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Something something the way Jod is the Mentor who’s to teach them about the wider galaxy, and in the classic coming of age tale you take children from a sheltered home and teach them that the wider world is a dangerous scary place. Jod DOES fill that role to a t. He tells them forget about home cause you can’t get back. Trust your gut. This is how you survive because the world is a cutthroat place and you have to be quick or you will always be hungry. People are just waiting around to stab you in the back.
And Jod is a LIAR.
#that’s not all the galaxy is!! that’s a way to survive but it’s not The way to survive!!!#he’s a half truth made a whole truth!#he’s a lie he believes!!#what’s the truth? they demand#and he says the truth is I’m just like you. lost. alone. this is what I know#and they get to say based on everything they learned#from Hana to the Cthulhu octopus to the lady in the pirate hang out to Khym#that no. that’s a LIE. that’s not actually how the galaxy is.#it is scary it is dangerous but even in the worst places there were good people who helped us#that lie is one both Jod AND their parents believed tbh!#that’s the heroes journey elixir they bring back#what Jod says is a lie. someone will help us. if we just ask#we can’t hide behind a barrier! we have to be brave enough to get to see the good out there too#not just fear the bad#and isn’t that KB’s whole arc too? she can’t show herself or things will be Bad people will abandon her#and instead everyone helps her! if she’s only brave enough to ask#writing on this show. Off the charts#skeleton crew#skeleton crew spoilers
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LEON
LEON YOUR EYEBALLS
#art#ride kamens#ride kamens spoilers#ride kamens episode 14 spoilers#can't believe i made a joke about it being his eye color AND THEN#i did see his updated sprite before i got to 13 but i didn't even notice it at first...#at least he also got a funky little face marking to go with it#shine on you super shitsuji!!!!#anyway I AM FINALLY CAUGHT UP#on main story anyway i haven't played the tower emblem event yet :')#but man i am loving this game#i was not expecting it to be a full-on mystery! with intrigue!#who is lying! who is telling the truth! who THINKS they're telling the truth but isn't!#punctuated by the most delightful nonsense like the unbreakable magic superhero covenants#where you gotta touch rings in the magical wedding chapel dimension that we teleport to sometimes to talk to our dead dad#(OR IS HE???????)#NO IT'S GREAT (and it does make sense in context i just love it)#still 50/50 on yellow beyblade man secretly being our dad but i can't get into theories now i don't have enough tags#man this really has the essence of what i love about rider ❤️#so far i do think agata is my favorite#but then there's leon...#let me put it this way: i would tell agata a hard truth about himself if i thought he needed to hear it#but there is no amount of money in the world you could pay me to say anything even slightly mean to our sweet leon#LET 👏 HIM 👏 HENSHIN 👏#WAIT SHOOT is it too late to redo my survey answers i need to demand that i be able to put hats on leon
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what the fuck. why is it everyone's reaction to scream at girls baking cute pies for getting Trump into office. this seems so ironically counterproductive and blatantly misogynistic
honestly I feel like it's because striking out at something you can see is easier than admitting that ideologies are slippery, often invisible things
everyone would love to have a code for ferreting out trad types, a visual signifier you can spot beyond an actual, overt insignia or slogan (which most of them, especially women, don't wear). and a way to signal to others, without fail, that they are Not Like That. it's comforting to say "don't wear this or do this, and avoid anyone who does, and you will be Safe and signal to others their safety around you"
but the real world just. doesn't work like that. you cannot tell someone's politics from their aesthetic, with very few exceptions. and all that "avoid XYZ because that's trad!!!!" leads to is alienating people in your community who do the thing you've decided to demonize, and making yourself miserable if you want to do those things or wear those clothes
#ask#anon#I also think the 'YOU SHOULD HAVE BEEN NICER TO MEN!' thing has some serious issues and I've been seeing it a lot#is there truth to not blaming men unilaterally for the actions of some? yes. of course. but like...a lot of the women expressing#anger and fear right now#aren't doing that and historically haven't#so it comes off very dismissive and even victim-blaming#it's not our fault men have been drawn to the alt-right. I'm sorry. it's just not.#because what then would be the actions on our parts that caused it?#demanding our rights? insisting on control over our own bodies? not letting them get away with acting like the center of the universe?#would you ask us to walk that back to make someone else comfortable?
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Furthermore, I actually don't care if you approve or disapprove of the term "transandrophobia." If you aren't a trans man or a transmasc person, your opinion on the words we choose for the specific discrimination we face is not welcome in this conversation. And if you ARE a trans man or transmasc person, you are more than welcome to coin a term or use an existing one that you're more comfortable with. No one is stopping you. Either you care about our problems or you don't, and if a single word you don't agree with is your dealbreaker, then tbh fuck all the way off until you get serious about being a good ally.
#transandrophobia#to every trans guy who needs to hear it:#random tumblr users literally cannot police our language if we do not let them#hold strong#because we know that what we go through is real#and no amount of gaslighting is going to change the actual truth#our struggles are real#our genders are real#our needs are many#and we're harder to erase if we refuse to shut up when people demand that we do#guess these tumblr people are gonna have to find and kill me themselves if they want to enforce their willful ignorance
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i do not want to dig a hole but i am too much of a laura bailey pc enjoyer to not make this post so:
selfishness ≠ a lack of kindness
selfishness is a theme that has come up with all of laura's main campaign pcs. that doesn't mean that her characters are always making selfish choices or that they don't care about the rest of the people they're with or that they're not good. it's just that, for the most part, the first thing they're thinking of when they take action or make choices is themselves.
in jester and vex both it is more typical and obvious selfishness. vex's developed because she needed it to keep herself and vax alive and as safe as possible and it grew into a behaviour that she had to actively work to avoid. it's evident in her greed, her theft of the broom, her reaction to her own death which relied heavily on i'm okay/i survived to which keyleth reminded her that she wasn't the only one who had to witness and reckon with her death. in jester's case, she grew up in an environment that literally trained her to make every decision based on two things - her mother's opinion and her own. so, when she's out in the world without marion for the first time, her choices are those that will benefit her and her actions are those that consider her own thoughts and not really many others' (aside from the traveler's).
it isn't a criticism of either vex or jester to say that they are characters who act selfishly. in fact, i'd argue that to claim otherwise does a great disservice to exactly how immense both of their character arcs are. because the nuance of both jester and vex is that they are selfish, and they also hold extreme room for self-sacrifice and empathy. vex is much more brash than jester is, and jester is much more trusting than vex, but both of them are characters who begin with selfish impulses who grow with them. neither ever truly shed those impulses, but they use them in new ways, typically transforming them into impulses towards things that are in the best interest of the party.
you may have noticed the lack of imogen in this post about laura bailey pcs and that's because of two reasons. one, we are an unknown amount of time into her story, i can't analyse her development the same way i can vex and jester's. two, imogen's selfishness isn't the blatant quasi-self-aware selfishness that we see in things like jester complaining about her lack of money to caleb or vex stealing a broom. instead, imogen's is very internal, like a lot of laura's character work with imogen. it is a bit similar to jester’s in the sense that it comes from a lack of awareness moreso than vex’s practiced behaviour, but imogen’s is a lot more tied to inherent beliefs she has about the world and the people in it.
as a consequence of her powers, imogen sees people's thoughts as their entirety, she holds it above their actions to be the truth of who they are - to act against what they think or to say something that doesn’t cohere with what they’ve thought is akin to lying, so for her to act empathetically is to act in tandem with what someone else’s thoughts are, not how they act, which is typically not all that wanted. the same as vex’s greed and jester’s naivety, this is a trait that makes narrative sense and it’s one i find quite compelling, especially when read in the vein of someone struggling through trauma that has made them assume that the world is against them. imogen’s cynicism is coherent cynicism, i can’t say that in a similar situation i wouldn’t have the same predisposition towards the world.
the part that is particularly self-interested comes in if you look at how imogen has actually been treated in the campaign (quite well) in comparison to the cynicism that she’s developed from her past (something that speaks to a world out to get her). certainly, a bunch of shitty things have happened to imogen in the time we’ve known her, but the same can be said for everyone in bell’s hells and pretty much everyone in exandria at this point in time. but, in a fight to save the aforementioned world, imogen’s focus was getting her mother back on her side. which, while very consistent with her character and a choice that i enjoy, is a very selfish one. the fun thing (to me, obviously) about imogen is that she has, more than most, an insight into the opinions of others and she also tends to seek others’ opinions out and genuinely engages with them and supports their choices. but she still very much acts towards what she thinks is best. it’s one reason i enjoy looking at the dynamic between her and orym as one between foils, as orym tends to be stalwart in his beliefs and doesn’t care too much for other’s opinions if he’s already sure of his own, but his actions tend to favour collaboration and protecting others.
as i mentioned earlier, imogen is a harder case to look at because she is still in the process of her story. however, the circlet is clearly influencing how she interacts with the world and in the wake of the solstice, the hostile reaction towards ruidusborn people has started to become more and more apparent and i’m interested to see what route that ends up leading imogen down and how it will influence her relationship with the rest of bell’s hells. (for better, i think, based on recent conversations, but if it's for worse i will be just as seated and excited).
all of this is just to say, please stop assuming that claiming a character has a trait you think is a bad one is criticism or a hate post. in light of the fact that i know that people who don’t believe this will continue to not believe this, i’ll encourage anyone confused about the ability of a character to be good and kind and selfish all at once to look to what the text itself says, specifically scanlan’s words to pelor when asked what vex means to him:
“Her name is Vex, and she is greedy and mean sometimes, and she can steal a lot. She’s a little bit not the greatest person, but her flaws highlight everything that is right about her, which is she does all these things to protect her friends and her family. She would give her life for any of us and for anyone who was truly in need. And she’s not perfect but she’s the most perfect of all of us.”
would you look at that... an ability to be a multitude of things, some in conflict with one another. i know that's hard for fandoms to believe, especially about female characters with agency, but i promise its true!
#deeply unfair of laura to make three characters with some type of people skills and morality shaped by their loneliness#and what. i’m just supposed act like i’m normal about that?#this is me blog and i have slightly more time than usual to write nothing essays about fictional characters that haunt me#but dear god . lookin at cr characters and denying their flaws is like looking at a house and only seeing it’s doors .#if ppl demand perfection of fictional characters im genuinely curious in what media they’ve ever found that .#a single imogen post of mine broke containment and it skyrocketed my annoying phil student levels so. alas#but . if you agree that imogen had an incredibly isolating life . i will emphasize that isolation causes traits and behaviours#that aren’t just Quirky or fun or hot anger or whatever#imogen contains so much i love her so much i am bursting at the seams about it#but for some ppl. she is ur ‘girlfailure’ until someone suggests a way she might be girl failing by being selfinterested#what is the truth. do u want her to be an actual girlfailure it do u just want her to suit a . frankly tired. trope about lesbians#anyway . both text and tag rant over . goodnight#cr meta#imogen temult#vex’ahlia#vex’ahlia de rolo#jester lavorre#critical role#my posts
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winston (quant kid 2) (billions) declining a hookup (or work shit) later to instead give himself multiple orgasms (or go to math meetup)
#winston billions#corned beef#what's on the agenda? being able to ever if not always prefer sex solo vs dyadic+. [oneself > others] being the best lay you've ever had.#ditching work demands for anything else#even in [au with jobs fairly different in at least some ways] like well it's still Jobs & you're still Autistique#depending on the hooking up proposer maybe it's like hey; if i stay outta your way.... <_<#many possibilities. this can be about Whatever You Want but no reason to not put forth my heart's truth (winston x his prostate)#literally goes and fucks himself. hell yeah#he is using a little stylus for his calculator watch btw. maybe doing fun sequences. my heart's truth: feels like a fun stim too#adding the little flair details here was also a fun sequence of my heart's truth &c#would also be funny for him to be citing alternate items on his agenda that don't exist to get out of Anything proposed. &/or pushed#ooh i have plans then :/ when is it. & such
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I have noticed btw that more often than not these days when I meet new people and they ask what I do for work, I don't say "I'm a librarian" and instead say something like "I work in medical research and evidence" or "I'm in NHS evidence and knowledge services" or something like that... I guess I don't really imagine that those sentences really help people picture my job much either, since it's just not a role people are aware of, but I guess there are levels on which I have always preferred honest bafflement to being identified with a concept that people think they understand (in ways that lead them to make assumptions that don't feel right about me).
anyway librarians of tumblr feel free to tell me im letting down the sisterhood or whatever
#and like#it is a little bit an intellectual prestige thing#but i feel sorta justified in that most normies think a librarian is a library assistant#so this is just straightforwardly a better way of conveying the truth of the situation#(ie that i have a very intellectually demanding job requiring a postgrad degree and that im medicine -adjacent#)#which like i don't think people should talk down to folks whose jobs don't need a bunch of degrees either just#if ur tryna make inferences about what sorta person i am and how i spend my time#and tbh how stressful it is!#normies think being a Librarian is super chill which it isn't even outside my sector
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And everyone gasped
(no one was surprised, not even a little)
#would you be surprised if i told you this is actually the first time Ashton has been my Top Artist?#I've had Spotify for 6 years and 5sos has never not been No 1! it's the upset of the century !#(it's actually just that they simply didn't have a major release this year lol but still 😌)#also LastFM claims my No 5 song is actually Endless Wave so what is the truth#they also claim Sabrina and Fleetwood Mac should be flipped#so clearly the two services count plays different but still I like the ✨ drama ✨#i know Spotify has stated they alter the rankings for the Top 100 playlist but the Top 5 is supposed to be your actual stats 🤷🏻♀️#anyways#music is fun!#in the 'music evolution' section Spotify said said my February was witchy and Beatlesque#and I must demand to only ever be referred to by those two adjectives thanks#what other fun stats are there#I had just about 2k more minutes this year than last so yay for mental health improvement#(tho still not doing great apparently bc there was only a 4 min diff between this year and 2022 lmao)#believe it or not this is actually Taylor's best showing in my Wrapped (but then again she did release a 31 song album lmaoooo)#like I said Luke was No 7 according to LastFM with Garden Life his top ranked song#tied at No 13 with Wicked Habit by Ash and Midnight Cowboy by Jade#Spotify claims I was in the top 0.05% of Breakup listeners which is a real girl get a grip moment for me ngl#my Top 5sos song was still Caramel lmao#i have been tagging this for like 20 mins i need to leave ok bye#spotify wrapped 2024#personal
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i don’t know what you guys are all complaining about i love that svu has vaporized olivia from woman on the verge to lady cragen
#she's behind the desk she's giving advice she's scolding the kids#she has a life we know nothing about but we know she's Seen It All and also is Lonely#i haven't been saying much about this season because here is the humiliating truth:#i am letting the cop show make me sad#(i should know better)#yes the lack of eo is a bummer but we've done it before we'll do it again#but having a season of genuinely interesting character work re olivia#to have the narrative directly engage with her as a soft furious grieving woman#to question her state of mind and what she does to herself in service of The Calling#only to not simply backtrack but neutralize her fully…#yeesh#is it a coincidence m has barely spoken a word about svu on any press appearances this season?#well no because what is there to say really#this is not a landmark season and there are zero plans to move olivia forward#she’s right where we left her tune into nbc thursdays at 8pm eastern#BUT what makes me most sad is that this shift was a demand from the viewers#(again! i should know better! and yet!)#i am just. a little heartbroken to have it confirmed that much of the audience loves olivia on the condition that she is Good#not only because she very much isn't#but also because that is boring and dangerous and speaks to our deeply warped perception of what it means to be a complete person#more specifically a complete woman#yet the audience lets out a sigh of relief! saint olivia is back! she is a Strong Woman giving Lawfully Good advice! phew!#remember when she was a little broken and volatile and seeing ghosts don’t worry she’s fixed now :)#please note my reaction is certainly tied to other real life happenings including 11/5 looming#alas it’s where i am#anyways dw you’re a loser
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very happy Matt decided to clarify his stance on the genocide of the Palestinian people rn. Pretty unhappy with the way he worded it, who he centered in his video, and disappointed to see the responses to it on Twitter.
kinda scared to even post about it bc CR fans can get so defensive about their favorite white people that they can often leave little room for criticism or nuance. but man I have thoughts.
#lemme just say. if you have a public platform that has set a precedent for philanthropic work. messages of positivity and love.#and have called attention to various political and social conflicts *in stream*. & whose employees and cast members are vocal#on socials about political topics#then it is NOT unreasonable for fans to expect them to address one of the deadliest orchestrated conflicts in recent history#a literal genocide is happening. thanks in part to the US.#it is good that they donated as a company and as individuals. so good!#but to everyone saying that publicizing good deeds like donations is virtue signaling or demanding CR cast to show their support is#or that activism shouldnt be all about what you post bc then it becomes performative#are kinda missing the point. and theyre not listening to palestinians at all#a huge issue with this conflict & the way its being received in the western world - ESPECIALLY the US bc of its partnership w israel -#is the sheer amount of disgusting minsinformation and propaganda convincing ppl this genocide is either not that bad or that its necessary#everyday citizens CANNOT change foreign policy. we cant do anything!#so what have Palestinians been asking us to do?? SPREAD AWARENESS ON SOCIAL MEDIA. MAKE PEOPLE AWARE. UPLIFT PALESTINIAN VOICES. SHARE LINKS#SHOW PPL THE TRUTH.#and yes its hard! its difficult to watch what theyre going thru. but we HAVE to.#i didnt rlly like matts statement. he said he didnt have the spoons to engage in the discourse. which i get. god i get it.#but ive also seen many many creators/influencers who are also disabled or whose families are directly involved gather their spoons to help#and no one was asking CR to harm themselves in the name of helping palestine. we only wanted them to spread awareness#bc the comments on their tweet about finally donating were full of mostly white centrist takes not able to see any benefit to donating or#addressing the issue at all. which is EXACTLY why CR should addresss it. bc they can reach so many who dont understand#but theyd been radio silent for almost 5 months. i didnt like that he didnt really apologize. i didnt like that he centered himself#i didnt like his lowkey flippant language either. saying all that.. ridiculousness in regards to a genocide not well worded.#but i dont feel right holding that against him. should he have thought it through better? sure but i get it#& unfortunately his parting message left a bad taste in my mouth - one of positivity & self care & hugging each other#nice important words but it didnt feel like he was talking about ppl who are affected by this conflict. but rather ppl who are watching#it just felt like a very white thing to say in response to this. we are not burdened and easily victimized bc of it#we are responsible. and so we must center palestinians.#if i were him i wldnt have gone in detail about how hard the palestinian genocide is for me to watch.#but thats just me#*CORRECTION: radio silent for almost 4 months
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Tag drop: Changli (Wuthering Waves)
#[ changli. ] everything in the universe follows its own rules. win with elegance. govern with care. both demand one's utmost grace and tact.#[ changli: ic. ] you're one to talk; my teacher. when have you ever backed down from risking your life for what you believe in?#[ changli: inquiries. ] master warned me to be wary of those who stay quiet in times of uncertainty. yet here i find solace in silence.#[ changli: countenance. ] shrouded in flames: she who is fated to burn brightly until her final embers.#[ changli: introspection. ] but that's how old tales go: slowly losing their truth as they're passed down.#[ changli: meta. ] a scheme be grander than naught. vanquish malevolence in its nascent disguise.#[ changli: etc. ] behold hongzhen next to a ring and hanging eaves. when eternal snow thaw into flowing streams: let us reconvene.#[ changli: weiqi. ] the dynamics of its game mirrors the complexities of our world; always in a state of constant flux and transformation.#[ changli: peace. ] when that day of peace finally arrives: please take a moment to leave a cup of tea for me at my resting place.#[ changli: jinhsi. ] i gave my word to be your pawn; i intend to keep it. as your teacher and courtier; it is only right for me to do so.#[ changli: rover. ] in stories told: a fire-born phoenix would bestow its most precious tail feather upon the person it held most dear.#[ changli: xuanmiao. ] with solemnity he told his devoted disciple: in this unfinished game… you shall find the ultimate truth.#[ changli: v. youth. ] my hometown buzzed as people left their mark in the fresh snow. hoping for dreams to come true when it melted.#[ changli: v. mingting. ] a transformation from a delicate girl to a young secretary general. and do as the sun rose and filled the room…#[ changli: v. jinzhou. ] though elusive: she is known to all in jinzhou. however there are varied and strange restless rumors about her.
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not dipping back there again after this, but my opinion on where the discourse re: us politics is heading is not getting any nicer.
#thoughts#personal#not a vagueblog about any blog in particular#because it's been a deluge on my dash for a good two to three weeks from every side and almost every US blog I follow#I don't even disagree with the endgoal (I mean I extremely do but I understand the stakes)#but I deeply *deeply* disagree with the way it's all being framed#though I'm not surprised. and I wasn't expecting better.#but yeah in a couple of years we might all need to unpack what that strategy looked like from the outside.#because wow#the weaponization of “white guilt” in particular to silence what is often (from what I see) PoCs trying to express their loss of faith#is. so very revealing to me.#the assumption of motive and identity here and how much more convenient it feels than the actual messy complicated truth#I think the usage of “white guilt” and “white saviorism” as a weapon thrown in between white people to control each other's behavior#especially in moments like these where PoCs are explicitely demanding our collective solidarity and voice#is actually a conversation we should all very seriously have at some point#anyway.#not mad at anyone for wanting to vote for biden#kinda mad at a good 75% of the posts prompting people to do so however.
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How many redheads does Peeta bang in “When the Stars Crumble”?
We really gonna do this again? Cut my boy some slack. He got thrown in prison alone, shipped off to a strange planet alone, found out his wife divorced him before he even left earth, and then spent several years dealing with *waves hands* all that.
#I’m not even updating this story right now lol#Katniss is gonna demand answers about what Seneca said tho#so you’ll hear the truth from Peeta’s mouth eventually#well aren’t you a spicy anon#anonymous#look at that ask
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reminder that Something Just Like This is still the Egg Casserole song ever
#captain underpants#captain underpants the first epic movie#captain underpants: the first epic movie#egg casserole#edith the lunch lady#edith#mr. krupp#benjamin krupp#benny krupp#principal krupp#the captain#cu#cu movie#me talking#i had work today and listened to 2017 radio hits to celebrate and. man.#im not a very shippy person. romance is usually Eh for me. and i wasnt exactly demanding any romance from this movie of all movies#so its nuts that krupp/edith/captain is what clicks for me. it got so little screentime but i wanna see all three of them happy together.#i want them to know The Truth and work it out and bring out the best of each other. i realize it may never happen even if there's sequels#but even just imagining it is wonderful. She Can Fix Him (krupp specifically. captain is flawless as we all know /j)#idk i wanted to type smthn loving before movieversarry ended. love yall so much
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I kinda want to ask you to write all touch prompts for akk and aye but because that is unreasonable and way too greedy, how about 26, 27 and maybe 33? thank you so so much! And congratulations on your followers!!!!
you know, i'd write them all too if i had the fuckin Time [sobs] thank you very much nonny
26 (kissing the top of their head) + 27 (pulling them closer) + 33 (tasting their smile) from this list for my lil event; right around 1k of height difference & nickname shenanigans and talking around another bigger issue!!!! set in the summer after ourskyy, rated t for 'tall'
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“Hand me that plate, Shortstop.”
Akk does, but not without making sure to splash Aye with the water running off of it. “We’ve been over this." They have, although it's been a while since Aye had first tried it in the tent. "That’s your name.”
With a little yelp, Aye snatches the plate from his hand and sets to drying it with slightly more force than strictly necessary. The water drops stand out against the gray material of his t-shirt. “Why can’t we switch?”
“Do you not have eyes?” Akk takes another bowl out of Aye’s mom’s sink and starts washing it with a little grin. “Grow a bit taller and we can talk.”
He expects Aye to fire back with a water attack of his own, or an insult, so when neither comes he turns to look at his boyfriend in faint surprise. Aye is giving the plate an undeservedly contemplative look, lips pursed. It’s very cute. Akk splashes him again.
“Akk,” snaps Aye, his nose going all scrunched the way it does when he’s actually annoyed.
“Aye,” Akk answers, grin reaching all the way up to his eyes.
Aye stares for a long second, then softens all at once, mouth curving up in turn. He still elbows Akk in retribution before picking up his next dish, though. “So if I was taller than you, we could switch? I could be your Bigfoot.”
“If you were taller than me, I would’ve come up with a different nickname in the first place.”
“But I wouldn’t have,” Aye says decisively. “You’d have been Shortstop to me.”
Akk shoots him a sidelong look, dubious. “It's annoying, so yes, probably. In a hypothetical parallel universe where you’re taller. Why are you suddenly so obsessed with this? Don’t you call me enough things already?”
“Do you not like it, darling?” asks Aye, all coy and playful, and it devolves from there. He doesn’t bring up the height thing again that day.
But apparently he didn’t actually forget, because in the time following that initial conversation Aye starts taking every possible opportunity to be taller than Akk.
It starts small, like Aye insisting Akk sit on the ground while he’s on the couch so he can reach his hair to dry it, calling him Shortstop in a tone of such overdone honeyed affection that all he can do is laugh. Or like Aye crawling into Akk’s lap so he has a height advantage when they kiss, and Akk making sure he doesn't get a chance to use any nickname at all.
Then it escalates, as things frequently do with them. Aye sits on top of the couch backrest at Akk’s house instead of on it, buys a pair of shoes with these ridiculous heel boosts, sits on Akk's desk while Akk writes his admission essays. At one point, very memorably, he gets on a table at a party they’d attended with Kan and refuses to come down until Akk has to drag him.
Akk doesn’t mind as much as he’s pretending he does, which is something he’s found works for them with these things. It makes Aye happy to see him annoyed, so if he gets what he wants and the behavior isn’t actually that annoying, it’s a win for both of them. And it is funny, honestly, and frequently ends with Aye hanging off of him somehow.
Still, though, after nearly two months of their summer together being intermittently marked by Aye’s new favorite running joke, something starts to nibble at the corner of Akk’s mind. It’s late summer now, and they’re running up closer to the thing they’ve barely managed to talk about: Aye’s impending departure, and his own entry into a northern university. And— well. He can’t manage that, but he might be able to manage this.
So the next time Aye makes a point of standing two stairs up in his own home to talk to Akk, he turns and looks up at him and asks, point-blank, “Does it bother you that I’m taller?”
Aye blinks once, twice, then laughs a little. After a second, he seems to realize that Akk is honestly asking and tilts his head with an expression of mild bemusement. “No, baby. I like it, you give great hugs and have great legs. Why?”
Akk makes a sputtering noise and tries not to get derailed thinking about Aye’s feelings about his legs, which he did already know about for— various reasons. Instead, he pointedly jerks his chin at Aye, noticeably needing to tilt his head up to do so.
“I'm just messing with you,” Aye says, reaching a hand out with a little smile. “I thought you knew.”
“I do,” says Akk, and lets Aye take his hand and pull him one step up the stairs. It doesn’t equalize their heights; Aye’s still just a little taller like this. “But... it’s been going on a long time.”
“Yeah, I guess it has,” says Aye a little thoughtfully. “I just like seeing—”
“—My angry face. I know.”
Aye outright giggles at that, gently intertwining his fingers with Akk’s. “If you know, then why are you worrying about it?”
Akk can feel his resolve failing already. He sighs.
“I guess,” says Aye thoughtfully after a moment, “I do also like it when we… switch.” He wiggles his eyebrows and continues talking over Akk’s incoherent noise in response. “So it’s fun for me, to try and turn the little nickname thing on its head. Not that you’re cooperating.”
“You wouldn’t like it if I cooperated,” Akk says, half-sure, and tries mostly unsuccessfully to glare up at Aye.
“Oh, but I do,” Aye says, tugging him even closer by their twined hands and putting his other one on the back of Akk’s neck, pushing his head down enough to press a kiss to the top of it. “Just not right away. I like getting you to admit things."
There's an odd-- hesitation there, a long moment of silence. Akk looks back up, their faces close enough to kiss properly now, and sees Aye looking away from him, eyes big and preoccupied.
“What?” Akk prompts, and when he doesn’t get an answer, adds, “Bigfoot?”
Aye’s gaze snaps back to him, suddenly focused and intent and sparkling, and he grins. “Yeah,” he says, slowly like he’s savoring the confirmation, “That’s nice.”
Akk leans up a little further and kisses that smile, gently and then less so when the fingers on the back of his neck tighten and pull him closer. He leans into it with a sigh and tries not to think about other things Aye might like him to admit, and instead thinks about how — it is nice, sometimes, to be the smaller one.
#the eclipse#akkayan#my fic tag#arbitrary milestone prompts#re: the Something Else looming over their heads in this one: i am setting up for another prompt. i'm not gonna leave that unaddressed#(not like os2 fuckin did >>)#i'm fond of this haha#i think this is my first real attempt to get comfy with akkaye's os2 dynamic in writing#i write them teasing in oowu don't get me wrong. but mine are definitely a bit softer than canon#so.... i tried it out here#what is it like in an established relationship with a person whose primary love language is annoying?#what happens when so much of your communication habits are built on one person Dragging the truth out of the other one?#by waiting or by demanding but Still.#in any case. aye insecurity anons ........ your time will come no worries#all this born from me getting 'kiss on top of the head' as a prompt and the only thing i immediately thought#was that it HAD to be aye kissing the top of akk's head lmao#also on that note. [holds out ficlet] my akkaye switch agenda! here it is! it's hardly an agenda since it's very firmly canon but you know
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literally such a tragedy what channel zero did to search and rescue woods youre telling me the author lost the publishing rights for THAT like im still so mad. we could have had a book. we could have had a book
#sorry i hate the third season of channel zero always have and im speaking my truth now HJKDLSJHFKD#okay like. channel zero in general. the first season is like#i wouldnt say its good. honestly it started okay and kinda intriguing#and then got kinda bad. and then at one point it flipped back around and became camp to me#so i kinda like the first season but through no credit of itself HJKHJKDS#and as an adaptation i thought it was like too confusing for people unfamiliar with the creepypasta but too uninterested in the details#of said creepypasta to appeal to fans of it. but it was a bit camp. a little bit#the second season was fine. it wasnt perfect but i thought it held up decently as a story and as an adaptation#i never got around to watching the fourth season. i hear it was fine#but that third season was WRETCHED i remember it being rated well as a story but it was so like. disrespectful as an adaptation#(also it was too focused on gore and blood for me at the time. like i dont mind gore but it felt so like. meaningless?)#(and i wasnt sure about its depiction of mental health at the time but maybe my opinion would change nowadays it has been a while)#like you got the rights to such a weird and surreal concept and ignored it entirely....what on earth#no baby crying loop in the middle of the wilderness alone....no stairs that cut off your arm cleaning in the woods...NOTHING#literally so tragic. @ nosleep authors and other online horror writers PLEASE watch out when giving out adaptation rights#if i remember correctly the poor search and rescue author got screwed over by syfy which is so sad 😔#also please publish some kind of paperback version of ur stories for lil ol me. pretty please#basic print on demand is fine id just love to have more creepypasta and nosleep stuff on my bookshelf LOL#also still sad theres no left right game book. blease it would be so good published BLEASE
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