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wip word game
rules: you will be given a word. share one sentence/excerpt from your wip(s) that start with each letter of that word.
I was tagged on main by @valsansretovr 💛 the word I was given is "KING" 👑 (the "k" was hard; there was literally only one sentence). first two excerpts are from my sefa-centric wip, last two from my merlin-and-gwaine-visit-the-druids wip.
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King Arthur and his men reach Ismere from the West. It is a successful rescue operation, with only a few losses on Camelot’s side, as the king reports when he returns. The same cannot be said for Morgana’s men.
Sefa drops the pitcher she is holding when she hears it. Her hands tremble as she apologises and gets down on her knees to retrieve it from where it’s rolled under the table. The king and the queen keep talking.
“Morgana?” the queen asks, and the king replies: “Escaped”, in a sombre tone. He goes on to say he will post some more men at the fortress, in case she attempts to return to get whatever she was looking for.
It sounds like the kind of conversation Sefa should be listening in on, the sort of information she should remember, but the rush of blood in her ears has deafened her.
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“I'm not going to run away,” Sefa tells Merlin when they meet at the agreed spot, near the kitchen door, “if that is what you’re scared of.”
Now that the immediate danger has passed, the fear clouding her mind has lifted enough to leave space for sullenness. She should be grateful to be alive, she knows that, and yet she can’t help but feel resentful for being once again turned into a pawn in a game of which she doesn’t know the rules.
Merlin doesn’t appear to take it personally. He shrugs. “Best if you don't. Morgana doesn’t take kindly to being betrayed.”
From anyone else it would sound like a petty dig, or an attempt to intimidate her, but Merlin manages to make it sound like friendly advice. They haven’t talked since that night in the cells. It should be awkward, Sefa thinks, but Merlin’s acting like that conversation and Sefa’s subsequent meeting with the king and queen never happened.
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“No one said anything about a score. It would only be a few men.”
“They asked to meet me alone.”
“Yes, alone. Out of Camelot.” Arthur repeats the Druids’ request back to Merlin with meaningful emphasis, as if he might hear the outrageousness of it if it’s spelled out to him slowly. He pauses — perhaps for dramatic effect, perhaps to let the words sink in fully — then adds: “In the middle of a forest.”
That ruffles Merlin's feathers even more. “That’s where they live!”
“Well, forgive me for finding it suspicious.”
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Gwaine cannot tell what made Merlin stop — this bit of forest doesn’t look any different from what they’ve been riding through so far.
“Is it here?” Gwaine asks, guiding his horse towards Merlin’s. “There’s no one.”
Merlin doesn’t look up. “Leave your sword,” he commands.
Gwaine snorts. “I don’t think so,” he says, getting off his horse.
Merlin turns to him sharply, his expression unusually stern. “Leave your sword,” he repeats flintily, “or stay here.”
no-pressure tagging: @centurieslove @agapantoblu @sexy-sapphic-sorcerer @enchanted-blade @oleryn
word: FATE ✨
#reading my wip like “nice. someone should finish it”#Im trying to commit to things I started#which is something I struggle with#so I hope to finish these one day#even if it means writing a few sentences at the time#wips#tag game#*
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one downside to digital mediums of art is that you cant see the tear stains (they just slide down the screen)
#turtlearts#tf2#team fortress 2#not even gonna lie i dont think ive ever struggled to draw as much as i had during this time#these are also a couple months old . and oh my god#i literally thought i was going insane. deep in the clutches of 3/4 head hell and i couldnt escape#like no sleep levels of drawing the same thing again and again until i either got exhausted or just gave up#when the therapist and psych nurse i had at uni said that i have ocd tendencies maybe they were onto something lowkey#side note but thanks to tf2 spy i got a butterfly knife trainer bc i wanted to do tricks#unfortunately i lost the knife :(( but i did learn a couple (really simple) tricks which was neat :)
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Safe & Sound 💙
I just really wanted someone to give Echo a blanket so why not let it be Rex
Closeups T-T:
Bonus Doodle:
#swaddle him with love#star wars#captain rex#arc trooper echo#echo tbb#echo tcw#the clone wars#fanart#artists on tumblr#2024#yes those are tears in his eyes i liKED the detail#next time i draw the Marauder it will be in spot with better ref;-;#this came to me in a dream#drawing all his ports and wires made me cry a little ngl#but i had to focus on the goal#which is echo getting the blanket he deserved#rex has gotta help him cuz he's just got the one hand ;;#i wanted Rex's experession to be struggling to stay controlled#we all know how much having Echo alive means to him#but he's gotta keep it together cuz he's Rex and thats how he is#but in the knit of his eyebrows and his smile i wanted there to be something underneath#i hope i got that across#for Echo I was channeling the awkward charm of his headache line#and chibis are all in good fun#shhh if u saw me post this early no u didnt
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consumed with the urge to draw with ed holding cat. that's all
edit: metal arm wrong side bc canvas flip
#the legs look so fucked to me so cropped version first#edward elric#cat#I cannot explain#is it not self explanatory#probably bad to post this at 1 am my time but my impatience has always been strong and today is no different#fma#fma03#fullmetal alchemist#fmab#I really struggled with this and I still don't completely love it but I wanted to post something#it's been about a year since I first got BACK into fma#still into it lolol#fan art#anyway life updates... nothing really#I have been listening to hozier's new album for weeks and I saw him in concert which was awesome!#today I saw the PJO trailer and it brought me happiness#sketch#proportions are so fucked like I love edward's build but it really is hard for me to nail down#hope someone enjoys!
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AU where Belos DOES manage to successfully possess one of the unfinished grimwalkers and poor Hunter has to confront yet another thing wearing his face
#toh#the owl house#for the future#toh hunter#philip wittebane#hunter noceda#haven't stopped thinking about this concept since the episode aired like a year ago.#and i mean. tis the season! i thought i'd draw something kinda spooky or whatever#the rotting grimwalker was actually unexpectedly very fun to draw#i would have made it more gory but i don't think i could have really pulled it off.#art#my art#weaverofink#i tried to replicate the background style of the show but man those things are detailed!!!!#even with a reference i was struggling to make it look even a little bit good#its a little simplified in mine which i think strikes an ok balance
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This is the dynamic I want out of season 2 actually
#comic redraw#fop#fop a new wish#fop peri#fop irep#fop dev#fop hazel#hazel wells#dev dimmadome#fairly oddparents#fairy oddparents a new wish#art#my art#fopanw#This was meant to be a sort of exercise in letting myself draw and release something that isn't perfectly perfect#which I really severely struggle with lmao oops#there is so much about this that bugs me#but i need to be okay with that#i need to just let the funny meme comic be imperfect#hhhnnn easier said than done
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Me: yeah, I dunno. I started hormones a couple years ago and I like being on them but I still don’t really like my perception of myself or my gender and it’s really hurting me because I was hoping I’d like myself more than I do. I just don’t like either option but I don’t really like nonbinary either so I’m just really confused and unhappy with my identity :(
My therapist (who happens to be the first one I’ve had who is also trans): well, when you imagine yourself, ignoring labels and ignoring any realism, how do you picture yourself? What’s your idealized version of yourself?
Me, thinking of how I puppy regress and have ‘no gender just puppy’ as my bio on twt: uhhh idk a dog I guess
My therapist: then be a dog
Me: huh… interesting very interesting
#my post#she literally brought up therians too and has a friend that’s a wolf which is pretty neat#and I’m just like woah#I loved my first therapist but he was a cishet man and I felt like I was too weird for him#like I once said I wanted to buy dog ears and he was like ‘… okay’#maybe trans therapists are the way to go damn#I also said something similar to wrench from watch dogs bc he’s SO goddamn gender it’s crazy#robotic puppy perhaps#anyways my homework this week is to make a list of things that make me feel euphoric#we’ll see how that goes#gender struggles#therian#pet regression
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY SHOU!!!
Fluff for the occasion!!! set in 2015; in the current day and age he's turning 25 which is crazy, hope mans nailing adulthood
bonus air kiss to my fellow queers and especially aspecs:
#i turn 25 in exactly one month like hol up!!!!!!!!!!#decided to draw the year 2015 cause i headcanon the further they go in their friendship the closer they will strive to be#so it wouldn't align to have them live in different cities way later#Breathing Room is canon so they bouta go to the same high school#so for a few years post canon shou lives with his mom#who moved back to japan from US for him.#he started going to school and facing Struggles there#evident by a plastered bruise which he didn't wake up with#He's eccentric and confrontational and previously homeschooled and the child of a known criminal so um#safe to say he doesn't make friends in middle school. he's closest with Tome and the esper gang back in Seasoning#thank you to a few fics for introducing me to the beauty of tome and shou friendship yes#He's artistically driven as said in the wikia so he took up guitar and painting clubs#Also i do love the fact he denounced his powers in the series finale#and that's bound to be something that's resolved in some huge way#that i may or may not draw if i have a solid script its currently just a buncha dialogue#mob psycho 100#mp100#mp100 fanart#kageyama ritsu#suzuki shou#ritshou#shouritsu#WHY THE T???? WHY THE T. RISHOU SOUNDS BETTER NO?#rishou#shou suzuki#ritsu kageyama#happy birthday shou
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*clasps your shoulders gently and looks you straight in the eye*
Keferon. Please read Ninth by Kyn on AO3. I think you would love it very much. It has a large chapter count, but don't be intimidated, it's very easy to get into. It is currently unfinished, but is being updated regularly.
You are the seventh person that recommended this fic to me so ahahahaha yeah
I’m doing great Help I hate some parts of it but I love the other parts I’m spinning in the blender
…..I made the moodboard….
#chapter 37#of 120 or something#I must be like 90k words in haha#large word count is not an intimidation. It’s an invitation haha#I love the fics that I can’t read in just one hour:)#I gotta say I don’t enjoy the concept of making robots into organic life#it’s just my preference#seeing them as humans or animals or whatever feels so fucking wrong#the concept itself drives me off#like. Strongly#But at the same time. This fic isn’t about them being ‘haha cute organics’#it’s ‘oh god. I was turned into something I’m not’#instead of teeheee they’re fluffy#it’s please free me from this fucking nightmare. please let me be myself again.#idk how to explain. I resonate I guess#it often feels very disturbing but the characters are also disturbed#So now I’m kind of stuck reading this fic because I just can’t stop lol#just politely skipping the parts that make me too uncomfortable#also#the body horror is….damn. Impressive. I didn’t expect to read about grotesque fleshy creature turning itself inside out#it’s not even aesthetic or symbolic#it literally looks like a fucking nightmare. Which is impressive also.#the flesh is g r o s s#the beginning got me struggling and skipping#but the intermission is currently ruining my sleep schedule#oh fuck….I usually send my posts to the authors of the fics I read…..but I feel like I might offend the author of Ninth if do this……..#there’s a tiny chance they’re following me….if it’s true then I wanna tell I’m sorry pls don’t take this seriously#your fic got me waay out of my comfort zone#huge points for writing Ratchet. Drift in this fic is…the grossest fucking thing I could probably imagine but Ratchet doesn’t even hesitate#he helps him and he cares for him. Which is…..imma be real my first instinct would be to set Drift on fire to end his misery
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What have you done?
based on an idea @username8746489 had where sylvie discovered nightmare fuel for the first time on accident while getting bullied by some older kids (and pushing him further into social isolation now that he's known as "that scary kid who could summon someone's worst fear")
#♦️charlie's art#epithet erased#sylvester ashling#sylvie ashling#ok i have a lot to yap about here hold on#this was a challenge to make since i was imagining it with no dialogue and limited colors i hope i pulled it off#because of those two things something i had to think a lot about was how the color progression changes the mood#I wasn't originally gonna add that last panel with the aftermath but un suggested the idea of the bullies being vague shadowy figures#initially until sylvie realizes what he did and is forced to see that “that was a real person with their own fears and insecurities”#so then they're drawn more detailed#sylvie and the bullies also aren't in the same panels together until the last one because he's just so below them that he isnt worthy of#sharing equal space with them. these kids are highschoolers. if sylvie wants to look at them he'll always have to look up#and also because i was struggling with their height difference#i hope the second page doesn't make it look too much like sylvie summoned a fire 😭 it kinda helps with the mood but what he summoned is#supposed to be ambiguous and i dont want it to look like i was born yesterday and think nightmare fuel ONLY summone fire#but its hard to make it NOT look like fire when i can only work with orange#the lineart starts out clean and gets messier as the conflict progresses to represent a lack of control#and also it creates kind of a shakey/unstable effect which emphasizes sylvie's fear#also unintentional but i think the second page having detailed shading emphasizes the mood changes. this just got SERIOUS#oh also i used the mizu5 untrained as a color reference thats fun#ALSO SYLVIE DIDN'T KILL ANYONE im just realizing the one curled up in the last panel could be interpreted that way#that's not what i was going for#this might be unrealistic...... but we also know so little about sylvie's backstory that who's to say for sure IDK LET ME MAKE MY FAV SUFFER
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some more comic panels I liked :>
#Hilda and twig: twig experiences a microaggression#hilda the series#Hilda and twig hide from the rain#this comic is lovely#it fleshes out twig and how he views his place in Hilda’s life in a way that feels like a natural continuation (or prequel ig) to the show#there’s some little nods to the show too which is fun#man I didn’t realise how much I’d missed the comics#the show is AMAZING but there’s just something about the pen drawing style and colour palettes and comedic beats in the panels yknow#and despite luke making it to be more geared towards younger kids than the OG comics were#(I believe he said the idea came from seeing how his daughter struggled with the OG comics#and he wanted something that was more ‘bedtime story’ material)#but this feels exactly the same as the others#it’s just things are arranged a little differently across pages for easy following. the panels are bigger and the story is smaller#i think it’s sweet that the core feel and writing remained and it’s just more accessible to younger kids now#anyway that’s my ramble lol#also I liked the robin that got given one (1) breadcrumb and pledged allegiance to hilda instantly#best character
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I think it's craaaazy the lengths people will go to to call Zelda a horrible bully when Link himself clearly forgave her pretty quickly 🤨
#fires posts#ramblings#you don't need to get upset on behalf of Link I promise. He's his own guy#and ofc he would forgive Zelda. Because he knows the two of them are struggling with something that feels larger than life#which is apparently a part of their arc y'all love to ignore
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Another wip i may never finish
#tbh im struggling to maintain passion for this story#i think it might be the characters weighing it down because they have so much baggage from their previous story#which suuccckkkss cause i really like this new iteration of their designs but#i need to be insane for something again like i was with shattered pieces#and i think that means creating some new characters#pan and clue were made in my highschool years and i adore them but#my tastes have changed! and its time to make some ocs that reflect that#and hopefully that’ll help salvage some of my interest in this story#because its already got a lot of my current interests baked into it#my art#art#artists on tumblr#gillymoon oc#oc: clue#oc: pan
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i finished my lovely, woolly baa-ble hat! i knit it in about two days, gave it a wash yesterday, and made the little pom pom today. i’ve wanted to knit this since i first got into knitting last fall, and i finally made it. i think it’s my favorite thing i’ve made so far, just because it felt so good to finally knit it :-)
i knit it in lettlopi, which turned out so warm and soft especially after washing it. i can’t wait for winter so i can wear this.
#knitting#saturn’s knitting#my proudest knit!!! it wasn’t even particularly difficult i’m just so happy to have made it#it fits perfectly which proves that i am indeed a tight knitter#as many struggle with this pattern being too big#AHHHH happy!!!!!#this is such a hairy fluffy warm yarn… i need to knit something else with it
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★ 159 // “Mental Inventory Check”
#jjba#jojo's bizarre adventure#steel ball run#sbr#johnny joestar#offerings#tools used:#ibispaintx#// Yesterday had to be one of the most emotionally whiplashed days I've had#Started out SUPER rotten but thankfully improved once I got to Reno and saw my friends#The background is actually an edited photo of the Arizona desert I took on the plane.#Anyways. I haven't been taking my meds because I kinda just... lost em. Whoops!!#I'm only really diagonosed with clinical depression and anxiety in terms of mental illness#PMDD and autism if you count those?#But one of the meds I'm on is apparently an antipsychotic. And after stopping I feel... psychotic lol.#So it got me wondering if maybe there's more wrong with me than I already understand.#Which like. Is a daunting realization in of itself.#It could just be a withdrawl symptom or perhaps it points to something else. Only a doc can say.#I think Johnny clearly has his own mental health issues too. What exactly? Up to opinion.#Mental health probably wasn't a topic like it is now in the 1890's so but.#I do find a great comfort in a character who clearly has similar struggles but still goes on.#I think that's a massive reason I came to like Johnny. I saw a reflection of my own depression in his story.
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pictured: dogs sorted in order of most to least amount of pigment
#also age#melis is kinda sorta maybe starting to grasp the stay for camera thing#in that she usually comes over when im talking to the shelps and like them she does stay#just usually out of frame#looks at them. looks at me.#and when the release cue comes she dives in for a treat which#she gets#because being Not In The Way is also a practiced skill i value greatly#when in front of the camera she struggles with the same as a lot of dogs ive had there -#she understands the stay but not the hold. so when i lift the camera and disengage with her she thinks shes released#its easier with this than the mirrorless bc of the live view - understandably many dogs found it super confusing that i would be#covering my face but still expcting them to engage#but its still something shes not taught and hasnt trained for. so i dont really care what she does#i love for her to participate but its not required of her
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