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ive done a lot of wack shit to get out of social interactions but deliberately eating moldy food to get out of a meeting tomorrow kind of takes the cake
#also my therapist cancelled tomorrow. which is like. hey i kind of need this today#i think i can feel myself getting worse and it sucks#like. you ever see yourself getting more mentally ill in real time#its like watching a car crash but youre the only one hurt and everyone else just gets to watch#anyways.#im doing so bad at school rn that im considering dropping out and just going for a ged#theyre trying to push me into going back to inperson at the start of next year#which isnt going to happen#like sorry but what do you think you can do. drag me in? my mothers already tried that#threaten me with truancy? ive missed over 500 days cumulatively over the past 4 years#expel me? im already a middle school dropout#theres nothing that they can do to ruin my life worse than im already ruining it
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Underused psychological/body horror concept: Character who knows their body was changed without their knowledge or permission, but also realizes their mind was affected because the change itself doesnt bother them at all. They're in a form unrecognizable to how they've been the whole rest of their life, and the most upsetting part is the realization that they're unable to be upset about it.
oh fuck yeah. i'm definitely projecting here, but there is something so satisfyingly horrifying about being able to rationally recognise that you should feel a certain way, but being physically and psychologically incapable of it, because the part of you that would enable you to access those emotions has been cut away, torn up by the roots and cauterised shut before you could feel the pain of the wound it left behind. the added insult to injury of not only having something stolen from you, but taking all of the rage and pain you might have felt at its loss with it. the body-mind entanglement; phantom limbs and phantom grief.
#🐉#they did this in that scott westerfield series. uglies. which isnt the best example but its what i can think of.#overall mid tier books but they had their moments#georgie from tma also has something similar to this going on#but that was cosmic horror rather than body horror#arguably this happened to my girl VAL too but that depends on how you interpret the subtext
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A lot of people in the iwtv Fandom regurgitate antiblack talking points particularly wrt Louis being femme/effeminate/gnc and it's genuinely so disgusting like no, Louis is not making his partners engage in domestic labor when they participate in the businesses and investments they are partial owners of. No, Louis is not being the patriarch of rue royale when lestat leaves the house after beating Louis within an inch of his life. No Louis is not "masculine for his culture" especially when compared to other black men in the same time period. People will actively ignore canon to make Louis into this hypermasculine black brute and Lestatr or armand into these shrinking violets that are oppressed by Louis when he's not that at all. The only times he's ever acted even close to that stereotype is to assimilate into a white supremacist society that expected that of him in order for him to earn a living and to please Armand, which causes him great distress and visibly worsens his mental health to the point of Louis lashing out at Claudia and being so entirely numb that he self harms. Louis is not this hypermasculine black brute and a lot of people try to make him into one bc of unconscious bias surrounding black people (black people have been stereotyped as hypermasculine, angry, overly violent and sexual deviants since the 1700s) or to absolve their non black favs of the actual patriarchal and oppressive violence they enact on Louis and Claudia or a combination of the two. It's disgusting, do better
#interview with the vampire#iwtv#amc iwtv#louis de pointe du lac#lestat de lioncourt#iwtv 2022#ldpdl#armand iwtv#loustat#loumand#fandom antiblackness#fandom racism#saw the most disgusting post saying lestat was calling himself melisadae in come to me and not the other way around like#that wasnt the whole crux of the post but that stuck out to me bc its the biggest indicator of how nb people will twist themselves in knots#to make lestat into this hyperfemme thats being taken advantage of by the big black brute louis#the evidence stares you in the face and yet people are like no louis is the oppressor like please listen to yourselves#louis is feminine in canon! he wears outfits that routinely signal feminine (silk scarves) and armand mocks his feminine behaviors#and when louis isnt interested in the painting of the battle in ep 4 armand tells him to go look at paintibgs of fruit and flowers#most of Louis’s behaviors signal as feminine to his family and other black people. his mama talking about his nails and glasses and clothes#the white daddy comment like people see louis as feminine bc he is!#THE NIGGA DRINKS TOM COLLINS WHICH IS JUST A LEMONADE WITH FLOWER LIQUOR IN IT AND MARTINIS HES EFFEMINATE#saw someone say that bc louis was reading lestats copy of madame bovary (that he bought for louis) he was the masc one and i just cant#lestat literally bought the stylish clothes and books and furniture that louis said were nice and we know that cus it literally happens ep 1#louis pushes Lestat’s buttons by telling him hes not actually cultured bc he doesnt read the books he owns but louis does#lestat is not some shrinking violet at the whims of louis he says so himself in s2e7#like yall are ridiculous
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These two pages work amazingly to show just how unfulfilling a "normal" life can be, as well as showing just how little either of them really know of whats "normal"
#manga#csm#chainsaw man#csm spoilers#chainsaw man manga spoilers#chainsaw man manga#csm manga#chainsaw man spoilers#csm manga spoilers#I think part of what makes it work so well for me is the fact that this still isnt normal#theyre trying to be normal by skipping class and going to a movie but the circumstances in which its happening is fundamentally abnormal#an empty movie theatre with a devil corpse#it works amazingly to show just how impossible it is for either of them to truly be normal#also the last panel is really a well designed 'isolated in a crowd' image
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reposting some old doodles i still enjoy a bit
#a doodley#guys im having realizations i dont really know what to do with#ive said this tons before but my main issue with art rn is like#i Know anatomy. and what it's Meant to look like. my issue is straying away from Correct and going with Good like how some of my stuff was#before i really started learning. loose and not restricted#but my obstacle is that nobody draws the way i want to draw. and im bad at coming up with my own stuff...i need to copy and osmose off#someone else. well. it turns out there is someone who draws the way i draw. and its cheye of the past.#dont get me wrong if i look thru the rest of the art in the (year) folder these came from; 80% of it sucks#i wish i cld have what past cheye had but with current cheye tweaks and refinement#but idk how to do that. something weird has happened to my mind i really cant envision and make art the same way anymore#idk how he did it back then....i wish i Knew bc current me cant make anything out of sketching or thumbnails or just going at it#arghhh#i try and force myself to draw stuff like this now (interactions) and it looks. so stiff. and bad proportion wise but idk how to fix it#which isnt to say the proportions (for example) in THESE drawings are perfect but they dont scream Wrong or Bad or Incorrect to me ykwim...#idk! idk what to do with this. ive never known how to go back and study my own stuff
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Thinking about how the dragons canonically help with fishing by kind of herding them to the nets but like imagine what that'd mean for whaling and hunting.
Like during that rob/dob era adjustment period, everyone's excited about the increase in food due to the raids ending and dragons now assisting them, but imagine one day one of them (Hookfang) just. Brings back a whole whale to try and one-up the other dragons.
But of course, they can't have that so then the others start doing it as well (some even getting confused and bringing back sharks instead). Too often, actually. Berk's store houses are, for the first time in recent history, almost overflowing with cured meats and the like. They're set for the winter, and its left to poor Hiccup to try and reign it in so the local whale, shark and seabird populations aren't completely devastated.
#iirc vikings introduced a lot of whaling methods so this isnt like out of nowhere. making up stuff for berks culture including food bc i can#probably similar things happening to animals On the island as well#also this is under the assumption there arent scauldrons in berks waters (which im guessing is right based on what we've seen?)#monstrous nightmares look like theyre built to like scoop fish out the ocean right#httyd#hiccup haddock#hookfang#riders of berk#isle of berk#some of the dragons see vikings going hunting and try to mimic it#httyd headcanon#moth.txt#deyas dragons#its 6am i havent slept this is what im thingking about. they were right autism is evil </3
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i'm so fucking tired of heteros ffs GIVE ME PEGGYNAT
also natasha in this entire episode is just *gay yearning* for a certain Brit
Melina just goes slipping shit like "ah go for her left knee she fucked it up in third grade" LIKE MA'AM.
WANDA?! WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA WANDA
#that's a lot of wandas#anyway I'm seriously tired of steggy. seriously.#LET ME HAVE THE GAYS#also if you try to convince me lake bell didn't fight to keep the yearning in I'll dropkick you onto Neptune#if i had a nickel for every time lake bell voices a redhead whos very gay (in canon and fannon) I'd have two nickels#which isnt a lot but its weird that it happened twice#mb rant :)#what if#peggynat#c'mon kevin. you don't have the balls-#mcu#marvel#natasha romanoff#melina vostokoff#steve rogers#peggy carter#captain carter#I'm gonna go rewatch episode two bye bye
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Isn't it fun how everyone saw what terrified them most, but Nya's was so "unbelievable" that she broke out instantly? She was shown the one thing that was supposed to terrify her, make her spiral. But of course it wasn't real. It's Jay. If there's one thing she never once doubted, its that Jay is absolutely smitten, so of course he'd never forget her. What a silly thing to think, to be afraid of. She went through so damn much for this boy, and him for her, and we know how she is. Wouldn't it be petrifying if all that work, all that emotional turmoil, that clawing for love, could be forgotten just like that? Its quite a feat, really, that she can finally be confident in knowing such a fear is irrational.
It was easy to break free from such a place. It was only ever meant to scare her, and she has nothing to be afraid of. Right?
#ninjago#ninjago dragons rising#dragons rising#lego ninjago#lego ninjago dragons rising#nya#ninjago nya#jay walker#ninjago jay#text post#dragons rising s2#oh its going to be horrific when they find jay i want it SO BAD#nya is going to spiral. she is going to hit a new mental health low#HERES THE BEST PART#isnt it horrifying. when the only other person who remembers a time that never existed#a time when wishes should never have come true#forgets all of it? there were only two of you in the entire world who remembered that timeline#you could say nothing ot anyone else. but you could speak to them. could share it all#when the nightmares came and shaking from memories. there was someone to know and comfort#and now its all gone. its all forgotten. theres nothing. its only you. just you.#no one will ever know what happened to you#wouldnt that fck you up every which way to sunday. when the nightmares exist only to you#if theres only you to ever whisper about pirates. did it even happen? can you prove it?#nya is going to crumple into DUST. no happiness for any of them
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I got so insanely mad while drawing this
+ closeup and normalness
#alek art#zane julien#previous master of ice#ninjago#lego ninjago#2024#aka the scene i wish we got in snake jaguar ...#zane is like 30 here#im mostly thinking about dr juliens perspective on this night. we have very little to go off of but he was very weirded out#random very sick old man shows up at your door and takes an “interest” in your son. he isnt even over for an entire day. with him comes col#he was striken with winter and something about him felt off. he leaves without a word. after his arrival your son begins acting weird.#then another old man arrives. asking for your son. wonder what happened there#for anything about passing on powers or losing them its always some big event... hm#i think the previous master really did need shetler. we know he was old and died shortly after the power giving. i dont know what about#zane caught his eye. i do think its very interesting that this man of few words was so obviously fascinated that dr julien noticed.#dr julien isnt the most socially aware and in the little bit he said about the previous master... he sounded concerned#imagine weirding out the weirdest man alive#i think zane caught on too. he felt eyes on him the entire night. they ate dinner with the man.. gave him shelter... but he felt he wanted#more. sometime that day he gave zane the power of ice. which effectively changed the course of his entire life. zane and dr julien hadnt a#clue what happened. 'yesterday a man arrived' so not even within a day did he see zane and decide that he was the one#thinking about how zane acting like his self now is 'strange' and was out of the ordinary. what was he like before? how do you even pass a#power down. we see people get their powers stolen and its always a spectacle and its so exhausting and so on. how did dr julien not see#anything. there was no questions? he just noticed the previous master found his son interesting and then he left ?#goddddd im insane i wanna write a fic about zane pre series
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HI HI I saw in your tags that you take AT requests, if it's not too much trouble could you draw prismo? Lee or ler, either is good xp Also no pressure!! I rlly love your art🫶🫶
HIII thank you first of all!!!!!!!! and OFC id love to draw prismo!!!!!!!!!<33333
im a huge sucker for prisjake sorry :PPP they make me absolutely insane /pos
#tickle art#my art#i am so so so so normal :33333#also im sure anyone looking for prismo t content has already seen it but just in case EVERYONE GO LOOK AT TICKLETAILS' ART IMMEDIATELY#theyr my fave artist in the community their stuff BANGS every time#ive actually been looking for an excuse to make tk art of prismo i just never got around to it. ive been super stressed lately lol#but my boyf (who isnt even into this show) has been begging me for it because we LOVE the 'lee in a wall' trope#its happened 2 times in media we like which isnt a lot but isnt it weird that it happened twice#anyway#adventure time tickle#fionna and cake tickle#lee!prismo#ler!jake#can you guys tell ive never drawn the scarab before
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been scribbling out some little comics for my EoW!Zelda Impersonates Link AU!
#echoes of wisdom#the legend of zelda#princess zelda#zelda#loz eow#loz#josh art tag#This one is based around the idea that Zelda never actually met Link properly#and thus impersonating him is trial and error#but also that the situation emphasizes the tragedy of what happened#that Link (presumably) went on a whole quest to save her#and yet she knows nothing about this wonderful hero that she now has taken the place of#also this comic (and possible future ones) are indeed slightly born of me wanting to show people that my AU isnt just#“make zelda link”#cuz some people dont see my vision. which is fine!! how are they supposed to know?#but a couple people are like “well doesn't this defeat the purpose of having protag zelda in the first place? :/”#but no that is not what this is about!#In my vision for how this au would play out it would still be very different than playing as link#like sure she looks like link but princess zelda isnt just some girl in a dress you know#So the fact that she is indeed actually impersonating link isnt just like a backstory or anything#its something that is constantly relevant#in my eyes of how such a story would go#wait i need a tag for this au now uhhhh#imposter!zelda au#<- maybe that'll do???#maybe its too among us-y#if u have suggestions pls share
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"omg homophobia :( the lesbian ship i want to kiss didn't kiss in an episode that was obviously going to be the backstory of another main character :( hes EXPLICITLY gay in a MARVEL DISNEY+ show and kisses his boyfriend but its still so homophobic :( the episode wasn't straight out of my headcannon so i hate it :("
do you know how dumb u sound rn
#like i want agatha and rio to kiss as much as the next gal#but this was so obviously going to be a billy-centric epsiode#which advanced the plot which is literally the point of every single episode???#random agathario makeout session would make NO SENSE here bc there was such a massive reveal at the end of last episode#so they have to go back and explain it#also#sorry to rant and sorry to be so angry lol#ive seen people saying how they already knew about billy from leaks and theories and comics so this ep was dumb and unnecessary#but i watch this show with my mum she has none of that context#she forgot what happened in last weeks episode#like#not everyone is on tumblr fighting for their lesbian witches#there are casual viewers who arent watching breakdowns and reading theories#so this episode was needed#it wasnt out of place#it would have been way weirder to not develop the whole billy thing and just keep going with the trials#that isnt how tv shows work#especially marvel shows that are part of a wider universe and cant just stand alone#GRRR IM GETTING ANGRY#i havent engaged like this with marvel for years#but smth about the way certain people are acting... its not quite sitting right#thats all lol#agatha all along#agathario#agatha spoilers#billy maximoff#billy kaplan
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AND I MET THE CHANGE GOD TOO. OKAY. COOL OKAY
#I WASNT EVEN MEANING TO SO I ACCIDENTALLY SKIPPED THE DIALOGUE BEFORE I KNEW WHAT WAS HAPPENING FUCK#ill go and find it later if only to give myself peace of mind. BUT WOW. WHAT THE FUCK#my original plan was to 1) work my way to the king and talk to him 2) doom myself and take everyone down with me 3) loop back to floor 3#so i can visit the observatory and scrounge for any lore. although since i got killed that run siffrin asked the king to kill him first#which was intereresting. but i decided to have all doors unlocked that time around so i can just get the starcrest and go#but for some reason it wasnt working so i went to get the keyknife since i was already there and completely forgot i already had it#from the previous loop and THATS what triggered it. IT WAS FUNNY BUT ALSO SCARY BUT ALSO I THINK I GET WHAT THEY MEAN#about siffrin going back without actually changing. going along with a script even if his feelings on things change#the same way he has his own small rituals like the carving thing and does it for constancy. reassurance or safety even#and the times when he breaks script and ends horribly like the sadness attacking thing and bonnie yelling at him cause him to loop#to avoid it. although i cant really say anything bc id probably do the same thing. maybe not for the same reasons since im cruel#and make him do the worst to see what will happen since i put curiosity over rejection sensitivity as an observer and player but well.#i feel wrongfooted bringing it up since i dont have it myself but i have to wonder if this kind of leans into ocd tendencies.. i remember#reading something about how ocd is fuelled by fear. and things like counting and rituals are kind of used to cope with that?#if anyone knows anything more or talked abt it already id be really interested in hearing it bc im almost sure im not#the first to come to this conclusion. but i simply dont know enough nor have the confidence to broach the topic rn esp with how often#misconceptions around ocd get casually passed around so its hard for me to know what is and isnt a baseless assumption#puppy plays isat#in stars and time#isat#playthru#isat spoilers#in stars and time spoilers#isat act 3 spoilers#change god#WHAT WAS THAT WITH WEARING LOOPS FACE THOUGH WHAT THE FUCKKK
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IVE TALKED ABOUT THIS A BAJILLION TIMES but I just cant get over it
He literally says Ride Or Die Bitch
#HES SO DEVOTED IM AUGH#We go together or not at all he says. I will never die he says. Neither will you is what he means hes so crazy intense about this#I will never die. But if I do! I die with you. Which is never gonna happen because I wont let you.#LITTLE MAN YOURE GAY FOR YOUR BESTIE AT LEAST A TEENSY BIT this amount of devotion isnt straight of u#Ok sorry I had a moment of Ilness about this#Not an art#Kuzuhina
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since ive been focused on silhouettes this weekend allow me to say again that i will forever be a hater for junkrat's ow2 pants. give my boy his shorts back please he's dying he needs some visual interest..... even the side of his ow2 design that has shorts is so much smaller and form fitting than before. why....??? ill never understand this choice.
#blab#idc abt the rest of his design i can deal w it#this is my junkrat pet peeve tho djfnjddfbddkjbf like his shorts....#that's his thing.......... (??) or it was but not anymore it#*ig#did anyone else change silhouettes like this for ow2...?? ig roadhog did a bit#ig including his tire junkrat's silhouette isnt that different (like thats a p important part of his silhouette)#but the other coupe things that are important to his ow1 design silhouette are. his hair (changed) and his shorts (also changed)#so mysterious to me. ig they needed to make changes or else ppl would b like 'whats the point if they look the same'#which basically is what happened anyway lmlsdkjfddkjgn#idk he had a thing going w bulky elements (grenades; shorts) contrasted w his twig limbs but thats basically nonexistant in his lower half#now
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The cape wrapping was too much for me I have to leave
#silver sending stones#cr spoilers#cr 3 e 108#orym of the air ashari#dorian storm#he probably watched the loom and was like “this is what i signed up for. forever.”#dorym#i do not know how to feel#because this came at the end of such a harsh moment from orym?#he killed fearnes dad which will eat him alive for the rest of his life#he just yelled at everyone because theyre still not understanding that the gods leaving is not going to leave exandria as it was.#he is literally so spent.#hes so tired#and so guilty#(oh i have to update my list of things orym blames hinself for)#and as hes yelling. as hes pleading with his friends to see the calamity that will happen if the gods are gone.#he floats over to dorian.#arguably his biggest opposition#and when hes done. when hes tired himself out. he leans on dorian.#he leans on dorian probably with no expectations of reciprocation. he just. needs dorian in that moment.#and dorian. who has been fighting to get rid of the gods since they took opal and killed hia brother. who wants them gone more than anything#wraps orym in his cloak. a protective wing around him. a warm. same place for him to lean. to rest. even running his hands through his hair.#they have been fighting since dorian came back. theyve been on the opposite sides of each discussion. each argument. and yet#orym still finds comfort in dorian. and dorians still affectionate towards orym.#id like to believe they slept in the same bed that night. after weeks of... finding reasons not to.#theyre clean and newly dry and slightly cold and maybe Orym finds a bed and curls up alone because fearne isnt there. but she hasnt been#for a while. and he doesnt take up the whole bed. he cant. but he doesnt expect someone to join him.#and then when the lights are off and the crickets are chirping and the faint screaming of a new bush to lull him to sleep. his door opens.#he doesnt get up because he knows hes safe in the manor. despite how scary it is. hes fearnes friend and has a deal with nana.#so he doesnt move. he feels cool. soft skin on his back and arms wrapping around him. to protect him. to comfort him
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