#whatever I'll just do it myself

[multiplesillylittleguys]

Get to know us!!

We filled in an entire ask-game template (by @/the-staticc) in case anyone is interested. I'm a real yapper so I figured why not.

-Romi

I: basics

❤️ - what type of CDD do you have?

We have DID most likely, although that's not our diagnosis. More on that in the next question.

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🧡 - are you medically recognised/diagnosed? if not, do you plan to? (no judgement either way!)

We aren't sure exactly what we're diagnosed with, but our psychologist knows about us and we have diagnosed dissociation, which technically makes it UDD. We were diagnosed with it when we were 13 or 14.

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💛 - if you are comfortable sharing, what is your headcount? do you keep track of it?

We're at about 30 I believe. Some of us are really insecure about having this amount of alters, but we're polyfrag.

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💚 - do you have a high or low split tolerance?

Pretty low. We won't split at everything, what usually happens is we get a fragment who will either disappear eventually or will become an alter when we stress out even more.

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💙 - do you switch frequently or do you go longer periods between switching?

We switch pretty frequently, from what I'm aware of. Amnesia makes it a real chore to remember anything, especially about switching. But I do notice it happen, sometimes.

But yeah, looking at our amnesia, we switch pretty often.

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💜 - does your system have introjects of any kind?

We do! We're autistic, and so hyperfixations quickly turn into new splits or fragments forming to be the person.

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🩷 - do you have any subsystems?

Yup. Kirill and both like to organize everything, so we divide ourselves into groups to keep everything comprehensible, especially because we're with so many.

II: alters

🎥 - who are your frequent fronters?

Kirill, Kate, Ziggy and Jayden are the most frequent.

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📼 - do you have any non-human alters? if yes, which species are the majority of them?

Vodka is angelkin, so that counts as nonhuman. But for the rest, not really.

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🎞️ - do the alters in your system use more medical coined roles or more community coined roles? or both/neither? do you find them useful?

Both, but more medical. We only use community coined roles if they really, really fit someone, but we try to stick to the medical terms.

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📽️ - are the alters in your system more distinct or less distinct from each other?

Some of us are really distinct while others aren't, but for the most part we're distinct. But if anyone other than the host (Kirill) is fronting, you won't easily notice because we're covert.

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📺 - do you make/buy gifts to other alters in the systems?

Not really, no. We're not that nice to each other. But we get along fine.

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🎙️ - does the taste in music vary a lot between different alters?

Yeah, we all have pretty different music tastes. Meenah and Lynne like hyperpop, while Ziggy leans into his ethnicity a bit more and listens to a lot of calm Dutch pop/rap music. Kirill likes 2020 alt tiktok music (we never had tiktok lol) and Scott likes punk and metal. We're all pretty different in that regard.

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📻 - does your system have any type of in system relationships? (familial, romantic, platonic etc.)

Dennis and James are sourcemates (although one is an OC), and they're happily married at the old (but not old looking) age of 107.

Jayden and Ziggy see each other as siblings or something, but they're not actually family. They just have a sibling dynamic going on.

III: switching

☀️ - how much amnesia do you experience?

No idea. We have amnesia about having amnesia, there's no way to tell. But it's quite a lot if I really try to focus on remembering.

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🌙 - do you experience black out amnesia?

Yeah, both black out and grey out.

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⚡️ - what does switching feel like for you? does it vary between alters?

We get really foggy and loopy and disoriented, but for the rest we don't notice anything. It's usually a very smooth transition. The way our friends described it is we look like we're daydreaming, and our face muscles tense a little, and then it's over.

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☄️ - do you experience quick switches or does it take longer to switch usually?

We can switch really quick most of the time, but if we're blurry it takes way longer because everything will feel like a fog.

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🌈 - do you get frontstuck often? what do you do to try to get ‘un-stuck’?

Not that much anymore, thank the gods. We used to get frontstuck sometimes, but it really hasn't happened in a while.

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☁️ - do you ever not notice you’ve switched, and suddenly realise that ‘you haven’t been you’ for a while?

All. The. Time.

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💦 - can you switch ‘on command’ or is that something that is hard for your system? does it depend on the alter?

We can't switch 'on command', but if the communication is good that day we can always ask each other. If both alters are willing, it goes pretty smoothly. Otherwise it's just not happening. We can also trigger some of us to the front with music.

IV: headspace

🌱 - do you have a headspace? if yes, describe it! if no, do you want one?

I think we have it, but I'm not sure. I know there's something and I know it's big, but I can't remember it very well while I'm in the front. But I know we all have houses and there's a town square and such.

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🌿 - how easily accessed is your headspace?

It's pretty difficult when we're in front to see it, but once we're not in front we easily go there. Remembering it is the real challenge.

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☘️ - is there a place in your headspace where dormant alters go?

Nope, we don't have such a place.

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🌳 - do alters have their own rooms/areas in your headspace?

Yeah, as I said we all have houses (which we built ourselves).

🌵 - is your headspace big, or smaller? is it complex/less complex?

Big, but I don't think very complex. There are a lot of areas from what I can remember, but no layers or anything except for the underground.

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🍃 - do you have specific alters that cannot access headspace at all?

No, we can all access it.

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🪴 - did you have to build your headspace over time, or was it just there?

We had to build it for the most part, but parts just appeared as well. It used to be just a black void, and now it's a whole damn fantasy world. I think our maladaptive daydreaming played a big part in it's development.

V: general

��� - how did you pick your system name?

Our name is TaskForce 420, and we got it because we had a Call of Duty obsession and Ziggy and Jayden wanted the number to be 420 because they were high when we were discussing this. And the rest just went along with it.

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🍪 - do you have a collective name/identity/orientation? if yes, how did your system make those decisions?

Not really. Most people just call us Kirill, if we're out as trans to them but not as a system. More often we're just called by the body's deadname, though. We don't like it.

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🍬 - what’s the funniest thing another alter has said to you? (internally or externally communicated)

Ziggy was complaining in the discord server that we don't have any weed, and Kirill replied with a picture of gorrillas that said "Silence, pothead. An alcoholic is talking."

To which Ziggy replied with a picture saying "Your sad alcoholic name: Your first name + your last name"

(We cope with humor, can you tell?)

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🍫 - how does your system handle in system disagreements in general?

We just get angry and ignore each other usually, we're not very functional. There's always someone who tries to get everyone to talk again and we'll come to some sort of agreement.

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🧁 - is there anyone specific in your system you don’t get along with?

We have a hard time getting along with Maia, but that's just how she is. She doesn't like us, either. Never has. We still kinda care about her, though.

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🍰 - are you ‘out’ as a system to anyone? (online friends/partners etc. count!)

To our online friends and our partner, and to our ex but he wasn't supposed to know because that didn't go well for us.

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🍦 - how good is your communication with the rest of the system? does it vary much between different alters?

Horrible horrible horrible. We can't communicate for shit. That's why we have a system discord server, so we can at least talk a little. There are some days where we can hear each other, though. It's nice, but overwhelming.

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🍡 - are different alters part of different subcultures? which ones? (we are!)

We have: Punks, goths, metalheads, pagans, satanists, uhh and some more but I can't really remember.

Thanks for reading this whole list lmao I hope you had a fun time getting to know us a bit better.

-Romi

[unproduciblesmackdown]

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the way u tuck charles hair behind his ear like a dainty elf princess whenever u draw him sends me every time, i know erik would agree 🙏🏻

i fear im adopting 'dainty elf princess' into my vocabulary here on out thank you for this wonderful gift anon

might you accept my small gift in turn ... i was inspired ...

[stefisdoingthings]

people are designing modern manga characters thinking they should be animator friendly/not too complex/coherent,,,,,,,

meanwhile Nightow in the 1990s:

[umblrspectrum]

updated some ref sheets and also actually made jcj one

[folklorespring]

not to be a debbie downer but it's kind of fucked up that Ukrainians go to sleep knowing that they might not wake up because of the russian missile and the world just doesn't care :)

[sergle]

I think I'm going to make a temperature blanket this year

[mariesbee]

why can't i enjoy things like a normal person? casually, just a few episodes/chapters here and there, then move on with my life. but no, whatever it is, it worms its way into my brain, consumes my thoughts and it slowly drives me insane. i am unable to think about anything else but the Thing of the week, or month, sometimes year(s) if it gets that bad.

[barghest-land]

hate it when i wanna draw something really cool but then forget that for that i'll need to like. Actually sit down and do it myself

[grimmweepers]

˚˖𓍢ִ໋🦢˚ 𝓻𝔂𝓾𝓱𝓪𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓪𝓶

there was an ache in my heart when i awoke in a strange, beautiful world that wasn’t my own. even as months turned to years, i still missed the familiar skies, the voice of loved ones and the home i had left behind. i wrote letters that went nowhere and whispered silent prayers that reached no one. it was like i was plucked from my own reality and placed in a world where i didn’t quite belong.

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despite all reason, i still found myself loving him deeply. in a world that wasn’t my own, he had become my home.

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[fisheito]

collab #2 with @xenole i was given a chibi yakumo and i.. i...... turned it into thiS

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shipping yhk not in a romantic or platonic way but a secret third way (⬛️⬛️)

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[0xeyedaisy]

Aw man...

[rupeenotruby]

EVERYDAY I wake up and think what is the dumbest, most obscure thing I make a joke out of. This might be my worst one yet!

[knifearo]

starting by saying that i think loveless aros are the coolest people ever. i think a lot about lovelessness and how it might apply to me and,,, well. to start. a few years ago it was not a word that fit because i felt at the time that i felt love in nonromantic ways. right now, though, my feelings are tied up a lot in semantics, and no matter how large my feelings might be and how similar they might be to what other people would categorize as love, i don't feel that i have access to the concept of love as society presents it. to me, love is a word/concept that is currently inextricable from the romantic aspect of things: not that all love is romantic, but that love is always expected to include romance as one of its forms. there are obviously many many ways to love someone but my aromanticism makes me feel as if my feelings for people aren't love as conceived of by society at large. so. in that way. i Don't feel love. which i think is what the technical definition of lovelessness is. the longer answer is to say that i don't believe in the societal construct of love but that gets me looks that are just as weird haha. anyway. no matter what lovelessness is awesome and i will always treasure loveless aros. keeping that word alongside me like a little companion for company and assistance in my times of need