the history between two people you will never understand ? its devastating. it leaves you feeling raw and second best. it hurts, but it isnt anyones fault whatsoever. jonathan went to his best friend for relationship advice, same as nancy was doing with bug, but the history behind jon and bug tarnishes the sincerity :(

season 4 i have plans for nance and bug (due to steve and jon) that im soooo ready to reveal <333 it will all come together, but ultimately these girls are friends and care about one another, theres just such a complex history behind them both that makes everything difficult

[millenari]

And for you!

🧵✍️🐾, please?

🧵 fav production!

My two biggest of favs are 1998 and the Vienna Revival. I've listened to the Vienna Revival cast recording so many times that there are moments that, when I listen to English productions, I'll get confused for a moment because I'm expecting them to speak in German. And 98 is of course a classic. 😙👌

✍️ changes to my own production!

alonzo shadow dance

boys participate in Macavity backup dance

more swing/kitten characters (also why are all the swings kittens? older female swings would be nice)

taking a page from the bway revival: longer pas de deux (but not necessarily their pas de deux, just a longer one), platoria in tugger's song, & the new macavity fight (tho I'd love if it were longer)

pekes goes to munk in act 1, no growltiger, i think I'd keep the 'hurry, make ready, remember what I told you!' line of munk's from later London Pekes

smaller theater. I think one of the big things with pac cats is the small, intimate stage that they use. obviously i wouldnt use a catwalk, but something smaller where 'audience interaction' isnt limited to only the audience members in the first few rows (and people all the way up on the balcony can barely tell all 20-30 of the characters apart).

speaking of pac cats, canon tuggoff [insert fire elmo meme here]

m/m and f/f pairs in the mating dance

jenny tap battle

restore bway-style tumble with the fighty personality. london-style pounce and tumble always seem to be the same exact character tbh

dare i say it (i shall) (i shant) (i shall) I might cut Naming Of Cats.

Idk how that would work bc I'd want to keep the 'man who's not heard of a jellicle cat' section. maybe I'd just cut the song down a bunch. I feel like that number sets audiences up to be confused bc it just throws a bunch of information that's technically not relevant at them before they even learn the plot of the show. idk, maybe go straight from 'man who's not heard' to the Introduction, but then I'm not sure where Victoria's solo would go. I'd have to think about it. The fact that Cats 2019 kept it still baffles me, as much as it's a fun song that sets the vibes it does little in terms of storytelling.

TSE: Cats call each other secret names that humans don't know. also TSE: "All the guards and all the porters / And the stationmaster's daughters / Would be searching high and low / Saying "Skimble, where is Skimble?"

🐾 how did I discover Cats!

i cant remember the exact timeline of which came first, but i remember around 2019 i started getting recommendations on youtube for cats videos (i listened to a lot of musical theater songs at the time) and i kind of eyeballed them, but never played them. Then I got (of all songs) Pekes put on one of my playlists, and I just remember minding my own business and drawing (or working or whatever), and I hear what sounds like, 'FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!FUCK! FUCK! FUCK! FUCK!'. I go 'what the hell', change tabs, and discover that I'm listening to british catpeople say 'bark'. I thought it was the ugliest song I'd ever heard (lol and now i love it) and put on something else, but other Cats songs creeped in after that one, and I eventually sat down and watched the whole thing on youtube.

And either briefly before or right after this, the trailers for Cats 2019 dropped; at the time I hadn't thought it was bad enough to earn all the mockery, but my awareness of Cats was small (I imagine actually this was after I'd heard Pekes but before I'd watched the rest of the show, come to think of it)

And for a few months I was mostly 'whatever, fun songs', about Cats, but then I just got randomly back into it and the hyperfixation stayed. I think it mightve been 2021 by then? But yeah, it was mostly the youtube algorithm that got me.

[russell-crowe]

what's a russell crowe movie that isnt necessarily good? maybe even bad! that you would recommend anyways?

tumblr user @losthavenmine has done some fierce virtuosity (1995) propaganda, so i am inclined to name that one first. it's a fun movie that was in some ways a bit ahead of its time, but in other ways it is also painfully stuck in the mid 90s. russell plays an AI that is fed all information about Every Single Awful Person In History and he is this chihuahua on crack (not my words) super villain figure opposite denzel washington.

also, that is the movie that features twink russell in all his glory!!

and i suppose the "not necessarily good" category also leaves room for movies that have anything between 6 and 7 as a rating on imdb. so in that case i'd highly recommend mystery alaska (1999) (LOTS of fun, one of my faves actually!! even if it's not good, it's got heart in it) and for the moment (1993) (he's soooooo hot in it, despite being Baby). if you want something more modern era, i'd probably go for robin hood (2010). i feel like that movie is the perfect embodiment of "not necessarily good, a bit bad, still a lot of fun". it helps that the people who work alongside robin in the movie, are russell his irl friends, so i just find it a fun movie to watch. <3 there's some things about it i don't like (russell crash dieting bc of the commentary that he was "too old" for the role) (kinda loses some of the charm) (it's a 'prequel' to the robin hood we know, which is a choice) but it also has things i DO like!! russell mentions being aware at the time that it would probably be his last time on such a large set like that, and in the end he (sadly) was right. thanks so much for this question! <3 i was reading this during a meeting and i got all giddy!!

[jackiesarch]

— ocs as literary archetypes

tagged by my beloved @corvosattano @cptcassian @leviiackrman @roofgeese @jendoe @adelaidedrubman @chuckhansen @shellibisshe and @nightbloodraelle to take this uquiz to read some kids for filth, and well. yeah.

tagging @queennymeria @confidentandgood @loriane-elmuerto @unholymilf @florbelles @risingsh0t @marivenah and anyone else who wants to play!

— THE INNOCENT

this doesn't necessarily mean you're childish or naive! i think you're more of a hopeful person, maybe even a bit of an idealist. you might be the one who always looks for a silver lining, or tries their best to comfort and cheer other people up when they feel like shit. dont get stuck in a happy personality though, you're allowed to feel other things besides constant

— THE JESTER

i can guarantee you've said "the trauma made me funny" at least once. out of all the archetypes, you're the easiest to read. your emotions, thoughts, and feelings are so obvious to see, but somehow no one sees it, right? you're too independent for your own good. you have a tendency to overshare or vent unwittingly, but you always backtrack and cover it up with some kind of flimsy excuse or joke. you want someone to see that you are hurting too, but that can't happen until you stop brushing everything off and letting yourself feel it. but you're probably scared of being vulnerable, aren't you?

— THE HERO

i think you're pretty stubborn, which isnt always a bad thing. you probably tend to attach your value to your ability to help out; you feel worthless if you're not of use. you cant be strong all the time

— THE REBEL

you were probably made painfully aware of the reality of the world at an early age. this might have left you a bit jaded, but it mostly has made you angry. why do things have to be this way? is there really no way to change things, or are people just afraid to do so? you’re very stubborn and determined, sometimes too stubborn for your own good. don’t forget that your way isn’t the only way, be open to discussion. your heart’s in the right place though, and i admire your spirit. the world always needs more people like you, that’s how the course of history keeps on rolling. remember, even small changes can do so much for the lives of others.

— THE MAGICIAN

well, aren’t you detached from reality. i dont mean in a delusional sense, i mean you purposefully distance yourself from everything and everyone. you have people you're close to, of course, but they're always kept at arms length. you're incredibly driven though, achieving your goals is extremely important to you. you feel trapped in the life you have now, it's not enough for you. you need more, always more. you are so hungry, and if you’re not careful, you’ll only end up consuming yourself.

[idealspawn]

so the guy im seeing came back from his trip. we met up yesterday. he told me we should stay friends. i guess its okay its just a bit weird. its funny bc i felt so bad about not liking him as much as he seems to like me. so i literally like. trained myself to get used to being real vulnerable w him. and meanwhile he, unknowingly to me, trained himself to get used to the idea of not having me present in his life the same way as i was up until now. its not too bad because it felt weirdly forced to me too at times but its like. i tend to push through that. i think of feelings like waves. i know theyre sometimes still there even when im disconnected to them. not that its like that for everyone but i dont think i believe in like soulmates for a while already. like i dont think youre supposed to feel crazy attraction right away and click right away and be comfortable w everything RIGHT away. that if sth feels wrong it might be that the situation is wrong not the persin as a whole. it just bothers be that he wasnt fully honest from the get-go. like that he said all was well when it wasnt. for me, being truly aware of eachother's raw perspectives is the thing that helps me move on, not trying to save me from hurt by withholding details bc my gut still tells me sth is off despite what he says directly, you know. he said he met up w his ex right before his trip and realized that neither me or his ex is what he wants. and that he shouldve started the convo w that but he was embarrassed. and that he feels like an idiot bc of that. he also kept repeating that he is really uncomfortable w talking abt emotions, that it will send him into a crisis. but if he wont talk abt them... i will go spiralling.. you know.. noone fucking wins. and he said he knows that so he did talk abt his emotions in a way after all after i fried him w questions to tell me abt things. i guess its maybe.. um.. good that he isnt my love interest anymore bc i really need someone who is okay with emotions, like really okay. i asked him to tell me wtf am i supposed to do now bc he has had all this time to think abt it but i havent. he is pretty self-aware. he said he knows it was a dick move to lead me on like that. but i guess i knew his approach to his past relationships so i cant blame him necessarily. its just that i used to be like him, thinking that a moment of disconnection ALWAYS meant that the feelings arent there anymore. which they sometimes arent but also a lot of the times its just a question of the perspective you look at relationships and feelings from. so i assumed he maybe too has changed bc i have changed and you know when i talk abt my past then i talk abt it.. as the past.. idk.. he also will move to brussels in not too long which is a weird ass turn of events. i guess its good he said it now as summer still lasts, i have time to adjust. its just that i literally planned him in my fucking plans already. nothing insane but i kind of assumed he would be in my life for a while more. though he still will be in my life because we will stay friends and stuff but i cant do it the same. like i cant give him as much time of my week. well i can but that wouldnt be us being friends.

[coldresolve]

I’ve never understood why torture not being justifiable or effective is at all hard for people to understand. Hurting people doesn’t “achieve” anything except…hurting people. And that’s really the reason people do it, not for the sake of anything nobler or more sensible than inflicting pain and having power over someone else. That’s the whole point, that’s all there is to it, there is no greater goal. It’s just fucking hurting people.

i don't actually believe theres some epidemic of writers out there who are convinced that torture is good, just for the record. or that people who weave torture apologia into their writing do it under the assumption that it's all true and valid - i think theyre just falling into convenient tropes they learned from war propaganda. which isnt necessarily their fault. unless they're aware of it and just don't give a shit about the moral integrity of their work, in which case, consider me disturbed

i get that its easy to paint it as "torturers just do it because they want to hurt people" but that's just a little unrealistic imo. im a realism guy. like i said, rates of ptsd are similar in torturers and victims - something that doesn't make torturers less accountable for their actions, it just points to the fact that torture is destructive in literally all directions. people don't typically torture other people because they think torture is good or noble. they do it because they think torture is useful, which is the myth that's so hard to kill.

useful -> justifiable under some circumstances -> uh oh guantanamo

torture isn't useful. if you torture someone and have a goal in mind, they will be substantially worse at doing literally anything you could ask them to do, including but not limited to recounting important information, working, listening to and processing that thing you're trying to convince them to believe, liking you as a person, etc. if you want to achieve literally any goal, torture is your worst option. and any suggestion that it isn't - that's torture apologia, cope and seethe. "torture is bad" is just not where this one begins and ends ykwim. i wish it were that simple

[nahalism]

What do you thnkk would be the healthy and mature way of dealing with those emotions when it comes to us, humans?

Theres another thing i wanna ask. Do you believe there are ppl who feel those negative emotions or maybe all ❔ emotions more intensely which results in them handling it worse or could it b that the fundamental emotion is similar in all of us but it’s the ways we conduct ourselves while the feeling arises that matters and shows more? As an example we have two people who get extremely angry but one has less self control/insert other quality which makes them lash out in rage while the other doesn’t? The one is explodes/implodes might argue that they feel things more intensely but it’s so hard to measure isnt it? Who is to say they feel more intensely rather than… act more intensely when they feel said emotion

rambleramble i hope dis makes sense

i think the healthy way to deal with things is to learn about emotional regulation and to gauge the way you find best helps you regulate. some people can address issues immediately whereas others need time to process. some people need to workout or expel excess energy, some people need to meditate, some need to journal or write it out to gain perspective, others (despite the work they do to regulate themselves) are trying to find resolution with unregulated individuals which itself can be a huge trigger so in that case maybe doing some work on staying detachment and learning in your own orbit rather than getting sucked into other peoples realities and perceptions of reality is beneficial. idk. it really is subjective and situational so i cant sit here and give a prescriptive answers cause life is more nuanced than good v bad/right v wrong

i think that there are people who are more sensitive to others but that doesn't necessarily mean they feel more than others. heightened awareness, preexposure to trauma and life experience all shape a person, their perception and their reaction to things. (im sure u know this). so its fair to say no two people are the same, and as such peoples tolerance for pain or discomfort is also not the same. some people are always in pain and so are so numb to it they seem high functioning. just because theyre not as reactive doesnt mean they dont suffer. on top of that one person may find the prospect of abandonment petrifying whilst another wouldnt even recognise the interaction as abandonment, theyd see it as simply separating paths. all of that is based on conditioning, preexposure, and the families/societies/countries were born into

idk these questions require a essay to answer lol theres too much to weigh up. im curious tho, what makes u ask these qs

sending love hope ur well

[unlimitedbutchworks]

can you explain why you hate callout posts?

yeah i grew out of them and am an adult now i guess? realized that a lot of them are just people taking shots at each other over stuff that really doesnt need to be publicized, and beyond that, i dislike the concept; whats the point? to sever someones online social connections and network? to make some 'take accountability', whatever that means (usually self flagellate and demonstrate pain)? i just think they make it easier to class morality through disgust, especially when it comes to kink, which is just bad politics and sex negative

i dont think theyre necessarily evil, like ive seen more purposeful posts that could be described as callouts spreading awareness about a popular users bigoted views (like sharing and so-and-so is a zionist with xyz proof, or that fotm blogger has said some nasty shit about something or other and doubles down on it when given the chance), but overall i think theyre a negative.

like maybe this is just me showing off my existence as an anxious transfem who was on here when callouts were a bigger thing but they often created a sense of panopticon, of a need to self discipline because someone could be sitting elsewhere ready to catch a lapse of judgement, or worse, someone in the future could be cyberstalking and scrolling into nonsense from years ago to ""compile receipts"". like privacy is a good thing but callouts push against that

they make an easy separation of in group outgroup which is okay sometimes for like cryptoterfs and shit but for normal people all this does is create the sense that growth isnt possible nor desirable. if this werent the case then we wouldnt see people prompting and poking at inconvenient people (often trans in an unpopular way or otherwise less of a person) to say cancellable things, but like, that very definitely did and maybe still does happen

[clowncloud]

oh ik im some level of dissociated which is how i'm managing esp yesterday also i keep getting lost bc all the offices just look so familiar cri but also i walked out of hr les than 2 mins after walking in bc i just had to collect smth n the walls are white n i just like did a full 360 bc i felt so confused n went in the opposite direction b4 realizing tht's literally not the way i came but yh idk you know how ppl are like smth is too good to be true yh idk idk if tht's it i dont feel very much any recognizable emotions unless i'm just (in)voluntarily repressing them i mean i did hv major anxiety n brain screams esp yesterday today we had one on going moment of really bad anxiety but we were able to calm ourselves enough n i mean i'm doing well we hvent really gotten much to do as yet but like i'm managing yah but also like it doesnt feel real n not in a omg too good to be true way just a like dissociated watching n listening to this 'put' together me n i mean it's pretty much the same in uni anyways but idk it's just like idk the extreme self awareness of dissociation sometimes just makes me feel so ugh also like how was yesterday only my first day i dont necessarily feel like a week time has passed bc im tired or anything but yesterday is so hazy n feels so distant in my mind how did it literally happen yesterday idk n thinking abt all of this is making the confusion increase idk like i remembered instructions bc we learnt to use the printer n copier n then had to try it out n then do actual copies n stuff n oh the shredder too n like yh i remembered all of them n i still do but also at the same time just like yh cant access reality which isnt different or new for me but sometimes the sensation of it is still just ugh disconcerting i guess idk do other ppl actually feel themselves in things they remember n are doing atm or is everyone looking in from the outside lolz

[dreamkitten]

Im new to tumblr, so im sorry if the formatting or anything is weird. But i wanted to post my opinions because i feel like a lot of people have a very narrowed way of looking at things.

Theres a deeper reasoning as to why children crave life pre covid, and by children i mean preteens or teenagers. Im 15 btw.

Ive seen many videos on the internet romanticizing 2016 and 2014 (mainly posted by kids my age), and a lot of people who were teens in that time period think it's absolutely ridiculous.

Even though kids are mainly romanizing the aesthetics, they also crave that feeling that the 2010s had. Things were less expensive and the music was so much more cheerful.

But also, nowadays the internet is much more suffocating. Everything we have is on here, school, photos, friends, hobbies etc. Ive never had the experience of meeting kids in my neighborhood, because we weren't allowed to go outside because of the dangers.

Honestly i blame the internet for that too, although its great that i can see all the crimes and pedophiles in my area, im not allowed to go outside now.

A lot of my friends arent allowed to hang out afterschool, and if they do their parents literally follow them in their car. So i guess i blame strict parents too.

But the world isnt more dangerous, we are more aware of the danger. America is much less dangerous than it was 20 years ago, and yet kids go outside less.

Social media is so toxic now too. although cyber bullying has always been a problem, it feels like ive been seeing an influx of it the past few years. It feels like every video i see has "cringe" or "this just pmo" under it, and i know theres always been comments like this but its gotten so bad that theres no uniqueness in anyones posts.

And because so many children rely on the internet for their style, they aren't unique either. The amount of people at my school that all dress the same is crazy, and i mean its cute, but wheres the personality?

Basically, kids my age are craving a life where the internet is free, and theres less pressure from the outside world. We WANT to hang out with our friends, but we CANT. We want to go to the beach and do cliche 2014 activities but we CANT.

Dont even get me started on how the romantization of over consumption as affected the youth. Especially girls.

People can wear what they like, but 12/13 year old girls typically DONT have have full faces of makeup, new nail sets every 2 weeks, long haircare and skincare routines (when it isn't necessary), and like new shoes every season.. These used to be considered LUXURY, but now because of trends and the pressure to be beautiful, young girls feel the need to conform to these.

some girls do this entirely out of freewill, but what they consume online also contributes to this.

In the early 2010s most people posting were young adults or teens, but now i mainly see young adults and fully grown adults. People with children, have graduated from college, etc.

Not necessarily a bad thing that they post, but kids mimic what they see. And since they are seeing 25 year olds with fake lashes and 17 step haircare routines, they want to do that too.

Which explains the whole "sephora kid thing"

But yeah.. kids want freedom. the 2010s provided that.

[naturenaruto]

ridiculous how some ppl can be topless and its Fine and Normal and a Non Topic but for others its like no. u cannot. so for some its jsut a regular random thing they dont even have to think about and then for others we have to be constantly hyper aware of our chests and not showing them and then ppl will be like oh u can be topless too eyeroll come onn and its like really can u really idk i dont think its necessarily a bravery issue like there are some consequences for it anywhere u live and even in ur home obviously ur family??? isnt gonna allow that so the amab child can just walk around however and no one comments on it bc its a non issue™️ but if the afab child does ahhhhhhhhh thatss gross n eviiil and scaryy and ickyy ahh so they just get to be carefree and we have to constantly worry and hide and be weirded out by our own bodies and for ppl saying ohh just get over it and take ur shirt off noone gives a fuck like ppl do rly give a fuck? i think? that would not be normal in most societies its not something ppl would just shrug off if u have enough pizazz about you like no matter how confident or non chalant you are its not something that would go unnoticed or uncommented on lol idc how progressive the area its still not considered Regular and as far as just getting over it goes thats part of the problem too bc not everyone can easily do mental gymnastics to just~~ be carefree~ like theres atleast 18 of programming and socializing in there and just bc one person tells u to Just Get Over It its really not that that easy bc uve been brainwashed to constantly jolt at the idea of ur body being seen or being inappropriate or being sexual or making ppl uncomfortable or being a show off or being crude and there are like legitimate consequences for those things yes even if its just ~feeling bad~ like that is psych damage and causes alot of resentment to build up bc ur made to feel like ur doing something Wrong......which is so deeply ingrained and probly has had severe consequences for most so ppl obviosily want to avoid feeling like theyre doing something they shouldnt be....so even if one person can just be all carefree~~ and watever doesnt mean that thats a feasable option for most considering the years built up of being made to feel Really Fucking Bad its not always as simple as ~~~juuuustt~~ getting over it and ignoring the haters~ like not everyone.....can?? i guess you can work on it but its just the fact that its somehing that you have to work on and unlearn and get over whereas for others they dont even ever have to worry about it like why do i gotta do these extra steps when theyre already there

[hauntsthenarrative]

trust me i completely understand ur point of view (sorry for the consistent yapping LMAOAOOAOA)

which is why I emphasized that i UNDERSTAND shipping them but that people have to keep everything else in mind. i wasnt exactly saying their dynamic is cute, rather it was understandable in terms of why people would like them together (ex. the interaction they had with the night time window screen, which is of course dark as fuck but also shows how, at least to curly, similar interactions with anya were a normal thing, proving them to be close (intimate) which i didnt mean in a romantic way necessarily but rather in a platonic way trust).

i understand how this could undermine the point of the game (and in a LOT of content with this ship IT DOES. AND IT PISSES ME OFF. A LOT.) but im just defending it bc ive seen some writing and art that does incorporate the more complex aspects of their dynamic and what happened in the game into this 'relationship'/pairing, and work out how exactly they might go about dealing with everything in alternate scenarios.

I say this in the sense of a lot of them acknowledging what Curly could have done better, which in my opinion wasn't much due to the fact that any incident would lead to a massive paydock in everyones check. reminder that anya was the one who needed the most money compared to the rest, and as they were all getting laid off, curly took this into account in his decision. the game isnt soley critiquing rape culture, rather capitalism, as chances are curly would have taken more action and restraints against jimmy if it wasnt going to harm anya (again, he was probably going to deal with things in a legal way getting back, and knew that if anya wanted to sue him/the company she wouldnt be able to with the lack of funds from reporting the incident on the direct mission, which is something he was aware of, as you said, because of his closeness to the company).

The whole point of the game was the kind of environment and situations capitalistic companies put ppl in (ex. the pay dock that would deadass fuck up everyones life). this put curly in a situation where any normal person wouldnt do anything IN THAT SPECIFIC MOMENT. the point of the game is all of us are curly. capitalism is bad yadayada i could go a lot more in depth but i lowkey dont have that much energy rn. there are some rlly good posts about it though (a lot of marxist views. they are super interesting to look at fr i highly recommend)

I also think that angst pairings works in this particular situation, which is mainly how i personally view it. also im pretty sure i saw a lot of people say some of the game makers have reposted stuff w the pairing, which is also why im defending it a little, since even the creators dont think its completely messed up, meaning it could have, or might have worked, and isnt wrongful to promote as long as people keep curlys shitty actions in mind.

but yeah other than that stuff ofc i agree with your view and am glad you answered me w that, its def a lot to think about!

...aaaaand i think that if someone liked the pairing it would have to be within very specific circumstances/contexts that deal with the actual tricky stuff, but that its not completely fucked up.

Caught her just in time

(This is for the Anya x Curly shippers out there)

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