#whatever I'll just do it myself

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Get to know us!!

We filled in an entire ask-game template (by @/the-staticc) in case anyone is interested. I'm a real yapper so I figured why not.

-Romi

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

We have DID most likely, although that's not our diagnosis. More on that in the next question.

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��� - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

We aren't sure exactly what we're diagnosed with, but our psychologist knows about us and we have diagnosed dissociation, which technically makes it UDD. We were diagnosed with it when we were 13 or 14.

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💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

We're at about 30 I believe. Some of us are really insecure about having this amount of alters, but we're polyfrag.

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💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

Pretty low. We won't split at everything, what usually happens is we get a fragment who will either disappear eventually or will become an alter when we stress out even more.

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💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

We switch pretty frequently, from what I'm aware of. Amnesia makes it a real chore to remember anything, especially about switching. But I do notice it happen, sometimes.

But yeah, looking at our amnesia, we switch pretty often.

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💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

We do! We're autistic, and so hyperfixations quickly turn into new splits or fragments forming to be the person.

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🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

Yup. Kirill and both like to organize everything, so we divide ourselves into groups to keep everything comprehensible, especially because we're with so many.

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

Kirill, Kate, Ziggy and Jayden are the most frequent.

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📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

Vodka is angelkin, so that counts as nonhuman. But for the rest, not really.

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🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

Both, but more medical. We only use community coined roles if they really, really fit someone, but we try to stick to the medical terms.

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📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

Some of us are really distinct while others aren't, but for the most part we're distinct. But if anyone other than the host (Kirill) is fronting, you won't easily notice because we're covert.

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📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

Not really, no. We're not that nice to each other. But we get along fine.

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🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

Yeah, we all have pretty different music tastes. Meenah and Lynne like hyperpop, while Ziggy leans into his ethnicity a bit more and listens to a lot of calm Dutch pop/rap music. Kirill likes 2020 alt tiktok music (we never had tiktok lol) and Scott likes punk and metal. We're all pretty different in that regard.

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📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

Dennis and James are sourcemates (although one is an OC), and they're happily married at the old (but not old looking) age of 107.

Jayden and Ziggy see each other as siblings or something, but they're not actually family. They just have a sibling dynamic going on.

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

No idea. We have amnesia about having amnesia, there's no way to tell. But it's quite a lot if I really try to focus on remembering.

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🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

Yeah, both black out and grey out.

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⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

We get really foggy and loopy and disoriented, but for the rest we don't notice anything. It's usually a very smooth transition. The way our friends described it is we look like we're daydreaming, and our face muscles tense a little, and then it's over.

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☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

We can switch really quick most of the time, but if we're blurry it takes way longer because everything will feel like a fog.

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🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

Not that much anymore, thank the gods. We used to get frontstuck sometimes, but it really hasn't happened in a while.

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☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

All. The. Time.

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💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

We can't switch 'on command', but if the communication is good that day we can always ask each other. If both alters are willing, it goes pretty smoothly. Otherwise it's just not happening. We can also trigger some of us to the front with music.

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

I think we have it, but I'm not sure. I know there's something and I know it's big, but I can't remember it very well while I'm in the front. But I know we all have houses and there's a town square and such.

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🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

It's pretty difficult when we're in front to see it, but once we're not in front we easily go there. Remembering it is the real challenge.

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☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

Nope, we don't have such a place.

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🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

Yeah, as I said we all have houses (which we built ourselves).

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

Big, but I don't think very complex. There are a lot of areas from what I can remember, but no layers or anything except for the underground.

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🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

No, we can all access it.

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🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

We had to build it for the most part, but parts just appeared as well. It used to be just a black void, and now it's a whole damn fantasy world. I think our maladaptive daydreaming played a big part in it's development.

V: general

🍭 - how did you pick your system name?

Our name is TaskForce 420, and we got it because we had a Call of Duty obsession and Ziggy and Jayden wanted the number to be 420 because they were high when we were discussing this. And the rest just went along with it.

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🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

Not really. Most people just call us Kirill, if we're out as trans to them but not as a system. More often we're just called by the body's deadname, though. We don't like it.

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🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

Ziggy was complaining in the discord server that we don't have any weed, and Kirill replied with a picture of gorrillas that said "Silence, pothead. An alcoholic is talking."

To which Ziggy replied with a picture saying "Your sad alcoholic name: Your first name + your last name"

(We cope with humor, can you tell?)

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🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

We just get angry and ignore each other usually, we're not very functional. There's always someone who tries to get everyone to talk again and we'll come to some sort of agreement.

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🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

We have a hard time getting along with Maia, but that's just how she is. She doesn't like us, either. Never has. We still kinda care about her, though.

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🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

To our online friends and our partner, and to our ex but he wasn't supposed to know because that didn't go well for us.

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🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

Horrible horrible horrible. We can't communicate for shit. That's why we have a system discord server, so we can at least talk a little. There are some days where we can hear each other, though. It's nice, but overwhelming.

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🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

We have: Punks, goths, metalheads, pagans, satanists, uhh and some more but I can't really remember.

Thanks for reading this whole list lmao I hope you had a fun time getting to know us a bit better.

-Romi

[unproduciblesmackdown]

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— tim (@FlamingButtWind) July 14, 2024

[stefisdoingthings]

people are designing modern manga characters thinking they should be animator friendly/not too complex/coherent,,,,,,,

meanwhile Nightow in the 1990s:

[xxplastic-cubexx]

the way u tuck charles hair behind his ear like a dainty elf princess whenever u draw him sends me every time, i know erik would agree 🙏🏻

i fear im adopting 'dainty elf princess' into my vocabulary here on out thank you for this wonderful gift anon

might you accept my small gift in turn ... i was inspired ...

[folklorespring]

not to be a debbie downer but it's kind of fucked up that Ukrainians go to sleep knowing that they might not wake up because of the russian missile and the world just doesn't care :)

[sergle]

I think I'm going to make a temperature blanket this year

[can-of-woerms]

did you know that you can send asks on tumblr to anyone who has them enabled. you can.send asks and message people on tumblr. you can send asks. you can send asks to me if you want.please

[grimmweepers]

˚˖𓍢ִ໋🦢˚ 𝓻𝔂𝓾𝓱𝓪𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓶

there was an ache in my heart when i awoke in a strange, beautiful world that wasn’t my own. even as months turned to years, i still missed the familiar skies, the voice of loved ones and the home i had left behind. i wrote letters that went nowhere and whispered silent prayers that reached no one. it was like i was plucked from my own reality and placed in a world where i didn’t quite belong.

yet, as much as i longed for home, i was determined to learn in this new life. sumeru became my sanctuary and the akademiya, my solace. i learned their languages, customs, and secrets while sharing stories of the stars, landmarks, and beauty of my own world. the scholars listened, fascinated by the similarities and differences, but none more than al-haitham—a student assigned to guide me through this foreign land. he was a quiet presence. thoughtful and curious. he did not pity me.

and over time, he went from guide to peer to something more. over time, i wasn’t just seeking knowledge but also him. but what was the point? what was the point of falling for him if one day, i could just disappear—vanish back to my world, leaving him and teyvat behind? this could slip away at any moment. this might be as fleeting as a dream.

despite all reason, i still found myself loving him deeply. in a world that wasn’t my own, he had become my home.

𝐭𝐫𝐨𝐩𝐞𝐬: very slow burn, mutual pining, friends to lovers

𝐀𝐁𝐎𝐔𝐓 𝐔𝐒: 22.10.22 | playlist | genshinverse ryu

𝐂𝐎𝐌𝐌𝐒: modern au | season of love

[fisheito]

collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

[ananke-xiii]

[chalkrub]

got the itch to doodle beas again, apparently I haven't drawn him in two years which physically pains me

[iknowwhereyousnoozeatnight]

couple of mello + near doodles

[sayakxmi]

Saiouma Puella Magi AU, but Kokichi takes Madoka's role and Shuichi takes Homura's.

For one, Kokichi's too naturally distrustful to just hear "I can grant you any wish :)" and not think ok where's the hook. So he just does what no one ever has & essentially interrogates Kyubey, so he knows it all even before he gets to make a contract. So, some of his classmstes are MGs & he won't become one himself BUT he still ends up tagging along to just protect them in his Kokichi ways. (Though I'm entertaining Kokichi lying about being a magical girl, because, well, it's Kokichi).

(I also got a small idea of Gonta being a magical girls and Kokichi originally tagging along him into labyrinths, Gonta also makes him a magic gun from the toy one he had, and at some point witches out & Kokichi manages to kill him with that gun. So he always has that spare Grief Seed on himself, bc it's still his best friend & he can't handle the idea of just giving it away or using it himself (he does anyway in the end).)

Shuichi prolly ends up being a new kid & it isn't like MadoHomu, the ppl who reach him first are Kaede & Kaito, classic. Kokichi's there, too, but he's his usual sus self. He's actually discouraging ppl from making a contract when they find out magic and miracles are real, which absolutely includes Shuichi. He's very vocal abt it, but he won't explain stutf, bc 1) he's a liar, so who'd believe him? and 2) he doesn't want them to witch out upon finding out the truth or, idk, murder everybody Mami-style.

Anyway, fast forward, bad things happen bingo & by the end of the run most charas are dead, there's Walpurgis nachting, and he makes his wish to bring back the ppl who died notably not as magical girls. Contract signed, he fights & fails, rip. I also thought it was similar to how he thought he could end the killing game by himself - he though he could finish Walpurgisnacht by himself, too. And he failed in both times. Whatevs.

Shuichi doesn't actually make his time travel wish for Ouma specifically, he wants to save all his friends. Timelines are messy esp at first bc he either tells then or it backfires or just makes himself look very sus bc he's trying not to tell them. He also realizes why Kokichi hadn't told anybody aby witches at some point, bc, yeah, it messes them a lot, assuming they believe it.

Still, Kokichi ends up one of the few people who are nearly always giving him a chance, not necessarily out of belief, but out of pragmatism - bro can stop time & knows the truth, that's just too useful. So they often work together & Shuichi grows closer to him but still we ain't there yet. But the thing is, Shuichi's time travel still makes Kokichi more & more powerful with each timeline, bc Shuichi usually goes back after Kokichi dies, so the universe figured out this guy's life's important. Anyway, another notable thing is the iconic Homura kills Madoka scene, but it's Saiouma with guest stars of Kaito & Maki. It's Walpy, it's not defeated yet, but the training trio are spent & just kinda accept their fate of turning into witches together. And then, boom, Kokichi appears & steals their Soul Gems for a sec & he's like did u know you can cleanse your Soul Gem with a darkened one? But it's a lie & he quickly tells them so, he just had a spare Grief Seed after cleansing his Soul Gem & he needs them to do some stuff. Shuichi can travel back in time & fix things, and Maki & Kaito are needed to fight Walpy here. He actually questions what happens to the timelines Shuichi leaves behin, and ofc he doesn't know. There's a chance they remain, so Kokichi needs Maki & Kaito to fight Walpy here.

Kaimaki leave, and Shuichi finally looks at Kokichi & realizes sth is Wrong. Kokichi struggles to hide how he's trembling & grimacing, and it's Kokichi, so obviously it must be extremely bad. Shuichi dreadfully realizes something worse, and he weakly asks Kokichi why aren't his wounds healing. And Kokichi just falls, laughing weakly, and Shuichi catches him & searches for his Soul Gem and, God, he knew it. It's nearly completely black. Kokichi laughs & admits he lied abt having two Grief Seeds, he only had one he never wanted to use. But they'll have the second one soon, so no need to worry. He asks Shuichi to maybe destroy his witch form as it's hatching, so he'll have the Grief Seed without any fighting… and he admits that he hates fighting, he hates this magical world and all its violence. He says that Kaito was right in calling him a coward, even here he just can't handle the idea of fighting any longer, he's so sorry. And Shuichi tells him he ISN'T a coward. He was scared, but he always followed everybody, trying to help, and when push came to shove he would always make a contract for the benefit of others rather than himself. He's a lot of things, but a coward isn't one. Kokichi actually tears up hearing that, and Shuichi promises he won't let him fight ever again, and especially he won't let him turn into a witch and hurt anybody, because he knows it's the last thing he's ever wanted. Even now he only accepts turning into a witch to help them fight to keep others safe. So Shuichi won't let him. Kokichi probably apologizes and thanks him and then he dies.

Keeping Kokichi from fighting starts off as a side quest that gains importance with time, bc it's something Shuichi won't compromise on (ah, trauma), which leads him to occassionally neglect others a bit, which makes them more likely to get hurt & ironically Kokichi more likely to make a contract, especially since he gets more powerful & Kyubey is more interested in him with each timeline. And that also makes him witch out super quick. Shuichi's paying more attention to him & over time grows resentful of others for how they're treating him. To Shuichi it's no question that Kokichi cares & is just doing his best to help, but nobody realizes that.

But the biggest obstacle in keeping Kokichi from fighting is actually Kokichi himself, bc he's too smart and nosy, lmao. Even if he knows nothing, he will find out quickly. Doesn't help that Kyubey wants him to make a contract.

Also, obviously Kaito is Sayaka-coded and Maki could be Kyouko-coded, so that's a thing, BUT it's usually Maki that witches out. Kaito is usually pretty close, but Kokichi intervenes & he survives, but Maki later cracks on her own (and since in the new timeline Kokichi isn't there, Kaito's the one to die, so he's still the secretary). So it's Kaito who gets the dramatic sacrifice. I imagine he genuinely hoped you could bring somebody back if you tried Very Hard & Kokichi called him a moron bc obviously it's not possible. If it was there'd be far less witches that there are. But it's Kaito, he doesn't listen to reason. So, Kokichi follows him to the labyrinth. At first Kaito's mad cuz what if Kokichi being there ruins the plan? Maki hates his guts! But eventually he gets hit pretty hard, and Kokichi is near immediately by his side, trying to help him get up, which kinda makes Kaito short circuit a little bc wait Kokichi's trying to help? But witch!Maki attacks them & Kokichi pushes Kaito away & gets caught himself (and choked until unconsciousness, naturally). Anyway, Kaito gets him away, Shuichi catches Kokichi & Kaito makes up his mind about going down with Maki & asks Shuichi to tell Kokichi that he's sorry. He doesn't get him, but he got hurt trying to protect him, so he'll believe in that if nothing else. F.

As for The WishTM, in the last timeline Shuichi lashes out at Kokichi for his willingness to just become part of the system. In no timeline has his wish actually helped, it did NOTHINHG, which OUCH but it also makes Kokichi think out of the box more & he becomes the Law of Cycles. And Shuichi realizes what is happening & freaks out bc Kokichi's doing it bc of what he told him & like Homura they end up having a momentTM in space & Shuichi remembers. He feels a lot of guilt even tho he also questions whether anything was real, but if it was, he pushed somebody he far too realized he loved into erasing himself from existence.

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[hood-ex]

Looking at this comic appearance list for Jason and getting a headache thinking about how much Jason info I'm about to inject in my brain.

[jnpje]

me when my child's friend is suddenly very into undertale